#bc that'd ruin my grades

[moongirltoday-blog]

Power demonstration in school is something that’s just inappropriate.

Two weeks ago our teacher told us to do a quick analysis of a speech given by Joseph Goebbels in 1933 in Berlin (when they burned the books yanno). We were supposed to do it in a way that we could talk for ten minutes about this speech (similar to what we would have to do if we’d take this in an oral exam final -> three people in our class do that). At the beginning of the lesson of due date, he asked who hadn’t done it (properly). Six people, including me, showed up. I basically just mainly did it because I have severe social anxiety and I figured saying I hadn’t done it properly and getting written down would be better than taking the risk of maybe having to present my results. He then said that we six people had to write the full analysis on this speech, and then he asked one person (who doesn’t do the oral exam and just takes the class because he has to)(like me haha) to present. He talked for three minutes, didn’t even got a grade on it, and then we moved to the next topic. That alone annoyed the hell outta me. Of course I procrastinated, and then, I finally sat down and wrote down bullet points and stuff, but I couldn’t motivate myself to actually writing the analysis, so I thought: “Uh, maybe you just need to write off your anger, and then you can start.” It worked, this is the result of me being angry:

“OKAY Imma fucking write this now and just so you know my dear FRICKIN AWFUL german teacher, I hate this. Youre a fucking unfair motherfucker and Im only writing this because ur a person that is involved in what grades I get and so also in my future which is ridiculous because I despise you. (ALSO THE OTHER PEOPLE who don’t have to do this didn’t do the homework properly either, which is why I decided to do it as crappy as my anxiety and perfectionism will let me). Also I procrastinated this and its currently 9:32 PM and I am super hella annoyed of you, your missing explanation of how to write one of these analysises and the fact that I CANT FIND SOMETHING ON THIS WHEN I GOOGLE IT. Not to mention the fact that I also still have to do English Homework and I also think that we can all agree on the fact that this, me writing, does literally nothing to affect my grade in any way. It’s just you showing your power, DEMONSTRATING the power you have over us (which is ridiculous. Why does this happen in school????) and this assignment / analysis will also make no difference in how you view this speech or J.G. himself or the Nazis themselves, and guess what, it wont change mine either. It’s ridiculous that I, someone who despises this subject, who doesn’t even graduate in it, who won’t need these skills EVER AGAIN, have to write the full analysis. Maybe let the people who actually have a four hour written final on this write that??? I am just sitting in your class because this damn educational system thinks it’s important. There you go. I really hope you don’t enjoy, because I feel like I am wasting my time.”

Sorry for insults btw. My friend said i should hand it in along with the analysis, but I wont, bc he’s grading me and they’re important for my graduation (which sucks). At least it’s here on tumblr.

Have a wonderful evening,

a slightly angry senior year student from Germany.