#bc now i've decreased my scope i just feel so much less overwhelmed about everything jsdashhsa

[kotoyin-a]

I’M CHANGING THINGS UP.

Hello, hello! I’m sure y’all are sick of all my ooc at this point but I’m hoping this will be my last one for a while, because I think I’ve finally figured out what’s been making me feel unenthusiastic about rp.

I’ve been treating roleplaying as though I’m writing a novel. I’ve tried to plan out Lyra’s story so rigidly that it’s been hard to roleplay with her. Though I never really talked about the second two in any great detail on this blog, for a while I’ve been working on three verses behind the scenes that would essentially act as Lyra’s mainverses. The first was obviously her ‘Champ In-training’ verse which is the one I’ve been paying the most attention to. But the second was a kind of ‘Runaway’ verse that took placed during the events of SuMo where she left Japan both to escape and pursue a group of Rockets. The third was the verse where she became an adult and truth be told I didn’t really get any farther than that.

But it was just too much work to try and coordinate all of these at once. I was trying to shove threads all over Lyra’s timeline which made it difficult to rp as her because I wasn’t sure how much she would have changed between verses. And it was just limiting the types of plots I could write and numbers of partners I could interact with. Right now I don’t need to focus on anything further than her ‘Champ In-training’ verse.

Right now, I just want to focus on developing Lyra in said verse. I think the way I’m writing her is currently a bit one-dimensional and I want her to become a more complex, nuanced character. I want to start showing more of her fears and flaws and insecurities. I love her positive energy but I don’t want that to be all there is to her. And I hope that showing the different faucets of her character and that opening her up to a more diverse range of threads and characters will mean she’s a better character when the time comes that I decide that I want to move beyond her current main verse. And I’ll have a much better idea of what that next verse might focus on.

If any of you did end up reading this whole thing, then thank you so much! Sorry to put a big self reflective piece on an roleplay blog, this has just been bugging me for months, and I’m just glad to have finally cut to the core of my feelings.