#bc like. im sorry the animanga plays it off for laughs but like. there's literally no way misa'd be super happy all the time after that lma

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im& thinking about this &. honestly i dont even think misa's disdain of takada is even Just about light (but that Is a big part of it) & light cheating on her with takada, but it's also the fact that a) takada likely comes from a Very wealthy background to even get in to-oh & b) the fact that takada invited her over to dinner After she Knew that light was engaged w/ misa Knowing they were in a relationship & then proceeding to rub it in her face which is Never a good idea & it's honestly a shitty move & c) takada had everything misa never had that misa's parents wanted for her before they were brutally murdered right in front of her & d) misa suspects that takada looks down on her for her past, specifically as a former sex worker & overall just the way she's. really snobby towards her & treats her like she's lesser than her when, in contrast, misa had to fight for what she had & had to pull herself out of her own hell when no one cared. she became an international superstar on her own hard work, merit & various talents. so when she finds out from matsuda that light's been having an affair with takada, she uh. fucking loses it. not only bc it's a MASSIVE insult, an announcement to all who knew them that she couldn't keep her man satisfied, but specifically Because light chose someone as snobby as her literally just because she supports him as kira, when misa quite literally risked her life & gave up her lifespan TWICE for him & was quite literally tortured by l for THREE DAYS when most people would've given him up on the very first day & no matter how much she loves that man, there's only so many times she can be insulted & humiliated, she NEVER broke one promise & yet he chose her instead. & she's still angry & upset with light for it bc the affair was canonically a year before light & misa both died & that wound is still very fresh for her, ESPECIALLY when she finds out that light told kiyomi that she would be his queen & goddess of the new world when. misa was with light for SIX YEARS. & light handed that to her on a silver platter. misa NEVER had that. that INFURIATED her. & it reminds her of all the times she's congratulated him, all her love and patience, all her admiration, all the times she's waited & how unappreciated she really feels & how she makes it all look painless in the public eye. & honestly i think a part of her borderline hated light for that. but from that borderline hate came from love: i loved you first. she's. deeply hurting from that & she doesn't really have anyone to talk to about it. misa probably had a bpd breakdown but refused to show it & as time passed she started to shut herself off & she stopped eating & sleeping for a while & she's gonna be revaluating literally everything about that relationship & legit turn into a CIA agent. straight up amy dunne "gone girl" type shit. & honestly things wouldn't be the same.