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guess the hyperfixation but it's extremely obvious and i literally spent all my money decorating my room with op things
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Having a crisis! Wooo! Everybody say 'I <3 mental illness' This'll be quite venty and stuff so feel free to not read if you don't feel like reading about some random traumatized teen venting. I'm genuinely torn, and everything is happening, and I can't remember the last time I showered or changed my clothes and I'm just so tired of everything. I'm going to a new high school next year (moved from my last one bc of bullying </3) and I'm just so nervous and kind of upset too and I'm just feeling a lot of shit, and nothing is happening but also everything is flying by too quickly. I don't like this. I don't know what to do. I'm always tired, I'm always hvngry, I'm really restless but also, I've been consuming at lot more NSFW than normal and I'm a little upset at that? I'm nervous that next year will bring a lot more bad people into my life. Like I've made it this far getting bullied, physically, sexually and emotionally abused and manipulated by 3 different people. And my old school was small (like, 125 people total) and my school next year has like 1600 people. And I'm so nervous! I'm an abuser magnet at this point and I KNOW a horrible person is going to come along and do something. My 3D has been thriving off of the stress which is an unintended bonus. But I'm sad because I read that st@rv@tion should kill libido and I still have libido which sucks and makes me feel all weird and gross and dirty but also good but not at the same time?? I don't know if it'd be weird to ask for advice under this post but uh, I don't know. I just wanna talk to SOMEONE about this so I feel like I'm not losing my shit over something literally normal or something.
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HELLO here are my incoherent thoughts on these kick ass playlists 💖 this is even longer than part one because i'm soooo normal about blake, milo, and morgan specifically. obviously. have fun 😇
elliot
this side of paradise takes me out EVERY TIME. ENOUGH
okaayyyy fourth of july? closing this playlist now-
RIBS?? rubs temples
frame the halves and call them brothers….
RUN BOY RUN IS MAKING ME SICK
no fuckin way you put sufjan’s fourth of july on here too. HELLO?
blake
sorry in advance ‘cause i fear. i will be very insane about this one. 2 hours and 45 minutes??
okay so i already said in previous tags that ‘the red means i love you’ made me grind my teeth together but i’ll say it here too. cause it’s true.
“i can fit two people under my skin […] you crawled up in there and joined me within” LOVE this song grrrr
monet issues ……… okay i am listening. “spent too many years finding myself in the wreckage under rubble, i got myself in trouble” “blood doesn’t mean a thing when you cannot fucking breathe and you lose yourself completely” IM DONE LISTENING.
STALKER’S TANGOOO A CLASSIC. no notes.
“and i found jesus, what a liar, so i trade licks with muddy waters” COME ONNN
FUCKIN SLEEPWALK?? holy shit i haven’t heard this song in ages. fuck this one is so good
stoppp stop stop saint bernard??? this song makes me CRAZY
an unhealthy obsession ✔️ another classic yandere song. “you’ve got those eyes that drive me crazy and i’ve got eyes to watch you sleep” 💀
THE WAY MY JAW DROPPED ON IDLE WORSHIP
BACKSTABBER OMG. i legit haven’t heard this song since i was a teen. fuck yeah. bonus points for the basement line gdkjghfkl
“i hear voices, i see visions / these spirits are your prison” ‼️‼️‼️
of course we must have meant to be yours. what yandere character playlist is complete without it
cold cold cold YESSS. GENIUS. “as the darkness falls, it fills up both my eyes / my life before me like a flash in the night” YES
this is love is going to make me start throwing things for REAL. “everyone that tried to fix me knows that i can’t change a bit / i’ve got no shame, got no pride, only skeletons to hide” RRRGGGG
sitting with brutus for a long time. many thoughts. also “as i set to face it, i’m unsure / should i embrace it, should i run? what motivates me, hatred? is it love?” GOD
‘bad idea right?’ mhm mhm nodding sagely
MY WAY OF LIFE. YOU GET ME.
AND SUPER PSYCHO LOVE WOOO. i love yandere songs <3
this took almost my whole lunch break but it was so worth it. tysm for this i can’t wait to be even more mentally ill about blake than i already was by listening to this in full lmfao
sam/darlin
oh my fuckin god francesca.... "how could you think, darlin, i'd scare so easily?" "my life was a storm since i was born, how could i fear any hurricane?" STOP.
thank you for putting lil nas between two hozier songs bc i needed the reprieve honestly before de selby (part 2). this is sick
save a horse ride a cowboy my beloved <3
YOO FIRECRACKER. josh turner <33 ik sam is literally southern but it's still so fun to me when there's country songs on his playlists 'cause i feel like country songs are never on character playlists :') i love this
no but this is full of gems... tongues & teeth, we'll never have sex, arms tonight, the night we met, until i found you, i found ?? it just keeps going. NORTHERN ATTITUDE?? LITTLE LION MAN. CEILINGS. i have to get out of here actually
I'M DYING AT SHAKE IT FOR ME. how is this song from 2011 i feel SO OLD
sam
pleaaase please not family line again 🫠
bdg covered lay all your love on me??? this is sending me to the MOON
MMM ain't it fun is so so good. thinking
i think you had believe me in one of your other posts abt sam but mannn MAN. MAN I LOVE IT.
seeing jaymes young on playlists gives me ptsd like i KNOW whatever song it is is gonna hurt. and it did here too 😔
david
kind of really obsessed with this cover of make a man out of you
bahaha true love by p!nk 😭 sooo real. i love this song
[sees yellow by coldplay] HEY 🫵🏼 stop that!!
SAINT BERNARD AGAIN BRO. CMON
i don't know welcome home son by radical face but i know enough radical face to be afraid of that song LMAO
asher
hard times is such a banger for ash, like ... this energy with these lyrics >>>
wow i only know a handful of these actually 🫣 LOVE scrawny for him sm AND ELECTRIC LOVE<3
milo
MY MAIN MAN. RGHH. something so personal abt his cover having a cross necklace *_*
good old fashioned lover boy EXACTLY EXACTLY. i'm literally always saying this
listening to i can't handle change like this 😐🧍🏼♀️ why would you do this to me
hmm i wasn't sure abt sweater weather at first but actually yeah... yeah
oohh nothing is so sweet 🥺 like giving me a cavity sweet. i love it
wait i've been listening to this one as a real playlist and why did it take me halfway through everywhere i go to remember this wasn't just my liked songs LMFAO
rolling from would that i into bad idea right has me CACKLING. kind of a genius pick! really fun song from either POV honestly
WOMANIZER IS SO TRUE like sometimes i'm sorta picky abt referring to him as some kind of playboy but like . he's CHARMING. we all know this. he sure as shit knows it
oh fuck shut up and drive?? between this and animals on david's playlist i'm gonna act UP
hey speaking of nickelback LOL she keeps me up is such a fun song
HAHAHA VIOLET?? "looking through the peephole on the door of my apartment" STOP that's so funny 😭😭
hmmmm. slides habits onto my blake playlist.
us putting teeth on our milo playlists🤝 god this song rules
what the fuck did troye sivan put in this album?? "i feel like my mother might like you" 🥺🥺
jealousy jealousy !! "i think too much 'bout kids who don't know me" SHH. HUSH. finding out even milo gets self conscious was like a kick in the head
OH MAN CLASSIC IS SO GOOD.
vincent, vincent/lovely, & porter
speedrunning all them in one go cause i'm not super into these guys RIP
two birds is SICK it is sick and twisted on every playlist i've ever seen or put it on
extremely satisfied to see electric love on here LMAO opportunity knocked and you answered!
STOP WITH SUFJAN'S FOURTH OF JULYYY OW
strawberry wine ....... 🫠
oh my god and through me (the flood) wtf.
LITTLE TALKS. good god i was just shot back to my sophomore year of high school
oohhhh the busted wine bottle for porter's cover >>>
ok the first four songs on porter's KICK ASS. brutus in this context gives me goosebumps like crazy ("if you want i'll call you king, but why do i lie awake each night thinking instead of you, it should be me" GEEZ)
first time??? okay. i'm glad that's the end of this because that's so mean 😭
geordi
this luigi's mansion remix goes so hard
FUCK ABOUT IT >:0 my best friend sent me that for them a few weeks ago!! sick and twisted but so so tasty
songs i can't listen to is going to make me WEEP. AHHHH
literally the first line in i love you so gets me every single time for him 😐 and it's all downhill from there
vampire?? VAMPIRE? dog. you can't do this to me.
DIAL DRUNK YOU CANTTT DO THIS 😭😭
okay my girlfriend is a witch is making me giggle so you're forgiven LMAO
never mind you put be nice to me on here. "there's very little left of me and it's never coming back" WE'RE SO OVER
morgan
^ me rn opening morgan's playlist knowing i'm to blame for it. i’ve had dinner between morgan and geordi so i have ENERGY.
i only know once in a lifetime from the meme but “letting the days go by, let the water hold me down” ✔️✔️✔️ same as it ever was‼️‼️
DEAD MAN’S PARTY YESSS THE VIBES!!!!
ooohhhh what’s the time where you are !! i rly liked this one when i first heard it on milo’s (i think) & it fits rly well here too :0
murder on the dancefloor ✍🏻✍🏻
I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU EXPECT STARING INTO THE TV SET 🎶🎶 FIGHTING FIRE WITH FIRE
argh i have GOT to listen to more of duo’s music ….
GIRLS ON FILM 👯♀️🎥
mad world??? “the dreams in which i’m dying at the best i’ve ever had” ??? this isn’t fun anymore 😐
you worry too much, you make yourself sad ‼️ you can’t change fate but don’t feel so bad‼️
OK OK I’M DONE. DOG THESE ARE SO AWESOME. the effort you’ve put into them is NUTS and they’re so gorgeous !! i had a blast listening and reacting to them hehe ty again for sharinggg and i am NOT sorry for inspiring the morgan playlist 😌💕
my redacted audio spotify playlists - pt one
alrighty gang, here we are! ive been teasing it for a while, but im finally making a post with the links to my redacted audio playlists.
the ones i have public are the only ones that will be included, i dont have my listener character ones public rn only because theyre based on my interpretations of the listeners and are very special to me.
anyways, lets get on to the fun part! btw, some of the songs on the ship playlists might skew a bit towards a gendered-ish feel. thats just based on my interpretation of the listener characters. the songs can still work in a gender neutral sense.
included in this; guy/honey, guy, the D.A.M.N. crew, gavin/freelancer, lasko/coworker, gavin, lasko, damien, huxley, elliott/sunshine
i will be reblogging this soon with the rest of the playlists, have no fear hjkfagfh
the playlists
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guy/honey
guy
the D.A.M.N. crew (mainly polyDAMN)
gavin/freelancer
lasko/coworker
gavin
lasko
damien
huxley
elliott/sunshine
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It's 2:30pm I've had breakfast and coffee and my adhd meds, let's go
EDIT I got partway into the second episode wooo
okay so you know that moment of Catra THONKing her head on the locker that I couldn't stop laughing at yesterday? I recorded it with my phone just now, including me laughing
youtube
OKAY THE VIDEO SHOULD WORK *NOW* Anyway now you know I watch all of these in an open tab of Netflix. I don't even fullscreen it bc I'm constantly bouncing between that tab and this one.
(The long fic that is the whole reason I'm rewatching is the left-most tab in case you were wondering--it's literally the fic, netflix, this tab--mmmmost of the rest of the open tabs are other fics, the wikipedia list of episodes, a couple of fanvids, and a bunch of meta)
Also my laugh sounds weird to me here I blame my allergies
Also I really did have some wine last night, huh
OKAY back to Glimmer giving Scorpia that little speech
And yeah I know I just mentioned the parallels between Catra and Glimmer, but like--Catra also did this. She also gassed up Scorpia with the specific intent of encouraging her to do something she wanted Scorpia to do (attend Princess Prom).
And neither of them said anything un-true! But they were still both manipulating her for their own ends.
yeah! by blowing it to smithereens
Anyway back on Beast Island they're trying to gtfo
Except Entrapta doesn't want to go D:
Like she flat-out says, "I'm staying."
There's creepy-ass vines climbing all over everything and knocking out some of the power
"-was so confusing. I just wasn't suited for friendship. I belong here."
(Ohhhhhh I get it--it's the same "crippling self-doubt" thing this place does to everyone.)
ALSO THAT'S CREEPY
She-Ra is just like, Absolutely Not
Man I feel bad for both of them. But also there's a bunch of creatures with sharp teeth surrounding them
Anyway the fight scene that happens is too much to go into detail about, but Micah gets bit, a much bigger creature attacks them, the vines keep trying to take over Entrapta who keeps saying variations on "nobody understands me, that's okay, just leave me here"
Those vines are a great Metaphor for some kinds of mental illness, like depression--that lie to you and tell you this kinda shit.
Bow, who is as always Mr. Emotional Intelligence, says "Did you think friendship is easy? It takes WORK to be there for other people!"
Bow: "Because we're not EVER going to leave you behind again! And we never gave up on you, even when you were with the Horde! Because that's what friends do!"
(oooh that's some tasty foreshadowing! Seriously this is a great scene in general but also HMM who else might they not give up on)
(...wait multiple people actually now that I think about it)
;_;
OH GOD Micah's magical protection shield breaks and Adora, bless her, is like "WE ARE OUT OF TIME. Entrapta, we flew here on an ancient First Ones ship."
Adora might be a littttttle infantalizing in tone here but tbh it worked, so
lol there's more monsters so Entrapta calls her robot to beat them up
"I'm glad we're friends."
(Ugh they wrote Entrapta SO WELL. Like yes it was her special interest that got her to want to leave, but she does care about her friends and she makes an effort--and it's obviously AN EFFORT--to thank Bow for being kind to her. Her words sound slightly stilted, bc saying these sorts of things is a learned skill that doesn't come naturally, but she still means them!)
I had a split second of confusion before realizing this is definitely Double Trouble lol
headcanon: when Double Trouble is alone, they twist their hair all the time the way I do
OH GOD oh shit okay I'm going to just copy/paste from the fanmade transcript:
Double Trouble: I was looking forward to meeting this Entrapta character before I left Bright Moon. But of course, as you know, she wasn't there. Hordak: What did you say? Double Trouble: Oh, you don't need keep up the charade with me. I figured out the truth. You had Catra send Entrapta to Beast Island, so She-Ra would run off to rescue her. A brilliant idea! The perfect distraction. I have to applaud your work, you really had me going. So scorned by Entrapta's betrayal. ...Even now you look like you had no idea! Double Trouble: Brava. I mean, I did consider the alternative...
Double Trouble: That she made you think she was your partner in crime, while really she is the one who betrayed you... Double Trouble: But between you and me, there's no way she's that good of an actor. Double Trouble: Well, I'll leave you to it. Congrats again. Great work all around.
OOOOOH DOUBLE TROUBLE IS SUCH A LITTLE SHIT (and I love them)
Hordak is so pissed he blows some shit up. And shows A Real Human Emotion!!!
in the meantime, they got Entrapta et al safely on the ship
but Bow properly tells the ship to take them back to Bright Moon
And the Horde sends off a bunch of troops as Double Trouble watches and says, "Too easy, as usual."
to quote Double Trouble themself from an earlier episode, "Espionage is a long game, kitten."
OH HO THEY'RE IN CONTACT WITH GLIMMER!
(Oh, that means Double Trouble didn't actually escape, they switched sides, right)
AAAAAUGH
Glimmer and Scorpia teleport out JUST as Bow, Adora, Swift Wind, and Micah show up oh my god that is some Shakespeare-level shit. Like the "camera" backs up and we see Glimmer and Scorpia sparkle away JUST as everyone else runs in from the side D:
But yeah Micah goes looking for Glimmer (his daughter he hasn't seen since she was A CHILD) and
this BITCH
Micah knows what's up. "What is this traitor doing here???"
Catra doesn't know Hordak knows oh god do I hate this my adrenaline is through the fucking ROOF, she just knows Hordak wants to talk to her
Yeah she only barely gets missed by a blaster shot
NOT EVEN USING HER NAME, HUH
AAAND ROLL CREDITS
okay just gonna jump into the next episode, will reblog only when I run out of images
Adora: Stay here, King Micah. The Sorcerers Guild is on their way to help protect Bright Moon. I promise, Your Majesty, we'll bring Glimmer home to you. Swift Wind, take Bow and Entrapta to the Fright Zone. Find Glimmer, we can still stop this. Bow: What are you going to do? Adora: I'm going to the Crystal Castle. I have to keep Light Hope from activating the Heart of Etheria.
She turns into She-Ra
Roll intro!
I usually skip the intro but
eheheheheheheh
*ahem* anyway
oh lord that door is going to open to something
I WAS RIGHT
Scorpia tries to say Glimmer's "a new recruit! Glimmax....Pinkhairton."
Okay but also Lonnie is clearly on Scorpia's side here. "We thought you got out??? If Catra sees you here--"
One of the themes of She-Ra is actually that bad and abusive management causes high turnover. (Like for real my manager is great and that's why I've been at my job eight years.)
Lonnie: "But you're one of us, Scorpia. We won't stand in your way."
Which makes Scorpia emotional
ANYWAY back to Hordak's perfectly justified temper tantrum at Catra
Catra continues to play the "She was a traitor!" card. Anyway he just keeps blasting and she just keeps running
Hordak: "And after I'm through, you can't even begin to imagine the punishments Horde Prime will inflict upon you."
Everyone in the Horde is literally like "Just wait til your father gets home!!!!"
Hordak is just blasting shit all over the place as Catra runs!!
And I've run out of images again, time to reblog
The next episode itself is a two-parter, and I think that rather than split them up I will just watch through, which might mean I have to reblog this post multiple times.
Finishing out season four!
s4, eps 12&13 Destiny
Usual reminder: this is a REwatch and there’s spoilers ahoy, I make a lot of bad jokes (some of which are Adult In Nature), I reference other cartoons, I make random asides.
(also, this time specifically, I had some alcohol)
Tbh? it's a lot like watching things like this with me in person aaahahaha I always want to pause and infodump shit -_-
lol Emily is destroying Shadow Weaver's garden
Emily acts like Mal the cat does sometimes. WHAT IS IN YOUR MOUTH you are not supposed to have that! Get out of there!
UGGGH
it's easy to forget how BIG Scorpia is??
LOLOL oh my god I went downstairs for like an hour and a half talking to my partners about the most random shit and then playing with the cat and also: I've had most of a can of wine.
One of these:
YEAH (that's a huge image)
so if these get weird: blame the wine I guess
oh also @corpseauthority and I picked out fake fur and minky fabric for the ears and tail of my Catra cosplay :D :D :D I'M SO EXCITED
OKAY BACK TO SHE-RA
the only thing better than Scorpia's "huh?" is Shadow Weaver's flat "what"
Shadow Weaver: no we need the other princesses Glimmer: well they're gone but-- Scorpia, Shadow Weaver, and Emily: WAIT, WHAT???
AND THEN
okay but is the guard telling you this Double Trouble
ROLL INTRO
that thing was not meant to hold four humans and a horse with wings
why are you SNIFFING HIM
Entrapta: "I don't know you" Micah: "Yes, you do. You stole my food." Entrapta: "OH YEAH! It was delicious :D"
oh god Adora's like "....but are you okay? we came here to find you 🥺"
and she's like YEAH I'M GREAT
"each more deadly than the next??? it's PARADISE"
I love her so much oh my godddd
Bow: "We're here to rescue you" Entrapta: "didn't I just rescue YOU?"
Bow mentions Hordak and Entrapta pulls her little new bug-eye mask down :(
Adora: so hey we uhhhhhhhh really need your help due to a terrible secret of the First Ones that nobody but us knows
"WHy didn't you say so???"
well that's a callback to s1 ep1
THERE SHE IS!! MY BABY 😍 I LOVE HER SO MUCH
nooo
anyway Kyle, Rogelio, and Lonnie come in and Catra's like OH UHHH so...what's happening
Lonnie: "we just got back from conquering another Rebel town" Kyle: ":D You should've seen us!! It was all:"
and then he kicks Scorpia's old locker, with the drawings on it, and Catra gets mad
Ironically the degree to which Catra is UPSET is making me ship them harder lol
bb you need a break you are getting feral
Man Lonnie has her number lol. "What is wrong with you? We're winning! Even you should be happy."
god I love when she's this deranged
she slams poor Lonnie against a locker
john cena dot gif
but also OH DO THEY REMIND YOU OF WHO YOU USED TO BE? HMM? what you really wanted??? what actually gave you something like joy or contentment????? are you trying to just erase any part of you capable of feeling good?????????
Kyle is RIGHT
The cinematic parallels between Catra and Glimmer in this episode ("forget my friends I'M IN CHARGE HERE and YOU NEED TO FOLLOW ORDERS") are *chef's kiss*
Catra realizing this isn't what she actually wants: part ....a lot
STOP REMINDING ME I HAVE FEELINGS!!
The other three leave, she yanks the drawings off Scorpia's old locker, then THUMPs her head on it. And then Double Trouble shows up!
okay wait tho the way she pauses and then thumps her head on it is so funny I wish I could gif it, it's so cat-like and also Very Emo
I don't think this is supposed to be funny but it IS and I cannot stop rewinding and laughing. I blame the wine.
THONK
help i've rewatched it like five times now
okay
lol right??
Me, when I was info-dumping my own fic at myself: is it weird to imagine these two banging??? Me now: nope
Double Trouble: "Apologies for the delay, kitten. I got ...held up...in Bright Moon"
Anyway they give a little speech about how the Princesses keep fighting and She-Ra is away
NO SHIT, SHERLOCK
(now THERE's an old fandom reference ahahaha)
"We can't let them return to the Fright Zone!" TOO FUCKING LATE
YOU STOLE HER GARNET YOU WOULD THINK SO
Anyway they argue about the possibility of Glimmer taking Scorpia back to the Fright Zone
GOD I HATE IT WHEN SHE'S RIGHT UGGGHHHH
lolol I am. like. less than ten minutes into the FIRST OF TWO EPISODES and i've hit the image limit.
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