#bastien and his life long struggle of his own body language betraying what he can't or won't verbalize hfhffs

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ok.. as i am greedy, a few more numbers for the ask meme!!

this time for bastien :) 23, 27,28, 34

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ask meme

23. What do they feel guilty for that the other person(s) doesn’t / don’t even remember?

smaller things first - misgendering Élise a few times when they first started working together always makes him wince a bit, a bunch of people he ghosted in college after sleeping with them once, damaging one of Matteo's cars drunk driving and swerving off the road when they were younger (Matteo forgot like five minutes after finding out, Bastien still often feels deeply ashamed)

the big one is the plot relevant sequence of events and decisions- finally rejecting Wolf's advances despite his actual desires, leading to Wolfgang disappearing off the face of the earth for over week, leading to Bastien finding the clinic on fire and their lifeless body inside, leading to some of the worst months of his life. it's not that Wolfgang doesn't remember, they have trouble piecing it all together in sequence at first but they absolutely don't fault Bastien for anything he did even after having the whole picture. meanwhile Bastien will carry that guilt to his grave

27. What’s the worst gift they ever received? How did they respond?

fsfhs i can imagine a lifetime of bad and thoughtless gifts to the point they never really expect much of anyone else. one of the worst was probably getting a really fancy dinner jacket and trousers from Matteo that were intentionally tailored two sizes smaller to be "aspirational". Bastien likely tried his best to fake a smile and thank him while putting it somewhere deep in his closet to never be seen again.

28. What do they tell people they want? What do they actually want?

actually telling people his desires out loud is a Whole Problem He Needs to Work On but i think in passing he would voice some platitudes like "i just want a peaceful stable life" or "i just want to help people" and only one of those is true.

34. How do they greet someone they like / love?

something like this