#bad might suck at being a therapist but at least he'd try

[itsthedracobunny]

hi i do believe you're fucked

[hoes4hoseok]

enhypen as emails i can't send

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y'all i'm having so much fun doing these w my cat in my lap and the rain pouring outside 🤧 so good. anyways i'm literally seeing sabrina in 2 weeks! i'm so excited <3 maybe i'll post the txt version after the concert 😊

heeseung as tornado warnings

"i guess maybe that's why i'm lying to my therapist, i keep saying things like 'i never saw him & we never kissed'"

clinging to a relationship or situationship with heeseung despite the red flags is something i feel in my bones. i'd do that.

&& that's essentially what the song is about...lying to your therapist because you know hee is a walking red flag & isn't good for you, yet you're doing it anyways (come on y'all,, self-respect!!)

but admittedly, i even do that for people who aren't heeseung, so for him, i could overlook quite a bit.

my point is...heeseung would make moving on hard by existing

also...don't lie to your therapist. it's a waste of money.

sunghoon as how many things

"i wonder how many things you wanna do, you think i'm in-between"

i can see sunghoon getting over you faster than you do him. or at least him being able to hide it better.

&& yeah he might care about you...but he is not thinking about you nearly as much as you are him (even when you're trying your absolute hardest to limit it)

the feeling is even worse if you're still technically dating which would literally be the worst because it's a slowburn break-up who wants that?!

&& it sucks, the feeling sucks & my point is that sunghoon would probably make you feel it 🙂💔

this song makes me SICK sometimes because it's painfully relatable & this connection makes it kinda better?? or worse?? proably worse. 🤧

jungwon as nonsense

"lookin' at you got me thinkin' nonsense, cartwheels in my stomach when you walk in"

before you jump me...yes, i considered jake. i thought he fit bad for business better though 👊 so jungwon got nonsense 🫶🏽

&& i will stand by my decision!! because i just know he's the type of guy who (while very approachable) would be so hard to talk to if you had a crush on him

it's such a cute song & i can vividly picture tripping over my words in front of him & having zero personality because i can't think straight

if any of y'all get a shot with him...good luck soldier 🫡

ni-ki as fast times

"these are fast times & fast nights, yeah, no time for rewrites, we couldn't help it"

this song is about a youthful & impulsive relationship,, so ni-ki was the obvious fit

i can imagine ni-ki & his partner making really bad decisions while dating, at least at the very beginning

like he'd probably convince you to climb on a private rooftop or crash an engagement party with him

&& the relationship might just go way faster than intended

sometimes they're really shitty decisions, but sometimes they're not which is what matters!! sort of??

jake as bad for business

"he's good for my heart, but he's bad for business, tears me apart when he grants my wishes"

if people hated you for dating jake...you probably wouldn't care lmfaooo you're the one cuddling with him 🫶🏽

now, if you were both idols (let's put on our imagination caps 🧢) & it was affecting your job like in the song -- that sucks, & he'd try his best to make sure it doesn't hurt you, but...there's not much to be done sometimes

you're strong though you got through it :)

"never been so glad to be so tired" yeah. that checks out.

it's just such a cute song & it almost always reminds me of him now hehe

jay as opposite

"i know now, that even if i try to change, that somehow, you'd end up with her anyway"

this song makes me sick because it's so relatable (part 2)

the whole idea that ur partner isn't actually attracted to you while you're dating is so scary

clearly, there's no proof of that being the case in this song...but it's the conclusion she jumped to when they dated someone who looked nothing like her right after

i think jay might do that. probably unintentionally, but still.

if the relationship went sour, he might want change & go for someone different, whether in personality or in looks

&& it would feel so shitty, but you'd make it out & do the same thing eventually :D

sunoo as feather

"i feel so much lighter like a feather with you out my life"

to whoever is reading this...sorry. you're the problem he's the one who feels lighter after dropping YOU 🙄🤷‍♀️

okay but for real...sunoo would take a hot minute to calibrate & get over you but after that period he is DONE

he's gonna be civil with you but he's cackling with his buddies afterwards. he's FINE.

i hope you are too ;)

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[goldenbeastkeeper]

"Yes," he said immediately. "I know what it's like. You shouldn't have to go through that alone, and if no one that actually lives here is able to help, then I'm willing to be that person. Swift is fast, and even if you calm down before I get there I could at least help with the aftermath. To talk about it or anything else you might need. Besides, once you get a phone, you'll be able to call me. I can at least be there on the phone."

He liked her, and he knew how much panic attacks sucked. How much Vine and Will and Valerie and even Flicker had helped, compared to when he had them alone in the coven. He wanted to provide that help for her.

"I know," he said simply. The things that took ages for him to actually get out . . . It took him years before he finally told someone about Hope's death. He'd even told people about his role in giving people sigils before then, and about the times Belos had attacked him. But Hope, by and far, was the worst thing Belos had ever done to him. Something he hadn't even been able to bear thinking about until his therapist worked through it with him.

"Oh." Her creator. Of course he knew the gems were made, but after all this talk of mass production, it was something that felt very mechanical, in some way removed. But the talk of a specific creator made things sound far more personal. More real.

And based off the way Pearl winced, Valor muttered, "That's two for two on bad creators."

Yikes. She had several hundred years of memory just completely erased? That sucked. And even if he didn't actually experience anything like that, he still had an inkling of what it might be like, because he used to think that he had. He'd thought he'd lost twelve entire years of his life. He'd thought they were stolen from him, that he was made to forget so he could better be molded into an evil, manipulative witch (he had the ears of one, too, further proof of them trying to make him into one).

Then he found out he was a grimwalker and he'd never had those twelve years to begin with, and that witches were just like any other people.

Somehow that loss hit him even harder. He'd thought he'd had a life, a past, that he simply couldn't access. When it turned out he didn't have one at all.

Life in the coven was all there was.

Ah, she was talking again. He'd gotten too caught up in his own thoughts.

And oh god, the words she said. That was confirmation on his worries about her being one of the gems that was sold as an object, and not only that but she was on the edge of being killed for any misdeed, too. "Oh god. I'm sorry, that's . . . God that's definitely a situation to panic in. I'm glad you're free from that now. Yikes."

❝You'd be willing to come all this way just to help me with something as temporary as a panic attack?❞ Pearl says softly. ❝Even if we worked out a way for you to use Warp Pads, that's a bit of a trip. I appreciate that, really. I'm not,❞ she exhales hard. ❝I'm not used to anyone trying; it's been a long time since anyone other than Rose even seemed to care...❞

She had friends before who knew, who cared and tried to help.

Aside from Rose and Sketch, Bismuth was the first person who ever really dealt with her panic attacks. She dealt really well with Pearl just suddenly bursting into tears at Bismuth giving her a new sword, with a joke about how it would look really pretty with Diamond dust on it. She calmed Pearl down, and didn't even insist on knowing why that upset her so much. The most she could muster was weakly telling her to not even joke about that; the Crystal Gems don't shatter if they don't have too, not even Gems as bad as the Diamonds.

The secret was so hard to carry sometimes. It made her feel like... she wasn't a real rebel. Still just... Pink's pretty little doll, playing war games now.

She knows that's not true, but it was very hard to shake at times, especially when reminded so starkly of the lie they were telling to even their dearest friends.

It's a secret that still weighs on her, and will forever. That was the deal. Never again, but no secrets.

Her eyes find Steven and Lion on the Beach (and she's mildly surprised to see Flicker there too; did they go to delay him?).

Right.

❝Talking about things is a task easier said than done.❞

She gets by with everything by carefully managing the way she thinks about and addresses things so she's not set off. There are far too many things that she knows will set her into a panic if she gets too far into them.

Pearl winces when he questions the use of she. ❝My... creator,❞ she says, and leaves it at that.

She's not getting into Nacre. That's a topic she knows easily sends her over the edge, even more than most of the bad ones. She's best avoided.

❝It's hard to say. The first several centuries of my memory were erased, so there's no telling really, what lies in that time, but... yes, as I said, I suspect it's something fundamental about the way my gem functions.❞

Pearl's hand is over her mouth, her knuckles pressed to her lips, before she even consciously realizes it.

How can she answer that question? Back on Homeworld, the earliest ones are so tied into how frightened she was of Pink, before she really got to know her. A deep seated terror that she'd be broken beyond repair for failing to walk the fine line between being a good pearl, looking pretty and not daring to upset her Diamond, but also doing Pink's job for her, because if it didn't get done, the others would be upset with Pink... who would then be upset with Pearl.

She can't mention Pink though. And she doesn't exactly want to let on that there's something she can't say.

She'll have to talk around it, but... subtly.

❝... I implied before,❞ she says softly, her hand dropping back to the table, ❝About how some gems were sold as property. Back on Homeworld... pearls... were not mass produced, but individually handcrafted as pretty little servants for the elite. I, as you might be able to guess, did not fit well into my assigned role, and I was already on my second chance and second lucky break to survive... My life was so precarious then that even the suggestion that I made a mistake could be enough to send me over the edge.❞