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araxiis · 5 years ago
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The Art Of Anaesthesia- Kuzupeko
For @let-it-be-canon ♡
Words: 2547 (jesus)
Based on the song The Art Of Anaesthesia by SayWeCanFly (video above)
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A/N: I had an idea for an AMV but I can't draw so I wrote it out :) it's really long and the format screwed up and I'm sorry
Bold italics are lyrics
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Sometimes I think about who I should believe,
The people who are dead or the people who are free.
Sometimes I hear them as they whisper to me.
I try to stay awake so I won't die in my sleep.
The game was over. The Neo World Program had been destroyed, the students freed from their false reality. The 5 survivors woke up in a hospital, fashioned with everything they needed to recover from their stasis. Luckily for them, it was a rather quick process to get them back on their feet. When they could walk steadily on their own, they were permitted to go to the wing where the 'dead' students resided.
Sonia found Gundham's room first, with Kazuichi trailing behind her like a lost puppy. She tested the handle, but found the door to be locked. Akane did the same to Nekomaru's door, and received the same result. It seemed all the doors were deadbolted, impassable. Hajime lingered behind the rest, quietly coming to terms with the fact that there was no door with Chiaki's name written on it.
Fuyuhiko walked slowly through the wing, reading each nameplate carefully until he found the one he was looking for. He put his fingers on the edge of the door's small window and peered inside. She was there.
Lying unconscious, facing away from the window, glasses missing, but she was there. And according to the doctors, she would be okay. Fuyuhiko fumbled for the doorknob, but came up disappointed as he remembered the boundaries set. He heard Sonia's bright voice from behind him.
"Don't worry Fuyuhiko, it should not take too long for everyone to return to us."
She was wrong.
And I was quick to take a second look through
The window on the door of the operating room,
And the adrenaline, it threw my eyes
To the table on the floor where the patients lie.
I saw his face and I could not speak,
As the anesthetic kissed his cheek,
I felt my lips go cold and my limbs go weak
Because the body on the table where the patients die was me.
It was me.
It should have been him.
He should've been the one that got executed, not her. The whole thing was his stupid fucking idea anyways. He leaned his head back, resting it on the cold steel of Peko's room. Ever since the wing was opened six months ago, he spent every day sitting in front of her door. He would stay there all night if he could, but the staff weren't too fond of that idea. Sometimes he would talk to her, about how everyone was doing, about the final trial, whatever he was thinking about. He knew she couldn't possibly hear him, but it made him feel better either way. He saw Sonia down the hall, crying in front of Gundham's room, Kazuichi trying desperately to comfort her. Fuyuhiko closed his eyes tight, on the verge of tears but refusing to cry. It was gonna be okay. Just a little fucking longer.
Give me back my oxygen mask,
Cause I don't want to feel the walls of my heart collapse,
So put me under.
I would sooner die on this table
Than face what causes me to be so unstable.
The five of them sat in a small lobby in the hospital, waiting for the patient's wing to be open. They were talking normally, trying to distract one another from the harsh reality they were living. At seven precisely, a tired-looking doctor opened the door to the wing and addressed the classmates.
"Good news. The first of your classmates has woken up."
The doctor continued talking, but was unheard. The group sprinted past him and frantically started testing the doorknobs on the rooms. Fuyuhiko ran to Peko's door and clumsily reached for the handle.
It didn't move.
Something in his chest dropped. He couldn't contain his disappointment, but was distracted when he heard crying down the wing. Blinking his eyes clear, he continued to run until he reached the open door. Upon entering, he saw Sonia, crying, arms thrown around Gundham's shoulders. He looked like absolute hell, but there was no denying he was alive. Akane and Hajime were smiling politely, and Kazuichi was in the corner of the room, face as pink as his hair. Fuyuhiko half-smiled, nodded to Gundham, and left. He walked towards the room he was staying in, hands shoved deep in his pockets. He was happy for Sonia, and Gundham, obviously, but he couldn't help but wish it had been Peko. He stopped by her door and placed his hand on the thin, wired window.
"Cone back to me soon, okay?"
There was a lie between my demons and me,
And a body made of paper in the passenger seat.
As I open my eyes, I could not see.
I felt the stitches come loose and the blood run free.
Six months after Gundham had woken up, almost all of their classmates had returned to them. There was no structure to their recovery. Two days after Gundham, Mikan woke up. About a week after, it was Mahiru. (That was a rather uncomfortable reunion for Fuyuhiko.)
Twelve of them were awake, but three remained asleep.
Nagito, Ibuki, and Peko.
Fuyuhiko sat in one of the poorly-upholstered chairs in the lobby, staring down at his hands. It had been two weeks since Teruteru woke up, the next person had to wake up soon, right?
Just then, he heard shouting down the patient's wing. His heart filled with hope. Someone woke up. It had to be Peko, right?
Yeah, it had to.
He ran towards the sound of voices, anxious and hopeful, but was stopped short when he found the source. The class was gathered in the room across from Peko's, door propped open, talking to Ibuki.
Ibuki...
Fuck.
Fuyuhiko's body began to shake. Why the fuck wasn't Peko waking up? It was his fault, wasn't it? He felt anger, worry, hate, building up inside of him, and he punched the wall at full force. The walls were sturdy and solid brick, but he couldn't feel anything but his blood boiling. He kept punching, yelling, until his fist was bloody and mangled. One punch hit a nerve that shot sparks up his arm, and he dropped his hand to his side. Sweating and overwhelmed, Fuyuhiko looked down at his broken, bloody hand, the pain of his actions finally setting in. His head went light as the pain started to spread, he felt his knees give out below him. He heard Hajime distantly call his name, and everything went dark.
And as my thoughts began to shake,
I felt the hand of the darkness kiss my face.
And then the devil woke up and he grabbed my throat.
He pulled me down to the place where the silence grows.
He looks at me with hollow eyes,
And he whispered my name as the flowers died.
I felt my heart go cold as I sank between
The ocean I am and the river I'm meant to be.
I'm meant to be...
Fuyuhiko opened his eyes to find himself lying in a hospital bed of his own. His clothes were still dusty and stained with blood, but his hand had been stitched up and wrapped in gauze. Running his good hand through his hair, he leaned back onto the paper-covered pillow.
"What the fuck happened?" He mumbled towards the ceiling.
"You passed out," a voice replied.
He was talking to himself, so he was rather startled when he heard the response. His head snapped towards the door, where he saw Hajime leaning against the doorframe.
"It was either shock or blood loss," he continued. "Twogami and I got you here, and Mikan helped the doctors fix you up. We're just across the hall from everyone else. You should be fine to walk around now, just be careful." Hajime turned to leave, but paused outside the door.
"Don't take too long though," he said over his shoulder. "There's.. something you should see."
With that he left, leaving only Fuyuhiko, considering his words. Something he needed to see? What the fuck was..
Holy shit.
Give me back my oxygen mask,
He practically fell out of the bed in his panic to get out of the room.
Cause I don't want to feel the walls of my heart collapse,
So put me under.
He ran faster than he ever had before, shouting breathless profanities at the nurses that tried to stop him.
I would sooner die on this table
He sprinted through the lobby, down the blank white halls, to the door he had spent so much time talking to. He forced his way through the group of his classmates gathered outside of it and-
Than face what causes me to be so unstable.
She had been looking for him too.
As soon as he burst into her room, their eyes locked. They stayed frozen like that for a while, Peko sitting perfectly straight in her bed, Fuyuhiko struggling to catch his breath in the middle of the room, eyes never leaving each other's. Eventually, Fuyuhiko slowly crossed the room to Peko's bed, and perched himself on the edge. Peko had so much she wanted to say to him, but for once, she wasn't able to find the right words. He rested his good hand gently on her leg and started the conversation himself.
"You look like hell."
Peko smiled weakly. "So do you," she retaliated, noticing the bandages on his arm. She reached out to take his hand in hers, but pulled her hands quickly to her chest when she realized what she was doing. 
"Forgive me, Young Master, I wasn't-"
Fuyuhiko leaned forward and took her clasped hands in both of his, startling her into silence. He held their hands between them, even though the rest of the class was only feet away.
"Forget that shit, Peko. I'm just so damn happy you're okay."
Peko felt her face go warm as the reality of his words set in. She could remember their last moments together on the island, but that hadn't been real.
This was real. They were real.
Fuyuhiko let go of her hands, which saddened her for a moment, until his hands came to rest on either side of her face. She felt her heartbeat quicken as he rested his forehead against hers. He stroked her cheekbone gently with his thumb, able to feel the corner of her mouth twitching up. Cautiously, Peko rested her shaking hand on his side, just to see what would happen. His smile grew wider, almost splitting his face in two, and he whispered something she could hardly hear. She couldn't be sure, and it could've been wishful thinking, but she could've sworn he said 'I love you'.
She slid her other arm around his waist and locked her hands behind his back. They could hear the quiet words of their classmates, as well as Kazuichi scoffing "fucking finally" and getting shushed by Sonia. They were both smiling wide, eyes closed, beyond thankful to be together again.
Now I'm standing by the window on a Sunday.
And I can't quite recall
Why I cannot move at all
Neither one of them wanted to leave the other's side, but Fuyuhiko insisted Peko start the recovery process as soon as possible. Her body was weak from being immobile for so long, so, much to her dismay, she was bound to a wheelchair. Most days she sat with her back to the room, staring vacantly out the window.
And I feel so tired and wounded,
Like the stitches on my soul came apart.
I'm standing here in the dark.
Despite his protests, the doctors refused to let Fuyuhiko stay with Peko at night while she recovered. During the day, however, you would never find him anywhere else. He stood by her side when she stared out the window. She would admire the view, he would admire her.
Well, maybe it's from the drinks we had last night,
But good god, I love those friends of mine.
The best that alcohol can buy.
Sometimes they talked, but mostly they enjoyed the silence. It was that special kind of silence, where you don't have to talk to enjoy each other's company. On this day in particular, though, Peko's voice cut through the quiet.
"I could hear you. While I was asleep."
Fuyuhiko raised his eyebrow slightly, but said nothing. Peko was still staring out the window, but her eyes seemed less vacant than they were before.
Or maybe it's from the lack of sleep,
But all those secrets I've kept, trying to be so sweet to you.
It's dark, my dear,
But it got me through,
It got me through.
"Most of the time, it was just dark. Dark and quiet," she continued. "Sometimes, though, I heard you talking. It was difficult to tell what you were saying, but I am certain it was your voice. I was unsure what it meant, but," she paused. "But I had reason to believe you were okay. And it was.. very relieving. Before I woke up, I remember hearing you yelling. You sounded hurt, but it got suddenly silent a moment later. I believe-" she looked down at her knees. "I believe my concern for you in that moment was the reason I was able to wake up."
Fuyuhiko stayed silent, causing Peko to fear that the words she chose were the wrong ones. She searched for the right words to apologize with, but her panic was cut short by the feeling of his lips on hers.
So give me back my oxygen mask,
She would be lying if she said she had never imagined this moment before, but never in a million years did she think it would actually happen.
Cause I don't want to feel the walls of my heart collapse,
So put me under.
It wasn't just their professional relationship that wavered her hope; she knew him well enough to know he wasn't exactly the sentimental type. She was unaware at the time, but losing her had been the thing to change him.
I would sooner die on this table
She wasn't complaining though, quite the opposite. She was rather inexperienced though, so she was unsure what she was meant to do. Luckily, she wasn't the only one who was nervous.
Then face what causes me to be so unstable.
She brushed her fingers through his hair, their kiss growing more intense.
Causes me to be so unstable.
He rested one hand on the back of her neck, pulling her closer.
Causes me to be so unstable.
They could worry about consequences later. For now, they were the happiest they had ever been.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm only a ghost,
Wearing human skin I never chose.
I listen to the devil as he spoke
Because he tempted me with a beautiful rose.
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araxiis · 5 years ago
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Breakable
Written for @on-2 / @thewildwilds ♡
Alternate title: Araxi doesn't know jack-shit about newborns but she tried her best ok
Words: 901
Peko Kuzuryuu had always been excellent at hiding her emotions. Throughout her upbringing she was taught that it was unnecessary for tools to express their feelings, and as she got older, her habits never really changed. Even on her wedding day, her sentiments barely surpassed a small smile. Despite her stone fortitude, however, she couldn't possibly keep herself from crying when she held her daughter for the first time. Delivering her had been excruciatingly painful, of course, but Peko still managed to keep her composure  very well. But there was something about this moment, holding this tiny little girl and hearing her cry, feeling her soft pink skin against her chest, that broke the dam behind her eyes.
Fuyuhiko, however, had been a mess the entire process, screaming at hospital staff and constantly fretting over his wife. (Peko was convinced he was in more pain than her throughout the day.) But now, while Peko cradled their newborn daughter, he stood silently beside the bed, with one hand resting stiffly on Peko's shoulder. He would deny it on days after, but he was crying too. He had no idea how long he spent standing there, just staring in awe at his wife and their daughter.
Their daughter.
He didn't notice his thoughts wandering until he was brought back to reality by Peko's hand on his arm. He focused in to see her smiling up at him from behind the dark circles under her eyes, their little girl tucked safely in her other arm, sleeping quietly. She shifted to the side of the bed to make room for her husband next to her.
"Do you want to hold her?"
Fuyuhiko froze. He was half-hoping this wouldn't happen. He would never admit this to Peko, but he was fucking terrified. She was so small and fragile. What if he did something wrong? What if he hurt her? She just looked so breakable...
"You're not going to hurt her, love."
He startled at the sound of Peko's voice. He didn't realize he had been thinking out loud.  Hesitantly, he sat down next to her on the hospital bed. He reached out to touch his daughter, but his hands were shaking too aggressively. In all their years of knowing each other, Peko had never seen him this anxious. She rested her free hand on his thigh.
"She's our daughter," she smiled. "Nothing is going to break her."
Cautiously, she transferred the baby to her arm closest to Fuyuhiko, just close enough so he could reach her. Still shaking, he reached out to her and gently stroked her cheek with his index finger. The newborn stirred awake and smiled a toothless grin, staring up at her father. Fuyuhiko realized how similar she looked to her mother. They shared the same wide eyes, pointed chin, and smile.
That beautiful smile.
Fuyuhiko gazed at his child with awe in his eye. He reached out to her again, and she wrapped her tiny hand around his finger. She smiled her baby-smile again, and he could feel his eyes start to water. Peko stroked her thumb over the side of the girl's face. She had started crying again as well.
"Could I- I mean- Do you think..?" Fuyuhiko couldn't quite finish his sentences, but it was clear what he was going to ask.
Peko nodded once, guiding her husband's hands towards their daughter. Cautiously, she moved the baby into the arms of a terrified Fuyuhiko. The baby rested in the crook of his arm, and he placed his other hand behind her head, grazing the soft fuzz of her hair. She barely had any hair to speak of, but the patches she had looked fine and light, much like his. She really was a perfect mix of him and Peko.
As he cradled his daughter for the first time, he couldn't help but look forward to the rest of her life. Her first steps, first words, first day of school. She would grow up to be so beautiful, so smart, so strong, and Fuyuhiko could hardly wait to be there for all of it. In this moment, even when she was only minutes old, he knew he would protect his little girl with his life forever. He hugged her gently to his chest and kissed the top of her head.
Peko, who had been watching them both, couldn't possibly be happier. Her heart was so filled with love for their little family, she had started to cry again as well. They were mostly tears of happiness, but some were also simply because she was exhausted. She rested her cheek against Fuyuhiko's shoulder, and he leaned his head against hers.
In a matter of minutes, both girls had fallen asleep. It was understandable, they had all had a rather exciting day. Fuyuhiko felt himself begin to drift as well, and he slowly allowed himself to fall asleep. It was the perfect end to the day. He had the perfect family. They were happy, healthy and safe, and you'd better fucking believe he was going to keep them that way. He smiled, nestling his face into Peko's hair, and whispered to his daughter before falling asleep;
If anyone tries to break you, they're gonna have to go through me first.
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araxiis · 5 years ago
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Late-night Shitpost
Peko is sitting at home reading when her phone goes off. It's Fuyuhiko. She answers it, but before she can say hello he cuts her off.
"Get in the fucking car."
Peko sets her book down, concerned but amused. "What's going on?" She asks
"Kazuichi left me at the fucking dollar store"
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araxiis · 5 years ago
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Next Fic- Reader's Choice!!
Ok to the 3 of you that will see this;
Give me a headcanon/prompt/idea for Kuzupeko that you've always wanted to read but never seen
And I'll write it for you!!!
Lengths will probably vary, but I would love love love to do some personal stuff for you guys!!
Ok thank you <3
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