#apparently it took me a lot of time to use a pencil comfortable bc i would grip it so tight and

[kof-xiii]

love doin art, love writing etc etc, but im realizing how fucked up my pencil holding habits have been this whole time since i was little, ive been writing more than usual now bc. notetaking, and im just noticing my notetaking slows down over a period of time bc my grip is weird(?) idk, but mostly my wrists are in so much pain theres so much movement going on but i cant help it HAHDHAHDH IT SUCKKSSS

[kylequat]

monkey, 10/16/17 - 1/11/19

this was my cat, monkey. i adopted him from a friend who found him as a kitten and raised him, but then had to move to an apartment which didn’t allow pets. he went from an indoor cat in an apartment to an indoor cat in a pretty big house, which he would run laps around. he tried to go outside desperately all the time, but we couldn’t let him out bc he hadn’t been neutered yet. on halloween night, he broke out around 8 pm, and made it all the way to my friend’s house - a mile and a half away. he returned safely at 3 am. we got him neutered and microchipped, and i got him an adorable collar with a bow tie and name tag. we let him run around outside, since he’d made it to my friends house and back safely. we absolutely loved each other. my mom said he would meow for me all day when i was at school. he would flip onto his back when he saw me so i could pet his belly - something he apparently only did for me. he was a big boy and i could bury my face in his soft big belly - mutually beneficial. he got pet with a human face and i got to stick my face in a cats belly. he chilled with me all the time in my room, he had food, water and a litter box all there.

yesterday, i was petting him, and he went outside. i didn’t see him for a little while, but i wasn’t worried bc he did that a lot and was always fine.

then i got a text from the microchip company. someone had found him, and he was now at a nearby animal hospital. he didn’t need medical attention.

i thought it was a glitch at first. i had just seen him.

i looked at the location of the animal hospital and called them.

they said someone saw him get hit by a car at camden & charmeran, a busy intersection very close to my house. they took him to the animal hospital, but he was already dead once he got there.

it had been raining for a few days, which we were all thankful for, being in a part of california which didn’t get much rain.

this also made it harder to see on the roads, and slightly slippery.

people drive very fast on camden, especially around that turn.

i’m thankful someone saw it happen and took him quickly. he wasn’t wet, and when i got to see him, i had trouble believing he was dead. he looked fine. i pet him and rubbed his belly, and it felt like he was just asleep. he wasn’t even very cold.

i put him in a circular wood box lined with the LoZ blanket he liked to sleep on. my mother and i lit sage and thanked the powers of the four cardinal directions, and their correspondences. i buried him in my backyard near the corner of our fence, which he liked to sit on and keep “lookout” for us. i put the still-lit sage on top of his box, with two large pieces of petrified wood. i began burying it after the last embers died.

this morning, i sprinkled some weed on his grave (he liked the smell of it, i swear) and drank some coffee, and remembered the mornings where he made it difficult to get out of bed. he was a very persuasive cuddler. i smoked most of a joint, but let it go out before it was finished. i placed a buddha statue and more petrified wood over his grave to protect him, and buried the roach for him.

i loved this cat with all my heart and soul. he was the second soulmate i met in october. the other almost left me by the end of that month, but i got several months with this cat. he was the only thing that could comfort me after the loss of the first. they reminded me of each other heavily. people told me “hey, you didn’t get the guy, but you got a cat! that’s way better!” i didn’t believe that entirely at first, i was still distraught by the first loss. but this second loss honestly hit me harder. this cat loved me unconditionally and always wanted to be with me. he loved me like i loved the other. and i loved monkey, he was my son, my sweet big baby. i would hold him and put his head on my shoulder, swaying lightly while leaning back so his body weight was mostly on my chest. i would sing to him, and he would listen to he music i played. he always wanted to see what i was doing. he sat on my jacket as i embroidered it, almost drank paint water, and tried to grab my pencil with his hands. (this cat did not have front and back legs, he had arms and legs. very dexterous.) he would purposely walk into my weed clouds to get stoned. i did not force it on him. we would cuddle for hours, stoned and happy, with him purring loudly the whole time. sometimes, he would start purring just from me looking at him. he loved me so much. he was my child. i wanted to be with him forever. he was so young. he was only about two years old. my two dogs from childhood are now both 13 and 9, and my mom’s bf’s dog is 15. they’re all more bonded with my mother and her bf since she is home almost all day and they like to sleep on their bed much more than mine. i put them on my bed and they lie down for 15 minutes, then go back to my moms room. this was perfect for monkey, who now got me all to himself. i felt less lonely since the dogs had been like that before i got monkey. i always had a soft warm big kitty pressed against me, purring so loud he would blow air through his lips. he had the best smile. he looked so happy. i feel terrible that he died so soon after i got him. but i also know that all the time i had with him was full of perfect love, and he seemed like a cat in heaven. there was nothing i could’ve done to prevent it, so i try not to feel guilty, except for one thing: he left around 5-6 pm, and before that he had been meowing at me to feed him. he was already developing a gut because when i first got him, i just fed him whenever he was hungry. then i read the directions on the bag, which said to give him about 1/4 of that. i was giving him twice as much as recommended already, feeding him in the morning, usually around 7 am before i went to school, and 7 pm. he left just before 7 pm.

if i had fed him, he wouldn’t have left. he would’ve stayed and chunched and munched and cuddled me.

but he was an adventurous spirit, always very curious. yesterday, he just decided to try to explore a new area of the neighborhood.

there’s a stoplight about 2 blocks down the street from where this happened, which is dumb because there is a park which would be a much better spot for a crosswalk. but there isn’t even a crosswalk. to a park. it’s just a 4 lane 30 MPH road. next to a park.

if there was a crosswalk, people wouldn’t drive so fast right there. my mother has several stories of people and animals dying in that spot.

i miss my baby. my room feels empty.

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all 92 😘

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?no way man she’d probably dom the fuck out of me

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?nope.

3. Have you taken someones virginity?n o p e

4. Is trust a big issue for you?YEAH

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?like in terms of romantic??? no. like in terms of “we have a really weird relationship and idfk how i feel @ you”? yeah.

6. What are you excited for?april 19th!!! my friend and i are going to go see phoebe bridgers in madison!!!!

7. What happened tonight?its 10am so ill roll with last night: i played nv and got killed in a beautiful cacophony of deathclaws and the legion :) and then my game crashed.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?no bc id be right there with them

9. Is confidence cute?very

10. What is the last beverage you had?i think some water? okay not the last but: hot water is so good with wildflower honey pls just drink some its good for your soul okay???

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?opposite is bullshit but i guess like,, 3? half my friends are nonbinary so counting EVERYONE regardless of gender and shit id say 6 people

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?im a proud supporter of boys in skinny jeans and i own 2 or 3 pairs

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?my main ho @thebonerfoy is coming up to visit me and were probably gonna pack all my shit in her car and play cards against humanity

14. What are you going to spend money on next? lmao probably my student loans. unless i can get the hours i asked for at work or a sugar daddy, then im gonna buy a proper lid for my fishtank bc my poor kid has a piece of cardboard rn.

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?no

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?yeah. even in a state of stagnation were changing somehow.

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?probably amanda, but im working on trying to be better with everyone

18. The last time you felt broken?my dude, im broken right now. its okay though. like i said, im working on it. were all fckn broken somehow.

19. Have you had sex today?not unless a ghost and i got in on in my sleep. which would be pretty cool ngl

20. Are you starting to realize anything?on a deep level: i deserve respect and a lot of my issues relate directly to my upbringing, including my inability to receive praise or speak well of myselfon a not-deep level: kinda hungry.

21. Are you in a good mood?i think i just heard fedex or ups outside so my mood just skyrocketed

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?maybe like. nurse sharks. theyre really cute.

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?yeah

24. What do you want right this second?to take a day to go into the city with all my friends that i cant see on a regular basis

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?probably be upset unless we discussed it beforehand. then id be fckn cheering for them like you go get some!!!! do it man!!!! in general tho: if i wasnt with them and they didnt show interest in me and showed interest in someone else id just move tf on.

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?half of it is bc my roots are growing out

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?no. too boring.

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?okay so i went to renew my library books and one of my favorite youtubers is on the library website dressed as one of his characters and i completely flipped because i watch his gaming channel and now hes interviewing authors for my library??? he doesnt even live in my town!! hes in madison!!

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?no? im enjoying my solitude atm

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?depends on the person

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?no! hes my friend and gives really good advice!

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?i think so. i mean, were kind of a thing.

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?yeah.

34. Listening to?killer - phoebe bridgers

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?only if im doing a rough journal spread, which i dont normally do

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?hes probably in class right now. 

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?love at first sight? no. some sort of mutual infatuation/attraction? yes.

38. Who did you last call?my mom

39. Who was the last person you danced with?dancing with as in both dancing at the same time? probably amanda or my mom.

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?we were dating and he was cute lmao

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? a couple months ago? 

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?no bc she leaves for work before i wake up

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?constantly.

44. Do you tan in the nude?lmao no.

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?no. as previously stated, i liked the guy and he was cute. why would i take that back?

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?yeah

47. Who was the last person to call you?my mom

48. Do you sing in the shower?sometimes

49. Do you dance in the car?yEAH

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?yes i love my bow :’) its so good and wow i love archery

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?picture day junior year of highschool, and if that doesnt count: my mother took me in at jcp to have pictures taken when i graduated 8th grade and theyre awful bc my hair is so long and its so not me

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?excuse me, how dare you,, in this house we ask for war and peace for christmas because npgc1812 is so good and then get addicted to ghost quartet (@ anyone reading this: pls listen to ghost quartet it is so so so good)

53. Is Christmas stressful?depends on the year, but i hope in the future i can spend it with my friends :)

54. Ever eat a pierogi?i just had some last night for dinner and im probably going to eat the leftovers in a couple minutes. also, my mother is polish and we see her family for holidays, so yeah. lots of pierogi in this house.

update: i got the leftovers

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?idk??? apple? im basic okay i dont eat pie

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?1. teacher2. ballerina3. both 1 & 2, simultaneously4. paleontologist5. archaeologist6. both 4 & 5, simultaneously7. librarian8. game designer9. author/illustrator

57. Do you believe in ghosts?yeah

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?almost daily

59. Take a vitamin daily?im supposed to ;) vitamin d deficiency like a real champ

60. Wear slippers?real talk i never liked slippers but then i bought these cute pig slippers @ walmart for $10 and i love them so much i tried wearing them to sleep last night. also im wearing them rn theyre so cute

61. Wear a bath robe?i live in a dorm, so yeah. to the bathroom and back when i take a shower. sometimes im lazy and i just run around in a towel but so do half the people on my side of the hall lmao were all lazy and dead inside

62. What do you wear to bed?fluffy pajama pants or sweats, tshirt or hoodie, socks, sometimes slippers.. once i fell asleep with a beanie on. when im being an Adult i wear my actual pajamas!!! like a legit shirt and pants that match

63. First concert?none that i was old enough to remember :’) apparently my mom took me to the rodeo when we lived in texas and saw some country group but i was like 2 so idfk

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?TARGET I AM A CERTIFIED TARGET GAY

65. Nike or Adidas?adidas bc my feet are too wide to fit in nikes

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?yall real talk i used to love cheetos but i think im allergic to them now? last time i had them my throat got all swollen and hurt for like 3 days so im gonna have to say fritos. plus theyre really good if you put them in chili

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?sunflower seeds bc im a slut for anything i can have a spitting contest with

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?lmao i used to like her when i was like. 11. not my scene anymore

69. Ever take dance lessons?i dont think so?

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?anything that makes them happy, but also something fun!!!! like wedding photographer or a baker or maybe zookeeper?

71. Can you curl your tongue?idk??? kinda????? i can tie a cherry stem so i want to say yes.

72. Ever won a spelling bee?no i always got out bc my anxiety made me stutter/rush and miss letters, so i never even got past the classroom levels to the real thing

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?a lot!!! i laugh so hard i cry and get a stomach ache more than id like to admit

74. What is your favorite book?eleanor & park by rainbow rowell :) OR alice’s adventures in wonderland by lewis caroll

75. Do you study better with or without music?depends on if i can get into hyperfocus mode or not. if not, then i pick one song and put it on loop and blast it until it fades and is just loud background noise, but if i can focus then silence is best

76. Regularly burn incense?i used to but no burning anything in the dorms :( then i came home for break and it started giving me a headache

77. Ever been in love?i think so

78. Who would you like to see in concert?kesha, against me!, my chemical romance (rip), bigbang (also rip)

79. What was the last concert you saw?the one i mentioned earlier @ a rodeo

80. Hot tea or cold tea?hot tea

81. Tea or coffee?i live on coffee but i love tea too so both

82. Favorite type of cookie?mmm snickerdoodle. or just sugar cookies. chocolate chip is good when theyre hot and melty but not as good when theyre cold

83. Can you swim well?yeah! i love swimming!

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?yeah?

85. Are you patient?hahahahahahhahahahhahahhaa

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?oo. oooooo. okay so dj would have more variety of music but im a sucker for live music??? idk i feel like a band would be more memorable, but what if they fuck up your favorite song??? but what if they make it more special???????

87. Ever won a contest?yeah! i won an art contest once and got my drawing printed on christmas cards for a nonprofit that did things for cancer patients!

88. Ever have plastic surgery?im 17 i dont have that kind of money

89. Which are better black or green olives?depends on what theyre in?

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?good. live your life fuck the rules

91. Best room for a fireplace?bedroom!!! i love fireplaces in bedrooms its such a Look

92. Do you want to get married?idk. if it happens then it happens. im not planning on it though.

[rilenerocks]

  A good friend of mine told me a while back that I was “living large.” I guess I’d have to agree with her. After Michael died, I thought very hard about how I wanted to live the rest of my life. I’d always thought that based on the longevity in Michael’s family, that I’d either die before him or that we’d age together. I didn’t know what I’d feel like after the five years of his cancer dominating our lives. In the months before his death, he’d ask me what I was going to do without him. I truthfully responded that I had absolutely no clue. We’d been together for so many decades. I never imagined life absent his presence. He encouraged me to find partnership, saying I was born to be with someone. As it turns out, that was true. But apparently he was the only someone. I haven’t had the slightest interest in these past few years of seeking out a new companion. I’m still with him. But I have chosen to live in ways that I would’ve liked to share with him. Ways that I know would he’d be glad I’d chosen, an active adventurous life, both mentally and physically. The mental part has been easy. I’ve always been intellectually motivated and curious so there’s no end to my interests. I can say that happily, I’m never bored. I’m more likely to be frustrated that there isn’t enough time in a day for me to explore all my ideas.

The more physically demanding life was more of a challenge. After hobbling around with two bone-on-bone knees, I finally got replacements which changed the way I could experience the world. But even before that, I struck out on my own, traveling alone to Sedona and the National Monuments of Arizona. I spent a week in Cincinnati, enjoying my first ever professional tennis tournament and seeing my beloved Roger Federer. I went alone to Glacier National Park and also took a fifteen day road trip with my son which covered twelve states. I planned a 50th high school reunion, attended the Laver Cup in Chicago and have seen a half dozen live concerts which included Paul McCartney. I then drove south with my sister and knocked three more states off my list, hoping to see all fifty of them before I die. I only have a few left.I had a big adventure planned for May, a trip to Vancouver, followed by an Alaska/Denali sea and land journey which would ultimately end in Anchorage. Fifteen days of new experiences which would offset the challenges of May. My wedding anniversary is on the 1st, followed by Mother’s Day, the birthday of my oldest friend who’s been dead now for 32 years, then my birthday, the anniversary of Michael’s death and finally, his birthday. A rugged month. But then along came Covid19.

I was lucky enough to squeeze in a trip to Naples, Florida to visit friends  before the pandemic began to pick up steam. By the time my ten day vacation ended, I had a harrowing, paranoid journey home through two airports, one flight and one bus ride,  during which I sanitized my hands until they felt like sandpaper and avoided close contact with anyone breathing nearby. From then on, March 11th, it’s been self-isolation until my kids and I got to the point where we felt safe enough to see each other. I’m one of the lucky ones who has family nearby. They are working online and trying to educate their kids for whom school has been cancelled. Needless to say, the Alaska trip is off-all that’s left of it is trying to recover the money that was paid in advance. Certainly not the most wonderful experience. I can’t go swimming any more because the pool is closed, but I am grateful that I can walk without pain. I wish I could get some of those endorphins that always emerge from me in water but that’s not happening. Life has become unpredictable and much smaller. The question is, for how long? I’ve been thinking about what will happen when this need to re-open life in my part of the world becomes real. Will I ever live large again? Or is it time to scale back and live in a limited space.

Doctors are reporting that a mysterious blood-clotting complication is killing their coronavirus patients.

Every day there are new scary headlines. It seems that in rapid jolts, a small, threatening twist to this unpredictable virus is unearthed. If you shut the political noise out and study the science reporting, it seems clear that the predictive algorithms are fluctuating. It’s not only older people who are vulnerable. Anyone can get sick and anyone can be a silent carrier. Significant and widespread therapeutic treatments seem to be pretty distant right now as does a vaccine. And who knows about the efficacy of a vaccine? Flu vaccines help, but in some years they’re hit or miss. What is the overall implication of that formula?  

This is my bedroom, my sanctuary where I retreated every night with Michael, where we found comfort and respite with each other. Thankfully, I still feel the same about my room. This is where I think about these uncertain times and how I want to handle myself in the midst of them. I look around and see the choices of my life. My partner and my family photos. The Beatles and Federer.

My favorite artworks and my books are close by. I have my small fish tank with the little swimmers whose bright rhythmic darting is so relaxing at night. There are volumes of photo albums and a hoard of Michael’s movies on dvd. I have beautiful notes he wrote me long ago, in the beginning, which warm me still, after a lifetime.

Rocks and seeds sit on my bookshelf. Shells that I gathered on the Gulf shore beaches are arranged on a wall plaque I made, right next to the Mayan calendar date of our May 1st wedding anniversary, made in Tulum, Mexico where we went for our 25th. This is my small life, inside this space. I’m happy here. I feel like choosing this for now is the wisest thing to do, given the current murky future out there in the bigger world. Going to a movie theater? How about the pool which might remind me of a petri dish? Will I feel comfortable going to get my hair cut soon? That question is funny. I’ve already cut my bangs twice. But I’m not ready to take on all these mystifying layers on my head. Back when I was thinking about Marie Kondo’s minimalist guide, holding an object in your hand to see if it gave you joy and if not, discarding it, I grabbed my bag of hair accessories from my dresser. Back when I had long hair I used them all the time. I did the looking thing and just got annoyed so I put them back where they came from. That must have been a prescient moment – I’m certainly glad I’ve kept them around to help me manage my untamed mane. Who knows? Maybe I’ll have one more crack at a ponytail before I die. So no more big trips for the foreseeable future. And I’m on the fence about whether the benefits will outweigh the risks for what were seemingly normal activities BC – Before Covid19. But I still have my garden which provides ample opportunities for fresh air, exercise and interesting yard visitors. I’ve been having car social hours with my friends, meeting at parks or in other natural areas where we can chat from within our safe spaces and still feel connected. There are plenty of clouds to photograph and paving bricks to decorate with my collections of shells and rocks from travels. I’ve been trying to recover my drawing skills, primitive though they were. There are lots of Netflix shows, of course, and many old movies to watch.  I always have books.

If I’m going to be leading this smaller life, though, I felt like I needed something more, a new thing to love. I was thinking I’d just hang around waiting for “it” to come to me. Suddenly I remembered what I’d loved a long time ago, back in the time before computers and cell phones with keyboards. Back in the time when cursive was still a thing. I remembered learning to write cursive in elementary school. First we had to get through printing. All of this learning and practicing was done in pencil first. There had to be a way to erase mistakes and pencil erasers were easier to use than ink ones. We had these little lined workbooks, the lines that delineated the heights of upper and lower case letters. I just loved the whole process. We got penmanship grades. I was good at all of it. When you got really good, making few, if any mistakes, you graduated to pens. I loved pens. For the longest time, my favorites were Parker T-ball jotters. They moved so smoothly across a piece of paper. But better things awaited and I found them. Fountain pens. Beautiful fountain pens with little tubes of ink that you popped into their chassis. For a time, I collected them. They were sleek and romantic, perfect for the aspiring writer or at least, a writer of journals. I went into the office Michael and I shared and rummaged around in my supplies. And there it was, in a beaten up metal case.

It hadn’t been used in ages so I had to order ink. When I loaded it in, voila! A working fountain pen after so many years. Indeed, this is a really small thing, this slender little pen. But vistas have opened to me and it’s going to be a wonderful companion for this time when I’ll be living smaller.

  Living Smaller A good friend of mine told me a while back that I was “living large.” I guess I’d have to agree with her.

[sleepinglightt]

All?

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?Yes
2. You talked to an ex today, correct?Yup
3. Have you taken someones virginity?Not that I know of
4. Is trust a big issue for you?Definitely, it’s one of the biggest things I struggle with 
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?Yup 
6. What are you excited for?I’m excited to graduate and get out of highschool and FINALLY get my nose pierced and some tattoos done 
7. What happened tonight?Tonight I had a break down and then I also ate pizza so I guess that improved my day a little bit 🤷🏻‍♀️
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?Kind of, like being drunk isn’t disgusting but when you can’t hold yourself up or you’re throwing up all over yourself it’s kinda gross 
9. Is confidence cute?Confidence is cute, but being cocky/ full of yourself is a huge turn off
10. What is the last beverage you had?I just drank some sweet tea 
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?Literally none, I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to 100% trust another guy. There’s one person that I trust like 99% but I’m still really reserved with some things. 
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?I own a few pairs actually 
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?I’m probably gonna watch YouTube and then fall asleep while texting people 
14. What are you going to spend money on next?Christmas presents and also maybe a few lattes 
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?Yes 
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?I hope I do, I’m kind of an angry person rn and I’m working on it. It’s just hard dealing with some of my day to day problems and I’m always stressed, so maybe in 3 months it’ll get better 🤷🏻‍♀️
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?My best friend briann 
18. The last time you felt broken?Everyday wdym 
19. Have you had sex today?Nope 
20. Are you starting to realize anything?I’m starting to realize how much stress is really going on in my life and the effect it’s having on my physical health is becoming a lot more apparent in my day to day activities 
21. Are you in a good mood?For the most part, I’m in some pain but I took some medicine to help and it’s starting to kick in so I feel a little bit better 
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?I’m cool with swimming with nurse sharks or sharks like that, but not sharks with sharp teeth (even though I know they won’t hurt me I still get paranoid) 
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?Nope, my eyes are kinda hazel and my dads are a really pretty sterling blue
24. What do you want right this second?I just wanna be truly happy again I guess 
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?I’d probably be really hurt tbh 
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?My current hair color is like a red velvet kind of color, so no lol 
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?Nope
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?A lot of things make me laugh, probably something stupid though 
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?Yeah ://
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?I think most people deserve second chances but if they do something REALLY shitty then I don’t think they deserve it 
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?Nope
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?Yes
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?I do drink soda, just not very often. I drink sweet tea a lot more. 
34. Listening to?The sound of my fan
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?Yup, I prefer mechanical pencils though 
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?Yeah, they’re at home
37. Do you believe in love at first sight?Nope
38. Who did you last call?My mom 
39. Who was the last person you danced with?My boyfriend
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?Bc I love and care about them 
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?It’s been a really long time, but I love cupcakes
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?Yes
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?Plenty of times
44. Do you tan in the nude?Nope. I don’t tan at all lmao 
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?Nope
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?I texted someone, but I didn’t hear their voice or anything. Idk if that counts or not. 
47. Who was the last person to call you?Some random number from Ohio 
48. Do you sing in the shower?Sometimes, but most of the time I just sit in silence and think about stuff 
49. Do you dance in the car?All the time
50. Ever used a bow and arrow?Yeah, I shoot one at least once a week for a class I’m taking in school rn 
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?Senior portraits :(( 
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?I love musicals honestly but they’re kinda cliche
53. Is Christmas stressful?Sometimes, I always wanna get people things but sometimes I don’t have the money and that stresses me out a lot 
54. Ever eat a pierogi?Nope and I have no idea what that is 
55. Favorite type of fruit pie?Lemon!!
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?I wanted to be a horse back rider, I have no idea why 
57. Do you believe in ghosts?Yeah 
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?I get it all the time, I had it twice today 
59. Take a vitamin daily?I’m supposed to take an iron supplement daily but I haven’t been lately oops
60. Wear slippers?Nope
61. Wear a bath robe?Nope
62. What do you wear to bed?A big t short & underwear 
63. First concert?Pierce the veil and emarosa along with some other people :)) 
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?Target, duh
65. Nike or Adidas?Nike
66. Cheetos Or Fritos?Cheetos
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?Sunflower seeds 
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?Um none of them tbh 
69. Ever take dance lessons?Nope
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?Not really 
71. Can you curl your tongue?Yes
72. Ever won a spelling bee?No :(( I was in one and I misspelled some German words by like one letter and I’m still mad about it even though it was in 5th grade 
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?Yes
74. What is your favorite book?I have several, but one of them is looking for Alaska
75. Do you study better with or without music?Without, I like to have it quiet when I study 
76. Regularly burn incense?Nope
77. Ever been in love?Yeah 
78. Who would you like to see in concert?I really wanted to see David Bowie bc I love him so much but he passed and I’m kinda heartbroken still 
79. What was the last concert you saw?I went to see ringo star with my grandparents
80. Hot tea or cold tea?Depends on the day 🤷🏻‍♀️
81. Tea or coffee?Coffee
82. Favorite type of cookie?White chocolate macadamia nut
83. Can you swim well?Not really 
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?Nope
85. Are you patient?Nope
86. DJ or band, at a wedding?Band
87. Ever won a contest?I don’t think so, But I won a lot of softball tourneys with my team when I used to play. Does that count? 
88. Ever have plastic surgery?Nope
89. Which are better black or green olives?Green
90. Opinions on sex before marriage?I honestly don’t care, to each his own
91. Best room for a fireplace?Living room 
92. Do you want to get marriedYeah, one day I wanna get married and have a bunch of dogs but not any time soon