#anyways aces we're homies. I care bout y'all 🖤🩶🤍💜

[2pen2wildfire]

Y'know I identified as asexual for like, a WHILE before eventually realizing I wasn't, and honestly I regret nothing. I mean I was like 15/16 and Mormon (repressed exmo gang eyy✌️) so it's not like I'd be having sex anyway, I wasn't missing out on anything (and aces aren't "missing out" in general, they're doin their own thing and I love that). But in my case identifying the way I did allowed me to step back and just. Get in tune with my emotions and attractions and everything. I'd realized I liked girls at 13 and instantly I thought that meant I had to sexualize them, objectify them even. And that led to a lot of awkward interractions and feeling like shit about myself for being creepy (didn't help that I'm autistic and had trouble figuring out what was too much). So I really think I needed to be ace for a while. I needed that time to let myself desexualize love and attraction in my brain until I was in a place where I could express sexuality in a healthier way. In a similar way I think it was good that I went through so many gender and sexual/romantic orientation labels before settling on what I am now, because it allowed me to analyze why I identify this way and what it means to me. My identity is stronger and more solid because of the way I grappled with it throughout highschool, and I learned a whole lot about other communities along the way!