#anyway you don't see it anymore bc those people realized tumblr is not a good place to advertise

[reedfulton]

hii!! I was wondering if we can get some of your charlie/fulton hcs, or just about them in general. I saw on your fulton rarepairs post that they were one of your pairs and i’d love to hear more on what you have to say about them (bc you didn’t get to in the post) bc I really love them and their paring.

omg absolutely!! sorry, i've totally abandoned tumblr because of school commitments and stuff so i hope this ask isn't too old lmao. but anyway, here are some of my hcs for them!! they're one of my favorite pairs ever and i'm honestly very surprised that more people don't ship them.

i've always said that i think they're childhood friends. i think i posted something about it a long time ago and then proceeded to not elaborate on it, but i always thought that fulton's home life wasn't great and so he was kind of allowed (or forced) to wander minneapolis/stillwater just to get out of the house. i did the math at one point and realized that the diner that casey works at is kind of in-between the heart of minneapolis and stillwater, so it wouldn't be insane to think that fulton might have ended up at the diner a lot as a kid. i think he and casey became 'friends' first (casey practically adopted him) and then when casey brought charlie to the diner because she didn't have anyone to watch him, they became fast friends

their friendship started off so well because fulton was extremely shy and charlie could talk to a brick wall and make good conversation, so charlie didn't really expect anything from fulton and fulton has no problem sitting and listening and retaining information from stories and stuff. that's kind of how their relationship works too lmao. charlie's always talking about random things and his wikipedia deep dives and hockey stats and fulton will definitely talk back if he has something to say, but sometimes charlie just needs a sounding board and fulton is more than happy to be that for him (and charlie is very impressed with all the random stuff fulton remembers just because charlie's the one that told him)

fulton's had a crush on charlie since they were in peewees. i don't think they were still super close when fulton joined the ducks, but they definitely still spoke to each other in class and stuff, and fulton joining sparked their friendship (and fulton's feelings for charlie) again. it's a super cute puppy-love kind of crush, and fulton has absolutely no clue how to deal with it lol. it's also definitely why fulton was watching the D5 games before he ever joined the team, and why he was so ready to fight the hawks the second he had the opportunity.

they definitely have one of those relationships where most people can't even tell if they're best friends or dating. they don't really do PDA (other than charlie laying on him like a cat, which he also does with a lot of people), and 'dude' is their main term of endearment in public lol.

casey LOVES fulton so much it's insane. charlie jokes that when they come home for breaks, she's more excited to see fulton than she is to see him and hes right

fulton's the little spoon but he'd kill anyone that ever found out

charlie is exactly 3 inches taller than fulton and it pisses fulton off to NO END. charlie knows this and definitely teases him about it.

i think once charlie bulks up a bit (probably like junior/senior year) they get to a point where they can wear each other's clothes and then just. never stop. at this point they don't even know who's clothes originally belonged to who anymore.

their first kiss happens after a game where charlie got injured and fulton felt so bad that he couldn't do anything about it that he's fussing over charlie in the locker room afterwards and bumbling his way through apologizes and charlie just. kisses him to shut him up as a funny haha joke but then realizes how fulton reacted to it and is like "oh shit this is actually A Thing"

fulton fell first charlie fell harder

they don't do PDA but they're all over each other the second they're alone. both of them have definitely made the other one irish goodbye at multiple events just so they can go home and make out and cuddle

sorry if these make ZERO sense i definitely was Not writing these at work :D. but i love talking about them so thank you so much for this ask! if you have any other prompts or ideas for them or anything do not hesitate to reach out, now that my semester is over and i'm just working full-time i totally have extra time and want to be more active on here :]

[fr-wiwiw]

A small heavy thought

just been up in my head again. currently taking things slower bcs i've tried a muay thai class once, i liked it but i hate the warm up cardio lol. my body is sore, tore the skin on a knuckle abit but i had fun. life is.. well, it's better and not actually. better as in i'm mentally getting better, accepting life the way it is bit by bit does helps. at the same time kinda dreading the thought of certain things that i'm not sure is within my control or not. hope is one of a good factor to keep me stay afloat but sometimes i wonder the things that i prayed and worked for will not be a reality. my life will be stay like this for the longest time and i'll give up hoping. there's a tiny voice in me that keeps saying "you'll get there, the things you're praying for and envisioned and manifest will be there"- i know it will, but i can't lie nowadays doubt seems easy to creep in. i know a lot of people feel this too. perhaps this is a normal thought in your late 20s or perhaps it's just me as always being an overthinker (what a blessing and a curse for artist). but i keep trying to hold onto this tiny voice and to my creator to always keep the faith bcs the things and people i have right now are the very thing i prayed and manifest for <3 be it irl or online the one thing i don't like and i have to bear for now is that i seem to cannot allow myself to indulge in things i used to do. even the simplest thing like drawing Gahan for my brainrot or just draw a fucking horse / any animal i love. i realized i've been sabotaging myself by doing this so i'm currently learning how to incorporate the simple or small subject into my drawings while i sharpen my artskills. i'm not the fastest at drawing like those people who can follow art trends in a seemingly a snap of a finger, it's hard for me to accept that i'm just like one of my favorite animal, a turtle. also i find that i'm getting more closed off to share about my feelings with people irl the more i get older, seeing as people are.. well, you know how human can get. it's rare to found someone who are willing to listen and understand, i just don't want to deal with anymore bs and fortunately there's things called boundaries. well.. i'm trying my best, i know i can and will be better but it's frustrating when people (including myself) compare one pace to another. in the end i just duck my head and keep on focusing on me. hoping there will be good changes again and a better life than this but for now.. it is what it is. i'm rambling now hahah i seem to always ramble here, guess tumblr is my safe space now lol thanks to those who read till the end anyway ^^ hope we all have a good / better life ahead

[tomuchabotme]

what a stantwt can do to you? i'll say "a lot". here i am with my true feelings.

i am not a tumblr user, just sneak here and there reading jimin's fans (pjms? i won't call people there true solo stans, rather jimin-biased ex-armys) opinions since they sound truly logical and correspond with reality that i also see. a much healthier place than stantwt.

yesterday i came across one discussion about "who" mv with "not yet known" eyes on falling billboard, some think its jungkook others think it can be taehyung. anyway, it may be jimin's way of some kind of a spoiler for a future collab.

and you know what? i don't want any collab with either jungkook nor taehyung. they can harmonize well and all but i am sick of it. i am sick of all the hell fans go through when jimin is near them both (moreover, imagine what i feel when i think about what jimin goes through). and what is more i am sick of the fact that jimin went to ms with jungkook and left a show with him for us.

do i sound as a person who seems to be angry at jimin? probably yes. but i am not. if jimin wants to do something he can. if he likes doing something he can. i will appreciate every piece of his artistry. but will i fight for everything? i am sorry, but not. let me give some examples. i didn't like smeraldo garden marching band much. i streamed and voted as if i did like it a lot but not with strong enthusiasm. the song has a good sound, it is energetic but not my taste. are you sure show. i watched it but skipped more than half of scenes (as you can guess, all scenes with jungkook and taehyung).

am i bad for thinking like that? i believe i am a bad fan with some projections of my own feelings on jimin. but deep down i realize that i can't help but wish this show to end as far as possible (and never ever happened to be honest). and i wish there will be no collab with those two members especially with jungkook. and if there is, i'll listen to it because i love jimin's voice. but i won't stream a minute because i can't consume jikook content anymore even if jimin is present and i want him to have it all with numbers and everything.

and the very reason is all the hate i see jimin goes through when he chooses to give us more content with him/them. i wish i erased my memory.

hii. I think here if you follow the rights blogs, it's a better place than twt

your feelings are right. You may not like or not agree with things jimin does, I also don't want him to collab with jk bc it would be a mess and I dont think jk would bring something new to jimin

speaking about sm, jimin and jk are friends, they know each other for more than 10 years, and I think their friendship (to them) is more than hate and fan wars. they went together bc maybe, they felt it would be easier

and about 'are you sure', i get you but also, i enjoy seeing jimin. I try not to focus on the hate the show means because I really miss jimin, so I'm eat up his content even though I don't like jk and tae.

jimin can do what he wants and it's up to us whether we like it or not. if you don't want to consume jikook content, don't do it, you're not obligated to.

[dreamtydraw]

hi there!! so I was recently looking for visual novels to occupy my time with, and I came across 21 questions, so I played it. and I loved it. so I played tulipe. and I liked that one a lot too. then I checked out your social media and I was really curious about the ✨️paranormal club lore✨️, so I just played all of them-

I didn't realize it when I was playing the game, but I've seen a lot of your our life art here on tumblr and I can't get over how pretty it is! even when it's just doodles that you do for fun, I still really like your style cause you make everyone look so nice. even if you're just drawing clem in a clown suit, we still love that

I don’t usually draw anymore because even though I used to like it, I feel like I lack all motivation to do it now, but seeing your art is really giving me inspiration to pick up a paper and a pencil and start drawing again :D

I personally share your love for visual novels, and I enjoy replaying yours because they're honestly so nice. I guess I just like seeing the way the story progresses and how relatable the characters feel, especially as a non-binary person who struggles to see themselves represented in games. plus I just like the voice acting in 21 questions

if I'm honest, even if it wasn't my usual genre of romance, night shift was a good play as well, especially for your first game! I can feel the inspiration from horror games and I love those types of things sm. I get why you'd wanna go back and redo it someday, but I think especially in terms of the plot and characters, it had a captivating plot and it was well written... françoise betrayed us tho rip

also this isn't about the games but from what I've seen, it honestly feels like you're a really nice person who happens to be really talented and so you deserve really nice things. even if you haven't been getting them until now, I hope you do start because you deserve it!! I like reading your visual novel rambles bc I agree with a lot of stuff, just me nodding my head in agreement like I wouldn't look crazy if anyone saw me. and it feels nice to see that people still talk about fictif stories to this day cause god they've been collecting dust 😭 I miss those days where I'd be so excited whenever an update was announced... guess I'll never get my rime route now :(

lastly, I just wanna say that I love clem sm. they're literally so cool but still so adorable and I wanna give them all the love and affection. I want us to bake together and then paint each other's nails 💅

and this question has been keeping me awake at night so I just have to ask, I know that at the end of the game he said we'd keep in contact like aurore and her partner, but would they let mc just. follow them to London while he does his thing? there's no point in being in France without your blond french, and I've always wanted to move to an english speaking place anyways... clem can put me in their suitcase, I'll be good 🫶

thank you for listening to my silly rambles, I hope you're having a good day and if not, I really hope it gets better! remember to take care of yourself and take breaks whenever you need them, you're only human so you aren't always gonna be perfect, but at least you know you always try your best even if things don't go the way you want them to <3

Anon whoever you are I love you and I really wish you a wonderful day I started sobbing a bit too hard and now my eyes kinda hurt a bit but your message makes me feel a lot of things and I’m really grateful for such kindness. I’m fucking crying on my poor plushies cause I don’t have tissue, they are all wet and miserable 😭😭😭😭 Words trully can’t explain how much this message means to me, like, this is the kind of message that i’ll keep in my phone gallery to look at when i feel sad and it’s just so sweet and it rassure all the bad things I think about myself so I’m very emotional. It’s 2 am and I had a very long day so I physically and emotionally don’t handle it well but i promise it’s / pos i’m just blabling incoherent thoughts just to say thank you so much and I’m glad you enjoy what I create and I’m glad you draw again and I hope you find joy in making stuff you like + you get soft and cold pillow at night and warm meals in winter anon.

Now i am so sad to spread bad news BUT…. The canon ending of 21 questions is the platonic ending. 21q happens in 2019, Clem move to London in 2021 and ( spoiler alert ) will be spotted in Apple bag which takes place in 2022. Clem’s character and story haven’t entirely been revealed in his game for reasons that I’ll hopefully share in a futur but it’s for the same reasons that realistically… the relationship in 21q is destined to end with distance.

BUT that not the end if you imagine a future with Clem. If your intention is to romance them then there is an open window for the timeline where he’s a bit older. When exactly ? I won’t spoil but all I have to say is that this relationship can work on long term ! It’s just a good person, wrong moment situation and once you know everything about him, then his romance options become more real :}

Mystic talk sorry, like i said i just had an emotional breakdown and it’s late so i will shut my mouth and go to sleep ! Once again thank you so much for your kind words an hopefully you’ll like what I plan to release in the future. Tons of love ���️

[ksfoxwald]

Fire and Hemlock Readalong: Part 2 Chapter 3

Another quiet chapter in which not much seems to happen - Polly even comments on it in the text - but a lot of things are set in motion.

Polly goes to visit Tom again, and he asks her to find Tan Coul's companions in a photo of the orchestra. It's he who asks "could Tan Audel be a woman?" and Polly is hugely embarrassed that she had never considered the possibility. Thus far the women in the Nowhere stories have been the female stock characters in most heroic stories - Edna, who is awful, and Hero, who is pretending to be a boy. Once again, women in the real world prove to be more interesting and complex than in stories, but now Polly is becoming consciously aware of it.

This chapter is also full of Polly's growing awareness of sexuality. Note that it is awareness, but not understanding. David Bragge gives her money in exchange for something she does not quite understand - her silence after seeing him with another woman, though the significance is lost on her. On the train back from London, Seb is very interested in talking to her - or talking at her, really, since Seb is one of those guys. - and she does not understand why. But she's starting to be aware that there is something happening that she does not understand, rather than simply not noticing things. Encountering Carla the Landlady again:

Polly asked, feeling rather mature, "Is Carla a one-parent family?" "No," Mr. Lynn said. "I think there are several Mr. Carlas. It's rather confusing. "Oh," said Polly, and felt childish after all."

Polly is in that very messy part of growing up where one is constantly bouncing between feeling too old for things and too young for things and being hugely embarrassed about both. Diana is so good at capturing that teenage awkwardness in ways I don't really see anymore. Part of why I think Diana Wynne Jones might have been ace is because the way she writes about teenagers becoming aware of sexuality makes sense to me more than 99% of modern YA novels where people are having feelings, recognizing what those feelings are, and acting on them, among a group of peers who are all having similar feelings. Does the world really work like that? I don't think I have enough of a frame of reference to know which is more typical.

Other things to note: Polly is still working mostly working on instinct in dealing with the Perry Leroys.

She knew she had broken the rules by seeing Mr. Lynn, which was what allowed Mr. Leroy his revenge.

In a way that's also a metaphor for growing up; you find yourself in a world of strange and shifting rules that no one has quite explained to you and no one wants to explain to you, but you get punished severely for breaking them.

The chapter ends when Tom convinces Polly to gives fairy tales another try - another way she is bouncing between the "too old" and "too young" - and she dutifully picks up "East of the Sun and West of the Moon." The title is another Nowhere reference; the content is an extremely obvious clue that Polly doesn't quite get. She is "too old" for fairy tales, but too young yet to realize that "well if I were her I would simply not have looked, rip you but I'm different" is not really the main takeaway.

To paraphrase that one tumblr post about Orpheus and Eurydice (which is another variant of East of the Sun): Of course it's a metaphor for grief, and who among us has not looked back in grief?

In Polly's case, it's a metaphor for knowledge, and maybe other things too. And actually, she has no right to judge the girl in East of the Sun, because she's doing the same thing. The Leroys are telling her to stay away from Tom or else, and she continues to see him anyway.

[editing to add bc I am v tired and forgot: The Obah Cypt! We have our first mention of the Obah Cypt! We don't know what it is - possibly a container, but no idea what is inside - but we are searching for it, because all good heroes need a quest.]

[queermarzipan]

[Image ID:

The first image is a screenshot of a quote tweet. It responds to a tweet reading "Why is this generation so comfortable disrespecting God? Aren't you scared ???". The response reads, "So you agree? Christianity is reinforced through fear instead of faith?" and is accompanied by with the meme screencap of Regina George leaning over the table with a predatory smile.

The second image is a screenshot of tumblr tags. They read:

#i was raised catholic but am not anymore #and when i asked one if my baptist friends in college why i should fear god #she told me that it was how you love #and she didnt see anytging wring with that #she said you fear your parents right? #andime my parents arent perfect and weve had our share of issues but ive never feared them #and she thought I WAS the crazy one for thinking that i shouldnt be afraid of the entity that supposedly created us #so many christians especially the very right wing ones tie fear with love #thats why you see them in unhappy and unbalanced marriages too #because the woman has toove the man but love here is synonymous with fear #cause to them the man is higher up than the woman #so when you take that away as with lil nas x did in his new mv #they dont know what to do and cant keep you in line because those tactics no longer work #you realize that love is NOT fear and lil nas x took his power back and made love to be joyous and sexy #i had a thought process but im running out of time before work so please excuse my rambling

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@evilkitten3 i NEED to preserve your tags:

#i'm jewish and was raised in a secular household and didn't have much religious thoughts at all until adulthood #but like. my belief is this: if there is a g-d - no clue if there is; probably we aren't supposed to know - i don't need to fear them #how g-d loves me is up to g-d. but i don't believe that love is something i should be afraid of or try to control #any deity existing on the scale typically presented in monotheistic religions would realistically be borderline incomprehensible to humans #little kids can barely understand how five minutes isn't a long time to adults. how am i meant to understand eternity? #there's no way to find out anything for sure until you die and there's no guarantee you'll find out anything even after that #so i don't think it's important to try and please g-d or even to try and understand what g-d is and what that means #i think what really matters is doing what you believe is right and making the most out of the time you're given #anyway my point is that i've never understood when xtians say they fear the deity they worship #why? why do you need to be afraid of him? if you believe he loves you why do you also believe it when people say he wants to hurt you? #why would you WANT to believe that?

sooo uh. yeah this is extremely. this is very real. i still sing at my local church bc it's a good time even though i lost my faith and. the phrase "fear the lord" comes up in the more traditional hymns a LOT. and it's always a positive. it is literally a synonym for "love" or "know" or "embrace".

i remember being taken aback as a young catholic and asking my mom what word was SUPPOSED to be there bc they clearly made a mistake (bc why would you fear the lord?? if the lord is good??) and the response was half "oh fear meant something different back then" and half "being afraid of him is natural when you believe in him because he is so powerful".

like. i grimaced all the way through that psalm. i still sing it sometimes. but yea the conflation of fear and love in christianity is VERY real and VERY present and literally baked into the scripture. i Do Not understand it

Christians hate when a gay man goes “fuck it, I’ll gladly go to Hell if you want me to so bad” because it takes the edge away from their tools of fear. If they can’t scare you with threats of eternal damnation then one of their main weapons is taken away.

[thegeminisage]

u don't have to publish this, i don't mean to make u the spokesperson for the ace community on tumblr but sometimes i feel really uncomfortable being ace on spn tumblr. like i have a lot of beloved mutuals with whom i talk abt fun narrative threads and stuff but i don't really post about my sexuality anymore post-nov 5 because i am slightly worried they might be weird about or something. probably irrational but i did see one or two of people in our circle interact w/ That User's Post and well you know.

but generally i don't like being ace online because people can be real weird about it. not sure how much of it is just me being a weirdo or legitimately picking up on a vibe.

oh yeah like i fully dumped like half of the friends i made after nov 5 because people made fun of the word queerplatonic one too many times - there was also this post going around that said something like "why are subcultures so lame today, asexual this fandom that" and yeah it was a joke post but i am no longer speaking to any of those motherfuckers who reblogged it. in my experience, it's less likely that people will be weird about your sexuality and more likely that they will straight up forget or ignore it. like i was MODDING in a discord server WITH OTHER ASEXUAL PEOPLE IN IT who were out and questionable shit would still get said bc nobody gives a fuck. like we're generally acceptable targets online. obviously i no longer speak in that server either. like i don't have the time or the patience for that bullshit.

honestly the best solution i've found is to be as loud about it as possible, and the shitheads will weed themselves out, either by being shitty to you about it directly or shitty where you can see it. bc it's such an invisible sexuality sometimes people say stuff out of ignorance rather than malice but generally the good ones will only do that a couple of times before they catch on and get better at figuring out what is & isn't acceptable. you'd actually be surprised how many people actively desire to clean up their act once they realize they're not being their best selves - when you're loud about being ace, people who are not jerks will remember you before they say something awful and think twice. (kind of how like people tend to make less blonde jokes if they know there's a blonde in the room listening.) the shitheads will continue to be shitheads. block 'em!! like if the price of admission to that internet relationship is you having to be uncomfortable w/ yourself, it's too fucking high. nobody's headcanons are worth that. (on that note since not everybody remembers which tumblr users are shitheads, i generally give close friends a pass/the benefit of the doubt if they reblog a normal post from someone else that just happens to have been written by an aphobic OP - that is ignorance and not malice and it's not that big of a deal if it only happens once in awhile.)

anyway, i've found there's quite a lot of spn tumblr that is perfectly capable of being normal about asexuals, but you won't find it if you keep the assholes on your dash. absolutely valid if you don't feel like painting a target on your back by being loud about it, how out you are is everyone's personal choice to make, but if someone says something shitty or gives you a bad vibe, just block or softblock them, reduce the time spent talking to them. better people will fill in the empty spots eventually.

[gayfrenchfry]

damn I just realized now that I've kinda started coming out to my friends being gay is just the new personality trait I fully embody to stop then from knowing anything about me. Like in middle school I was like the kinda mean one who like pushes her friends as a joke and I really hated it and wanted to not do that anymore but I was stuck because that was how everyone knew me and I was so scared of letting them know actual me and it makes me kinda thankful for social distancing and not seeing them in almost a year and most of them I haven't even talked to past a happy birthday text in the group chat especially since I went to a trade highschool instead of the regular hs in my town so since it's been so long I finally have a chance to reinvent myself as who I want to be but like thinking back to about a month ago when I was with two of my friends, one I'm pretty close with, one not so much, and id already come out to the first one but I wasn't sure about coming out to the other, but then the whole afternoon there were great moments that totally set up a good gay joke so Id mumble it when my back was turned but I eventually stopped mumbling and just said them out loud and those two straight friends probably didn't get most of them but it was fine the other one figured it out so I didn't have to awkwardly come out and then the rest of the time I was just being the gay friend but it felt wrong -especially when we started talking more about lgbt stuff and I thought I wanted to talk about it since I havent been able to but it was just the same conversation as Id had with her before, about her gay cousins and what not super homophobic but not exactly cool thing her mom said when there was a gay couple on tv, and the other one had to mention that she would date a girl, but girls are just too dramatic (literally everyone is chill but this one fucking girl is a drama fucking queen and I guess she thinks every other girl is too when the only people I have seen that come anywhere close to matching her level of drama is my old robotics team that had only boys on it)(also you don't have to give me a reason why you're not gay I don't give a fuck you can just be straight its fine)-since I was still kinda hiding just behind something new and at my new school it's great, when I get to actually go into school I'm in a new class each week bc we get to try out all the different shops and I can pretty much just sit next to the other obviously queer kids in class and we share a couple jokes, trade instagrams, and we're just instant friends and it's half of the reason I wanted to go to another school bc I wanted to meet other queer people and have more friends who get me a bit more. And everything is fun and cool there but with my friends I feel like I either gotta straighten up bc none of them (except my closeted gf) get any gay jokes or I gotta be outrageously gay and flamboyant or shit and both just feel wrong.

Anyways thats my rant, back to bottling everything up until the next time I just empty it out into the void called tumblr

[yaboylevi]

(It's fine if you don't want to publish this bc it's salty but if you could post something to let me know Tumblr didn't eat these, I would appreciate it ^^; ) Your post about feeling like Isym dislikes Eren was eye-opening. I've been bothered by some of his comments about Eren + the way the narrative has been handling Eren for the past arc, and this made me finally realize why. It feels like even after so many years of the manga, Isym still doesn't care about Eren except as a way to move- (1/3)

-the plot, and he still seems to view his MC in the most negative light possible. And now after the timeskip, it's like all of Eren's good qualities have been removed or warped to something negative, to the point it's like he's backtracked on some previous development. This arc's lack of insight to Eren was somewhat interesting at first but now it's making me feel like Eren is being written as a source of plot twists more than a character. I remember being so interested in Isym saying- (2/3)

-that Eren was no longer a slave to the story but really it's like he is more than ever, just in sort of an opposite way now- Eren's the one moving the plot now but Isym is writing him in a forced way to shock the audience with twists, rather than giving us more organic character development. That's how I feel after the last few chapters anyway. (3/3)

Referenced post.

I don’t have an issue with posting this, because you’ve been respectful in your salt! It’s okay to voice negative opinions. Especially because it stems from frustration, not blind nasty hate, so I think it’s constructive as well as liberating!

I too was very excited when I read Eren wasn’t a slave to the story anymore. Heck, I translated that part so I was like “AAAAAA”. But now it seems Isayama is just using Eren to make some point about morality and negative, tragic sacrifices or something like that. I’m not sure, because as I stated multiple times, I don’t understand the point of...some major things that happened in the past years in snk, so I’ll reserve judgment for the end.

To be honest, I feel that if there was more space for insight into the characters, especially Eren, but not exclusively, and sharing of feelings between characters, it wouldn't feel like Isayama doesn’t care about them. Like, I can pinpoint one of these few moments in chapter 108. And the previous chapter where some main characters had talked about their feelings, was way back at the end of Uprising, chapter 72 and a bit in chapter 73... Both in the story and in real life, it’s been years between those instances.

I was also pretty bummed when Isayama said Eren now represents Isayama’s darkest part - well, he called it “a part of himself that he didn’t wanna see” and I guess I’m a pessimist, but the side of our personality that we turn our eyes away from, aren’t usually pretty. And Isayama is a very critical person towards himself, so maybe that’s why he’s overly critical of Eren. Still, it is disappointing.

But just a correction, or rather, something that could be taken into consideration when taking into account that Eren’s good qualities have been turned on their head and shown as negative (or things that were previously framed as heroic are suddenly bad if it’s Eren): maybe it’s Eren who’s convinced himself he is the bad guy after all. There is a sort of negative fatalism in his perspective, I feel.

“I’ve always been this way,” he says, and after that, he looks upon himself killing people. He seems to forget that the point of that scene was saving an innocent girl from murderers and sexual slavery (and I hope seeing the scarf scene drove the point home). I just mean to say that we aren’t always the best judges of our character when we are suffering, or depressed, or when we feel guilty.

Another example: Eren, in Uprising, said he ended up thinking of himself as special when people died for his sake, and I think Isayama reiterated this in an interview (I can’t remember which one so I may be wrong!!), but I feel like it’s really unfair to Eren/Eren isn’t looking at this objectively (understandably so). Aside from the fact that we have always seen him struggle with accepting people dying to protect him, and berating himself when it happened - even feeling guilty for deaths that he hadn’t caused directly -, it is just normal to try and accept those deaths in the name of the powers he had. First of all, because those powers had already made a huge difference, and second, that’s how you keep sane. Besides, Eren felt a monster because of those powers but still decided to embrace them to help everyone, he accepted the heavy responsibility of being mankind’s hope, a title that other people gave him. It’s very similar to Levi’s situation, but you don’t see Isayama criticizing Levi for it. Because there is nothing to criticize, but somehow Eren is Bad, and Selfish, and Egocentric.

That’s why authorial intention is not that important. We can interpret what’s in the manga however we want (if it’s not a fact, ofc).

I think it was etoincognito again (but I forgot, sob) who sad that it seems like after the basement there was no mystery left so Isayama made up another mystery: Eren’s thoughts and intentions. Well, it is incredibly frustrating to love a character this much and being...cockblocked (pardon the terminology) by the author himself.

I’m not sure you’re the same anon, but anyway, it’s the same topic so yeah... sob...

Let’s love them as intensely as we can!!

[strongheartneteyam]

You all know I'm a pacifist, that I choose to ignore and delete the nasty hate asks and hate comments I receive, that I've tried since the start to keep this fandom a safe place but it's no longer safe here. Only for some people. And as much as I avoid fighting, I can't stand injustice. It's against my nature and it pained me beyond explanation to see one of the sweetest people I've ever met and one of my best friends getting such a despicable treatment as Snow did when this ridiculous situation happened. Being accused of doing something she never did, of being something she is not. But I was extremely depressed myself and I couldn't take any more problems, so I chose to keep my silence and support her in private, which I hate that I did bc it's almost me being a coward, or maybe it really was me being a coward, I don't know, all I know is I was too mentally ill to deal with more negativity, so I took a break from Tumblr, bc I myself had untrue things being said about me. I was accused of gaslighting, which I never did. All I did was defend my name from lies. After a while, I decided to only keep writing on AO3 and never use my Tumblr account again. I thought I was gonna get "canceled" bc of the lies people were spreading about me (I hate this stupid "cancel culture". Makes no sense whatsoever) That's how much all of that fucked me up. I lost faith in this fandom bc I didn't think you guys had learned anything with Avatar. The message of unity, of striving for peace, of seeing through humans and realizing how much the human nature is flawed and how humans commit injustices all the time. How we have rotten things inside of us, like greed and vanity. The movies show us that we can be better than this. How there could be an alien race out there much more wise than us. So I deleted the Tumblr app for a while and I thought about never coming back. But after a long break, I was feeling better from my depression, I talked to Snow and she told me how well she was doing in her new account, that many people were seeing her side of the story and believing in her. I regained a bit of faith in this fandom and I downloaded the app again. I got surprised I didn't receive any hate directly, like in asks, bc I sure as hell thought I was going to. I saw that people kept giving love to my fics, leaving me nice asks. So I decided to come back. Now I see there are still many good people here, people who listen to both sides and decide for themselves who's right and who's wrong. People who have clear eyes and use their sight to see beyond the surface of deceit. And I'm proud of those people and I love you, if you're one of them. But I'm a little different now. As much as I'm still a pacifist, some battles are important and noble, and fighting against injustice to defend a great person and a dear friend is one of them, so nobody should expect me to be silent about this situation anymore. I don't care if I lose followers bc if you side with those people, I don't want you following me anyway. I don't care if I receive nasty asks or comments, it's the price you pay to speak the truth against popular people in this tainted, bad world. I know who I am, nobody can take this knowledge away from me, and I know I never was and I am not a racist. I'm very much proud of having African blood in my veins, as the typical Brazilian I am. I am proud of my mother's dark skin. And I also know that Snow is not a racist either. I will stand by her side. I will stand with the truth.

Just wanted to put this out there for anyone who might think otherwise; I will not apologize for who I am.

I have been accused so many times by people I thought I could trust. I've been taken advantage of, spit on, and treated like shit all my life. So if I come back with a nasty bite, just know its because I'm not a fucking dog. I've not been raised to lay down and roll over to expose my belly to motherfuckers who think they can dictate my life.

I don't give a shit whose feelings I hurt. Because you obviously didn't give a shit when you trampled over mine. So let's get one thing fucking straight right here and now:

Hello people.

I'm the one and only Hidden Snow. I had a writing account before with over 400 followers. I was in an amazing discord server. I loved the people in it. I was happy and I'd just started to grow comfortable with the people around me.

And then one day? I talked about my obsession over Hazbin Hotel. Yes. That show that a certain creator had made.

One of the server members made a comment that they hoped the creator would lose the show. And I responded. I stated that I hoped Vivziepop wouldn't lose the show. ONLY because I knew different people would change it. They'd change the characters, the plot line, everything. I didn't want the show to be changed.

And then, somehow, I got accused of supporting Vivziepop and genocide, despite me simply wanting the show to stay the same. Then, my amazing lovely @strongheartneteyam got accused of being racist when she attempted to stop the fighting and to control the situation so things would become peaceful again. The accuser claimed that they were going to go on Tumblr and accuse her publicly. So of course, to support my lovely pookie, I went on Tumblr and warned the people so that they'd be prepared for it.

In response, the accuser posted a "call out" post, claiming that I'd bullied them and that I was racist and "scared of them" because they were black. I CANNOT express how many times this same person, during the argument in the server, showed blatant racism against white women in particular.

To top it off, I never spoke to this person. Not a single time. I was mainly a lurker in the server, but the people I interacted with, I was familiar with them. This person, I didn't even know existed until they popped into the argument. And by that point? I had left the discussion to keep from saying something I might've regretted.

So tell me. Tell me how I was a bully and a racist when I never interacted with that person. Not even once. I have no idea why but I guess a lot of people nowadays only listen to half the story and then judge.

I lost many mutuals. I felt lost and alone, shunned by my "friends" despite me not actually having done anything wrong. I got tired. So I deleted my account. I took a week for my mental health. And I got angry. So fucking angry.

So here I am. And I will tell the truth, blatant or not. You can see it as bullying. You can see it as me being a horrible asshole. But I don't care anymore. Because I'm not going to let some petty big shots attempt to ruin my fight anymore. I'm not going to let them turn off my voice, just because it makes them upset or uncomfortable.

I'm done being a doormat, appealing to the bigger accounts in an attempt to win their hearts over. If you want to try and ruin me, fucking do it. Do your best. Because whether I lose followers or gain followers, whether I receive death threats or not, I'm still going to stand by my word and the truth of what I'm saying.

When I needed a shoulder to lean on? When I needed someone to hear out my side of the story so that I could clear my name, they shunned me instead. They ignored me and chose sides by ignoring my pleas for the truth to be revealed. They say they were "remaining neutral" in the matter, but when you listen to one side claiming something and then turn a blind eye to the other side, you're not staying neutral. You're picking sides. So yeah.

That's all I have to say on the matter. If you've found me through some of the bigger accounts complaining about me? Congratulations. You've found the asshole speaking their side of everything that has happened.

Because of these people, I wanted to end it all. Not just my career on Tumblr, but my life as well. I've never had my name drug through the mud unjustly before and I had no idea how to react. But now, I'm reacting. And I'm going to come back with a vengeance. I'm going to fight tooth and nail to show the sides of these accounts that have been shown to me. The sides that are hidden from their followers.

[cheolbooluvr]

Hi Chris!! I saw seventeen yesterday and I was so endeared by Seungkwan I just??? My bias is Chan but there was something about Seungkwan that made me go 🥺 Anyways I hope that you are doing well and had an amazing time at your own concert! I want to check in more often but life is pretty crazy right now. I just now saw your post about not having written anything in a while and wanted to say that you don't ever have to apologize for not writing. You don't owe that to anyone, and if you miss it, you will find your way back to it. I love to do art but because of work, school, and volunteering I haven't picked up my paintbrushes since March. That doesn't make me any less of an artist (or a person, for that matter) and the same goes for you. It has taken me a long time to realize that, but I am much happier in knowing that my paintbrushes will still be there when I'm ready to use them again. Remember to drink water, take time for yourself, and breathe. I'm always rooting for you ❤️ - 🧸 anon

HAI OMG

i hope you had so much freaking fun at the concert!! they are so amazing to see live, and i just keep thinking about how what you see online is exactly what you get. seungkwan is so funny and truly an amazing performer (as they all are of course), but smth abt him hits different !! i'm so happy you got to go <333

i came out w an even stronger love for cheolboo (maybe too strong for cheol), but also a stronger love for wen junhui, which seems to be a common theme for people LOL also, it's like freaking crazy to think that seungkwan and vernon are my age?????? like how are we the same year and i'm over here doing what while they get to stand on stage in front of thousands of ppl !??!?! anyways. un freaking real.

and it's okay!! i totally get how crazy life can be--it's been such a whirlwind for me since i've come back from korea. i think i've traveled so much in one year that it's nearing the amount i've traveled in my life.

i really really really miss writing, and i have so many wips i want to work on, esp social club!! i think now that i'm done w my last leg of travel for the year, things will (hopefully) settle down, and i'll get some time to work on those. i think the concert helped with inspo as well, so we'll see where the wind takes me ^^

but thank you for your support, and for your kind words <3 i think this is a wonderful reminder, not only for me, but for anyone who reads this!! i think it's really easy to feel obligated to post something, and there's an immense guilt i feel when i don't T-T that's why i don't rly come on tumblr anymore akfajfladj but hopefully i'll be back soon with something good for you to enjoy! thank you again for this message :((( i'm rooting for you, too!!! i hope you'll get to do art soon. i, too, am an art lover, and actually i've been doing more of that bc it's actually an easier outlet for me than writing. but it'll come back to me soon !!

be well and safe <3

[mikeshanlon]

goddd I cannot believe u have read iwwv u don't know me but for some reason we watch like.. the same shows and now books lol. anyway can I ask what were ur thoughts on the ending? like to me at least it was onvious Oliver had not done it and he wasn't gonna pull a unreliable narrator last minute (despite being an unreliable narrator) I'm talking abt the whole uhh James is a**** thing.. like what HAPPENS NEXT? is he w wren? also I feel so bad for meredith like girl love urself.. sry 4 the essay

omg yes taste!!!! Also no I’m dying to talk abt this novel so don’t apologize if anything im sorry bc I wrote way too much answering ur question LGRNLRGN

IF WE WERE VILLIANS SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT go read it if u haven’t it’s legendaric

Okay the ending!!!! AH!!!! Okay yeah so I think it’s clear Oliver did not do it, I think the ambiguity lies more whether or not James intentionally killed Richard or if it was an accident. Like, did he see Richard stumbling out in the woods hella intoxicated and think to himself that this was the perfect opportunity to get revenge for all the abuse and torture Richard had been terrorizing him with??? Did he lie to Oliver? Personally, I believe James that it was an accident… of sorts. I don’t think James set out with the intention to kill Richard at all. But Richard was goading him and fighting him and after the buildup of cruelty and tension between them over the past few months, Richard be a homophobic dick and calling James and Oliver qu*er and prodding at the most important relationship in James’ life struck a nerve. So when Richard wanted to keep fighting and hurt him again he was like fuck this and he hit Richard too hard with the hook and that in tandem with Richard being drunk caused Richard to fall and die. And, like the others, James felt awful but there was a sort of sick sense of relief.

(Also, I’m not exactly sure Oliver counts as an Unreliable Narrator. I mean he is certainly keeping some things from that detective guy but, and I was reading something from M.L. Rio about this, like he’s literally just oblivious and dumb as fuck sometimes LKGNLRGLKNRG. So idk how often he’s intentionally Unreliable but I also get what you mean)

Anyways I’m totally a believer that James is alive bc despite enjoying dark stories im like okay but I need a happy ending LGKNLKRGlkenlgneg. Like c’mon they never found the body……….. A metaphorical death and shedding of his past life bc he blames himself for Oliver taking the fall is like the MOST tragic hero Shakespearean shit ever like it just works so well!!!!!! The part where Oliver describes the last time James visited him in jail…

“Oliver I’m begging you,” he said. “I can’t do this anymore.” When I refused again, he pulled my hand across the table, kissed it, and turned to leave. I asked where he was going and he said, “Hell. Del Norte. Nowhere. I don’t know.” (343).

GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDd. God. Anyways I think that was very telling of his plans. Hell (for “committing suicide”, moreso for all of his wrong doings). Del Norte is the beach that him and Oliver slept on that one night and so I feel like that place holds a lot of significance for them, but it’s a place only those two know the significance of. So, I like to think he ran away there and started a new life. He wrote that letter with the disjointed Pericles monologue I think to hint to Oliver that he was at Del Norte, if he wanted to find him, because even though his “death” was a self-punishment for ruining Oliver’s life, he still cares for him a lot and doesn’t want to be without him. Like a whole monologue about the sea????????? The fact that he literally said the monologue to Oliver while they were at Del Norte?? “To give my tongue that heat to ask your help; / Which if you shall refuse, when I am dead, / For that I am a man, pray see me buried.” LIKE WHAAAAAAAAAAT god !!!! Also water is gay<3 and in my heart Oliver goes and finds him and they like work through shit and are together.

Anyways I don’t really think he’s with Wren. Their relationship during senior year was always sort of ambiguous to me…. Like they definitely got super close, they probably were romantically involved in some capacity (since other characters like Alexander who is much more perceptive were like Oliver how did it take you this long to notice LRGNRGNK) though idk if it was like the Encompassing Love Affair Oliver thought it to be bc he’s oblivious and jealous. And also like James was very much enamored with Oliver so idk. (EDIT i just remembered they slept together LMAO but i think my point still stands) In the epilogue Wren is in London and is a recluse and doesn’t reach out to any of the Villains which like. Good for her LRGNRLG even though I hated Richard I can’t imagine like how much of a toll that took on her to see her cousin die and all their friends be like uh yeah we should let him die and then have to keep up a lie like… even though she agreed Richard was awful that has to be so heart wrenching (badumtss) and life ruining. So I think she especially wouldn’t want to be with James seeing as he essentially led Richard to fall into the lake, though I’m not sure if she knows that or not.

And Meredith!!!! Like I’ll be real sometimes she frustrates me but I think she’s also SUCH an interesting and realistic character (which is something I love about this novel, all the characters are interesting to me and I like how the female characters are portrayed.... like i LOVE Fillipa she is such a bad ass bitch but again she’s not just like. Expected to always be strong and clever like she’s got feelings too. Anyways love her). As I said before I was perusing through the author’s tumblr a bit and ppl were like “omg why did Meredith go through all the male friends” like BYEEE literally feeding into the stereotypes that made her feel insecure and weak… (Also again, they’ve known each other for four years… so its not that insane lmao). I think Meredith’s relationship with her sexuality and beauty is very interesting and relatable for a lot of women (I mean I am not. Like a seductive femme fatale like she is but LGKNKRGN). On one hand she is definitely a multifaceted person who is more than her sexuality, on the other, she’s constantly Literally Cast by Gwendolyn in sexualized roles and seen as sexualized by her friends/bf (Richard) and constantly told her worth in and out of the theatre is her body. Like there is an interesting duality about the power she possesses with her sexuality but also the extreme insecurity that is bred by being constantly sexualized and this struggle of like knowing she has worth outside of her body but also sort of … not in the eyes of others. That scene where they’re doing those exercises of their strengths and weaknesses really Hit. Anyways yes Meredith love urself queen… get a hot respectful gf… become a powerful successful legend…..

Related-ish sidenote, obviously I like James and Oliver together the most though I will say Meredith and Oliver’s relationship was interesting though ultimately unhealthy…. Like one of the aspects I like about their relationship is Oliver respects Meredith and when he realizes he is falling into that idea that Meredith is this super sexualized person he’s like hold awn that’s shitty of me… But also I think the fact of the matter is that their relationship was catalyzed by shitty stuff,,, like lust and the need for revenge. Like I honestly don’t really think they would’ve gotten together if not for the extreme animosity with Richard and the adrenaline of like that whole show run and more particularly That Night…. It feels like they got together because they were drunk and they’re attractive, which like yeah fine valid, but also, subconsciously, to be like fuck you Richard. Like, guess what I’m with the guy who you’re constantly saying doesn’t matter. And also seeking comfort and validation when their most important people are not valuing them (Richard being literally fucking awful to Meredith, James sort of pushing Oliver away—again I think subconsciously was sort of a revenge jealousy type thing where Oliver is with the person that James doesn’t really like and makes not amazing comments about being promiscuous). And then their relationship I think keeps going because like. Wow grief is a bitch and they want some comfort. Meredith is drawn to Oliver because he’s one of the only people who values her for more than just a sexual object which like is What She Deserves but their relationship is like a mess of sex and guilt and Oliver is in love with James (the parts where Meredith drags Oliver for caring more about James… iconic as she should! Like when Oliver is like sorry James is visiting me I’m not coming or when she’s like are you more jealous of him or me when they kissed for that scene….. OOP!). Anyways idk if that makes sense but I find Oliver and Meredith’s relationship interesting bc it’s not like… the worst unhealthy relationship ever or anything and I think there is genuine care and love/attraction there between them but like Oliver is never going to totally Be What Meredith deserves especially because like… he loves James more. Also the part where Meredith slaps Oliver when he gets out of jail and he’s like yeah I deserve that is so GLKNRglkenrgnrg to me.

Anyways I probably have more thots but wow. This is long. Sorry LGRNLKRGNng