#anyway the same goes for writing. can't believe i wrote a 90k+ rpf work about die mannschaft based on a fleetwooc mac album when i was 20

[miasanmuller]

When I was younger I used to draw a lot, I even took painting classes when I was like 10 or 11 (with a class of middgle-aged women. It was fun), but I lost that hobby when I hit adulthood. It's been years since I last attempted to draw anything and I hated it. I hate that the capitalist logic of "your hobbies should be profitable, your art should be objectivelly good by the market's standards" has gotten to me. And now even though I want so bad to pick up drawing and painting again, I can't bring myself to it because I feel like it'd be a waste of time because I'd never be good at it. But that shouldn't be the point, people shouldn't seek hobbies to become good at them. The objective should be just to feel good about engaging in it. But I lost that and I have no idea how to get back to that