#anyway the only divine anybody he has real faith in is handgiven's emmanuel so jot that down <3< /div> Explore tagged Tumblr posts

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while i'm thinking wildly about everything and anything, constantine's concept of faith is???? so nebulous to me. i know he doesn't have any, but it's hard to determine if he wants it, if he's ever believed in anything in a way that aligns with faith, if there was a loss of it or a growth in it or if it's been a void for as long as he can remember, etc.

however it started, i think the reason he doesn't have faith now is because he has seen time and time again that everyone — divine, mundane, infernal, fey, god, demigod, whatever — is united in their ability to be and act stupid. he's seen an archangel hobknob with mobsters, he's seen an angel hide an illegitimate pregnancy, he's tricked satan i think five fucking times, he's conned / blackmailed gods across multiple pantheons . . . he has seen so many constructs that people worship as absolute falter and fumble and fail with his own eyes, that he can never be arsed to even try having faith in any of them. at this point, the only difference it makes to him if you're divine or not is how blatantly rude he can be to you and get away with it.

i do think he kind of wants to have faith in something, though? he's hopeful at heart, despite the cynicism; he does desperately want better for himself and for the world, for people to be better. but he needs proof that whoever he puts his faith in would actually do something to better the world, actually care, actually try, and what he gets is the worst of humanity, the worst of divinity, the worst of the infernal, and the worst in himself, over and over again.