#anyway politics yada yada i needed to vent

[siribear]

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I do think it's still incredibly frustrating that people are treating this like a "normal" election... era. Because until fascists are wholly discouraged from existing in America, yes, every single election season is a vote for peoples rights and their lives.

I'm not denying it's disheartening to have to vote for someone who seems like just another status quo politician, but when the other guy wants to run the military over dissenters and put brown people in concentration camps, is that really a choice?

People want to disparage Kamala for not strictly speaking on progressive messaging, as if the entire country hasn't been through the American propaganda machine that is the public schooling system that tells us anything but capitalism is the death of the country. As if half the country doesn't still believe it. As if when we say people's taxes CAN fund universal healthcare, they don't think they won't be paying life endingly high tax rates in comparison to the idiotic insurance rates we pay now.

A majority of the country isn't terminally online, isn't constantly keeping up with politics. They're uninformed and misinformed and disinformed on the daily. The only trickle down they feel is money leaking from their wallets. They all think the entire government is ineffective, even the politicians actively helping them.

That's why the Harris campaign has to speak to everyone. Has to get every single vote, even from the Republicans who just don't know any better. Because we're still going by the electoral college. So, yes, she has to court the people that aren't full blooded progressives (yet!), yes she has to adjust messaging. She has to get them to actually see her as she is instead of Fox News Kamala, to get their foot in the door to maybe being a little more radicalized for the left.

The campaign doesn't have the luxury of cutting people off like we (as individual citizens) can. Can't say, oh, that's crazy uncle Ted that repeats Fox News headlines and loves Trump and we don't talk to him anymore. Unfortunately, you can't win elections like that. And again, it does suck to see her messaging change in real time. But imagine all the Republicans who looked at her when she came swinging right out the gate with universal healthcare and thought, "No, I'll stick with the fascist. I saved $300 annually because of his tax cuts."

Maybe I'm too naive and giving the campaign too much grace, and maybe I'll eat my words if it turns out that if she wins, she starts moving the country to the Right anyway. But we don't know that. What we do know is the other guy will throw us all into the fire day 1, snort the ashes, and there will be nothing left after that.

[soaps-mohawk]

Thank you for answering to my vent 💗, to be honest, the whole ordeal was about celebrity crushes which he thought that a person in a relationship shouldn't have because it's disrespectful. I tried to 'fawn' over a few for banter, but I was commenting on a streamer's content until I noticed he got really quiet and we had a talk about how it upset him. I apologized for not realising I crossed a line with what I assumed was banter, and later that night he was all like "this was a big hiccup today baby, but you apologised and I forgive you, we'll have a fresh start tomorrow" yada yada. So yeah I'm kinda spiralling right now because I really don't know what prompted this. Yet again, thank you for giving me a reality check. I'm devastated because honestly up to that point he was absolutely lovely, and to see that 180° change has me in a state of confusion and hurt. But anyway!

Oh yeah, honey you dodged a big bullet there. The whole "you shouldn't have crushes on celebrities/fictional characters/etc while in a relationship" is a huge red flag. Speaks to insecurity and a need for control. It's totally fine and normal to have crushes on celebs and fiction characters while in a relationship. Plenty of people do it and it's not cheating. It's not.

Yeah, sweetie you dodged a big bullet. It's okay to feel bad about that, and to be devastated about it, but just remember, it was him not you. It is confusing when someone goes from being polite and friendly and lovely to this...other person entirely and it's jarring to say the least. I've been through it (not in romantic relationships but in others) and it really is confusing and it does involve grieving the person you thought they were. Take it easy on yourself and allow yourself some grace.

[captainlevisteacup]

sooo mammon is our first right? First friend, first pact, first man, first bro, blah blah blah, it means that he's the one with the longest bond with MC, right? So, I wonder what would be the brothers' reaction to an MC who looks for Mammon everytime they need someone to comfort them, when they're scared, like they rely on Mammon to save them and be always there for them even though they are already dating one of the brothers. There's no cheating here coz mc truly loves the brothers too, I just want to give some love for Mammon because he👏deserves👏it👏

thank you and love you!

Oooooooooh a fluffy request

Do I sense a mammon stan?

Hehe anyways thank you for asking so politely!

The Brothers in a Relationship with an MC Whose Comfort Brother is Mammon

Warnings: None

Lucifer

Ohhhh boy

He hates it. He hates it so much

Some part of him begrudgingly understands, as Mammon was the first demon MC ever got attached to, and he was there when MC was first getting used to the Devildom

It's only natural....right?

A part of him wishes he had just put his work off FOR ONCE and helped MC adjust, instead of Mammon

Of course, he knows MC loves him

But every time MC gets scared or is in trouble, they insist on going to his idiotic little brother?!

Would never ask MC to change, although he might subtly let them know they can always come to him, too

MC thanks him, immediately knows why he's saying that, and explains that it's only because Mammon was the one who was there when they were scared and trying to adapt to the new environment around them

Lucifer assures MC he isnt upset with them, he just wants to be there for them, too

Mammon

Is just a *tiny* bit smug about it

Of course his human would come to the Great Mammon when they need help

Is really, REALLY protective of MC ever since they started coming to him exclusively for help

If someone so much as *looks* at MC in the wrong way

Oh, they'd better run

He's one of the most powerful demons in the devildom for a reason

Grrr

Will literally give MC anything they need

Food? Blankets? Will get MC an abundance of both

"Mammon I didnt need THIS many!"

"Well too bad, now you have that many!"

Levi

Avatar of Envy?

Hello?

Yea, substantially worse than even Lucifer, though maybe not as bad as Satan

Won't directly approach MC about it for a while, but eventually breaks

"Damnit, MC, I'M your boyfriend, not him"

Immediately apologizes

MC calms him down with a hand on the cheek, and calmly explains their reasoning

The more MC explains, the reader Levi gets

Practically begs for MC'S forgiveness

MC chuckles and assures him it's okay, as long as he understands now

Satan

He tries

He really does

It doesn't work

He just cant stand that even though MC is HIS significant other, they insist on going to Mammon

His logical side understands it

But...his temper doesn't

He tries to hard to bite his tongue

But when MC runs directly past him and into Mammon's arms crying...

He couldnt do it

He snapped

He got so worked up that Mammon stepped protectively in front of MC

This triggered him even more

Only stops when he sees MC cry, immediately calms down and starts profusely apologizing

MC asks Mammon to give them a minute

Mammon begrudgingly leaves, but stays right outside the door

MC explains it, and promises to try to remember they can come to Satan for help too

Asmo

Literal SHOCK

Why would MC prefer that OAF to someone as perfect as himself?

A little offended, and keeps insisting very outwardly that MC come to him, too

MC does their best to calmly explain it to him

It takes Asmo hearing a conversation between Mammon and MC (by eavesdropping) to understand

MC just has had the connection to Mammon longer

After all, Mammon WAS always blabbing about how he was MC'S first

Still tries to butt into Mammon and MC'S time and conversations

Eventually realizes as long as MC loves him, why should he care?

Is eventually okay with it

Beel

This wholesome bean

It doesn't even bother him

He knows that MC loves him

Why would he be worried?

He's so happy that MC can vent to Mammon, and that Mammon has a good friend in MC

Because Beel is so accepting of it, Mammon starts mentioning whenever MC came to them upset and why they did

Beel always makes MC's favorite foods, and "accidentally" runs into them in the hallway (on the way to their room) so that they don't suspect Mammon tipped him off

MC always ends up telling Beel about what's wrong right after they tell Mammon, because Beel isn't pushy about it

The epitome of a healthy relationship

Belphie

Uh

No.

He gets it. Mammon is MC'S first pact, first friend, yada yada

Cool.

But he's MC'S boyfriend

Immediately insists that MC come to him first

MC refuses

Surprisingly, instead of getting mad, Belphie comes up with a compromise

MC tells Mammon AND Belphie when they're upset

That way, they both know

MC can choose who to talk to about it first

But this way, nobody gets left out

[ssweeneys]

i’m having a REALLY bad day

or really past couple of weeks where work is concerned and i just wanna vent bc you know sometimes people out there in the working world understand ya know???

its long, beware. idek if i’ll keep this up its more so for me to just let it out.

so like i’m an office admin for a company (we’ll leave it nameless for protection purposes) and like i supervise receptionists for my office so i’m kinda an office manager but not technically? if that makes sense.

anyway. people these days just don’t want to fucking work like EVER and like to start jobs and then up and vanish to collect that unemployment which to me is really just dumb since there are rules to it in every state and nine times out of ten you’re making like 60% of what your normal paycheck would be and thats surely not enough to live on, so like ??? i don’t get it.

there’s been a constant rotation of receptionists come and go over the last couple of months and two girls who work for me have stepped in on numerous occasions. one lady is in her 60s and doesn’t know anything about computers and is kind of dense?? to say the least. nothing against old ladies. i actually find a majority of them cute or hilarious bc they say what they think and dont give a f*ck who it offends and sometimes that blunt honesty is refreshing and you just need it in a world where people bullshit you 24/7 to further themselves for selfish gain and yaddy yada

anyways.. over recent weeks she’s become more and more intolerable to deal with. i ask her to do things and she gives me attitude and its like the simplest of things.. like email this person, make sure you let this person know they got a package, etc, etc. she can’t do even the most basic of tasks without screwing up. her attitude is just atrocious.

and due to people coming and going i’ve had to alter our schedule a lot. recently, one girl requested off so i adjusted the older lady’s hours (lets call her--carla) mind you carla only works 1 day a week and i’ve been super generous in giving her the entire week of christmas off so -- yeah.

anyways the girl who requested off (we’ll call her nicole) told me she didnt need those days off anymore and so i fixed the schedule one more time to her original days/hours.

now, i print off the schedule every time a change is made and whoever is at the reception desk i tell them to let the other girls know and post it right by the computer they sit at every day so theres no excuse for anyone to say i didnt make them aware. well carla is not the brightest bulb as we already established and she doesnt pay attention so we pretty much have to coddle her apparently and make sure she understands (although its pointless bc she doesnt no matter how hard you try to explain something to her) ANYWAYS she comes in on nicoles day when she wasnt supposed to anymore bc the schedule was fixed, posted, etc. and she gets mad when i ask her why shes there. and yes, i understand that the rotation has fucked us all over and up in so many ways. she is not the only victim here. this has been stressing me out left and right and to no end for MONTHSSSSS. so like i get it? i’m sympathetic to that. i understand the confusion and frustration, i’m right there with them.

HOWEVER, because she’s annoyed/mad/whatever she gives me attitude all day yesterday and is flagrantly disrespectful. i’m her supervisor, regardless is someone upsets you, act professional.

but she doesn’t. we know that. or at least I DO. anyhow.. she’s mad. she’s pissed off right? she’s got an attitude. she sees the new schedule, she brings it to me in my office and asks if its the correct one for tomorrow WHICH SHE IS ON!!! let me make that clear. she was on. she asks if its correct, i’m in the middle of composing an email so i take a moment to respond ‘yes’ she huffs, storms off and goes “you know what? nevermind” i’m like.... okay?? i brush it off. i’ve been brushing off her poor attitude all damn day and i dont say A THING. BC I GET IT. I UNDERSTAND. IM SYMPATHETIC TO THAT. we all have bad days. we all get a little frustrated sometimes. we’re human, yeah?

yeah. right. ok.

so then like... carla is working the morning shift for nicole. both carla and nicole showed up. carla pitched a fit bc she came in and was already there and didnt want to go home so nicole was so sweet about it and said thats okay, she can work i understand. bc even though nicole is like half her age, she’s MATURE.

at this point i dont even understand why carla is so upset? she got to stay. she got the hours. she’ll be making the money. all is good right? WRONG.

when the next girl comes in for the afternoon shift, i over hear carla telling her about the mishap that happened that morning (yesterday) and my office is literally maybe 6-7 feet from the front desk so i can hear EVERYTHING that goes on. i mean this is my job. i’m pretty much in charge of making sure the office is running, our employees are happy, etc.

so yeah i over hear carla telling this girl that and i quote “yeah nicole came in this morning and the schedule was switched around and i stayed because i was already here. (then something unintelligible I cant make out bc her voice lowers) you know, it really pisses me off that this keeps happening.”

SHE SAID THIS. TO A NEW GIRL. MAKING ME, NICOLE, EVERYONE LOOK BAD EVEN THOUGH SHE GOT WHAT SHE WANTED, NICOLE APOLOGIZED, I APOLOGIZED FOR THE MISHAP, IVE DONE EVERYTHING FOR THIS LADY TO PACIFY HER OR WORK WITH HER OR COMPENSATE HER.

so its so infuriating, disrespectful and really downright disgusting for her to trash me, my name, etc to someone. but you know what? I DONT SAY ANYTHING. I dont cause a scene. I go about my business and let it roll off my shoulders bc at this point I know if I say anything its just going to turn ugly and I’m in a professional setting. Sometimes its better to bite your tongue, hold your head up high and move the fuck on about your business.

NOW... oh now, we’re on today. carla is scheduled to work. she came into my office, confirmed it, she was FULLY AWARE OF THIS.

so nicole calls her 5 mins before shes scheduled to clock in and is politely like hey you on your way? and carla is like oh no i don’t work today.

BITCH! THE FUcK YOU MEAN????? WE CONFIRMED THIS LITERALLY!!!!!!!!

omg i cannot at this point i really cannot

but lets proceed... so carla. she’s like yeah i dont come in, tells nicole to check with me. nicole comes to me, i smh and just sigh and am like ok i’m sorry can you please call her back and tell her shes supposed to be here and if theres any issues, transfer the call to me. so nicole calls her, they’re talking, carla is being a cunt (sorry at this point you are) and so i talk to her and shes like you know, this is so frustrating i came in there i asked you if i was supposed to work and you said no (the other girl she trash talked to idk who to name her) and IM LIKE SITTING THERE GOING ????? WHEN????? TO MYSELF BC WE JUST HAD THIS CONVERSATION

MY PATIENCE IS SO THIN, ITS NON EXISTENT AT THIS POINT IM OVER IT

IM TIRED

IM SO FUCKING TIRED AND SICK OF HAVING TO PICK UP THE SLACK AND DO EVERYTHING MY FUCKING SELF BC NO ONE CAN COME TO WORK, DO THEIR JOB AND GO HOME.

can i just make a point too that we make $12 an hour here. sometimes we are LITERALLY SO BORED we have nothing to do. we can read books or watch netflix if no one is around or i even have time to rp at times. so like THIS IS THE EASIEST JOB IN THE WORLD A FUCKING MONKEY could do it.

all you do is answer phones and transfer calls or send an email

its LITERALLY. THAT. FUCKING. SIMPLE????

so like i just dont get it

but back to the point... carla is arguing with me, basically saying my communication sucks, i’m unprofessional (which is laughable but ok) etc...

and i just cant hold it in anymore?? and i’m like well carla, i’m sorry you feel that way and i understand where you’re coming from but i don’t appreciate that you were disrespectful yesterday, you told (new girl) that you were pissed off about what happened and proceeded to talk about me in a really unsatisfactory way.

and she WANTED TO TRY AND SAY THAT THIS WAS A DEFAMATION TO HER CHARACTER. WHEN SHE FUCKING SAID IT!!!!!!!!!!! i mean you can’t but if you were to ask anyone i know i have freakishly good hearing and it gets on my family’s nerves all the time bc i need quiet when writing and i have to beg them to turn their tvs down low just so i can concentrate.

I FUcKIng HEARD THESE EXACT WORDS COME OUT OF HER MOUTH!!!! and she wants to sit here and say that i’m defaming her character.

NO BITCH. Im repeating what I fucking heard you say!!!

why would i make that up? why??? how does that benefit me in any way??? what does that do for me???? NOTHING! ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! i’m not benefitting from anything here.

in addition when talking to her on the phone i bring up the fact that she brought the schedule to me (the correct one which SHE IS ON) and asked me to verify if it was correct. but then proceeds to say in the same breath (contradicting herself) that she’s going off the old one????? like okay????? but you’re wrong?? SHE EVEN SAYS ITS AN OVERSIGHT ON HER CHARACTER, SHE ALREADY MADE PLANS YADDY YADA, SHE CANT COME IN TODAY

moral of the story is... she’s dumb. she’s a fucking cunt. and i hate people who try to spin things and victim blame and tell you you’re defaming their character when you call them out on something real they actually said because they’re scared little pussies and can’t just admit its what they fucking said.

yo i’d have a lot more respect for you if you just admit it. i’m not even mad??? i dont give a fuck what you think or feel about me. when i leave here every day i dont come home and cry about work or how people feel about me there.

work me is different from real me. I. DO. NOT. FUCKING. CARE. work people do not know me on a real level only a professional one. i am here to do a job, to make money, to pay bills, to LIVE. i am not here to fret over the opinions of people who do not follow me home, who do not know the real me. WHO. DO. NOT. FUCKING. MATTER.

POINT FUCKING BLANK.

THANK YOU AND GOODBYE

like seriously?? GOD FUCK! i’m so angry.

if you read all of this, like thanks for letting me vent to a total stranger lmao you’re a real one, may you be blessed today and always.

onto that note... i gotta get back to work. (lmfao fucking irony at its finest)

[idkitshiro]

3/1/2021 4:03pm

here we go again gyahaha oi oi its been far too long since ive posted anything. srsly 2 years already? oh boy.. so many things have happend since then. even just typign this all out wouldnt be able to capture everything. itd just be some huge text block that no one would want to read. yawnn , but ofc i know this isnt why i should choose to write here in the first place. mayb i can start off where i am in the first place. currently feeling and thinking? rather wish i could stop thinking. was just scrolling thro all these old posts and i @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ its hard to read, am i embarassed of how much i got lost in my own feelings?  anyways, been out here all moved and. oh god.. feels like this doesnt matter wat i write.. like its gonna be some giant encylopedia book that nobody is ever going to bother reading. i mean srsly videos make it infitntely easier and FASTEr to learn things, stories, memes, other ppls experiecnes yada yada. i guess theres still some aesthtic feel and the abilitty go in over drive in depth detail about experiences by IM GOING TO WRITE BUY wrting/ texting. watever u wanan call it.  look at me just ranting and venting already. feh watever.. the more this block of space filsl up the more i want to stop. asuihjdnasdaauh kinda dont want to be friends with any1. dont want to deal with any1. dont want to trust or b elieve any1. everytime i go bck to my hometown to visit my grandparents it almost demands my opinion about everything i srsly feel about my actual family. i hear so many lies and interprattions of relationships within my ‘family’ that were never true. and out of these lies expectations of how i should FEEL and react when i have never been as close to any1 as they say they had. i hate thinking about anything my family. wat the hell did they ever knwo about me. dont drag me into your politics ur making up to set urself up. no bodys going to tell the truth around here?? anyway.. i turned 25, still no car. had 2 jobs durign this pandemic. recently moved, still have1 job. used to walk everywhere. carry my own stuff during rain or night wherever i wanrted to go. still trying to earn as much as i can to be able to provide for my self. i never want to have to live back at my hometown again. i want my freedom.. to exist, to express and to live according to what i believe in.  and among society and my peers and literally every1 around me i seem to be placed at the very bottom. i used to feel like all i needed was my friends but i cant seem trust any1. but with wat even, i guess really just how i really feel i guess. always trying to do things the right way. i will not be forced or manipulated or lied to how i should live ever. it feels liek i cant trust any1 and that nobodys givign me the right answers.  i detest the relationship i have with my mother. i can understand and appreicate the effort my grandparents have tried to provide for me knowing they tried their best to take care of my mother and give most support to my sibligns and just watever other family memebrs @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ u expect me to be happy like i had some kind of equal life and bare minimum all these other ppl who came from real families???? I TRY MY ABSOLUTE HARDEST TO KEEP THE FUTURE BRIGHT FOR OTHERS AND CHEERFUL AND FUN AND DO WATS RIGHT AND SHOW GENUINE KINDNESS only to be rediculed and made fun of by others.. wat do they know, wat did they ever know, wat will they ever know. fabricate your own stories .. your own false opinions and judgments.. i tried my best to get close to ppl .. and not once did i ever try to intentionally hurt anyone..i mgetting so angry just thinking about eveyrthing . whats so wrong about me wanting to be by myself.. r u going to shame me for not wanting to do this for other ppls sake anymore???? leave me far alone.  sigh and this is wat i mean about how much i havent even been able to explain. anyways, going to go find things that bring genuine smile and laughter, if i can feel better i could lift others up who are feeling depressed or are in some kinda of pain