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loregoddess · 1 month

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welp, for better or for worse I'm withdrawing from the teaching residency--nothing against it, just...I Don't. Own. A. Car. And all the best opportunities, along with some of the education parts of the residency, are very, very far from my house, and the public transit rides daily to and from locations is gonna be murder on my mental health (which will affect my physical health bc stress and IBS love to set each other off), so I'm calling it time to cut my losses, and take some more time to figure shit out

#wish I could say I'm sad about this but considering how much anxiety this has caused me bc I worry a lot I'm honestly?#just kinda relieved #like I meant it when I said nothing against the program #but I knew I'd have issues as soon as they told me they didn't offer any medical coverage #like I find it kinda hard to believe they've never had a potential resident who needs medications daily to function normally #the travel distances is what really did it for me though bc I have terrible travel anxiety as it is #and while I actually did enjoy public transit when I was in college I was only spending like maybe 3-4 hours tops travelling #and my college classes did not take 8 hours five days a week #there were other reasons for dropping it but yeah the not having a car thing screws me over so much #like I need a better-paying job to afford a car but I need a car to get to all the better-paying job opportunities #I am trapped in a hellish catch-22 and the best I can do is just focus on managing my current issues #anyhow I just literally can't afford the program which is insane considering they offer money but like #the amount they offer is on par with what I make in a year so I'm not making any more money #in fact I might be making less and I just can't afford that right now #like at least my job gives me health and dental even if it doesn't pay very well #anyhow I'm okay I really am I'm just *vaguely gestures* y'know #oracle of lore

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