#any will do i just love akira yamaoka's work so much its SO good

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Fell asleep to some Silent Hill ambiance last night and it resulted in some surreal ass dreams I'll tell you what.

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Another 100 questions thingy

1.Sunrise or sunset?  Both are fucking pretty

2.Are you mentally ill? Per definition, I am

3.Are you physically ill?  Not that I know of?

4.What is the most expensive thing you have bought?  Probably my current computer

5.Do you have a job?  NO IT'S FINE, RUB IT IN

6.Are you in school?  NOPE HAHA

7.Are you a dropout?  More or less?  I mean I've been to school for 10 years an graduated properly, but I was offered the chance to try my hands at the A-Levels so I did but couldn't even keep going past the first 6 months due to depression

8.Are you in college?  Used to

9.Introvert or extrovert?  Introvert

10.What do you think when you look at your body?   Ugh, disgusting.

11.What have others said when they look at your body?   Depends on who was looking at it.

12.Do you have a particular song that you feel deeply?   I need Love by Akira Yamaoka/Mary Elizabeth McGlynn

13.Talk about a time in your life where you have felt most alive?   Early 2012, I think it was. I don't know why or how it happened, but a series of days in a row I'd just get up in the morning and feel super good, for my standarts anyway.

14.Are you confident wearing a bikini?   Not entirely. I can wear the tops but usually wear bathing trunks to cover up my upper legs

15.Can you look people in the eyes while talking?   Not particularily well... But I've been getting better.

16.Has anything terrible happened to you?   Do you mean my life

17.Has anything wonderful happened to you?   My friends <3 And my kitty

18.Favorite part of your personality?   I'm snarky and sarcastic as fuck

19.Least favorite part of your personality?   Everything else

20.Favorite part of your body?   My hair

21.Least favorite part of your body?   Everything else ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

22.Favorite quote?   "Decide to be fine till the end of the week. Make yourself smile because you’re alive and that’s your job. Then do it again the next week. I call it being professional. Do it right, with a smile, or don’t do it." ~Frank Devereaux

23.Do you have friendships with all genders?   Dude the gender spectrum on its own is nearly infinite so don't even go there

24.Do you have a good relationship with your father?   I guess

25.Do you have a good relationship with your mother?   I guess

26.Do you have a good relationship with your siblings?   As good as it can get :')

27.Have you ever been hurt physically or mentally by a family member?   Physically? Nah. Mentally? You betcha!

28.Have you ever had a near death experience?   ....I think. One time I went roller skating and let's just say I didn't pay much attention to what I was doing.

29.Do you know anyone who has taken their own life?   Technically, but I hardly remember anything about that person except that he was our landlord. And when he killed himself I was only 5 or 6 so, yeah.

30.Have you ever tried to take your own life?   -

31.Biggest lie you have told?   I told my mum I was out with my friend when I was actually out with my boyfriend, OOOOOO SNAP. I don't usually lie tho so I think that was the biggest one I ever dropped that wasn't an emergency lie. :U

32.Do you follow any conspiracies?   Conspiracies are interesting, but I don't follow any actively.

33.Do you believe in a New World Order?   shrugs

34.Do you respect your government and the way your country is run?   I think. I mean I couldn't do it any better if I was in charge, so lmao

35.Is there currently any strife in your country?   Don't think so??

36.Have you ever been displaced within your country?   No??

37.Are your friendships healthy?   Most of them are, yes. The ones that matter, anyway. <3

38.Are you currently fighting with a friend?   Nope!

39.Are you jealous of a friend? Why?   I am on a constant basis, but that's because I'm jelous of nearly everyone for one thing or another lmao

40.Do you believe in the Illuminati?   The Illuminati did infact exist. If you do mean the conspiracy Illuminati-Run-The-Government however, then no. (Everyone knows it's the Patriots who run everything anyway 👀)

41.Do you think any celebrities are associated with the Illuminati? Who?   See above

42.How can people tell you are nervous?   Not speaking much, tense face, intense gripping on stuff or keeping hands occupied, FOOT TAPPING

43.How can people tell you are sad?   I try my best not to show it, sooo better ask others

44.Do you ever express your true feelings?   To my friends, I do.

45.Regrets in your life?   Sure, a lot. But none I could name specificaly on the top of my head right now.

46.Achievements in your life?   *looking around nervously*

47.What did people say about you in school?   lmao fucking loser

48.What did you say about people in school?   Flithy peasants I hope all of you die in a fire you set off yourself

49.Is there something you have never told anyone?   Oh there are quite some things

50.Have you committed an illegal act?   What are you a cop or something

51.If you had two days to spend one million dollars how would you spend it?   Probably invite my friends to go on a shopping spree and give parts of it to my parents so they can pay off their dept

52.What were your aspirations at age 5, 10, 15, 18?   Age 5: I'll be an artist!   Age 10: I'll buy a shop to sell Sonic Merch in there! (go ahead, laugh at me)   Age 15: I'll be a famous person!   Age 18: I'll be in a fulfilling relationship some day!

53.Describe your first kiss? Was it how you imagined?   My bf didn't know how to kiss AT. ALL. Needless to say it was awful.

54.Growing up were you in a wealthy, average, or low income household?   Average I guess, tho my dad always went out of his way to afford gifts for me.

55.Are you from a broken marriage?   Nope!

56.Have you been raised by a solo parent?   Nope!

57.Do you know both your parents?   Yup

58.What colour eyes, hair and skin do you have?   Eyes: Green/Grey   Hair: Black/Red   Skin: The Whitest™

59.Have you abused drugs or alcohol?   Nope, done my best in the past 25 years to avoid any contact!

60.What languages can you speak?   English and German fluent, basic Italian and Spanish.

61.Do you conform to your societies standards?   ahahahahahahahahahahaha

62.Do you cry often?   I WANT to cry often.

63.Do you tell people what you think of them?   Depends on the person.

64.Are you comfortable accepting compliments?   Absolutely not, I am the worst when it comes to those.

65.Are you comfortable giving compliments?   Yes. TAKE MY LOVE, GOD DAMN IT!!!

66.Is any mental illness hindering your life?   Is the sky blue?

67.Is any physical illness hindering your life?   I have super super SUPER. Shaky muscles, the more precise the work I need to do, the more likely it is for me to fuck it up because WHOOPS one of my arm muscles decided contract instead of just standing still.

68.Do you keep up with current events?   I guess?

69.What’s the latest news in the world you have heard/read?   Trump insisting he is being treated unfairly lmao

70.What have you done today?   :')

71.Do you sleep well?   At the moment I do, thank god.

72.Do you sleep badly?   What even

73.Have you ever hurt anyone because you were hurting?   Yes.

74.Has anyone ever hurt you because they were hurting?   Yes.

75.Have you ever had to end a friendship/relationship? Why?   Not in the regular sense. I just stopped talking to or meeting that person and we grew apart.

76.Have you ever stopped someone from hurting themselves?   Don't think so

77.Has anyone ever stopped you from hurting yourself?   Nope

78.Do you like your laugh?   Got the diabolic laugh down quiite well at this point, so yeah, sometimes.

79.Are you preparing for an apocalypse? And what kind?   Hoarding Bottlecaps 👀

80.Do you have any funny family stories?   My mum walked straight into a glass door once and my dad took a picture of it at the exact moment lmao

81.Are you religious?   Not really, no. Tho I do like religion itself.

82.Do you like to watch true crime shows or movies?   If they're well executed, sure, why not.

83.Are you interested in cults?   Depends on the cult, but usually not

84.Would you like to raise a family in your country?   Since my country is pretty cool about pets, yeah sure why not 85.List some things you wanted in your childhood but never got?   Those stupid shoes that light up when you walk   Super Soaker water pistols   Slot Car Racing Track   A certain type of body wash because the bottles were FUCKING FIGURINES AND THEY LOOKED SO PRETTY I REALLY REALLY WANTED THEM   Animal Action Figures with joints that would bent properly   A shitload of computer games that didn't run on a Mac, which is what I grew up with

86.Is there a large age gap between you and a sibling?   Define large, I don't think 3 years is that much

87.Are you from a blended family?   I don't think so?

88.Do you believe in marriage? Why/Why not?   Shrugs

89.What is the nicest thing anyone has said to you?   "Since you don't have a patreon I'm just going to give you a 5€ pizza tip on paypal every month from now"

90.Do you keep a journal?   Nope.

91.Would anyone be hurt by reading it?   -

92.Do you have children?   Do Fur-Babies count?

93.Have you been pregnant?   Heck no

94.List your favorite movies?   Silent Hill and Scott Pilgrim vs. the world

95.List your favorite people?   My friends <3

96.Talk about the birthmarks and scars on your body?   I have a SHIT ton of birthmarks on my body and a few scars here an there. The most visible ones can be explained with one word: CAT.

97.Do you look after yourself?   Shrugs

98.Do you put yourself or others first?   Others. Always.

99.Are you happy today?   Eh.

100.Are you loved?    I think?