#annoying* lately I'm trying to cleanse the rancid energy

[malaierba]

Thinking about the parallels between Falin and Toshiro and how both their passive strikes are represented through consumption.

Falin getting eaten by a dragon, not once but twice, and only manages to bring herself back when she eats it back. Passive, kind Falin, who won't take from the world if she can help it. Falin, who once she connects and listens to her hunger, finally manages to come back, changed, yes, yet successfully.

Toshiro running on fumes, refusing everything that's given to him in his sacrifice and penance* to get Falin back. Starvation being just cannibalization of the self, eating at yourself until there's nothing left. Toshiro, who'll only take as much as is given to him, and whose only selfish request ever wasn't even for himself.

(* Let's remember that Laios said his role in the party was to deliver the killing blows in a fight. Was he repenting? )

Always always thinking about it being to Toshiro to whom she says "I've always done what the people most important to me (Laios, Marcille) wanted, I want to start living for myself now".

Her walking a couple steps that put her ahead of her narrative reflection, and valuing their friendship enough to look back and let this conversation she had with herself reach him.

"Eating is the privilege of the living", and how being unwilling to take from the world only sets you up to lose your own life.