#and we started talking about the fact that i have so much audio sensitivity much of the time

[apocalypticdemon]

*head in my hands* god i need to talk to my therapist. lmao

[yamatohomo]

Vegapunk speech transcript from chapters 1108-1121!!! Enjoy!! SPOILERS AHEAD!!!!

I left in all the ellipses because sometimes they are used instead of punctuation, while other times they’re just used to show that the thought isn’t finished when moving to a new speech bubble. If they seem randomly placed, that’s why. Enjoy!! I think this helped me a lot with understanding exactly what is going on so I hope it helps some of you too :) I definitely have some theories and I also think that this solidified some other theories for me. Please talk about your theories in the notes, I'd love to hear!!

(official translation)

[Chapter 1108]

Vegapunk: Hello out there! Come in, world… ahem... I am Dr. Vegapunk, a humble genius scientist. While many of you will likely be shocked by what I have to say in this message… I assure you that it is the truth of this world!

[Chapter 1109]

Shaka: Come now, Stella. You can’t just start this up out of nowhere.

Vegapunk: Hmm? What do you mean, Shaka?!

Shaka: Surely the audience will need to be adequately prepared to hear it.

Vegapunk: You really think that’s necessary? Some intelligence agency will pick it up… and it’ll spread across the world by the next day…

Shaka: Are you certain about that? What if they manipulate the information?

Vegapunk: Hrmm. A good point… so what do we do?

Shaka: I’ll relay the signal through every naval base in the world… and force them to output at maximum strength. The transponder snails can receive audio signals… but the visual transponder snails will take time… in order to be set up for viewing. I suggest giving them an interval of one hour.”

Vegapunk: One hour?! That seems long. So long, in fact… that it will give those who might not want this message heard the time to interfere with it.

Shaka: Very well! Let us set the preparation period for the message to… ten minutes!!

Vegapunk: You hear that, world?!!

(Pythagoras appears on the screen)

Vegapunk: So, nine and a half minutes to kill, what now? 

Shaka: Want to invent something? I’m rather busy.

Vegapunk: Why not have some coffee?

Pythagoras: Calculating the likelihood of signal jamming…

Pythagoras: …!

Shaka: The coffee will take ten minutes to brew. 

Vegapunk: Then I won’t have time to drink it!!

Pythagoras: I calculate the chances of it jamming are exceedingly low.

[Chapter 1110]

Shaka: What is that, Stella?

Vegapunk: Hmm? Why, it’s the dream of all mankind: Vega Coffee!! One little speck of this stuff dropped in water… and you’ve instantly got nice, warm coffee!!

Shaka: How many minutes left?

Vegapunk: It’s not like we’re on a strict timer. Let’s wait seven minutes or so… and then we’ll begin. Not that anyone will be close enough to stop us… if they wished…

(all Five Elders appear specifically to stop the broadcast)

[Chapter 1112]

Shaka: I can’t help but notice you’re not drinking… your Vega Coffee.

Vegapunk: It’s hot! I have a very sensitive tongue!! That’s mean, Shaka. You knew that already.

Shaka: Four more minutes, Stella.

Vegapunk: (Sip) Yeow!!

Shaka: Stella, there’s not much time left. Why not use thermoelectric elements to take the coffees heat… and convert- energy- (York interrupts, yelling over the broadcast)

[Chapter 1113]

Vegapunk: Well, it’s been such a short time… that the coffee’s not even cool yet, but… are they all set with their video transponder snails by now, I wonder?

Shaka: Thirty seconds to go, Stella.

Pythagoras: I feel a bit nervous knowing this is going all over the world. Video will one day… connect the entire world. It will mean knowing… and the discomfort of being known.

Vegapunk: Can you all hear me? Test, test. Hello? This is Vegapunk. Hello, world. Come in, world!!

Shaka: It’s a one sided hijack of the waves, Stella.

Vegapunk: I know that! Well! In that case… let’s get this message started!!

[this is where the speech begins]

Vegapunk: I… have committed two sins. Therefore, whether I am arrested or executed… I shall program this message to be broadcast… when my heart stops beating. However–!! I want to make one thing very clear first. Whoever may have rendered their judgment unto me… I am not trying to convince you that their intent is evil. I will not apply the labels of good and evil at all, in fact… because I understand too little about him to begin with. What I am about to tell you is so preposterous… you might even burst into laughter. However… you all have the right to know. To make a long story short… The world as we know it… Will sink into the sea!!

[Chapter 1114]

Vegapunk: Now, speaking of the near future for me… assuming that the sensors I built are functioning correctly… in the days after I record this message… there should be a most remarkable earthquake that strikes the entire planet!! As a result of that… the sea should rise about one meter around the world… rendering some islands uninhabitable. Beaches around the world will be lost for good. If I am wrong in this prediction… feel free to disregard the rest of this message. If this has happened, however… you should heed my words very carefully!! This particular earthquake is not exactly what I would call… a natural phenomenon. In my own way, I only ever hoped for peace… but this was the root of my first sin. I dreamt of a source of endless, eternal energy… and in my desire… to push the world forward into the future… I flew too close… to the sun!! Allow me to explain… just what it is… that is happening to our world. From about 900 years ago… to about 800 years ago– a period of a century… there is a span of history that is completely and entirely blank. We call this the Void Century, because all records from this time were eliminated. The only means to know this lost piece of history… is to find a message from the past… in the form of ponegliffs scattered across the world… and decipher its contents!! However, the World Government has made it a crime of the highest order… to decipher the message of the ponegliffs. And despite being a member of the government myself… I broke this law. That was my second sin. Through the sheer tenacity of a group of excellent archaeologists… I inherited some texts and a number of ponegliffs, which I have deciphered… and continue studying to the best of my ability. I regret none of this!! History, you see, tells a story… in other words, what I know… is an incomplete story of that 100-year void!! It would be dishonest to fill the blanks with my own speculation… so I will leave you only with the verified truth!! The main character of this story… was born into a kingdom with an impossibly advanced civilization, about 900 years ago. Like the Sun God Nika spoken of in Elbaf legend… he fought with a body that stretched and contracted. His name was Joyboy. And he was the very first man on this sea… to be called a pirate!!!

[Chapter1115]

Vegapunk: But as for why he was called a pirate… I have only read… from a handful of ponegliffs… but what I found there… was the record of a breathtakingly vast war. Joyboy’s enemy… was the World Government of the present day!! More accurately, it was the precursor to the world government… a provisional army put together by 20 kingdoms known as The Alliance!! You might say they had no other choice, so robust was Joyboy’s faction!! Without knowing the spark that caused the war, I won’t say who was right or wrong, I’ll simply state that two competing ideologies came head-to-head. As I mentioned earlier, for its time 900 years ago, the country of Joyboy’s birth… was a startlingly advanced civilization. And the weapons that were used over the course of this 100-year conflict… appear to be impossible to re-create with the latest of modern science. Even I, a humble genius, cannot replicate them!! And therein lies the problem!!! The void century… came to a close with the defeat of Joyboy… but not before… leaving vast, permanent scars of war… across the face of the world!!! The world is made up of a series of islands. Sailing between them is difficult, and many people never experience anything but their own culture at home!!! But this shared understanding of the world… does not necessarily apply to the world of a thousand years ago!! Because a cataclysm occurred during the void century… causing the world to sink once before!!! We are currently living on the pieces of a continent… that existed long ago!!! The world of a millennium ago now slumbers unseen at the bottom of the sea!!! In fact, one can assume that in the past… there were a number of continents we know nothing about. If the world were still the same as it was in the past, then the act of erasing 100 years of history… would be simply unthinkable and impossible. However, it makes much more sense… when you understand that the rise in sea level over that century… was 200 meters!! As for why the sea level rose so much during that century… it would be natural to assume the work of a sudden natural disaster… but I can state for a fact that this was a man-made disaster!!! If such a cataclysm were caused by natural forces… then the initial disaster would have spanned several centuries… and inflicted slow but continual damage upon the world!! But by any measurement– climatology, geology, environmental atmosphere science… this dramatic shift could not have happened within a single century!!! So the cause is something else. And when I detected the rise in worldwide sea levels the other day… I had my answer. I knew the cause… and confirmed its existence!!! The ancient weapons that sank the world into the sea 800 years ago… still exist today, and await the moment that they stir once again!! In other words… the vast war that arose during the void century… never came to an end!!!

(final panel shows Imu angrily listening to the broadcast)

[Chapter 1116]

Vegapunk: Sadly… I owe you all my deepest apologies. But I need you to understand why!! I wanted to create the energy that would power the industry of the world to come. And though it is still incomplete… I have at last reached a practical stage of my life’s work… the Mother Flame, a fire that never goes out!! It is an energy source that will one day in the future enrich the lives of people all over the world!! Unfortunately, one little piece… of that flame has been stolen!! The fault of this lies entirely with me!!! Around two weeks after the theft of the flame… the sky over Lulusia shone with a powerful light… and the kingdom vanished without a trace, according to reports. After that was when I observed the first signs of worldwide earthquakes!! As a scientist, and with utmost pride in its development, I can tell you this… nothing but the mother flame could have created so much energy!!! The flame that I created was used to activate an Ancient Weapon!! I know nothing about who might have carried this out… but the results speak for themselves!!! My actions have led, directly or indirectly, to the loss of many human lives!!! A fact that weighs most deeply upon my soul!! I am so sorry!!! I have inadvertently proven that the man-made disaster that once sank the world… is possible again!!! In the past, there were three ancient weapons… and Joyboy attempted to preserve them for the future!! Why would he do that for such dangerous things?! Have we not sunk far enough?! Who is the true evil here, and who fights the good fight?!! The day will come when all of the answers are laid bare!! And I warn you– that moment will happen when we reach the very precipice of the world’s drowning!!! The Void Century… is still ripe with mystery!! However… there are some who have learned the truth!!! The King of the Pirates’ crew!!! When they learned all of the true history… why did they drift apart without telling anyone? Why didn’t they act on it?!

[ Chapter 1117]

Vegapunk: I know this information is in bits and pieces… but if I were to say more, it would be speculation. Lastly, I have one final message to impart. To those scattered throughout the world… who bear the name of D… within you there is… (signal cuts off when Emet the Iron Giant is thrown into the sea by the elder Warcury)

[Chapter 1119]

Vegapunk: (underwater as the den den mushi regains consciousness) …But actually… nothing of the sort.

… Which you might consider a will… inherited through the years… (cuts out) can only pray that those at the mercy of reason…will be able to hear this message.

[Chapter 1120]

Vegapunk: Someone once said that the voices of the past… will be heard… history is told by the winners… and the voices of the losers at the bottom of the sea are so very faint… but the truth that was gleaned… at the cost of so much sacrifice… has at last been told to the world, just now… I can only pray… that this message has made it safely… out to the world at large. It would be foolish to hear about a war 900 years in the past from only one side. History requires a multifaceted approach to understand entirely. If only I had more time on my side!! Alas! There are forces outside of my ability to stop. Twenty-five years ago, the pirate Gol D. Roger… Completed an unprecedented tour of the entire world. And what he and his crew heard… were likely the voices of the past. In conclusion… as I’m sure you’ve all surmised by now… my view of our future is thus!!!

[Chapter 1121]

Vegapunk: One Day, the memories of The Void Century will be recalled… and mark my words, that day is coming!!! The sinking of the world’s continents… was a man-made disaster brought about by weapons!! Weapons which, by some design… still exist today!!! The machinations of history and fate… seem to insist upon the obliteration… of those last descendants of rare races!!! If the worst should come to pass… I want you all to take care of yourselves!! No matter what should happen… I believe in the intelligence of mankind!! I believe in science!!! (interference)--ger died 25 years ago!! Whitebeard died two years ago!! But the fall of these legends… was merely the prologue of a new era!! And Now…!! These people who refuse to buckle under any and all suppression… They are the ones… who are the closest to the truth, ironically enough!!! Then again, perhaps it was Roger who sent them there. The person who winds up with it may not be the one Joyboy desired!!! There is no stopping the tide… The fate of the world now rests… in the hands of the one who finds it!! The person who lays claim… to the One Piece!!!

[ceiling-karasu]

Watched Black Cat Detective and started thinking about Squirrel and Hedgehog as well.

It's been a few days so I have lots of thoughts and rambling. I'll start off by saying that since the main villain of Black Cat Detective is named the 'one eared mouse,' and we already have one of those in this fandom, I'll be calling him Lǎobǎn (no idea if there is already a fan nickname for this guy).

Putting these two together in a room would be fun, but I think Oegwipali is way smarter, to be honest, especially since he is a trained soldier. I'm not sure they would get along.

I would not do a Squirrel and Hedgehog and Black Cat Detective crossover in The Rod That Blocks the Lightning, though, since on is a North Korean cartoon and the other is strictly Chinese. I would be interested in doing a cross over in another, less serious, AU, though, since it is pretty similar with the violence and some other themes.

I watched the original series, then the reboot, and then the movie. Animation wise it does have that 'these kinds of thing happen in the first few episodes' issues, but it is only five episodes so they don't get ironed out. Still entertaining! It was pretty interesting, although I think the movie takes place in a different continuity. The series takes place in a forest with its own 'Forest Law,' and the movie is set in a massive futuristic city with space faring technology.

(I think the giant hairdrier is a leg section of what is a science museum of futuristic space vehicles).

It is about as violent as people say it is, especially for the time period and the fact that it was made for children. I thought it really could not be that bad, that the FH spike impalement scene was wild, but no, an eagle really does beat a bunch of children and eat one alive on screen. Said child is never seen again. The police even know what is going to happen.

Also, are the 'rats that eat cats' supposed to be vampires? Those are some wet slurping sounds, and then the talk of drinking blood later...

I really wish that had been expanded upon. It would make for a fun murder mystery AU.

Definitely a police propaganda cartoon, but maybe (maybe?) not as much racism as we previously thought. The cats in the first episode do not jump to the assumption that the mice stole all the food immediately, and actual detective work is shown throughout the series. I think I saw a mouse living in a village normally in a later episode, and the cats don't even blink an eye at her presence. But when they do figure out who committed the crimes, they do not hesitate to brutally beat the mice half to death and shoot limbs off, if not shoot them dead, with absolutely no mercy. They are overly enthusiastic in sprinting forwards with their batons to beat criminals unconscious in general. At one point there's a stun baton, and they deliberately use it in sensitive areas for extra effect.

Then again, later, a criminal elephant trying to murder a group of cops later is simply tranquilized, so make of that what you will. Although, honestly, the elephant is referred to as a citizen of the forest, and the mice are not. Which would actually rival Flower Hill's xenophobia on the matter, and they don't even have a war going on. Maybe. They have tanks in the forest in the reboot outro?

We noticed a weird issue with the clinking of shackles and chains on arrested prisoners being one of the loudest and crispest sounds in the audio.

There's also the fact that Black Cat will reveal to the public that a prisoner committed a terrible crime, but declare them innocent based on the fact that the crime was 'only in their nature' and they couldn't help it. Which is a very strange thing to say, feels weird, and also suggests that the mice trying to steal and kill everyone were making a choice which is why (according to whatever lesson is being taught here) they 'need' to be punished so brutally and killed without mercy (the elephant and company needed a mineral in the laterite bricks they were stealing, so they were 'only ' sentenced to heavy labor so to speak).

They start talking about using interpol to track down Lǎobǎn at one point.

Which means I think it would be pretty interesting if Lǎobǎn managed to escape to Flower Hill or something like that, and the cats were the Special Forces of the Rabbit Village police. Or the surviving mice could end up with the Weasel Unit and used a propaganda tools of 'this is why we hate Flower Hill, look what they did to your fellows' type thing.

Now as for the movie:

I'll be honest, there was no English release of the movie, so I watched it raw in Chinese while discussing it with rei-does-stuff and sah-headcanons. Maybe we can make a post of our live-blogging with each other later.

There's a Tumblr user named ernestelm who made a review on it, but it is one of those things where none of us would have bothered getting into Squirrel and Hedgehog if we listened without taking a look ourselves.

I'll have to rewatch the movie frame by frame with a deepl translator, but what I get is that a gorilla gets betrayed and floats off into space, and comes back with telekinesis and fireball magic he learned out there and wants revenge.

Either way, he needs some sort of special green star gravity device so he can kidnap people in a museum, and enlists the help of Lǎobǎn for some reason (in case he gets captured or because he might be a local?). Except a pig kid sees this all happening, and Black Cat realizes that this kid has seen too much, and takes him into police custody for his own safety. Amazingly, he tells the parents he has to take the kid with him, from what I can tell.

It makes sense that the police would have Black Cat take care of the kid, since he has apparently always had a way with children.

Side note: What is this character? We think it's a fennec fox? The ears don't look right enough to be a cat. I'm not even sure it's a living person, it might be a computer program. Black Cat sure does give commands into an electronic watch a lot.

ernestelm is completely right about the duck/goose, though. I watched one of the most entertaining animations I've ever seen with meteors damaging a prison complex for six minutes, and then got hit with THAT voice. Maybe he is actually useful, I don't know yet, I'll need the translator. Not one of the police officers hesitates to follow his orders and start a musical number, which turns out of be a legitimate distraction, which means the singing was police protocol intended to confuse a target. Everyone keeps forgetting he can fly at crucial moments?

And why do unimportant characters have a different animation style near the end?

(What is this? Why is it like this it looks like The Amazing World of Gumball?? Also reminds me of Pleasant Goat but these are not goats)

Black Cat Detective is just a slight bit expressionless as well. It would have been nice to see him actually in trouble or in distress like the original, instead of the calm to cocky attitude the whole time. Oh no, he's falling from very high up. Luckily the kid who hero worships the police enough to have studied their flying bikes, and whose father is a pilot, has been hanging around on said bike for just such an occasion. No peril at all.

The real question in the movie is this;

They just casually happen to have a containment unit for the gorilla? Are superpowers and magic just a thing in the Black Cat Detective movie universe, and common enough that they have protocols for this? So many questions.

The city, plus the casual power containment unit, reminds me of Loonatics Unleashed, honestly. Someone could easily make a crossover out of this.

Funny enough, the three of us found that this cat police officer looks a lot like Geumsaegi or Commander Darami.

There's always the idea that Black Cat Detective takes place in the same universe as Squirrel and Hedgehog. The amount of firepower these police officers have is far too much if they are not expecting a war to happen, even if they are referenced as a more elite unit. The implication is very interesting.

Now, if I get to writing the Clever Raccoon Dog PSA fun series, which I headcanon as taking place in Flower Hill because it might be canon (they are both SEK anyway), I would most definitely have the main characters visit and do a ride along with Black Cat Detective (preferably in the cartoon series universe. They are fine with criminals being beaten up, heck they do it themselves!) for a chapter or two. It sounds like it would be fun!

The other one would take place in the movie universe. Maybe a kind of Jimmy Olsen situation with a mouse reporter who keeps getting into trouble, and Black Cat or other people in the police force have to keep saving him. Although, we still have that pig kid who wants to be a police officer, if I understand correctly. It actually sounds better if I just used the pig child continuously getting into situations and needing to be rescued by the police, all the while trying to balance school into the equation. Maybe he becomes a young deputy.

[consultingmadhatter]

I hate that my perfectionism makes me so sensitive to negative feedback. I honestly thought I was getting a handle on it because I've been able to ease some of the pressure off myself when doing some assignments and preparing for exams. Telling myself its ok if I do badly (although admittedly I still consider a as doing badly). But then I keep doing well anyways. So I haven't really had to face that blow to myself worth of getting a lower grade than expected. (In fact, so far this semester I have been doing incredibly well in my classes, getting top scores on exams, etc).

Then I find out I've done really badly an assignment (that is one of many and won't really affect my grade in the long run) and I felt like crying.

I'll throw the rest of this under the cut because its just me going over the specific details but I still need to get it off my chest.

So how badly did I do? 37.5% (6 out of 16 pts). It was a German assignment to get us to practice our pronunciation, particularly rolling our R's, so we had to record ourselves saying some phrases. Recording myself makes me anxious to begin with but my house can sometimes be chaotic and loud which then makes me even more anxious that something will happen while I'm trying to record. Specifically, I have cats that will meow and walk all over my desk if they are allowed in my room and will scratch at the door and meow if I close them out of my room. On top of that (and even more annoyingly if I'm being honest), my mom talks SO loudly and will yell across the house to communicate. She'll also play music/audiobooks loudly. I can tell her (and the rest of my family) that I'm going to record and she'll make sure to be quiet but I feel extra self-conscious if I know that people know I'm recording/speaking aloud. I also get self-conscious about audio quality especially because I was using a pair of headphones that are dying.

So with all that I was feeling pretty anxious and had already been feeling a little anxious before seeing that assignment. I just wanted to get it done so that it wasn't looming over me the rest of the weekend and I felt like I had to get it done as quickly as possible to limit the risk of a disruption occurring (I could see that there was a cat outside my door and she was one who would start scratching if I didn't let her in promptly). So admittedly I was rushing and hadn't practiced as much as I should have before recording. I also was suffering from allergies so that made it difficult to speak clearly.

And if I'm being honest, I thought the assignment would mainly be graded for completion and I didn't realize it was going to be highly scrutinized.

So I recorded the assignment in an anxious rush while also not putting in as much effort as I should have. But I didn't even realize I hadn't put in enough effort until the following class period when people were talking about how stressful it was. I'm used to putting in too much effort by comparison to my peers so I assumed that others wouldn't have really taken it that seriously.

Anyways, I finally get the grade back on the assignment today, a few weeks after the submitting the assignment, and I was devastated. What made it even worse was that the grader left feedback in the form of an audio recording (it didn't sound like my normal professor but I'm not 100% it was someone else). Really low grade on top of getting grader feedback on top of having to actually listen to that feedback being spoken (and not just reading a comment) just made me feel terrible.

(If a different instructor did grade it and leave the feedback as I suspect it also makes it worse because my professor considers me as one of the best students in the class. Therefore my professor would have the context that I am a really good student even if I struggled on this one assignment.)

So I feel awful but at that point it was time for family dinner. I know my mom noticed that I was in a bad mood, but I'm too embarrassed about WHY I feel terrible to talk about. Especially since it would most likely lead to a well meaning conversation about how she feels bad that I go through this type of stress and both my parents saying this is why it's so important for me to address my perfectionism and get it under control. So I tried my best to hide the cause of my distress.

And I know it really won't matter in the long run because its a handful of points out of many in the homework category.

[randomclam24]

Under the graphics card settings, antialiasing set to enhance application settings has been set emphatically to supersampling with morphological turned off

Update

On actual effort to afford the required

If drama "lords" would speak historically - you don't have to uncover the 1900s

4/25 I've consistently failed to see the moves in play because I utterly fail to see the basic context around us. When you do a thing, it's in the form of requesting * foreign * aid. Nothing else ever at the behest of presumptive y'alling which manifests out of the uncanny valley, as we meaninglessly miss in trying to circulate this. If you're white, you've been given this already your whole *life*, so when it shuts off, it's natural we blame everyone but ourselves, but it's true! We are foreign agents

Update A thing literally sprouted out of my desktop like a plant. It said free weather updates and so much more - I've never had it do that before, but it spoke in my face like that

If you can *solve* this riddle, you get free etherium

When you see updated *cereal* box mascots, at least from Kelloggs, as the divine hand, you're supposed to *see* it like that. But that's just another clue; what *is*-

Just pre-9-11, people were acting like they could talk their shit. They told you *no*

but these are just relativist acts. - *no* these are the morals we follow (if anyone disregards these, everyone does, that's why tiktok had to - if you don't know the context you might as well not even say it)

4/26 Something about how if we can't even have a cabal, we can't even have a technologically-procured existence

The trauma that propels people - just arbitrarily out of a vacuum of reason to success in this artificial life happens entirely devoid of the gene pool

Update I mean, they say jews don't like to admit it, but their god is Lucifer, but speak for everybody

How do you think they *got* in this childbirth-beholden-to-sacrifice state? Hmm? *You* don't seem very willing

Update On the episode of Common Filth I stopped on, everything, again, he is describing about how women - he puts it, "girls", like to make their children into sociology experiments, is just the womanhood of my immediate family, in and of itself. There is nothing more. Again, "Money's Prophets" - that is a book about the Rothschilds. Do you really want to masturbate what has gone on? The procreation as the psychosis endowment with our selves is not what you think it is

Update Writing this before finishing, with Silent Hill 2 enhanced edition, the settings for the static and fog are actually extremely sensitive, to the point that it's going to piss me off You could say the two have a relationship, like how, when Sega allegedly even admitted that having Sonic release right now was dumb because of Mario Wonder, the static is Sonic while the fog is the Bowser castle Ideally, between James Sunderland and the trees at the very beginning, a similar effect should be achieved where Godzilla NES Creepypasta's dynamic of overshadowing Godzilla should be reflected - in fact I've seen audio uploads on YouTube accentuating that phobia but never felt it Static got adjusted to liking, which was just default without correction, then tried starting the game and felt like I had to shut off everything until I eventually adjusted the fog settings to [Restore 3D fog levels] switched off, [Adjust fog-of-war boundaries] left on, and [Natural fog movement] switched off. Now it feels like it needs static, but not the way I had it. One setting I left behind made the trees in the Rosewater Park feel like poking right into my thought process Yes it was ultra-fine with correction, and now you can't use keyboard - they will know

4/27 I'm what's wrong with trannies. That's dangerous to admit, because then that comes into play for communism and then the deck of cards just comes tumbling down tumbling down tumbling do o own (.)<-it's the truth. You think you get *over* this shit("shit" being used for who knows what reason It's not just me acting not like but as the assclown as white people are so committed to * * evil * *

The relationship black people have among the rap games, "dog", being in origin our subservience to community or as we call it "communism", if they knew that, we would *never* be able to get over it. Never. We would have to disband 4chan's idiocy in its own filth and everything. The whole world would be on fire, in itself as what that in psychology would always have been in origin. QED and don't you walk no more <- But are you taking this seriously

Like sex, Denzel Curry adding "last days" in a latest rap song is just a *fashion* statement - everyone knows the world is beyond fucking

If that's how hopeless white things are, then we're going to have to make some understatement reparations - do I even know what those are? You're talking to me like I'm fashionable.

And there you have it - the reason 4chan says irony when it says become ungovernable - it really only means become unfashionable, which is why it never carries, it is not funny <- Are you paying attention

*no* they are not

Update I know well there's more under pressure with Dark Souls II right now than there is without

So I'd rather everyone get bored

4/29 I don't get it, but it always seems like the white identity jews even just kind of compulsively denounce as their identity masturbation is actually, as the book on Communism: Irresistible Revolution isolated, the Christian Democrats that made them possible

I was born too late historically, but we just consider those * your footsoldier * I know if you followed directions cue-wise, it was supposed to be as the boomers said.

Update Christian Democrats are the kid that jews turn into their sociology experiment. * They don't mind *.

So when the crazy moms try to do the same and the kid would ever act *out*, they just say what world did *you* come out of - you came out of my womb

5/1 Before I forget, the analog horror PHEN-228, what does it really represent Especially at the photo with the kids' house, I tend to pause the video and then inexplicably the horror is gone I had a maturity as a kid to the point that my mother had a nightmare about her little boy going off already with briefcases This is the exact moment when the music starts reversing Also why I won't actually into a job

Update So that you won't fall into a grind being gay, I got Advanced education with Viktor Strobovski after looking up that theater creepypasta

5/2 You know how the in-game music starts to have this semi-royal feel to it, because it's Russian? You know how blacks consider themselves in origin kings? College campuses unite against Russia <-

When Drumpt talks about they're rapists, he's subliminally talking about, god forbidding, whatever that means,

I was going to add to that but then realized it's just this world's god *forbidding*

It's easy to overstep the boundaries of this world because it's so provincial. Mere sentence completion overdraws like a bank account.

That kid on diesel patches can't be left denoted as said. Soon the whole world will be terraformed so only the jew in-lineiant can partake in the economy oh wait that nu-male was all the time that? OKAY

Update Okay okay okay. The "province" in question? *Human* brain [*human* race (one race, the), in its origins?

The only reason leaders want to nuke is they're butt angered about their bulldozable [It was BBC.]state being a fundamentally ugly tax farm., and that should have a period on it and not a blank space. presidential address

oh no. If you're a defectant, meaning the height of these CEOs, you're supposed to not "change and grow as a person"; you hold the timeline *roots* - fill these jeans zoomers don't *have* what it takes to meander their trash bag

Alright *look*. The elites' front-and-center-talked-about plan that people are going to embrace fascism as soon as people are no longer worth salvaging as they will not be, that's been the case over 2003.

That takes place the most part, I don't really comprehend this, when you try ripping away from the microscopic province, they rip (...this was the *origin* of what was considered sex, I don't really comprehend this, a fetish) That Wiley thing I had, it said you didn't tell "that boy" to back off, I swerve They made that final <-huh?(alright this is the *origin* for Pride popping in the final top off.

And then Heather in SH3 can say I don't get it - you ripped off [too many people]?(the business owners(they're getting what they deserve

And I think - I know.

this is what business owners mean when they imply Boots on the ground. It means watching a shitty commercial

Alright the science says the brain has layers, down to such as the *reptilian* - were you to ever step foot out - well where is the rest of the world? Under America's *influence*

5/3 You could say, when agents talk, your kingship, which literally represents the anal retention - not nations - but people in natural context disregard jews just in - not historical context - ALL HISTORY - you have to say it compulsive as a liberal-prophecy like that, or else they'll think it's a joke When the state footsoldierhood speaks, as in Black Pigeon Speaks, your kingship meaning the shoes you fill just to - not work, but proceed beyond through bodily inhabitation - that's why we had the liberal prophecy. You don't even - not even get - care(if you don't add the period, we will

Update Catching my breath -

-

If you're a king, that means we're trying to get through to you.

See how that doesn't mean anything?

But behind closed eyelids, *every* world leader - insert "ahh"

update I bought Hexen just to play the Hexen Veil of Darkness mod (but Hexen comes before it) - I'm not keen to even TNT II on HMP has the current state of the Icon of Sin Unfortunately I think the actual reason for the Bible's "do not kill" when black people make it practically a virtue in rap is that jews' way of saying a jew's life is worth a thousand goyim Can't say it *That's where it would have count* But what's really happening is a bunch of liberals playing Dreamblood (also Cacowards 2023 implying that they can get it installed, with fastmonsters Also D Grapesofwrath stating he is the beast he worships means it's just the state

Update Next time you say fuck the police, remember that none of it would have existed if it weren't fueled by our intelligentsia out the ass The kid on diesel patches, taking the purple horseshoe, is only reminding what the police, and that can mean, but before the origin of my argument presumptive intelligentsia, confiscate- but this use of confiscate calls into severity the accusation of jewish monetary appropriation which comes with all nations. This is not a sound origin

I just said it - it's our intelligent! *We told them* you don't have account (accountability culture

alright when you go to a movie, what do they tell you? Look at the movie poster on the front. *That's* what tells you the conclusions of the content -they're not pulling a fast one on you with the content, *white boy religion*

Atheist logic (breach a conclusion through the social sphere, work to its conclusions) isn't unpreceded and - oh - this is where we inevitably get our dicks cut off for the *woman* of our dreams| it was *all* a woman all along

Why do we have to perpetuate to sex? I don't get [any pussy so I ]

5/4 What comes before a White Castle craving has even any need to be spoken about Scratch that because I just had seven; I hadn't eaten much all day We're speaking to the one who ate all ten

5/5

I think there(if you had to be told this and aren't of the top five tens like I asked, then you're not and I said 's a [crashed(landing.) [no you wouldn't have even gotten to that point pattern where since all life [me being like an Area 51 focus [See what you did. [everything about bad history man's saying they will not denounce their elites is just *implicating* me, except it's [except I won't get fucked and calm down, so I won't see Hitler was the enemy of internal jews such as myself and not the outward genetic ones whom anger was taken out on takes the form of surgery as implied by the TNT II Icon of Sin's entry *implied* by Quake 4's reminder [reminder is not present see normal normals wouldn't have even gotten to that point - they would have gotten hung up social texting over Doom3's bridge burning out [you're supposed to be empathizing with a child getting carried off - Mario 7/29 Build was them discount - *dis*credit-oOhwhataretheydoing The point of the lockdowns was to discredit

Edit: So it looks like since people won't get over the fact that they *are* being implicated, they'll never relax and see the reality that the accusation underlying was restant

Update alright I was trying to say They said zoomers aren't identifying with the associations to the horrors of the past, and yet when we tell them to learn to back up in a fight, the standard Krystallnacht is what they call literally

What precedes that is the internet went out according to the economy which would *implicate* a Charles Manson - their making fun of you is over a potential for you to rape kids, cast aside this forming a victim compl- something it's a bit more complicated than that. Take it a way office workers Okay. We said[wait see they're not going to do anything

Update Based on cumulation in experience and that alone, I'm going to guess and say Star Fox 64 in a very hyperreal sense is the big one (but it strictly has to be experienced analog

update This is going to sound weird Everything has gotten UNO card reversed so that you can beat Star Fox on entirely the base route If you can get to Aquas without anal fixation, the pollution they're speaking of beginning as a proposal to distance onesel[ves] from conflicts with the absolute common denominator of the crazy American which to great roller coaster is Kyle Rittenhouse starring in Moon II by Middlefingerman exclusively with the track d_moon7 set with the changemus command in console with the TNT II mod, on easy in itself except they're making fun of *me* and Monogatari manga thinks having a first time heterosexual relationship is usual

5/7 Okay. To pose as an emperor virginally in this time and age era you're going to have to play Veil of Darkness looking like Rubber Johny

*W*-what *class?*

Fighter class

Steven Hawking

left a few message tapes after his dæth, and they said "Brave": If you had - One Shot

5/11 Get back there When I was coaxed into with my mom, saying, one-off clinic in the hood stopping kid from going south was never *"solution"*, I meant, Dear White People America was never (and it's this wrinkling of psychosis here that I'm really wondered about, or something

...Whare have all the good men gon

5/13 I'm a corporate office worker; I've got a big time, I don't take time out for non-businessmen but I found a "frequency" I custom-made to prove that Doom's overall positive outlook despite the daemons remains even in sub-.2 gamma settings, which is creating a new contingency surrounding approach to now exclusively episode three, Inferno There's a narration in Doom, this floats above Hell itself, but to the Doom-consuming consumer, that's all just hogwash. No, skip all that. This is a leftist prophecy. Repeat it like a mantra (vid_brightness[even Family Guy, the early seasons themselves, said of the South, where there are a lot of Masons, as long as we share the same god, it's all okay, which is why the brightness.] .680302, vid_gamma 0.0503764 Donald Trump wouldn't shy away from a photo opportunity with Jeffrey Epstein, and those who speak from that vestige get listened without thinking The Pink Season album ending with "why can't we get along", coming after *its* album comes after the mostly peaceful protests in white America that have the, to gleefully obedient onlookers to my salvation through coming to terms - finally, - oh you don't even care - have the cameras turn so that when the Pizzagate harddrive shooter rushes in like a bat out of hell you don't see anything

Well, actually, that's what *I* would do. They're just having these crisis actors as a - they called it "shaming ritual" - that's okay, nobody cares

Oh and as a loving adage I called it the Four Comas frequency

The snake you can find as a sort-of secret in the map is the kind of freedom that constitutes our sense of moral affirmation

Update We as Americans want to have our osmotic revolution, already playing this on nightmare, to be the act when we hand-have saying France: Burn Until You Learn

I actually saw an anon who explained how he booby-trapped his house - do you think something's wrong when the amends he went to were so out of the average American's ordinary extent oh, it's [all][<-] immaterial - we already [it goes here: *all*]fell asleep

*Super* update The reason there's ever a focus on there merely being a *nonzero* amount of people is that when provincialism drops, and their trauma goes beneath what all that did, little Timmy seeing the Pope for private time is the *only* way

*minor* update The moon landing isn't fake, we just have to go through all this (It's called Sex Junk. (From Bill Nye?

Girls' Last Pedophile (It's yuri.) tour is trying to pass by God and ignore this.(Infact it wasn't worth its *salt*

pseudoupdateLook it wasn't hentai superceding anime, it was yuri(you almost gotta branch it out of him)look!That was your concept of Jesus.

The stay in the creepy part of Pandemonium should have been extended to the point that it gets fecal. One pedophile location that got scanned by anons and forgotten about (unnaturally quickly - but to them that's not what it is(Period.) said "stay zaza" in a nearby location, a hotel That's the experience where all say, come *on*, we were having the time of our li[v confiscated]es quantumupdate

And that's where the tried-and-true-accurate depiction of the warlord who makes his victims work comes

alright we're not worker bees cause we're needed. We need it that way because otherwise all the paperwork files undone

Our economy of orbiting helpers is not to get the insinuation done, it's to convince ourselves that the work done through broadcasting is still keeping its power white. If you remove that pre-underlying mechanism, the thing{oh, some *bullshit* happens, I don't know

Alright if you haven't figured out, Ender's Game's ender game *is* projection - mountain out of every molehill?

you know how animals in the wild will tremor out trauma? When we affirm Lucifer Masonically through calumniation, that's just *anxiety* - that's all we see

But it's *more* than that. We can't tremor out a *penny* because when we do, the whole commercial popularity - it's like a promise, you broke ["Don't make a girl a promise" ? ?

"Yeah, and it's not just the fog either"

The way we are, if we denounce Lucifer as God, our mind will just reinstate it subconsciously sexually

what was Halo? some corporate dogma wrapped in a religious deligitimization disguised as a deceleration as, *as was original*, its disguise - not hard

update The original classic Doom, in reality being preceded by Doom 3, where not even that constitutes a reminder that the people related would be afforded a human element So they have a connundrum where they have to force Silent Hill 4's situation In reality, we can't force our dicks down everyone's throats - no that's where we have solitary confinemenf that's what republicans want

MGS, whinging over a nuke, not realizing that the regressive state is all that existed and all that can possibly exist, didn't realize what swept over was *everybody

I'm getting the blame because the way everybody thought the corporations would have them is *perpetuity

"Advanced Education with Viktor Strobovski" is the real {whatever you want to call it because I don't care}because it thought that a flipped mouse (like spilled milk) could just be flipped haphazard however., let alone this unfixture.

5/15

vid_contrast is .367902. You have to be attuned to what people are doing in the *bedroom*, otherwise exploring the earth isn't even an overworld

Update! The reason for your mom's season is whatever *we* accomplish in the present, *you're*, without any expertise, going to be dragged along like it's the zombie in Zombieland. QED. If you're not doing it limited by your projections, well, it's not like the monsters in the games are things you identified with on some level anyway. It's all just spam.

5/16

5/16? Yume 2kki has a version of the early builds which was standard I think for the originals surrounding 2007 where the space entrance to the hospital had additionally some gore with it and I think they squeamished out of it

In reality, the wargame-defying reality of the Hitlers not crossing but attempting to enter the Russian world space was fucked before they went in. The failure was allowed because they drug out finding out so long. Russia has roots - as agents modern liberals hate so much - that go deeper in the origins of the collegiates' own liberalism that make them look bad, than just enough to make the throne of God seem finalized in actualizing itself in liberal.

And yeah Microsoft will try to subliminally eat this up

Alright. We're fucked, but we put the red flag on Microsoft. That's what's currently going in.

I'm sure if we all just watch Kangaroo Jack, it'll all be business

5/18

Essentially they told you, anything involving key symbolism occurs according to its allegiances already shown to you in advance when Google input to all those sites, not just Le Reddit

You all are looking for a tragedy to hand-have the act of anal worship, by worrying for the movement in its place because they're too blind to strike out, vicariously when whatever is next I *do* will have turned out to have already played out in the form of ("reparations"(what are, in the end, being all that we can or could have come just to ask

This is *not* what we came for. If we just interpreted the lyric "God is a living man" in its roots, that would already undercut our entire faith in world leaders, and liberals would have no roots but to mock us for the rest of our livelihoods until we *cede* the economies seeing that they're already in the pit we designated - look we're going to fast, just let them sit in the house we paid for them and figure They're not even doing that.

5/19 Alright the first rule of assuming white Americana privilege - you're carrying weights whether you are

The entire message, you don't hope for someone to get it right when they have a job you're paying them so much to do, is entirely favoring the establishment which we are inheriting (not in the sense of generational inheritance, but right now, like a class inheritance in object-oriented programming which for generally that reason I never wanted to get into

If you had finally acknowledged that as I inheretedly did even though I mislooked, to they, the onlookers', detriment (Freddy Freaker: "doin the *freak*(.)<-(it's that)")

Alright people who need anal fixation in order to carry weights are actualized *hereby* as insane; we just need to y'all to all people who already accept the hustle culture life and get all the dissidents dead - in *jail* cells! *all* of them

I didn't know the coffee would be hot

"I didn't know the coffe would be hot" *No* for you you gotta carry it the rest of * your life*

Update I don't know enough about Viktor Strobovski's advanced education to gauge the furries

(public education something)

I got referenced to bootleg_pokemon by VibingLeaf, and when it comes to the gameplay itself, right after the beginning, when a thing head pops up, the reception is a "no" like it was a kid of my own Then I realize my perception of "Liddle Kids" as the actual relationship with the elites and not just a one-off pedophile organization, is actually this

It wasn't public education: the fact that it was mandated

I just call it crappy pasta

5/20 I don't know why I kept calling it a blood transfusion, but it was time to get my blood test done, and the idea of True Blue Self, just keeps hammering me and hammering me - I can't *get* it to stop, and now that I'm home, it feels like the primordial proto-whiteness only spoken of in - Not even rich jewish families speaking in terms of their Romanized first names as namesakes

I can't into conversation even with my mom. It's all fucked "beyond comprehension". That's the basics.

Telling people their inherency of expression is just mandating that things are the way they are according to their true whiteness as this basic-bitchdom-ness, which is essentially read as fem-dom, as you can't fool a jew on their eyes

we're just going - *already* - united upon as *rapists* - exactly as *Trump* said! Oh no! Who could have said

My mom told me today in what might as well be the Silent Hill 2 *letter* by Christ am I *saved*(*cut* off. (*Don't* do that, or else (right-wing death squads - that's what they meant when they collegiately implicated the Republican circling of the wagons - that's a *shaming ritual* - you're all apes - on the pavement )))

I say it like it's beyond comprehension, but I *already* flagged it's (Microsoft) - you don't even know ("who we are" - McDonalds rap by Pink Guy)

No, Christian Christ is just the *sexual* attunement to which we get things like that dude in the movie having sexual realizations about what historical secrets are. That's not the permanence of Revelation or anything. *dies*

I think that's why they push homosexuality, because otherwise the American mind just frizzles when we say the conclusions have to be something other than the *consumption* relaxation

Even if the D. Grips fans scream "Jenny Death", the subliminal they're choking is that it's not just "it's all about money" in the end

from the beginning "money is the predifenition

money is the predefinetion" You can't have a worldsociety without a money fixation - and it's totally not Open Society but primordial formation

We didn't have modern mathematics when civilizations formed. They were considered among sacred geometry, and you're just treating them like un-sacred *bitches*. Bitches

Our concept of strengthening indicates *rationalizing* as in Build Back Better itself That's why when anal sex like with bodybuilders and old rich dudes We get all upset like we entitled to some world like China men

Update is a word I have the last three videos of VibingLeaf's sonic playlist set aside as a playlist, and I entitled it accordingly have chicken sex you incel. You are not allowed happiness until it is through these affirmations you punk

I will not do this as I am white supremacist as a CEO [swagger swag s That thing in the last video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j9Iuo0EbhgI

6/20

If it isn't the correct date, off with your heads.

I mean it

If anything's what being at the "academy" of being gangstalked has taught me It's that if Hidamari Sketch x Honeycomb without meming social distancing from heterosexually existing in that's simplicity started to manifest, the number of "20th-century witches" that would appear instantly beyond that instant would outmeasure the sun

update: I have no intent on doing the negotiating attempts like Death Stranding implies. Even though that's implied as instructions.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mq9_cHkfAOc

5/21, it's May again, heh

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mhuxJ8U-ZyA

That's not some weird dissident- that's just the "anxiety" that came out of me every time I was posed sitting next to relatives or other people in general in a congregative-for-the-sake-of-insisting-upon-its-continued-existence congregation that wasn't the cousins that were my own age

I'm trying leaning here there isn't any reason for interacting *diverting* from this other than like one entertainment -okay

The Pigmasks in Mother 3 were asses and elbows, but this mediocrity forever was just preeminent.

Correction I think the focus here is that it was in everything. It *was* everything.

Update You're not allowed to have any reservations. Every time you reach the point in addressing traumatic inevitabilities that it's substantial, the reality coming out at the very seams of itself is that everyone before you who ever *did* this stuck their *dick* in it -only ever people did Christianity non-provincially to vampirically *leech* off the iniquity It's like a fire that breaks out. That's why I don't "trust" the Bible with placing this unholy brushfire of realization as the highest position or throne of God as always, because it doesn't. This works to the effect of making things not work, for its own sake.

5/22 I have to say "abba" here so the Radar doesn't assume This is what we've lived as all it is for its sake all our life

From now on, our dissidents will be calmed with homosexuality direct- people don't seem to know this, so: this is the only origin of *Nintendo* Direct (People don't *think* like this)

In reality, in order to post, you have to assume gatekeeping - we don't even have to call it that because it's so unconscious in our case

It's hard to stay on live TV; they're not "gatekeeping", they're framing the situation in hopes - I had hoped(that has a dictionary definition-lookitup)- that you see the blood on the leaves(, or something, because that doesn't carry

Update

From redirecting from the Common Filth social media which broadly speaking you should not browse, oh here we have what we have here: in the words of ghostler, "oh how quaint"

("hoo yeah")

https://x.com/LibertyCappy/status/1793223779851936046

If you want to go there, even the concept of heroism - as it's been portrayed up through the 80's, they don't even entertain that anymore because they knew it would be too much for people like Live Mas (I don't know what I'm talking about) If you want to go there, essentially the most recent that wasn't simply derivative was the Crimson Chin, and if you want to actually do that, it's kind of a dig at the idea But if you want to really go there, the entire idea of bodybuilding, the idea of strength is predicated in the roots of rich men who buy their bodies after the fact, not before

Oh, I forgot to say, it's about the holding back of shit when the projections the elites had in mind for your schenainegans eventually fall apart revealing the truth even when you didn't want to speak it - you can speak the truth accidentally and get killed just because you're autistic, and you wouldn't even know

Update Even XXXTentacion could only admit that he's lost and found by this society. He says it because I say it and in my case you arleady knwo

I couldn't even look up garfielf blows up the earth without it coming all over me, and that's a socially good thing no *look*-> https://www.imdb.com/title/tt15352542

They know how you talk.

From now on, what I'm going to do is fered this worse

I said feed, but what came out was r, implying the logical conclusions have just happened as I tripped over this - this is why I stopped Death Stranding, because I knew when I saw the baked-in tripping animations it was telling me this artificially again like everything

The goons are in the house eating well? What Ghost thinks this movie is? That's it. "We In The House".

All of this ensnares before you have the effort invested to leave your parents' house. No one is talking about financial investing or weight lifting. It already is

I don't know what's going on, but as I review this, the vibe is that police can detect psychosis from a mileaway

Even Kndrick Lamar's fantasy about things being according to thoguhts and ideations in his head is not milestoneded, but is actual in Saturday Night Live making - *he* appread

Just another Repulibcan shil making it

Update And meanwhile this idiot is playing right into the grooves of the cinematic memery hook line and sinker because he's in cahoots obviously - that's why "imagine my shock" when he has *semen* in his farts

'IF THEY SAY "WE OWN THE NEWS AND THE SCIENCE" THEN IF YOU BELIEVE THEM THEY ALSO OWN YOU!'

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NKmJ7up135U

Same guy I got redirected to from that other time-isn't it time you show up? Stop watching these vids?

Basic diagram: When you have organic expressions, you're buying into the memery of the establishment like negroes on rap music when that music is branded music, and it stands, that's the dichotomy Everyone's investing in a slingshot effect, but in reality have you ever committed effort and dug deep to build a hole on the beach? What is inevitable? The ocean makes itself known

Update The way independent articulations outside of projected possibility interactions with mom fall into the uncanny valley of furry personas like even Doom's RAMP2023 had at the starting - you're going too fast, you're going to have to talk slower to them, they won't realize (and I just left, what that is! *what is that*) I'm not very honest. This is the realization culmination most people have looked up to their whole lives. They don't know what's beyond this, and I'm fucking this whole up. But if you were listening, what I was *trying* to say was that furry personas inevitability if you don't just fall into the well-made chasm that humans should just be disposed of as disposable trailer trash as Ghost does - see we're going too fast. They won't listen confirms the concept of the universal human race as liberal, we all were This pretty much sums the real divide where in black people's world they have the less-spoken-of divide between well-to-do black people and FUCKING NIGGGGGGGG

I walked away from humanity like the ocean. Walking *over* the words' guidelines, by existing in non-pre-concordance, I slut shame the validity of..."Fighting in the Name of".

I mean, a disposable Kanye with the Iron Man adaptation of such an accident of words would *relish* in the slingshot effects, and I would be ever the ignorant

Update *Upon * viewing the uploader of Zombies Ate My Neighbors, the 3D Doom adaptation's Twitter account to see for more versions, it turns out the apocalypse, based on a forward, is the *preeminence

and I don't even know what that means.

Settlements.wad? More like Israeli settlements. There's no open-ended question

Update Hero narratives hinged on the idea that the insistence of our true selves at the forefront of our minds solves everything. That's when "get woke" makes conservatives lose their profit, essentially forming the barrier to when Hitler denied the bankers *their* profits, that's when people form projections Are you going to actually run with this or are you just going to forget - they always They have no ability to remember.

5/24 Things gangstalking *can't* do (and it's not a gang, they're doing it to shame what's preconceived of us, forming the roots for the "I'M GANGSTER") I haven't heard anyone raise complaints, including myself, that comments from ten years ago are *also* according to my momentary thoughts which have to dip into the uncanny valley for Ha-Satan

Yume Shikki got really creepy, and I have to stay in a playlist in theater mode with a sock, doubled-over, on the top left of my screen

at all times

Update Pretty much over settlements.wad at all, Common Filth's former twitter take that neoconservatives have actually done well - you would have to read it - conserving the liberal state we currently see: that exact dichotomy of words came out the second I had a training program under this tech company and, after a question, I had a minor complaint about how they handled: a higher-up swooped in and had to rectify that she had made a *very* well-done job, pretty much as a sealing act within hand-having itself. It's *very* ingrained

Even the service I used, yt1s.com, switched to be shut down in 2021 so you have to used yt5s's selection of myriad sites, where iFlyDown as the hand-having for the swooping term

I don't think they actually mean submit to traffic when they say look out for traffic, but in the real world it never wasn't

5/26 The obvious (glaring) - glaring?

reason for this is that the nature of revolution in this country is correcting after-the-fact, which in itself is self-defeating in its image, that we were in the end subservient to the same as the Covenant in Halo, after this autistic "Great Journey" that we're all embroiled in as 9-5-job-pursuers and nothing else, naturally, as what we are.

If you have to *correct* in the middle of a defining statement, you were on a journey and not active. You might as well have been reciting something said as an announcement on a cruise ship. That's not a good example for how it goes, but that basically describes how casual it is something about how boomers thought cruise ships with playgrounds connecting different areas in them or something were the highest peak of human potential

Also the blue and white standard computer technical colors correspond with Epstein's island

[radfae]

same anon again, thank you so so much for sending me that page because my god it sounds like an actual description of me. i’ve felt deep shame for not being able to for example properly tie shoelaces and the fact there could be a reason provides me with so much hope

as for the having other symptoms, i’m not sure. i struggle to maintain eye contact, never sure how to sit, very aware of masking what would be my normal facial expressions, movements and ways of speaking as what people consider normal reactions and expressions do not come naturally to me, i have pretty bad concentration difficulties and take way too long to start tasks (i remember classmates pointing out how unlike them i never start anything immediately), i struggled severely with how to behave socially for a long time (feel like im role playing social interactions) and i still do but i can mask it a bit, i have been told i sit and walk ‘abnormally’ (eg only on tip toes), people like my mother get annoyed that i talk too much about my interests… sorry i could go on but im already dumping too much on you. i don’t know how much of this is relevant but it’s what comes to mind. thank you so much again for helping

don’t worry about it, i’m happy to help in any way i can!

i definitely feel the roleplaying social interactions bit, lol. with very little exceptions, face to face communication feels like a constant performance. it’s normal to have to act a bit to push through situations you don’t want to be in, or to pick up certain phrases from friends, but for autistic people both occurrences become far more frequent, because we need to pick up on and copy how others hold themselves just to blend in with everyone else. it’s no wonder a lot of autistic adults experience burnout when our very existence is often a front. eye contact is very difficult too. i’m either constantly glancing away or thinking ‘am i making too much eye contact?’

i personally don’t get comments about walking strangely anymore, but i used to know an autistic girl when i was younger that would walk on her tiptoes constantly. as far as i know, it’s not uncommon for autistic people to have atypical ways of walking or just carrying themselves because it relates back to motor functions again. i do sit weird though. i have my knees up almost all the time. like L from death note lol

infodumping is definitely a thing but i would focus less on how much you talk about your interests and more on how fixed they are. when i’m focused on something, it’ll become just about all i can think about—i need to know absolutely everything there is to know about the topic, and oftentimes doing anything unrelated to my interest can feel dull and unfulfilling in comparison.

a few other things you didn’t mention that are common in autistic people—adherence to routines, sensory processing issues, and struggling to understand how other people are feeling

when you think routine you usually think of checklists or something similar, right? those can be great for autistic people but the need for repetition can manifest in a few different ways. for me (and a few other people i know) i always need to sit in the same spot. i can only sit on one side of the car (unless i’m driving), i always sit in the same spot on the couch and at the table, etc. if i’m not able to sit in the same spot, i get like.. really upset lol. it leaves me with a weird sense of dread and heaviness because it just feels so wrong because i need the familiarity.

my sensory issues relate to sound, touch, and audio, but i’m also pretty sure it’s common for it to be visual and to be sensitive to light. if i touch or hear something that’s ~bad~ i instantly recoil. it’s like HORRIBLE it makes me want to tear my skin off . just thinking about it makes me feel ick. i’ve literally slapped my moms arm completely on impulse once because she was making a noise i didn’t like, i felt SO BAD.,,, as for auditory, i just kind of… don’t understand people when they speak half of the time. it’s like when you hear someone say something when you’re not paying attention so you have to have them say it again so you get it, but like. just when you have my full attention. it’s not that i’m literally not hearing, is more like it just sounds like gibberish and my brain doesn’t get it. i like to have subtitles on everything so i don’t have to strain to understand it all. i also can’t handle too many noises at once; as an example, if there’s a couple of people having a conversation, sounds of people walking, and music playing at the same time, i will be on the verge of panicking right there and then. it just becomes all very overwhelming and i gotta hide. headphones REALLY help with this

and this ties back into social difficulties but i just don’t really know what other people are thinking at any given moment. i don’t know what someone wants me to do unless they explicitly state it, and i don’t get “they said one thing but meant another” rhetoric. i have a tendency to come off as harsh without meaning to and i don’t really understand when i’ve done something to hurt someone’s feelings because i just can’t really read social situations like that. of course i’m not an asshole i’ll gladly apologize and clear up any misunderstandings but the person has to come to me first and tell me that i’ve done something bad or i probably just won’t notice. i take everything at face value and have a very hard time reading into people

[denjiholic]

love talk || gojo x reader NSFW

✎ request: suggestion: gojo breeding kink!

✎ warnings/tags: NSFW, explicit content, blowjobs, breeding kink, fingering, overstimulation, praise kink, porn watching, dom! gojo, teasing, voyeurism, light sub/dom, multiple orgasms, cockslapping

✎ pairing: gojo x fem reader

✎ summary: you and gojo watch a porno together and one thing leads to another :))

✎ word count: 2.2k

✎ a/n: sorry if some of you have seen me post this already, i was having a glitch with my tumblr the first time it uploaded, so i had to repost :)

“so what are we watching tonight?”

you look up to see gojo sitting lazily on the couch, one hand patting his empty lap. retiring to his nightly clothes, his chest is bare and his legs only clad in plaid pajama pants. you make your way to the sofa, taking a seat in his lap. he wastes no time wrapping his arms around you, letting out a contented sigh.

turning your head around slightly, you look at him skeptically, “what was that all about?”

he smiles.

“nothing, you just smell good.”

“well I did just shower.”

after you’ve turned back around to face the television he repeats his original question.

“what are we watching tonight?”

“surprise me.”

his eyes gleam with mischief. accepting your challenge, he replies, “alright then.”

he turns on the tv before pausing to say, “wait, close your eyes first.”

“why?”

“you said you wanted it to be a surprise, right? just trying to get the full effect.”

“whatever, weirdo”

shutting your eyes you wait impatiently. after a few moments, the sound of a woman loudly moaning greets your ears. lids snapping open, your eyes fly to the screen. the television displays a woman with a rather large chest, getting pounded by a muscular guy with an intricate tattoo sleeve.

gojo laughs from behind you, clearly amused at your reaction. turning around, you face him and see the smirk that adorns his face.

“what’s wrong? not surprised enough?”

“you’re such an ass”

glancing back at the screen you look again at the girl on the screen.

“are you not a fan of this type of film?”, he teases.

you sigh, “i’m not against it really, but i would like it if you picked something a little more tasteful. not just some 2 minute clip of some chesty girl getting her back blown out.”

“so picky”

after a few more searches he settles on a longer video. once he’s started it, he pulls you close to his chest, settling into the couch.

it starts as a standard porno, with very little yet messy foreplay, and the man taking sexual control over the woman. typical. nothing too exciting. yet for some reason, when watching such an explicit movie with gojo’s partially bare body pressed up behind you, heat slowly creeps up your neck. this was the first time you’d done something like this with him. you knew he obviously watched porn, he was a guy after all, but you’d never watched anything together. were you always this aware of the way his arms felt wrapped around you?

you shift your body, making him let out a small grunt.

“this getting you turned on?”, he whispers, careful to not talk over the audio.

“not really”

in all fairness, it wasn’t a lie. what was getting you turned on was him. not so much the movie. just his presence, and the fact that you are sitting in his lap, feeling the rise and fall of his chest against your back.

“no? we’ll have to do something about that then..”

he plants a soft kiss on the nape of your neck, and starts to let his hands wander. his fingers start to gently ghost the skin on your stomach from under your shirt. they’re cool in contrast to your warm skin. traveling higher until he’s gingerly caressing your chest, every movement is slow and meaningful, as if he’s feeling your body for the first time. a hand goes even further up your skin, while one goes back down to your abdomen.

the more he touches you, the harder it feels to breathe.

his fingers stroke your throat, not with the intent to squeeze harshly, but merely to just feel more of your skin. he tilts your chin back to rest on his shoulder, your head side by side with his own. by this time, you’re breathing heavier and having immense difficulty concentrating on the screen. his touch feels like euphoria, teasing almost every part of your body.

he’s obviously enjoying exploring you, as you can feel his erection against your ass. his fingers slowly slide further down your abdomen, making your breath hitch. he slowly slips a hand into your shorts.

instead of instantly going for your clit, he just keeps his palm near the waistband of your underwear. he effortlessly strokes your skin for a moment before finding his way to your sensitive spot. beginning to trace it softly, he forces a quiet moan to escape your lips, along with the catch of his breath from his own.

he slides a finger inside you, feeling your wetness on his skin. careful to tease you properly and take his time, he slips it in and out leisurely. once he’s got you breathing heavy, he pulls it out, and gently rubs on your clit once more with his dampened skin. your flesh feels unusually warm, every swipe of his fingers all over your body and pussy, sends your temperature rising. he wasn’t normally this gentle, and if he teases you anymore you might go insane.

“please.. go faster...”

“that’d be taking all the fun out of it then”

his low voice is close to your ear, and you can hear every breath he takes while he feels you up. just when it feels like you can’t take any more, he removes his hands from your shorts.

gojo shifts you from your previous spot in his lap, laying you down on your back. you lie supine on the couch for a moment, and he starts to spread your legs apart. he makes room for himself between your thighs, before one of his hands begins to tug at your waistband. it feels like your heart is about to hammer out of your chest as he slowly pulls down your shorts and damp underwear. he’s looking at you with kind and passionate eyes, a gaze that’s fully intent on seeing you fall apart to his touch.

you gasp when you feel his warm tongue meet your clit. he works it gently, licking up and down with mastery. instinctively, your hand grips a fistful of his white hair as the pleasure builds in your stomach and legs. when he begins to suck on your clit, you let out a whine. upon hearing your noise of satisfaction, he sucks harder, hoping to emit more content sounds out of you. you give in, moaning along with the woman on the tv. you’d been so caught up with gojo in between your legs, that you’d forgotten the porno was still playing.

to your surprise, you didn’t hate it.

hearing and watching the girl feel good alongside you, wasn’t totally awful. you’d watched your fair share of porn, and to be honest it didn’t do much for you, but something about him going down on you while something that vulgar played, made your sensations somehow feel stronger.

as you start to near climax, you gasp his name.

at this, he holds your hips down in place, making sure you feel your full pleasure. when you finally reach completion, he continues playing with your clit. upon being held down, you grip his hair tightly, your only support as you orgasm onto his tongue. as you pant and curse, he licks up your cum, sure to savor your taste and not leave anything left behind. after you’re finished, you feel soft kisses on your clit. he kisses his way up to your stomach, before moving up to leave small marks on your neck.

“gojo-”

“now I’m gonna need you to do something for me, pretty girl.”

you nod your head, your obedience making him smile.

he moves his body on top of yours so his torso hovers above your face. pulling his cock out of his boxers, he drags it across your lips.

“say ah”

opening your mouth, the first taste of his precum meets your tongue. he lets you take him into his mouth, holding his dick with one hand, and the television remote in the other. gojo turns up the volume before looking back down at you, your mouth full of cock. lips around his tip, you suck at him.

“that’s my good girl”

since you’re lying down, you allow him to gently thrust into your mouth. nothing too aggressive yet, but enough to make you want to gag on his length.

pushing further into your throat, he lovingly watches as the tears streak down the sides of your face. he gives you a reassuring smile, and wipes them away with his fingertips. perhaps to encourage you, he keeps muttering praise underneath his breath, constantly telling you how good of a job you’re doing for him.

he watches the tv from time to time, clearly enjoying watching the couple have sex while you blow him. no matter how much he looks at the screen, words of appreciation never fail to leave his lips.

“shit, just like that”

you swipe your tongue around his head and continue to take him in your mouth. he’s lost focus of the screen now, his body and mind taken over with the pleasure he's receiving. with a grunt, he finishes inside your mouth. he’s out of breath, but he looks satisfied.

once you’ve swallowed, he brings his lips to yours. his kiss is full of desire. desire for you, and desire to take your body and make it his. he plants kisses along your jaw and neck, and massages your chest from underneath your shirt.

“you’re really so beautiful, you know that?”, he whispers.

you hold his head close to yours, falling silent at the sudden compliment. he softly bites your neck before saying, “tonight, i plan on filling you up to the brim.”

“so no condom?”

he nods his head.

you smile, “what are you waiting for? fuck me and fill me up then”

he grins and kisses your forehead.

you squirm when he slides himself inside you, as he says softly, “i want to keep cumming inside you until I can’t feel anything anymore”

starting out slow, he begins thrusting his hips, moving in and out of your entrance. his sturdy body is on top of you, white hair falling in his face. he’s fucking you in missionary, something you’d usually chaste as being far too vanilla, but right now, seeing him above you seems to make the moment more intimate.

he occasionally kisses and bites at your neck, while you wrap your arms around his own. you pull at his hair while he fucks you, begging for him to keep going. You can feel the shake of your thighs as his hips dive in between your legs.

“gonna-” he mumbles, “fuck a baby in you”

you answer him with a plea, unable to form a sentence as he keeps bucking into your tight hole. feeling yourself grip around his length, your orgasm sends warmth and pleasure through your body, making you moan for him.

when he cums, he buries his face in the crook of your neck, breathing hard. you can hear him let out curses as he’s overcome with his climax.

“Oh god, fuck”, he moans.

his mouth meets yours in a sloppy kiss, and he groans into your lips.

instead of stopping after one round, he continues to thrust into you, aiming to stay true to his statement of fucking you until you’re completely stuffed full of his seed. he pursues, making you orgasm repeatedly until you’re on the verge of tears.

“please cum inside me again... i need it so bad”

eyes shut and panting, he sends ropes of white into you once more, his body shaking slightly. he was clearly overstimulated, as were you, but he continues thrusting into your wet heat relentlessly. the tv audio is dull in comparison to the sounds of pleasure coming from the both of you, and the sound of his cock shoving into your leaking pussy over and over.

“feels.. so good”, he chokes out.

you watch him as he reaches completion once again, his expression one of lewdness and pure bliss. he lets out small gasps and groans as he comes inside you for the third time. his face glistens with sweat and his chest heaves.

exhausted, he slumps on top of you, trying to catch his breath. you play with his hair with your fingers, keeping his head next to your own.

he kisses your cheek whispering, “can we just stay like this for a while?”

nodding your head, you pull him closer, aware he’s still sheathed inside you. the movie was long over, and for a while you lay with him on your chest, feeling the rise and fall of his own. after a bit, he grows soft and slips out. he gets up to look down at your hole, watching the cum leaking from your entrance.

“as hot as that is, i think you might need to take another shower”

“wanna join me?”, you ask with a smile.

“fuck, don’t tempt me”

grinning, he asks, “was the movie tasteful enough for you?”

“i could barely pay attention”

“what a shame, i guess we’ll have to watch another one sometime”

“only if i get to pick it out”

he smiles, “it’s a deal”

[angeloroki]

"best friend prank" — shoto; katsuki; keigo

— character ; aged up!shoto todoroki x fem!reader, aged up!katsuki bakugo x fem!reader, keigo takami (hawks) x fem!reader

— request ; https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMe71YqNm/

not sure if you’re still taking requests, but can we get some non-established/established relationship bakugo, todoroki and whoever else you’d like reacting to this !!

— genre ; fluff

— warnings ; none

shoto todoroki

poor baby

you were tormenting him with all those pranks

well, actually I'm exaggerating a bit. shoto acts like he's lost but he loves to see you laugh when he reacts clueless

but this one! his reaction was sincere and hilarious

his head was resting on your neck, while you were scrolling on tiktok

he cherished his moments with you, when you were both intimate

you started filming, making sure shoto was in the video

you felt and saw his smile stretching against your skin

until he heard the audio

"ayo gay best friend check! "

you saw him peel away from you, his eyes questioning and his face slightly chilled

you had to bite your cheek to keep from bursting out laughing

« what do you mean best friend ? and gay ? i'm your boyfriend, y/n. »

you didn't answer because you knew you would just laugh

you could see shoto getting impatient with ariana grande's music in the background,

« y/n, i'm your boyfriend of six months now. i thought we were past the flirting stage??? »

you let a smile light up your face and that's how he understood

your arms came around him and you whispered to him

« it's a prank, I'm just kidding, sweetheart ! »

you saw him roll his eyes, he should have known better

but shoto was cocky

« yeah, you know what ? »

you frowned

« maybe I do consider you as my best friend after all. » he said with a smirk.

«i don't fucking think so », you say, placing a kiss on his lips

katsuki bakugo

he had his head in your lap reading while you scrolled through your phone

he didn't care if you filmed him in your tiktoks or what

in fact, he was past the stage of being so annoyed that you were doing it

and then he thought you were cute when he saw you so passionate in all your delirium

anyway

you were careful to film him and then you started the audio

"ayo gay best friend check! "

his reaction was almost immediate, in fact you felt a weight come off your knees and his hand which was in yours a few seconds ago freed itself from your grip

« oi ??? »

his eyebrows furrowed and he straightened up to question you with his eyes

you wanted to laugh so bad right now, but you couldn't spoil the prank

« i'm your fucking boyfriend, you idiot. and not your gay best friend. »

but he didn't stop there

« the one who puts up with your annoying ass every day, and give you kisses like no one. »

but you quickly saw a slight smirk come over his face

he slowly moved towards you

« and then i doubt your best friend would do this to you ... »

the young blond man placed a kiss on the corner of your lips, much too far from your lips for your taste

having totally forgotten the prank and your phone, you awkwardly tried to kiss him but he pushed you away with a mocking laugh

« i'm your best friend or your boyfriend ? »

he was totally screwing with you

you rolled your eyes, his arrogance would kill you one day

« you're too sensitive, katsuki, come here and kiss me, you idiot ! »

he got up from your comfortable position and left the room, simply ignoring you

« you started it, moron. » he yelled.

keigo takami

you were both at your desks next door when you decided to do the prank on keigo

you had been hanging around each other for a few months already, making things more and more obvious as things went on

he had even offered you something on Valentine's day, claiming that he had bought you a present by mistake...

you thought things were going too slowly between you two

so the idea of this prank was perfect to conclude your pre-relationship

he was standing next to you filling out paperwork, not paying any attention to you

at least that's what he thought he was doing

you could see his constant glances towards you, anyway

you finally started the audio, filming him discreetly

"ayo gay best friend check! "

his pen movement stopped dead in its tracks, and he looked at you in astonishment, his eyebrows furrowed

« the fuck, is that me you're talking about ? »

his reaction was hilarious, a multitude of different expressions seemed to follow one another on his face

« but i thought- ? it was clear enough? i mean ?? »

he accompanied his nonsensical words with disordered gestures

keigo was actually afraid that all his moments of more or less embarrassing flirting were one way! and the worst thing is that he thought you only considered him as your best friend

« what is clear, keigo ? » you said in a mocking tone

a slight smile lit up your face, something he didn't see as he turned his back on you, looking saddened

what a drama queen this one

« i thought it was pretty clear that i wanted to be more than just your best friend... » he said in a voice too weak for you to hear

too bad, you heard him

without him expecting it you put your arms around his neck and slipped a light kiss on his temple

« what do you want to be for me then, keigo ? tell me clearly ! »

he let out a grunt before rolling his eyes, even though he was clearly annoyed you could see a smirk on his face

« our stupid boyfriend, or more if you like. »

you laughed softly at his proposal

« easy romeo, start by asking me out ? »

[blindbeta]

Blind / Low Vision Person’s Review of “Blind” by Rachel DeWoskin and Why Writers Should Not Underestimate the Benefits of a Sensitivity Reader

[Content warnings: spoilers for the book. Ableism. Brief mention of an accident involving eye trauma. Mentions of suicide. Stereotypes about blind people. Also this review, because I focused on the portrayal of blindness, comes across negatively. Please know that I have no hate for the author and might even read another book she wrote. However, I did not like the way this book portrayed blindness and, as difficult as it is, I wanted to be honest in my review.]

I struggled with the title, and I’m not even sure benefits is the appropriate word. What I want to convey here is not Brought to You By Big Sensitivity Reader Company vibes, but more This Book Was Not Good and It Needed a Sensitivity Reader Very Badly vibes.

Blind is about Emma Silver, a high school student who goes blind in a traumatic accident. Here is a good summary and review by a blind person. I listened to the audiobook, which was narrated well. I’ll start by saying this will only be a review of the portrayal of blindness — I’ll try to leave my other opinions out just to keep things focused.

Unfortunately, focusing on just blindness means that it will not make this review more positive, because this book is about a blind girl recovering from going blind. In a way that is both inauthentic and swerves well out of the author’s lane. I say that because, as I hope will become apparent, this book consists of main character Emma being sad about being blind for the majority of the book. The book doesn’t simply have a character who goes blind. That is the main character’s entire arc.

This is a long review. However, I believe it will be invaluable for my readers and anyone who is interested in writing a blind character. Because this book passes most of my minimum standards for writing blind characters and was still lacking due to many factors, including stereotypes. I included many sub-headings so you can find specific topics easily.

Helpful Links

I include these links in the review. I’ll list them here for easy finding.

Here are two reviews of the book by blind readers: one and two.

Here is a video of the author talking about some of research she did for the book.

Here is my post Things I Want to See More Of / Less Of.

Here is my post about writing a blind character adjusting to being blind and being all sad about it when you aren’t blind yourself.

And finally, here is the post I shared that lists misconceptions about blind people.

The Author

The author, Rachel Dewoskin, is not blind. I did as much research as I could, but even if I hadn’t done so before reading the book, it was obvious she wasn’t blind herself. There are too many inaccuracies and offensive moments. This becomes a problem not because her MC was blind, but because she told a blind person’s story and used tropes in ways I think would be better off written by a blind person. If I’m going to read a story like this, I don’t want to read it from the perspective of a person who isn’t blind. When I get into the details of what went wrong, I hope you’ll see why.

Did the author do her research? Yes. The author met with blind people, clearly researched assistive technology and cane skills, and even taught herself contracted Braille. She talks a little about it in this video.

In fact, I wanted to say I am so impressed and grateful this author immersed herself in things like Braille and cane skills. None of my followers have shared that they went to a Lighthouse For the Blind or taught themselves to read Braille or spoken so passionately about why they loved it.

But sometimes research falls short. Or it is simply not enough.

That’s why I’m writing this review. For you writers writing blind characters when you aren’t blind. Because while the author clearly had good intentions, while the author clearly did her research and put in the time to learn and listen in ways I don’t think many of my followers have yet — the book was not authentic enough for me.

This book needed several sensitivity readers. If it had any, I would be surprised.

The Cover

The audiobook seems to have Braille on the cover, but I can’t tell if it is accessible or simply a picture of Braille. The cover features the word Blind in white print on a black background, with what seems to be Braille in rainbow colors that also spell out the title. I’ll reserve judgment here, since I don’t know the answer. If the Braille is tactile, then the cover is fantastic.

In the video I linked, the author seems to be holding the hardcover edition of the book with Braille on the cover. I can’t tell if the Braille is actually tactile or not.

What I Liked About the Book

I wanted to list a few things I liked about the book.

1. The main character is Jewish.

2. Emma has a large family full of well-developed characters and realistic portrayals of various ages. Everyone reacts uniquely to her blindness and I thought these characters were all used well. The scenes with Emma and her older sisters as well as the scenes with her mom were really great.

3. Emma gets therapy for her trauma. She also gets training to use a cane. These are annoyingly rare in stories.

4. As I said, the author clearly did her research. This is obvious when reading the book and In everything I found when researching the author after I finished it. I want to give the author praise here. I thought her explanations of technology Emma uses were the most accurate I have seen so far, both in books and when doing sensitivity reads.

What I Didn’t Like

I will start with this: Emma, after a year of learning to use her cane, is still using a cane inside her own house. After a year. This is not realistic, nor does it seem comfortable at all to use a cane in one’s own home. I don’t know anyone who does this and according to the other reviews, I am not the only one who was surprised by this.

Basically, this story would be okay with some inaccuracies. That’s to be expected. The real issue I had with this book was that it uses tropes the blind community generally hates and that the book is literally about !!! a character going blind and adapting. That’s the story. If you remove the blindness and the trauma, the story falls apart.

The author told a story that was not hers to tell and she did so badly.

If you are confused about why I dislike this, please read this post called Writing Blind Characters Accepting Being Blind When You Aren’t Blind Yourself.

What Did The Author Do Badly?

Trauma and Blindness

The story starts when main character, Emma, goes blind after a fireworks accident. Not only is this cliché, but it also tics one of my boxes in my Things I Want To See Less of post. This author wrote about a character going blind due to a traumatic accident. Link to the post.

In telling a story that was not hers to tell, here are some harmful things in the book:

The author does not do a good job of separating Emma’s trauma from her blindness. To be fair, this is difficult and most people don’t know to go about doing so with purpose. There are a lot of times in the book where the fact that Emma is traumatized leads to her saying a lot of terrible things about blindness and blind people that are never corrected or contradicted in the story. Again, if you are not sure why this is a problem, read the link I shared to my post.

Here are a few times this issue came up:

-Emma develops a habit of rocking, which myself and many reviewers know to attribute to trauma, but it isn’t clear if the author thinks blind people rock, as the stereotype indicates. Is Emma rocking as a trauma response or because she is blind? The book doesn’t make it clear. This is a time where authors need to be clear.

-Emma assumed she will never get a job, be kissed, get married, etc, after going blind.

-Emma yells about being ruined due to her blindness. The first two hours of the audiobook consist of Emma complaining about being blind. She mentions never being able to get a job a few times, assuming she won’t be able to work. While blind people do struggle with employment, this is due to discrimination, lack of transportation, lack of accommodations, lack of community support, and other systemic issues.

-Emma calls herself disfigured.

-Emma states she wanted to die. In another part of the book, when a background character we never met, Claire, completed suicide, Emma wonders if she was so focused on Claire because she wondered if she wanted to kill herself too.

-On the subject of the character, Claire, Emma states: “How easy would being gay be compared to being blind?”

This is especially damaging because some people are blind and gay. It also isn’t fair for Emma to compare them and the systemic issues that are faced by blind people and gay people. Emma not only trivializes homophobia, but also decides being blind is worse. For Emma, being blind is the worst thing ever, which is very isolating to read.

There are times where the fact that Emma is traumatized was not only grouped in with her blindness, but where the author used trauma to write ideas about blindness that are ultimately harmful.

This book, if readers of the blog want to read it, should be a lesson on why separating trauma from blindness is important. Whether that means making clear distinctions in the narrative itself or just not writing about a character going blind after a traumatic accident.

Let’s continue the overall things done badly.

Stereotypes and Tropes About Blind People

1. Rocking —

I have already mentioned the rocking thing above, but to reiterate here, not all blind people rock to orient themselves.

2. Touching Faces —

Emma and another blind character literally feel each other’s faces, one of the most hated tropes for blind people. In another scene, Emma feels another character’s face without asking.

3. Where Are the Audio Descriptions? —

Emma compares her life to a horror movie she couldn’t watch. This is a subtle reinforcement of the idea that blind people don’t watch films or television. The book makes no mention of audio descriptions. I suppose Emma and all the other blind characters simply don’t watch films or shows anymore.

4. Supposedly Fake Service Dogs —

Emma gets a dog that is specifically said to not be a guide dog. Emma brings this dog to restaurants and to school. Emma explains that she can get away with bringing her dog because no one wants to tell the blind kid no. This was, as you may be able to imagine, frustrating to read. Plenty of blind people have been denied access to transportation and buildings with a guide dog that is supposed to be able to travel freely. Emma’s blindness would absolutely not be a big help to her in bringing her dog places where it is not allowed. In showing Emma getting away with bringing her dog into restaurants when he is explicitly not a service dog, the author is contributing to a huge myth that prevents actual service dogs from traveling freely. Yes, this is only a book and it probably isn’t falling into the hands of someone powerful — however, it has probably been picked up by a business owner, a driver for public transport, a teacher, etc.

5. Avoiding words like see and look —

Emma avoids words like see and look. She also gets angry at her friends for using such words. At one point, Emma’s friend says something and Emma snaps, “I can’t see”. This prompts her friend to, according to Emma, never make that mistake again. Toward the end of the book, Emma is still avoiding such words.

Here is a list of misconceptions about blind people. Look at #6.

Here is another review of this book that also touches on this issue. The reviewer states: “The strange thing is that I’ve never known any blind person avoiding the use of words like “see” or “look.” Again, I’d hate for sighted people to read this book and think that blind folk all avoid words with visual associations; in fact, the only blind friends I talk to moan about sighted people avoiding the use of such visual words because they think we’ll be offended!”

6. All Blind People Are Apparently Totally Blind —

At one point in the story, Emma attends a school for the blind. Another character, who I think was Emma’s mother, says that the campus is beautiful. Emma makes this remark: “Why bother making a school for the blind beautiful? It’s lost on everyone anyway.”

Wow, Emma, that was rude. This is another example of where Emma’s pain and anger cause issues for readers. If they take this at face value, they may think that blind people don’t notice or appreciate beauty. More importantly, they might also assume, like Emma, that all blind people can’t see. As I have stated many times on this blog, most blind people have residual vision. Not everyone is totally blind. This is why, like beautiful grounds, schools for the blind also have things like stairs with high contrast.

7. Subtle Use of the Idea That People With Low Vision Should Rather Strain Themselves Than Be Blind —

This one was less obvious for me. However, once I thought about it again, I understood what I was reading in this character. There’s a rather outgoing character named Seb whose personality is very refreshing in this story. Seb attends the school for the blind with Emma. Seb has low vision.

So Seb wants to get a job. Remember how Emma was afraid she wouldn’t be able to get a job now that she is blind?

Instead of showing Seb getting a job to prove that idea wrong, he knows he has to conveniently not mention being blind when he applies, showing up in sunglasses and without a cane. The book states he worries he wouldn’t be able to fill out the application.

Here is what the book states:

[Quote] “He got hired without telling any of the guys who ran the place that he wasn’t sighted; I know because he had confided in me and Dee the week before that he wanted the job—if friend worked there and said they had an opening—but Seb was worried he wouldn’t be able to fill out the application. So he showed up one night before closing time, wearing sunglasses and not carrying a cane, and asked all casually if he could grab and application and bring it back the next day.

And he spent all night filling it and brought it back the next day. He didn’t mention that he was blind or that the application had taken six hours to finish with the help of his sighted brother.” [End quote]

Seb has no obligation to reveal any personal information to them. If he wants to fill out the application on his own time, in a way in which he feels comfortable, that is fine. However, the book implies he thought he would not be hired if they knew he was blind. Rather than talk about the employment discrimination that is such a huge problem for blind people, the book decides to skip over this. And rather than address Emma’s fear-based expectation that she will never get a job, presumably because she doesn’t think blind people can do anything, the book ignores it.

Seb getting a job, especially in this way, does absolutely nothing to assuage Emma’s fears. Or challenge any possible low expectations the readers may have.

Seb fills out the application by himself and it takes six hours. Six. Hours. His brother also helps him eventually and it still takes that long. No one I know, even with intense internalized ableism, would sit there for six hours doing something like that.

Seb should be using a magnifying device or a scanner app. There is tons of technology out there for people with low vision and the author chose to include absolutely none of it in the book. Instead, she chose to show a character struggling for six hours without exploring his reasons for doing so. Does he do this because of internalized ableism? If yes, how can the same character tell Emma the school will get rid of her “Poor Blind Kid bullshit”?

Now, in some families and some cultures, it would be more appropriate for a family member to help. However, the author tells us nothing more about Seb’s culture, his family life, or his motivations. I assume he did not ask for his brother’s help until later, because I can’t fathom why having a family member help from the start would take six hours.

Why is a character doing this in a story that is supposed to be about adjusting to blindness? Clinging to his remaining vision instead of using a few adaptive tools to make things easier on his eyes hardly makes him a good role model for Emma. Why is a character modeling independence in this specific way? In a way that tells Emma that it is better to struggle with a little vision than to be totally blind?

This is reinforced when Emma says some kids, including Seb, pass well. This is something that cannot be given nuance unless it is written by someone who experienced it. Otherwise, the story shows Emma over and over again that being blind is bad. Undesirable. Which is ableist.

Do people struggle with this? Absolutely. Did the author write it well? No.

And Here Are a Few Things That Could Have Been Done Better

In this section, I wanted to go over things I thought could have been done better. They aren’t necessarily harmful, but I wanted to mention them.

Sunglasses

The main character wears sunglasses when she goes out. This is likely because she has a scar she feels self-conscious about, but this is still a big stereotype that the author could have taken more care with.

O&M Issues

So Emma has someone come around to teach her orientation and mobility, which was nice. The author put in her research here as well. However, the instructor leaves after a time, which seems odd. Rather than work with her around her schools or other locations, he decides she has learned all the basics. I received O&M training until university.

Now Let’s Examine The Blind Characters vs Tropes

In this section, I want to go over the biggest tropes in the stories structure, the number of blind characters, and what I normally advise to get around these issues. We’ll see how this advice compares to how the book turned out.

So, the things to look out for are:

-tokenism

-blind characters going blind through trauma

-blind characters being sad about being blind

Examining Tokenism

Emma is not the only blind character. The blind characters include: Emma, Sebastian, Dee, and Annabelle. I normally say to have one other blind character at minimum. The book meets that requirement.

Examining Blind Characters Going Blind Through Trauma

I also normally suggest avoiding characters going blind through trauma, especially main characters. If the writer would like to go ahead with this, I normally suggest 2 or 3 other blind characters who didn’t go blind through trauma. With 2 as the minimum. I admit, I prefer the main character not to be the one going blind through trauma, simply because the main character has so much power in the perception of the reader.

Let us examine each character.

Emma - went blind through a traumatic fireworks accident

Sebastian- unknown

Dee - unknown

Annabelle- went blind through Retinitis Pigmentosa

On the topic of Dee and Seb, Emma does mention they may have better hearing, which she claims you only have if you lose your sight before the age of ten. We can guess that Dee and Seb both went blind in early childhood or were born blind, but we aren’t sure. What I want here is explicit confirmation that other characters didn’t go blind through accidents. We only get that with Annabelle and her RP.

Not only that, but the other blind characters are not in the novel as much. Annabelle only shows up at the end, seemingly as a way for Emma to help another recently blind person to show how she has developed. Seb and Dee are only in a few chapters, mostly as flashbacks. They don’t get much backstory or development either.

However, it fills my minimum requirements, so I’ll let it pass.

Examining Blind Characters Being Sad About Being Blind

This is literally Emma throughout the entire book. Until the last few chapters.

Annabelle has a similar, shorter arc, although she is only 9 at the time. Annabelle comes in near the end of the book.

It is normal for people to need an adjustment period, particularly if they are young. However, to have the entire book consist of Emma being sad and having trauma focused mostly on her blindness is not something I’m okay with. Especially because, as I wrote in this post, it can leave non-blind readers with a very negative impression of blindness. Again, why would I want to read about this arc from an author who isn’t blind? Why make the entire book about adjusting to blindness?

Anyway, then we have Seb and Dee.

There characters were refreshing in this story, which is mostly Emma being sad and angry.

Dee doesn’t seem to be sad, but we don’t know much about her. She does seem well adjusted and laidback. She and Seb go skiing, so that’s something.

Sebastian gets a little more attention in the story. He does tell Emma the school for the blind will knock the “BPK bullshit” or “Poor Blind Kid bullshit” right out of her. I thought it was funny. Sebastian also has a big personality and interests outside of moping about being blind. He enjoys skiing and, according to Emma, he would have no problem with presenting on the Lighthouse For the Blind in front of people who aren’t blind, unlike Emma, who struggles with calling attention to her blindness. Which I can understand, what with the awkward questions her sighted classmates give her.

However, Seb also has an issue with hiding or fighting against his low vision in some parts of the story. If Sebastian were the main character, I could understand some of the things he does. However, this does not go well at all with Emma’s arc.

Anyway, Seb and Dee don’t get nearly enough time in the book for me to feel 100% comfortable using them as exceptions.

How Would a Sensitivity Reader Help?

If I were doing a sensitivity read for this book, I would suggest including more about Seb and Dee and the school for the blind. I would have explained that the way the story sidelines them shows Emma is not okay associating with her blind friends. I would have asked for more backstory, more contrast between them and the main character, and possibly a few more blind characters Emma met at the school for the blind.

If the writer was insistent on having Emma go blind in an accident, I would have suggested reducing the time she spent depressed and shifting the focus from her blindness to her traumatic accident. I would have had the author work harder to separate the two, even if it took Emma a while to do so. I would have also suggested reducing Emma’s remarks or have them called out. For example, her comments about not being able to get a job or beautiful schools being lost on blind people. Sebastian would have been excellent in this role.

I would have worked with her to either get rid of or subvert the list of stereotypes. Most of them are easy fixes.

I would have told her blind people don’t use canes in their houses. I would have given suggestions for assistive technology for Seb to use. I would have helped her with the section on trauma and blindness, reducing or erasing a lot of the issues I included there. I would have suggested giving Emma an arc that isn’t entirely about adjusting to blindness, even if her story starts with going blind.

I probably would have seemed nicer about my feedback because the author still had opportunity to make changes.

The author could have done more research on stereotypes and cane usage, but I think there is an important lesson here about the benefits of sensitivity readers.

In the end, a sensitivity reader would have fixed most of the problems in this story, despite the amount of research the author did. Research cannot always teach you everything and that is where a sensually or authenticity reader comes in. Moreover, there is a certain respect in involving communities you are representing. In paying them in money or exposure. In listening to their voices and respecting what they say. If the author was willing to learn Braille and sit with blind people to learn about canes and technology, why did she stop at getting sensitivity readers? Why does it feel like she didn’t want to include the blind community in any meaningful way?

I hope this helps someone.

-BlindBeta

[beelspillowpet]

A Lesson in Love - A “Character Analysis” on Asmodeus

I had to come for the tracks, wigs, and weaves of bitches when Pomade dropped because I saw people talking shit about my boy. This was a milestone “project” or “reward” I guess?

I hit 400 followers today while I was out running errands!!! Thank you guys SO SO MUCH for the love and support! I can’t WAIT to produce more content for everyone!!!

Below the cut there WILL BE talk of season 3, as well as some talk of chapter 16. There’s a healthy amount of theorizing on his personality as well, I hope you don’t mind! This came out more like a plea to get people to change their minds about how Asmo really is, rather than a comprehensive essay of sorts. So here we go!

There’s something we apparently still need to talk about in this fanbase. The unrealistic idea of Asmodeus being a sex freak, and an unreliable person in general despite there being little proof of it. We need to set a few things straight about Asmo moving forward.

December 25th rolled around and Asmo’s audio drama and song were released. I take it everyone enjoyed both parts, as well as I did. My timeline both on twitter and tumblr were filled with Asmodeus content, as well as the other brothers and such. But I mostly got Asmo content. However, in peeks and cracks, if I looked hard enough, I still saw people who absolutely loathed Asmo or who were indifferent to him. Keep in mind; I think it’s okay. You don’t have to like everyone.

I’ve only joined the fanbase in September, but even I could tell some of these takes were old fashioned. I downloaded the game on October 17th, a very important anniversary for me, while I 

was still in bed in the morning. I blazed through the entire story of season 1 and now I am stuck in season 2, specifically in Chapter 24. I obviously don’t have every card of Asmodeus with his Devilgrams, but I have been analyzing his character over the past few days for this.

So needless to say, I have a considerable amount of information on him, as well as personal thoughts that may help some learn to love him. Or at the very least, from spreading a negative idea of him around as if it were true. Enough that should help clear his name, so to speak.

Let’s look at his title; Avatar of Lust. Now naturally the thoughts that come to your head are sex and other sexual bits. So I can understand how some people would come to the conclusion that he’s just a sex freak. But if you look under the surface of his title, like I’m sure you’ve had to for your own personal favorites (*cough* Lucifer, Belphie, and Satan ESPECIALLY) you would discover that Asmodeus is more than just about sex. In fact, sex takes up very little of his pass time, if you were to believe it!

In recent chapters, as I’ve been told, Asmodeus doesn’t really get around much anyways:

Granted, this was said while in Celestia, but I imagine not much has changed for him since his fall, as well as his brothers.

Not really comfortable being with just anyone, huh…? Sounds like someone who doesn’t have sex so warily often as you’d think!

Being lustful can come in many shapes and forms. It can be merely in appearance, which Asmo is not afraid of doing. He’s very comfortable about skinship and it’s very apparent in how he dresses and acts that he wants you to adore his body. To worship it! Maybe not sexually, but aesthetically! Being lustful can mean just thinking about sex or sexual scenarios often, which if you take a peek at Asmo’s chat’s either with you or his brothers, is very apparent too.

Personally, I believe that people would assume he is not good in a relationship because he would have a “cheating problem”. I don’t think Asmo is a monster, just like I don’t think any of the brothers are monsters. They may be demons (technically fallen angels) now but they used to be angels too. Their falling out with their Father doesn’t mean they’ve completely abandoned morality, it was a rebellion for Lilith’s right to live. Not for them to sin as they pleased. For all we know they might have been fine in Heaven otherwise! (with the exception of Lucifer.)

A monster knows right from wrong and chooses evil anyways. An ignorant person doesn’t know right from wrong. Asmodeus is not a monster, nor is he ignorant.

When Asmo genuinely loves you, I think he would take steps to calm down that side of him, if it were to exist. Lust is fairly limited, but it is a part of love to some extent. LOVE is vastly different. Love has many languages, and they aren’t all spoken either. For me, personally, I found that Lucifer’s love language can be either very direct, or roundabout so as to not let it go to your head, for an example. Asmo is just far more direct about his care for you.

I feel as though Asmo gets a lot of crap constantly for his presumed nature and because we don’t get to see much else of him at first, especially in season 1, his impression on us sort of stays. With most of the fanbase either somewhat new to the game or somewhere lost in the sea of the difficulty curve that is season 2, we can only assume based on what we’ve seen, and what others have headcanoned about him.

Let’s break and talk about Satan for a moment; this is going somewhere.

I’m led to believe that Satan can control his sin fairly well. He’s easy to get irritated, sure, but he isn’t as much of a walking ball of rage as I suspected. I would argue that, aside from Leviathan, Satan can handle his sin the best out of the brothers. But again, we’re forgetting about Asmo. The Avatar of “Lust”. Like I’ve shown before, he doesn’t really sleep around a lot, according to anon.

At worst, Asmo being flirty is through text and he’s not actively trying to sleep with you. It can be interpreted that way, but for me personally, it comes down to having a friend that is very up close and in your personal space.

(I myself am one of these types of people. Having ADHD, my social cues are always sort of off, and I’ve struggled with coping with it for years. With my best friend, we have seen each other naked countless times and have slept in the same bed as well. We were never romantic with each other. We were just very comfortable being close and personal with each other.)

I’d like to point out also that Asmo isn’t even there for most of season 1 too. Which can give you the idea that maybe he just was out sleeping around a lot, but to me he probably just went out partying a lot. You don’t get known that fast for sleeping around. Maybe in 5,000 years, sure, but I’d imagine being a party boy, as his Devilgram “Guided by Desire” suggests.

So the idea that Asmo isn’t in the house a lot because he’s out having sex all the time isn’t true is it? He’s probably just out partying, which can LEAD to sex with someone sure, but again, Asmo doesn’t feel comfortable doing that, now does he?

I feel like of all the boys, Asmo is the one who radiates with everyone else the most. Most people will never realize how surreal it is that Asmo is faking it until he makes it. He doesn’t always think he’s beautiful, or that he’s worth all the love he’s striving and straining to get. Something that is extremely relatable for a lot of people with self-worth issues. Asmo is just like that, but instead being sarcastic and self-deprecating, he simply works to make himself look as beautiful as possible, so that in his eyes, his beauty matches the affection he gets.

Which is why, when he falls in love with you, it’s strange. You are constantly telling him he’s nice and pretty, but you aren’t lusting after him. You’re just being nice. It may just be me, but when people are overly nice just for the sake of being nice, I’m very attracted to that. That is Asmo, to some extent. The fact that he reflects the insecurities and habits of others so clearly may make others uncomfortable, but that brutal honesty veiled behind insecurity is what a lot of people with self-image issues deal with.

Now for me to share my favorite personal idea for Asmo that completely changed how I saw him in season 1 onwards; Asmodeus is an empath. Now let me explain:

First, what is an Empath?

The term empath comes from empathy, which is the ability to understand the experiences and feelings of others outside of your own perspective. Seems simple, right? Everyone can do this to some extent. However, what makes you an empath is the fact that empaths genuinely feel the same pain as you do. So much so your experience becomes a very personal part of their own. They are capable of being able to feel other people’s emotions without them speaking, or even showing signs of it through their body language.

This would explain, for me personally, why there’s so little of him in season 1. The intensity of what goes on in the house, his sensitive soft-spoken mannerisms, the only time he truly gets mad is when he’s childishly arguing with Mammon? Asmo is afraid of true conflict, he’s afraid of violence and negative emotions. Let’s face it; everyone is indifferent or hates you at the start of the game.

While this changes fairly quickly, all the intense feelings come to a head in chapter 16. All those negative emotions swirling around, of course Asmo isn’t going to want to be in the house when it’s that intense. The attic didn’t just disappear completely, too. Belphie was still in the attic hating humans. That negative emotion could be affecting Asmo and he didn’t know why, so he could have been out of the house more.

Where Asmo can feel the emotions of others, it may mostly be the negative ones because they fill him with anxiety and panic if it persists. Which can be helpful in making him so urgent to want to make others smile and feel better, right?

Imagine being intimate with Asmodeus, and suddenly you aren’t in the mood for it anymore but don’t want to make things awkward. He could pick up on it in an instant and wouldn’t get mad because he understands how you feel completely.

Now to close this out about something that genuinely hurts me; Asmodeus is a narcissist.

I mean, the wiki says that he is, but personally? No, no he isn’t. Since when is loving yourself a bad thing? Sure he may go a bit far sometimes, but people with self-image issues need to go a little harder than the rest to make sure they're getting the love they need.

(Talking about myself AGAIN, but I do this a lot. At random, I will look up in my own mirror in front of my desk that I sit in front of all day and tell myself I am a cute bitch. I am VERY VERY cute and anyone would be lucky to have someone as drop dead gorgeous as myself. I say that a few times a day. In reality, I am very insecure about my looks. I do believe I’m cute, but sometimes it’s hard to say it. Which is why I force myself. Why wouldn’t Asmo do the same?)

Talking yourself up to be as beautiful as a sex god is no easy task, but Asmo isn’t the Avatar of “Lust” for no reason. When an insecure girl talks up her beauty, it’s her being strong and independent. When Asmo does it, its narcissism… it doesn’t really seem fair, now does it? Maybe he’s just an insecure person who needs to tell himself ALL THE TIME that he’s beautiful. That if he stares at his reflection long enough, he may see it too.

(Also, Simeon literally calls him out on being insecure. Insecure people tend to try and overcompensate where they feel they’re lacking.)

”Asmodeus is hinted to be insecure and seeking for love and attention. When Simeon was asked about what he thought of Asmodeus, he says that Asmodeus is still trying to fulfill the role of the angel he used to be; an angel that was adored and loved by many. Asmodeus laughs at Simeon's remark and brushes it off by saying that he is only jealous.” - A section from said Asmodeus Wiki.

People can choose to love or hate Asmo, obviously. Making things up about his character without having anything but speculation and having that dictate how he acts is plain silly. This entire “essay” if you can call it that, comes from the heart. I love Asmo as a character, and in the beginning he did make me uncomfortable, I didn’t like him that much. But I learned to look past that and figure out why he acts the way he does. Something didn’t sit right with me about him for a while, and it was that air of insecurity that I didn’t see at first.

All I can really ask for, is giving Asmo another chance as a character. He’s not as wild and wacky as Mammon, or as cool and sexy as Lucifer, or as edgy and precious as Belphie, but he matters in this story too. He fell from grace with his brothers for Lilith. Give him another chance, and let him show you that he is the Avatar of Love.

[mettywiththenotes]

Who's your favorite character and what are 10 facts you think are underrated about them? Like, you know this detail about a character that rarely shows up in fics or meta and you often think about the potential fic or meta this fact could create if people paid attention to this character

Tomura <3

1) He reads newspapers and clearly has books in his room, whether those were for learning or for enjoyment, idk, but there's potential in both

Anyway, I know people usually depict early Tomura as GAMER MAN who DRINKS MONSTER and all that, but. idk I'd like to read a fic where Tomura is, for once, reading a newspaper or reading a book. He could even just be cutting out pieces of info from a newspaper while he talks to someone in the League and pins the pieces on a board, for future use. Which, btw, IS CANON. So I'd like to see that depicted more often

Meta that could surround this: visual learning. Not just by reading but also in general. This man uses computers, reads newspapers, listens to AFO's voice through a screen (essentially connected to radio), so it shows that, in general, Tomura likes to collect information and maybe prefers visual evidence over anything else. I've already made a post about it but I feel like it should be spoken about more

(Could probably be great for Machia comparison too, since Machia seems to specifically listens to voices more than visuals. Its a good comparison, I think, and if anybody wants to write the fic about Machia and Tomura interacting and showing that visual vs audio difference, that'd be cool and smthg I'd read)

Along with that visual learning, maybe some fics about AFO/Kurogiri trying to teach Tomura stuff but Tomura just not retaining or understanding it, getting confused etc. Then AFO/Kurogiri are like "what about interactive learning?" and set up little learning games for him with blocks or boards or smthg. The potential of this is big and we could do a lot with it. Also, Tomura playing Cool Maths Games. Imagine it

2) Tomura's skin condition.

As someone with a skin condition, I think that there's a few things that I would like to see depicted in-universe but mostly in fanfic

Like for example, if an itchy skin condition is left untreated for a long time, to the point where it wears at the skin, there's a lot of problems that surround that - it becomes incredibly sensitive, making simple things like touch, water, soap, moisturiser, even someone just breathing or the wind can drive you insane

In many cases, it can be painful too if you've dug so deep into yourself that you're drawing blood

Also, I'm not sure if this is just me, but itching due to stress (which, btw, is the reason Tomura even has his skin condition in the first place) can happen during the stressful event or after, as a release

It'd be nice to read fics where Tomura is like. hissing as he showers, washing his neck or face. or being told to use moisturiser and he tries it but it just makes him itch so much more (the League have to tie his hands behind his back to prevent bleeding), or being given medication to treat the skin but because his skin is SO sensitive, he ends up screaming bloody murder and perhaps (for drama) ends up thinking he's being attacked and hits the person trying to help him. I've seen some stuff, fanart and fic alike, where Tomura's neck is bandaged up, which I think is really good, but it'd be nice to have stuff like this too

Also, just wanna clarify, moisturising isn't WORSE, because in many cases it does help depending on what you have specifically, but moisturising DOES make you more aware of the sensitivity, and I know in the past that I've had to physically restrain myself from tearing into my skin. I've even told friends that if they see me itching, to make me aware that I am and tell me to stop, because sometimes I don't even notice

Meta that could surround this: I've already made a post about it, but when Nao is rubbing Tenko's medicine into his skin, he stands back up and starts itching again. This could be due to the sensitivity of the skin, and moisturiser can irritate it. Also, Nao lets him itch as Tenko talks, which is probably the number one thing you should NOT do if you want the skin to heal

I'm not sure if this is a universal thing and I don't know if what Tomura has is the same as mine, but I relate to his skin condition and I'd love to see more stuff about it, in canon and fandom alike

3) Tomura's smarts

I know its mostly known already but I'll still say what I think

I feel like a lot of people forget Tomura is analytical, almost to the same extent as Izuku. And he's smart too. A LOT of people write him off as Gamer Boy Who Makes Gaming References All The Time And Is Selfish, but he's. actually very smart

Most of that could probably be through gaming, like with how he paired Twice and Dabi up during the Training Camp arc because they would both be able to help each other (Twice cloning Dabi so he could confront the Heroes without actually getting captured. If you wanna go a step further, Twice and Dabi's personalities mixing well but contrasting at the same time. A duo similar to Toga and Dabi's) which is also used in rpg's during team rounds

But, like I mentioned in the first point, if the books Tomura had were to learn or about history or fantasy, he would also be able to take from that and think of strategies

Meta this could be used for: Tomura pairing his team members off, letting them drift towards each other, because maybe he understands social dynamics? I'm not sure. Maybe this could also add into his homeschooling and what/how AFO or Kurogiri taught him

Which leads me to...

4) Tomura's quirk knowledge and acceptance

It's not a rejected fact but it's not talked about either. Tomura is accepting of quirks and seems to understand that they are a part of the person just like an arm is a part of the body

I mean, did you see the way he accommodates for his team? He lets Dabi do whatever he wants and this is probably down to how Dabi distances himself to only use his fire when necessary, but on an emotional level, he lets Dabi join in if he wants to - he respects boundaries

He made sure Dabi and Twice lifted each other up in the camp because Twice's Double was a safety precaution so Dabi didn't overdo himself or get captured

When Twice is sad over not being able to help with the bullet, Tomura doesn't seem to care at all and looks like he's just trying to figure out the problem rather than Twice's quirk

MVA is proof enough of his acceptance of quirks and their limits, plus the person attached to them

Plus, he seems to know his history?

Tomura literally knew about the Mother of Quirks, are we just gonna forget that? Unless AFO read history books as bed time stories, Tomura may even be interested in quirks as well, just like how Izuku is (maybe not to the exact same extent but still). You could even go further and say Tomura researched about quirks, quirk prejudice and how it's effected history

ALSO, this is even more interesting when you consider his views on quirks and how he spoke to Chisaki in the road. If memory serves me right, he said "You know what? I think someone who talks about quirks being diseases and curses shouldn't use theirs for their own gain" which shows a sort of hypocrisy with Chisaki - that he hated quirks but would use his own AND ERI'S, plus allow the Precepts to use their quirks, for his own advantage. That's very interesting to point out

Meta this could be used for: I mean, most of it is stated above, but I guess you could say that Tomura is accepting because of what he's been through with family and his quirk shows he has sympathy over destructive quirks and how its lead to Heroes/general public being prejudiced over them. Most of that is even spoken about in USJ during his speech, he DOES have an understanding of it, and if "violence breeds more violence" is anything to go by, it could show he knows his history

5) Tomura being fond about Izuku

Yes I know. I Am Once Again Talking About The Boys

But I mean, I don't see this talked about much and its a shame

Tomura literally connected fate/destiny to meeting Izuku again and again. He practically JUMPED at the chance to talk to Izuku in the mall. Mans got a printed out picture of him (we don't even know if he still has it)

In War Arc, when he finally saw that it was Izuku who had OFA, he SMILED FONDLY and said "Must be fate". He even kept that same smile when he first confronted him before Gran Torino intervened

And then of course, Tenko's "Izuku Midoriya..." scene

Meta this could be used for: *gestures to my entire blog* Examples here

But fr, Shiggy always perhaps knowing deep down that Izuku was a Hero he could look to, this possibly starting during Sports Festival arc, and being so "annoyed" with him because Izuku is the only Hero that actually acts like a Hero. A true one - someone who cares

(Secret 6th Fact because I think its funny

I don't think we talk enough about how Tomura literally just dumped AFO as a mentor figure the day he lost Kamino

Like Tomura watched him fight, was like "GET HIM SENSEI!" and then got shoved through the warp, saw AFO lost and was like "What a fucking loser. Anyway Kurogiri is my only carer now, the one true dad, who DIDN'T go to jail btw"

Which is a little sadder when you also remember Kurogiri went to jail just before MVA

But like. idk. The absolute COMEDY of Tomura getting possessed, being like "wtf? oh right yeah its you sensei. I mean, thanks for saving me but I lost respect for you ever since Kamino. Anyway, get fucked. I'm in control"

I'd like to see fanfics address this. I know there's a sort of indifference vibe to him, or even admiration, in fics surrounding Tomura and AFO, but it'd be cool to see Tomura just be like "AFO? Oh yeah fuck that guy he's an ass"

Even more so with this whole possession thing

Meta surrounding this: Tomura's "love" to AFO may have always been conditional, to the point where if AFO said smthg but let the opposite happen, AFO's savior view in Tomura's eyes dimmed even more. Due to this, and Tomura seeming to be aware of his sensei's promises and such, Tomura could have actually been wary over his sensei even before War arc. This is also supported in USJ arc when Tomura is all "they lied to me!" meaning Ujiko and AFO and he was fully ready to think that and accept it as truth)

Edit:

I just realised I only did 5 facts... well, these are all I can think of. If I think of any more in the future, I'll reblog this and add them on lol

[popurikat]

Trying to make sense of parts of Future (Mystery Skulls)

Since my last analysis went so well I thought I’d make this post as well, especially because Future really did confuse me and I know others might be lost as well; so lets discuss this together! It will be lengthy as I am basically spewing my thoughts out right on the videos immediate release date (there will be a read more option after my first thought to avoid long positng). Well first things first, I wanna address that I've been curious about what kind of spirit Arthur's arm could be (since I am not too well acquainted with any canon on its background part at least) and I think I have concluded that the closest thing to it could be is a Tenome; which is a Yochai that possesses a man's body and moves the eyes to the palms. "found lurking in cemeteries, hands outstretched, as if he has only recently lost his vision and is searching for something. Get close enough, and you’ll find out in quick succession that a) he’s not blind, but looking with eyes embedded in his hands, and b) what he’s looking for is a snack." (fyi, most of my mythos information is coming from Wiki just as a heads up)

And sure enough he found a great source for his hunger. Something he has been EYEING since the start. Which now leads me to my next points on the video...

At first watch I was convinced that each strand found on Mystery’s heart represented a singular soul bond, I thought that blue was for Vivi, Green was for the hand, pink for Lewis, purple for Shiro, Yellow for Lance, Orange for Arthur, and black and white were unknown. Which, didn’t settle right for me. SO I went in and re-watched the clip a couple more times and saw this:

Vivi’s (blue created after she got hurt) and Shiro’s (white created after she died) strands were connected to the strands located next to them. A start and an end. Mystery’s promise to Vivi to stay at her side for generations as he was spared upon prior defeat of Mushi. And then of course we have the promise of power and sustenance for Shrio as they held a symbiotic relationship for most of their lives that was only severed due to an interference. These double strands of fate are especially clearer in the scene with Shiro in Future. As the black strand gets clearer the more she gets injured or emotionally hurt, it eventually leads to the leak of the white strand on her death. Meaning; Black/white=Shiro; Purple/Pink=Lewis; Blue/Green: Vivi; and Orange/Yellow: Arthur. And why am I inclined to believe Lewis and Arthur are apart of Mystery’s heart? Well that's because those two were the only ones fully streaming before Vivi’s and Shiro’s appeared. We know that Arthur lost an arm to Mystery and discovered his identity (ergo losing most of his trust in him) insinuating both strands to arise early on of his color scheme, as well as with Lewis’ death occurring under the protection of Mystery when they were grouped and having his soul go restless/ in pain. It wouldn’t make sense to add family members or side characters not included in the mainline story to this grouping unless they would play an important role in the finale, which isn’t likely since we have only one more video left as Ben stated it was going to be a 5 video series. I am also inclined to believe each person has two strands because of Kitsune lore: “ Kitsune keep their promises and strive to repay any favor. Occasionally a kitsune attaches itself to a person or household. They follow their word of honor. They become self-destructive if they break a promise, and when someone else breaks a promise, they become deadly enemies.” Plus, It would make sense as to why in this short battle Mystery sprouted his last 3 tails when it came to Vivi and Shiro and how their connections affect his power. (more on this in a bit) But, furthermore; if anyone else notices, the Band-Aids on the heart are also remotely located on the sections of Vivi’s and Shiro’s strands specifically because for both, Mystery has vowed to protect them and has failed. 

Now then lets talk about a few things on Mystery’s ultimate form shall we? The final form of a Kitsune, its celestial form as shown here is called a Tenko. (yes I am aware of the Kumiho, but that is a fully evil, flesh eating, 9 tailed fox that specialize in illusions and well Mystery has never been portrayed as human). The Tenko makes even more sense when taken into consideration that Mystery’s third eye (typically a form of wisdom connected to overpowering the mortality of ones self) opens. So how was this done in such a short amount of time? “Kitsune do not accept aid from those who are not willing. they do not ask for help, and as such, most aid must come from another's initiative. Kitsune are emotional and very vengeful. Kitsune will lose their temper at the slightest provocation. Once someone has earned a kitsune's enmity, the kitsune will begin enacting revenge that can become quite extreme. On the other hand, those who have earned a kitsune's trust and loyalty will see a friendship that can last through many trials. Freedom is very important to the kitsune. They do not accept being forced into something they do not wish, and do not like being bound or trapped. Doing so weakens the kitsune.” Mystery as we know is very much controlled by his emotions, going head first into things constantly based on reaction and his inability to control his power under distress. His tails arose in the fight sequence every time he fulfilled his oath AND used 100% of his form/power. Therefore, his tails grew because he wasn’t holding back anymore, not his grievances, not his appearance, nor his hesitance in his evident distress of being bound to two entities that both required his aid.  My last note on these images comes from a tumblr user’s reverse audio clipping (https://nebulous-rain.tumblr.com/post/633555549749952512/ok-so-yknow-that-one-reversed-part-of-future). The rewind of the clip of Mystery’s transformation plays “When I’m With You”, which yes, cool a possible Easter egg to the next song! BUT what is this song about? Let me just bring up the first line of the song: “You got me hanging by a THREAD...I wish I could turn back time...I wish I could rewind life...” and before the chorus “I’m gonna make it right”. We know that this can refer to rectifying the wrongs of Lewis’ death, but more accurately to do so we need to defeat the evil inside this mutt that is pulling the strings of this whole fiasco. And this might just be the intro portion of the next mystery skulls mind you as we’ve also gotten many false starts with the previous two videos where hellbent used “every note” and future used “enemies” alongside the main song. BUT WE HAVE TWO YEARS ANYWAY, WHY BABBLE ON ABOUT THIS. LETS MOVE ON!

Hearts in this series have not been just for identifying the dead or for aesthetic purposes, they are the life force of each powerful legend. I am actually surprised to see Shiro have a heart as she started off as a creation from Mystery and therefore her lifeforce is just his blood and without it she is nothing. I am curious about her color pallet though, her heart is purple and pink. Lewis’ is gold/yellow with touches of orange. And Mystery’s is just red, but it has a mix of everyone’s essence within it to keep it tied and whole. Shiro’s could be colored this way in reference to Lewis’ aid to help find her creator; which would explain why Mystery surrounds himself by color as he required outside help and how Lewis’ heart is yellow in reference to how recently Arthur helped him remember his friends/hidden memories. One thing we have learned about hearts is that they can be broken repeatedly and can be ripped apart from the body, but they can be repaired too through resolution/hope. Lewis restored his heart in hellbent by using Vivi’s flower petals and finding hope that he will get revenge, only for his heart to be repaired again through Arthur’s touch. Shiro may have withered away, but her heart is essentially not broken, she’d need Mystery to restore it as it was flung into space (and that again relies on Mystery finding his sanity and finding it in himself to even bring her back). And as for Mystery himself, he’s gonna need the whole gang to reach out to him to extract the parasite within and restore balance. I really want to know more about the heart properties and how they give their users their powers as well Vivi is able to summon her strength through a material connection (bat) that function in its own way as the vessel a heart does since its connecting her to her ancestry.

NOW to finalize, I offer you two queries:

WHO IS ARTHURS HAND REACHING FOR!? I know it seems like Mystery, but that would be counter productive for the hand demon if he has Arthur interfering with his control. Is it still after Lewis as we’ve seen previous times where his arm acts up only in Lewis’ presence and when specifically other “magic” is at play? If so, is the goal to ward off Lewis and Vivi from defeating Mystery? Is Arthur gonna use the arm to find his own power as we’ve seen when he is able to momentarily cease control of it he kinda ruins anything electrical he touches and well, electricity is currently running rampant in there.

and lastly, I am really curious how touch sensitive hearts are, We know that even the smallest of brushes can detect memory/links to the person holding it (as seen with how Shiro managed to get soul flowers in hellbent), but the fact that Lewis was so in touch with the feeling of Arthur EVEN THOUGH ARTHUR GRABBED HIS HEART THROUGH HIS METAL HAND MIND YOU!, that he still managed to feel the disturbance instantly. So my question is, is the touch sensitivity reliant on how close someone is to someone? I would like to say yes cause when Shiro touched his heart he didn’t react instantly, he felt her rummaging his memories and was awoken, but he didn’t kick her butt by fully reforming until after she had long since stepped on his heart and then forced the memory of Mystery to arise. But yeah, its a nice little detail.

Either way, thanks for reading! Feel free to add on, comment, or even dm me about more Mystery Skulls information and theories! Love to hear them!

[lmanberg]

Is Dream using a body double?

This post will include references to leaked images of both Dream and his brother and discussion of his old Reddit account, if you’re uncomfortable with that then do not read

TW/CW: weight & weight loss, dieting, eating disorder, scar mention, fatphobia, Dream’s ex (Sam), (verbal) abuse from a significant other

So before I get into it, I’m going to be talking about both a doxxing forum and Dream’s brother. I don’t want to say the name of either of them, so the forum will simply be called F and Dream’s brother will be called B.

There are five very different thought processes you can go through which will draw you to two very different conclusions, I’ll be talking about all of them and you can decide which you believe. I’d like to preface with the fact that I do not believe all of these theories and I’m just trying to explain all possibilities in this situation.

I will attach TLDRs at the end of every theory for convenience.

1. Dream is using his brother as a body double

So this is probably the theory you have seen discussed the most, but I’ll go into more detail as to why people believe this.

Firstly we start with Dream as a kid. We’ve already been shown an image of him by Dream:

Now there’s also a leaked image of “him”, in which he’s fat, fatter than he is in the image above. However his facial structure, smile, and hair are all the same. We can tell that Dream is 16 in the Facebook post that the image was found on. In the caption of the photo, Dream is called “Clay” and his father is in the image with him.

If we follow the theory, this would lead you to assume that Dream is still fat, and is using his brother as a body double for his merch photos. But why his brother?

There have been photos of Dream’s brother from his Instagram leaked on F, in one of these he’s holding a gun. The hand holding the gun has the exact same markings and scar as the hands in the unboxing video.

To continue talking about the unboxing video, the way he holds the objects and moves them off camera is also very suspicious. Just the audio quality already is weird, but then the way he moves items off camera and almost seems like he’s handing it to someone next to him, not to mention the obscene amount of cuts in the ending, it all extremely damning.

It’s pretty much undeniable that B is the person in the unboxing video, the scar being the most damning evidence. But what about the merch photos?

Firstly I will say that in the “face reveal” photos, Dream has the same markings on his arms as B and as he does in the unboxing video. But we can also talk about the hands in general:

As we can see, the hand in the bottom left has the same fingers as the one in the merch video, however the one in the bottom right (one of the more recent images of Dream) looks slightly different, in fact his hands look a lot more veiny and red. But we see his hand has similar veins in the image below, so it’s probably just lighting. The lack of tan is also to be expected, as the first image was pre-covid and the second was post, he hasn’t been able to see half as much sunlight as he used to.

TLDR: Dream is still fat and is using his brother as a body double

2. Dream is using his brother as a body double (V2)

So this theory has a similar thought process but deviates slightly.

In this theory, we assume that the leaked photo of Dream at 16 is him, but also that he has actually lost the weight.

Now at first you may think that’s a very drastic weight loss, however his old Reddit account had multiple posts on r/keto and even now he talks about how he has a very strict diet. A new piece of evidence came out during the recent podcast with George on his Discord, where they discuss whether or not a food had carbs in it. Dream gets audibly uncomfortable and changes the subject, whether to avoid triggering listeners or himself, we don’t know.

If Dream lost all the weight, why would he be using a body double? This I can’t explain, however the evidence of the merch photos being him is undeniable at this point. It’s possible he was in the process of losing weight and didn’t want people to see his weight loss, or maybe he weighs a little more than he feels confident in and feels more comfortable having his brother pose as him, but the weight difference isn’t so drastic that people would point it out when he face reveals.

Speaking of the face reveal; Dream vehemently denies that the kid in the photo is him, but if it is him and he didn’t lose that weight, he will be proven as a liar whenever he face reveals. This is the biggest flaw of Theory 1 in my opinion. At first Dream vagued the situation but never explicitly stated whether that specific picture was him or not, but now he has. There’s no logical explanation for Dream to deny that the kid is him, even though it is without a doubt him, unless he looks nothing like him anymore.

TLDR: Dream is using his brother as a body double, however he has lost weight

3. Dream is using his brother as a body double (V3)

This theory is the weakest in my opinion and is similar to Theory 2, with one deviation. There is a picture of Dream out there, and it’s a merch photo. In this theory we actually assume that the red merch photos are Dream, however the rest are B. Why?

First of all, this is (I believe) the first image we’ve ever seen of Dream (if I’m incorrect this theory is most likely void and you can stop reading now). In it, Dream weighs a slight bit more than he does in current photos, something we can see mainly in his thighs/hips, which I’ll attach below.

The date that the red merch photos released was 9/26/19, the date of his white merch photos was 7/21/20, and the release of the unboxing video was 6/4/20, giving Dream plenty of time to switch from taking the photos himself to then using his brother.

But why would he switch? We can guess it has something to do with Sam. According to Dream, Sam has tried to spread “false” info about him being obese before (which I would like to highlight, why obese? Why is that what she says, out of all insults? Most likely because he was, and just isn’t anymore).

This could have also intruded into their relationship as well as their breakup in the form of verbal abuse. Assuming that Dream was fat as a kid and later developed an unhealthy reliance on dieting and possible eating disorders to lose weight, it would make sense for him to be sensitive to rejection, especially from his girlfriend at the time, and stopped showing his body to the public.

We also know Dream and Sam’s relationship was very rocky in early 2020, therefore he may have had his brother pose for him on impulse to disprove the “slander” Sam was attempting to spread about his weight, and then decided that he preferred having B pose for him for one reason or another, most likely anonymity.

TLDR: Dream is using his brother as a body double in all photos except the red merch, he started using his brother after losing confidence in himself and his appearance.

4. Dream is NOT using a body double (V1)

From here on out, we become more critical of the images and information leaked by F. F is a forum known for their dislike of Dream. There are hundreds of people who use it for the sole purpose to hate Dream. The people in F are also generally homophobic, racist, sexist, etc., therefore it’s not a far reach to assume they’re fatphobic as well, and assumed that by spreading info that Dream is fat, they would cause him to lose support.

In this theory, we assume that the gun photo that I mentioned in Theory 1 is Dream, not B. We also assume that the photo of Dream at 16 is, in fact, Dream, but like Theory 2 states, he lost the weight.

By eliminating the hand evidence, there is almost no proof that the merch photos are not Dream. This would explain why Dream was so confident in denying that the kid in the photo was not him, because he looks nothing like him anymore.

In fact, this would also explain the weight loss between the red merch photos and the most recent photos of Dream. Dream was still dieting (or more) and therefore still losing weight. We all saw how much weight Sapnap lost by living with him for only a handful of months. Dream at 16 and Dream at 21 has a lot of weight to cover in only five years, it’s not unreasonable to assume that he was still in the process of losing weight in 2019 only to reach his current weight in 2021.

TLDR: Dream isn’t using a body double, F lied about the gun picture and it’s actually Dream

5. Dream is NOT using a body double (V2)

I will preface this by saying this is the theory I believe is most likely as of right now.

This theory is basically Theory 4 word for word, except we assume the white merch photos are not Dream and in fact B. Even before there were any body double theories, stans didn’t believe those pictures were Dream at first, mainly because of how much scrawnier he looks as well as his hair (not wavy OR blond).

An anon also claimed that when the photos first dropped, both George and Sapnap were streaming. Most people were watching George because Dream was in vc on that stream. In George’s stream Dream was repeating to chat that it is him and that chat is being dumb for saying it’s not. However, in Sapnap’s stream, Sapnap says that it’s not Dream. Sapnap is one of the only people who have seen Dream’s face (allegedly), and if Dream was fat or had already used his brother as a body double in merch photos (the red photos were released before the white) then he would know not to say anything.

But why would Dream lie? Most likely, his brother wanted to be in a merch photo and Dream just assumed that his fans would think it’s him. However they instantly began to call him out, and in order to protect his brother’s identity, he impulsively lied and said it was him. At that point he had gone too far and couldn’t back down without admitting he had lied.

TLDR: Dream isn’t using a body double, F lied about the gun photo and it’s actually Dream, however the white merch photos are B

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And that’s it!

I probably won’t answer asks about this post because I really wore myself out writing it. I’d appreciate if anyone with a visible blog/on mcytblr didn’t reblog this and please do not repost this on any sites.

ALSO: This was written before the Sam photos leaked, some info may be outdated and I scrapped Theory 6 because of it

[nomolosk]

“I hope all the documents are in order,” Adrien Agreste said, looking and sounding smug over the transmission. His ship was currently en route to the Francoise Space Station orbiting the planet Dupont, where the Dupain-Cheng’s had based their surface-to-orbit shipping business. Marinette Dupain-Cheng didn’t bother trying to suppress her glare. He should be well aware of the reasons for her frustration, but she reminded him anyway.

“Yes, Mr. Agreste Junior, the documents are in order,” she replied. “They have been waiting for your signature for the past month. A month in which, I might add, we haven’t been able to do any business at all.”

“My apologies for the delay,” Adrien said - but neither tone nor expression changed an iota.

By all the gods in the heavens, Marinette loathed this man. She couldn’t imagine any future in which she didn’t, especially given the reason for his visit today. He was going to buy out her parents’ business, and Marinette only had to deal with him because she’d refused to make her parents deal with him after everything else they had gone through. Unfortunately, this had only confirmed his awful reputation.

When it came to systematically ruining and then buying out competitors, Adrien Agreste - the scion of Agreste Shipping - was a one-man juggernaut, apparently all too eager to do a few dirty deeds in order to keep his otherwise indulgent lifestyle. By all reports he was a true Daddy’s boy, playing with money, power, and hearts as if he had no concept of personal responsibility. After all, Daddy Agreste would take care of any... unpleasantness. And all he had to do was be dear Daddy’s hatchet-man. It looked like he enjoyed it, too.

Fortunately, she had the means to wipe that self-satisfied look off his face permanently, thanks to a mole who called himself Chat Noir. He’d been feeding her inside information for over a year - information that had let her and the crew of the Miraculous put quite a dent in the Agreste Shipping bottom line. But for now, she had to play along.

“Just make sure you’re on time,” Marinette said through gritted teeth. “You’ve tortured my family enough. No need to drag it out any longer.”

“I’ll be only too happy to accommodate your schedule, Ms. Dupain-Cheng,” Adrien said. “And perhaps, afterward, you will let me buy you a drink to... commemorate the occasion.”

A smirk - an actual, god-forsaken smirk - appeared on his face. Marinette’s fingernails dug painfully into her palms. If he’d been within reach at that moment, he would have found himself flat on the floor with several broken bones, and Marinette would have found herself in a holding cell on charges of assault. Breathing deeply, Marinette reminded herself of the plan, and terminated the transmission before she could incriminate herself.

As soon as Adrien Agreste’s smug, smarmy, and infuriatingly handsome face disappeared from her screen, she closed her eyes and breathed, letting out all the tension and anger that had built up during their brief conversation. After all, under the right circumstances, Adrien Agreste might be exactly what her parents, and countless other victims, needed: a valuable hostage.

----

Adrien let that god-awful smirk linger for a moment before wiping it away with a weary hand. He slumped back in his seat and started massaging one temple while he swiped back to his desktop screen on the terminal.

He’d always hated this part, even back when he'd been naive enough to believe that the firm he was about to buy out had just had a run of bad luck. Back then he would have been secure in the knowledge that the ‘merger’ he’d ‘negotiated’ was a good deal for both parties, but he’d still been aware that it was a defeat for the original owners.

Now he knew all too well the depths Gabriel would sink to - the depths he would drag Adrien down to - all for the sake of his precious shipping empire. The clear disgust and loathing on that woman’s face only added to his own sense of personal guilt and disgust.

At least this time, if everything went according to plan, this family’s business would be just fine. This time, Adrien could look forward to handing control of that company back to the people who’d built it. He glanced at the time on the terminal and took a deep, calming breath.

Please, Ladybug… don’t let me down.

Adrien, in his persona as the mole Chat Noir, had given Ladybug and her team of raiders especially good intel this time, all but painting the word TARGET in bold letters on his own face. That, plus the file he’d sent containing a preview of every last blot on his father’s stainless reputation… yes. He knew how much Ladybug loathed Adrien Agreste personally. She’d often claimed a burning need to punch his face in their double-encoded communiques - not that she knew it was his face - so he was sure she would jump at the chance. He only hoped she could pull it off.

The raiding crew of the Miraculous had caused enough disruption to the Agreste Shipping lines that Gabriel had actually hired the Akumas - a mercenary group known for their brutal efficiency - to track her down. Chat Noir had warned her, and so far she’d managed to elude their crack agents, making them look remarkably foolish in the process.

He only hoped that, when the time came and he found himself on board the Miraculous at last, that she would leave him enough wits - and teeth - to stutter out the recognition phrase Chat Noir had given her.

----

Ladybug’s assault and infiltration were quieter than Adrien had expected. He wasn’t part of the Hawkmoth’s crew, so when the alarms went off, his only role was to get to a secure area and stay out of everyone else’s way. The most he heard of it was the alarm and muffled shouting in the distance while Nathalie hurried him away.

It wasn’t what he wanted - he would much rather have had an active role in the ship’s defense. But of course Gabriel would never allow that, and Nathalie enforced his rules with an iron fist. So he ended up crouched behind Nathalie and his Personal Gorilla Bodyguard™, waiting breathlessly for Ladybug to find them in the reinforced bunker that posed as a small cargo hold in the ship designs. Every small sound echoed in the space, but he wasn’t bothered by it. In fact, he hoped Ladybug’s team had audio sensors sensitive enough to pick them up.

A touch on his shoulder made his heart rate skyrocket even more - but it was only Nathalie, turning to check on him. Adrien covered her hand with his own and squeezed, letting some of his excitement show with a shaky breath. She must have assumed he was scared and squeezed back before turning to the hatch and adjusting her grip on her firearm.

He’d tried to talk her into giving him one of the shipboard assault rifles, too. He wanted to make sure his ‘protectors’ went down quickly if need be, but he told her that he needed some way to defend himself. She’d only given him a look. Apparently Gabriel was willing to sacrifice his only son before allowing him a weapon.

God he couldn’t wait to be free of his life.

A commotion in the corridor outside focused his attention. A sizzling sound came from the door and it whooshed open, briefly blinding him before the bulky forms of the intruders blocked the light. The dark shapes were outlined in silhouettes the color of their hardened spacesuits: pink, orange, green, and gold. His heart leaped again and he fought to suppress a smile.

Nathalie and the bodyguard were quickly dispatched with stun blasts, though it took several simultaneous shots to bring the bodyguard down. Then it was Adrien’s turn. He scooted back as the leader advanced, heart pounding with excitement and fear. Chat Noir had advocated for a hostage situation, but it was possible that Ladybug had decided on outright assassination. One way or another, this would all be over shortly.

The pink-haloed leader raised her weapon, pointing it at him. Adrien gulped and closed his eyes. He didn’t even have time to register the blast before his mind went numb.

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Marinette leaned against a cabinet in the medbay, waiting for their hostage to wake up. It shouldn’t take long - the effects of the stunners they’d used could be counteracted by the contents of any decently stocked medbay, and Marinette made sure the Miraculous was always overstocked with medical supplies.

Her crew was there, too, all except for Max, who couldn’t leave the bridge. Nino and Alya were busy flirting with each other, Kim was trying to balance a (needle-less) syringe on the end of his nose, and Markov hovered overhead, ready to record everything. Marinette was taking no chances on being accused of human rights violations, though her hands ached with the need to punch their guest.

The unfairly attractive blonde strapped to the medical chair in front of her stirred, and the tension in the room skyrocketed. Kim put the syringe down, Nino and Alya looked up, and Markov beeped to indicate recording was in progress. Marinette also stood up and crossed her arms to avoid temptation.

Adrien Agreste opened unfocused eyes, staring into space with his head lolling a bit. He was clearly still out of it, but it didn’t take long for him to come to full alertness. Curiously, he remained silent, merely looking around the room in a manner so unconcerned that it immediately made Marinette suspicious.

“Are you carrying a tracker?” she asked harshly. They’d scanned him for any such device, of course, but it was possible Agreste Senior managed to obtain something small enough that it wouldn’t show up on a scan.

Agreste Junior met her eyes and his own widened slightly in obvious recognition. “Uh… no. Not that I’m aware of, I mean.”

He smiled, and it was... joyful?

“I’m afraid I’m going to miss that meeting after all, Ms. Dupain-Cheng, though I still hope for that drink sometime. Looks like you’ll just have to keep control of your own business. Thanks for not killing me, by the way - to all of you. I know you must have been tempted,” he added, looking around at them all before leaning his head back with a satisfied smile. “I wish I could see the look on my father’s face when he realizes he’s not getting me back.”

His tone was so full of glee that Marinette barely managed to keep her mouth from dropping open, but she must have looked as astonished as she felt, because his smile turned into a full-fledged grin.

“Oh, haven’t you figured it out yet, Ladybug?” he said, grinning and winking at her. Then he said the three words she’d been waiting to hear for over a year now, ever since her informant had told her he wanted out. Words she’d imagined coming out of the mouth of anyone - literally anyone - but his.

“Plagg, claws out.”

All four of them gasped. Marinette gaped at the man she'd thought she would loathe for all eternity.

“Chat Noir?”

----

“I trust the papers are in order,” Marinette Dupain-Cheng said, smiling at everyone on the other side of the conference table. Her parents sat beside her, but they continued to let her take the lead.

“Drawn up and ready to sign,” the lawyer said, tapping on a tablet before handing it to her. Beside him, Adrien Agreste smiled softly at her. Marinette ignored him and read the documents carefully, making sure that what remained of Agreste Shipping relinquished all claim to her parents’ business, and that the court-mandated payout would cover all the expenses of getting back up and running, with a nice cushion. Satisfied, she handed the tablet to her mother and father, who read and signed it. There was a round of handshakes and congratulations - sincere, as far as she could tell, with no trace of Adrien’s former smug persona.

“Well,” Marinette said, once everyone else had left. “I believe you owe me a drink.”

Adrien’s face lit up. “I do, indeed! Well, who am I to go back on my word? Shall we?”

He held out his arm and Marinette took it. After all, Ladybug had trusted Chat Noir and that had turned out well. Perhaps the future for Marinette and Adrien was equally bright.

@luckycharmzine

[writingandmore]

Hi!!! May I get a HP, Star Wars, Voltron, and Disney matchup?

𝗕𝗔𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗦 + 𝗔𝗣𝗣𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘

19, Libra, Neutral Good, enneagram is 4w5, muggleborn Ravenclaw (with Gryffindor tendencies), and my patronus spirit is Hummingbird. Biromantic Pansexual Genderfluid woman using pronouns of She/Her or He/Him. Cherubic-like face, with short height (5'1") plus sized Southeast Asian woman with Spanish descent that has chic messy/wavy brunette medium hair that reaches to my shoulder, oriental skin, slightly upturned eyes, small lashes, chocolate brown irises, cute flat nose, heart shaped face, full cheeks, cupid's bow lips, a small beauty mark on the forehead, and naturally straight teeth with tiny gap in front (just imagine that it's a mixture of Marinette from 𝗠𝗶𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘂𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗟𝗮𝗱𝘆𝗯𝘂𝗴, Musa from 𝗪𝗶𝗻𝘅 𝗖𝗹𝘂𝗯, and Alexandra Trese from 𝗧𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲---cause' my friend told me that I kinda look like them). My sense of fashion is in between emo and boyish plus korean glam, I sometimes let my hair down or styled like Lara Croft reboot.

𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬

Distant, quiet, and timid at first making people thought I'm a demure, modest, and self-effacing that looks "immaculate" or "one of a kind" (due to my protective mom, a reason why I've never been in a relationship) but the truth is, dunno how to initiate a conversation, but a total opposite if I open up---friendly, ambivert, witty, laughing loudly on a daily basis---like my happiness is too shallow, super talkative, eats a lot (yeah I can finish a huge slice of cake or a meal in one sitting), awkward, daydreamer (I got embarrassed from knocking at the door even I'm inside the classroom 😂), EXTREMELY CLUMSY (mostly gets bruises from hitting, bumping my head somewhere, walking into something on my way, and being careless to my belongings), secretly likes affection, easily overwhelmed, prone to melt over wholesomeness, flusters on compliments, lightly blushes on cheesy banters, eager to share what I know (especially about Catholic Church---my past teacher joked that I'll become a saint because of it 🤣), oftenly speaks full of sarcasm with a lowkey crackhead energy citing meme references, and talented girl who can be your no.1 supporter and unashamed to be true to myself but can be awkward to strangers. In terms of leadership, I only educate and guide than being a prefect (I might take the role seriously), will lift my group when there's lacking/incompleteness. About doing projects in school, I become too extra and prepared for efforts, but I'll forget the process in the end.

The extent, I'm expressive, warm-hearted, willig to help, kind, intelligent, supportive, nice, creative, enthusiastic, laid-back, determined, tough, competitive, and feisty outside, but a real softie that can be childish and dramatic that cries so easily (but will enlightened real quick by smallest things that makes me smile) filled with doubts, frustrations, and insecurities with fear of failure that pushes off the limits to to please everyone because they might get dissappointed from expectations---I simply can't stop proving myself too much because I'm a survivor of bullying. But I still managed to be stronger than ever after I stumbled, even it's a slow burn process. I can be blunt, intimidating, harsh, and a douchebag if I receive ends or I got interrupted while doing something. Immature, headstrong, perfectionist, demanding, hesitant, jumpy, forgetful, overthinker, quick-tempered, sensitive, and anxious (no joke, my nervousness makes me think worse scenario will arrive). Though can be procrastinator and arrogant, I raised as a religious 𝖺𝗇𝖽 diplomatic youth, willing to fight what I believe (including my dreams and what's important to me) and what is right. In addition, I have a habit of staying up late and doing sign of the cross to ease nervousness.

Rowdy and feeling-brokenhearted and bitter friend in the group who fangirl a lot, swears like sailor, will call out on people that we loathe, will make fun of your stupidity (in a good way) before helping, and bring gossips, but a hopeless romantic and cheeky (makes banter with sarcasms or pick up lines as an endearment, but gets annoyed if I received sappy or offensive one), Still generous and concerned person in a subtle and different way.

𝗛𝗢𝗕𝗕𝗜𝗘𝗦

My hobbies are singing, drawing, roleplaying, listening to music, chatting/browsing on social media, conceptualizing, writing, and reading some stuffs. I'll include making corniest jokes/puns, sleeping, and dancing when nobody's around or walking like a model if I feel so bold (even I'm terrible at both xD). I also used to learn Italian language a bit.

𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦

Loves kittens, milk tea, singing at the karaoke, cartoons, iced coffee, memes, cute things, watching YouTube videos (mostly pageants, ASMR, edit audios, and mukbangs), also enjoys playing games on my sister's PSP. Sucker for arts, choir, poetry, night sky, makeup, fun/deep/dumb conversations, Christianity, documentaries (about saints, real crime stories, and inspirational people), reading interesting stuffs, talking about social issues, and creative writing, chilling both indoors and outdoors. Beside that, my music taste are like late 90s-2000s songs (mostly rock, pop, and country) sometimes Catholic songs, kpop and ppop, chocoholic, and a sweetooth as well.

𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦

Things that I hate are stereotyping, HUGE creepy crawlies (spiders, toads, snakes, and cockroaches), firecracker sounds, thunder and lightning, being left out, loneliness, heart break, blackout, and judgemental people. If I found out that someone hates or backstabbing or being rude to me, I won't hesitate to throw offensive criticisms, leaving them with a "I don't give a f" attitude. One random fact about me is, I 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 vent out EVERYTHING I despise in my entire existence---from bad soap operas to toxicity, worse scenarios in real life, and how terrible is my love life from unrequited feelings that I got, because it's a big deal for me, and I consider forcing me to do what I'm not into and manipulating me as my major pet peeves.

𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗚𝗘𝗥𝗦

In terms of triggers...I only have two which are ta𝖨king about divorce/annullment/separation because I came from a generational broken family (it sucks that some people I knew assumed that the reason why I'm overly unaware that someone is interested in me in secret, is I have "high standards" looking for a partner, but the truth is I'm strict and I have a personal preferences...I know my worth and I don't want settle for less!) and religion/beliefs discrimination, cause' there are reasonings that doesn't makes sense because some, sounds too hypocritical, like as if you're a morally good person.

𝗥𝗢𝗠𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘 + 𝗟𝗢𝗩𝗘 𝗟𝗔𝗡𝗚𝗨𝗔𝗚𝗘𝗦

My love languages are quality time and gift giving, but I actually swoon over physical touch (especially cuddles and cute kisses) and words of affirmation when it comes to having a partner, though I get attracted so easily, matured but can be a goofy person who's nice, friendly, kind-hearted, loving, faithful, and excels in academics is my cup of tea. Whenever I have a real life crush (which is rare), I act the same but deep inside, my heart is about to explode and will eventually share to my trustful friends how I highly admire that person, however if they spilled the beans out, I'll obviously deny it and will cry if they like someone else, it will take some time for me to move on, now I don't care for them anymore.

Best Friends to Lovers is my ideal trope because I find it very cute since you already knew each other before dating (which happened to my 2nd cousin, she married her best friend!)---perfect balance for romance, laughters, comfort, and tears when it comes to sharing your vibes, being there through thick and thin, safe with embraces, and helping each other to grow.

𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗩𝗜𝗔𝗦

My best assets are smile, eyes, personality, singing voice, artistic skills, writings, intelligence, oratorical skills and I have potential in hosting...so I can consider myself as a singer, artist, orator, speaker, and a top student who's a former active campus ministry member with three roles (choir leader, psalm singer, and reader).

May sounds different but I'm passionate for helping people through my talents and sharing my story to inspire everyone. I may look selfish, but I have a different way on how I show that I actually care also I have a biased sentimental value

Currently a college freshman, learning how to cook. I have so many interests, to the point I don't know what I'm into because of my dreams to become a popular Filipino YouTuber, a novelist, and being part of a successful chorale competing internationally...I also consider joining pageants at school too once the pandemic ends, but maybe.

HP: Remus!

- Remus is also quiet and a bit reserved when he's not in a familiar situation, so your own first impression on him would be a good one, as you'd seem similar to his own personality. He's sweet and is able to start up a conversation if he notices the other person is having a hard time doing so, so hopefully he'd be able to bring out your more extroverted and friendly self after a while so he can be around the more open you. He wouldn't mind you being a bit awkward-he's very much the same way-honestly, the comradery that would come from that would be more positive than anything else. He loves sharing knowledge and learning about new things, so your eagerness to talk about what you know would work really well also! He does a lot better when he knows someone has his back too, so your extra supportive nature would endear him to you as well.

SW: Han!

- Your nicer and more helpful personality would balance out Han's more standoffish vibes when first meeting. You might get on his nerves a bit first, but you'd quickly grown on him and, in turn, make him a bit of a better person. Your ability to be blunt and a bit harsh would serve you well if you ever needed to stand your ground on an issue that two of you have, as he can be quite stubborn.

VLD: Lance!

- Lance can be a bit immature from time to time as well, especially when it comes to trying to be funny or cheering up those around him-he's also headstrong and typically firm in what he wants to do, so your own determined personality would attract him to you a lot as well. He often puts off things he needs to do if they make him anxious too, but if you both recognize that you share that problem, helping each other might be a good solution!

Disney: Flynn!

- Flynn is quite a sarcastic and teasing person, so your own humor would match well with his. He's also quite a hopeless romantic as well, even though he's certainly not one to admit that right off the bat. He enjoys singing, and as he gets closer to someone he feels more comfortable doing so in front of them, so a partner he's been with for a long time would get to see him be more and more open with it. That also applies to activities like dancing.

[caxsthetic]

Stuck With U

Oikawa Tooru x F!Reader

So lock the door and throw out the key. Can't fight this no more it's just you and me. And there's nothing I can do, I’m stuck with you.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *. GRAND MASTERLIST .* :☆ﾟ. ───

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I'm not one to stick around One strike and you're out, baby Don't care if I sound crazy

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"Ugh," You were frustrated when you heard the news, a frown appeared on your face as you threw the television remote at the couch, plopped yourself there immediately, "I couldn't believe that 2020 would be like this."

Your husband was just grabbing some snacks from the kitchen when he heard all of the commotion you made. He looked at the screen, curious for the cause of his wife’s moodswing.

“Lockdown?” He asked you, and you just nodded there while your eyes glued on the screen. Oikawa knew how much you love going out. Either it’s to meet your family and friends, or just to enjoy the atmosphere outdoors.

He put down the popcorn that he grabbed from the kitchen on the coffee table before sitting down next to you. His eyes pierced into your figure, asked you to look at him without saying a word. With a frown still plastered on your face, you turned towards him, questioning his stare.

Reassuring smile formed on his lips, your shoulder that was tense before started to relax at the smile. He opened up his arms, inviting you to fall on his embrace. Your frown has now disappeared completely thanks to him, changed to be a sincere smile, joyful to have him here with you.

He tilted his head to the side, wondering why you didn’t fall to his arms already. You giggled at his expression and decided to just give in. He closed his eyes once you were in his embrace, sniffling at the citrusy scent that your hair shampoo produces.

“You are such a dork,” Your voice sounded muffled as you drowned your face on his chest. When he laughed, the vibration that his body created made you laugh too. And the two of you were now a giggling mess in each other’s embrace.

“At least I am your dork,” He tightened his embrace, kissing the top of your head and rocked your body, “Let’s fill this lockdown with a lot of memories, my queen.”

You closed your eyes, wondering what did your past life went through to make you have a wonderful husband by your side. A happy tear slipped from your eyes,

“That would be my pleasure, my king.”

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But you never let me down, no, no That's why when the sun's up, I'm stayin' Still layin' in your bed, singin'

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“TOORU! THE CAKE BURNED!”

“Whaa!!!!!”

You immediately opened up the window as he turned off the oven. The smoke made the two of you cough at the moment. You turned towards him, he was there still whopped his chest as he coughed.

Once the two of you calmed down, he looked at you too, jolted when he found the menacing glare on your eyes. But in a split second, you laughed, and the sight of you made his heart swarmed with joy. He couldn’t help but laughed too and walked up towards you.

“You stupid,” You snickered as you remembered his face when you asked about the cake, “This is why we should have continue our make out session on the kitchen.”

“Wha- We haven’t cleaned up the kitchen island yet!” He pouted and folded his arms across his chest, “I don’t want my ass to be coated with flour!”

“I am sorry, Tooru. I love you, but what ass?” He gasped, clutched his hand on his chest when he heard your sarcasm. A look of betrayal was visible on his face,

“You are evil, (Y/n)!” You laughed so hard at this, it’s been so long since the last time you spent all day long laughing with him - though at the end you were the one who usually laughed at him.

“Aww, I am sorry, baby! Did I hurt you?” He pouted at you, but when he saw you extended both of your hands towards him, he couldn’t help but tackled you to the ground immediately.

He was tall, and it always made you feel so small when he was engulfing you. You didn’t know what expression that he had right now since he hid his face at the crook of your neck, “I am sorry, baby. Let me bake you some milk bread, how about that? As an apology?” He didn’t answer and it made you worried,

Is he really that sensitive when it comes to his ass?

“Okay,” He answered around twenty seconds after you offered him the milk bread. Slowly, he pulled himself away and stared at your face. There’s a pout on his face, “But I am still angry with you!”

You giggled, cupped both of his cheek and pulled his face towards you, pampered him with kisses,

“Such a pouty king~”

“I-I am not!”

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There's nowhere we need to be I'ma get to know you better Kinda hope we're here forever

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You were awoken in the middle of the night. The moon shone so bright in the sky as it lit the room that you shared with your husband. When you opened up your eyes, you would usually see the soft brown locks and the calmed state of the said man as he snored a little beside you.

But he was nowhere to be found right now. You sat up, looked around the room as you searched for any kind of trace that you could notice. A little frown appeared on your lips when he was nowhere to be seen in the room.

While your body wrapped around the comfortable blanket, you decided to take a walk outside the bedroom. All the windows that were placed all around the house let the moon accompany you on the mission to tuck your husband back on the bed.

It was chilly, and the fact that the two of you had a house on the mountainside made everything worse. It felt so wrong to fall asleep and wake up the next morning without him, so you need to find him, as fast as you can.

And here you were now, leaned your body on the door frame of the cinema room. Oikawa was there, seated on the black bean bag. His brown eyes glued to the record that he played. Familiar songs and people talked made you know immediately what the record was.

Slowly, you walked up towards him and dropped the blanket on the carpeted floor. You decided to put yourself on his lap, knowing it would be the most comfortable place to sit.

He was startled at first, didn’t expect to see you here. Especially suddenly plopped down on his lap like this. But he didn’t complain,

“Did I wake you up, hm?” Oikawa asked with a little hint of guilt, his fingers ruled out the hair that was falling on your face. You only shook your head and laid your head on his shoulders, eyes focused on the screen too.

“Why did you watch this?” You smiled a little at the scene, “Goodness, I am a crying mess that day.” It was a video of your wedding day, if only waterproof makeup wasn’t invented yet, maybe your face would be black already from the cascading mascara.

“It’s just-” He let out a long sigh, “There’s a lot of things that I miss from our wedding day.” His arms wrapped around your waist, “I am so selfish, just because it was near the national tournament, I poured all of the burden at you.”

There's sadness in his eyes as he said it out loud. From his voice only, you could see that he started to blame himself again, and you didn’t want that.

“Tooru,”

“I don’t know why you chose the ceremony near the waterfall,” He bit his lips, thinking about how strong you were to think about all of this alone, “I don’t know why you chose tulips to adorned the wedding arch. Hell, I don’t even know why you chose me at this point.”

“Well,” You took his hand on your lap, caressed it gently as you tilted his head to look at you, “Then ask me now, we have all the time in the world at the moment, Tooru.” You brought his hand on your lips, kissed it while your eyes glued on his face, “Throw me anything that was inside your head, I will answer them all.”

His brown eyes were now filled with gratitude as he stared at you. He could never have asked for a better significant other. You were so patient, accompanied him from time to time as he embarked on his journey.

So he did exactly what you told him to. He asked you all of the questions about the wedding, about what you usually did in the house when he was not around, what you think about children, overall it were questions that he was afraid he would miss from you.

“I am such a jerk, huh?” He huffed and looked to the screen once again when he realised he didn’t know that much about you, the one who was always there for him, “Didn’t know a thing about our wedding was the worst!” Oikawa was frustrated by now, and every reassuring word that you blurted apparently didn’t get inside his heart.

“Hey, look at me.” You pleaded, wanting him to understand that it was your choice, to be with him, “Tooru, my king, look at me.”

He finally turned his attention towards you once again. Right now, he looked like a puppy who was lost in the street, didn’t know where to go, “I have something that I want to share with you…”

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There's nobody on these streets If you told me that the world's ending Ain't no other way that I could spend it

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Oikawa stood nervously at the end of the staircase. His hair was down and slicked backwards at the moment. He didn’t know why he was anxious, he had been through this before anyway.

The whole house was adorned by tulip petals, right from the front door to the backyard terrace. One sound that filled the air was the waterfall audio from the television, it was a clip from some National Geographic video that you cut and put it on a two hours loop.

You called out the florist the next morning after your deep conversation with him. It was a miracle that they could deliver a lot of tulips. The flower was a symbol of your wedding, and you couldn’t recreate that moment without it.

“Alexa, play Oikawa Playlist.” You said it once you were standing near the staircase on the second floor. White wedding gown wrapped perfectly around your figure, the same wedding dress that you wore at your wedding day with the professional setter one year ago.

It was a silly concept, to recreate the wedding, the wedding that your husband thought he missed so much. So you decided to throw the wedding once again, just the two of you, inside the house that had now become home.

Oikawa looked up at the top of the staircase, mouth agape when his eyes laid on you. It was a sight to behold, the sight when the love of his life finally fell to his embrace. The moment that would never make him tired.

The same wedding songs that you save on your phone played in the background as you took step after step to go down the stairs. He looked angelic with the white suit and a stalk of tulip on his breast pocket.

He looked so ready now, a hand outstretched towards your figure once you were already on the last staircase. It was like magic when your hand finally grabbed his, interlacing together like a sign that the two of you would stuck together with each other.

“You were crying, Tooru.” You smiled when you saw tears glimmering on his eyes, “I never thought that you would cry again,”

“Say you!” He didn’t even bother to wiped his own tears since his thumb was now gently erased the tears that were prickling on your eyes, “You looked so beautiful though,”

“Yeah?” The two of you just stared at each other, absorbed every tiny detail that could be found on each other’s face at the moment.

“Yeah,” He cupped your cheek with one hand, caressing your cheek that now had a little stain from the tears, “Can I kiss the bride now?”

“No! We should share our vows first, and then exchanging the ring, after-”

He shut you up immediately with a gentle kiss, closing his eyes when his lips finally touched yours. From how you ramble and the goofy looked that you throw at him, he knew that you were just joking around. And he made you sure to never joke around when he asked to kiss you.

The two of you swayed your body together, following the beat that was now played around your house. The entire floor had become your own personal ballroom as both of you danced around the floor while keeping each other close.

“I could stay here for a lifetime, my queen.” He put his forehead on yours while his hand put on your waist, “Who knows lockdown could bring such a miracle?”

“Well, my king, I still want to submit a complaint...” You smiled at him even though your voice sounded annoyed, both of your eyes falling into each other, “You know you drove me insane sometimes by not taking care of yourself, right?”

“Pfft, yeah.” He’s not going to lie, he knew he hurt you numerous times already by neglecting his own health, “I am sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you like that.”

“It was nothing,” You tiptoed, gave him a gentle peck on his lips, “I still wouldn’t change a thing even if someone gave me a chance.” He twirled your body around, grateful to have you here as his wife.

When he realised the songs were coming to an end, he decided to dip your body gently to the ground. His arm wrapped on your waist, securing you as you stop midair.

It was like the time stopped at that moment. It was just you and him, and there’s nothing else that the two of you could do right now except bathed yourself in each other’s love.

“We got all that we need, huh? Together.” His breath touched your lips as he spoke, the deep brown eyes twinkled with adoration as it pierced on your face. And right at this time, there’s nothing else that filled your mind except him.

“Don’t be bored, then.” You gave him a little smirk, “You are going to be stuck with me forever, mister.” He chuckled, then answered the statement with another smirk from his face,

“I wouldn’t want anything else.”

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I still wouldn't change All this lovin' you, hatin' you, wantin' you I'm stuck with you, stuck with you, stuck with you

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✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*     ༶•┈┈⛧┈♛ ♛┈⛧┈┈•༶    *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

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