#and the universe took it as 'yes I love crisises I want crisis all the time'

[astranite]

I'm just saying stuff here

Sometimes I wonder why I feel like crap. Then I realise the insane amount of stress I'm under, and y’know what that’ll do it.

i.e.

- family member in hospital (bonus points, rest of family is stressed out about it too)

- I’ve got 2 days to pull a course out of the fire before it finishes and I fail it, having done half of the theory and none of the practical components. (because I was sick repeatedly and missed a lot) (Still gotta fix it. Luckily I am well versed in the art of winging it, aka bullshit my way through it whilst somehow convincing the educational professionals that I have my life together)

- Anxiety yay. Gotta love the constant scream of the air raid sirens of impending doom inside my brain.

- Threw up all my meds this morning. Decidedly unfun.

- Honestly I’m just glad Im not some small prey animal that would have perished from the stress already.

- Should take a nap. Except that would more likely mean stewing in dread and not falling asleep. So I read stuff. (Hello digging for thunderbirds fluff through the Archive) Hopefully until my splitting headache goes away (not counting on it) or can get up again to make a game plan. 

- bullet point number 7 (I swear I was going somewhere here) (Ah well.)

- its cold. I despise the cold. WHyyyy

- must remember to eat something and hydrate. probably have been forgetting about that one. its important. yeah.