#and the end goal isnt even 'happiness in a perfect dream job' its literally just 'making enough income to survive'

[pike-the-monstah]

whining below the cut because i’ve had too much caffeine and i need to vent

i am so goddamn sick of painstakingly tailoring my resumes and cover letters for every single fucking position i apply to and filing out all their stupid repetitive forms over and over again and triple checking everything for typos (even though they have typos in their job description) and meeting all of the requirements for the job and not even getting a fucking phone screening for all that work for 70+ positions when i have a decent degree, good grades, and some computer experience

and i am so goddamn sick of getting the same advice over and over again of “just keep trying!” and “do you tailor your resume/cover letters?” and “apply for things you aren’t qualified for/are overqualified for!” and “look for connections!” like it’s some groundbreaking new idea that i’ve never thought of when i’ve been doing that this whole goddamn time. i couldn’t even get a fucking interview for a cashier position at a store where i had already worked as a cashier. 

i am so fucking sick of feeling like no one in recruiting is fucking listening or gives a shit at all. like i am busting my ass off to make these applications the best they can be and i busted my ass for four and a half years to make it through college with supposedly marketable skills while also working during most of it but i might as well just have been doing nothing for four years and putting random shit on the applications for all the response i get. 

it’s so hard to keep giving every application all the personal attention it needs when there’s a 99% chance it’s just a waste of time and they’re not even gonna bother looking at your profile. it’s so hard to keep searching for jobs when you know you’re not gonna hear back from two-thirds of them no matter how much effort you put into the application. 

i never expected to “be entitled to a job” or get a job for nothing. that’s why i worked my ass off in college and for the past six months. never mind that a job shouldn’t be a privilege when it’s just doing someone else’s meaningless shit for them just to survive. it’s not like i’m trying to be a fucking movie star here, i’m just looking for a goddamn office job. my standards aren’t that high. i know whatever job i get is probably gonna be mindnumbingly boring anyways. i just want something that pays enough for me to fucking live off of. i tried to find internships in college. i didn’t get any. now every internship wants only current college students and every “””””entry level””””” job wants you to come with a year or two of training already.

i haven’t even been looking that long comparatively, i’m still just over a month out of college. i can’t imagine how people manage to do this for a year or more. i want to scream.