#and surgery won't happen until who knows when since the timeline has changed 3 times just since discharge

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Squish won't sleep unless she's inclined. Sleeping flat isn't an option for her. I'm guessing because she has reflux but y'all it's hard. Her preferred location is on my chest. Sometimes the bouncer will work. Rarely the swing will suffice. She likes sleeping in the twin z pillow but that makes me so uncomfortable because safe sleep.

But it's currently 1:30 in the morning and she's sleeping for the first time since I started trying to get her and Little Man to bed at 7:45. And the only reason she's sleeping is because I gave up and came to the living room and put her in the twin z. Obviously, I'm sitting right here, wide awake, but it still like the worst option.

Her brother however is peacefully sleeping in his crib. And likely will be until his 4am feeding because that's the one that's a struggle to get him back to sleep after.