#and she clearly didn't learn her lesson cuz she went and did it again to get Tim into metro even after nyla warned her

[rebelcaptain4life]

I'm rewatching season 1 and thinking about how in s6, Isobel said she couldn't confide in Tim cuz he had this "moral superiority". And there's the question of if she knew the truth about his military years, would she have felt the same way?

In turn, Tim felt he couldn't confide in Lucy because she's "morally perfect" and was he felt he's not "good enough" for her because of the lies he told during his military service which ultimately led to him breaking up with her. Now I wonder if Tim knew how much Lucy lied during her first few months as a rookie to cover up her relationship with Nolan, would he feel the same? Would he have still broken up with her or would he have realized that they are both humans who made mistakes, but that doesn't define them?

[weebsoninlaw]

A guy with no name for now.

He wasn't given life by other living thing, he existed before the universe itself existed. When the big bang handed he got to choose where to stay for the rest of his life. He choose earth since it looks so lively and beautiful. He was a few steps ahead of others. He created fire faster then anyone else and stuff like that.

As time went by, people realized that hes different because he has lived longer than anyone else.

The long time befor modern world comes and scientists take him away to know what is he. Another century goes by and he's let out to be free. He realizes that he different and thinks that he's lucky. People talk about him and the newspapers refuse to talk about him to keep his personal life away from the outside world.

He then meets a woman that he likes. He falls for her, they date, and then she dies. When your immortal everything goes so much faster with the knowledge you have. That happens for a few centuries until he realizes that its meaningless. So he lives off on his own intil the present.

In the present he's miserable, broken, and kind of lonely. He wishes to just be dead like everyone else. He goes to the same tea shop for a year now. He enjoys the flavor of the tea they make there. It makes him forget for a few minutes or hours.

He's met with a woman here everyday, that woman notices him and is of course curious.

One day she invites him for a drink, cuz she found the courage to talk to him and they'll start to meet up.

He's hesitant while the woman is clearly in love. The male has learned his lesson centuries ago when he even had kinds but were killed by some people that decided that they will have a bad day.

The woman get obsessed with him and then convinces him to date him but the more he refuses, the more angry and feral she gets.

A man one day decides to tag along with the main character and they become good buddies. Even tho the mc knows that the buddy is gonna die he needs someone just for now.

He is convincing to went by his buddy. Mc didn't tell him about the wars he has gone through, the numbers of dead love he has experienced and the number he has been heart broken. But he did tell him how bored of life he is and how it long its meaning to him. He even told him about the weird woman that's weirdly obsessed with him.

The buddy then help him get through life and the crazy woman as the mc stars falling for the buddy.

Just for the last time.

They both have feeling for each other in the end and they start dating.

The crazy woman get furious and tryes to murder mc, but the mc just break down after being stabbed 23 times.

The woman is just confused and scared as the mc cries on the floor apartment.

He comes up with idea of ripping his heart out. He takes the knife out of the woman's hand and stabs himself into the chest, then he ripps his heart out and destroys it with everything that is capable of destruction. It didn't work.

The woman was self out of the apartment by the means the mc began cleaning the apartment from the blood that has flowed from him still.

He's then taken to hospital by his boyfriend and then taken to scientists again for not having a heart now.

He snaps and kills the scientists. He's then led to the information that his boyfriend was murdered.

The mc is then taken to a scp foundation. Is well taken care of and in love again.

He then gets to the information that that the woman is also immortal but she didn't live as long as the mc.

He finally got the chance to be internally happy with someone.

They get together, and since the scientists aren't entirely bad, they let them have their own life under some conditions.

He then proposes to her, they get married, have kids and they all live together happy. Their kind maybe weren't immortal as them but it was good for the heart warming experience.

Then they live happy till the universe is destroyed again.

[witchysleepingbeauty]

Hi princess! So imagine this lady who's always ALWAYS being negative abt her kids, never a kind word and only belittling, every other day, like "what did I do wrong really? What kind of kids have I raised? They're bla bla bla" with venom. And worst who doesnt acknowledge how negative + painful she is

When i try to talk to her nd ask her exactly whats the issue with 'me' or how can I help her to ease her burden as she keeps complaining how we're ungrateful or keeps comparing to other 'more acceptable in her eyes" children, she gets defensive nd won't answer properly. She says "ohhh, why don't U know that? arent u old enough to know?' and then starts ranting. when time after time ive begged her to clearly tell me, no passiv agressiveness please! it doesn't work nd i end up wondering why i even bother when im only the villain... Yes this ig is my role in her story that ive writen? confusing 😅

when I can, sometimes i try to help her even tho shes the sort who likes to stay busy so she'll find smth else to do lol, nd inside hope for her to be at least a little NOT negative today.... she either ignores or gets angrier nd goes all "hey, I didn't ask U to do that! How dare u act like u did me a favor! U think ur perfect while im just ur servant right?" when i never even intend that? i effing HATE negative reinforcement nd i feel so damn bad for her, nd shes taught me how negative reinforcement is the worst thing to use, cuz it never teaches anything only builds resentment!!

this is smth i realised that she cant be pleased, she wants to get attention what I mean is, whenever we spend time together, she is perfectly fine when we're talking abt her hobbies nd interests which tbh im NOT that interested in personally but since she likes them i like to discuss them with her nd help her out with projects. not to say "ohhh im so cool i help out with her projects look at me so kind of me! lol" its just it hurts when ur own mother doesn't even rpetend to care abt ur interests. i suspect deep down i carried this feeling of unworthiness ie if even my own mother doesn't care abt my hobbies/projects, no one will . which is why i feel so uncomfortable sharing anything personal to my rl friends cuz im so afraid theyll reject me too :(

By not caring i dont mean I expect her to listen nonstop to me. she has her own life but i mean she purposely zones out, rolls her eyes which HURT SM when i was a child, or even worst she says "im not interested" nd shuts the convo. again, at this point, idec anymore as ive learned slowly to value nd cherish my own value nd hobbies etc which is an important lesson anyway

the only thing i want is to stop her being so painfully negative LOUDLY. Yk I suspect becuz of her dwelling on whats wrong in her life, shes gotten severe numbness nd swelling in one arm? and even the doctors cant detect whats wrong! nd its hella painful nd she can't even lift it up sometimes!!!! THIS GOES ON TO SHOW HOW INNER CONSTANT NEGATIVITY CAN BE REFLECTED IN THE OUTER AKA OUR BODY!! To anyone else who cant help have negative thoughts ONLY, u gotta try to change them! Please! Bcuz my mother's pain in her arm is sometimes crazily too much! Nd this in turn, esp on days where all i hear is her gripe, its worse at night!

Anyway I was compeled to write this as a while ago i went to the kitchen for water nd from her room i heard her loudly complain nd mutter abt how her kids are "socially unacceptable" nd "dear god i pray please please don't let me rely on them in old age, i made a mistake raising them!" She's the sort whos got so many limiting beliefs that initially led to my deep unhappiness w/o knowng it was these beliefs at play eg if you dont become a certain career, youll have no security, or recently she keeps nd keeps lamenting abt not havjng 'enoufh money' (we r having kinda financial crisis due to some rlly terrible decisions by my other parent) or 'oh Im STUCK with this [bad word] family!" when she saw a movie abt someone who went on a trip nd began comparing her own life to it. She's so talented we all ask her to start an online business but she backs away nd says 'how will i ever get capital? im doomed to never have what i want' nd I myself have a bit empty wallet temporarily so i cant help her. Nyway, while im trying to fix my own beliefs, seeing her rage nd let negativity completly take over her is alarming nd worrying to me. it makes me feel negative emotions too. im not entirely confident in mastering my mind ywt. i was that overly sensitive kid at school nd i absorv her energy a lot. Those who u love the most, hurt u the most. nd i agree bcoz while im hurt by her (not that shes intentionally hurting me. THRU her im hurt), i do love her. Nd now thanks to the law ik by changing my beliefs abt things, i can change the world

My reason is i cant change her bcuz she gets hella maddened if i suggest a less negative thought. Nd she instead starts blaming me for my 'decisions in Life' which SHE would NEVERRR make oh no... -_- Nd im not saying i try to be obnoxious abt it hell no! im talking abt getting frustrated at the table talking abt smth abt a random topic, then suddenly listening to her start complaining abt e g. Some kid whos "richer" than i am heatedly! nd if i steer the convo away, nope, she keeps fuming a bit

so since i can only change myself, how the hell do i change my assumptions of her? i affirm having a great mother, happy nd open with her thriving business etc. i affirm this but i cant focus cuz doing so inevitbly makes me sad lol cuz i rmmbr how happy nd liveky she used to be before some unfortunate things in our family that started yrs ago. Which affected us all. Any advice, please? im on a mental diet hwoever the earlier incident of her complaining abt us again caused smth in me to snap. im distancing myself from her but the short times im with her there's only a strong air of disapproval, pain nd misery around her. Tbh i was like that pre-law, not knowing how destructiv my thoughts were, while she was the happy optimistic grateful one. Nd now? Im only slightly more self aware than before ie im NOT saying im able to rise in consiousness SOo much that im 'untouchable' nd buddha-like! Nor is my mom wrong bcuz she's me pushed out! its only her lvl of conciousness nd thats it. its just I don't want to cause or feel more pain or hav any excuse to curse her ,when ego sometimes takes over, anymore. im having some personal issues to take care of too, which is why this is affecting me too much. Sort of like having a weak immune system already?

I want my happy intelligent mom back. ik i got to change me... but the doing is way harder than the saying

🫀anon

Okay first of all imma say it cause I don’t think nobody else will…. Your mom is shitty…. There, I said it. She is abusive and selfish and a bad mom. No parent should ever treat their children that way and make them think they need to fix them.

Other than that yes it’s true she is your manifestation but I think it’s important to let emotions out. Be mad at her for once, stop rationalizing her bad behavior. You have the right to feel mad, angry, sad. YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID.

I know it seems impossible to keep a mental diet when you see the negative behavior you wish to change every day. I assume you live in the same house. My suggestion is to stick to your mental diet and try to interact as little with her as possible. Go out more often or stay a bit more in your room. Every time you see a behavior from her that you don’t like, and you feel like affirming doesn’t help, close your eyes and see her hugging you and telling you all sorts of beautiful, loving things you’d like to hear from her.

You should also work on your self concept. Parental issues often manifest from poor self concept. Affirmations like “I am worthy, I am loved, I am enough, I am respected, I am cherished” work amazing.