#and partly to money anxiety like i never want to eat all of something i'm always saving and hoarding bc i don't wanna have to buy more

[thefabelmans2022]

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[ak47stylegirl]

Today didn’t start out very good, I was feeling just so queasy and unwell, that a part of me didn’t want to get up to go to the doctors appointment. I wanted to stay in bed 🥺

But I did end up getting myself out the door and to the doctors. I looked like a mess again, wearing baggy clothes and my hair unwashed or brushed, tied up into a ponytail that was falling out. Normally I would never step foot outside looking so not put together like that but I just haven’t been caring, and I guess that says something about how sick I’m feeling, doesn’t it?

The trip to the doctors was exhausting, my sick body really couldn’t handle it. I broke out into a feverish sweat, my chest feeling heavy with congestion, making me cough. It didn’t help that I was caught out in the rain with an umbrella on the way there, i didn’t get to wet but it was enough to make me feel so much worse 😫

And well I found out from the doctor that I have a sinus infection as well as the flu 😫🥺😭

I been given a script for antibiotics, a medicated nasal spray and anti-nausea meds, but unfortunately I couldn’t get them today as I’m short of cash, I’ll have to get them tomorrow when a bit of money comes in.

Afterwards once I was home, I was feeling so feverish that I really wanted to turn the air conditioner on. I really struggle to sleep last night partly because I wasn’t used to having it off, I like it cold when I sleep but the dry air isn’t good for my nose right now. Plus having both the humidifier and it on at the same time would defeat the purpose of the humidifier as the air con is taking moisture out of the air.

Anyway I got myself cheap meat pie on the way home, and it was okay. It was really simple, not overly complex which I think was why it didn’t upset my stomach too much.

After that I think i took a half an hour nap, I can’t really remember. All I know is that my sinuses had begun to hurt, my cheeks feeling puffy and swollen.

And then later at dinner time, I made myself eat some toast with vegmite and cheese, even though my stomach had been feeling really queasy. I needed to eat, I know that but I’ll be honest, I may have been pushing it 😫😖

my stomach was so upset, and it’s seemed like as the sun went down, all my symptoms intensified tenfold 😩🤢🤧🤒😭

Which brings me to now. I'm honestly beginning to feel very stressed out about my course, I'm missing so much and I'm not sure if I'll be well enough for next week classes and I just 😭

Mixing my anxiety of my assessments and my illness which is making me feel so so sick that I’m unable to get out of bed, or do much except rest, is making me feel so much sicker 😣🥺😭

I know it’s not my fault that I’m sick and falling behind, I know, at least I hope, that the teachers will help me catch up the best they can once I am well enough but I can’t stop stressing, my anxiety doesn’t follow logic 😭

I’m going to try going to bed soon, but with how my symptoms like to be the worst at night and with the last couple nights as examples, I'm not confident that I’m going to get much sleep 🥺😞

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