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Yall i dont think im gonna be able to stop thinking about usha and g13, actually.
Ushas an old old woman, clueless with tech. Lived long enough to develop various bonds with a LOT of people and relies on them a lot for help. In turn, shes VERY loyal to her close conpanions (a great example would be how she tends to back paula up a LOT, the way she sets up russel and paula to 'fake date' wink and all). She's very warm and very emotionally intelligent even if she's a bit clueless sometimes. Her logic is borderline incomprehensible, but it has heart.
G13 on the other hand, is a hacking prodigy. Hes young, hes sought after for his skills for better and for worse. But in turn, he's essentially lost himself in the process. He may be able to scrape nuke codes, but he'll never make a friend. He lacks any loyalty for anyone and anything except for himself and his interests, and if they dont satisfy those two points, then its worth nothing to him. His logic may be sound, but its cold.
#val rambles#nsbu spoilers#never stop blowing up#dimension 20#usha rao#g13#okay ill black out and maybe think more about it again oops#anyway the conclution is that HE will be learning about the importance of la familia (threat)#i could make an addition to this. something about how despite these differences both of them have a level of percived lonliness.#something g13 is. VERY slowly starting to realize when he first sees doug#anyway following the idea that the cards favorite movies signify a degree of. what character arc ends up being#i genuinely think they WILL show him the power of la familia he isnout here trying ti takenover and suddenly BOOM familia beam (threat)#i love adding to the tags and NOT rebloging but. something something about how they push others away#where for usha it comes off as not wanting to burden others she trusts while for g13 its bc he flat out trusts no one#also episode 2 notes that usha also has a set of trust issues due to her reliance on people she DOES trust.
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11.23 — Alpha and Omega
Sam being unwilling to accept that Dean wants to give him Impala's keys, after going to sacrifice himself for the world... again.
#spn#supernatural#spn edit#dean winchester#sam winchester#jensen ackles#jared padalecki#deanedit#samedit#sam and dean#jarpadandjensens#winchester brothers#chewieblog#rambling in the tags#hey look i am giffing again#only i forgot how to sharpen oops#myspnedit#my edit
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Still trying to finish other things but in the meantime- updated design for my older May! She's an Ace Trainer
#you cant see it form the angle i put it at but she wears her gym badges pinned on her bag! shes proud of them lol#she DID technically win the champion title but the hoenn region saw what happened in kanto#w a child fleeing into the mountains and becoming a hermit. and were like ykno what lets Not do that#so it was kept a secret. shes free to revisit it now that shes older but she doesnt want any champion business anyhow#shes havin fun travelling#she still does contests! her n brendan both#brendan competes in cleverness n toughness contests may in cute and beauty contests... both of them fight in coolness contests#lisia sits back and watches as she clutches out the win yet again cus the stupid teenagers were too focused on winning from EACHOTHER#that they forgot about winning in GENERAL.#good job guys#not totally set on her team?#she has her blaziken. thats also her mega mon#tempted to give her mudkip its just baby forever#she has access to latias? but i dont think shes using it on her team just for flying#ill prolly let her keep her wailord she also uses in game its funny as hell#anyways its mostly all still up in the air#also her n brendan r fighting over custody of cosplay pikachu n theyre both losing#oras#pokemon trainer may#i forgot to actually tag this w the fandom LMAO OOPS#my own rambling makes me forget#hoenn
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coolkidd and raz doodles ‼️go my autistic 10 year olds


#can you tell which one i put more time into. oops#thats only bc i wanted to draw c00lkidd in a roblox esque style and not my regular artstyle#for raz i have to draw him like this otherwise i cant draw him#closet rambles again on tumblr#closet art tag ^^#c00lkidd#forsaken#psychonauts#razputin aquato
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whats your favorite transformers show and why? which ones would you recommend to a new transformers fan?
Hmmm.. I'm biased and I would say my favorite Transformers show is Transformers Prime, it was my introduction into Transformers and it was the one I found myself rewatching the most ! All the characters were super enjoyable and fun, plus all the character designs are fantastic even when they take a very different direction than G1 ! I found myself the most invested in TFP's story compared to other TF shows so I recommend TFP for new transformers fans ! After Transformers Prime, I watched Transformers Animated which was also very fun, so I'd probably also recommend that one as well !
#ask#TF Generation 1 is a classic so I definitely recommend watching some of that at some point as well ! mostly goofy#IM ABOUT TO RAMBLE IN THE TAGS AGAIN OOPS#Cyberverse is fun but also I found myself getting bored a lot at the beginning BUT IT GETS GOOD and then.. mid again#Combiner wars was just.. ok.#WFC made me violent /negative#absolutely disrespected my favs in that one and Optimus was very unpleasant to watch#armada had my favorite starscream but the humans were annoying </3#Earthspark has my favorite bumblebee I enjoyed season 1 a lot the other seasons were just ok but THE ART DIRECTION IS GORGEOUS
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i was sort of wondering why exactly i've been sympathising with Eva so much, apart from, admittedly, bias- i did start considering that due to that, maybe i'd been internally exaggerating how Wolfgang & Co had been treating her. but i replayed some of Chapter 1, and honestly? now i'm of the opinion that Eva was justified to be afraid of Wolfgang, even if what she did in response was inexcusable.
because it wasn't just that Wolfgang told the others to be wary of Eva (and Damon) which caused them to feel othered. consciously or not, he literally attempted to control their movement on at least two occasions- when he attempted to stop them joining in on the exploration of the pharmacy, and then when he demanded to know where they were when they reached the dining hall last.
in his defence, i don't think Wolfgang was being malicious in doing so, i reckon he did genuinely believe he was protecting the others. but in doing so, for the two members of the group he disagreed with, he actively attempted to further restrict their freedom- in a situation where they're all already trapped!! i'm not surprised that Eva, with frustration, mentioned during the trial how much she'd been watched and suspected- multiple times, if i recall correctly. of course it got to her.
but that probably wasn't even the scariest part for her. it was probably just how easily Wolfgang had taken a leadership role within the group and how willing they were to listen to him without question. only Diana really spoke up against him on one occasion and got him to begrudgingly "allow" Eva and Damon to tag along. i mean, on that note, the fact that Wolfgang even casually commented that he wanted group decisions to be allowed by him, following the minor incident of Desmond taking initiative and checking the room locks, was extremely alarming!! like i mentioned, i don't want to villainise Wolfgang, but it does seem like he has the tendency to be rather controlling, whether or not he realises it. i would be willing to bet that the herd mentality implication was done completely on purpose, considering that Wolfgang's animal motif is a sheep and the writing team have done the symbolism in the game so well.
for all this, i can understand Eva's point of view. i know that, as Wenona had mentioned, there's a chance that Eva didn't actually feel threatened by Wolfgang, but i personally am willing to give her the benefit of the doubt. because if she was honest about being on edge, that would be a rather reasonable emotional response, in my opinion.
what else are you to feel when you're at odds with an honoured individual who effortlessly holds the power to turn so many others against you too and potentially put your safety at risk, if not terror?
#Eva Tsunaka the character you are...#YES i do acknowledge that Wolgang's distrust of her was NOT irrational given her OWN actions. they're both flawed and that's great#aaaaughhhhh. Eva you're so interesting... haunt that narrative lass#ALSO this is just what i think about what she did to Wolfgang. if anything i personally reckon that harming Diana was her bigger crime#for that i DO struggle defending my girl. sorry Eva love that WAS in fact truly fucked. it must be so fucking tragic to be Diana...#if i were Eva carrying out this scheme i'd probably frame Kai for the murder. since he was bullying her the most after the talent reveal#and i'm a petty bitch LMAO#(Grace also did plenty of the mockery but framing her wouldn't really be possible considering she and Wolfgang were roommates probably...)#THEN AGAIN i guess choosing Diana specifically to frame made it less obvious that Eva was the culprit?#since it'd be suspicious if not one but TWO of the most hostile people to Eva ended up involved in the case??#i suppose if they were all trying to see the best in each other they wouldn't WANT to believe even Eva would frame her biggest defender...#HOLY SHIT. IF SO. EVA IS FUCKING SMART. that is SO clever and SO cruel my gosh#so MAYBE the choice to involve Diana was more than a simple feeling of betrayal/bitterness from Eva??#did NOT mean to ramble this much in tags oops#i just really really like Eva. i need to inspect her more omg#ace's random thoughts :)#project eden's garden#eva tsunaka#wolfgang akire#p:eg#project: eden's garden#project edens garden
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ACCOMPANYING DOODLE COMIC CAN BE FOUND HERE!!
Day 9 for huevember~
Decided to draw Jetko again, this time for a very specific AU I've been tweaking over like a feral animal lol. (heavy and I mean heavy rambling under the cut!)
Urk yea, so I worked my butt off of this one! I really pushed myself with the anatomy, since I wanted it to have a bit of sex appeal ngl lol (also, ya know, wanting to get better at drawing blah blah). I don't think I've ever looked at so many refs at once tho holy shit...
I also tried my best to make it look cool and graphical~ It was fun and fucking brutal I think I went through 30+ different variants, no joke LOL. Shoutout to my bestie for all the help and listening to me ramble like a madman. Title from this song: Renegade Master by Wildchild
OKAY SO PLEASE LET ME BE A LOSER
So not sure how to describe this AU, other than it being sort of a silly master thief mixed with action, romance/smut, drama, angst, revenge and conspiracy. I was definitely inspired by a few anime's, but Lupin iii & Cowboy Bebop were the biggest inspos for sure lol.
Not sure of the timeline, but maybe in the 90s? They're also aged up, Jet is about 31yo, and Zuko 23 maybe? YES there's a bit of an age gap as a treat for me. <333
Both of them served in the military, but at different times and units, so they never met before.
Jet joined the army at 18 to basically avoid homelessness, since he was orphaned and didn't have many options. He did, however, want to set up a fund for 'Bee and Longshot while he worked there. I'm still unsure about why he'd leave, but was thinking he got injured (like in S2), and was discharged (I'm also thinkin' toxic situation-ship with Lu Ten? *looming music* the drama!!). Or maybe he was about to uncover something big by mistake, so they accused him of stuff he didn't do, which had him terminated from the military. Or a combo of the 2??
But whoops, also turns out his fund he was putting aside was stolen/was being lied too, and he, 'Bee and Longshot had nothing left to their names. And because governments suck, he wasn't getting his benefits or barely got enough (or if he was terminated, then he'd get nothing).
This obviously left him feeling pissed and helpless. He tried getting normal work, but he didn't have much luck; which eventually led him to robbing a bank out of desperation (+an old military friend reached out to ask for help with the robbery), using his skills he's learned over his life (maybe at the time, he pretended to date Katara as she worked there to get intel? More drama~ Tho he did regret that part;;;). After that first theft, he not only got money for him and the others, but got a huge thrill from it. Since then, he strived to become the worlds greatest thief! He goes after money, jewels, fine art; whatever gives him a challenge (and a good paycut hehe)~
Zuko, like Jet, joined the military as soon as he turned 18; but it was done to get away from his fathers abuse and influence. He thought Ozai had no connections to the military, and he'd be safe to have his own career/life there for a while. (Also thinking Iroh is not in the picture. Either dead or disappeared)
Unfortunately, his father was far more powerful and corrupt than he thought he was. Not entirely sure why again, but thinking this time around, Zuko did uncover something big going on (but only a small glimpse of it). His father then ordered an assassination against Zuko and his unit, to make it look like an accident/war mission gone wrong (also, think 41st division here; except Zuko was in said division).
In an instant, he lost his comrades, all of them killed off because of Ozai. Unfortunately for Ozai, Zuko did survive, but no one knew of that, and thought he was dead/completely burnt away from the blast (also maybe that's how he gets the scar on his face OR chest?? idk yet).
Zuko did manage to run away and hide somewhere, finding random help and took almost a year to recover. During that time, he had a lot of time to think about it, and decided he'd get revenge against his father.
But it wouldn't be an easy feat. Reporting Ozai never did anything for him (the few times he tried when he was younger). He thought simply killing him would suffice, but he wanted Ozai to slowly lose everything. His influence, connections, money, power, etc. He wanted him to suffer, and lose the things he clearly cared more than anything in the world, even his own family.
So after the incident, he took time to train, get more intel, took mercenary jobs so he could build up his own network/gain experience, etc etc. until he eventually felt ready to begin his slow act of revenge; which would entail him starting from the bottom up, taking apart Ozai's regime if you will, by stealing/destroying/killing his connections/assets/companies/etc etc. if that makes sense?
ANYWAYS. Queue in Jetko!
The first time Jet meets Zuko, it's in the middle of a theft; it was night time, Zuko illuminated by the full moon, sirens going off in the background, as Zuko is holding the very thing he was going to steal. Zuko slowly turns to look at him, with nothing but contempt in his eyes. And Jet? INSTANTLY fell in love.
AHAHA in this AU, Jet is absolutely whippeddddd for Zuko. He thinks he's the most handsome, beautiful, badass person he's ever laid eyes on. Jet is convinced Zuko stole his heart, but he doesn't mind.;-) (yes he's a SAP)
Zuko doesn't care for Jet (or anyone for that matter). He's been pretty much alone for years now, only concentrating on his revenge. But Jet seems to pop up here and there, always in the middle of a robbery or whatever else. He comes to learn Jet is the self-proclaimed "worlds greatest thief", which he doesn't care for.
And yet, Jet always seems eager to speak to him, even helping or saving him sometimes. He doesn't get it, and he wonders if the guy was hired by his father. Yet, Jet manages to wiggle his way in Zuko's heart; which scares him, because he doesn't want to forget his anger and hatred.
But he can't help but be pulled in Jet's antics and chaotic heists, from time to time.
I don't think Jet would care if Zuko was the son of Ozai, in this AU. I'd imagine he'd be more angry about what Ozai has done to Zuko (and others) than Zuko's blood. Also, while Jet is definitely whipped, he does grow real feelings for Zuko the more they interact. He enjoys discovering small aspects about him, or the rare times he smirks or chuckles. But he can see there's a lot of hurt in Zuko, and is worried about him; he really wants him to have fun and be happy (hence why he ropes Zuko into his antics/thefts at times, just to see Zuko loosen up a bit).
As for the plot, AHAHA idk yet. Definitely some conspiracies going on, maybe some classic world domination? Idk. But everything is connected in some ways; even the random fine art pieces Jet would steal, would eventually connect to something bigger. Lots of action too and near death scenes aha. Also, Jets and Zukos pasts and presents would come to intertwine at some point. I'm thinking Lu Ten is one nasty villain too, which would add for some delicious drama~
Unto the nsfw aspect LOL (please respect the honour system and only read if you're 18+ pwease T^T)
So in ALL my headcanons/AU's, Jet/Zuko are switches. But I have SUCH a thing for younger men topping older men AHA (also....Jet is hairy too YIPPEE!). So the first time they even kiss, it's Zuko that pulls the shots. I'd imagine Jet would be flirting with Zuko again, and Zuko feeling both fed up but also interested, would grab him by the collar and give Jet a deep kiss; shocking Jet into silence. He'd just smirk, knowing he won, while Jet's brain short circuits lol. OR their first kiss is Zuko slipping Jet some important info through a chip/pill, which does surprise Jet, but he's eager to play the make-out part.;-)
Not even sure how they'd finally give in and fuck lmfao. But Zuko would, again, call the shots the first time; which does things to Jets brain because he's never been topped by a younger guy (he's veryyy into it tho). At some point, Zuko would allow Jet to top him during an emotional moment, I would imagine aha.
Oh also, for this scene in particular.....idk. I have a real fetish for cool looking dudes in cool outfits and looking all badass and homoerotic LMFAOOOOO. I do think it displays their dynamic in this AU pretty good. Jet being smitten/whipped and flirting/teasing, knowing full well he's got Zuko's attention; while Zuko seems in control/indifferent and closed off, but he can't help but be pulled in by Jet. (also I just wanted to draw something ~cool~)
As for the text, I was listening to music and it popped up LOL. Idk, I sometimes let whatever I'm listening too atm dictate stuff for me, especially titles because I suck with those. As for the font choice, I wanted a serif font to make it look a bit more old school, and hopefully jazzy. But I also wanted it edgy, something you could either see on a jazz album or 90s rave/techno/house album.xD (Since I was inspired by both genera's lol) It WAS really hard choosing the right font. Several looked great, one in particular I almost went with, but it felt too modern imo. I also knew I wanted it to be red, but it often took attention away from Jet/Zuko. So I tried my best to use the font to my advantage, and have the viewers eyes automatically go towards their faces by making it more saturated in that spot, like a light source? I also did trace out the font like a loser so it would have a hand-drawn texture.:-V
Also I kinda drew Jet more beefy than I usually imagine him by accident? But I didn't wanna change it bc.....his tits came out real good lol. I def need to draw more for this AU. And I hope Zuko's ass also came out good because god did I struggle.
OKAY SORRY FOR BEING A LOSER IN PUBLIC I'LL SHUT UP NOW LMFAOOOO.
#jetko#atla#jet x zuko#jet atla#zuko#huevember#christ i hate tagging i never know what to use lol#gloomydraws#gloomymuses#I KNOW I INFO DUMPED TOO MUCH#but pls pls this is my only outlet#i need to put my rambles somewhere#be glad i put it behind a read more LOL#also whoops this has been sitting in my drafts for a WHILE#and shoutout again to my bff i've sent her SOOO many wips#and asked her for her opinion sooo much#seriously this wouldn't have gotten finished without her xD#ALSO DON'T @ ME FOR ZUKO'S 1 HAND#DRAWING 3 HANDS WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME#ALSO i tried sooo hard not to include butterflies again but oops?#god i hate adding my name unto stuff ruins the whole structure
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Odile patting Molly Epithet Erased on the head, you know why
have two bc i care them
#in stars and time#isat#epithet erased#molly blyndeff#isat odile#I've been trying to draw this for like... 5 days straight....#Thank you for making me obligated to draw this. honestly might not've if it wasnt an ask#anyways ya'll so hear me out. odile mother/grandma figure to molly#Honestly after thinking about it a little more Odile is actually quite different to Calliope based on descriptions alone? but#I think having a Dependable Trustworthy Adult in her life is. She needs it#We don't know a lot about Calliope and idk what parallels odile has with her; but I hope she reminds Molly of her mom at least a little bit#And for Odile's pov? I think she'd really really like Molly#She's more mature than most for her age and she's extremely observant and intelligent. Those are things Odile respect#Cue a dead mom joke though and odile very quickly goes to ''ok there's something wrong with this child''#I don't think I have the idea fleshed out enough in my head to say anything for sure? But Odile and Molly having a Talk about her home life#would be Extremely interesting#Oops! Rambled in tags again! Teehee!#also do you think odile will ask molly for her full name only for molly to hit her with the#''molly wolly doodle all the day blyndeff'' and odile instantly regrets it#validation for bonnie#edit: rearranged tags just in case#day 19#crossover
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since you asked me now i gotta ask you--
NUMBER 12.
gimme the good shit....
Ah well
Have you seen Rodimus? Yeah him XD
especially IDW, that one panel where he’s addressing the crew on the Necrobot planet and he’s leaned so far forward lmao

LIKE LOOK AT HIS WAIST
*coughs*
Also TFA Roddy with a bow? Very hot, I love bows actually and I love him
Also Drift, cause wielding two swords is also hot (I historically have liked characters with two swords so)
Oh and the first time we see Getaway in the mtmte comics

Are you seeing what I’m seeing?????
Also very yes on TFO Star on the throne (there’s also that gif of Star pushing past Soundwave and Shockwave, I think when the main cast first arrived to the high guard, where like bro straight up felt up Sounders’ entire chassis)
Weirdly (or idk) also when Pharma is talking to Ratchet’s detached head+spark casing (cause competency is hot)
That one scene in TFA with Optimus and Megatron and Optimus’ grappling hook
Megatron talking to Magnus’ head on his table in WFC too for some reason
That one clip of KO catcalling OP despite me never watching TFP yet because I have a thing for deeper voices
This panel of Mags and Megs

This is what we in the theatre industry call kiss or punch distance (and they better kiss)
Cyclonus’ Holoform

He just slayed idk what else to say, I wish I got to see more of it honestly
And lastly (cause I can’t think of anything else off the top of my head that is canon lol)

Brainstorm on this cover
Because again, competency is hot
#I may have lost the plot a bit lol#My ideal frame type is either race car#anything with wings or just wide lol#that encompasses a lot actually#so I just like robots#I would have said smt about Ratchet but like#I have no canon example of why I want that Old Man obliterated#I just do#I have no justification lmao#I also have unholy thoughts about swerve but I digressss#tw suggestive#suggestive#definitely now that I’m rambling in the tags again#this took me a while oops#inbox shenanigans#tf ask game#maccadam#transformers#maccadams
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i’ve noticed some samgirls will take sam’s empathy and understanding towards dean in the later seasons as defeated submissiveness to fuel their battered-wife sam agenda and it’s such a two-dimensional interpretation of older sam i am tiredd
#yes of course later seasons sam is extra traumatized they all are#but his gentleness/forgiveness with dean are examples of their developing relationship not of how dean’s beaten sam down#reminder that early seasons sam didn’t know dean very well i mean he did he’s deans brother#but it’s made a point that sam had to get to know dean outside the lense of his childhood and the big brother he knew before stanford#later seasons sam reacts differently to dean because yea he’s been through shit and changed in general#but also because he gets it!! he knows dean and understands they’re both gonna keep making terrible mistakes#he also knows they’re always gonna forgive each other in the end because for better or worse l#that’s how they are. they’re codependent possessive and often toxic brotherfuckers and older sam is Very Aware of that#i’m rambling in the tags again oops#fandom wank#samdean#sam#spn fandom wank
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i was just gonna leave this as a comment, but my response started spiraling sooooo. guess i'm makin' this a full on post lol =3=" uhh anyways, responding to @skyborneveggie's tags on this post:
#really good analysis #always here for high-functioning depression light takes #i want to add; while Light is better at reading & manipulating people in the moment he also tends to overlook some things in the long run #because of his superiority complex #like his father volunteering for the eyes in matsuda's place #and matsuda in the ending. As much as i like to think of matsuda as wholesome- #-i do think if light played his cards right he could have manipulated him over to kira's side #but he didn't because he didn't think matsuda was important in the grand scheme of things
very good points!! about matsuda in particular— it’s interesting in retrospect how consistently he’s set up as a side character, particularly with how he is almost always immediately pushed off to the side despite that. like, alongside soichiro, he’s really the first member of the JTF we see pre-lind l. tailor (in the anime, anyway. in the manga it’s a bit more ambiguous, though matsuda definitely shows up to mention KIRA bringing the crime rate down in ch.3, still quite early).

he’s always the one counterpoint within the group, playing devil's advocate in a way with how he brings up the pro-KIRA side of things, yet as you say light underestimates him So consistently that he even ends up evolving into a full on joke/shakespearean fool character by yotsuba, which is really what makes his actions in the end so incredibly significant.
i distinctly remember reading that section where aizawa & mogi are getting more deeply involved with near and, in the case of aizawa in particular, are starting to genuinely consider the possibility that light might be KIRA, and just getting sooooooo so SO goddamn suspicious of what matsuda was doing. this was in part because i already had some spoilers about the ending, specifically about matsuda shooting him, but goddamn do his actions start looking suspicious when you begin taking him seriously as a threat. like, while aizawa is starting to live through his own psychological horror novel come to life, realizing that the innocent kid & strong leader he's been taking care of & following all this time might actually have been the fucking serial murderer they've been after for literal Years, here's what matsuda is up to in the background:




(light's face here. fuckin freak LMFAO)

(this one is particularly notable to me as it shows that even aizawa underestimates him— it's not just light, it's the whole damn team. even ryuk joined in earlier.)

(and of course, my absolute favorite example. the contrast between their expressions alone here is absolutely golden all on its own, but matsuda's heartfelt "don't worry, light!! i'll never betray you!!!" in comparison to THIS only makes it all the more juicy:

like, light doesn't even bother responding to him until he's got a goddamn bullet in his hand. he just sits there confident in the expectation that matsuda will lick his soles like a dog. jesus fucking christ.)
anyways, as i was saying: he's mostly just doing a bunch of dumb shit, making silly jokes in the background, fucking around with ryuk and being written off as an idiot by most characters, especially light but again also aizawa and ryuk. AND YET. he is Always hanging around over light's shoulder, lurking somewhere behind him in almost ever panel he shows up in, perfectly innocent to the point where it's can almost be more off-putting than if he were outwardly, actively questionable. like, this panel in particular, and i mean goddamn, just look at it again:

it hits So Hard in retrospect, not just because matusda is the one to shoot light in the end, possibly being his cause of death had ryuk not stepped in when he did, but also because it's true. as incredibly fucking suspicious as this panel may seem if you are armed with the knowledge that matsuda does, eventually, end up being the one to shoot light, it's equally easy to write it off as normal dumbass matsuda behavior because that is Exactly What It Is. and you would be right!! matsuda is trusting of light to a fault— when he eventually breaks, it is Not due to his own betrayal. it's the evidence of light's. and not just of his manipulation of the task force, for years and years and years on end— it's soichiro's death specifically that finally makes matsuda lose his faith in him.
the idea that light could've manipulated matsuda over to KIRA's side had he just tried a little harder is fascinating, but i think i can also understand why he didn't exert any more effort— it was kinda unnecessary. for basically the entire story, from the moment matsuda is formally introduced, to the minute light breaks and admits he's actually KIRA, matsuda is one particularly dedicated conversation away from being a full-on KIRA supporter— or so light believes, anyway. and he's probably not that far off.
really, i'm of the opinion that it's matsuda's existence as this KIRA-sympathetic figure in the task force in the first place that causes light to believe so strongly that he could eventually convert the entire JTF over to the side of KIRA— possibly even saving all of them their lives in the process. like, as i've said before, for all that light monologues about how he's Definitely Going To Kill The Task Force, Don't Worry, I Can And Will Do It When I Have To, he. never actually does it. instead, light goes through all the trouble of keeping the JTF strung along behind him for more than half a decade following L's death, holding on to all of these strings of his former life even when they are almost undoubtedly more of a pain than they're worth. unable to kill his father, unable to kill misa, unable to kill matsuda— even when he directly tries to.
i forget which post this was on, but i believe someone pointed out before that potentially a major part of light's grief following soichiro's death comes from the fact that he springs a shock on him at the last minute before passing: soichiro never stopped suspecting his son. when he sees light's lifespan above his head his first thought is to be relieved, because the question he's held at the back of his mind for Years has finally been undoubtedly assuaged. light is desperate to believe up until the end that he can make the world truly and genuinely pro-KIRA; his final actions in the moments of clarity before he starts begging at ryuk's feet for his life involve an enthusiastic speech as he makes one final bid at converting the JTF and SPK to join him and believe in his vision of Justice.
and yet. he never quite gets mastuda.
never bothered? or never could? perhaps a bit of both, but it's a fascinating character progression nonetheless, and easily one of the most interesting arcs in the series. poor, poor mastuda, indeed.
sidenote: this is a somewhat half baked thought, but i can't help but make a somewhat minor connection between light's treatment of matsuda and his treatment of misa, as well as his relationship with takada. like, let's think through the list of his main (human) supporters throughout the series, the ones who end up taking on the title of KIRA themselves: in the first half, misa, in the second, takada & mikami. if we add matsuda to this list, we get two mirroring pairs: misa & matsuda for the front half of the series, takada & mikami for the latter.
light's treatment of each of these pairs is quite different, despite the fact that they all essentially fulfill the same purpose to him: misa & mikami act as KIRA's eyes, killing those light is unable/unwilling to himself, while takada & matsuda fill the role of KIRA's spokesperson, albeit to very different audiences. thus each half of each pair executes a different side of KIRA's ideology: misa & mikami the practical side, becoming killers themselves, and takada & matsuda the persuasive side, pointing out the positive influences KIRA's actions have had on the population to The People and the rest of the task force respectively.
it's not quite as simple as i've laid out here, of course— tadaka eventually ends up killing before she dies at light's hand herself, misa lives as light's partner until she loses her memories and never quite recovers, mikami becomes quite static, just playing at a killer for Appearances, until his actions eventually end up accidentally betraying light and leading to his downfall. yet it still seems notable to me that despite light treating takada & mikami noticeably better for the majority of the time that he's working with them, those two are the ones who eventually end up dead, betrayed and betrayer respectively. yet, in the case of misa & matsuda... for all that light degrades them and treats them like shit, those two are the ones that get to live on past him while remaining stubbornly loyal until the end, until light's own actions twist back and smack him in the head.
i think perhaps part of the reason why light never ends up converting matsuda is not just his own ego blowing Shit outta proportion and assuming that matsuda will either very easily convert/is too much of a dumb liability to even bother with, but also light's own discomfort with having followers at all. like, it really takes him that full time skip to get fully on board with the idea that people will Submit to KIRA, despite the fact that he logically must know how necessary that is. light wants the recognition and love and commitment of other people, but he doesn't necessarily want the responsibility of their own stupid actions— a sentiment perhaps reflected in how easily he kills criminals, seeing their "evil" as something to be Purged, an annoyance just as much as a liability for the happiness of the Good, Pure People of the world.
as i've outlined before, misa is the main person who's enthusiastic submission consistently gets on light's nerves and icks him the fuck out, but i can't help but wonder if this same reaction applies at least in part to his distaste of matsuda. it's easier to get away from matsuda at least, considering he doesn't have to play the Good, Heterosexual Boyfriend around him, but that doesn't mean it isn't still somewhat present either. this also gets interesting if you start considering lawlight dynamics during yotsuba as well, and L's similar (if somewhat more overt, even) dislike of matsuda during that era BUT. that'll perhaps have to wait until another essay lolol =3=
#death note#astronaut rambles#touta matsuda#finally got to write me a matsuda post!! hell yeah!!!#been wanting to do this for a while lol but never quite found an approach that stuck w/ me#thx again for the tags on the original post hehe :P#death note meta#anyways. didn't mean for this to evolve into a light bottom advocacy post but what did we expect really#how anyone could see that man as a Dom Top is beyond me frankly#he is so overtly Disgusted for so much of the series when people submit to him#i can't help but wonder if part of the reason why he's so chill with mikami is the fact that he never has to fucking#interact with him irl like he does misa LMFAO#even in the case of takada it's such a clear Performance maybe it's easier to pull it off#especially by that age... withered as he is LMFAO#also takada having her own repressed (oddly compatible?) parallels to light blah blah see @kiyomitakada's posts for more on that#coughs. anyways what where was i why does the clock say two hours have passed what the hell#where am i#light yagami#<- there's enough of him here to warrant that ok shush#alright enough blurry-eyed rereading it's Poast time#edit: oops added one sentence for clarity
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big art dump incoming! been reworking everybody's official art
#pokemon#pkmnart#pkmn#pmd#pokemon mystery dungeon#pmd ocs#ties that bind#popplio#oc: verity#brionne#oc: dylan#scorbunny#oc: finnian#buneary#oc: kaira#sprigatito#oc: clover#zorua#hisuian zorua#oc: neoma#manectric#oc: shura#gligar#oc: witten#ambipom#oc: dexter#flygon#oc: cearo#<- looking to change their name again. fortunately i still haven't updated any tags here from the last name change lmao#oh my god i was gonna ramble in my tags like usual but ive reached the maximum tags allowed. oops
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the first fellow is based off the album plastic surgery disasters and the second one is based off the album the tony slug experience,,, my jello biafra music ocs ATTACK!!
#hi guys. guess who made art of my spinterest ocs#closet rambles again on tumblr#closet art tag ^^#should i tag jello biafra?? uhh#yeah#jello biafra#dead kennedys#oops i made both of them have their hand behind their back#oh well
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WIP ASK GAME YIPPIE hehe i got tagged by @nenunaiad (TYYSMMM FOR THE TAG) to join a wip ask game!! i never joined smth like this but i'm more than happy to! lil heads up, i have A monthly canvas so i don't have any cool canvas names for ya'll, so so sad ikr aasdgjksdhs but here we go:
rules: make a new post with all (some!) of the files in your wip folder, regardless of how non descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you and ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! and then tag as many people as you have wips
SKK Android AU
pompompurin dazai
OCs - the c(l)ock incident
demonzai yapping animation
crk brainrot go brr
demon skk
tagging hehe: @thatghostinyourbog @msshinylemon @iberisyu @altruistic-meme @loulits @antikr1sta and @crumbledtoast (no pressure hehe ofc <3)
#wip ask game#tag game#mochi rambles#'why finish a drawing when you can start a new one' YOU'RE SO REAL FOR THAT OMG#thank you again for tagging me!! it made me insanely happyy aaa <3#lowkey rly nervous but PLEASE I AM EXCITED TO YAP#i'm that one insane person that draws in one canvas for a month and has like over 500 layers suffers from csp lagging and goes oop hehe :3c#ANYWAYS HAVE FUN YA'LL#hehe :3c
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okay, please do one more of the tired Marty and the group of Doc’s….PLEASE
Ask and you shall receive. I hope this silly thing shall suffice :)
Transcription and details under cut
The transcription for my terrible handwriting -
(@ the garage)
Doc: Marty! I came as soon as I-
Doc (cont.): -could.
Marty: Your turn.
(Arrows: Half Asleep, On Fire (literally), covered in soot)
(Fun fact! Not a single party of Marty’s current state (aside from the lack of sleep) is the Docs’ fault! Good ol’ McFly luck strikes again!)
THUD
Docs: MARTY!
So this came to me in a dream today and well it works so behold. This is about an hour after the initial phone call thanks to Jules and Verne asking many questions as Doc was trying to leave and he’d rather they not follow him this time. As for what I mean by the McFly luck- Marty and his ancestors are extremely unlucky. Let’s be honest. To some degree all of them have either directly been unlucky or had their choices result in mild to severe disaster. In this instance specifically it means while trying to move from point A to point B Marty fell half asleep, tripped, knocked a dustpan of ash onto himself, somehow lit himself on fire, and damn near collapsed onto the doorframe. Someone force this kid to take a nap. Please.
#Marty is having A Time with this whole deal#don’t let his tiredness fool you- he’s actually having a lot of fun#Doc is his best friend and damn near a father figure. now there are five of him. that’s five times the dad friend!#probably the safest Marty’s ever felt despite the fact that the universe should be collapsing according to Doc#when he does sleep it’ll be the most peaceful sleep he’s ever had#keep 👏 spamming me 👏 with stuff 👏 for this AU 👏👏👏#I’m attached now and wish to ramble/doodle#the Docpocalypse shall continue#no one is safe#Marty and Doc can try to hide it- it won’t work#Oops All Docs AU#aka the Docpocalypse#okay obligatory tags time#Docpocalypse AU#DO NOT TAG AS SHIP#I SWEAR TO GOD#back to the future#back to the future the musical#back to the future the game#bttf#bttf musical#bttf fanart#back to the future fanart#my art#marty mcfly#doc brown#Emmett brown#until we meet again!
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yk when I was younger I used to think people were way overgeneralizing with their social media stereotypes and I still mostly think that's true but to a certain extent I get it because it feels like I really only use each one for its own hyperspecific thing. twitter is for rigorous ideological debates that will never go anywhere. tiktok is for lowering my standards so I can spend 5 hours giggling at brainless shitposts. youtube is for any video about The Interest I can find that's longer than 15 minutes so I can cram at least two ranked splatoon battles in while I watch. instagram is for shamelessly ogling the people I've barely talked to since I was 14 who are really hot now. and here? this place is for the paradoxically over-edited and unfiltered stream of consciousness nonsense I'd never post anywhere else let alone say out loud in a public space.
#gonna have to reconsider the shameless ogling thing soon since multiple of those people have expressed wanting to hang out again#and idk what i'd even do in that situation#oops! i accidentally spent the past few years thirsting over you#because i thought you were a safe pick of “people i know enough about to crush on but also will probably never talk to again”!#that's my bad bro!#sighhhhh#keeping this in the tags cause y'all have dealt with enough of my fag yearning lmao#shut up faggot (rambles tag)#txt#irl people tag
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