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It’s crazy how expendable all the crew members were to the Pony Express.
A 30% chance that your shipment would be lost. Cargo and crew are inseparable if we are to believe the shitty layout of the Tulpar. People use it because it’s cheap. The labor is cheap. The lives are cheap.
They are all relatively easy to forget about. It’s implied Anya and Curly don’t have many friends or much family to be concerned about them back home. She mentions nothing and no one to fall back on and he feels like wasted his life with the company. Jimmy probably only has Curly, otherwise people wouldn’t care or ask. Of course Daisuke and Swansea have family’s but Swansea thinks poorly of his and Daisuke’s poorly of him. All people in the companies eyes that wouldn’t stir up too much trouble if they became part of the 30%.
It makes it so much sadder because that ladder they were climbing was so small and shitty. There were rungs, ranks, but even the highest was barely off the ground. Jimmy wanted to reach the top of something that was brutally cut off and knocked everyone else off just to not see it.
#like yes curly was slightly better off but he’s not getting a severance package he’s a top show pony to the company#but they will just shoot him if he becomes a horse with a broken leg#Anya was likely picked cause she had enough knowledge but not enough to concretely call malpractice and Swansea was already a cog in the mix#he was an alcoholic getting back on the straight n narrow he needed it Daisuke is forced on the trip and eager to prove himself#Jimmy also need the job and got it from nepotism and won’t care as long as he’s paid#complains but yknow and Curly likely doesn’t do much but work he’s like a perfect little face man and he kinda hates it#like it’s a misconception that he was bored at the top or he needed a new ladder because he was done with this one he literally is miserable#and feels like he unfulfilled and doing nothing with his life as he’s ONLY successful in his work like he has nothing else#which makes it so mad cause Jimmy saw Curly as this guy with a perpetual golden goose but he’s just like them#like shiny gold appearances aside he’s like the second saddest like next to Anya because shes like depressed#because yknow she’s a victim but she had hopeful and happy determined prospects like Curly is just sad with his life and Swansea is chilling#like he’s made his peace even if he’s not like clicking his heals and Jimmy is less sad more angry#he’s a sad mans tho like he’s like Dan vs to me#mouthwashing#the pony express#mouthwashing game#nurse anya#anya mouthwashing#captain curly#curly mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing
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Treasured Treats
@jojo-schmo
#Still recovering from everything (thank you for the kind words everyone!) but I had nothing else to upload for Halloween#That and this idea was so sweet I wanted to be involved!#(After sixth months Noir finally has a -single- meal...!)#That's a senbei rice cracker cookie he's eating btw - Noir likes warm drinks and relatively bland and simple food#(For some off the cuff lore... his mom probably gave him some to eat on the shuttle from the New World > Shiver Star)#(As they were on the run at the time 'airplane snacks' was likely the best she could offer her hungry confused son...)#(...But Noir would surely remember the taste of the simple rice crackers he had that day very fondly)#Still... when a man cries over a single rice cracker you know he's lived a rough life XD#(Random Dess Lore: This was the first thing my host family gave me after the worst plane trip of -my- life)#Noir Fontaine#Dess Art Post#cw: blood#(well it's a nosebleed but still)#Really need to stop drawing and rest my hand/eye...#But I wanted to do something a little cute and fun first!
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Hi guys, this is usually what a doodle page ends up looking like <3 (oh, and @ancha-aus thought you might like this! Not writing but certainly fuel to my fire lol-)
This one is New Age filled!!! (Close-ups abd Lore beneath the cut!)
1) Night and Cross!
Night is actually very clingy once he's a teen. He doesn't usually realize it, but around the castle he'll snake to be closer to his Knights so long as there's no one he needs to keep his composure infront of is nearby. Cross is the one who's not used to physical touch (when it's not Ink ofc) so Night in his personal bubble makes his heart melt but also scares tf out of him <3
2) Error and Night's Meeting!
Error was carrying his whole life on his back and trying not to get arrested for unintentional property damage at this point, so when he saw the chance to get back at his brother and prove he was strong enough? Yeah, he got that on chance instantly. And was VERY smug when Nightmare chose him. (Also, Error is wearing gloves, so less Haphephobia)
3) Dream and Blue designs!
I think these are good tentative designs! Dream probably has a more regal fit, but he likes to play up that rugged exile look- He's inspired by Archers, while Blue takes on that classic Knightly-vibe. Their equipment is mostly stolen from Night's troops or brought with them from Blue's home kingdom.
Also, Dream is approx Killer's height at this point, shorter than Cross and *much* shorter than Apple!Nightmare. (Hc that Skeletons tend to be tinier in stature thanks to weird monster beauty standards. Horror and Geno's fam are outliers.)
4) Horror and Dust designs!
Horror is naturally a very *large* monster. He's very malnourished when Nightmare meets him, but by the time he's a Knight Nightmare has made sure that's no longer the case. He actually loves comfy, simple clothes, but to play up the whole 'strong mysterious' bit he wears a more barbaric Knight's garb. He doesn't mind acting scary, it's more fun that way :]. Dust is very very small, and envies horror sometimes for his size, but his tiny stature let's him control his body and move a lot quicker. He's very much based on a rogue, and usually covers the lower part of his face w/ a black cloth, and the upper part w/ his hood or mask. Dust only removes both to bathe, eat, or relax in a safe location. (Ignore that I can't draw the stupid gaster blaster lmao-)
These last two were space-fillers, but Cross and his Borzoi (Windmill, otherwise known as Milly (Killer named her-)) and really bad first wips of Ccino! I think Ccino was a chubby, happy toddler, but lost a lot of 'weight' (bone mass? Magic?) due to stress and pressure and bad eating habits. So it isn't until a while after the Coronation that he starts to relax abd feel safe enough to eat normal meals (Nightmare used to guilt him into eating snacks together, but as his boss (and younger brother) he can encourage it more often). By the time Killer shows he's still not quite healthy, but he's better. As more weight is lifted off his shoulders, the better he is. (That 'beauty' most people saw was a more stereotypical slimness, but Killer never stopped seeing Ccino as beautiful-) I think he never looked traditionally underweight, so no one noticed, and it was only much later that Night processed it. (And maybe it's why Dream hardly recognized him later on-)
#new age au#I love showing mundane life things-#and also these designs beamed into my brain#I can't draw Ccino for anything but the others? yeag#Blue is definitely my fave. and just like every au I will draw Blue perfect the first time and draw Dust 6 billion times 😔#Horror is kinda banger too tho#makes me laugh to imagine Horror picking up Dust mid-fight out of convenience and Dust weighs nothing to him#(also this size difference is exactly why Dust and Horror fight in the non-magic training. and why Horror accidentally obliterated his#shoulder later on lmao- Dust needs to be able to dodge any enemy. Horror needs to aim for small and quick targets.)#(Meanwhile Cross is the newest and Killer the oldest and if Cross adapts to Killer then he'll adapt to the others more easily.)#oh! and Ccino w/ his arc? I think I really like the idea of a Ccino with a plump body-type. but that conflicts with my vidion of Ccino kinda#losing track of eating and being co-erced by adults to skip meals just enough to make him the 'right amount' of curvy#so when Nightmare takes over it's a habit he's so used to he hardly notices that he's doing it. but. Night picks up on it because Ccino is#almost akways with him. their relationship is very much Ccino giving his life to help Night#but it's also Night recognizing that and giving it back to Ccino along with more the moment he can#just smth smth this au is full of fit and exercized people and I think Ccino deserves some comfort and healing and positivity <3#also I am SO fond of Nightmare getting up in people's bubbles. he does it most to Killer and Ccino for obvious reasons but#god forbid a noble be talking behind his back because he *will* twist around and shove under his knight's arms or sides just to#read them the riot act or stare them down <3#and I think when he was an adult Night was... kinda like the big brother? like. not an experienced one by any means. but he wasn't *not*#affectionate then either. he was better at being serious about it and more discreet. but like#Nervous Cross escorting him in public? Night nudges his shoulder briefly with a Tendril to try and comfort him. Dust having a magic overload#? personal Training against just Night so there was no risk of harming anyone else. then snacks and tea after.#Horror is homesick? Woah look at that a scheduled trip back to visit with Crop and side-track back to Horror's village? huh?? wild...#Killer upset at all? Night will find a solution. just you wait. a cat. two cats. perhaps even a cat in a little sweater? or y'know. just a#chat or a combat?#Nightmare showed his affections but was just more distant about it.#Oh also. all four were used to tendrils lifting/tugging them subconsciously. usually during trainings to avoid them hurting eachother by#mistake in their early days. Killer misses it sometimes
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my classmates will go thru 6 hours of class the day after a long excursion through the countryside and then just get up and go run around in town for hours going to movies and shopping and whatever and I'm just sitting here like Aren't you all exhausted . Aren't you all sore and pained. Where are you getting this energy. Can we calm down
#if nothing else this trip has really opened my eyes to how much chronic pain/fatigue does impact my life compared to others#i dunno I guess I just never really noticed. but I just don't have the energy other people do. Not even close. Not even a little bit#I go through a day of class and relish in the thought of spending the rest of my day resting because the agony in my legs#and the unbearable tiredness I feel just beckons me to collapse into bed#but everyone else is just so . energized. and ready to explore. and wanting to run all over the place and do 1 million things all the time#and this is normal? this is how normal people are? Because I'm the only one out of my entire class who seems to be the opposite#everyone just has so much energy. and I Do Not have that energy. I had to stand for most of the past three hours and it's taken me out#for the day i'll be honest. but everyone else just seems so undaunted#and it sucks because i'd love to hang out with these people and join them and whatever but when I do force myself along i'm just so tired#and so pained that all my responses are either dry or i don't say anything at all. i'm just completely out of spoons but I hang on because#i Hate the feeling of being left behind#oh well. eye-opening experience I guess#vent#<- it became that so yeah I'm tagging it#clamtalk#and also? my bee sting? IT ITCHES. Who was going to tell me it'd do that. What the Fuck Man
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Every once in a billion years I suddenly get very lucky and pick up one band merch delivery on one day, and then get another band merch delivery from another band on the very next day
#let's fucking gooooooo#once i'm less preoccupied with this art challenge#(((((that is starting to make less and less sense to keep going with day by day#but i guess i'm going to continue with it anyway more out of stubbornness than anything else#and it would be lame to stop now when i alredy have most of the ideas ready in some form#and the means to finish all this stuff as long as i stop being annoying about it and overthinking everything#and because i can only feel semi-normal when i don't feel like i'm wasting my life away and i'm instead making any sort of thing#since literally nothing else is helping me feel not awful at this point#it'll be fine as long as i don't think about it and instead devote as much time as possible to another thing. anyway !!!!!!!!!)))))#i'm going to have so much fun with the self-titled tmbg album puzzle#literally perfect album cover picture for a puzzle i'm so glad this got made#and i loooove the propaganda t-shirt!! :3#i'm already assembling my london trip wardrobe and it's going to be most of the t-shirts being band t-shirts at this rate#maybe i should really turn that 'born to die' drawing into a t-shirt too. perfect time to do that#goosepost
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feeling despair i don’t know how to put into words. im trying to figure out why im like this and how i got to be this way but i can’t even do it bc of the way i am and what im like. if that makes sense. like the problem prevents me from fixing the problem bc i can’t get to the root of it. despair despair despair
#purrs#delete later#basically i can’t internalize anything about myself. i can’t internalize that i am talented smart strong whatever and i can’t internalize#evidence that i matter and belong and am loved. i take in this evidence constsntly and it just evaporates. and then it’s like i have none of#it at all and im starving and shaking and dying and howling like a wretched little animal. and i live in this constant defaulstate of like..#feeling worthless and alone and utterly empty and like everything in my life is a dream or something. and in feeling that way and being#quite literally incapable of having emotional object permanence.. i actually make that situation real for myself. i make myself alone and#wretched. i isolate myself and shut down and don’t let myself take up the space i can. and it’s just awful. it’s unfixabke.#i just suck it all dry. i deny myself to myself and to everyone else. and idk what made me like this bc i don’t think i always used to be#this way w depression and depersonalization or whatever the fuck dsm 6 type shit i have going on. but i can’t internalize anything about#myself and my life and have no desire / willpower to look back beyond a certain point and really analyze and probe to figure out what#happened to me to make me like this so i can heal the core wound. soim just constantly in wretched tortured panicking creature mode. awesome#this cry for help brought to you by: my sister guilt tripping me into doing her laundry + my brother showing me his beautiful music +#realizing that unlike redacted i have not documented every part of my life and have no access to early childhood artifacts that would reveal#anything about me and that it does n’t even matter / isn’t special anyway. i love being normal 😎🫶🏻‼️#at least i haven’t been dissociating as badly about work stuff lately but. that’s definitely still a thing too so. what if my whole life is#just the wrong timeline i wasn’t supposed to be in and nothing is actually real. lawl 😳#this is a really awesome time for my therapist to be going on a monthlong honeymoon btw 😍 she deserves it so much but omg im dying already
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Mom was recounting when she traveled with me to one of my grad school interviews bc she couldn't remember which state it was in.
'You don't remember? We flew there together, we got a rental car, when you went in for the interview you dropped me off at a nearby shopping plaza, we stayed at a hotel after etc'
Me: ...
#mytext#HOW COULD I SIMPLY FORGET????? WTF#i only vaguely remember having to share the bed w my mom bc i hate sharing space#and i sort of recall driving down a long flat freeway. BUT NOTHING ELSE. WHAT THEFUCK#i dont remember what school it was or what the campus looked like or who interviewed me or ANYTHING about the interview process#TO BE FAIR. i was undergoing some of the worst clinical depression in my life at the time. BUT STILL#an entire plane trip hotel stay rental car and interview process and i dont recall ANY of it????? bro wtf#honestly i forget so many things that it scares me sometimes#i feel like i should journal more or smth bc huge chunks of time and experiences just vanish from my head like this#i take a lot of pics but maybe i should take more...
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i hate one particular post on ogata that i won't quote
#he's not a psychopath#he's just so fucking lost in the sauce that the moment he connects all the dots on yuusaku he connects the bullet with his brain#i've never felt intense guilt and/or regret in my life and as far as i can think i'm going to kill myself if i will#of course he didn't understand he felt guilt because it's not like that kind of thing is on the surface when you never think about it#tldr ogata's so literally me (both autistic and severely emotionally underdeveloped) it hurts to read any other opinion#btw u reflect basically because you have nothing else 2do and ogata is either busy or guilt tripping through heavy hallucinations#nerd emoji anyways
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YOU GUYS
IM GOING ABSOLUTELY FERAL AB THIS PIKMIN AU I FOUND
ITS LITERALLY ONE OF THE BEST FICS IVE EVER READ LIKE TOU DONT UNDERSTAND IM SCREAMINF. RYING THROWINF UP SHAKING THROWINF MY PHONE OUT THE WINDOW AAJSJXJSJSHFHDHHWJF ITS SO GOOD I CRIED I LAUGHED I FELT GENUINE EMOTION OVER A RANDOM AU I FOUND AT LIKE ONE AM
ITS LIKE 90 SOMETHING THOUSAND WORDS I SIMPLY *aADORE*
ITS A LITERAL MASTERPIECE OMFG
#so yeah I like this a normal amount#pikmin#fanfiction#fanfic#I love you so much grubdog on ao3#anyways I’m going to go reread it bc I literally have nothing else happening in my life#and k still have 2 and a half hours left in this endless car trip
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me: *constantly daydreams about moving out of my hometown and restarting my entire life somewhere that I actually want to live*
#Words#Personal#Yeah I can finally admit that post grad depression is here lol#Don't get me wrong I don't miss school at all#Like fuck my entire schooling I wish I had done something else#But now that it's over I can quite literally feel myself wanting to develop myself and have new experiences#The main one being moving out of state#I try to go out and hang out with people and go on walks and all of that#And it feels nice momentarily but then the boredom and monotony sets in again#I literally have nothing keeping me here anymore now that schools over#Sadly the places I want to live are expensive#So idk maybe once I get my passport I'll just book a trip somewhere because I really do feel myself going insane#Post grad problems#Post grad depression#Post grad life
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See like the only reason I think the others seriously believed Curly may have crashed the ship is cause he basically had a 30 Rock "I lie to myself" momentary breakdown in front of them after one too many mocktails and like completely forgot about it.
#gee cap how do you handle all the responsibilty and stress of running such a fragile ship and crew? and Curly is gripping their shoulder#hard as hell cause hes not but he lies to himself and pushes it deep down until its buried.#him and daisuke are hanging on by a thread cause no way Daisuke isnt thinking in the back of his mind#“like omg why are you all so negative all the freakin time” and Curly is just listening to Daisuke breaking another pipe Swansea being rude#Jimmy being Jimmy and worrying about Anya like yeah i need more pre crash Jimmy being like what if I ended it just once or like tweaking ou#in his room in private like shutting the door screaming and then being like I will take responsibility for my crew *eye twitch*#also personal thought is he was also depressed and suicidal but in the way he really doesnt care what happens to him as long as everyone#else was fine like he wanted more in his life but he was also willing to let it pass him by as he laments how he felt he wasnt living for#anything and how it was affecting him before Jimmy shut him down#curly mouthwashing#mouthwashing curly#captain curly#like pls i need to see more jaded curly like only Daisuke is truly hopeful and its literally because he would've lost nothing at the end of#the trip and hes like a college second semester freshman or whatever#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing spoilers
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Imagine the reaction when shen yuan manages to drag his ass back to binghe though. Like I'm thinking it was a 'I am a demon so I must throw myself into the abyss else binghe will kill me' situation but this is Shen Yuan we're talking about and dude probably gets Mobei-jun to teleport him back to the peaks just so he can watch binghe from a distance.
So like imagine being a disciple and seeing what you're 90% sure is the ghost of your ex head disciple just hiding behind a tree and watching your shizun. Suddenly your shizun's habit of talking to air and seeing Shen Yuan where he shouldn't be takes on a much more concerning vibe.
Meanwhile Binghe can 100% sense Shen Yuan and is having one long mental breakdown over if he should go now or if he should figure out why he jumped first before he makes contact again. He's considering getting an apron that says "I miss my demon wife" but Meng Mo (who is a hall master in this because it isn't binghe without a grumpy old man judging him at all times) told him that that was coming on way too strong and also raised way too many questions if anyone other than shen yuan saw it.
Shen Yuan keeps 'stumbling' across abandoned picnic baskets full of Binghe's delicious cooking and he's very apologetic but he can't help but steal them each time. (Binghe constantly has at least one of them prepared in case he senses Shen Yuan anywhere)
Mobei-jun is torn between wanting to murder his new weird awkward boss and being happy about the fact that with Shen Yuan's advice he seems to actually be making headway on the seducing shang qinghua front. (He has no idea why bringing his advisor rare trinkets and food from far off tribes works better than demonstrating his strength but a win is a win; shang qinghua is a bit weird anyway, he knew what he signed up for)
on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.
Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.
Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.
Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.
There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.
#they eventually talk it out#binghe accidentally gets lost in memories and shen yuan trips into his field of vision#shen yuan is all like bracing to get his brain smeared against the forest floor#meanwhile binghe is in full panic mode because he hasn't even done his hair up right#LIKE IS HE REALLY GREETING HIS BELOVED LIKE THIS???#binghe just defaults to throwing food at shen yuan (gently as if shen yuan was a cornered animal) and saying he's welcome here anytime#shen yuan has a factory reset while binghe is just lying face first on the bamboo house floor debating all of his life choices#one day binghe just fully shows up with shen yuan in tow#they explain nothing to anyone else#he's just alive again#svsss#svsss mxtx
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I want all people outside of the us to know I think being able to take any kind of vacation is a wild luxury- let alone being able to go outside of the country
#da#sorry I just cannot help getting disgustingly envious of anyone mentioning they've ever been on a vacation#even people I know who are in as dire straits as me#like someone offhandedly mentioned they were once in haiwai'i and then someone else I spoke to was Literally In Paris#and uhhh I kinda can't stand it lmaoo :)))#I've been on one actual multiday vacation in my life and I was like 10 and it was Wisconsin#I've gone on a handful of like 3 day trips but I'm never more than 3 hours from home#and I'm almost always the one driving and it's a lot of money even when it's just a casual nothing of an outing#I hate living here so much. I want it to be better. I want to excess money and time to just be able to screw off somewhere for a few days#being disabled and autistic literally feels like a curse and death knell#like I know it's not I know it's a construction of society#but that societal messaging has successfully convinced me I'm fundamentally broken and undeserving of nice things#or even just getting by. ffs.#I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I need another job. I'm so tired.#everything feels impossible
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#the answer in life more and more obviously becomes to shut things off more and more#i need to present only my best and most useful side and keep everything else under wraps#this is the truth and it's something i really need to commit to#and it starts with not posting dumb shit on here that says too much#even this frankly says too much#...i look forward to a day when my will out strips my fear and i can finally do the right thing#and... and i think sharing last time was a mistake#i think i need to queue a post to explain I'm gone so people can know#but in the moment i need to say nothing so people won't worry#not today; probably not this month; maybe not this year#at some point though i need to be gone; and people will realize how much happier they are#how much I've been dragging everyone down with my gloom#nah... in the past I've tended to share when i was actually serious about being close to going through with it#but that's clearly a mistake; being like that on my trip only made people upset#... and maybe i could have found the nerve to go through with it if I'd said nothing#so i think that would be another better policy change too#mask needs to stay on at all times now and forever#i need to improve my situation enough to maximize income to help friends#i need to take out a life insurance policy once I'm making a decent amount#and then two years later i need to step out for good#and i need to show nothing from now on#this post is even too much; but I'm weak#in a way this is goodbye; hopefully soon you won't be dealing with me; only my best face#mm tag so i can find things later
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we've had three snowstorms in the past week so we're essentially snowed in rn and i'm starting to lose my mind abt it a little
#doesnt help that i havent been able to get out in a while to begin with bc ive been busy w school#or that bc of the way schedules have worked out i havent been home alone for over a week now (which helps me relax)#and it def doesnt help that valentines was last week bc that always fucks w my mental health ngl#i know i need to get out of the house Soon but like. idk when ill be able to#levi.txt#theres also the issue of driving. the snow is piled up way above the cars so its really hard to see around turns#which makes my parents nervous so they dont want to let me drive#which means i have to either ask my friends for rides (anxiety inducing) or ask my parents to go w them (doesnt help my anxiety at all)#the whole POINT is being mostly alone when i do these things and being able to do it /on my own time/. my parents dont allow that#if i go out w my mom she wants to go do the thing were 'there for' (there Has to be a purpose for the trip) and IMMEDIATELY leave#if i go w dad hes better for it but hell get tired and make jokes abt not wanting to be there the whole time#im supposed to be getting out once a week to learn to cope w my anxiety and im lucky if i make it once a month anymore#i want to go to the mall i want to go to the thrift store i want to go to the bookstore and the craft store and just fucking Go Out#not even to buy anything just to see smth different idk#just like. SOMETHING other than home -> school -> home again where nothing ever changes#and my parents suggestion to fix this is 'why dont you go for a walk'#theres One trail nearby. weve lived here my entire life. it never fucking changes. im bored out of my fucking mind#what is there even to see? more snow? the exact same trees there are anywhere else? crows and gulls MAYBE?#also im just not a big outside person esp when its cold. sue me
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Bakugo makes you laugh, A LOT and it drives him insane.
“It was not that damn funny.”
You try to conceal the snickers from your mouth, but fail horribly. All he did was mutter something about Mineta being a punk ass and it had you giggly.
At first he used to take offense by it, maybe you were laughing AT him and not what he says, almost like mocking him, that wasn’t until Deku quickly explained in passing that you laugh very easily.
But you don’t laugh this damn much with anybody else but him. At this point he thought you had a similar quirk to Ms. Joke, and he nicknamed you Giggles.
You both were studying in the library like you both usually do during exam week, and Bakugo noticed you haven’t been Miss. Cackle the past few days. Not even a smile actually and you’d think it would have been some relief for him from hearing your laugh obxonious laugh, but he’s actually more annoyed.
He looks up from his book and glances at you across the table, you’re typing away, with a less that neutral look on your face. Lips somehow forming a pout and eyes looking droopy. He scoffs going back to his work, but it was an itch he needed to scratch with you..?
“Who pissed in your breakfast.”
“What?”
“You been looking like a sad lost puppy all week what the hell is your problem.”
The corner of your lips cracked upwards a bit, almost as if you were fighting to smile, but instead you shrug, “‘Nothing you needa worry about. Why.”
It was almost concerning how calm you sounded. Your voice was more tame that you didn’t even sound recognizable which make Bakugo crease his brows, “You suck at lying. Is it, because of that shitty boyfriend you have pissed you off.”
He was referring to Shindo, he wasn’t your boyfriend, but he was a guy you got close with after meeting him a few years ago, but Bakugo was half right he was part of the problem.
You had a small crush on Shindo , but overheard him tell his classmates how he isn’t into you like that mainly because you’re not his type and how much he can’t stand how loud you talk/laugh sometimes.
It hurt hearing it, when he found out you heard he tried apologizing but you didn’t wanna hear it, so since then you’ve turn self conscious about speaking and laughing too loudly for the past week to avoid anymore issues that you have caused with people.
After slowly explaining to the Blonde he rolled his eyes, “You’re ganna let the walking vibrator dictate your life too? So stupid.”
“You hate my laugh too. What does it matter.”
Bakugo stayed silent for a moment while you went back to work. Thinking how could he word what he wants to say without sounding like an idiot, “I never said that, besides you never stopped even when I did tell you your laugh was annoying. If you want to cackle like a hyena who gives a fuck—“
You break into a snicker but end up covering it with your hand. He cracks a proud smirk, he almost forgot what you looked like with a smile, “I don’t wanna be loud. Just can’t help it.”
“We know.”
You giggle at his deadpanned voice, it really wasn’t your fault, you’re just so easy to please and Bakugo knows that, “Giggly ass, and I seen you almost laugh when Denki tripped at the lecture today.”
“Becauuseee he is always so dramatic when he falls.” You whined into a chuckle, sharing a small one with him.
It was a start of many more shared laughs after studying, Katsuki even tried to be just a LITTLE bit more funnier than usual when walking back to the dorms. When you finally cracked a real loud one out he felt himself grinning at you.
“Katsuki Alexander Bakugo are you smiling?”
“Don’t you EVER say my full name like that again got dammit I will blow you the hell UP!”
You almost fall to your knees of how funny his reaction was to you, it felt so good to smile again. You missed it, and so did everybody else the next day apparently.
Mina and some others thought you were depressed, Deku assumed you were sick, Denki outwardly blamed Bakugo which got him smacked, and IIda actually missed your loud noises as well.
Your classmates enjoyed your presence more than you thought they did.
But Bakugo missed it the most.
Your laughs drives him insane, because he loves to hear them.
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