#and no im not gonna go to the gynecologist or get an ultrasound or whatever the fuck bc i know theyre just gonna say 'oh yeah we arent gonna

[swagging-back-to]

haha hey remember how i was on my period not even 4 days ago, an entire week long, and i how i had barely 3 days before the next cycle of bleeding started? haha yeah me too!

[domesticateddog]

the IUD wasn’t fully sticking out of my cervix when she checked but she said it is basically making it’s way out and since it’s still technically inside of me i can either wait and see what happens since it’s still working or remove it. my uterus is tilted so it makes it much more complicated but i basically asked for her to try to keep it in so she dilated my CERVIX and tried to push it back in as far as she could. she said she won’t replace a $1000 device if my body is just gonna reject it again and if i were to get another inserted later down the line (if this one fails again) that i should see an actual gynecologist and have it put in either through ultrasound or under anesthesia. BUT my insurance is catholic (NO BIRTH CONTROL AT ALL hence why im going to a fuckin free clinic) so i’d have to wait until my insurance is up in december when i turn 26, go on medicaid and go to cleveland clinic or whatever and do it that way. so yeah. there’s more to it but that’s the gist for my nosy beloved mutuals lol

she crossed her fingers and hoped for the best for me and that’s all i can ask right now. she said bc my uterus is tilted that it may not have been inserted all the way properly, as in it never touched the top of my uterus, and my period cramps contracted it out a little. she said she’s surprised im not in severe pain/discomfort already bc it’s somewhat pushing against the wall of my cervix (not sticking out like i thought) but i have such a high pain tolerance for this shit that it’s nothing honestly. i don’t even notice it tbh. but im just so frustrated and overwhelmed with everything i started bawling in the office lol she felt so bad for me and she was so kind and helpful, but it’s my body acting up so she can’t do anything about it. she tried her best to push it back up so that’s all i can hope for right now. just keep an eye on it and hope it stays for a while.