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girlscience · 1 year ago

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Two days with family and I feel so weirdly infantilized. I pay for nothing, I never drive, I make no decisions, I can't curse, and I can't listen to 90% of my music. It is literally like I am 14 again. I don't like it.

#I don't always feel like a grown adult at home but right now???? absolutely not #I don't like it. I am used to paying for dinner or gas or accommodations when I do things anymore #everything I do with friends we split prices on things #but except for a mug and some ice cream today I haven't paid for a single thing this trip and my parents won't let me #I am used to driving myself places now. I literally drive every single day at home. With friends everybody drives at some point #with my parents??? nope. I'm in the back 99% of the time #I make decisions about when/where/what I do every day. but with my parents? nope. they might ask for suggestions #but I can't say 'I am doing such and such thing at such and such time'#at home I talk however I want and say whatever I want and talk about anything I want to #here I have to edit every single sentance that comes out of my mouth. I cannot talk about any of my interests #I can't talk about my friends the right way or their real lives the majority of the time #and music.... well. if my mom even saw my spotify liked playlist she'd have a heart attack so.#I actually hate it. I don't feel like myself.#on top of that mom won't stop using baby voice and everyone gets irritated at the drop of a hat over nothing #and then two minutes later they are over it....#it's only been two days. Two Days. and I want to escape

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