#and mine literally just says 'YOU LOOK BOOTYLICIOUS TODAY'. im sorry what?

[colin-becher-death-countdown]

Is Colin Becher Still Alive:

Yes.

Colin Becher Has Survived:

81 days.

[khaleesiofalicante]

boopity boop let's goooo

im so tired why am I so tired

when you love someone is such a good song and sooo them

oh, sexual content? nice let's go

im not putting that song on I dont have earphones and I need to be safe-

what the fuck is nanotechnology

I think to google just complicated it

so proud of him for the scholarship 🥺

“I just finished my paper on scanning probe microscopy,” Magnus informs him. “Can I get a ‘hell yeah’?”

HELL YEAH!!

no clue what this shit is but you goo

oh no sad backstory?

pokes him why did you move here??

ooo fashion design

BABE THE MODEL IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU

please dont kill me for calling you babe

“I’m hot,” Magnus notes.

So true omg

this is totally not a one-time thing

ah yes the lightwoods

Stay out of trouble, Ragnor had told him before Magnus had left Cambridge, and stay out of the spotlight.

kinda hard to do when you're dating the senator's son

HE'S NOT BREAKING UP WITH YOU

alright let's talk

babe you're confusing me where are we going with this

yes? and?

They're so gestures

yes that explains it

I just said something which should not be repeated on here

love the communication here

bootylicious is a real word????????????????

"love" EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

That's literally the sound that escaped me

oh, we're doing this right now? okay then

"seven and a half heartbeats" I-

BESTIE COUNTED-

Alec makes a face at the word ‘vagina’. Magnus laughs at that.

WHY DID THIS MAKE ME LAUGH SO MUCH

why the fuck are you saying random words now-

Dani did you read the ingredients list on lube for this?`

“No,” Alec shakes his head. “Look. I know you buy supplies because you live on campus. But this is different. I’m not going to ask you to have sex with me and then ask you to go buy condoms while I wait here. That’s just shitty.”

It is. Magnus wonders why some people before Alec didn’t realize that.

He wonders why he didn’t realize that.

I know this is the bare minimum but god I love this man so much

“I like the way it tastes,” SIR WE ARE IN A PUBLIC SPACE-

he just...grabbed them all 😭

“I don’t know this man,” Alec deadpans.

Me at my friends

we had an extra-long break today and Lyn and I were in the sports ground playing badminton while my original friend group were going...borderline crazy in the background

so yeah I get it alec

DON'T SMOKE

“It’s my mouth and my lungs.”

“Your mouth is temporarily mine,” Magnus says and Alec laughs.

“What about my lungs?”

“I’ll let you know if I ever get into organ trafficking.”

“You’re going to sell the lungs of a smoker? God, you are a shit trafficker.”

I love these idiots so much

also

STOP SMOKING

ALEC-

I see we are still a fan of ripping clothes-

“I’m not taking the subway shirtless,” Magnus says breathlessly.

“You can take one of my sweaters you are pretending not to steal,” Alec hisses against his ear.

I mean you could-

ok but Magnus kind of freaking out every time alec pulls away or smth like that just makes me more curious about his backstory

like I KNOW SOME SHIT HAPPENED

I have this weird look on my face where im smiling and so close to crying

THEM!!!

“Do you have any idea,” Alec whispers, cupping his face. “How beautiful you are?”

“I have an inkling,

he truly is

They haven’t even started, and Magnus already knows.

He knows there will not be another time like this, not with anyone.

dude

why you gotta hit me where it hurts?

lets out more profanities than a drunk sailor.

so me at any given moment?

xoxo by somi is playing and like I wanna search up the lyrics but too lazy

my friends love somi

"baby"

TEARS

GONNA GO CRY NOW

oh no the middle

YOU DONT WANNA GO TO THE MET GALA???

“Oh, is that so? I can’t wait to see the headlines. Magnus Bane Gives Up on the Met Gala Three Months After Giving Up on His Marriage.”

I am so sorry for laughing

also, I thought this was the middle????????????

oh right we're still gonna get divorced moments

no clue what the fuck is an uncontested divorce

are there many different kinds?

ohhh right cool

hehhehe max knows how to use a gun

and he's good at it

SELENA AND LEXI BIRTHDAY

Magnus do you need a hug?

FALLEN ANGEL YEEEEEEEEEEEE

ew Rafael you're going to Disneyland why do you have a textbook with you?

THE TEXTS LMAO

THIS IS INSANE

that's so cool omg private plane

the tension fuck

it isn't the good kind either 😭

OH WHO ARE THESE PEOPLE

NICE HI HELLO HRU

my boy got game

alec why are you acting like that about this 🤨

this seems so unlike him

Magnus is very right

ALEC

MAX WILL NOT COME TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT THIS SHIT

oh my god snooping is not okay

idfc it's your house

I had this talk with my desi parents and they understood I GOT DESI PARENTS TO UNDERSTAND THIS

COME ON DUDE

all the questions Magnus raised are very valid ones

alec please this gestures you have to talk to him

Alec hates talking to kids about sex. Magnus remembers when they had the talk with Rafael when the boy had been 15. Alec had literally pretended to get a phone call and left the room when Magnus had explained to Rafael about the clitoris.

I...I guess I kind of get that...

but knowing about safe sex and having the right resources is so so important

he's 17. teenagers do crazy stupid shit sometimes

“He doesn’t like talking to you,” Alec corrects. “Don’t generalize it.”

alec-

sigh

yes Magnus talk to him

dude if he doesn't wanna date anyone then that's that

ok Magnus has a HUGE problem with guns and shooting references

this is some depressing stuff

oh crap Magnus guessed about David

Magnus stands still for a minute and tries to figure out where to go or what to do. He has never felt safe in this house. He has never had a safe place in the mansion, other than Alec’s arms.

He can't go there now, can he?

oh wow pain just hit me in the face

Rafael holding his hand 🥺

im sorry but the "dearest" gave me flashbacks

not dearest 😭

oh

oh this hurts

The thing about taking time for yourself is that it eventually has to come to an end. And going back to normal life and making up to the people you had abandoned usually comes with an apology tour.

Magnus doesn't get it.

What is the point in taking time for yourself if you are going to feel bad about it and apologize for it?

Isn't the whole point of taking time for yourself is to feel better?

oh this

fuck apologizing

be a bitch

dude David and Max not talking

I wanna see max's pov

“There is no reason for you to sneak your way back into the group, Magnus,” the other man says. “For us, you never left.”

Oh

oh pain wow ok

OMG GIANT CAKE WITH DUCK

omg jace organized this

EMMA

CAPTAIN??? CARSTAIRS???

MIGHT CRY

“Lexi, right?” Emma grins. “Your father used to torture our whole unit by showing us a thousand pictures of you and your siblings.”

AHAHHKJSDUHKDFJFVHUJKHDGFJHGF

PRECIOUS

LEXI STAPH BEING SO GAY

dont actually

“Sexy,” the girl says and then blinks. “Uh. I mean. Lexi. My name is Lexi.”

I CAN'T-

ALEC BEING LEXI'S GAY YODA

I CAN'T WITH THIS DUO

THEY'RE SO PRECIOUS

RAPUNZEL AYYY SELENA

I see it

blonde wig!!!

BLUE BODYPAINT

SO MANY REFERENCES

oh fuck so hot

ASHGDSCHDFUH MAGNUS CALM THYSELF

alec does look very hot though

im very much thirsting

OMG IS THIS LITTLE KID CALLED MALLORY???????????

max is obviously in love with David

omg rose

im gonna cry

max deserves a hug

KARAOKE AYYYY

Alec why are you trying to remove the eyeliner-

I have a guess-

but anyway

SJHDCUIHDFVUIHFIJDVDF MAGNUS IS GONNA HELP HIM

Alec is quiet for a while. Then he speaks. “The sheets don’t smell like sandalwood anymore.”

the pain

it's fine im fine

HE-

HE SLEEPS WITH THE BABY WRAP

“Because I fucking miss you too!” Alec hisses at him. “I fucking miss you, Magnus.”

I miss you too, Magnus wants to say.

dude

oh fuck

bro

I could cry

Alec loves so much that it makes you feel so overwhelmed sometimes. As if you don’t know what to do with all the love he gives you.

So, he keeps staring. Magnus keeps looking at Alec, wondering for the hundredth time, why he wasn’t lucky enough to have this forever.

SO CLOSE TO TEARS

GET BACK TOGETHER

BITCH DO IT

“Nothing,” Magnus says sadly. “I just really want to kiss you.”

HONEY NO-

oh great they are kissing now

OH, THEY ARE GONNA HAVE SEX IN A PUBLIC BATHROOM AT DISNEY???

NOT DISNEY

Magnus.

Not baby.

Because they can’t go back to that. Not anymore.

So, Magnus offers the same courtesy.

He doesn’t say Alexander.

Just Alec.

oh you did not just do that

my heart just broke further

LEXIIIIIIIII

MAX FUCK

OH FUCK

DUDE IM IN TEARS

FUCK THIS SHIT

SO MUCH PAIN

ok the end now

dude that's so cool

so proud of him

He fucking hates that their phone calls now start like this.

Because they don’t call each other regularly or for no reason – only out of urgency and necessity.

im done I can't do this anymore

MONOPOLY YAY

“You’ll do what your father says,” Magnus yells back.

“I shan’t!”

“Listen to me, you little monkey-”

I missed this

them

OMG ALEC TELLING THE KIDS ABOUT HIS TICKLISH SPOT

I AM NOT OKAY

THIS CHAOS

“The last time I did that; I came home to my Ottoman on fire and the chairman wrapped in toilet paper like a mummy!”

oh well-

EW SHINYUN

EW HE'S GOING ON A DATE WITH HER

EW EW EW

If Magnus doesn’t stop asking if it’s okay before breaking his heart every fucking time, Alec is going to fucking kill him.

hurts so much

MAX AND ALEC'S DUO AYY

the coping methods go from "makes sense" to "well okay then"

ALEC AND MAX ARE ANTI-SHINYUN AND IM SO HERE FOR IT

“Well, if it’s so distressing, maybe he shouldn’t go,” Max points out. “Maybe Shinyun won’t show up anyway.”

“Maybe she will get hit by a bus,” Alec hums thoughtfully.

“You two are assholes,” Rafael huffs and walks away.

“Do you want to spit in his coffee or should I?” Max asks.

god I really hope she gets hit by a bus

OH NO HE LOOKS TOO GOOD

NOO

I mean very sexy but like NOO

ew shinyun

“You shouldn’t be dating people who don’t make you a priority,” Max sniffs.

Alec does not grin at that.

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

they are so salty omg

Alec sincerely hopes tonight goes fucking awfully for Magnus and Shinyun, so they both realize it's never going to work out and decide never to do this shit again.

dude same

ohh them together...

OMG THEY'RE DOING ACCENTS

omg they're so amazing

MAX IS BEATING THEM ALL AT THIS

AMAZING

MAX SMART BABY

max...

so he's practically given up

“Exactly! I like it!” Max groans. “Why can’t I just like something and leave it at that? Why do I have to do something with it? Why do I have to prove to people that I am good? I know I am good. That’s enough for me!”

THIS

If max doesn't want to pursue swimming professionally or some shit then well it is what it is

aww, they are talking ❤️

MAX YES YOU DO YOU, BABE

“I thought you wanted to own all the house there?” Magnus asks.

“I don’t mind sharing it with you,” Max shrugs.

God, these soft fuckers.

THEM

SOFT BITCHES

“It’s Mina,” Max says awkwardly. “I might have texted her saying I was going to commit murder.”

“She is probably calling you to help you bury the body,” Magnus grins. “Give her my love.”

true friendship right there

omg shared memories

“We are laughing about how ugly you are,” Rafael replies.

“Oh nice,” Max says. “I thought y’all were laughing about how dumb you are.”

precious

NO FUCK OH

I ACTUALLY SCREAMED OUT LOUD

STOP

NO NOT BABY

IT'S FINE IT'S COOL

IT'S ALL COOL

PLEASE KILL ME

ooo internship for max

LMAO HE'S THIRSTING OVER JUSTIN TRUDEAU

“Bapak, have you seen that man’s ass?” Max asks incredulously.

“You will be saying none of this to the Prime Minister’s face!” Alec warns.

“Or tweet any of it!” Magnus adds quickly.

MAX I CANT-

ew shinyun

ew ew ew

I gave up on jtv after 3 seasons

I could not watch her embarrass herself anymore

THEY ARE HUGGING

if the person who steps out of the elevator is shinyun I will kill myself and then someone else

dude this whole hug is breaking me

im so sad

this hug

This. This! Whatever this is.

What they have. What they built together.

And what they will never lose, no matter what a piece of paper says about their marriage.

They cannot lose this.

They will not lose the way Alec’s breath, just his fucking breath, makes Magnus shiver.

They will not the way Magnus’ gaze, just a single stare, and bring Alec to the brink.

They can’t possibly ever lose this.

STOP FUCKING WITH ME

this hug was the most precious thing ever

im gonna cry

it's like 8pm I just got done with this. I am so tired. Gonna go and write now byee

You know, sometimes I forget what I write in each chapter right after I write it. It's the same for me with exams and other stuff. My memory is very selective.

So, every time I read these live blogs, I am like, oh I wrote that! Nice!

Thank you. ILY BYE.