#and lae'zel even invokes vlaakith and asks her to basically kill her for the transgression-

[darkjusticiar]

i tried activating the solar lance since i'd never done it before and hearing how devastated lae'zel is... a few of the companions can get flippant, kind of a "well what are you gonna do?", but lae'zel truly mourns the loss of the creche. It's such a loss for her- losing her faith in Vlaakith, losing her faith in finding a cure, losing one of the only places she could tether herself to. All of the first act she urges us to find this creche, says we'll be safe and cured and even if we're objectively a weak, ragtag group of people she's willing to risk her life to save us. Her relationship to other Githyanki, even if they've never met before, is extremely important to her. She's willing to share that with you. And how does that compassion get repaid... the creche is a crater in the ground. For some stupid relic. Because of our own greed. At least when you kill the creche to fight your way out they have a chance to defend themselves, and they WANT you dead because it's Vlaakith's word against your own. There's something honorable in that, maybe, I don't know. It's just so wrenching to think that this group of people came into this creche and decimated it in the search for a cure and Lae'zel's entire world has just been ripped out from under her. Her loyalty to the others has condemned her.