#and its always stuff like that but i feek like an ass if im always tellinf her everything she does wrong (obviously i dont do that but itd

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Yknow as much as an ass my sister can be she can be really nice most of the time. Because im dealing with artblock rn im trying to draw everyday or bring myself to do something? So when I went to the park with her i brought along my book and watercolors just to see if there was anything there id like to try and paint. There was this huuuuge pretty tree that was just?? It had?? I can only think of a color to describe how i feel not a word but ill just say the tree made me feek warm on the inside because it was big! Like those trees in fairytales. Yes so i TRIED my hand at that huge fucking tree and it was going welll at first but then i fucked up and idk? Yknow that feelinf where you get mad and its like your heart falls all the way to your stomach and it kinda burns? Yea thats what i felt. So i stopped and put my book aside and just sat there. And my sister heard what i was saying and said "Its not that bad, you have plenty of other paintings in here that look f-ing great." Then she asked whyd i stopped and i told her I got the,,,, i was sad because i got the color wrong and some other stuff. Then i started crying and she started looking through my book showing me all my things and praising me for them? But i was still crying cos i was embarrassed that she was looking at them cos i thought they were ugly? Then she proceeded to take pictures of them and put them on there to show me that my art is better than i think it is? Basically she posted on social media and asked other people what they thought. Andthey were all so nice it kinda cheered me up. Then she lectured me about how being a perfectionist isnt always good and she realized that when she started doing nails. She told me not to beat myself up and then she kept praising me and then i felt bettrraaaaa. But she may make me angry sometimes but shes a good person too