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layzeal · 2 years

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hhhh something about how two of the greatest losses in lwj’s life happened away from him.

both for madam lan and wei wuxian, he wasn’t there to see it, he wasn’t there to hear their last words, to ensure they would move on in peace. they were dead and gone and lan wangji would have been none the wiser if a third party hadn’t told him of it

#TAG ESSAY INCOMING BE PREPARED #it makes so much sense for him to view love as this thing that can one day just disappear #with no warning or word of goodbye #he was six years old and everything was normal. they were meant to visit madam lan like they always did.#but on their way they are stopped. all lan qiren is able to say is ‘’your mother is gone’’. they receive nothing else #(psps check out the AD for that one. trust me)#lwj responded by going back to that house and kneeling on the porch waiting for a door that never opened.#even after he understood she was dead he would still come back #because that's how he loves. stubbornly #then it happens again #three months after nightless city. lwj is recovering with a flayed back due to his punishment #the punishment he received for injuring 33 of his elders while trying to protect wwx’s life #the punishment that didn’t save anyone because now he’s learned that wwx is dead #so he drags himself to the burial mounds because he can’t just kneel on the porch again #he has to open that door himself he has to see with his own eyes that the house is now empty #and it was. he searched for day and there was nothing #‘’Not even a piece of bone a scrap of flesh a single strand of a weak dissipating soul.’’#but he found a-yuan. so maybe the punishment wasn't for nothing. it couldn't save wei wuxian. it couldnt save the wens. but it saved a-yuan #and it's with that same stubborness that he demands a-yuan is taken in by the clan #not a guest disciple. not an inner disciple. a clan Member. with an embroidered forehead ribbon and the Lan name #cause that's the only way he can be sure a--yuan will be safe #just. ahhhhhh #idk where i was going with this i'm just thinking about lan wangji again #THIS MAN...............#modao #lace speaks

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