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sillyfreakx5 · 11 days ago

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i think i sometimes get codependent with my hyperfixations. like when im immersed in it it's the best feeling in the world, but when im forced to be away from it without any distractions i start feeling shit, my brain is anxiously buzzing, im practically trembling and i honestly just want to cry

so anyways LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT HOMESTUCK !!!!

#im pretty sure #this is me just using the hyperfixation dopamine and serotonin to cover up my shitty mental health #like playing music loud enough so that you cant hear the screaming #like this never happened before my mental health went to shit #and it's usually not too intense but yk sometimes it gets a little goofy #likee if not for the hyperfixation id probably feel pretty shit in general #the hyperfixation just gives my brain something to FOCUS on #and something to attach my wellbeing to since the pure joy it brings me is greater than the shittiness #and anyhow it felt kinda the same with my ex boyfriend????#except the effects from vc with him were longer lasting #but basically yeah this fees nearly the same as being romantically dependent on someone #so hmm #conceptum arc ??? /hj #but yeahhh this touches on me trying to figure out how to separate romantic attraction from hyperfixating on people #and also this feeling. this is why i yearn for a codependent relationship #ok this is enough yapping im gonna finish now!!!#silly's musings #BASICALLY THIS IS A REALLY INTERESTING COPING MECHANISM #(and honesty it's worth it for the pure hyperfixation joy)

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