#and it's only a day and a half worth of queue haha

[chouhatsumimi]

Ah shoot I didn't figure out where the volumes separated between volume 14~20... we'll get back to this eventually (made it from chapter 34~51 today... still up to chapter...91 and that's just what I've already read ToT) That's okay, this is ongoing... (Noragami vocab lists)

[destiny-islanders]

Hey Destiny! Planning my first trip to WDW any advice :)

(I do hope you’re planning to go after the pandemic has been dealt with first off-- there are shops, restaurants, and certain experiences/shows that will be unavailable if you go around now-ish, and as far as I know they’re still charging full-price admission. So not only is it dangerous, it’s not worth it.)

But if you try and go next year sometime when life has presumably returned to normal...

If you can, stay on property! 

Not a requirement obviously, but WDW has transportation that can get you to and from the parks so you don’t have to deal with the parking lots at the parks themselves. It’s also really nice as an adult to go to EPCOT and drink around the world without having to worry about who’s driving back

It also makes staying for the fireworks much less painful... Like it is excruciating to trudge back to your car after spending all day at the park and having to deal with the insane crowds leaving the park, and traffic in the parking lots...

Staying on property allows you to get Fast Passes and make dining reservations a whole month before other guests can. Which ties into my next point...

GET FASTPASSES AND DINING RESERVATIONS AS EARLY AS POSSIBLE

If you want to go to Magic Kingdom and go on the Mine Train, Space Mountain, and Splash Mountain with FastPass, you need to have them booked sooner rather than later. Find out when you can book FastPasses and get them the second you can.

If you couldn’t get FastPasses for it, get to the park when it opens and make a beeline to your #1 attraction

I live in Florida and I have an annual pass, so it’s not a big deal if I can’t go on my favorite rides because the lines are too long. But if you’re from out of state and this is going to be your only chance to go to Disney for the year or even YEARS, arriving early is a must

Trying to get on Rise of the Resistance (the fancy new Star Wars ride) in Hollywood Studios?

You need to be inside the park before it opens. Period. That is the only way to ensure you can get on this ride since it is insanely popular. Once inside the park, you need to use the MyDisney app to secure your place in a virtual queue. Everyone in your group needs to be registered on the MyDisney app or you will not be able to make a reservation for them. Once you’ve made the reservation, you’re free to roam the park as you will until it’s your turn to ride

Grossed out by crowded public restrooms? Use one in a sit-down restaurant.

Obviously please don’t bring your whole family into a restaurant to use its restroom. I’m talking like if one or two people in your group have to go. Just walk into the restaurant like you already have a table and go to the restroom in there. Though all of the restrooms at WDW are usually well-maintained, imo they’re even nicer in the sit-down restaurants haha. This tip is a little prissy but eh. Thought I’d include it

Disney snacks you are required by law to try

Magic Kingdom

Cheshire Cat Tail (Really yummy for breakfast while you wait in line for one of your first rides of the day)

Dole Whip Ice Cream (IT’S DAIRY FREE-- my fellow lactose-intolerant people can eat it worry-free!!!)

Sweet and Spicy Chicken and Waffle sandwich (Split with friends if you have lunch or dinner plans-- delicious snack to eat between rides or at a show)

GET A BIRTHDAY CAKE SCONE FROM THE CANDY SHOP/BAKERY!!! THEY ARE MY FAVORITE DISNEY TREATS AND I ALWAYS BRING LIKE 2 OR 3 HOME WITH ME

Animal Kingdom

Cinnamon roll (A classic-- and again, a perfect breakfast treat to share while you queue)

Night Blossom (Or its alcoholic equivalent-- really yummy slushies perfect to sip on in the outdoor queues in Avatar world)

Blueberry Cream Cheese Mousse (Need I say more? Yes it’s kind of dangerous if you can’t handle dairy though. Maybe steal a bite from someone’s just to experience life’s fleeting joys)

EPCOT

Adults who booze are obligated imo to get a Grey Goose Lemonade slushie in France. Tangy and sweet. COLD. Delicious.

Tarte aux Fraises (Honestly you can’t go wrong with anything in France... everything I’ve tried there is amazing...)

Giant pretzel (Not exactly a Disney-exclusive thing but... they’re humongous and a great snack to share with a group)

Side note while we’re in Germany-- there’s a little bar tucked into the corner near the back of this area. If you’re drinking around the world, go in there and get Apfel shots. Trust me I have good taste.

If they have them when you’re there... You need to get a meat bun in Japan. They are one of my favorite things to get at Disney Springs or in the parks when they’re available.

Hollywood Studios

(I’m not gonna lie this is not the park to get your snack on. There’s only one snack here I’m super passionate about...)

If you’re there around breakfast time (which you will be if you got there early for Star Wars), the S’mores French Toast in Toy Story Land is DELICIOUS. Just grab napkins. A lot of napkins.

Giant pretzel 

This is not a recommendation, this is a warning: THE MILK IN STAR WARS LAND IS GROSS AND I HATED EVERY SECOND A DROP OF IT WAS IN MY MOUTH

Rides you should try to do while you’re in the park

Magic Kingdom

Space Mountain

Splash Mountain (I wear a poncho because I hate having wet clothes,,,,,)

I think Thunder Mountain is kinda lame but I guess it’s worth doing if the line isn’t terribly long

Dwarf Mine Train

Pirates of the Caribbean

Buzz Lightyear Space Ranger Spin (smacktalk in the queue and try to maintain your dignity when you get 9000 points and all of your friends have nearly broken 1 million)

Haunted Mansion

Mickey’s Phillarmagic

Animal Kingdom

Expedition Everest

It’s Tough To Be a Bug (this show will probably terrify your young children if you have any, just a warning)

Flight of Passage (I GUESS... none of the rides in the Avatar section of the park are worth a 2 hour wait if you ask me...)

Dinosaur (again, this ride will probably terrify your young children... I think it’s scarier than Jurassic Park at Universal if you can believe it)

Kilimanjaro Safari (get a Fast Pass for this one-- it’s probably one of the most popular attractions in AK)

Kali River Rapids (in which I once again don a poncho like a 50-year-old man)

Festival of the Lion King (corny as hell but it’s fun)

EPCOT

(If you’re not here to check out the exhibits in each country idk what you’re doing here haha)

Test Track (honestly the only ride I like there)

Spaceship Earth (yes it’s a slow dark ride but it’s really charming and there’s a bit at the end that will probably make you and your group cry laughing)

Gran Fiesta Tour (It’s hidden in the temple in Mexico. Cute little boat ride with Donald and the Three Caballeros)

Soarin’ (My friends and I have an endurance competition to see who can keep their legs held out straight the longest throughout the ride. We got some of the people sitting around us to join in the last time we rode which was pretty hilarious haha)

I’ve heard the Frozen ride is fun, but I’ve never ridden on it myself, so I can’t really comment on it

Note about Mission Space: I got really sick on this ride, and I rode the TAME version. Most of my friends also get sick on this ride. It’s worth trying once if you’re really curious, but I was knocked on my ass for half of my day at EPCOT after riding this one.)

Hollywood Studios

Rock ‘n’ Roller Coaster (A really fun ride but try to keep your head back or you will have a headache all day... Bring ibuprofen.)

Tower of Terror (Probably one of my favorite Disney rides in any park. Will most likely further terrify your small children who may still be traumatized from the bugs and dinosaurs of Animal Kingdom)

Rise of the Resistance (I don’t care about Star Wars but uh. Yeah. This ride was pretty dope.)

Smuggler’s Run (One of the more immersive rides I’ve been on... The ride vehicle is cool as all get-out and there are lots of buttons you can push and levers to pull... Blame one of your friends for being a bad pilot when you only manage to snag two pieces of cargo)

Toy Story Mania (exhaust yourself and make your arms really sore as you desperately try to exert your dominance over your friends as you pop balloons with darts and throw rings around volcanos before they erupt)

MuppetVision (I’m a Muppets ride or die fan and I still think this ride is charming and funny. There’s usually never a line so it’s a perfect break in the air conditioning with beloved characters)

Minnie and Mickey’s Runaway Railway (I haven’t gotten to ride this yet, but I’ve heard good things-- and the Mickey shorts this ride is based on are HILARIOUS, so I expect good things)

Indiana Jones Epic Stunt Spectacular (DISCLAIMER: Only really fun if someone in your group is selected to be one of the townsfolk. My sister got picked last time and it was hilarious)

Fantasmic! (I like all of the fireworks shows minus the Star Wars one in HS because I really don’t care but. Fantasmic stands out. You have to watch it at least once. Try to catch the first show if you can so you can avoid some of the rush of guests leaving the park at the very end of the night)

[rollingsim]

Check In Tag ✔️ 

I was tagged by @aniraklova! Thank you so much <3

Why did you choose your url?

Pretty sure it was because of Rolling Girl, that one vocaloid song hahaha

Any side blogs? If you have them name them and why you have them.

I have a cc finds blog @rollingsimccfinds :)

How long have you been on tumblr?

too long since 2014 actually and I feel so old admitting that

Do you have a queue tag?

Nope! I hardly ever have anything queued in the first place

Why did you start your blog in the first place?

I was inspired by the OG simblrs at the time (especially shockshame, simplykitsch, and aphroditeisimmoral) to make my own blog! I started off doing lookbooks with ts3 and I only recently came back to simblr in 2020. 

Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

It’s my fav edit of my fav girl sim :) 

Why did you choose your header?

Because I absolutely love Howl’s Moving Castle and gifs are cool hehe

What’s your post with the most notes?

Pretty sure it’s this one! And it’s one of my personal fav edits I’ve done too :)

How many mutuals do you have?

I don’t know if I could list them all because I definitely don’t want to leave anyone out! Every one of them inspires me by their amazing/creative posts <3

How many followers do you have?

2,216 but pretty sure more than half of them are old ts3 blogs on hiatus or something 

How many people do you follow?

391!

Have you ever made a shitpost?

Not really haha, but mostly because I lose the balls to post them once it’s all typed out and clarity sets in. 

How often do you use tumblr each day?

At least once or twice a day just to check out other people’s posts.

Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

Thankfully not! Simblr drama is so unneeded because it’s literally a video game at the end of the day and not worth any real-life stress

How do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

If I like a post I will reblog it! simple as that hehe

Do you like tag games?

I do but I’m so slow at replying to them and not knowing who to tag next

Do you like ask games?

Same answer as above!

Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

all of them because I admire them and are their biggest fan ;)

Do you have a crush on a mutual?

If me liking all of their posts makes it seem like I have a crush then I guess I do <3

Tags? I’ll tag @ambrosiaicecreem, @bunmou, @lazysunjade, @glebasta

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The Airport

Then. Waking up at five am to drive to the airport leaves you feeling groggy and looking trashy. Your alarm beeps obnoxiously, and after half an hour of listening to it, you heave yourself from your bed and glance at your mirror in the harsh artificial light of your room. You can’t stand to look at yourself for longer than a few seconds these days; with your bulging belly poking out the bottom of your pj shirt, and your thighs bulging like greasy sausage mince from your shorts, you seem to fill the mirror with your oily whale blubber body. Hearing your parent yelling impatiently at you from downstairs, you quickly throw on your travel clothes, a pair of sweat-pants, supposed to be over-sized and casually elegant (you just look lazy, filling every square millimeter of them, and your stomach spills from the top in rolls), and a hoodie that does a poor job at hiding your beach-ball figure.

Not leaving yourself with enough time to brush your hair or do your makeup, you quickly rake your fingers through the tangled strands, swipe on a messy coat of mascara, and plod downstairs, rucksack and suitcase in hand.

You stop at a service station on the stuffy drive to the airport and pull into their McDonalds. The whole family slurps and guzzles and munches and gulps piles of calorie laden, oozing oily ‘food’, before getting back into the car, belching like satisfied pigs, and driving the final few miles to your destination.

At the airport, you join the queue for check in, feet beginning to hurt already from holding up all your fat, and drop off your suitcase. In the early morning hubbub, you look around at the other commuters and curl your arms self-consciously around your stomach. You are easily the largest here and it shows. The security check is embarrassing and uncomfortable as you receive a pat-down from a slender security guard, and you feel the beginnings of shame well up in your bloated chest.

You and your family find seats in your terminal before wandering off to buy snacks for the journey. Piles of sugar, fat, and carbs rustle in your travel bag as you make your way back to the terminal and prepare to board.

The plane is a cramped nightmare; you suck in your swollen belly and squeeze yourself down the aisle with enormous difficulty. You feel eyes on you as your fat presses against the passengers you pass, and you want to take all your fat and sink into the ground until the lard melts away. Finally at your seat, you slump with a ground-shaking thud, before straining to stretch the seatbelt across your mass. You feel your bottom spilling into your sister’s seat as the two of you press against each-other in the overfull seats. As the plane starts moving, you get ready for an uncomfortable and stuffy journey.

Sure, you’re going to enjoy this holiday, but all your extra fat sits like a rain cloud above your head.

Now. Getting up at five am to drive to the airport leaves you with a burst of excitement and the sleepy zen that comes with waking from sleep. As your alarm begins your day with your current favourite song, carmen by Lana Del Ray, you stretch lightly and roll out of your bed. Padding lightly over to your mirror, you allow yourself a moment to scrutinize the figure you worked so hard for. A year of solid effort and motivation has left your body drastically changed; in your silk night slip, your stomach doesn’t even touch the cool fabric and your slim legs extend gracefully from the hem, your collar bones protrude elegantly, leading to a beautiful swan neck, and the faintest indication of ribs press against the skin on your chest. As you pull the slip off, your ribs emerge, like ivory piano keys - this wasn’t easy but it was worth every step forward and every glance back. In the other room, you hear your parents begin to wake groggily from their sleep, and you glide to your wardrobe to grab the outfit you planned for this trip. As you pull on your clothes, you marvel on how they’ve shrunk over the year from XL to XS, and smile to yourself. Staring back in the mirror you check your appearance, a soft jumper hangs loosely off your shoulders - exposing your collarbones and bunching around your hands - and tucks into the cute white skater skirt that accentuates your tiny waist. Knee-high socks slide up your legs easily, highlighting your perfect thigh gap. After sweeping on a little mascara and dusting your cheeks with a faint rose blush - you are paler than you used to be but it only serves to make you more doll like - you shoulder your travel bag, grab your suitcase, and glide downstairs feeling the excitement burgeon within your perfectly empty stomach.

You stop at a service station on the drive to the airport and pull into their McDonalds. your family slurps and guzzles and munches and gulps piles of calorie laden, oozing oily ‘food’, before getting back into the car, belching like satisfied pigs. You clasp the black coffee you bought for breakfast in the space between your thighs, and marvel at how much space you have in the over-full car.

At the airport, you join the queue for check in, feeling refreshed and awake in the sea of zombified commuters, and drop off your suitcase. This time a year ago, you looked around and knew you were the largest - now you are the smallest here and it shows. The security check is a breeze, sure the pat-down is a little embarrassing, but when she’s finished, the slender security guard compliments your outfit and you practically glow with pride.

You and your family find seats in your terminal before wandering off to buy snacks for the journey. Piles of sugar, fat, and carbs rustle in your sister’s bag as you make your way back to the terminal and prepare to board. You carry a cute little fruit pot and a diet coke.

Finally, finally, the moment you’ve been waiting for all morning (one could argue all year) arrives. The plane may be a cramped nightmare for many, but you glide down the aisle with the ease of the skinny air hostesses. When you reach your seat, you bounce into the window seat (as the smallest in your family you get the smallest seat, but you don’t mind as gazing out at the clouds has always been your favourite part of flying!), and pull the seatbelt across your waist, noticing that even on its tightest setting the strap lies a little loose.

Your sister squeezes into the seat beside you, but you not only don’t touch her, you also have room to cross your tiny legs comfortably.

As the plane leaves the ground, you feel your heart soar with it, flying because you’re finally weightless.

This is what you worked for. This made all the struggles worth it. This holiday is going to be perfect

I’m sure you can tell that this is a pretty long personal self-indulgent thinspo imagine haha. I’ve been medically obese (not just overweight) for my whole life, and I’ve experienced the first half of this post year after year after year. I’m not even close to the second half of this post yet, but I am officially 3kg away from being a medically ‘average’ weight for my height and I honestly couldnt be more excited! I have just under a month until I go on holiday and for the first time ever I cannot wait!

(I posted this on my old account in july of last year, and people seemed to enjoy it so I thought I’d post it again 😊. Now, a year later, I have dropped an additional 10kg, and looking back at this keeps me motivated every day. One day I will fly and feel truly tiny)

[stayndays]

tag question game!!

tagged by @kwonsyoungs <3

why did you choose your url?

i made it in the splur of the moment when i was making this blog actually. i used to write for day6 too, so i combined stay + day to get stayndays! i still like it to this day, simple enough for people to memorize it in one go, and it sounds pretty :D

do you have any sideblogs?

this is technically a sideblog, but this is the only blog i use!

how long have you been on tumblr?

almost two years! i started in july of 2019 (or around that) and that was when i used to post shitty picsart edits on my main blog. this blog is a year old and was made around march of last year!

do you have a queue tag?

nope!

why did you start your blog in the first place?

i cant remember actually? i was reading fanfiction on tumblr way before i actually got an account; the reason why i started with editing before tumblr is something i can’t remember. maybe it was because i thought i was good at it back then LMAO.

my reasoning for staying on tumblr remains the same as it always has been: to get good at writing, make friends who also love stray kids, and because the reward is worth it! also because i want to pursue writing as a career heh

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

yang jeongin

why did you choose your header?

to match the blog aesthetic LMAO, i’m actually planning to change it soon when i have the time to!

what’s your post with the most notes?

stray kids’ kisses! i can see why.

how many mutuals do you have?

those with a mutual tag: 21!

how many followers do you have?

959! i don’t know why honestly, these days i feel like i don’t deserve it and im becoming a flop account LOL. i don’t post often, and i think more than half of those people clicked the following button just for my ot8 reactions. but honestly, i really want to increase my follower count to increase my chances of my halloween series this year becoming popular!

how many people do you follow?

176! however most of my favorite writers don’t write anymore *sobs*

have you ever made a shitpost?

constantly. #shabbles.

how often do you use tumblr each day?

i use it more often than i should HAHA. i check it out of habit to see if i’ve gotten any notes, and i check through the #stray kids fluff tag almost everyday at night.

did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

the closest i’ve gotten is dming somebody who plagiarized one of my ot8 reactions on instagram, along with a big mishap on my part privately, but other than that, nope!

how do you feel about those “you need to reblog this” posts?

overall, i don’t really get them to be honest? it feels as though they’re demanding everybody who sees the post to reblog it or else they’re a bad person. i tend not to talk about irl issues/drama on my blog (unless i feel that it’s extremely extremely important) because i’d rather my blog be a safe spot for people to not have to face that kind of stuff. there’s only so much negativity that us humans can take!

do you like tag games?

yes! i’ll always participate, and if i don’t, it’s because i forgot SKDJJS

do you like ask games?

yes yes yes!! i don’t really get anons these days (i only have 1 active anon now) so i love any inbox message i receive!

which of your mutuals do you think are tumblr famous?

i was a fan of @blueprint-han @hanniiesuckle17 @delicatewerewolfsoul and @gdaychan before i became mutuals with them!

do you have a crush on a mutual?

here’s the thing: i’m younger than all of my mutuals. and sometimes it’s by like 5+ years so I DON’T THINK IT WOULD BE GOOD IF I WERE TO HAVE A CRUSH OF THEM LMAO so my dreams of having one of those online significant others are crushed at the moment T-T i take sibling offers though! (i already have a mom >:( )

tagging: @runalongwith-skz @crispy-chan

[sabrinaacarpenters]

tumblr tag game

thank you so much for tagging me @fredy-carter ❤️

1. Why did you choose your url?

after reading six of crows last year i absolutely fell in love with miss Nina Zenik so I had to have her as my url and we haven’t parted ways since <3 (and this spelling was the closest canon i could get, whoever has nina-zenik saved i would love you forever if you’d grace me with it) 

2. Any side blogs?

i’m a member at @dailybridgerton and besides that I have another main blog that i haven’t updated in forever but it’s always funny to go back and see what i reblogged and posted as an edgy teen haha

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

i think i made my personal blog in 2011 and i created this one in 2013 but i wasn’t always active on it

4. Do you have a queue tag?

only a ‘q’ because i can’t be bothered typing out anything longer 

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

i dont even remember exactly to be honest but i think i just wanted to keep up with the fandoms i was in at the time and participate 

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

sour has been playing 24/7 since it came out so it only made sense to have miss Olivia as my icon

7. Why did you choose your header?

i wanted something very simple with a quote that i love and this one resonated with me so much when i read crescent city

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

this text post which somehow reached 200k people despite only having bellarke as a hashtag lmao 

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i have no idea to be honest since i’ve been here so long, there are a lot of people that we don’t even share fandoms with anymore but we still follow each other <3 

10. How many followers do you have?

i’m almost at 2,9k which i’m incredibly grateful for <3 

11. How many people do you follow?

372

12. Have you ever made a shit post?

i think half of my original posts here are shit posts lmao

13. How often do you use tumblr a day?

i basically open it anytime im bored and browse it like its the morning newspaper

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog?

yes lmao. but lately i’ve been just blocking people instead of trying to argue, they aren’t worth the energy

15. How do you feel about the ‘you need to reblog’ posts?

as a gifmaker i completely agree that if you like something you should reblog it. none of us get paid to be here and create content, spend hours from our free time creating things, be it gifs, fanfics, fanart, playlists, icons, headers or anything else. and seeing 80%-20% like/reblog ratio can be really disheartening, so i understand why so many creators just gave up on it or lost motivation. for me the biggest motivator is seeing people reblog my creations because that means they liked it and while i dont make then for validation it still feels great to know that someone likes what you do so much that they want to show it to others as well. but of course no one has to reblog anything, and i’ll never block anyone just for only liking something (which i’ve seen some people do but i think its rather extreme)  also if you really want to make someone’s day just leave any personal message in the tags, i know i always check them and its an instant serotonin boost when someone say they really love a set

16. Do you like tag games?

yes, even if i forget to do them sometimes, but just know that if you tagged me at anything i’ll love you forever

17. Do you like ask games?

i love them, it’s always great to talk to all of you who follow me <3

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

all of you that get random anon messages, asking about your opinions, you are all celebrities in my eyes

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

crush? im in love with all of you jk

20. Tags!

@vanserrasvalkyrie @starbornvalkyrie @ladyvanserra @yazthebookish @teamnick @hopemikaelsson @tylorswft @starkkov @helion-ism @arielle-reads @catalinabaylors @oversizedbats @patel-dev and anyone who wants to do it <3 

[lu-undy]

Hi!❤️. Spy is a romantic. He always makes nice things for Sniper, and the dates he plans are amazing. Sniper wants to be romantic too, so, this time, he wants to surprise Spy with his own planned date. He'll take him camping and they'll watch the starry together. Convincing Spy to go camping was a little hard, but totally worth it, Spy completely loved that date.

Alright, a date in the forest it is! I hope you’ll like it!

“Non, Sniper, I cannot accept.”

“How can you not like it if you’ve never tried it?”

Spy got up from the shade of the van and walked further away, his more-than-friend on his heels.

“Let us be serious, Sniper. Do you see me in the middle of a forest with squeaky plastic green boots?”

The Australian sighed and let his shoulders sink. He put a hand on Spy’s back who had just lit a cigarette.

“Spook, please… You always take me to wonderful places I’ve never been before, luxurious hotels and restaurants, and there was the tailor too, that fancy hairdresser… I want to try and open yer horizons too. I-I’m sorry I’m not a fancy city man like you but-but I’m sure I can make it worth your time.”

Sniper saw the cloud of smoke float in the air like the steam of an old train. Thoughts were racing in Spy’s head.

“Please, Spy. It’s not all about dirt and wilderness. There are beautiful things outside of a city’s walls.”

The Frenchman turned to face the reason his heart was beating for and Sniper put his gloved hand on his cheek.

“Like you, right now, you’re in the middle of the desert and uh… Y-you… You’re just beautiful.” 

Spy raised his eyes to Sniper. His lagoon blue eyes shone so gently that he didn’t find it in his cold stone heart to refuse.

“Fine.”

“Really?”

“Oui. Let us go camping tomorrow.”

“Thank you so much!” The Australian squeezed the slim Frenchman between his arms.

“S-Sniper!”

“Ah, yeah, sorry, the suit, alroight, I’m sorry.” Sniper took a step back and wrapped his arms around his own self, lowering his head. He knew the Frenchman didn’t like anyone to touch his absurdly expensive attire.

“Sniper, look at me.”

The Australian shyly raised his eyes.

“I don’t like when other people touch my suit…” Spy added a smug smile, for good measure.

They had spent the night in Sniper’s campervan and when the sun rose up, the Frenchman found himself entangled in his lover’s limbs. His first reflex was to free himself certainly out of professional habit but then he realised that he liked that embrace more than he could admit. The warmth of his lover, the comfort of his soft body, the touch of his rough skin against Spy’s…

“Mornin’, Spook…”

“Oh, you woke up?”

“Felt you movin’ on me.”

“My apologies, I didn’t mean to disturb your sleep. You may go back to your dreams if you will.” Spy took Sniper’s hand in his and kissed his knuckles. He couldn’t see it but the Australian’s eyes snapped wide under the gentle touch.

“Not a chance. I’m likin’ this way too much…” The embrace tightened.

“So, when are we going to the jungle, Tarzan?” 

“Oi, I’m no Tarzan and I’m takin’ you to a forest, not a jungle.”

“I don’t see the shadow of a difference.”

“Between me and Tarzan or between a jungle and the forest?”

“Oui.”

“You’re a bloody mystery and a half.”

“It is indeed my job title.”

About an hour later, the van was crossing the empty golden, flat desert, on the thin strip of grey asphalt.

“Are we there yet?”

“Spook, not yet.”

A few seconds passed and the van's engine was roaring.

“And now, Bushman, are we there yet?”

“Do you see anythin’ that looks like a bloody forest?”

“Non, I can only see the dull, boring orange desert.”

“Well then that means we’re not there yet, roight?”

“How long is this journey, Bushman? Are we going to make it before you get baby kangaroos?”

“Oi! A bit of patience, Spook!”

The Frenchman sighed and let his head fall back on the headrest.

“Also, I can’t get babies on my own, this isn’t how it works.”

“Is this an invitation?” Spy smirked.

“Shut up!” Sniper nudged him with his elbow.

The journey took an extra hour before they could see the end of the orange and the beginning of the green. The Australian lifted his foot off the gas pedal and eventually parked somewhere that the Frenchman would describe as “the middle of nowhere”.

“Roight, this is it.”

“Ah, oui, merci Sniper, for this delightful ride to the middle of nowhere, forest edition.”

“Oh get out and cheer up, I’ll show you some nice stuff!” Sniper answered and cut the engine off.

“After you, Mister guide…”

They got off the van. 

“Uhm, I am not really dressed for this, Sniper.”

“Come ‘round. I can lend you some clothes.”

“Non merci.”

[No thanks.]

“You’d rather walk around in yer suit and nice shoes, then?”

“I did not say that.”

“Then c’mere.”

They walked to the van’s back and Sniper jumped in. He rummaged through his belongings and found an old flannel shirt and a pair of jeans as well as some white trainers.

“Here, wear this.”

“I do hope that you are kidding me, mon beau.”

[my handsome one]

“Nah, I’m not. It should be yer size more or less and it’s fine to get them a bit dirty, although you’ll see that we’re not gonna go through any survival things. This is just to show you that you can find as many beautiful things in nature as you can in a city.”

The Frenchman winced.

“Alroight, I can uh… I mean if it helps, I can… Ahem…” Sniper put a hand on the nape of his neck. 

Spy jumped in the van and got close to his lover. 

“Tell me, what is it?”

Sniper glanced over his lover’s shoulder and seeing the door shut, he lowered his head and whispered.

“I… I can remove yer suit for you and dress you up… I-if that helps I mean…”

“Oh I don’t know if that would help.” Spy smirked and put his index finger under Sniper’s chin to push it up until their eyes met. “On one hand, if you do remove my clothes, I might get carried away. Should you proceed anyway, I would find it most enjoyable.”

“Is that a yes then?”

“Oui.”

“Alroight…”

A few minutes later, both men were out in the green. Spy kept his gloves and balaclava on. He took his lover’s hand in his.

“Show me then, please.”

“Alroight, see those trees here, well, you gotta understand somethin’ about the way they work…”

It wasn’t a visit, it was a trek, an excursion, a hike across the green. The Australian unveiled the secrets of the forest, the local wildlife as well as the typical flora around this parts.

“Oh and what is it about the mosquitoes! it’s getting worse!”

“Ah that must mean one thing, Spook, we’re getting closer to some water. Oh, look here, on the ground.”

“What are those fluffy, uhm, mille-pattes?”

“Mill-what?”

“What do you call those insects with a lot of legs?”

“Ah, caterpillars. These are called caterpillars.”

“Why are they so fluffy? Can we touch them?”

Spy got his finger closer to them.

“No, no, don’t! They’ll sting you!”

The Australian took his lover’s hand away.

“And why do they walk in a line like this? They look like they’re queueing for something…”

“Haha, my poor city man, they’re blind, that’s why they follow the only one that has any idea where it’s going!”

“Oh… I see…”

“What do you think about’em?”

“They look actually quite pretty. And very organised.”

“Glad to hear you say it, they’re amazin’ these creatures, see? Blind but they know what they’re doing! Let’s continue.”

“Fine, I’ll follow you.”

The guided tour lasted the entire day and to Spy, it seemed that he had received an entire encyclopaedia of information about the place. Everything had been accounting for, every straw of grass included. The sun was now gently setting in the distance.

“Hungry, luv’?”

The Frenchman raised an eyebrow.

“Did you just call me…?”

“Oh, uhm, sorry, that came out like that, I didn’t think about it, uh…”

“Don’t apologise, now I am quite hungry indeed…”

Spy winked at his lover and Sniper’s cheeks turned red instantly.

“R-roight, uhm, I-I’ll get the fire goin’ uh…”

“Sniper?”

“Yeah?”

“Let me light the fire, please.”

Sniper’s eyebrows jumped.

“You know how to do it?”

“May I try?”

“Alroight, go ahead. I’ll get to the van and arrange some stuff meanwhile.”

A few minutes later, the Australian exited his van again.

“Crikey, you did it! You lit a fire!”

Sniper jumped out of his van and leapt at his lover.

“Mon amour, non-oof!”

[My love]

The momentum of the Australian’s jump made them both tumble and fall on the grass. The Frenchman rolled his eyes.

“Oh now even my balaclava will be dirty…!”

“Yeah, but it’s protecting yer hair! Why are you always seeing the glass always half-empty?”

Spy smiled.

“I guess you are right.”

“Also, did you just call me-?”

“My love, oui, I did.”

“I… I love you.”

Sniper wrapped his arms around his lover and buried his head in his chest as he laid on top of him on the earthy ground of the forest.

“Sniper, y-you are crushing me…”

“Don’t care, I just love you.”

They enjoyed their sausages and marshmallows, sat on a tree log, Spy leaning his head on his lover’s shoulder. The sun had now fully set and the sole source of light on which they could rely was the dancing flames of the campfire that the Frenchman had made. 

“It’s cold now, mon amour.”

“It is. Climb up the van’s roof, I’ll be a minute.”

“The roof?”

“Yeah.”

“But it’s cold!”

“Trust me, Spook, please.”

“Fine. I have been so far so why not go all the way?"

A few minutes later, both men were on the van’s rooftop. Sniper had put the flames out and only the smoke floated in the air, evaporating through the darkness of the night. 

“Here, a duvet, we’ll be a bit warmer.”

The Australian sat next to his lover and threw the cover on their shoulders. Spy snuggled up against his taller man.

“Now look up, luv’. See those stars in the sky?”

“I see them in your eyes.”

Sniper looked down and saw the Frenchman’s eyes riveted on his, his wide black pupils reflecting the moonlight. 

“Oh, uh, they must look tiny on my eyes, uh, y-you better look at the sky to see them better, I think.”

“You are adorable.” Spy took Sniper’s arm in his and looked up. 

“See those stars shaped like a saucepan?”

“Oui.”

“That’s the Great Bear.”

“It doesn’t look like one, does it?” Spy tilted his head left and right, trying to see where on Earth anyone could see a bear up there.

“Nah, it’s true… And that one there, the upside down saucepan, that’s the Small Bear.”

“It doesn’t make any sense, Bushman. Who are these people who decided on that, their vision is terrible! Have they ever seen a bear in real life?!”

“Oi, don’t blame me, I have nothing to do with that, luv’! I’m just explaining it to ya.”

“I know, but still. They should have called it the saucepan and the upside down saucepan.”

“I agree with ya. Now there’s that one there, that’s the Dragon.”

“And unsurprisingly, it does not look like one.”

“Oh cause maybe you have seen a dragon in real life?”

“And what if I did.”

“Oh, shut up and c’mere…!”

They snuggled up closer to each other under their white fluffy blanket and  the dark one God had laid above their heads.

“So what about today? Did you like it?”

“Oui, I think I did. You know a lot of things about this… Nature business…”

“Well, yeah, I’ve lived most of my adult life outside and in me van, so I guess it makes sense.”

“I find this interesting.”

“Is that a way to say that you would like a second trip some time?”

“Maybe, Bushman. It all depends on one thing, you see.”

“Oh, what’s that?”

“The way that you decide to spend this night with me.”

“Well, we’ve got the cover here and no one around for miles…”

The gaze they exchanged in the night sealed their decision and as the day had started with their limbs entangled, it ended the same way. 

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a beautiful dream / part two

Being a single father is hard. Especially when Baekhyun’s in his early thirties and needing to make a name for himself. Yet his daughter had been his greatest gift and he doesn’t mind if it means exhausting days and hardships to come — as long as he has her. Though fate works in an incredible way when he meets somebody unexpectedly.

characters: byun baekhyun x moon heejin (oc) au(s): singledad!au, lawyer!au, teacher!au genre(s): fluff, slight angst. word count: 4.5k

Heejin.

The name that have always stayed inside Baekhyun’s mind for a good few months now. They don’t make any kind of progress in terms of romantic feelings—though Baekhyun did, his adoration towards her are starting to morph into something crush like—but they stayed in contact throughout the time.

After she has taken care of Soohyun, they grow close. And both her and Soohyun grow inseparable. Sometimes, more often than not, Baekhyun didn’t ask his mom to pick up Soohyun since Heejin offered to play with her instead. Both of the girls went for so many adventures together when Baekhyun is stuck in his office and the courtroom. He was jealous, of course, he wanted to spend the day with his daughter too, and Heejin.

Heejin and Soohyun made a great pair, and most of the time, Baekhyun felt that everything was going too fast, too smoothly, and it makes Baekhyun’s insides filled with anxiety in what if anything goes south and Heejin decided not to be in his life, in Soohyun’s life? He tried to shoo the thoughts away, wanting to only focus on what is currently happening, in hope everything goes well and only the best.

Nonetheless of Baekhyun’s worry, he and Heejin still got closer. From a casual texts to an everyday texts he cannot live without, from accompanying Soohyun during days where Baekhyun can’t, to a late night talk on Baekhyun’s dining table before watching Heejin leave his apartment. From meeting up accidentally to plan out a date only with the both of them.

Things are going too smoothly, for him and Heejin, and for Heejin and Soohyun. And in half a year―Baekhyun realized that he wants Heejin to be in his life, permanently. Baekhyun knows that he grow comfortable way too fast, how can he not, when Heejin had won his daughter’s heart before she won his?

     > Run out of strawberry candies. The kids are whining, do you think you can accompany me later after work?

It was a text from Heejin. Baekhyun smiles, it was one of the rarest moments where he received a text from her and able to reply to her right away. Feeling giddiness inside of him that Heejin asked him to accompany her.

> Sure. Soohyun is with her grandparents today. Tomorrow is the weekend so she asked if she could get away from Daddy a little? > Anyway, haha, where should I pick you up?

He waited, ignoring his important documents that he needed to worry for today. He had memorized and did his research on his recent client the whole day, so it should be enough reason for him to rest a little and talk to Heejin. The three dots that indicate Heejin is typing a text finally appears, even with a little thing like that, it brought a smile to Baekhyun’s face.

> Poor daddy, his princess doesn’t want to spend the weekend with him > At what time would you be finish for today? I’m thinking about having dinner first. I have this restaurant I wanted to try

It was a casual thing. For the both of them to have dinner and spend time together, it bothered Baekhyun a little that he cannot call those as a date. He types in his reply right away―not being afraid that he might come off way too flirty. After all, the two of them have been in a flirty phase for two months without anything going on.

> I have another princess to spend the weekend with, do I not? > I’ll be done around six. Today’s an easy day, anyway. I’ll pick you up at 7. Be ready, dress comfortably!

With that, Baekhyun locked his phone. Focusing on the case he has at hand, his thoughts are filled with happiness and positivity at the fact that he will spend the rest of his evening with Heejin. He only peeked at Heejin’s replies, not wanting to distract himself further.

> That princess you’re going to spend the weekend with better be Moon Heejin or I will sneak in to your apartment and steal your all of strawberry milk so Soohyun will be upset. > K. See you. Work hard. ❤️❤️❤️

Baekhyun find himself in front of Heejin’s apartment door, smiling brightly when Heejin open her door for him.

“It's only six! What are you doing here? I am not ready yet!” Heejin huffs at him, leaving him to laugh to himself as she walked back to her room to get her makeup done. Baekhyun followed her like a lost puppy.

“My meeting finished early, so why not visit you early too? I miss your pretty face.”

Baekhyun know his flirting with Heejin is a dangerous game, but at Heejin’s whine, he just shakes his head to himself. “Stop talking at let me finish my makeup.”

“I just got here, lady. Don’t stop me from talking!”

Heejin just ignored him, focusing on her makeup so that they could leave early. She was excited for another night to spend with Baekhyun, excited to be next to him without thinking of the consequences that might come. She doesn’t realize when Baekhyun stand behind her, wrapping his arms around her waist as he nuzzled his nose to her nape, finding comfort in her scent. They have been tiptoeing around for months with their shared touches and shared kisses. Neither of it minded because they knew there's definitely something romantic going with them. After all, it has been close to eight months since they knew each other and hanging out together.

“Are you okay?” Heejin asked, her voice is so soft as she put her brush down, placing her hand on top of Baekhyun’s arm.

“I will be. Don’t worry.”

    Baekhyun find himself walking behind Heejin and Soohyun, admiring the way Heejin holds Soohyun’s hand as they walked towards one of the rides in the amusement park. Heejin was smiling really brightly as she tried her best to listen to Soohyun’s random babbling and explaining to her the things she doesn’t understand.

(The amusement park trip had been planned a few weeks ago out of random conversation with him and Heejin before Baekhyun decided to avoid Heejin - his fault, really, for thinking too much about everything.)

They arrived on the amusement park only fifteen minutes before this, and the first thing they did was to find cute headwear to use. Soohyun right away choose the one with a tiara, and Baekhyun choose for Heejin, a cute big bow to adorned her head. He himself is wearing a bunny hat, courtesy of the girls who convinced him to wear one. Baekhyun’s heart feels full, for some reason.

Baekhyun enjoyed this feeling, not having to worry about work and his clients, as well as being able to spend his time together with his princess and Heejin. For some, it might be frowned upon that Baekhyun is going out for a personal trip together with Soohyun and Heejin, as her teacher, and he might risk Heejin’s career because of that. And he understood law, he knows how wrong it is to develop a personal relation, moreover a romantic relation with his own daughter’s teacher.

That was what made Baekhyun stop in trying to woo Heejin, what stopped him from asking her to go on dinner with him without Soohyun, and also the reason why sometimes late at night, Baekhyun decides to not reply to her text. Byun Baekhyun is anything but irrational. He might have fallen in love way too soon, but he would never contradict his own life and others' lives.

Baekhyun’s thought was washed away when Heejin tucked on the hem of his sleeve shirt, smiling at him as she drags him towards the nearest cotton candy stall. She pointed out at Soohyun who keeps eyeing the maker, eyes sparkling, wanting to eat the cotton candy.

“Can she eat some, Baekhyun?”

He hums to answer her, fishing out his wallet from his pocket though Heejin beats him to it as she ordered one and pays for it right away, leaving him no room to argue with her. He smiles though, letting her do it because he knows Heejin likes to pamper Soohyun (he definitely thought about the amount of hairpins Soohyun owned now, courtesy of Heejin).

“Which ride should we go first?” Baekhyun asked Soohyun, taking her free hand in his to hold it tightly. Soohyun excitedly pointed a ride that have a spinning cup. Baekhyun nods, leading both Soohyun and Heejin there. As the three of them are queueing, Baekhyun take his time to admire the two girls that are standing in front of him, chatting animatedly.

He loves to hear Soohyun’s laughter every time Heejin told her something that is funny, though he could only smile as he watched them. The wind was blowing rather hardly all of sudden, making Heejin’s hair in sort of a mess. Unconsciously, Baekhyun reached his hand out to comb it with his fingers, feeling the softness of her strain of hair. He tried his best to keep a serious face even though the sight of Heejin blushing because of him worth a teasing―things are a little bit awkward with them because Baekhyun has been consciously avoiding her.

“There, there.” Baekhyun smiles, tucking Heejin’s hair behind her ear as he pulled his hand away. Heejin stuttered when she replied to him, “Thank you.” He nods. Giving Heejin’s head one last pat on the head before he was dragged by Soohyun to get inside one of the cups.

“Daddy! You can spin this around!” Soohyun said excitedly, trying her best to spin the wheel on the cup and Baekhyun chuckles at that, removing Soohyun’s hand with his own before wheeling the cup into a spinning motion gently - not wanting the three of them to be dizzy if he wheeled it too fast.

    The day is about to end when they watch the sun goes down. Seated on one of the restaurant as they eat their dinner. For some reason, every time the three of them go out, Soohyun will end up sitting beside Heejin instead of Baekhyun. It becomes a routine.

Despite the happy day they spent―Baekhyun knew he would have to talk with Heejin about them. And it dreads him. He doesn’t know what she feels at him, he doesn’t know what to do if she also developed feelings towards him.

For now, Baekhyun only wants to focus on Heejin's interactions with Soohyun. He won’t lie, the sight of Heejin feeding Soohyun without prompt does make his heart beat rapidly. He loves the sight of it―dreams of it lasting for more than a lifetime.

“Daddy?” Soohyun spoke, her voice soft as she gulp on her strawberry squash. Baekhyun turn to look at her, forcing a slight smile.

“Yes, princess?”

“Are you okay?” ― Soohyun is a smart kid, she is able to read people’s emotions just by their gestures. He nods at her, reaching his hand out to pinch her cheek. “Don’t worry about daddy, princess. Just finish your food!” He scolds playfully, eyeing the almost empty plate of Soohyun’s food.

The dinner goes well too, the difference in this dinner is the fact that Baekhyun barely exchanged words with Heejin, both of them only focusing on Soohyun and her cute babbles. Baekhyun is now carrying Soohyun in his arms - the little princess is tired after her activities today (she has so many energy, running around and not caring about her sweet intakes as Baekhyun and Heejin spoil her with every candy Soohyun wants).

It was comforting to Baekhyun, the way Soohyun is snuggling her face on the crook of his neck and Heejin holding on his free pinky finger, he feels like his world is complete. Baekhyun pushes away every rational thought inside his head when he chooses to intertwine his fingers with Heejin, holding her hand as if he doesn’t want her to let go.

And neither let go of each other's hold even when Baekhyun is driving home. Soohyun is fast asleep on the backseat, and the entire ride to Baekhyun’s apartment - where Heejin’s car is parked - their fingers are still intertwined and Baekhyun is placing their hands on his thigh. Sometimes caressing the back of her palm with his thumb. No words are exchanged, though.

It was Heejin who pulled away first, awkwardly saying that she will be carrying Soohyun and tucking her to her bed - they don’t want to wake up Soohyun, she could wash up in the morning, anyways - and it feels oddly domestic for Baekhyun.

After putting Soohyun to bed, Heejin decided to find Baekhyun on the kitchen, making himself a cup of coffee even though he knows it was already late and if he drinks coffee, he wouldn’t be able to sleep. Heejin bit her bottom lip, looking at Baekhyun’s broad back, not knowing what should she do to gain his attention. There are so many thoughts running inside her head, confusion is the biggest one.

Heejin decided to wrap her arms around Baekhyun’s torso, her face is buried on his back. Baekhyun hums in acknowledgment before he put his coffee mug down, turning to look at her, his arms palming her face before he leaned down to press a kiss on Heejin’s forehead.

“Everything okay, baby?” His voice is soft, searching her eyes with his and smiles when she looked back at him. A pout formed on her lips.

“Do you expect everything to be okay when my daddy has been avoiding me?” Baekhyun snorts at that. Heejin always calls him daddy when she wanted something from him, mainly his affection and his kisses. Their closeness has grown into something similar to a relationship, just without the labels and sexual act.

“I’m sorry. Will my big princess forgive me?” He apologized, caressing the apple of Heejin’s cheek in an affectionate manner. Heejin shakes his head at that, and Baekhyun frowned. Why doesn’t she want to forgive him?

“I will only forgive you if you gave me a proper explanation, Baekhyun. Not just you being busy.” Her voice is sharp, leaving no room for Baekhyun to find other useless explanation on why he has been avoiding her.

“You have been avoiding me for two weeks. Don’t you realize? It hurts.”

Heejin is not usually vocal with her thoughts - Baekhyun knows that. When she does, it means she really need to let it out before everything goes south. Baekhyun bit his bottom lip, he then leads Heejin to the couch on the living room, letting Heejin sit beside him as they are facing each other.

“I…”

Heejin waits for Baekhyun to start, taking his hand in hers as she squeezes it gently. Letting him know that she is here for him. Baekhyun heaved out a deep sigh. Biting his lower lip before he starts speaking.

“I think we should stop seeing each other.” Baekhyun said, he was too afraid to see Heejin’s face, he doesn’t want to hurt her - but his rational thoughts let him to do that

“Why?” He could hear the sadness in her voice, and Baekhyun really want to hug her and told her that he doesn’t actually want that.

“Heejin, you’re great. But you are Soohyun’s teacher. We can’t have a relationship when you are his teacher.”

Heejin frowned at his explanation, letting go the hold of Baekhyun’s hand and Baekhyun swears his heart stop beating. Baekhyun braved himself to look at her, and he felt like someone had just hammered him straight on his face.

“That is bullshit, Baekhyun. There is no law that you can not,” Heejin hesitated her words, thinking through it cautiously, “see your child’s teacher in a romantic way. Unless, there is really nothing romantic between us and I grow too confident that you actually developed feelings for me.” She said, anger could be heard through her voice now.

“Heejin,”

“Just-- whatever, Baekhyun. I thought we had mutual feelings - and I am ready to fight for whatever obstacles that we would face if we're together. But it's not mutual with you knowing how easily you gave up without talking to me beforehand.”

With that, Heejin left. She gathers her belonging and just leave like that. And Baekhyun doesn’t chase her.

    “Daddy? When will Teacher Moon visit us again?” Soohyun asked as she is laying her head down on Baekhyun’s bicep―enjoying the father and daughter evening. Baekhyun groaned, pretending to sleep because he doesn’t want to be reminded of Heejin.

It has been three weeks since the last time he saw Heejin, he doesn’t even text her. Even though Soohyun meets Heejin every school day, she was being sulky at the fact that Moon Teacher isn’t hanging out with her outside of school. Baekhyun doesn’t even pick up Soohyun anymore, afraid to see Heejin.

Bawkhyun himself is miserable. He missed her. He missed her warmth, missed her smile, missed her random texts of her students. But Baekhyun promised himself that he is not going to contact her―he was too ashamed of himself that he had hurt her.

And with the realization of Heejin not being together with him, Baekhyun knows he is in love with her. Pretty badly.

“Daddy!” Soohyun whined at him, pressing her palm on Baekhyun’s cheek, trying to make sure her father is awake to answer her question. Baekhyun opened his eyes with a pout. “Hyunee, that’s not good.” Soohyun mirrored his pout, now straddling Baekhyun’s chest and her little hands are squishing around Baekhyun’s face which earns a laughter from him.

“Hyunee, stop, stop!”

Soohyun stops while giggling at him, and Baekhyun smiles. Grateful to have his blob of happiness in front of him that brings a smile to him even though things are not okay.

“Now give daddy a kiss and daddy will answer you.” Her daughter just rolled her eyes and Baekhyun faked an offensive gaze at her, squinting at her. Though she just leaned down and kissed his cheek. Making herself comfortable in Baekhyun’s arms again.

“Teacher Moon is currently busy, princess. Once your holiday starts, we could hang out with her again?”

Baekhyun is thankful that her daughter is the most understanding even at a young age. Soohyun just mumbled an okay and asked Baekhyun to sing her to sleep.

Once Soohyun is asleep, Baekhyun gets with his phone in hand―calling his mother.

“Hyunee?” Was the first word his mom said when she answered the phone, he finds it cute that his mother called him with Hyunee and him calling Soohyun with Hyunee too.

Baekhyun hums to answer her, he doesn’t know what else to say. He is always open with his mother, but for some reason, this problem of his barely can leave his mouth. He heard his mother sigh, and he feels guilty for being old enough yet still seek for his mother’s comfort.

“It’s okay. I’m listening, Hyunee. You know I will never judge you.”

And with her words, Baekhyun finds himself breaking his walls down. “You know Heejin right? The girl I told you,” with that, he told his mom everything.

He told her how he felt, how much he loved her just by the months they are spending together, he could see a future together with her―at the same time, he was afraid; afraid that Heejin will leave him just like his ex, afraid that Heejin will grow tired of having to take care of Soohyun when she is able to spend her days without any serious attachments. He’s afraid to break the law, to ruin Heejin and his career. He told her how he missed her, how he had hurt her in the ways he thought he wouldn't be able to do it, but he does.

His mom listened to him carefully without saying a word, and once he’s done, she only chuckles.

“I hate that you are too rational sometimes. You haven’t even thought of her not becoming Soohyun’s teacher next year. You told me she’s only teaching first year of elementary class, right?”

With that, Baekhyun wants so smack himself so hard in the face for not realizing sooner.

His mom then continues, “Love outcomes every obstacle, Hyunee. If she loves you, then she wouldn’t leave you. And with the way I saw her treating Soohyun when I visit a few months ago, I know she loves Soohyun too. Now make your mom proud and fix your mess.”

    next >

[0225pm]

hello!

i haven’t been writing much lately and it seems like han is a little upset/disappointed cus i’ve been updating this blog with pictures and videos and gifs but not so much of writing hahaha yes, it’s true i’ve been a little lazy but then again most of the stuff i want to write are either in my notes or drafts and i just can’t seem to find the motivation to write.

but anyway, i’m still gonna give an update!

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so, in case yall dunno dayah just broke up with fir and we thought that she needed a little distraction so bavani actually initiated to meetup. initially she wanted to just hang out at our area but we felt like going elsewhere so i initiated bugis. it was raining like super heavily in the afternoon, like there was thunders and lightnings and i thought like we wouldn’t be able to go out since it was raining so heavily. fortunately, the heavy showers stopped and it started drizzling instead.

i’m not an umbrella type of person, like i really don’t like carrying umbrellas esp the huge long ones so i grabbed my hoodie, even though i was actually wearing a long sleeved pullover already. i came to regret my decision to bring my hoodie though throughout the entire day haha. i also regretted my outfit decision to wear a skirt cus i’m getting chubbier around the tummy and i looked like i’m pregnant or something with that skirt lol.

bavani was already at bugis waiting for us but we were still quite a number of stations away from bugis so dayah asked her to walk around first or something. she decided to go to cotton on and we ended up meeting her there cus she was in the queue waiting for her turn to make payment. it’s true what dayah said, she really likes to shop hahahaha. i wish i had the money to shop, but i don’t have the extra cash for any shopping right now. why is it that when there’s so many sales going on, i’m broke af but when there’s no sale i suddenly have the extra money to spare? lol which will then go mostly to food expenses.

anyway, after that we went to popeyes cus dayah was hungry and at first, i wanted to save my lunch money and wait till dinner comes around instead cus i only had 10 bucks to spare hahaha but i ended up caving and buying an $8.10 meal at popeyes what the fuck lol even fast food is expensive af zz but ya it was worth it cus it made me really full and i haven’t had anything to eat in the morning either so i felt like it was ok. and then bavani wanted to go to bugis street so we went there and we went up to the 3rd floor cus she wanted to thread her mustache away??? before that, she was looking at me and my brows and then she asked me if i did threading for my brows before. ofc i said no hahaha and then she said something like if i thread then it will look neater. lol my brows probably looked really gross or something to her and i was a little hurt by it? but then again i got over it really quickly haha. i have never done threading. i always trimmed my brows on my own but i have been really lazy and haven’t been doing it for months already.

and then after that we walked past this new yogurt drink shop or something i forgot what’s it called. this lady was giving out some sample for their new drink and it was the bestest strawberry yogurt drink i’ve ever had. or maybe i was just really thirsty and wanted to have something to drink. i ended up asking dayah if she can spon a bit for the drink and she did haahhaah. we paid half each for the drink and shared it with each other. 

after that we decided to walk towards dhoby and then went in to plaza sing. bavani saw temt and wanted to go in to shop again lolol and so we did. i too decided to browse and i saw these 2 beautiful mesh tops like i’ve been wanting to get a mesh top for ages but i ended up not getting anything after trying them on cus 1, i didn’t have the spare money to shop and 2, i don’t think i have the guts to wear it out in public hahahahahah like idk i feel like i don’t have the society standards for body type lmao i know i shouldn’t let what society think affect me but after all, i’m a rather self-conscious person.

anyway after that, we headed to daiso and i really need to get some sponges but they didn’t have the ones i wanted so we went back to starbucks cus bavani wanted to buy something to drink. so we chilled there for awhile and then we walked towards somerset, going to donki to browse before heading to the bus stop to take the bus home.

then my bro sibuk je hahahaa called me and ask me to help him buy macs and cigs all zz but me being a very nice and wonderful sister, i helped me buy them in the end hahahahaha

[inseomermaid-blog]

An Inner Circle First-Timer’s Concert Experience In Seoul [#WINNEREverywhereTourinSeoul]

So. If you tell me freakin’ one year ago if I’d be flying to Seoul for a Kpop concert, I’d smack you for slander.

Buuuuut here we are, a week after WINNER’s Everywhere Tour in Seoul :))))) I’ve just begun to recover. Literally, it took me a week to get through the stages of mourning and to accept that it’s over HAHAHUHU

Anyway, here’s my (and Liz’s) experience in attending a concert in Seoul!

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Why we wanted to see them in Seoul (when it was sure they were gonna go to MANILA anyway):

1. It’s Liz’s annual bday trip gipp!! Or idk, this is part of the rationalization we thought of AHAHA. Initially, we were set for Singapore as it would be way cheaper for sure, but another reason came up....

2. We wanted to see them in their most “comfortable” version - Not sure if comfortable is the word, but I guess we wanted to see them how they were in their home country?? Speaking comfortably in Korean and all? We were anticipating that for other countries it would probably be just Yoon speaking most of the time (not that it’s a problem with us HAHA), and we wanted to see all them four being their natural makulit presence on stage (without them thinking about the language hinderance--even if kami yung hindi makaintindi sa kanila :)))) I know it’s a weird reasoning but :)))) And it’s been a long time since they’ve done a full concert in Seoul! We just wanted to be there in the kickoff concert. I mean, if we were willing to fly out to see them, o di todo na namin diba? Seoul it is!

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How we got the tickets:

Here’s the thing: this is not our first rodeo. We’ve already successfully watched Coldplay in Singapore last year after (WHAT I THOUGHT WAS ALREADY) a bloody online ticketing war. Coldplay tickets were wiped out in 20 minutes, I think? But I was able to secure 7 tickets (3 VIP standing, 4 upper box tickets) after much death and resurrection.

We thought we were prepared for a WINNER ticketing war lol. We were not. Everything (or at least the seats we targeted) was more or less gone in less than 4 minutes.

There were two waves, one week apart. Both of them were intense :)))) I guess our third-world country internet cannot compete with their 5G data network?!

A HUGE HUGE HUGE thank you to Cams and Dianne for basically hand-holding me throughout the entire process of securing tickets from Seoul!! T_T Without them, we probably wouldn’t have gotten tickets. All transactions were smooth and hassle-free. There were a lot of K-ICs who also wanted G-ICs to attend the Seoul concert and thus were purchasing tickets so scalpers can’t get to them first. They also helped me with tips and advice on where to stay, where to go, etc etc as it was our first time in Korea. Sobrang bait and helpful nila as in! T_T

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Of course that was only half of the problem:

In less than a month, we had to book flights (ANG MAHAL NA NITO SIYEMPRE), book hotel (Thank you Agoda for your occasional flash sales) and of course, VISA. We highly recommend TravelPros for your Korean visa processing needs! We spent around 700 pesos for this, and we got the visa in exactly 6 days. Super fast. Pero may drama pa kami dun sa visa requirements LORD HAHA pero hindi ko na kwento haba na nito. BASTA when we got the visa I wanted to throw a fiesta, ganung level =))

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CONCERT D-Day~~~

We wanted to get in early-ish because we were anticipating the DVD / merch line.

The train was a bit confusing for this stop!! We knew we were not the only ones because some of the Koreans were also confused where to get off haha

This ad greeted us before the exit!

Entering the Olympic Park Stadium~

Sure enough the line was at least 500m already when we arrived at around 10:45.

AAAAAND YES I lined up for 2 hours for the DVD 0_0 Under the heat of Korean summer 0_0 

Questions in my mind while in queue:

1. why does everyone look so fresh except me

2. how to spot foreigners: they use umbrellas for the heat

3. Don’t be weak

4. why am I doing this again

Anyway, tada~

Let’s just ignore the part where if we waited until 3pm, or at least when the line tapered off, I could have gotten it without the sunburn on my batok but where’s the fun in that no?

Liz and teh boyfriend lined up for merch (mercifully it was shorter) and they were able to buy 2 lightsticks (OUR FIRST ONES YAY! Hirap daw lagyan ng battery lol) and shirts (X and XL lang ang available sizes but it still works out!?? What is this Korean sizing sorcery?!)

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All the cafe / restos were full (Mamamoo was also having a concert that day!) so we had to settle for convenience store food :))) It wasn’t bad!

Met Cams and lots of other PH-ICs who travelled from MNL! You can check out #ICsPHGoesToSeoul to see what everyone was up to while in Seoul.

We got a lot of fans (as in pamaypay) from different fansites (and thus we didn’t have to line up, yay!) and actually saw the faces behind big accounts* HAHA it was surreal.

Actually, the whole thing was pretty surreal (YA THINK) in a good way. Since it’s our first time to attend a KPop concert, we didn’t know a lot of things. One of those was... lining up for freebies given by fansites. 

Girl, INTENSE. As in,  pila kung pila ang mga bagets and not-so bagets. Paano naman kasi ang cute ng freebies! Fans, stickers, photocards, etc. Looking back feeling ko dapat pumila/bumili kami BUT holehhhshit it was really so hot, and after lining up for 2 hours we wanted to just save our energy. 

Super tita namin right?! 

Also most of the masternims who were offering their freebies were all speaking in Korean (malamang) so we didn’t know if it was free or for sale... AH BASTA MAGULO isip namin hahaha yeaaaah looking back we should have at least tried BUT yun nga, it was really too damn hot to walk around talaga. Maybe next time!! (next time talaga?!)

Kill time! We just randomly sat anywhere we could #ifItfitswesits 

At some points, we could hear the sound check so medyo spoilery siya (we heard Jinwoo’s solo performance HAHA) at the same time we were like OMG 0_0

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FINALLY TIME TO ENTER! 

Our seats were 2F (as in second floor). We were initially planning to aim for 1F but giiiiiirl waley. 2F wasn’t that bad! Ang nasa isip ko MOA Arena levels where it’s too high up. This was okay (as if may choice kami HAHA). 1F would be the best seats talaga. Standing is a gamble because there’s a chance you won’t be able to see anything BUT the interactions that WINNER made with the standing group was really worth it :))))) WATCH THE FANCAMS IF YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT I MEAN

I tried to use MIXLR for the first time pala, since I wanted to kinda pay it forward. The first time I “experienced” a WINNER concert was through Cami’s Fukuoka?? mixlr concert and back then I thought, it’s amazing that someone would really try to share this experience with us that can’t make it to the concert. 

(Now that I’m replaying my mixlr, I AM SORRY FOR THE THOUSAND OMGs I SAID =)))) I swear I’m more coherent than that--except when you know, Mino was body rolling live, Hoony was lifting his shirt to reveal his perfect 6-pack abs, Jinwoo with his ethereal voice and stage presence, and Yoon’s powerful vocals and performance. Wala na talaga ako masabi kung hindi OH MY GOD =)))) So I’m not sure if I’ll ever mixlr again hahaha kasi marami naman who does it and is more pro about it??? let’s see :)))

Here are some notable thoughts I remember from the concert (sorry more Tagalog here because all the feels)

1. ANG GWAPO NILANG LAHAT. I mean, fo sure I didn’t stan them for visuals (promise talaga! It was really about the music. Sawain ako sa visuals actually) BUT hooooshit. They are different irl. I’ve seen them before in NAIA airport for like.... 10 seconds and like I knew they were really good-looking. BUT ON STAGE. IN FULL PERFORMANCE GLORY. THEIR VISUALS ARE INSANE. 

2. SOLO STAGES. WHERE TO BEGIN. I didn’t know I’d see Mino perform Body live ever (I thought he had retired the song and I’ve accepted it) BUT GOOD LORD. The “mashup” for Body and TOTL was just made to be together. The stage and performance was oozing with sexiness and charisma and my mind was just a puddle at this point. Mino doesn’t do full-on sexy very often (am I right? It’s like between deliberate sexy and swag, he’d go for more swag) so when he did this... live... the body rolling... the kinda grinding.... we died. 

3. JINWOO. Jusko. Where to start with Jinwoo. I’m rewatching our fancam of his Untitled 2014 performance and it’s the only one who made me feel goosebumps. Especially the part where he went up the stairs and the spotlight was on him, and he was singing so passionately and the audience was just in complete awe. IT WAS A MAGICAL MOMENT I CAN’T EXPLAIN. It’s like as he walked up the stairs and sang, it was like he was taking his rightful place as a superstar. Jinwoo is not even my bias but I super kaduper want him to succeed and become more confident with this abilities (I am speaking from someone who watched Who is Next haha). After his solo stage, my immediate first thought was: JINWOO IS READY TO HAVE A SOLO ALBUM.

4. YOON’S SOLO STAGE. Lol I cried. Ever since I’ve heard It Rains (his solo song), I’ve wanted to hear it live, but I didn’t expect that he’d sing it ever again--maybe he’d sing Wild and Young but not It Rains. The arrangement was “simple” but the experience was HOLY. As in, it was like angels were singing. His clear and strong voice filled the whole arena. The adlibs he did were insane. Literally it was like going to church. The lights and the background visuals were stunning. Sobrang full on drama / rocker Yoon mode! It is something to behold live. Also... INSTINCTIVELY. I also never thought I’d see Yoon perform with a guitar ever again. (Ang drama?? never talaga?? hahaha but I never know with Yoon kasi! He’s so experimental with genres that when he’s already done something already, it might take a long time for him to comeback [in this case, to his rocker roots]). When he took off his blazer... BAKLA SIGAW TALAGA AKOOOOooooo =)))) Looking at him perform like this, I can’t believe he didn’t go solo. I know he’s happier with a group (and I am thankful) but his presence as a solo artist is still very much there. I hope Yoon can release his solo album soon because Liz and I will definitely fly again to Korea when that happens!!! :)

>>>[OPEN FOR A SURPRISE]<<<

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5. HOON. How so even begin writing about Deputy Lee’s stage. He performed Ringa Linga (modified with Hoon’s rap which was a cool touch I think) and Serenade (EVERYONE’S WAITING FOR THIS). I don’t know where haters get the idea that Hoon can’t dance. Like... are you guys BLIND?!?!? He’s one of the most naturally gifted dancers I’ve ever seen--because he dances to feeling**, not with just choreo. Ringa Linga was a perfect choice for him because he was able to showcase his vocals, dancing prowess and abs all at the same time. The dance breaks were insane. AND MY GOD, Hoon’s body is perfection. His arms, torso, legs... ART. 

6. The costumes, lights (LIGHTS), pyrotechnics, over-all stage design was just A++++. I don’t know why I thought it was going to be a much simpler stage but they really went all-in with everything.

7. The nebula ocean was beautiful. I keep saying in the mixlr... “I’ve never seen so many Inner Circles in my entire life” because it’s true! For some reason there is a notion that we are a small fandom and maybe that’s true compared to others... but we are not less powerful. At least 99% of seats were taken, the standing was packed. Everyone was doing the fanchants. Almost everyone had the lightstick. It was humbling and inspiring to see all the fans who love WINNER come together in one venue, screaming their voices out and singing to the songs (while still being respectful and attentive to each stage performance).

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8. The boys really love each other. As in, you can feel their chemistry and their teamwork onstage. Of course, I don’t understand the ments while it was going on (by now I’ve seen the translated fancams of course) but I can definitely tell from their body language and the way they regard each other that they are brothers. And they were just so happy! Running to and from the stage, taking fan’s phones, they were on FULL-ON fanservice. I could feel the love from where I was sitting.

9. I want to pick my favorite stages but I don’t know how. It was surreal to shout “Neol johahae!” for REALLY REALLY and answer Hoon’s pizza pasta so so with “YUM YUM!” =))))) Sobrang surreal na nangyayari siya sa harapan ko at hindi sa Youtube (with subtitles). Love Me Love Me stage was super cute, Moviestar was tear-inducing. Speaking of Movie Star, the fan event was so funny! They were really surprised because it happened right smack in the middle (usually it happens at the end, but they were expecting it kasi). All four of them were very confused and I feel like they really didn’t see the video as much because they were busy being... confused with what was happening. But when they understood they look like they were touched and slightly cross that we were able to fool them HAHA.

Also:

MINYOON MINYOON MINYOON

10. There were many cute moments of ICs that I witnessed. Like, before the concert started, they were playing WINNER songs on the screen. Then suddenly, Body was played. Inner Circles all screamed =))) BASTA SOBRANG FUNNY. During Mino’s kissing scene, half of ICs were turned on, half were saying “Nooooo” =))) Then during encore, we were supposed to sing We Were (as in the whole song). When it was already the second stanza, the singing became softer and softer, because it was apparent that ICs haven’t memorized the lyrics. Everyone laughed hard. IT WAS SOOOOOO CUTE T_T

BONUS:

After the concert, we kinda rushed to the back exit to wait for WINNER. Lol it took more than an hour for them to come out (of course lots of picture-taking, maybe even speeches for the team, etc etc). We saw Yang Hyun Suk (ICs began to chant his name too #insidejokefromtheconcert and sure ako labas sa ilong yun hahaha), PO, Jinwoo’s dad, Yoon’s mom, most of the dancers (Gahee my love were you there) to name a few.

Again, it was a tender moment because the van was supposed to “cover” their exit from the door, but the fans cried “Noooo” and begged security to let us see them :)) So after a few minutes, the van adjusted its position, so WINNER could walk out and wave to the crowd outside. They looked very very very happy and thankful to see us. <3

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We met with some of the PH-ICs again to talk about the concert IN TAGALOG PARA TODO YUNG FEELS :))) I can’t wait to see everyone again in November!

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Aaaaand by 12 am we were back in our hotel after getting lost in Dongmyo exit HAHA. Can’t blame us, all our braincells were left in the Olympic Park Stadium :)) It was really a memorable experience that we hope we can repeat for sure on November (WHICH IS MY BIRTHDAY MONTH). Aiming for nearer seats this time, but let’s see what the universe will give us. 

FINAL THOUGHTS:

I thought if I finally see WINNER live I’d be finally scratching an itch--like I’ve already see them live and that’s that. But NOOOOOooooooOOOOOooo. It’s completely the opposite. Now YouTube and mixlrs are not enough anymore T_T When you’ve seen them live... you just want to repeat the experience over and over again.

To all Inner Circles still reading up to this point: CONGRATS and THANK YOU:))

 Also, my god. You can forget everything you’ve read up to this point but just remember this.

SEE

THEM

LIVE.

See them live.

I am not kidding around. You should, at least once in your life. Even if it’s just General Admission ticket or the farthest seat***. It’s different when you are in the same venue and you see them performing LIVE right in front of your very eyes. In my opinion, Yoon’s voice is 10x better live---recording absolutely does not do him justice. Same with the Mino, Jinwoo and Hoon. Their vocals, dance skills, over-all charisma cannot be simply captured by the camera. YOU HAVE TO SEE THEM LIVE TO KNOW WHAT I MEAN, WHY I’M SO ADAMANT ABOUT THIS :)))) I’ve seen performers that are exactly the same live as they are in YouTube or sound the same like Spotify but I can say with complete confidence: not WINNER. I can say their true strength is live performance.

I’m sure I’ve missed a lot but this is becoming a research-paper already HAHA so I’d end it here. SO glad we pushed for this trip, so blessed that everything worked in our favor (we were the last flight out before the NAIA airport incident happened huhu) and we’re already looking forward to November in MNL****! :)

till then bye~

P.S. If you want to chika more or need me to translate the Filipino bits lol just hit me up on teh Ask :)

*we saw at least 2 big Yoon masternims that we avidly follow talaga, 2 european ics we follow (lol “european” what is dead giveaway lol) and 1 of the 3 japanese KSY fans we also like HAHA so cute T_T

** I’m not a dancer, but my boyfriend is, and I remember him saying that personally he has more respect for dancers who dance according to what he feels--because it’s one of the highest forms of expression (as opposed to just relying with choreo). It’s a testament to a dancer’s ability that he/she is able to catch the beat without “thinking” about it too much--so the dance becomes the story of the dancer, not the choreo. LOL I think I’m botching his explanation about it but it’s just I remember Hoon whenever my boyfriend and I talk about freestyle dance.

*** Of course it you can’t make it due to various reasons that’s okay, but if you have a chance to make it happen, don’t hesitate. I’d say it’s worth every penny you’d spend to see them live.

[ithefuturist]

EUROPE INITIATION - PART 3: PARIS

It’s hard to pin down when my French awakening started.

It might have been in 1992 when as a  little boy I watched the Roland Garros Ladies Final on tv with my father. While watching the match I heard him cuss like like a sailor as Monica Seles and Steffi Graf slugged it out in a thrilling final set which Seles eventually won, 10-8. This match was bananas! And I also learned my first French words from the match:

Égalit�� = deuce, but literally “equality” or “tied” (when the game is at 40-40). This term would then later come in handy when I learn about about egalitarian societies. 

S'il vous plaît = literally means “please” or “if you would please” but in tennis speak it’s basically used by the umpire to tell the crowd to “Shut up please. And thanks!” So picking it up as a young boy whenever I hear someone being loud or plainly saying something ludicrous I would precociously say, “S'il vous plaît.” “Shut up please. And thanks!” 😁

I also learned to count in French but only with the numbers 15, 30 and 40. Teehee! 😁  

Well, on second thought, my French awakening may have happened on another occasion. It might have been through Victor Hugo’s Les Miserables and The Hunchback of Notre Dame. Mostly through the music, I must say. Tom Hulce’s version of “Out There” is a long time favorite and of course Lea’s Eponine singing “On My Own” is quite remarkable. (Side note: while I was in Paris, I stayed near the river Seine and the Notre Dame cathedral and literally heard the bells of Notre Dame and couldn’t help but hum, well,  The Bells of Notre Dame. It felt so surreal! I also imagined Quasimodo ringing the bells himself! Haha!)  

But then there was French art. Claude Monet’s work has always fascinated me. So maybe Monet was the one responsible for my French awakening.

There was also French cinema. In my teens, the Embassy of France would hold a French Film Festival at the Shang and I would queue up every year to see some of the best French movies. Three films particularly moved me: 

Jean Renoir’s La Grande Illusion (The Grand Illusion) probably the best war film ever made 

The wonderfully acted La Vie rêvée des anges (The Dreamlife of Angels)

Indochine starring the amazing Catherine Deneuve 

There’s a lot to draw from, and as I look back I couldn’t pin it down to a single moment in time where my deep fascination to anything French began. I can tell you this - the moment I arrived in Gare de Lyon and as I emerged from the train station and into Paris it didn’t feel like I was in a foreign city. It almost felt like I’ve been there before, many times over. It almost felt like I was coming home. 

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Picture story time! They’re not chronological - yet again - coz Tumblr.

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This was at the train ride from Barcelona’s Sant station going to Gare de Lyon in Paris. Funny story - I booked a first class seat because, well, who doesn’t wanna be comfortable when they travel right? At the train station I was asking someone where the first class lounge was and I got weird reactions or I dunno maybe somebody pointed me to a set of chairs that were in some corner somewhere - I don’t remember. But what I learned was - first class train seats in Europe aren’t any special. Also, you literally have to carry your own luggage into the train. I actually asked a fellow passenger while we were about to board if that was normal. He laughed. So to the uninitiated (me), first class train ride does not equal first class airplane ride. I got over that unmet expectation coz baby I was going to Paris! Woohoo! Nothing else mattered at that time! 😁(UPDATE: after researching this over on YouTube it looks like this depends on the train you’re taking. It’s like PAL business class (meh) vs. Qatar or Emirates BC experience (wow!)) 

This was at the summit of the Eiffel Tower. Got the “VIP skip the line” ticket but still had to queue up for hours. As far as I’m concerned, going up the summit isn’t worth it. I feel like queueing up that long for anything is a waste of time. And then going down, you still have to queue up for the elevator as well. So just to go up and down the Eiffel Tower becomes a half day affair at least. My good friend Mona told me they should have offered me the option to rappell down the tower LOL! Between wasting time and something fun/dangerous, I would have taken the latter option easily. 

My favorite piece of art from the Louvre. 

This was the Japanese garden in Monet’s estate in Giverny. It’s like being in his famous Lilies painting. It’s quite an experience. Book the trip at Viator! 

Isn’t Paris beautiful? Alex brought me here to see this view. Actually, he brought me everywhere in Paris. Memorize ko na nga ang Paris guys kasi nilakad namin lahat. Haha! But I’m glad he did coz I really now feel like I couldn’t get lost in Paris. He also taught me how to use the Metro - and if you ask me, the Paris Metro is easier to navigate (and waaaay cleaner) than the New York subway. 

Venus de Milo. In the world of art - the powers that be dictate what’s valuable. Kinda like hype machinery. Just like the Cambell soup “art” by Warhol - madami kasi syang friends na alta who backed him up and hailed his work as “art”. I think same story sa Venus de Milo pero with this one it was during a time when civilizations were upholding their cultures by amassing (and salvaging) art. The French needed to collect significant pieces of art - and if I heard the story right - when they found the Venus de Milo they declared it as “the one” - the piece of art that they have that they can be proud of. In a way, it’s significant na rin but if you ask me about its artistic value - I’ve seen a lot of better sculptures but we also have to remember that art is also something that describes a moment in history so we couldn’t deny Venus de Milo’s significance. Ok na rin. Choice naman nila yan. Haha!

iPhone only. Didn’t even get to use my G7X camera. Used and abused the portrait mode feature of the iPhone. 

Thumbs up pose again. Note to self in the next travel photos - surf’s up pose naman for variety. LOL! 

Dilaw na dilaw. 

To be fair, I like this photo from the inverted pyramid at the Louvre. Pero naka thumbs up na naman. Ugh.

When in Paris - Vuitton. 

Don’t I look giddy here? Romanticism guys. Cupid bringing Psyche back to life. The placement of the sculpture at the Louvre was perfect too coz it gets natural lighting that makes it look even more dramatic. I was totally in awe of this sculpture! 

Eiffel Tower again. Still not Facebook banner levels. Oh well, next time.

Sacre Coeur. Sacred Heart. 

I thought I was being bold when I decided to go for this shot. I would later find out that a lot of people do this. Yung nakatayo sa gitna ng daan. K. 😂

I tried doing an emotive pose here. But still not Facebook banner quality. Check out the flip flop too.  

Monet’s garden. In fact, I got to go inside his house! BFF levels! Just kidding!

This was another attempt. But so casual. Pambahay look. Hahaha!

This was taken from the window of Monet’s bedroom. Nice no?

Eiffel Tower at night taken with an iPhone. 

French countryside. Nag traditional French lunch lang. 

This window type of photo is very Paris. 

Versailles. I highly recommend going to Versailles to understand the French better and why aesthetics is an intrinsic part of their culture. Their King literally wanted the French to be the best dressed and best looking people in the world. He even cared so much about his hair - hence the pictures of people with wigs back then. And then there’s the Palace of Versailles which he wanted to be the grandest palace ever. Na achieve naman nya. Daming gold. 

Montmartre. Mainit!

Uso na pala selfie dati pa. 

Outtake at the Notre Dame. 

Dior store. Nice no?

Louvre. 

Versailles. Gold talaga yang mga yan guys. HAHA!

Seine. 

Bawal daw pumasok si Sia dito guys baka ano daw gawin at makabasag. LOL! Waley. 🤦‍♂️

And that’s all that I could share to you guys! Thanks again to Viator for helping me make my vacation seamless. 

[bandznerd]

Sleeping With Sirens's first time in Praguee

Ok so if anyone is interested here's my feelings about my first SWS and SWS's first concert in Prague, CZ. First of all I would like to say that I was really looking forward to the show, but at the same time I really couldn't believe I am really gonna see my most favorite band everrr. So anyway thanks to that I met awesome girl (and a new friend actually) from Slovakia (if you are reading it, hiii!😁) so the waiting was way better, but it was SO SO SO cold! My ass was freezing! I also expected a lot of guys there because we came about 2 hours before the beginning and still catched the good spot, actually. But the waiting was really horrible, so long. But! Then happend something (still don't don't what) and everybody just pushed each other, wanted so badly to go through and be in the front so it was kinda funny, mainly the other people's faces like "OMG what are all the kids doing here/ Ong they have another band here/ are they okey?" - I guess we were like the oldest there :D - and once we were right in front of the entrance GUESS WHO JUST CAME - JACK FUCKING FOWLER!😊 I guess me and my two friends was like the only one who noticed because nobody reacted to him and now I kinda feel sad/sorry that I didn't say at least hi, of I saw him seconds earlier I would probably did. Nevermind. Than we finally got to trough the entrance and literally flew to the cabins put our jackets and other things away and then we run to the stage. We were like in the 3rd row in the middle so it was freaking awesome!

Then I just wondered how did two girls who were for the whole waiting time behind us and now they were in the first row... Second nevermind.

The first band was czech-slovakian band (so homies) and THEY WERE FUCKING FUCKING AMAZING! At the end we wanted soooo so badly the encore and I wish you could see their surprised looks, they thanked a lot and it was really awesome 🕊️ (so now we are in the Pidegon army!) And then they went away and came the technics and then they showed Gossip album picture and the crowd went literally crazy just from that pic, haha. And THEEEEN. THE. KINGS CAME! I was standing there, yelling, couldn't believe I was really seeing them for real and it was also awesome. And I was also half deef, so wasn't even hearing my own voice, lol. Like during the third song i had completely dry in my mouth and it was kinda hard to sing but... I got trough it lollol😂 and like it was going to an end and there was like still 2-3 song before an end and they just "thank you, this is our last song" and they really did went away. But after four LOUDLY screaming for more songs they came like nothing happened 😂 and! They played acoustic Roger Rabbit and it WAS SO FUCKING FUCKING BEAUTIFUL!!! Then Kellin was talking about how loud we sang and that he liked it and all other shits, and then something about his voice - don't remember exactly what - BECAUSE MY DAMNED PC HAD TO BROKE DOWN! - and Nick told him that he sounded sexy, it was so sweet.

And at the end - classic Kick me. I guess we all screamed as loud as we only could, because this song is legendary and so true. And they throwers their guitar picks and Gabe drum sticks and asshole shooke hands with some of the girls by the one side.

I also tried - unsuccessfully - touch Kellin - but it was so crowded in front of him lol. Who would say that hm?

They did a quickly goodbye (in contrast to the first band very quick) so we were all like It's really over, huh?

Except the fucking mosh pit - it was fucking fucking terrbile, we even stoped saying sorry to each other because it was kind of worthless when the other assholes keep hitting you ans almost bringing you down to your knees. I was really waiting to the moment when I fell down to the floor 😂 - so next time probably not going to the middle.

I wanted to buy something in the merch because the girls said it was really cheap but when I saw the queue and if I didn't had to catched the train I would stay there longer, buy merch and maybe I would be so lucky like others and meet the guys and take photos with them, but i was really pleased I could see them live and next time I try to catch them.

And I am kinda mad, they already planned their 2018 Europe tour and they left out Czech Republic. Ok, they will be having their first show in Slovakia which is like really close but still. They even WILL HAVE MEET AND GREET. LIKE WHAT IS THAT?! we want it here next time too haha!

So that is pretty much it. For the whole night I was checking my photos and videos and looking through Instagram who took photos or videos and almost cry that I saw them for real. The next morning I was like awesomely sleepy all day. But it was definitely worth it.

PS: if you wouldn't mind, check the (our local) band who played like first on this concert - their name is JOHN WOOLFHOOKER, they deserve it, such a lovely guys and personally really cool guys.

So if you read it down here, congrats. And also thanks for reading, appreciate!

Love you guys and thank you for following this blog! ❤️

[koreinkorein]

Meeting DNP in Vidcon!

23/06/17 Vidcon 2017 in LA

Hello! as you know by now I do love to visually document things instead of writing them down as I tend to forget, so much like the first ever post I made of me meeting them which you can see here this is going to be a very similar format where I doodle things and tell you what happened!

So on Friday last week, me and Iris @zongqiqi finally met DNP in Vidcon, it was quite a struggle for me to actually get them on the vidcon lottery and I almost thought that meeting them and giving everything was pretty much impossible but thankfully I was told by Shadi (@phanbears) that her friend Leslie @tuliphil was giving her dnp mng away and it led to her giving her wristband to me which I’m still forever thankful for like seriously these guys are the nicest people you’ll ever meet and it’s such a pleasure to be able to hang out with them thank you so much :”) So I finally I decided to go for it and off I went to LA!!

The day of the MNG me and Iris were pretty much practicing in the corner of the MNG hall to time ourselves since dnp arent in the line yet and actually say things we wanted to say in 30 seconds, it was super dumb but we had a lot of fun doing that and it really reminded us how important this event is to even practice for it! so tbt to @zongqiqi for our timed rehearsal haha

So finally its time to head to the MNG line and queue up (for hours), and me and iris were dumb enough to not even realize that the line was changed from 15 to line 11 ....dnp have been there since the time we rehearsed (seriously we’re that dumb) which brought us to the end of the line... and somehow.. we manage to get in the line, and queued again until the whole wristband drama happened and finally FINALLY its our turn to go!

So Iris was up first and during that time I was sort of planning on what I’d have to say, and all that, i think by that point my soul was just sort of gone and I just really needed to give them all of the shit I’ve made for them...

And so Iris was done and then its finally my turn! and i swear to god...

it might have been cause I haven’t actually met them standing up (the B&N signing was them sitting down) but...they were honestly like two tall twin towers hovering above me (I’m not even up to their shoulders) tho rather than intimidating giants they were like...friendly giant towers so I went in for hugs

Surprisingly I didn't smell anything.. idk if they were wearing their cologne?? anyways I gave them both hugs and i think iris said it the best “it was like hugging two fluffy tubes” truly..

So after the hugs I finally showed them the god almighty food book!!! courtesy of 2 years’ worth of work by me and @melonphan so I first told them about the food book, how me and @melonphan collabed on it and asked phil about her if he knows her from doing his YT banner and he said “of course!” I’m very delighted that he knows her!! so basically I had the food book and the zine I did with me (my copy initially for them to sign)

Which to my surprise had them say

i have no idea they saw it? well i did tweet @ them on twitter but they didn’t respond so I totally thought they didn’t see it but hey! i’m glad that they saw it?? so I was flipping through my zine next and since I was flipping through on the phil’s bday art section phil suddenly said

I wasn’t crying i swear nobody deserves phil lester he is truly the purest pure

then it was hilarious cause as I was flipping through the book, it seems that I might’ve gone over time cause their manager was trying to interrupt but dan was just

and so i tried to hurry up by straight away giving dan a gudantama charm as a late bday present! to which he said

I then said Im actually doing mimei’s branding and he said really? :D (yes to everyone here i am currently doing mimei’s merch and rebranding haha)

So then they asked if they could sign anything and I was like yeah! here’s a card, you can sign there, and then in that minute i think i was just gone cause when dan asked

I blanked out and blurted

Yeah I decided since they can only sign one thing to just give the whole thing book and all to them, I was thinking well since i made it for them anyways and I can always reprint them, so I just gave it all ahhaha no regrets!!

So....I was glad everything (well almost) went all to plan and I forgot about the selfie till dan actually reached out for my phone

Since i was so unprepared with a pose I just awkwardly asked...

I swear they had to kneel to get me in the shot.. and so there i was poking them

then thats it! on my way out i thanked them and hugged them again and dan said sth that i probably would never forget

and that + phil’s I love your art really made my entire day :”)

And so thats the end! I had such a hard time processing what came after that, me and iris were just sitting in front of the fountain for about a half an hour trying to really process what happened and kept taking picture of our signed cards:

but overall its been such an awesome time to get to experience vidcon with my friends, and also I got to meet so many of the people that follow me and support my artwork too! so its honestly been such a great time :”)

I’m so glad that I got to meet dnp, my friends, and everyone of you who came by to say hi! <3 It’s been such a surreal experience and I would not trade these moments for anything in the world <3

Thank you so much @danielhowell​ + @amazingphil​ for being so amazing you guys are truly why I keep arting till this day so meeting you and having you say you loved my art was truly a life changing experience :”) thank you so so much! <3

-Korein

[getfit182]

12/01/17

Happy December! I’m going to take my time and write out this post, and it may be long so I apologize for that.

I didn’t do so great in terms of weight “loss” in November. While in October, I lost nearly 6 pounds, in November, I lost a mere 1.8 pounds. Granted, all the nonsense that occurred with the GRE and starting the application process and the bad habits that tried to creep back in halted some progress but I am okay with the slow weight loss. It’s definitely not a race for me.

Goals for December include:

Attempting to get to 175 lbs. 

Finish applications and be secure with all my decisions.

Not stress about presents.

See my best friend.

Sticking to my winter skincare every day!

As for celebrating my completion of the GRE, my friend and I went to an amazing vegan place, and I definitely held back with the food aspect. I did have an unhealthy breakfast but I did walked over 15K steps so I’m not stressed about that. But the vegan food was really good! I had a vegan pot pie with loads of veggies in it! I saw how buttery the top and crust was, so I only had half of that and honestly the portion was so huge that I just stopped eating when I was full (I usually feel compelled to finish a plate). But definitely worth the trip into the city in the cold.

We went to my favorite bar and that was really nice too. My throats been bothering me all week so I asked for a mixed drink that had strong bourbon in it, but it hasn’t really helped. (Not that I expected it to haha. I’ve had hot teas all day and still no relief :/). I had no problem with the drink though I think it was a little strong for my friend. The bar tender that tried to send me a dick pic was there, but he had just finished his shift. Not that I felt uncomfortable, but I think he was expecting me not to come back? Womp, well. He looked surprised. I’m not ditching one of life’s pleasures for some idiot.

I’m home now and I’ve made and drank some Theraflu Severe Cold/Flu tea.I hope it helps but if not, I might have to go pick up something as in actual medicine from the pharmacy. Argh. 

Tomorrow I have my first real day off, and I’m really looking forward to spending some time alone so I can read and work on some of my actual pieces. I also picked up On Chesil Beach by Ian McEwan; super interesting book so far even if I’m not a huge fan of the writing. Very few dialogue but I don’t mind.

I think I’m going to write out a few of the Self Love Challenge posts to queue up in case I forget? Probably better to be safe than sorry.

I hope everyone’s weekend is starting off good!!

[kathrynmjaneway]

Quick update on the time lash situation.

I am NOT home at my own apartment. I'm currently at my parents (they got a 3h warning before i showed up)

BECAUSE.

About 3/4 of the railway system in Germany is a mess because of storms and shit and whatnot and A SHIT TON OF TRAINS GOT CANCELLED.

At first i thought I was fine since I was going a different (unaffected!!!) direction, but then about half an hour before my train was supposed to leave it got cancelled as well. The information center was packed and queues were looooooong (and oh god, was I annoyed. And it was cold.)

So to make a long story short, talked to my mum, told her about the situation and I decided to take a regional train back to my parents (because that was way closer, and most importantly, i found a connection WHERE THE TRAINS WERENT CANCELLED!!! but even that took annoyingly long)

My parents are the sweetest, they really missed me and they are srsly soooo happy i'm here now (because we thought I'd only see them again in december) and they are really excited and are making me stay here for a few days since there's a holiday this week and they are home (which i dont mind AT ALL, i just barely have any clothes with me haha). They even picked me up from the train station at after 10pm on a sunday night when they both have to work tomorrow :')))

Sooooo tonight was stressful and annoying but it did end on a very good note. It's past 1am now though, so I'll go sleep now.

I don't know how much stuff i'll post about time lash since I obviously don't have my laptop with me (only my tablet, but lately the tumblr app wont work at all), so it could take a few days.

Just know that today was (apart from the Deutsche Bahn disaster) absolutely wonderful. I really only wanted to go there for Torchwood and meeting Kai, Naoko and Scott was just GREAT. I cant even properly put into words. This experience today makes it all worth it. You can't believe how much this day means to me, especially meeting Naoko and getting to talk about Aliens Among Us with Scott. I'm still completely over the moon. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

More stuff/photos/stories to come at some point this week!

[littlenomo]

Gaga Over (S)Udaipur

I'm really at a loss to know how to tell you how amazing our time celebrating Suman and Gagan's wedding has been. We're both really in awe that we have been able to experience such an incredible event with such incredible people!! Having said all that though, our journey to get there was long, expensive and stressful!! After our 9 hour flight with a very fluey Alex, and first night crashing at Aman's flat Mumbai, we wanted to have a chilled day there. We succeeded for the first half of the day! A lie in and then Alex first taste of real Indian food for lunch - everyone's a winner. But then after we'd picked up our rented Indian wedding outfits from Suman's friend Devanshi's lobby, we realised that 3 of them were missing and we couldn't get through to customer service on the phone! So with less than 2 hours until we needed to be at the airport to fly to Udaipur for the wedding the next afternoon, we rushed to the company's store in Mumbai and tried to hurry along the staff as we paid again to replace our missing outfits, but with much more limited choices. However, (as seemed to be a theme throughout our stay), a sense of urgency is really hard to come by in India, so with the hectic traffic when we left, we arrived with only 5 minutes before check in closed so the machine didn't work, but a lady told us we weren't "very late" so it was fine just to join the queue - phew! Then the next drama. We were told at the check in desk that our flight had been moved to 12:15 (it was now about 18:30) and they'd tried to contact us several times with no success to let us know about the change. Our hearts sank as we realised we may have to fly at 05:00 the next morning, but then a miracle; two no shows on the new 19:15 flight meant we squeezed back in in the nick of time! The drama continued however, with a 2 hour delay in taking off (of course!); which meant that by the time we got to our hotel in Udaipur (45 minutes drive from the airport) and the porters took us to the wrong room and then spent 20 minutes trying to find the right one, we were just too exhausted to go and see Su at her hotel, which I was devastated about. Though when I heard the tales of 02:00 party crashing (the whole bridal party had been living off around 2-4 hours sleep a night on the run up to the wedding - I really don't know how they do it!) I was relieved we'd made the choice to get our beauty sleep. In the morning I began to remember what Indian living is really like, and that for a wedding everything is ten times more manic and unpredictable. By the end of the wedding we knew to add at least two hours to any expected timings and that "it isn't an Indian wedding without some chaos". However, when we arrived at the Radisson Blu I instantly knew all the pain had been worth it. It was quite literally a palace and the view out over the lakes was absolutely breathtaking. Also getting to see Su very briefly before the first event, I was so so glad we came. Day one was pre-wedding partying essentially and the first event is called Mehendi and is traditionally for the women, but everyone was there. It was on the rooftop of the hotel and as you arrived there was a bright pink archway (pink was definitely a theme!) with fluorescent coloured origami hanging from it. I GOT HENNA! It was so amazing to watch, the women work so quickly and intricately; I can't stop looking at the artwork on my hands and I'm trying to make it last as long as possible (even washed my hair with bags on my hands yesterday haha). I got our's and Su's hashtags in henna too, one on each arm. This event started proceedings as they meant to go on, consisting of chatting, eating, drinking, taking pictures, goggling at fabulous dresses - The colours! The glamour! - and being gobsmacked by the unbelievable view over the lake as the sun went down. I reconnected with some familiar faces, like Iza, Suman's friend from Hulme days and many many new ones. The second event is called Sangeet and is basically an engagement party and this one was set in the ballroom with huge chandeliers and loud booming Indian music. The white guys were always ready far too early; the rookies in this 2-hours-later-than-we-told-you malarkey. The Sangeet consisted of more of the above, but with the added excitement of some of the younger bridal party performing dances (we nipped up to see some of the rehearsals beforehand in Su's suite and again it was madness - shouting over each other and stopping and starting ha), which I loved! They were just having the best time and they all looked so beautiful and full of life and I particularly loved that the guys were just as passionate and involved as we girls. It also included, bizarrely, the proposal! Everyone crowded round the couple as they exchanged engagement rings and Gagan got down on one knee to the glee of the crowd. I can't believe this was the first time Su had been given, or even seen, the engagement ring! How did she know he was a man of good taste before she agreed to the wedding?! Having said that, the ring was chokka block full of diamonds so it worked out OK for her I guess, and lucky for Suman's dad that she didn't say no at this stage! Then we celebrated the engagement!! The morning of day two (the actual wedding day) was carnage. Everyone had had another really late and heavy night. I was told bridal group were being forced to go to bed around 5am and the first event of the day was due to start at 6am!! Needless to say, it did not, and the morning was a game of guess-when-things-are-happening-and-try-not-to-miss-it! It was frustrating as I could have made it to the first event of the day in the end (Haldi & Chura, where they put turmeric on the bride), but I had no idea what time it was happening. Just as I was going to head to the venue I heard that Suman was already at breakfast covered in turmeric! Anyway, I went down to the spa to have my saree wrapped (what a complicated ordeal!) and then we heard that Gagan was arriving so we raced down to the veranda outside reception. And what a show it was! Gagan was on a bejazzled white horse and wearing a veil made of pearls. His friends and family followed him down the hill accompanied by an amazing team of drummers and subsequent jubilant dancing! The older men in Gagan's family were having an absolute blast and throwing money in the air (a tradition of paying the drummers so they keep playing) and waving money over each other's heads which we saw a few times and must be a way of giving good luck or blessing. It was so vibrant and loud and fun! Then after another panic to get everyone into taxis to the temple (apparently Suman wasn't even 100% ready but her dad was kicking off as they were going to miss their appointment and not be able to actually get married!), we made it and Su's dress was absolutely breathtaking. Red, gold, sparkly and just perfect, she looked amazing. The ceremony was more informal than what we had imagined with people chatting and coming in late, but it was really beautifully done and all Su's girlfriends could come up and sit right next to her which felt like such a privilege. The whole thing was like that actually; Suman's family were so inclusive and wanted us to be up close and personal with everything. We obviously didn't know everything that was going on but the guy running the service sang everything he said (it was really impressive!) and Gagan had to lead Su around the alter 4 times which represented 4 promises they were making to each other. Afterwards Su seemed in a sleepy daze and couldn't believe she was actually married!! I also loved that all the men on Suman's side wore pink turbans (including Alex!). I couldn't help but see the symmetry between that and my dad wearing pink shoes... Same thing right? I saw loads more traditions that afternoon including the grand arrival of the new husband and wife (accompanied by deafening confetti canons!), the families giving each other garlands and gifts and hugging, Suman shaking her long wrist jewellery over all the single ladies and whoever it breaks on will get married next (though she made sure everyone got some ha!), and the super emotional ritual of saying goodbye to her family where she throws petals which her family all catch and then they hug her one by one with a lot of tears (obviously including from me). She is then welcomed in by the groom's family and all the men pretend to push them away together in the car. I think I was the only non-family member there, it was a really moving ceremony. Then a quick nap before the reception!! The reception was super classy, this time out on the veranda with fairy lights and ball gowns. The bride and groom entered between firework canons and again Suman looked like a real life princess. It then seemed like no time at all until we were at the after party in the pool side room complete with pool table and DJ! Lots of pictures, drinks and boy, did we dance! Alex was on fire and everyone was loving it! Top night with top people in an unbelievable location. And we didn't pay for one thing the whole time, madness. The next day we managed to squeeze in a little trip down to the lake with Iza and it was truly breathtaking and the little slice of peacefulness that we were very much in need of after all the madness. Thanks so much for having us Su, it was truly unforgettable and we will be forever grateful that we could be there and experience all that we did!! Now, where were we? Ah yes, Bali...