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a-bunch-of-startled-cats · 29 days

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🪴In times when everything feels overwhelming and your inner world is heavy, know that your strength is not defined by how you feel. Even if today feels dark, you’re still a person of immense value and worth. Take things one moment at a time, and remember that your existence has a quiet resilience. You are doing your beset, and something to be proud of🪴

im barely a person, but alright. thanks for the kind words, i guess

who are you, anyway? are you the same anon from the other emoji asks?

#asks #that emoji gimmick makes me think that this is the same person as the other ones #yknow what #im not-so-secretly hoping this g or b sending asks on anon #but that's extremely unlikely #i dont think they've learned how to send asks #and this is writing style isnt like either of theirs #and you seem to know a little something about systems because you said inner world #which #funnily enough #it's the outer world that's the problem here #it's because i cant get a job or go to college #and thus cant move with my cat out of my abusive parents' place #so im stuck in an endlessly retraumatizing environment #with parents who treat me like some decoration or little kid when im in my 20s #who seemingly endlessly lie about supporting my efforts at independence #all while the 2 fps/crushes that ive loved for 5 years both rejected my romantic feelings and one of them even got into a relationship #and like #yea im a whole yanpilled jealousymaxxer and everything XD #but i am polyam #and it's not like i couldnt handle having a metamour #but i dont get that #i get nothing #i get to be loved “like a brother”#by the people that have literally been my reasons to stay alive #and yea i get it #this mentality is at odds with my whole relationship anarchy-adjacent stuff #but i can't fucking help it #and all that while my meds keep getting fucked with and i can't sleep #and then there's the anxiety of what happens if america fucks up and elects a fascist again. yeah if that happens i probably will die

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