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theyre the same if you squint
#*fizzyspeaks#bg3#dorohedoro#karlach#noi#noi dorohedoro#im onto something im telling you#and it's not just the lesbian gears in my brain turning#need them both to punch me <3#silly goofy strong women that are deadly <33#actually do you even need ?? to squint??? like YOU KNOW 🫵🏽
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Do you have any Regina headcannons?
Yes that girl lives rent-free in my brain
I subscribe to the lesbian Regina starter pack headcanons like she only takes Aaron back because she has a crush on Cady and is jealous, she had feelings for Janis at some point (especially because she kept the rainbow pin), etc
I have mentioned this before but I think Regina figure skated when she was younger, and I now accept her having done gymnastics as part of canon. I think she probably quit around level 7 or 8.
Lacrosse Regina is canon to me I think she joins in her senior year
I wrote a throwaway line about her having a horse in a fic but I think she did express interest in horseback riding at one point so her parents bought her a horse but Regina smelled a barn for the first time and turned around and left
She was traumatized by the bus—she tries to hide it but she has nightmares and panic attacks and is sometimes afraid to go into the parking lot. She also has chronic pain.
Regina and Shane are very close friends and remain so after high school. He's the first person she comes out to.
She also becomes close with Damian post-canon
Regina has a near-perfect GPA but is very "what, like it's hard?" about it. She wants to go to law school. If debate club wasn't for nerds she would demolish anyone in a debate.
She is deeply insecure about literally everything but especially her body/appearance and craves assurances but doesn't know how to communicate that
Her relationship with her mother is strained at best and downright hostile with her father (I will continue to demonize this man in every fic despite his .5 seconds of screen time)
The movie shows her having seemingly no hobbies but I think she loves to read and, according to Taylor Louderman, she plays the sims
She's a touchy-feely drunk (e.g., her high at spring fling licking Cady's head) but will bite you if you try to hug her when she's sober. Except Cady. Cady is allowed to play with her hair but you can't tell anyone.
I always find it interesting to reverse the typical canon power dynamic in intimate settings—like Regina has such a dominant personality but it's rooted in her need to control things in her life (friends, status, her weight, etc) so I think when she is with someone she trusts she'll hand them the reins and let go. I'm specifically thinking of the Cady/Regina dynamic here.
#i'm not sure what it is about the repressed lesbian teen queen bee trope that really gets the gears turning in my brain#mean girls#regina george#ask#anonymous#this isn't even all of them i'm just sleepy
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Round 2
Propaganda Under Cut
Annabeth Chase
I feel like fandom is kinda split on her with percabeth shippers loving her but any m/m shipper I've seen does not like her, really. She is my bae tho <3
Percabeth antis grind my gears so much because they never hate Percy, nono, even though he's arguably done more questionable stuff than Annabeth. Not everyone who hates her is doing so because of a mlm ship— the Perachel stans claim that Annabeth is a misogynist. However, basically everyone that isn't trying to ship her boyfriend with Rachel is trying to ship him with Jason, Nico, or her old friend Luke. They make her out to be this horrible abusive girlboss(derogatory) that she's simply... not. She doesn't insult Percy for having ADHD just because she's highly intelligent. She doesn't physically abuse him, and doesn't lay a finger on him outside of training. She's really devoted to him in a non-anti-feminist way. They just hate her for 'getting in the way' of Nico's convoluted attraction to Percy, or Jason's close friendship with him, or Luke's rivalry with him. But those relationships all flourish the way they were intended by the author: non-romantically. It's not Annabeth's fault for being intelligent or capable or jokingly snide or determined or any of those non-stereotypically-feminine qualities. She's just out here existing and people hate her for not being a man. Sorry for the rant.
She's canonically in a relationship with Percy Jackson for most of the books they're in, but he often gets paired in canon with other male characters, such as Nico di Angelo or Jason Grace. In fan fiction (especially yaoi focused ones) she's characterized as being a stuck up know it all, but she gets into plenty of shenanigans in canon and can be pretty goofy and sweet!
Sakura Haruno
Her husband is gay and her author doesn't know how to write women. So many people say she's the worst but she. DESERVES. BETTER!!! Save her from this franchise.
My baby girl my bestie my best friend. She committed the crime of um being written by kishimoto who both doesn’t know how to write women and somehow writes men in the gayest way possible specifically naruto and sasuke. Like the thing is naruto and sasuke ARE gay and also she gets so much hate for the crime of kishimoto writing her one dimensionally in love with sasuke. I know her personally she is a butch lesbian to me just trust me she’s in love with Ino and has a lesbian thing going on with Karin okay just trust me. My everything. She needs to divorce the loveless lavender marriage she’s in
What is there to say, even? The OG Threat to my 90s anime brain, the only woman I've ever hated with such a passion she made me turn away from the color pink. I used to write fics with my friend where she got left behind on purpose so our OCs could join the Naruto and Sasuke team instead. I loathed this bitch until I was 16 and realized the author simply couldnt write women and decided it was time to make peace with Sakura. It is not her fault she's vaguely written and obsessive over Sasuke. She deserves better. Sasuke and Naruto still should be together and Sakura shouldnt be with Sasuke but I no longer believe this because I hate Sakura, it is because I love her. She deserves a spouse who will actually put in the time to treat her like the hero she is.
#poll#round 2#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo#annabeth chase#naruto#naruto shippuden#sakura haruno
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i keep seeing all of the new minecraft updates and content and like.
there's so much potential for fics that just pick up jesse from story mode like a wet kitten and drop her into the deep dark, or a trial chamber, or the new nether (what would be the logistics of that? how would one explain all the changes between the old and new nether in a somewhat canon-compliant world? my gears are turning guys) or even her just exploring some of the new biomes. i think she would LOVE lush caves. and i think petra would have HELLA fun with the mace.
and the best way to incorporate this concept into a canon-compliant universe is to make it after the petra ending of season 2... which means... lesbians.... yeah i think you know where i'm going with this
after i finish writing my current jesstra fic!! im probably gonna at least infodump about my ideas for jesse and petra experiencing modern-era updates! there's a lot of jesstra fic ideas rattling around in this gay little brain of mine believe it or not. like im even thinking about a prequel that explains how they started dating... lemme know if y'all would be interested in any of that :D whenever i get the time to make it lmao
also, a preview of chapter two of my current fic should be out in a day or three! so stay tuned!!! yippee!! wahoo! (explodes into lesbian colored glitter clouds)
#writing#fanfiction#ao3#minecraft#minecraft story mode#mcsm#jesse mcsm#petra mcsm#jesse x petra#jesstra#waffles word wall#waffles writing#yapping#waffles yaps-a-lot
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again. sorry for clogging your website time. this whole wuvvy & rue & hob conversation is sooooo messy in my head cuz like. Yup. everyone loves Plot Thing. and the only folks whose analysis and art and everything of it i enjoy and which make the gears in my head really turn are big haters (slash very complicated relationship) of Plot Thing. i nod to and understand every word. nothing made more sense. the problem is im head over heels for Plot Thing. what is even the move in this case. just try and save equestria.
I get this sort of sentiment a lot ('I love your art but I HATE your opinions/I hate what your opinions are doing to my brain'). I have very strong thoughts on plot points/themes since I pay close attention to them for art purposes. I also tend to keep to myself and draw what I want... I think at no point in my entire d20 watching history have my thoughts ever aligned with the mainstream fandom 😭😭😭
historically people have seen a lot of success dealing with this by either a) sending me hatemail [please don't] b) becoming my friend and assimilating with my thoughts [fun!] c) producing content of THEIR point of view. what I mean to say is if this is about you liking ruehob but you can't unsee the fact that ruehob is kind of built on cardboard foundations and wuvvy gets totally overlooked... you simply have to assimilate that into your own head and synthesize your own point of view. it's there and you can't IGNORE it but... who says you can't still be into it? maybe ruehob have a gutting realization 3 yrs in and then they have a serious discussion and they come out stronger and happier together for it. maybe they have terrible coping mechanisms and there's some sort of a plot event that forces them to work together more closely and rue discovers what love is to them for real. maybe wuvvy goes back to the court of hoof and claw and finds a lesbian situationship. I don't know! the world is your oyster, up to you to make pearls out of it. I'm just the grain of sand.
#naggingatlas#asks#acofaf spoilers#I also cannot jive with most people's acofaf interpretations. lol! because wuvvy is my favorite and everyone ignores wuvvy
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a treatise on THE THROUPLE by ME and MY FRIEND CALLIE: The moment i know Something was Up was when Mizu and Akemi first see each other while akemi is being carried across that bridge. they make brief eye contact (in slow motion naturally) and bells and alarms went off in my brain: I am looking a bisexual. This is episode 1. Sean Kingston was right, but I digress. Mizu, on god, you will get to finger a princess, this is SWEAR TO YOU. Callie adds here that, and i quote, it is essential scholarship that akemi is the only one in this throuple that even remotely knows what to do in the sack... absolute scenes the first time they hook up--like threesomes take planning. dedication. and i believe in them i do but ONLY bc akemi is there to boss them around lol. TO which i say, and this is the crux of the MATTER, THE THINGGG that makes this throuple so. so. INEVITABLE!!!!!!! is that whenever you see two of the three together you always think, at least i do, always think hmm. Something.. Something is missing. when its taigen and mizu its like this is fun but i need some lesbian energy up in here. when its taigen and akemi youre like, There is a gap why is there a gap what are they not saying (they are not saying that they both wish Mizu was there). And then when its mizu and akemi. and here i must admit, it almost pains me to say because i love lesbians so much, but the damn thing is. they need taigen to complete the dynamic. Something. Is missing. THEY ARE never balanced without each other, quoth Callie, which is soooo crazy bc theyve never all three been in the same room!!!!!!! They BALANCE each other OUT they COMPLEMENT each other, without one of them they are like a three legged stool with a leg missing they are GOING to topple they are not fully competent on their own. They NEED to be together all three for the gears to turn. Callie again: taigen and mizu are too impulsive without akemi and akemi would get frustrated with mizu bc she doesnt communicate without taigen to let mizu spar with and taigen/akemi withhout mizu are restricted to heterosexual expectations that akemi hates.... And I add here: you need some androgynous pussy or else this whole tower is gonna topple. Quoth once more my friend Callie: maslow's hierarchy of needs. androgynous pussy allll the way up for these guys. They need taigen because they both care about about taigen and they need a boytoy in the mix, they need akemi because mizu and taigen would just kill each other over a stupid argument. they need mizu because they literally miss her when she's not there. they need her sexy gnc ass they NEED her. That.. ( here i take a deep breath) That final shot of them on the bridge when taigen says he just wants to be happy and akemi says she wants to be great (recalling mizu saying she doesnt care about being happy she just wants to be satisfied, im sure that wont come up later) and theres something........ something. was just screaming at me SOMETHING IS MISSING FROM THIS PICTURE and its so obvious what it is, like it doesnt even need to be said. It's MIZU.
#ok. ok. alright. we're good.#anyway hows everybody doing on this here sunday evening?? good? excellent. great to hear#blue eye samurai#blue eye samurai spoilers
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hiii hope you dont mind me asking about your wips specifically fem hyunin and for all us darling aliens 👀 (also im going to answer the ask you sent me soon 🩵)
Hi!! Thank you for asking! I absolutely don't mind, more yelling time for me! hahah
Fem hyunin is actually one that I have changed the plot for two times already and I might switch gears again once I write more hdhd the only clear though my brain had while writing this, was "LESBIAN HYUNIN" and that's it hahaha but I CAN tell you what it's current plot is:
its enganged Jeongin whose slowly falling out of love with her partner. And they both can tell but like each other enough to give it some more time in the hopes that the feelings will return.
And its Hyunjin who accompanies her friend to a family gathering, seeing Jeongin and immediately being enthralled by her.
Likewise, Jeongin is very interested in getting to know more about the beautiful girl who keeps staring at her and who blushes so prettily when she looks back.
Cue lots of Hyunjin pining and Jeongin having way to much fun flustering her, which later turns into Jeongin coming over to Hyunjin's place.
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Jeongin blinks at the bottle of wine on the kitchen island. Hyunjin already hurrying over to fill up their glasses. Almost folding into herself, looking small and fragile, nervous. So different to the way she’d beamed when she opened the door to find Jeongin on the other side, unashamed joy on her face before carefully tucking it away. Being so happy about someone else’s fiancée turning up on your doorstep might not be proper, Jeongin gets it, even if she thinks it’s stupid. There’s nothing for Hyunjin to be ashamed of. Hyunjin’s still fidgeting with the bottle, trying to get the screw-cap off, fingers shaking, eyes downcast. And Jeongin thinks she might know what this is about after all. Gently she reaches out and puts two fingers on Hyunjin’s soft skin, tilting her chin up to meet her eyes. “I don’t need to be drunk to like you, Hyunjin-ah” Wide eyes stare back at her, lips parted in surprise, slight blush on her cheeks and god she looks so lovely.
for all us darling aliens is my space au! Chan, Changbin and Minho are a space traveling crew, with Chan and Changbin being humans and Minho a (wild)cat shapeshifter. Changbin and Minho are in a relationship. On one of their travels, Minho gets very ill and Changbin sets out to find a cure for him while Chan stays behind to take care of Minho.
Going through space on your own is not very smart but they can't leave Minho alone or take him on the ship either. Along the way Changbin meets the rest of the skz who are from different planets. Including Hyunjin, who Changbin very quickly catches feelings for while still being in love with Minho as well. And the closer they get to the cure, the more conficted Changbin feels, wanting to get back to Minho as soon as possible but also not knowing what to say about Hyunjin. Main paring is minbinjin (help what are those three called hdhdh) with side seungin, jilix, and Chan joins a pairing but I'm not yet spoiling which one heheh
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Seungmin doesn’t try to hide his displeasure when he turns around to face Changbin. “We don’t have to take this route-” “We need the minerals for Minho,” Changbin interrupts. “It’s not the only planet that has those minerals,” Seungmin coldly points out. “It is the closest one,” Changbin returns, just as blunt. “Finding another planet like this might take us more time than we have. You know that damn well.” Seungmin deflates, looking a little lost instead of the intimidating presence he was moments before. “Just- don’t make him fight, I- please, I’m not afraid of dying but not him, he wasn’t meant for this.” Hand coming up to protectively rest on the back of his neck like he can still feel the warmth Jeongin’s fingers left on his skin. “He’d do it if you asked, so fiercely loyal," Seungmin can’t stop the fondness that bleeds into his tone but his gaze is sharp, like he knows his words hit home, knows Changbin isn’t just thinking of Jeongin when he looks over Seungmin’s shoulder, eyes flitting to another fierce little thing. One he’s just as desperate to protect as Seungmin is with Jeongin.
UM SO this is LONG omg sorry I am incapable of making my snippets short dhhdhd
Thank you again for taking an interest in my silly thoughts and letting me yell about them, I had fun writing it down <3
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Reggie/Wild West IF: I just realized that Hilda Heinrichs is the only RO available for lesbian MCs I had planned. Don't get me wrong, Hildy is fucking awesome, but I think it's a little imbalanced this way.
So Imma mobilize the force and either make the Strange Lady romanceable after all (I had toyed with that idea before but was unsure bc of unequal power dynamics and stuff) or I make an antagonistic female character who I haven't talked about in the intro romanceable. Would be sth different for sure, some enemies to lovers if that's what y'all are into...
Idk I'm not really working on this one very actively but posting about it sure got my brain gears turning
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Tag games-Ask a fic writer
thanks @lizzy0305!!!!!
1. How many works do you have on ao3?
102 😉(make sure to log in to see all fics)
2. What fandoms do you write for?
Actively- Detroit: Become Human, Stranger Things, House MD, Twilight, Spiderverses/MCU, Harry Potter, Ted Lasso, New Girl, White Collar Not as actively anymore- The Breakfast Club, Sherlock, Supernatural, Hannibal, True Detective, The Office
3. Top five fics by kudos:
Tony Stark: Billionaire, playboy, philanthropist, Daddy (MCU) I think I need Help (ST) Call Me Doctor (House MD) Separation Anxiety (Spiderverses/Venom) You know what they say about assuming (ST)
4. What’s your total ao3 word count?
906,937😈
5. Do you respond to comments?
Nice ones! As soon as I can
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
dual suicides probs the most angsty ending I've ever written(spn)
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
Love me or hate me I just dont care(ST) this one based on how it started out
8. Do you get hate on fics?
Only when I write consensual sex work, its the damnedest thing
9. Do you write smut?
Most of the time ✌️
10. Craziest crossover?
Idk, I have a supernatural/Breakfast club crossover
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
by bots yeah
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
yes! but I think the russian ficbook site got killed :(
13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Many! its how I got my start and I want to do it more
14. All time favourite ship?
404. I'm bisexual, nonbinary and polyamorous, can't answer this one
15. What’s a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
hhahahahhahahahah I'll never tell
16. What are your writing strengths?
Characterization, dialogue, smut, angst
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
world building, grammar, spelling, tenses
18. Thoughts on dialogue in another language?
I love it! It grinds my gears when the translation isn't at the end of the fic though haha then my brain won't let me continue reading until I translate it
19. First fandom you wrote in?
Across the universe, but the first I ever posted to fanfic/ao3 was my Harry Potter fic Certainly Professor
20. Favorite fic you’ve written?
oh man, all of them! I put a little bit of myself in every one!
Though I am particularly proud of how The Eden Club(DBH) and Vain for my blood(ST) turned out!
Tagging: @sweeteatercat @disdaidal @p3ski @advictoriams @heiko-goes-detroit @meiko333 @raouelle @fluent-in-lesbianism @negative-citadel @writerwhowritesao3 @connorboyyy @ihni @kissoflightning @moviemuncherao3 @tradedsymmetry @treeffles @irishbeings @eevylynn @thediktatortot @strangebrainrot @spaceofentropy @criminalizeheterosexuality @geekinglikeaboss @malware-wolf @destroya2005
#find me on ao3#sunwarmed ash#links in pinned#i post new stuff every sunday#tag games#detroit become human#stranger things
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The next half-dozen queer Thai shows I have watched! This time around, it's not just boys' love, but also girls' love and polyamory. Also, there's a lot more action-adventure this time around, with three plot-heavy, rather violent shows! Those are the ones I like best of the bunch, btw. :) And don't worry, they still have happy(-ish) endings!
Manner of Death
What's it about? City doctor moves back to a small town and immediately gets involved in a murder mystery. Also, the prime suspect is really hot.
Genre: Crime drama
Watch if you enjoy: Plot-heavy stories with twists upon twists upon twists. Seemingly nice towns being dens of corruption and vice. (Shit gets pretty dark!) Speedrun romance – no need to wait until the end for a kiss here!
Gayer version of: Somewhere inbetween Blue Velvet and L.A. Confidential
Recommended? Yes! Just make sure you can stomach onscreen murder and offscreen rape. Truth be told, I was a little iffy on it at first, but then it ate my brain, and now it's among my favourites.
Watched on: Dailymotion
Trailer: https://youtu.be/a4b-d_XyLV0
I Told Sunset About You
What's it about? Teh and Oh-Aew are childhood friends, but their love for acting causes some friction when they're competing first for the same part, and later for the same university position.
Genre: Coming of age
Watch if you enjoy: Low-stakes drama. Heavy focus on the central pairing and its romantic complications. Genuine, emotional acting (lots and lots of crying). Characters making foolish, selfish decisions that nevertheless make perfect sense for them to make. Very nuanced secondary love interests.
Gayer version of: My So-Called Life
Recommended? Yes, but I actually ended up NOT wanting these two to be together.
Watched on: Dailymotion
Trailer: https://youtu.be/KIylNdQuR-w
GAP the series
What's it about? Mon idolizes Lady Sam and is thrilled to start working at her company. Her dreams are soon crushed, though, when it turns out that Sam is a cold and demanding boss. The truth is that Sam is under pressure from her grandmother to uphold the royal image.
Genre: Melodrama
Watch if you enjoy: The grumpy one loving the sunshine one. Supportive girl gangs, including a butch lesbian hottie. Tentative attempts at a first relationship. Gossip mills in action.
More lesbian version of: Starts out as The Devil Wears Prada, quickly moves into Young Royals territory.
Recommended? Kind of? It's nice to see some lesbians for once, and the leads have good chemistry. I also really like Sam's catty girl gang. The story is a bit weak at times, and I wasn't always convinced that these two were right for each other. The humour isn't my style either. So it's a bit of a mixed bag, but definitely worth the effort if you want some girl loving!
Watched on: YouTube
Trailer: https://youtu.be/f7Kso0QOaiE
Together With Me
What's it about? Best friends Korn and Knock have a drunken one night stand. Afterwards, they try to forget all about it. After all, Knock already has a girlfriend. Meanwhile, their friends have relationship troubles of their own.
Genre: comedy (mostly)
Watch if you enjoy: More MaxTul after Manner of Death (but in a vastly different genre). Lots of double entendres and also single entendres. Bitchy girlfriends and sassy girl friends. (Yiwha and Faii ftw!) An ensemble cast where everyone makes terrible decisions and no one has even heard of boundaries.
Gayer version of: Fast Times at Ridgemont High
Recommended? I would say it is highly entertaining trash. :) It takes a while to kick into gear (but no time at all before sex), but then becomes kind of addictive. Just be aware that every single person in this is some flavour of Problematic (tm).
Watched on: YouTube
Trailer: https://youtu.be/lxX9UkhTCO0
Triage
What's it about? Young doctor Tin finds himself in a time loop. In order to make it stop, he has to save the life of a specific patient. His only help is an annoyingly cryptic angel.
Genre: supernatural mystery/medical drama
Watch if you enjoy: The same writer as Manner of Death. Plot-focused show. Lots of tense medical situations, and even tenser interpersonal situations. Social issues. Assholes learning to be less assholish (except the ones who are just irredeemable). Romance that is simultaneously slowburn and speedrun, and also folds in on itself.
Gayer version of: Russian Doll
Recommended? Yes! More for the plot than the romance, though. Also, if you're anything like me, you'll need tissues for episode 10. (Knowing things will turn out okay doesn't prevent the sad stuff from being sad!)
Watched on: Dailymotion (search for Triag3)
Trailer: https://youtu.be/QeXnXV3FStg
3 Will Be Free
What's it about? Male sex worker Neo has been sleeping with the wrong woman – namely, a mob boss's wife. Now he's running for his life, along with club hostess/pickpocket Miw, who has killed a hitman by sheer instinct, and the mob boss's son Shin, who... well, he just happens to like Neo better than his dad, is all.
Genre: Action/thriller
Watch if you enjoy: Canon OT3. Nuanced trans representation on the side. Chased by the mob. Very high death count. (Don't get attached to any guest characters!) Moral greyness all around, and some sympathy even for the bad guys.
More polyam version of: ...I can't currently think of a chased-by-the-mob film that isn't a comedy, and this is very much not a comedy.
Recommended? Yes! With a warning that all the cliffhangers makes it hard to stop watching, so you may just as well pause in the middle of episodes. (Sidenote: the YouTube comments are more annoying than usual.)
Watched on: YouTube
Trailer: https://youtu.be/ct9fPlMJSDw
#manner of death#i told sunset about you#gap the series#gap#triage#triage the series#together with me#3 will be free#3wbf#katta's ql reviews
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ohhh……. noi dorohedoro and karlach bg3
#*fizzyspeaks#the lesbian cogs in my brain are greased and fully functioning#it’s clicking the gears are turning#i’m shaking in my cage let me out let me out#please someone understand what i mean#bc even i can’t put this into words i just know !!! I KNOW !!!!#the vibes they’re there you have to understand me#women that are silly goofy but incredibly strong and deadly …………………#sedate me QUICKLY
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#having a time so I'm here to rant about a couple things#I'd say I use Tumblr like a diary but I have an actual diary that I don't write this much info for#so like after being sick + concussed I'm doing much better now! no lingering symptoms of either anymore and I'm grateful#caught back up on my school work and I'm feeling in good standing for the rest of the semester#feeling fine thinking about the next couple semesters as well#basically this is just me establishing that I've been in a decent mental state lately. yay!#that's shifting a little. not entirely! I'm fine. just struggling with a couple things so I'm writing them out before they really affect me#I'm upset with my mom's opinions on gay people. she goes back and forth between really supportive and really homophobic comments so quickly#just the other day I was excited because she said something positive in response to seeing cars decked out in pride stuff#today she said lesbians can't have kids and expressed that she'd be disappointed if I 'chose' to be one bc 'there's expectations'#like what is that supposed to mean?????#I am gay and I want kids one day. those statements aren't contradictory to one another but I can't tell her that.#switching gears!#I have driving anxiety and hit and run OCD#basically driving makes me very anxious. I am constantly convinced that I've hit someone/something/caused an accident in some way#going over any bump or uneven road makes me feel certain I've ran someone over#I spend LOTS of time looking behind me in my mirrors to check for bodies/broken things/damaged vehicles or just to check for potholes#this causes further worry that I'll cause an accident by not paying attention to what is ahead of me#I also can't trust my memory. my brain tells me I've repressed memories of the accident I caused. this makes me confused to the point that#I no longer remember my route or even where I am. I'll assume I got off route and make panicked turns that actually get me lost#because of this I'm heavily reliant on visual markers to remind me I am on the right path. unfortunately it is fall now.#the nature on my route looks different than it did a couple weeks ago and it's throwing me off. plus there's new construction.#my usual environment has changed and now I'm back to being as nervous about my school commute as I was at the beginning of the semester#it's all just a lot#okay I'm done now. just needed to get that out before I went into a spiral#hope everyone is having a good night 🖤#ashley rambles
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The first time Steve went with Robin to a gay bar in Indy, he got a lot of education on the queer community from a group of Drag Queens. They were so pleased to run into a straight man at a gay bar that was there to protect his lesbian best friend that they answered all of his questions he’d asked. Even if a few of them were pretty convinced Steve was some sort of queer and just hadn’t gotten around to figuring it out yet.
The biggest thing that seemed to stand out to Steve was the hanky code. It was such a cool way to let yourself share this super secret part of yourself with the world without the dangers that actually sharing it would cause and Steve was enamored.
One particular Drag Queen, Helen, knows most of what the different colors mean and Steve can’t stop himself from asking about every single one of them.
When they get back to Hawkins Steve feels truly educated and Robin just smirks knowingly at him as he rambles on about everything he learned. He’d told Robin a few weeks ago he thought he might also like guys but was still figuring everything out. Robin was just happy he was willing to learn, even if he decided men weren’t for him.
Everything sort of spirals quickly after that.
Steve and Robin are at work when Dustin comes barreling into the store with Eddie Munson in tow.
“We need Rocky Horror Picture show right now.” The demand is sharp, and Steve just rolls his eyes at the teen.
“Not that I’m judging or anything Dust, but what do -you- need with that movie?” Robins voice cuts across the store from where she’s restocking returns in the romance section.
“We have a theory about Mike we want to test.”
“You have a theory about Mike you want to test.” Eddie cuts in hoping up onto the counter and crossing one leg under him. Steve’s pretty sure he stops breathing for a second. Because right there in his left pocket is that stupid black hanky that Steve never really paid attention to before, but now his eyes lock on.
“Steve!” Robins next to him now shoving him out of the way of the register so she can check out Dustin, and Steve’s still just kind of frozen in place because, Munson’s into some kinky shit and he’s not entirely sure how to bring his brain back from the rabbit hole it’s just dove down.
“Stevie, are you still coming over for movie night with me and Buck?” Eddie chirped climbing down off the table to follow Dustin out the door. Robin looked from Eddie to Steve, trying to figure out what exactly broke her best friend, when her eyes land on the hanky and she has to hide her laugh with a cough.
“Yea, he’s coming. He’s my ride anyways. We’ll see you at 8 Eddie.” With a nod and a questioning glance in Steve’s direction Eddie throws open the front doors and skips to his van as Dustin clamors into the passenger seat.
“Hey, Dingus.” Robin slides in front of Steve, a shit eating grin spreading across her face. “Learn anything new just now?”
“Holy shit Robin, how am I ever even supposed to -look- at him again.” He groans throwing his head down onto his crossed arms on the counter.
“He’s still stupid Eddie.”
“Stupid Eddie who likes to tie people up and administer pain in the bed room. Fuck.” Robin could see all kinds of gears turning in Steve’s head. Dots connecting, pieces falling into place until suddenly his face turns bright red and he stands up straight again locking fearful eyes with Robin.
“Oh my god Robin. I think I wanna fuck Eddie Munson.”
Robins laughter was so loud, Eddie could hear it all the way in the parking lot.
(inspired by @undeaddisillusion ‘s post found here)
#might make a whole fic outta this#thought this idea was fun tho#steves just a mess anytime hes around eddie now#can only think about getting tied up and fucked within an inch of his life#it takes eddie a painfully long time to figure out why steve wont look him in the eyes anymore#he thinks steves mad at him for some reason#but steves just having so many realizations about himeself#hes a disaster bi and robins having way to much fun with this#steve harrington#eddie munson#steddie#robin buckley
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LOVERS ROCK (slight nsfw)
prompt: “u and ellie have been teetering on the edge of friends and lovers for awhile now and finally u decide to make the first move” (songfic) (gnc/w, wlw)
🎀 inspired by lovers rock by tv girl
warning(s)/tags: slight nsfw, somewhat mature language, recreational drug usage, also soft too i think, w for the lesbians (aka me duh)
u were sitting back on the old ratty couch in “eugene’s hideout” as ellie liked to call it, tucked into the opposite of it, facing ellie as she took another long drag from u guys’ third joint of the night. u watched shamelessly as the smoke curled in a stupidly attractive way from her pouty lips, the urge to kiss her rising higher in ur chest as u bit back a smile fighting to spread across ur own. u were already feeling the effects of the high, of course since u guys were now halfway through this joint, but it only seemed to worsen the absurd amount of want pumping through ur bloodstream. if ur face wasn’t showing it before, the burned red of a blush evident high on ur cheekbones and now low down to ur neck sure was. and of course, ellie took notice, her lingering green gaze flickering from ur lips up to ur eyes and back once, twice, and too many times. heat pooled dangerously between ur legs at the sight.
“is there somethin’ on my face, doll?” she drawls out teasingly, slight texan twang coming out from her time spent around joel. u find it both endearing and once again stupidly attractive, eyes widening slightly as her voice runs hotly from the base of ur neck to bottom of ur spine. u fumble slightly, struggling to pull ur molasses like thoughts together to form a coherent sentence. she pretends like she doesn’t notice and continues,
“c’mere, up,” she says patting her thighs, lips prettily tugging into the tiniest smirk like she can see right into ur head, taunting u and turning ur brain more into mush. she can actually, ur not sure how but somehow she always knows exactly what ur thinking. the high is also somehow making her better at it. u force ur limbs to move, hands sliding up onto her shoulders and back to wind into the short silky brown hair at the back of her neck, knees bracing next to her hips, settling down til ur bottom meets the top of her thighs, hand reaching out to set the still-burning joint into the ashtray behind u, as she wraps u tightly in her arms, fully pressing u to the front of her. u lay ur head on her shoulder, shoving ur face into her neck, nosing at the freckled skin there and take in a deep inhale of weed, dust, and her. u feel her hands move from ur back down to ur waist, stopping at the waistband of ur skirt, and suddenly ur so glad u decided to wear it today. a shiver racks through ur body when u feel her fingers dip slightly into it, smoothing along the band of ur underwear. u two have been close before but never like this, the haze of the high pushing u both to be bolder and it’s obvious that u both want this from the heavy weight of tension lingering in the air.
“what’s going on in that pretty lil’ head of urs, hm?” ellie asks quietly, almost whispering, voice velvety with that certain edge to it like she can hear the gears turning in ur head. her hands move up slightly, fingertips trailing up under ur shirt and resting on ur bare stomach. u hum lightly in response, smiling privately to urself at her, thoughts flooding back to the last time u both kissed. she knows but she wants u to say it out loud, knowing u both will enjoy the humiliation and satisfaction that comes with it, mostly cuz it makes her ego swell. the warmth in ur chest burns hotter at the thought.
“just thinking about kissing u is all,” u manage out, speaking for the first time in awhile since the two of u started smoking. u feel her chuckle, chest heaving and vibrating lightly as she laughs. not at u though, never that. one of her hands moves from ur stomach to grasp loosely onto the back of ur neck, squeezing in a way where u feel the need to raise ur head to look at her. u see her tug her bottom lip between her teeth, eyes shining in the dim light of the room, before she breaks out into a full smile.
“funny cuz i was thinkin’ ‘bout kissing u too,” her greens eyes noticeably dilated and darkened as they make their way back down to ur lips and back up like before, smile widening when she makes eye contact with u again. she removes the other hand still on ur stomach back to the nearly done joint, bringing it to her lips and taking a long inhale. u watch again as the smoke floods out of her lips past ur face and u nearly lunge at her. her lips redder than ever and glossy from her licking them earlier and u think it’s so unfair how she makes everything she does look effortlessly beautiful. u wish secretly u could record her and this moment to play back later for ur own selfish needs. u want to kiss her so bad that it’s beginning to drive u crazy.
she then twists her hand back to u, pushing the joint between ur lips and watching u mimic what she did previously, this time her eyes darkening significantly while she looks at u like she wants to devour u whole. taking the now done bud from u lips, she holds it as u slide ur hands from her neck to her jaw, thumbing along it softly with heated palms and u can hear ur heart in ur ears.
“now how many girls have u kissed?” she breathes, watching as ur eyelashes flutter against ur cheeks as she leans into ur touch. u feel ur insides pull harshly at what’s to come, skin buzzing with sheer nerves and excitement.
“very few,” u answers back, eyes trained intensely onto her and u can see how much she wants this. how much she needs it as badly as u do. and oh. u think to urself, heat spreading through ur body like a wildfire.
“but u offered me a kiss, why?” she questions, eyebrows furrowed as she blinks slowly at u, clearly just as effected as u are. ur resolve is quickly crumbling and ur head feels like it’s stuffed full of cotton as she leans further in closer towards u, eyes filled with questioning, love, lust, adoration.
“such a foolish reason i’m afraid,” u recite, hand sliding down her cheeks to press ur thumb lightly against her red bottom lip, breath catching and releasing shakily in ur throat when she does the same and u swear u can feel her pulse jumping against ur hand splayed across her cheek, “i just wanted to kiss u.”
ellie flicks the bud of the joint on the floor and dives straight into u.
i got this idea while listening to lovers rock hehe plus i thought why not try to recreate something similar to that scene between dina n ellie in tlou2 :3
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ok ok as fun as watching the incorrect theorising from the background is, i think it’s only fair i threw you guys a bone.
1. im not part of the polycule or main gc BUT i am mutuals w most of you (including yourself)
2. as far as i know, i am only one person!
3. not a hint but the memes are so good. incredibly funny. this tiny section of tumblr is hoarding a lot of comedic talent it’s honestly unfair
4. im reluctant to come off anon bc i AM afraid of a shark attack. but i will admit that i rly only sent a message to em for two reasons: drama is fun!! what better way to spice up an already compelling romance than throwing a competitor into the mix?? what’s hotter than jealousy, am i right? and secondly, ofc i’ll swoon for a sports lesbian mutual. otters have weaknesses too.
5. but on a very real note their pda on the dash is adorable while also sickening. i am a full sharky x princess shipper. the only critique i have is: get!!! a!!!! room!!!! challenge (level: impossible, apparently)
anyway love your speculating- those big brain writer gears were TURNING. also completely unrelated but your werewolf robin has rotted my brain like im not the same woman i was before you wrote that au. u have a gift and it has cursed me
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Oh my god HELLO otter, I am absolutely shocked to be receiving this message, and I am cackling over this
Thinking so hard about shared mutuals rn and making notes. It’s a fun little puzzle to figure out, I’ll admit!!
You really have to hand it to Grace. @avocadosockz is a comedic fucking genius and I wish I was half as funny 💀 Y’all don’t even see all the memes she makes. Maybe someday they’ll leave the containment of the gc lmao
Honestly, incredibly valid. You made a VERY compelling season of CDLM, it was very welcome and I applaud you. Honestly you’re pretty damn smooth. I’m with you on the sports lesbian thing. They are just so incredible and I am looking respectfully
Shark anon is a little terrifying, I’ll give you that. Love you Becca 🤪💛 That said,
Again I regretfully say y’all only see the half of it. Real quote from the group chat: “i said yearn on the dash not make a sex tape on the dash” - Grace. Get a room challenge FUCKING IMPOSSIBLE APPARENTLY. Disgustingly adorable. Gross.
I am. Going to cry. I cannot believe THE otter anon is a fan of my werewolf Robin. Brb screaming into a pillow. Thank you so much dude!! It really means a lot!!!
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When I first realized I was bisexual after thinking I was a lesbian for multiple years, I became hyperaware of my attraction to men after suppressing it all this time and this lasted for a little less than a year. Throughout that time I felt comfortable calling myself bi, even though I was primarily interested in men for that period, I knew I was capable of being attracted to women. But after that my preference switched back around, and I lost nearly all interest in men, and was focused on women once again. This is perhaps where I naturally gravitate, I'm not sure. But when I am focused on my SSA my discomfort with the word bisexual grows. (I guess I still have that associated of bi = dates men/ends up with a man/etc) I feel like my brain kind of switches gears, there's an OSA mode and a SSA mode, and they don't seem to happen together. Or maybe I prevent them from happening together? Because now, on the rare occasion that I find a man attractive I feel nervous about it and I try to not lean into it too much, because I'm scared that I'll "knock myself out" of my SSA even though I know that's not exactly possible, because liking a man shouldn't stop my attraction to women. But because men and women attract me differently, I'm scared of switching into the mode of finding males more attractive. I just wish I wasn't scared of this and accepted the fluidity of my sexuality, or I wish I felt fine with experiencing both at once. Maybe I can and I just have internalized beliefs about how bisexuals are either a straight-bi or a gay-bi? I hope this is somewhat sensical
Every single part of what you're describing here is internalised biphobia, and although it's difficult, the best way to fight that internalised biphobia is to name it for what it is.
To start, you were convinced that you were a lesbian. Considering that you were born into a biphobic and homophobic world, it was a huge realisation to make that you had same-sex attraction, especially since heterosexuals don't want anybody to be anything but heterosexual. To be so sure of that sexuality, to internalise the fact that no lesbian can be "turned straight," and then to realise that you could in fact find a man attractive is something incredibly traumatic. You might have felt "fine" with that in the moment and "accepted" it, but that crash happened later.
The fact that you feel uncomfortable with the term bisexual, something that is simply a word that describes your sexuality, is a big red flag. To be a bisexual woman does not mean or imply any "availability to men." That line of thinking follows the thought that bisexuals are hypersexual, that bisexuals are sex objects and that bisexuals do not need to give anyone consent, but that bisexuality itself is consent.
That's why I believe that the current "accepted" definitions of bisexuality are so harmful. The definition of bisexuality needs to be accepted as the capability to be attracted to both sexes. That's all. To have bisexuality described as what we are capable of removes all of the negative stigma, removes the presumption that we're hypersexual, that we're "available to men" and gives us the ability to consent.
You can't "knock yourself out" of anything. What you've internalised is that you can either be straight or you can be a lesbian, which is the message that the biphobic world constantly throws at you. You're not either. You're simply a bisexual. You don't have "both same-sex and opposite-sex attraction," you have bisexual attraction. You find some women attraction and you find some men attractive. Sometimes you won't find any men attractive at all, but you still have the capability to be attracted to both sexes, something that you will always have.
The more that I analyse, the more harmful that I believe the thought of "fluidity" is when it comes to bisexuality. You're not experiencing "fluidity," you're coming across individual people that you individually find attractive, which is a very ordinary and human trait for anyone of any sexuality. The only reason that those individuals are sometimes women and sometimes men, where sometimes it's women-only and other times men-only is because you're bisexual, and that is a bisexual-only experience.
The biphobia that states we can "choose" in our sexuality has also directly impacted how you view bisexuality. You cannot "switch gears" or "prevent" attraction or anything else so inhuman and mechanical. You're simply going through your life, meeting people and individually finding them attractive or not.
All of this moralising about sexualities and spread of biphobia is so incredibly harmful to bisexuals.
This sounds so patronising and I genuinely don't mean it that way, but the fact that so few bisexuals even understand what bisexuality is and means just shows exactly how marginalised we are. That isn't your fault, because this is exactly how you've been trained in this heterosexist world that hates us and doesn't want us to exist. I've been there, too. Every bisexual's been there. It's why it's so important to connect with other bisexuals and speak, because the amount of dawnings and awakenings to this, when you really sit and have meaningful conversations, is shocking.
If you're over 18, I sincerely recommend joining the bisexual discord and talking this through, because you'll be seriously surprised at how many bisexuals relate to this kind of experience and thinking. We're so isolated and constantly told that our experiences are meaningless that we're denied this kind of consciousness raising, and it's so important.
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