#and it wasn't til we used that in front of their mum (who didn't Know The System) and she gave me a Look

[thesealfriend]

"Sometimes, it’s contrast to past experiences that makes us realize something was traumatic at all."

This one is a Mood, I left an abusive relationship over 3 years ago now, and every so often something lovely and wholesome and kind will happen involving one of my current partners or friends and that'll make me realise just how much my brain is still wired for the Bad Outcome of that situation, and it breaks me. I can deal with it pretty quickly now, but it still shakes me.

when you go from a bad situation into a better one you may collapse exhausted and unsure what to do and full of grief, you may need time to regain the ability to do things as yourself or motivated by anything other than terror, you may need time to process or mourn or fall apart in ways you could not before,

and people may use this as proof that the old situation was better for you, proof that you need to go back, and it is not proof that it was better for you or proof that you need to go back

[lollypopsx]

Yes please do a part 2

But Daddy I Love Him - Part 2

Part 1

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"Ok...alright. Yeah, cheers Niall. See you in a bit" Harry sighs and hangs up the phone. He groans and rubs his hand down his face.

He slumped back into his chair, it had been an hour since Ivy had stormed out of his office, the red mist had finally cleared from his vision, but he still felt anger bubbling inside him.

You had gone downstairs to make some pasta for dinner. Harry had muttered that he wasn't hungry, and you were yet to deal with the wrath from Ivy's temper.

You placed a plate in front of Isla and kissed her head gently. She looks up at you sadly. "Mum, why are Daddy and Ivy mad?" She frowns.

You sigh softly. "Adult problems babe. Nothing for you to worry about" You sigh, heading upstairs and knocking on Ivy's door. "Vee? It's me..." You whisper softly and head inside.

She looks up at you with tear stained cheeks and red puffy eyes as you walk in and towards her on her bed.

"If you're here to shout at me too then I'm leaving..." She mutters, getting up and walking over to her window, staring at the sunset.

"I'm not going to shout. I just want to talk to you" You sigh. "I understand why you didn't tell us about you and Tommy...but you need to be more careful...not just about sex...but at this age...relationships can be hard. Especially being well known like we all are...but why didn't you tell me Vee?"

"We are careful! I didn't tell you because I knew you'd tell dad and I just didn't want him to know" Ivy shrugs, folding her arms stubbornly.

"What you said to him wasn't ok Ivy...He worked so hard while he was away when you were younger..." You sigh. "But...I know he said things he shouldn't have too"

"Yeah well...he said what he said. And I said what I said"

"Did you really mean it?..." You sigh, knowing the answer yourself, but you wanted her to realise. "I don't know yet" She admits. "I just don't see why he can't let me be happy."

You agreed, but you knew it would sort itself out in time. "...Dinner's ready" You whisper, squeezing her shoulder.

"Not hungry" She mutters and slumps into the armchair by her window.

You nod and head downstairs, the doorbell ringing just as you get to the bottom of the stairs. You furrow your brows and open the door.

"Niall! Hi" You give him a smile as he engulfs you in a hug and a peck on the cheek.

"Sorry about getting dragged into this..." You admit sheepishly.

"Nonsense, we just need to speak about this like adults. Don't we Tommy?" He chuckles softly, pulling in Tommy's shoulder into the hallway.

"Y/N I..." Tommy frowns.

"I'm not mad at you Tommy" You interrupt him with a smile. "Harry isn't either...he's mad at Ivy, not you sweetie" You hug him tightly.

He nods and lets out a sigh. "You know what, maybe you can do a better job at calming her down. Go on" You smile and nod your head to the stairs.

"Will Harry be ok with that?" He gulps.

"You're both adults...and so is he. I'll make sure he's alright with it" You chuckle.

"So you didn't know anything either?" Harry sighs, sitting at the sofa with Niall, who shook his head. "No clue Haz, not til you mentioned it. Although I can't say I'm surprised...they've been head over heels for each other since they were little kids. Childhood crushes" He chuckles.

"What?...Really?!...And...you're ok all this?!" Harry raises an eyebrow, more in confusion than anger.

"Well...why wouldn't I be? I love Ivy, she'd never hurt a soul, and Tommy is a true Horan. They've known each other their whole lives, and they were best friends way before they fell in love." Niall shrugs.

"And you're fine with them sleeping together?!" Harry shakes his head.

"Oh come on H, when we were 17, we were touring round the world. We did much worse than them. I mean...Y/N was pregnant with Ivy and 17-"

"That's the point Niall, Ivy had a pregnancy test in her bin..."

"She's pregnant?!" Niall's jaw drops.

"Well no...it was negative..." Harry sighs.

Niall relaxes and sighs, rolling his eyes softly. "So what's the issue? They had a scare, how many scares did you two have?" Niall raises an eyebrow.

He had a point. Harry sighed deeply as he realised he definitely handled this situation wrong, and he was being a hypocrite.

"I mean...I don't think I'm ready to be a grandad at 34..." Harry sighs, causing Niall to chuckle.

"I best go talk to Ivy..." Harry sighs and stands up.

He strolls up the stairs with a deep sigh, pausing outside Ivy's door which was open slightly, hearing her speaking. Was she on the phone?

"I know but-" She mumbles.

"Baby, I know you're upset with what he said, but you need to accept that you shouldn't have retaliated like that" Tommy says softly.

'Tommy? How the hell did he get in?!' Harry thought as his eyes widened, then realised he must of come with Niall. Harry peaked in, seeing Tommy sat on the armchair, Ivy curled into his lap as she played with the strings on his hoodie.

The looked happy. She looked happy. And she deserved that. She deserved someone who could see the good in her heart. Maybe her and Tommy together wasn't a bad idea after all.

Tommy's arms were wrapped tightly around Ivy as he stroked her hair. "Baby, go and apologise to your dad. He didn't deserve what you said...and I know you know that..."

Ivy groans softly. "Fine. But I'm not letting him stop us seeing each other. I can't let that happen" She mutters. He gives her a loving smile, pressing a sweet kiss on her lips and lifting her off his lap so he can stand.

Harry coughs quietly and knocks on the door. Their heads snapped up and their eyes widen. "Mr Styles I was just..."

"It's alright Tommy...I know. Can we speak to you two downstairs please" Harry says calmly and softly, gesturing his arm to the stairs. Ivy's gaze never left the floor as she walked passed him and down the stairs. Tommy nodded and followed, Harry giving Tommy's shoulder a thankful pat as he passed the door and followed Ivy.

As they all walked into the living room, the air was thick, and just like earlier, filled with tension, but mainly between Ivy and Harry.

"Ivy...I'd like to apologise for the way I acted...I shouldn't have gone off like that and-" Harry frowned, watching Ivy shift uncomfortably.

"Dad...wait. Can I go first..." She whispers, her eyes much softer than they were earlier. Harry gave her a gentle nod and sat down.

"I know I said stuff earlier that hurt you...and I shouldn't have. I know that you guys did what you had to do when I was younger. And I'll always be grateful. I'm sorry Dad. But I never wanted to disappoint you...we have always been careful and we...we know what we want. Dad please don't stop us seeing each other" She pleads.

"Vee, you have never disappointed me...I shouldn't have said that either. We both said things in the heat of the moment, so I understand that when you said what you said, it was out of hurt...do you love her Tommy?" Harry looks over at Tommy, who stood up and made his way next to Ivy, taking her hand into his.

"So much..." He squeezes her hand tightly, her cheeks blushed bright as she squeezed his hand back.

"Then...then I'm really happy for you two" Harry nods and smiles softly, tears threatening to spill as Ivy runs over and hugs Harry tightly. "Thank you...I'm so sorry Dad" She whispers and sniffles softly.

"Me too baby" He whispers and rubs her back gently. He turned to Tommy and opened his arms wide to him "Look after her..." Harry whispers, engulfing Tommy in a hug.

"So...when's the wedding?" Niall smirks and laughs, hugging Ivy tightly.

"Shut it Niall." Harry says sternly, the room erupting into laughter.

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[cedricslover]

Troubled (final)

Pairing: Cedric Diggory x Fem! Reader

Pt.1 Pt.2 Pt.3 Pt.4 Pt.5 

Series summary: A very unfortunate situation happened and it resulted in very unfortunate events. You had everything, a good boyfriend that everyone dreamed of, best friends that you got in a twin pack, and a loving school. It was a calm before a storm and in your sixth year the storm came. You faced the consequences your deceased parents run from, you were only left with your only family, your little brother. What would you do in order to save him? The answer is, everything, even if it means joining a terrorist group of wizards, joining THE DEATH EATERS…

Chapter Summary: Death is inevitable 

Note: there is no specific house:))) I would like to thank everyone that kept waiting and was patient enough, I started this series around March and now it is May. This is my very first series and I hope you all liked it! Again thank you so much❤❤

Warnings: angst, death, little bit of violence

Word Count: 4.2k

You stopped in front of a headstone. Your hair brushing your cheeks as the wind blew it. "Hey" you started talking, through the years the big lump in your throat slowly fades whenever you visit. "It must be nice there" you smiled and placed the flowers that you were holding down to the ground. 

You breathed in the familiar smell of the field. The smell of the countryside was really different from London. Closing your eyes, memories of the past came flooding in. 

[5 years ago]

"WHAT?" Phoebe, one of your roommates looked at you with shock, "what?" You chuckled as you ate a chocolate frog. 

"What do you mean "what"? So we're just going to act like we didn't see Diggory in front of our dorm earlier" Alice rolls her eyes as she brushes her blond hair, "Oh yeah we got back together" you shrugged and sat on your bed. 

"You really won't tell us what happened that broke the two of you?" Phoebe's voice became wary, she was trying not to say something bad. You shake your head and smile apologetically. "I'm sorry girls" you felt bad. You wanted to tell them of course, but even your best friends since first year don't even know. And surprisingly didn't even nag you about it. 

"It's alright doll, we understand. Besides, Diggory is a great guy, you two are both smart enough to know what is right and wrong" Alice looks at you, there is always comfort in her eyes. Like she always knows what is going on even if you don't talk. She was the perfect example of the person that you can vent to and she will just listen. 

"How about you girls, anything going on with your lives? Why is it always mine?" You laid down and stared at the ceiling. Silence filled the room. For about 10 minutes only the brushing of the tip of the quill to a parchment, breathing, and the noise from the common room are the only sounds you heard.

"Nothing much" you heard a bed squeaked, it was probably Phoebe's. "My life is the most boring one yet" Alice mutters and sighed,  you can see her sitting on her bed. "I don't think so. Each of our lives have different stories. I don't think that's boring" you replied before you pulled your blanket and be completely eaten up by darkness. 

Weeks have passed, it seemed to be doing great. Everything was falling back to pieces. After the school found out that you and Cedric got back together, George and the Beauxbaton girl also publicized their relationship, both of them explained that it really wasn't you in the photograph-which you completely didn't want them to do because you didn't owe anyone any explanation- but they still did. 

Fred and Angelina seemed to be also doing great, well, especially how Fred is under Angelina. 

Of course Barty Jr.-that's disguising as Professor Moody was always giving you 'the look'. Everytime and everywhere, even at class, even your classmates find it strange why Professor Moody always calls you, and then gets mad. They feel bad but you just let it all go, because you knew what his true colors are. 

"Fred" she warns

"Frederick Gideon" with her scary tone

"Frederick Gideon Weasley" that's when you all know Fred was in trouble. 

"Hello darling" you smiled and kissed Cedric's lips before you sat beside him at the library. You both have free time, especially him, tomorrow was the final task, he was trying to study spells that he might use.   

"Hey" he stops reading and wraps his arms around your waist, "Tired" he murmurs while he buries his head on your neck. "You want to eat sumthin'?" You asked while playing with his fluffy hair, running your fingers through his scalp. "No" you can feel his breathing on your neck, it sends shivers down your spine. 

After a while of complete silence, Cedric's breathing seemed to follow a pattern, that's when you knew he was asleep, in your arms. 

You started humming a song that your mum used to sing you to sleep. You can't see his face, but felt it instead, his nose, his lips, his forehead, it felt peace. It felt like home. 

And later on, you also found yourself getting sleepy, your eyelids drooping down. And before you give up on the warmth, your eyes found the book-or more like a magazine that Cedric was reading earlier, you didn't notice it earlier until now. You let out a smile before you closed your eyes.

'Real Estate Magazine, Countryside Edition'

You woke up early, dressed up early, showered early, and went to get breakfast early, and you didn't expect that a lot of students were up early too. Earlier than usual.

"Y/N!" You turned your head while you chewed a toast. It was the trio. "Hey" you greeted them as they sat in front of you. "You alright?" You looked at them while your forehead creased, "yeah" they all answered in unison, that caught them off guard. 

"Harry's going to be fine don't worry" you shake your head and smile as you reach for another toast. "It's just that-" Harry stopped and his hand went to his forehead, where the scar is. 

"His scar's been hurting ever since he woke up" Ron told you, his face was screaming with worry, just the same as Hermione. 

"You should take a rest Harry. You still have til before dusk. I think that would be enough time to prepare and rest" you said, trying to cover the worry in your voice, and of course the fear. 

You four continued to eat, the Great Hall was starting to get more crowded, noise, banners, cheers, they were all anticipating who will win the triwizard tournament. Although you should be joining this crowd, wearing shirts with the one they support, cheering, waving the banners at 8 am. You can't. You were filled with worry, Harry's scar was hurting, and it seemed strange that the Dark Lord wasn't doing anything the whole year. 

And as you walked by Moody's office, it seemed like your suspicions were answered. 

"I already handled it, Dark Lord. Yes, yes, but how about the girl?" You heard Moody, he was rather loud, obviously he used the opportunity as most of the students would be either outside or the Great Hall.

"She wouldn't be a nuisance, we have his brother. She will be extremely useful for the next few years. She has much more potential than her parents. Let her bloom Barty" a faint voice answered him, that was the reason Harry's scar was hurting since this morning. Mere communication can still cause it, you knew he couldn't possibly be physically here. 

"What if Harry wouldn't be the one touching the cup?" Moody's voice was filled with excitement but at the same time, fear. 

"I'll kill them. And you next. Better do your job Barty." The voice disappeared. Your eyes widened as you heard footsteps slowly approaching the door. You ran to the closest hiding spot and peeked. 

"Better handle that girl then" Moody looked around before he drank again from his flask. "Polyjuice Potion" you whispered as you observed him. 

He walked away, to the direction you came from, you waited until you made sure he was gone. 

"Mad-Eye Moody!" You started banging the trunk where Moody was prisoned, your hands shaking as you got the key from one of the drawers. 

"Moody!" You banged again, panting, your sweat started dripping. Your heart was beating fast, you have to do something. You sure don't know anything, but Moody surely does. 

You finally opened the last layer of it and saw that he was there, peering back at you, he was thinner than the last time you saw him. And he lost a lot of hair too. 

He seemed mad, of course, you were the only person inside the castle that knew the Professor Moody that was going around the school the whole year was an imposter, well aside from Cedric who was suspicious.

You started explaining to him, now this was the person that deserved your explanation, not the gossip people. 

It took a while before he finally understood. He must be thirsty and hungry, but you didn't bring any food but only your wand. You looked for any container and luckily you saw a flask, it must have been a spare Polyjuice Potion, you threw the insides away.

"Aguamenti" you chanted and the flask started to be filled with clean water. You cleaned the mess you made and returned it from what it was when you entered before you slowly dropped the flask to Moody who was now drinking it like he hadn't drank any water for a whole week.

"I cannot hear clearly, but I heard Little Hangleton. You know that right?" You nodded at his question. "I don't know what and how, but they would try to bring the Dark Lord back. In power" he looks directly at your eyes, his gaze was piercing, he was expecting you to do something. And you will. 

"I'll be back" the last words you said to him before you slowly closed the trunk, he nods slightly for a response, there was also something in his look, the same look you saw with your parents when they were about to die, the same look you saw with the people of the Order, it was a look of hope and pride. 

"Hey hey" you stopped on your tracks and it snapped you back into reality, you didn't know what to do, "Y/N?" Cedric cupped your face, you looked at his eyes, his questioning eyes. "What's wrong, love?" He tucked strands of hair from your face to behind your ear. Your breathing started to calm down. 

"They're moving Ced, I have to do something" you admitted, there was no point in keeping it a secret to him. His jaw dropped, he was now looking everywhere, trying to be cautious. 

"What can I do to help?" He asks, you felt bad, and it seemed like he noticed it. "Don't feel bad, Y/N. You already carried too much burden, at least let me help you carry it" his mouth curves as he assures you. "It will all be okay" he whispers, still not letting go of your face.

You were still doubting, but he was persistent. "Protect Harry. Help me protect Harry, Ced" your eyes darted to him, both of you knew this was a life and death situation. This wasn't just those silly games you played before, you both only had one chance to save a life, and this was it. 

"I will" he nods, there was more than just the tournament in his mind now. And that is to protect Harry. At all costs.

You observed Harry the whole time before the task, ofcourse, not being so obvious. You would join the three of them at some point, or drag Harry with you and the twins as they show the fireworks that they made and plan to light up when he wins or Cedric. 

It was a win-win, Harry forgets that bloody scar while you keep an eye on him. 

And now, it was Cedric's turn. 

He kissed your forehead and gave you a little smile. "You did well. Let me take over" he said before he turned his back and let go of your hand. Amos waited for him and waved in your direction. The corners of your mouth turned up, trying to be nice to him, despite how you somehow despised because of how he always pressures his son, he always has to do this, reach this, be like this. It was not healthy. 

You knew he was trying to be a good parent, but you wished he had taken lessons from your father before he died. Thankfully Mrs. Diggory was nice enough to appreciate Cedric's achievements, small or big. 

"You alright?" Alice asked you as you sat at the bleachers. "Quite" you smiled at her and returned your gaze to the champions. You were with Alice now, well long story short, the twins were with their girlfriends, even Phoebe, and Alice invited you to join her so here you are now. You know Alice is beautiful, she is also great in academics, even she and Luna Lovegood could really pass as siblings, they have the same interest in things that were believed to be not there, and even their way of clothing were the same. But they both confirmed that they were not related. Still, you were still quite confused as to why she was not out there, having a partner. 

"You know that guy?" She pointed to Gregory Goyle's older brother. "Yeah?" There were lines forming between your eyebrows. "He asked me out" she giggled and covered her mouth with her hand, her shoulders started shaking, you also laughed. "What really?" You asked in disbelief, you tried your best not to laugh out loud.

You hated Goyle, he always bullies the ones that he believed was weaker, even Alice. He always made fun of Alice and how she always tries to get people's attention. Now look how the tables have turned.

"He asked me out with those cheesy pick up lines, doll. I tried my best not to laugh and just rejected him immediately" you were both still laughing. She stated some of the pick up lines that made you laugh so much but you still tried not to be loud so in the end, you choked on your own saliva while she stifled a laugh as she pats your back.

The laughter seemed to be a curse, bad luck, or just joy before a disaster. Because right after that you all saw a yellow light sparked to the sky, it was from someone in the maze. 

You were the only one who was not confused, because as that yellow spark flashed, it was a message for you.

'He is safe. Cedric's with him' 

Red sparks were seen earlier, it must have been a marker for the injured ones, but the Yellow ones, the audience and judges didn't know what it meant, only you.

You started praying to the higher ups, if they were ever there, listening to you. You prayed that they would be fine. Only a few scratches, but still good. After just a few minutes another yellow spark was seen, the people decided to shrug it off, but you, you were beyond happy and relieved. The second spark should mean that they got to the cup. They should be arriving any second now. 

You anxiously waited for them, ten seconds, twenty, thirty, and then a minute and they weren't still here. 

'Little Hangleton' 'Back in power' ‘Dark Lord’ 'Coming Back' 'Do your job' 'Kill' 

Voices started to cloud in your mind, Moody, Barty Jr., Voldemort, memories, you patched up the information you got. 

And without even thinking twice you disapparated, thankful that Dumbledore lifted the anti-disapparition charm because there were a lot of outsiders anticipating the third task.

You grunted as you stumbled, you hated how apparition makes your insides like they were being squeezed. It was convenient of course, but you didn't like it. 

"Kill the spare"  you heard, your vision was still dizzy, but you knew that voice. Your vision was blurry, the world was spinning and it felt like your intestines were spinning too. It was the after effect of apparating. 

You stood up, still feeling nauseous, “NOOO!” you shouted as you ran, there were figures and you knew who they were. “Avada Kedavra!” it was definitely Pettigrew, no, not Cedric, not me, not Harry, don’t kill us, please, the words repeated in your mind. The few steps felt like a hundred, you wanted to stop time, and as you rushed towards the figures your vision was slowly being clear. And by the time you can entirely see clearly, you wished, you hoped, that someone blinded you, you wished that this was a dream, hallucination, but as you collapsed on your knees, as the rough ground kissed your legs, it was all real.

“Alice...” tears started to fall from your face as you looked at her face. Her reddish cheeks was now white, her lively eyes was now soulless, her warmth, 

It’s gone, she’s gone. 

“YOU!” You stood up, picking up your wand, Cedric stood beside you, “Free Harry” You commanded him, your nose was now flaring, glaring at the two figures in front of you, Peter Pettigrew carrying the weak Voldemort. 

“Expulso!” you incant, in a snap, Voldemort was now dropped to the ground while Pettigrew was far away, “I’ve had enough of you. You and your values” you stared at Voldemort who was now crawling away, he was so weak, and this was the only time you could do it. The only time you could take revenge from all the lives he took.

“You’re so weak, and you should stay weak” You stepped on his thin legs, he screeched like a creature tortured, “You deserve, every, single, pain” now you stomped on his hand, you felt the bone touch the sole of your feet despite wearing shoes. 

“Sectumsempra!” you cried at his pleading face, you thanked that potions book you saw in the classroom. You watched as so blood just came out from the child like figure in front of you, for a second you thought you were doing something beyond your morals, but you remembered, the images of people that this person-no- monster killed, the mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, and friends, he took away so many lives, he made the world like his playground, killing whoever he felt to kill, and that justified what you did. Regret was not even near. 

“Incarcerous” Cedric’s voice echoed, the tense was back again, Pettigrew was still here, “We’ll take care of him” he told you, giving a second to glance at the lifeless Voldemort that was on the ground, curled, you nodded as an approval. 

And like a vase dropped, or someone threw a big stone to your head, you remember Alice's bleeding body, her opened eyes but why? Why is there a ghost of a smile plastered on that doll-like face?

You slowly walked to her lying body, you never expected that this would happen, that she, she would do something like this. Did she just suddenly hold your arm as you disapparated? Is that why she splinched, her arms, even her legs were bleeding. 

“Dumbass, did you even know where I was going.” you kneeled, reached for her face and removed the strands of hair that were blocking her face. “You’re so dumb. Who’s going to call me doll anymore” you blinked and a tear fell straight to her cheek, you blinked again, another tear fell, you blinked, again and again, and at the same time, tears fell on her pale face, you cried, wailed, even shouted while hugging her body. 

She was there when you needed her, she was there to understand you. She was there when you cried, laughed, even if you were sick, she was there. 

“Doll, come here.” Alice called you while you were packing your things, you were a mess, you just heard that your mother was ill, you have to go home. You sighed and let go of the clothes and walked towards her, she tapped the seat in front of the mirror. 

“You know, you should always look tough in front of the people you have to protect. That’s what my parents told me before. The people that saved them from the Death Eaters, they were tough, I told you about that right?” she started brushing your hair, you examined your reflection, your eyebags were visible, you were also definitely thinner than usual, you felt drained. 

“Before my ma died, she told me information about those who saved them. My ma and pa owe their life to them.” even if you didn’t look at her face, you know she was smiling. “She told me that when they were being saved, the woman was pregnant” you can feel the gentleness from her touch. 

“And?” you asked, she was now tying your hair, “and she told me to protect that child, a token of gratitude for giving my ma and pa another tomorrow” she placed the flower accessories in your hair. 

“Did you protect the child?” you turned to her and saw her eyes twinkled, “I still am doll” she replied to you before she handed your bag. Alice used magic to help you pack, you laughed and hugged her, “Thank you” your mouth curved into a smile. “Aww it’s nothing” she waves her hand and rolls her eyes, acting shy. “Shut up” you chuckle before you turn your back and step outside. 

“You impulsive lady, how about that child you should protect. How can you protect them if you’re dead” You were still crying, thinking about all the memories you had with her, and how you would tell Phoebe, she would be heartbroken. 

Was it really necessary? Are sacrifices really necessary? You just wanted to stop a war, a cycle, you wanted to follow the path your parents took, are deaths really necessary? In exchange for peace, a life should be taken. A meaningful life, someone's daughter, friend, and stranger. 

[present]

“Y/N!” a woman’s voice called you, you turned your head and saw a woman, her hair was now just above her shoulder, brown curls jumping as she walked the hill. “Phoebe” you greeted and opened your arms, she sprinted and hugged you. 

“Oop, be careful with the tummy” you grinned and touched your tummy, there was already a big bump, you were pregnant. “Hello there little one” she lowered herself and talked to your bump. 

“It’s her death anniversary isn’t it” she straightened herself and was now staring at the headstone. 

     Alice Constance O’Brien

March 12, 1978 - June 24, 1995

“Hmm” you answered, peace and silence enveloped the both of you. “It was Alice all along.” sadness took over your face as you remembered what Alice has done for you. 

  Loving daughter and friend

                A hero 

“Ced that night when you saw me following the man. Why were you still roaming?” you asked Cedric as he sat at the library.

“I haven’t told you yet? It was the Head Boy, well technically it was Alice actually, she told me that the head boy couldn’t find me so he asked her to tell me. My schedule changed that time” he muttered as he chewed a pumpkin pasty. Your eyebrows shot up and just shrugged. You owe Alice an acid pop at Hogsmeade.

“She was the one who told me about your situation. She must have known about the dark mark but never told us. She wanted to help you, but in the shadows.” Remus admitted as you talked to him about Alice’s death. He was shocked, the whole society members actually. They are now taking care of his subjects that were lurking around. 

“Hello ladies!” George and Fred suddenly appeared, both of them wrapped their arms around each of your shoulders. “Fred. I prefer women, thank you” Phoebe removed Fred’s arm and even tried to dust it off, “Rude” Fred squinted his eyes at her while she just smirked and flipped her hair.

“Where’s your husband and brother?” George asked and also placed flowers at the ground. Now there were a lot of flowers for Alice. “You’re liking that aren’t you?” you talked to the headstone, you were all just silent. Even the loud twins fell in silence, they liked Alice, not romantically, they admired her, how she was unique, always had a voice, and how she stood up for herself. 

“I love it doll” you heard a whisper as the breeze came by, you knew it was her, it had always been her. She was still there, watching. 

“Oh Alice” Phoebe started crying, the twins tried to offer her a hug but she went to you instead, you sniggered as you saw their offended face. 

They all felt her. 

“Hey!” two voices called all of your attention and there it was, Cedric your husband, and your eight year old brother. Theodore hurried to the twins that immediately picked him up, he liked them. “We bought snacks.” Cedric raised a basket and spreaded out a cloth to the grass. 

“Are you crying?” Cedric inspected Phoebe who still has her nose red from crying. “Yes. What about it” she rolled her eyes and got bread from the basket while Cedric was still arranging the cloth. “I’m just asking.” Cedric chuckled and shook his head. 

You observed each and one of them, they all changed, with their own careers and life, of course they will change. Cedric was now working at the ministry, he did once think about being a professional quidditch player, but he felt like a work at the ministry would be better, and he liked it. The twins and their joke shop was still going, stronger as it was before, they’ve built quite the reputation, and Phoebe, she was now a Herbologist, she always had an interest in plants. 

And you, you also built your career, with your dream job. 

Are you seeing this Alice? I made it. We made it. 

You carefully sat at the cloth and they all asked you what you would name the child inside of you. Your eyes gleamed, you always knew that if you had a chance to name your child it would be…

“Alice”

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Jude & Jac

Jude: [post rave] Jude: you can stop your 1 woman campaign now, freshers looks fun, I admit it Jac: That's why they give out free shit and throw these things Jac: convince people like you, good to know you've fallen for it 🎣😏 Jude: I'm convinced enough to crash Trinity's 😜✌ Jude: here on out Jac: good luck, jailbait Jac: the two years you've got left in school show 👶 Jac: you can't even grow unconvincing facial hair like the boys in my year Jude: nah they don't, why ma & da get so stressed every time I leave the house 💋👗👠 Jac: Predators enjoying the fact you think so is another issue entirely Jude: 🙄😏 Jude: can never just have a nice chat with you Jac: What do you need to chat about? Jude: what do YOU need to chat about? Jac: That was an...attempt, I'll give you that Jude: alright, here's the nudge, her name starts with S & last time she was ranked she was at like a 4 Jude: but I'm willing to bump her up in light of recent events Jac: You've reconnected and + 1 up, have you? Jac: That's nice Jude: taking a decent 📷 is good for a few points Jude: probs should lose 'em again when it's dad 👍 but whatever Jac: Very generous Jac: do appreciate you keeping your 👍 to yourself Jac: what do you wanna ask then? Jude: ikr I'm in a generous mood Jude: I'm not forcing you into a q & a Jude: I just think it's good you're mates again Jude: be a bit weird having her there & not Jude: some girl isn't gonna be there 📷 to turn her into a headless 👻 whenever shit gets awkward Jac: That your professional opinion, captain obvious? Jac: well, cheers for your blessing, like Jude: I could tell you were waiting for it so Jac: Clearly Jac: the little you think about has always been my GREATEST concern 😏 Jac: and she'll be up and over the 🌙 at her new score, of course Jude: all I REALLY wanna know is if she has a 🌾🐄 accent now, like? be honest Jude: it's still silver 🥄 yeah? Jac: Err, come on, it was NEVER Southside Jac: and even if it was, that'd count for NOTHING here Jac: so posh some of 'em it's a speech impediment Jude: so you're saying she don't fit right in with the 👸🤴 & qualifies as a bit of rough instead Jude: gutted for her Jude: her ma'd be even more 💔 wonder how she is Jac: That isn't funny, Jude Jude: not about her mum, that was well sad Jude: posh boys not thinking Sav is, is a bit though Jac: Have you ever tried engaging your brain before you speak Jac: not being completely insensitive should not be this hard for you Jude: ?? Jac: Don't ?? at me Jac: you say it's 'well sad' but you're the one that cracked a joke in the first place Jude: I didn't Jude: not about that Jac: I'm not pulling it from nowhere, it's still on my screen Jac: I don't think you realize how badly you come across half the time Jude: I'm sorry, I didn't mean to come across like a massive dickhead Jude: I think Sav's alright, I'm not trying to take the piss out of her Jac: Well it's alright this time 'cos you only said it in front of me Jude: be going a bit far to check in with her Jude: not weird at all Jac: you're saying I SHOULD put it past you? Jac: you are weird Jude: I'm saying I'm not about to say it front of her as I don't talk to her, am I Jac: doesn't mean getting into the habit of saying every 'hilarious' thought that enters your head out loud is a plan Jude: yeah alright Jude: fair enough Jac: Anyway, Sav isn't interested in any boys that look like they came from 🐴s not 🐒s Jude: 🤣 Jude: you wanna be careful saying 👦🏽👦🏾👦🏿 look like 🐒 but I get you Jac: She hasn't got a boyfriend of any colour so I weren't saying that Jude: I didn't reckon so, not unless she got a lad to follow her to uni Jude: but who wants that? Jac: Her ex was holding her back hardcore but he's given that up, thankfully Jude: he sounds like a right laugh & not at all like a prick Jac: That's boys for you Jude: 😜 Jude: when do they grow up? 40s or what? Jac: Have you met our father? Jac: never Jude: oh great Jac: 🤷 Jude: it's alright for you, you can get all the 🤓 lads when you're done studying or whatever Jude: least they'll be smart Jac: smart boys are worse Jac: they want to explain everything to you Jude: really? Jude: fuck that then Jac: dumb but kind are the lofty heights you can shoot for Jude: like a 🐶 Jac: yep Jac: loyalty too, forgo the collar Jude: yeah you're right that is lofty heights Jude: maybe when I'm 40, I can find a lad that don't need one Jude: stop him going over the road & 💔 me Jac: shitting where you eat is gross but convenient, that's boys Jude: 👍 Jude: Jess is so lucky he can pick a lad or a girl Jac: Most people are undesirable Jac: gay lads will only touch him if they think he's straight and that's their type Jac: and girls are a whole different beast altogether Jude: that'll be why he's so 😒 Jac: as a rule or more than usual right now? Jude: we all know why he's 😒 right now Jude: you pissed off somewhere more fun without him Jac: I think he's just fine Jac: and he did it first, every weekend, like Jude: speaking of, his latest gig was not the one Jude: so he's probably 😒 about that Jac: like, he was shit, the crowd weren't the right one or the equipment weren't? Jude: he needs a better 🎸 but that ain't news Jude: seemed like he didn't wanna be there to me Jac: Hm, a fight with one of his girlfriend or boyfriends then Jac: meant to make him better so he's fucked up there Jude: relatable Jac: 🙄 Jac: alright Jude: don't be 🙄 @ me Jude: your dating history ain't spotless Jac: I've never dated anyone so it is Jac: 📑 definition Jude: your hook up history then, you know what I mean cos me either Jac: I don't fall in love with them like an idiot, it's entirely different Jude: I fell in love with the one, who I was dating for a bit Jude: I'm not going about falling for 'em all Jac: Still did, didn't you Jac: I can't even remember any of mine Jac: nothing came into play but proximity and timing Jude: 🏆🥇 if you want Jac: take it over your 💔 obviously Jude: yeah Jac: 🙄 I repeat Jude: whatever Jude: I was stupid, it was ages ago Jac: you brought it up Jude: it was my mistake, I can Jac: not a sounding board for your whining Jude: alright, my bad Jac: used to you Jude: you've got your own room now, get over it, like Jac: unfortunuately, that doesn't stop us sharing a family so I don't think I will, thanks Jac: unfortunuately, that doesn't stop us sharing a family so I don't think I will, thanks Jude: it's a part time one for you now, don't have to see this face til 🎄🎅☃️🎁 Jac: Unfortunately, can stay over Spring though, but there's no catering in the Xmas hol 💔 Jude: 👎 - 1 point to St Andy's Jude: is Sav going to her mum or dad for the hols? Jac: better than home, get all my meals and room cleaned for me every week so Jac: literally only just got here, who's thinking about leaving Jac: some other halls you can stay, so maybe she'll find someone there, so she only has to do actual Xmas day or whatever Jude: me now, maybe I should bother going to uni if they're gonna clean for me Jac: only if you get into a good one Jac: and pay extra, hence most people are self-cater, but what else do I need my grant, loan and scholarship for, may as well Jude: 🤔 I hear you, that's unlikely Jac: you have time Jac: two years can change everything Jude: not my 🧠 it can't Jude: my concentration ain't there unless I'm doing 🎨 Jac: you could try harder, and you know it Jude: at what? Jac: concentrating on enough subjects to get you into a decent Uni Jac: you don't need every one, just enough to boost your points Jude: sounds easy that 😤😏 Jude: if I'm only in it for the 🧹🧺 🧼🧽 & I ain't 🤓 enough for one of 'em, ain't much point Jac: It's not about being nerdy or naturally intelligent, it's about being smart with the system Jude: yeah but it's probably also about going cos you wanna learn stuff & be there not just cos you wanna leave home for a bit Jac: most people never use their degrees, so you tell me Jude: that's true Jude: what subjects then? Jac: Depends what you want to do, Art in some form, assumedly? Jac: Fuck Irish and Spanish and PE, duh, knuckle down with your rest to up your points as much as you can then absolutely ace Art Jude: Alright, I'm decent at PE anyway Jude: that'll be easy points Jac: Exactly, no need to purposely fuck them up, but focus harder on the rest, especially the ones you are less decent at without trying Jude: please tell me you've left your notes here Jac: Of course Jac: under my bed, if you haven't lit it on 🔥 Jude: it's only been a week, gimme chance Jac: well, don't reckon they'll let you get a double yet Jac: I still need a place to crash in the holidays and it certainly won't be beside you snoring your head off Jude: might do if I steer clear of lads for a bit Jude: not that I've done half as much with 'em as everyone reckons I have Jac: People find shit to chat regardless, not worth paying no mind to, no more mind to stupid lads either Jude: I don't care if people don't reckon I'm a virgin still even though I am Jude: it's not like it matters Jac: Yeah, those people will all be irrelevant before you know it Jude: loads of people are well jealous of your uni btw Jude: reckoned you'd wanna hear that Jac: Of course Jac: x2 Jude: 😏 Jac: It's more of a flex than Trinity even, and only a handful of people got in there Jude: when did you work out what you wanted? it feels like you've been going on about it forever Jude: but like actually Jac: 🤔 Jac: I can't remember a point where it wasn't my plan, honestly Jac: more abstract when I was little and didn't have the titles and disciplines to put to it but Jac: I always liked murder mysteries and shit, what makes us tick Jude: right Jude: you love a true crime podcast Jac: 😏 Jac: but I'd rather deal with the living murderers than the corpses of their victims so Jude: well yeah Jude: 🦴🦷 bit gross Jac: 🧠 are much better Jude: long as you're not cutting into it Jac: I won't be Jac: if I'd combined biology, and gone that route Jude: I won't be either, tah Jude: science is proper hard Jac: Psychology has a shit load of it involved anyway, but I can blag it Jude: you're SO excited, I can tell Jude: 🤓💕 Jac: Of course I am Jac: it's everything I've ever wanted Jude: it's weird you're so far away though, it don't feel like you are Jac: Glad my prescence and now abscence had/have such a huge impact on you Jac: we both know why though so Jude: yeah Jac: it's different now Jude: good Jac: alright then Jude: give my love to Savannah, I know she'll have missed me Jude: that's the impact I have Jac: 👌👌 Jude: 😝 Jac: Do you really have a problem with Savannah? Jude: course not, I told you I think she's alright, it's just bants Jude: why does she have a problem with me? Jac: yeah, it's a massive grudge she took all the way to Sligo and back Jac: 🙄 Jude: you know what I mean Jude: has she said that I come across as a massive dickhead too or something? Jude: I don't wanna upset her, like Jac: you haven't come up a load in conversation, like Jac: oddly enough Jac: it's that Jac: she's like my girlfriend alright so you can't be a dick about her anymore, alright Jude: alright then Jac: is that all you're gonna say Jude: I won't take the piss out of her no more, like I said, I didn't mean it anyways Jac: you can react, you know Jac: it's big news on multiple counts Jude: it makes sense Jude: I get it now, why you were like that after she left Jac: Good Jac: I want you to know that Jac: don't change how it was, but still Jude: you could've just told me you rated her 10/10 Jude: is that why she left? like her family always seemed a bit off but I didn't think they were that bad Jac: I couldn't, though Jac: no, her mum wasn't coping Jac: as we all know now, and then the Isabelle stuff went down, so their dad stepped in Jude: yeah, but I mean, that's not part of why she slit her wrists, is it? Cos Sav doesn't need that to carry Jac: it was because the dad left and then took them, to put it as bluntly and without nuance as possible Jac: but that's all on him, not the girls, her mum isn't like blaming them, their relationship is getting better Jude: at least she was alright with you too dating then, nobody needs that dark ages mentality shit Jude: she's got enough going on Jac: well, she doesn't know about that yet Jude: but you were together back then, yeah? Jac: no, it's a new development Jac: as in, like, the other night new, no one really knows, I barely do Jac: things were complicated before Jude: oh okay, soz for backtracking so hard, I just thought Jac: yeah, that was the problem Jac: shit was assumed or it wasn't Jude: what a headfuck Jude: you're okay now though, right? Like the other night went alright Jac: I guess for context, before she left, I did kiss her and it went horribly Jac: I loved her then but she didn't and then she was gone Jac: I see how it sounded like pining there but no Jac: it's good now though, things have changed, we both have Jude: I knew something happened that night when you came back early, you were like a 👻 or like you'd seen one Jac: Yeah, that was what it was Jude: it won't happen again if things are different so Jac: not as bad Jude: I'm glad Jude: that this is the ending you get, cos it's not one, it's more like a beginning or whatever Jude: you don't have to be just excited for uni Jac: I know Jac: not that there's anything wrong with just being excited for Uni, tah very much Jac: whatever happens, I think we'll be able to stay friends this time so Jude: or you'll just marry her & have all the kids she obviously wants Jac: let's not get carried away, shall we Jude: 1. you never said I couldn't have bants with you still Jude: 2. there's nowt I don't know about her life plan, she talks LOADS Jac: You only have a problem with that because you want to be the one talking Jude: course I do Jac: it cannot be overstated how much I'd rather listen to her, is the point ❤ Jude: it'd be a bit rude if you were already like nah tah 🤐 it, babe Jude: probably don't do that Jac: That's your top tip and people really think you're not a virgin? Jac: Interesting Jude: it don't work out well for the lads who TRY it with me 😏 Jude: people reckon I'm not cos I'm that 🥇 yeah Jude: & cos lads have loads to say for themselves, most of which is bollocks Jude: but you're not a sounding board for my whinging, I remember Jac: 'Bants', dear sister, 'bants' Jude: 👍 Jac: anyway, I've got to go Jac: there's this variety show that is apparently hilarious, either actually or in how bad it is so Jude: & I've got loads of 📝📚📖📏📐to do if I'm gonna have my own freshers Jude: top quality entertainment like that, literally how could I not? Jac: sure you'll want to be in it yourself 😏 Jude: you're correct Jude: 👋 then

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Chloé & James

Chloé: What the fuck is wrong with you, James? James: typically you'd happily answer that for me Chloé: I'm not in a joking mood now Chloé: thanks to you James: neither am I, coincidentally Chloé: really Chloé: well you seem happy to make a joke out of me James: you don't have the slightest knowledge of what does or doesn't make me happy, Chloé Chloé: frankly, James, I don't care either Chloé: but if you're going to make ME look as stupid as you clearly are Chloé: then we have a problem James: would you care to share with me what you're talking about though? James: I'd like to know the scale of the problem at the very least Chloé: the problem is, dear husband of mine, you getting caught leaving here without me and with some random whore instead James: okay Chloé: is that all you have to say for yourself Chloé: I don't think so James: essentially, yes Chloé: how could you Chloé: do you have any idea how ridiculous I feel Chloé: I would NEVER do that to you Chloé: in front of your friends James: I didn't do it deliberately James: you weren't supposed to find out & neither were they Chloé: unbelievable Chloé: what the HELL am I meant to say to Sara? James: what did you say last time when it was Zara instead? Chloé: absolutely nothing about this is funny Chloé: you're going to have to grovel so hard when you get here Chloé: she's about ready to say something to you herself James: it wasn't meant to be amusing, the point is you'll think of something, you always do James: if everything else fails, unfriend her like you have so many others Chloé: you'd like that Chloé: ruin my social life Chloé: this is the first time we've been to anything proper in AGES James: your social life is far down enough on the list of my priorities to not be relevant to me whatsoever Chloé: you want me to be stuck at home with nothing to do but raise your children James: I'd like for you to contribute towards raising our children, yes Chloé: oh that's right, try to turn it around on me Chloé: you YOU fucked up here James: I shouldn't have let any of your friends see us, but I hardly consider it a fuck up James: if anything it's a chance to do things differently, be honest with everyone Chloé: excuse me? James: why can't we finally stop pretending that everything is fine? Chloé: oh yes, let's just tell EVERYONE are business, air everything in public Chloé: don't be so ridiculous James: I didn't say public James: friends, family Chloé: stop talking nonsense Chloé: what do you want, group therapy? Chloé: no one wants to hear about your problems, James James: you know I want to leave Chloé: clearly but you got caught Chloé: come face up to it like a man James: face up to what? James: you're not upset for any genuine reason Chloé: don't you dare tell me I've no right to be upset James: that isn't what I said James: you're upset because you care about what Sara thinks, not because you care about me or our family or anything real Chloé: care about you??? Chloé: you are something else Chloé: you're going to humiliate me and ask for that Chloé: what part of you should be back here on your knees do you not get James: I've given up asking for anything James: you're drunk, it's making this more of an argument than it needs to be Chloé: fuck you Chloé: i'm here, alone Chloé: because you openly left to go fuck someone else Chloé: I am your WIFE Chloé: you don't just get to do that James: you haven't spoken to me since before I dropped the girls off James: I got the impression that you were enjoying being here alone, with your friends Chloé: oh yes, I really want to be the only one here alone Chloé: that doesn't look tragic at all James: you aren't the only one here alone & I'm allowed to have friends Chloé: I'm the only one here with a partner who's being stranded and left in the dirt actually, yes Chloé: and you weren't going nowhere with any fucking friend so don't even try that Chloé: Sara saw her James: because of course you've never slept with any of your friends Chloé: I don't even have any male friends Chloé: accusing me of things won't make what you did any less obvious James: I fully admit it was obvious James: as I've explained, I want things to be different Chloé: well they aren't Chloé: and you don't get to implement changes just because you feel like it James: they could be Chloé: they won't be James: Chloé Chloé: Get back here now James: & if I don't Chloé: did I say that was an option? James: talk to me, I'm trying to talk to you Chloé: I don't want to talk Chloé: I need to go home now, thanks to you James: well, I don't want to come back, give me an actual reason why I should Chloé: you know why, I don't need to spell this out to you James: the girls aren't there, so between me & you, what possible reasons are there? Chloé: if you don't come back for me right now, you know I will make your life a living hell James: it already is Chloé: you know I have the power to make it worse James: yes, but will you when you won't even admit to anyone that anything is wrong? Chloé: if you force my hand Chloé: by openly cheating on me, or whatever you think you're trying to do here Chloé: I'll have no choice James: nothing I've ever done has been a secret from you Chloé: You aren't this stupid Chloé: you know what you have to do, how you have to be James: perhaps I'm this tired Chloé: we're all tired, James Chloé: grow up James: please just give me a discussion James: instead of whatever this is Chloé: there is nothing to discuss Chloé: get here now, take me home James: we can't keep doing this, you know that Chloé: doing what? Chloé: you, ruining everything Chloé: I wish you'd stop but doubt it James: it's not just me James: I wish you'd stop too Chloé: I've not done anything to you Chloé: have you seen me fucking anyone else in front of you today Chloé: no James: that isn't what I'm referring to or what I've done James: you didn't see me, I wouldn't do that Chloé: it's the same fucking thing Chloé: in fact, I would rather Chloé: if that meant you didn't do it in front of everyone else Chloé: all my friends James: I haven't done anything, getting in a car with someone could be explained away a million different ways Chloé: no it cannot Chloé: everyone knows what that means Chloé: you do not turn up to an event with your wife and leave with someone else Chloé: don't insult my intelligence James: then let me tell the truth James: tell me I can go & get the girls & take them to my parents' place with me & we'll go from there James: it's one honest conversation Chloé: what are you talking about Chloé: absolutely not James: please Chloé: you're drunk James: no, I'm not Chloé: why the hell would you think I would ever agree to that James: because this isn't working Chloé: so you need to fix it James: taking you home so you can pretend this never happened isn't a solution Chloé: it's a start James: for god's sake Chloé: just do it and stop whining Chloé: for god's sake me, who do you think you are James: your husband, as you keep reminding me now that you'd like me to do something Chloé: we got married James: I do have some recollection of that, yes James: despite the state I was in Chloé: it was horrible James: I know, I'm sorry Chloé: you aren't sorry Chloé: not sorry enough James: I am, for that, you didn't deserve the wreck I was on that day Chloé: I looked disgusting James: no you didn't Chloé: yes I did Chloé: and no one made any good speeches or danced and the photos are awful James: your mum made a nice speech Chloé: Jay ruined her dress, and kept crying Chloé: I only get to do it once and it was that shit James: she was a baby, crying & being sick is what they do Chloé: she was 2 Chloé: that's not a baby James: it's not an adult either James: you can't hold her responsible Chloé: whatever Chloé: where the hell are you James: I don't think she was 2, I'm sure she was younger Chloé: well I was 16 when I had her and we couldn't get married 'til we were at least 18 so you do the maths Chloé: and you didn't answer my question James: I suppose you must be right Chloé: I know i'm right it happened to me you idiot Chloé: where are you James: on my way Chloé: hurry up James: please don't start, Chloé Chloé: like I said, it's Sara you need to worry about James: oh I remember her having a tantrum about her hair James: did we go to someone else's wedding when she was a baby? Chloé: Why is this relevant? Chloé: I don't bloody know James: I'm just trying to account for the gaps & mix ups in my memory Chloé: Brilliant James: I'm sorry, okay? I'll say it for back then as many times as you want Chloé: As if you're any better now James: I can take care of them now James: I'm not high any more Chloé: what about me James: I'm coming to take you home Chloé: you don't care about me James: yes I do, a part of me will always care about you Chloé: you only care about them James: I love them, of course I care Chloé: you're just not Chloé: you don't do any of this right James: neither of us do James: I told you, it doesn't work Chloé: you need to try harder with me Chloé: make more effort James: I make every effort Chloé: psh Chloé: you do not Chloé: when's the last time we fucked James: you know when James: & why Chloé: exactly Chloé: it's not good enough Chloé: it isn't right James: it wouldn't be right for me to sleep with you James: I can't Chloé: you can sleep with literally everyone else James: you're not like everyone else Chloé: why James: I don't want to do this James: you know you don't treat me like they do, or make me feel good ever Chloé: 'cos you treat me so nice James: I'm no better & that's exactly why we shouldn't be together Chloé: well we are James: until Sara opens her big mouth at least Chloé: what? James: you were the one who told me she saw me Chloé: that doesn't mean we're not together Chloé: it means you cheated Chloé: again James: if she decides to tell everyone, we won't be together Chloé: she wouldn't do that James: what makes you so sure? Chloé: she's my friend Chloé: and it's not her place James: she's one of those friends then, who knows her place James: that makes sense Chloé: you think anyone is going to end our marriage Chloé: don't be ridiculous James: if only Chloé: excuse me James: it's a clear sentiment, perhaps I should've slept with Sara if it meant she would Chloé: Sara would never sleep with you James: but you've said the same about some of your friends who have Chloé: you are disgusting James: undeniably James: I've made a lot of mistakes & yet, as angry as you are, today wasn't one Chloé: why are you telling me this Chloé: I could sit here and list off all the people I've slept with but I'm not going to James: because you think I haven't tried James: I stopped when you gave me the news about being pregnant with Matty & it made no difference whatsoever James: the problem isn't who we sleep with, it's us Chloé: you didn't want her James: don't say that to me as if it has any relevance James: it didn't want either of them with you under both sets of circumstances, it's not equal to wishing they didn't exist Chloé: that's nice isn't it James: we shouldn't have brought another child into this, I can admit that Chloé: you can play doting dad all you want but that's what it comes down to James: I'm not going to apologise for wanting things to be different James: for all of us Chloé: want all you like Chloé: this is real life Chloé: for fuck's sake James: yes, their real lives James: you can't tell me you think any of what's happening is okay for them Chloé: there's nothing wrong with their lives James: Chloé Chloé: what? James: it isn't true Chloé: yes it is Chloé: stop being dramatic Chloé: you're seriously drunk James: stop lying Chloé: I'm not the liar James: what have I lied about? Chloé: everything James: I'm here James: are you going to help me find you or is this part of the suffering as well? Chloé: take a wild guess James: well, do you at least have a car waiting? I gave mine to her Chloé: you better be joking James: what's funny about that? Chloé: why would you do that Chloé: have to do everything myself because you wanna play gentleman to some random bitch Chloé: fine James: so she could get home, obviously James: it's fine I'll order another now Chloé: that's not your concern when you aren't going with James: they're my concerns, not yours Chloé: who is she James: no Chloé: what do you mean, no Chloé: tell me James: we're not talking about her, no Chloé: why the hell not James: because I gave her my car in order to avoid her running into you, or Sara Chloé: I'll find out James: you won't Chloé: we'll see James: it's not one of your friends who I wanted you to find out about James: there's no games this time, it's not about you Chloé: what is it then James: it's her Chloé: i'll find out and put a stop to whatever you think this is James: like you said, this is real life James: you have before but it hasn't actually stopped anything Chloé: you're still here Chloé: with me James: but I still want her James: I'll still like her Chloé: shut up James: okay Chloé: I don't care what you want or what you like Chloé: got it James: I've always understood that, however stupid you may take me to be Chloé: Then we understand each other James: can you please get in the car? Chloé: i'm saying goodbye Chloé: i have manners James: fine Chloé: you can wait five minutes James: you were desperate to leave not even five minutes ago Chloé: you can wait Chloé: that's important James: we understand each other, remember, I know what you're doing Chloé: maybe you'll start to talk some sense James: however long you make me wait, I won't be blindly agreeing with the nonsense you're prone to saying when you're this drunk Chloé: I'm not even James: finish your goodbyes so we can go Chloé: don't tell me what to do Chloé: asshole James: I'm sorry but this is unbearable Chloé: how do you think i felt when you left me James: I honestly didn't think you would feel anything Chloé: you never think about my feelings Chloé: that's why Chloé: just yourself James: I don't know how you feel, I haven't for a long time James: you refuse to communicate properly with me Chloé: pretend you care Chloé: pretend you ever have James: I do care, I told you, you're the mother of my children Chloé: then do what I want James: what do you want? James: you asked me to come back, I'm here Chloé: whoever you're seeing, stop Chloé: focus on me Chloé: your wife Chloé: make me happy James: I did stop, it didn't make you any happier James: you didn't even notice Chloé: you need to do nice things for me James: I look after the children so you don't have to, work so you don't have to James: I'm friends with who you tell me to be, I wear what you tell me to Chloé: you should just be those things Chloé: that's not trying, that's the minimum, you could be anyone from here James: then find someone who's willing to try harder for you Chloé: it's that easy Chloé: fucking hell James: of course not, but it doesn't have to be this hard either Chloé: just stop talking Chloé: you have no idea James: or you can talk to me, that's something we've never tried

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Rio & Buster

Rio: [Showing up at ur function like 'sup] Rio: You look good Buster: Yeah Buster: You look better Rio: Naturally Rio: 😜 Buster: Competitively more like Buster: & You win, I can't top the outfit Buster: There's everything else still to play for though Rio: Be very impressed if you had a sheer sparkle look Rio: even in your wardrobe Rio: Very true Rio: how many drinks are you in, how hard am I catching up Buster: I do but I was saving it to show the Yanks that not every Brit is a boring fucker Buster: You never sent me the memo that you wanted to couple co-ord Buster: Been a pretty dry night so far Rio: 😂 I'll allow it Rio: got a lot of stereotypes to combat there, specially 'cos you sound like a Hugh Grant character Rio: Need to fix that asap or I'll win again Rio: basically did a whole 🍾 getting ready Rio: what you want? Buster: Better than sounding like one the hookers he gets caught with, I guess Buster: Well when you basically don't wear anything there's loads of time to drink instead, yeah? Buster: Didn't wake up or just walk out like this Buster: I'll have to neck a 🍾 too then, my resolution ain't to start losing, like Rio: Nah, he was pretty cute back in the day, sis got her 💰 and got to tap that Rio: Oi fuck right off Rio: you know this takes time and you know I look good Rio: You really gonna ask for bottle service, yeah Rio: ain't made of money and sure the 🍾 grandda stocks ain't gonna be up to your standards  😏 Buster: I already told you how good you look Buster: & You already know I'm gonna be asking a lot of you tonight, babe Buster: But alright, surprise me then Rio: Yeah Rio: I know, don't I look good to go too? Rio: [getting that drank, gonna take forever] Buster: Yeah Buster: When you wanna borrow my jacket so you don't need to let the pub know all our secrets, let me know Rio: Such a gentleman Rio: see how long that lasts Buster: Less time than it'll take for you to bring me a drink Rio: it's new years, what did you expect Rio: be patient, babe Buster: My expectations ain't centred around the bar Buster: Neither's my impatience Rio: Know that too Rio: I want you as frustrated as possible Buster: As frustrated as you are Buster: So competitive, babe Rio: Maybe Rio: like you said, ain't no hiding in this dress so you'll find out soon enough Buster: Not soon enough Buster: But I'll try and be patient like you want Rio: it is packed in here Rio: good excuse to get pretty close behind me Buster: & A gentleman would never let you carry all those drinks yourself so I have to be close by, however long it takes Buster: [shamelessly does stand there because it is a good idea & excuse] Rio: [when you don't even try to talk 'cos loud and a mood to just be enjoying this] Buster: [they never get to be physical let them have it for as long as they can] Rio: [just lowkey 'dancing' alright we see you] Buster: [such a mood] Rio: [getting drinks finally] Rio: You are no gentleman Buster: [when you don't even want the drink lowkey cos having a moment] Buster: I said it wouldn't last Rio: I don't care Rio: 'long as you make something else happen Buster: I can make that last as long as you want Buster: We've got all night Rio: Got 'til 12 anyway Rio: Cinderella rules Buster: Fuck that Buster: We've established I'm no Prince Charming Buster: We've got til I have to go to the airport Buster: & I want every second Rio: [just looking at him like WANT] Buster: You can't look at me like that & they stay where you are Buster: *then Rio: Can't I? Rio: If that were true, you'd do something about it Buster: [comes over to her & whispers what he wants to do in her ear because can't be doing any of it in front of any of y'all] Rio: ['least when she makes unholy noise in response no one hearing] Buster: [control your facial expression though boy cos its one thing to whisper to your cousin in a loud pub its another to then be giving looks when you're still standing closer than you should be] Rio: [when Grace or someone pulls you away to dance so you gotta but at least you can shamelessly put on a show] Buster: [when you're living for that but have to be subtle about the fact your eyes are glued to her the whole time, finding someone to 'talk' to so you can look over their shoulder at it etc all that bullshit] Rio: [living 'cos you know you a bad bitch] Buster: [at least he don't have to pretend to her he ain't looking anymore just gotta keep it from everyone else] Rio: [bathroom break, when the pub ones would be packed so you can go to the flat without it being like what you doing 'cos #famperks] Rio: Give it long enough they forget I'm still up here and come Buster: [let's say one of the fam brings him a drink when he's about to go so even though he downs it someone else beats him to the bathroom cos whoever gave him the drink is chatting to him about america cos he wasn't in the chatty mood at christmas we all remember] Buster: Don't take my sister's virginity Buster: [cos why not Nance for the bathroom cos then she can talk to Rio for ages too] Rio: 🙄 Yeah was close Rio: so alike Buster: Talk about your boyfriend, that turns everyone off Buster: You included Rio: 😏 Rio: Don't need to waste time with specifics Rio: just mention men in general Buster: Except me, that'd have her ranting from now until I'm back from the States Rio: So special, babe Buster: You know it, babe Rio: I'm gonna have to come down Rio: I'm not the one known for hiding in the loos Buster: Don't Buster: Find somewhere else to hide, the bathroom might the only door that locks technically but I'll make it work Rio: You wanna play hide and seek again Rio: Okay, start counting Buster: How high? Rio: Be nice, call it 60 Buster: I don't wanna be nice Rio: you don't have to Rio: I'm being nice to you Rio: knocked 40 off the standard there Buster: Make it 45 Buster: Fuck 60 Rio: If you started counting and stopped arguing, we'd be playing already Buster: If I stopped arguing you wouldn't wanna play with me Rio: Maybe Buster: Definitely Rio: Come on Rio: I want this to happen before the year is over Buster: Be patient, baby Buster: Just like you told me Rio: Don't wanna Buster: I know what you want Buster: I'm coming Rio: Give it to me Rio: only you can Buster: Say please Rio: Buster Rio: Please Buster: Alright Rio: Better than that Rio: you'll see Buster: We both will Buster: I do have some interest in playing fair Rio: Good to know Rio: I'm not gonna let it be anything but what we been waiting for Buster: Me either Buster: Gotta make you want me to come back Rio: You want me to miss you Buster: Yeah Rio: Do my best, like always Buster: You won't need to after I've done mine Buster: You'll miss me Buster: When I've left the room never mind the country Rio: I would anyway Rio: and you promised every second Rio: don't be going nowhere Buster: I said I want every second Buster: I don't wanna make promises I have to break Buster: Not with our fucking track record Rio: It's stupid Rio: need to stop seeing you only when everyone else is around Rio: but bit of a giveaway Buster: All that matters is that this fam are as stupid Rio: 😂 Rio: Where's the lie Rio: willful or otherwise Rio: sudden urge to have lots of sleepovers with your sister Rio: inconvenient you ain't in the same house most the time tbh Buster: Probably don't phrase it like that to her Buster: Unless you want a coming out party Rio: Haven't been checking who's into it 'fore getting to you, like Buster: I'd hope you weren't whoring around as a kid, that's a red flag for some really dark shit Rio: Not that messed up Rio: the rest is up for debate Buster: You can't be flawless & fucked up Buster: & I ain't ever wrong Rio: If you say so Buster: I just did Buster: I never said you look it, I said you are it Buster: You can't be flawless & flawed Rio: You've said lots of things Rio: but I don't care Buster: & this is the most up to date version Buster: Take it or don't Rio: Come take me Rio: sick of talking Buster: [Appears because same] Rio: [wasting no time here lads] Buster: [make sure you do take a second to block the door though, lesson learned] Rio: [when you're behind him on your knees like] Buster: [jesus if we thought baze had a lot of pent up shit, these two are another level damn] Rio: [when you're taking off his belt like 'use this on me later' and unbuttoning and your phone keeps going off with texts but you think its just Ryan still so you throw it to oneside like] Buster: [when you have a new & more persistent cockblock though soz kids also try not to rip anything boy she ain't wearing much as is] Rio: [blatant losing those nip covers like soz everyone, when the phone will not stop to the point you're like fuck it and go to turn it off and notice it's Indie so you're like what even then she calls when you're midway through her sos texts] Buster: [& there would blatantly be bruises to hide from ryan when they show the next day even at that point soz babe cos manhandling her all over the place] Rio: [when you're tryna ascertain if this is an actual drama or you can lowkey leave it but sadly it is so you're like 'I'm on my way' and when you put the phone down you do the most dramatic but real sigh and put your head in your hands 'cos seriously] Buster: [when you're more angry than worried because that bitch but then her reaction so you lift her head up & its the most gentle you've been in your life & you're just like 'where are we going?' cos mum & dad life] Rio: [shake head 'cos you really wanna be angry too because getting ridiculous now but being worried would override it ultimately 'cos you that bitch, just looking at him, nuzzling into his hand, 'Indie, her dad let her have a party and fucked off, it's got too out of hand but she doesn't wanna tell an adult if she can avoid it so' shrugs 'to the rescue, you should stay, it won't be fun'] Buster: [just a look cos nobody is ever surprised at drew or indies antics at this point even him who's barely around it & a shake of his own head cos no way is he just gonna let her handle that on her own cos fuck knows what could be happening. Gives her his jacket to cover them nips and a keeps his hand held out like let's go] Buster: ['shut up & come on'] Rio: [disguise your heart eyes girl, just tryna be like yeah okay whatever, like anyone ever helps her like soz Nance and Junie but you know you ain't helpful like that, 'doubt we'll get a cab tonight so can't even fuck you on the way, sorry'] Buster: ['sorry ain't the word' when you take one of the fam's cars even though you 16 & had two drinks so you're gonna get in so much shit but quickest way to sort this & you bring the solutions always] Rio: ['don't kill me, okay'] Buster: ['trust me, okay'] Rio: ['obviously' and must 'cos in the car bitch] Buster: [when its a moment cos who trusts him & you lean it cos wanna kiss her but you pretend like you intended to fix a make up smudge all along] Rio: [just smiling like 'even a bottle and a bit in, sounds like I'll be the most put together bitch there but thanks, babe' and adjusting his collar 'cos all mussed up] Buster: [gestures at himself like excuse you that'll be me but then she touches him so he's looking at her obvs boy stop & start the car you need to go] Rio: [laughs, 'how could I forget how bad you want a crown, well I'll vote for you but I got my tits out so' shrugs; when you want this moment but you ain't got time, 'drive on, driver'] Buster: [laughing too & pretending to take off his shirt & get his out cos nerd but obvs not cos they have to go & do] Rio: ['put it away, McKenna'] Buster: ['Say it like you mean it, Cavante, maybe I'll believe you even though you were desperate for the opposite a second ago] Rio: ['This weren't my idea, I still want the opposite, blame whatever child we've got to scrape off her floor, like'] Buster: [I do but I still wanna take all my frustrations out on you & you can't blame me for that] Rio: [silently 😩🤤] Buster: [hand on the thigh cos gotta drive but make it a moment] Rio: ['so daddy'] Buster: ['behave, I'm driving' whilst touching her up more cos being a hypocrite is in his dna thanks baze] Rio: ['if you're not up to multitasking then I take it back' 'cos cheeky] Buster: [when you have to go harder to prove you can so enjoy babe] Rio: [not taking it back even remotely, when you saying more and more] Buster: [obvs living for the encouragement so does. don't crash thanks boy] Rio: [not your car, places to be lmao] Buster: [priorities though cos how would you stop if you'd finally got to start touching her after forever of not] Rio: [just promising all the ways she gonna get him back, like] Buster: [gutted you're gonna have to wait so long boy but am actually cackling evily cos you get everything else you want so serves you right tbh] Rio: ['I'm gonna be so bored when you go and you're gonna be having such a good time, so rude'] Buster: ['I won't let you be bored, nobody multitasks better than me' keeps proving it by not crashing despite being distracted af] Rio: ['not gonna argue right now'] Buster: ['what are you gonna do?'] Rio: [just laughs but it breaks 'cos it's obvious if he don't stop] Buster: [doesn't stop obviously cos determined to finish what he started before they get there. 'say it'] Rio: ['I'm gonna cum for you, shit, Buster and you're actually here, it's actually you'] Buster: [when you also have to swear with feeling about this because unbelievable at this point] Rio: ['Baby, pull over, just for a second, I need'] Buster: [shouldn't but does because always gonna give her whatever she wants that's just facts] Rio: [when you just need a moment to recover and you get in his lap] Buster: [kissing her because the noise you make is unholy but you forget you can just do that right now cos actually alone] Rio: [gasping into his neck 'cos can't handle it, 'everything you do is so hot' when you're grinding on him like earlier 'cept you're alone now and we don't have time and you say as much 'we have to go' casually sounding so 💔] Buster: [saying 'I know' and normally it'd be a cocky reply to the first bit but it's a gutted response to the second bit obvs because never been more turned on in your life] Rio: [tilting his head like he did her earlier but giving him such a slow, longing kiss as she as slowly climbs back off to her own seat, 'I swear to God, I'm making it up to you'] Buster: [full on moan into her mouth because there's no way to keep that in & your only reply to that is to hit the steering wheel in total frustration before driving again. 'If there's a god besides me, he fucking hates the competition, And me for always winning.'] Rio: [When you gotta stop looking at him 'cos so turned on by that you ain't gonna help the situation] Buster: [such a sexually charged silence in that car rn] Rio: [how don't you die lads, like gotta skip you there 'cos bye] Buster: [at least it wouldn't be as far as it feels because their flat probably is close to town for drew's work reasons] Rio: [thank god there's drama 'cos your vibe, be more blatant Buster: [& thank god Indie's literally a child or she'd work it out] Rio: [sorting these shennanigans, probably ref this after the fact, like] Buster: [he really can multitask, being this turned on but still getting shit done] Rio: [when you lowkey have to ignore each other or it's game over tho, story of their lives] Buster: [at least they've had a shit ton of practice & the chaos is real rn so] Rio: [when you know you can't call an ambulance to Drew's gaff so it's either take the stash or take the kid somewhere else so you ask Buster to go take him outside and be like 'yeah just found him' 'cos not like she can carry this drunken child lmao soz boy and you get to work clearing out the rest, being a peacekeeper, standard] Buster: [you better not ruin his outfit in any way child] Rio: I.O.U x1000000 Buster: Yeah you do Rio: I know Rio: think all the worst of them have fucked off, no one else looks like they're dying so they can walk it off Buster: This kid looks too old to be this fucked Buster: At least I was an actual kid when I almost died Rio: Can leave him there if he is Rio: why the fuck anyone over the age of 13 would be here is fucked Buster: He could be 13, that still makes him a pussy Rio: Not gonna defend him, ain't dead yet no need to saint Rio: should've gone out properly Rio: would've been too fucked to see her texts and she'd have to get someone else Buster: Tell your regrets to the other god you believe in Buster: He's so jealous of me I'm in the gutter with a dying kid Buster: Didn't need or ask for this level of humbling Rio: Well no, this isn't how anyone envisioned their night going, I know Rio: 'cept maybe Drew who I'm sure is having a lovely time, wherever the fuck he is Rio: can swap if you like Rio: least he's unconscious, know she's a kid and all but if she don't shut up in a second Buster: You're alright, I'd only say something for me to regret Buster: I'm already so hot its a sin, no need to go overboard Rio: as the devil himself, babe Rio: that's my defense Buster: I could make that hold up in court Buster: You know, that's one regret that I don't have though, that we didn't go out Buster: I don't want you to be fucked up Buster: I want you to remember Rio: I'm not gonna forget Rio: all this bullshit aside, it only matters because I wish we had more time Buster: You could if you were that gone, I can't remember loads of Christmas Rio: I'm not that gone Rio: I'll message you tomorrow with all that I remember Buster: You're not 'cause we didn't go out Buster: So like I said, no regrets about that Rio: Good Rio: don't regret any time you spend with me Buster: Other than the kiss, I haven't Rio: Why regret that Buster: You know why Rio: but don't Buster: Whatever, like Rio: 😣 Rio: Any sign? Buster: Fuck no Buster: I'm gonna be here all night Rio: You could just put him in recovery position Rio: is that evil Rio: probably Buster: I've done that Rio: yeah but you could come back in, I mean Buster: Can I? Rio: We've called the ambulance Rio: oh, I don't know Rio: I'm being selfish, someone should stay out there Buster: No, I am. I don't know if I can be around you and not alone Rio: Valid Rio: I wanna but we've gotta focus Buster: Yeah Buster: Does she know this kid? Rio: Getting any straight answers out of her is fun but lemme ask Buster: Find out Buster: It could matter Buster: If he's got a big mouth Rio: it's a kid in her class, apparently Rio: which is the worst answer to that Rio: fuck sake Buster: He looks older than her, which is what I would've hoped for if I bothered with that shit Buster: This could get fucked up fast then Rio: Who doesn't? Rio: Jesus Rio: definitely wait then Rio: should we go to the hospital with him, like Rio: you've lowkey stolen a car to get here Rio: this is bad Buster: I'll see if I can get in his phone Buster: Hold on Rio: I should get my mum Rio: there needs to be an adult there when his invaribly shows Buster: I'll go to the hospital, call mine from there Buster: Get yours here Rio: Alright Rio: oh God Rio: well Rio: thanks for helping Buster: It'll be okay Rio: At least she's not hurt Rio: this kid will be okay Buster: They'll sober him up & get his parents Buster: I've done loads worse shit than this Buster: Unless his are proper strict, like Buster: Can't be that bothered if they let him out Rio: He's 11 Rio: that's not strict that's like Rio: basic fucking requirement Buster: I've been 11 Buster: Calm down Buster: You being hysterical ain't changing or fixing anything Rio: Don't call me hysterical Rio: 'cos I ain't Rio: we don't even know if he's just drunk, for God's sake Buster: Well, he ain't in the state to play twenty questions Rio: Well, it changes how they'll have to treat him and could change how much his parents, strict or nah, give a shit Buster: You don't think I know that? Buster: Fuck's sake Rio: I'm trying to get Drew too Buster: Good fucking luck Buster: Tonight's a great earner Rio: if he near kills a kid though, he's fucked Rio: don't take too kindly to that, like Buster: Obviously Buster: Send him your ootd that'll get his attention Rio: Don't be gross Buster: You wanna get hold of him, I'm telling you the quickest way Rio: Stick to actually being helpful please Buster: Stick to being smart Rio: I'd rather not send him nudes tah Buster: I'd rather not have this kid's puke on my shoes Buster: What's your point? Rio: Don't be a dick about it Buster: That's what I do, babe Buster: Isn't the familarity comforting among all this chaos Rio: Appreciate the gesture but no need Buster: If you say so Rio: You can be out of it soon enough Rio: I didn't intend to be dragged into this, never mind drag you into it as well Buster: You didn't drag me anywhere Rio: No Rio: and I told you I.O.U and thanks Rio: so sorry, and there's the fullset Rio: I can't do anything more right now Buster: & I told you shut up Buster: How much of a cunt do you think I am Buster: Jesus Rio: I don't but you're acting like there's more I could be doing when I'm doing literally everything I can Buster: Do you want a pat on the back? Buster: I'm doing everything I can & so will our parents respectively Buster: It's an everyday requirement, like Rio: Whatever Rio: let's just get on with it then Buster: She called you to handle it 'cause she knew you could Buster: So do I & so should you Rio: Knew I would, more like Buster: Don't act like that's a bad thing either Rio: Not what you'd usually say Buster: Fuck that Buster: Come here Buster: I know what you're gonna say, but just come here for a sec Rio: [does and is just looking from him to the kid] Buster: [gives her the biggest hug ever & fuck knows when he last hugged anyone so I'm fine about it] Rio: [bit taken aback but obviously hugs him back as tight] Rio: ['you should have your jacket back, it's cold out here'] Buster: [isn't letting go because they need this. 'I don't want it back'] Rio: [just listening to his heart always 'cos height difference perk 'okay'] Buster: ['it seriously will be, keep trusting me, okay'] Rio: [nods and says quietly into his chest 'just don't break my fucking heart, okay?'] Buster: ['I'll never do anything you don't want me to'] Rio: [looks up and smiles 'don't make promises you'll have to break'] Buster: [laughs. But then 😍 bitch 'It should count for something if I don't wanna break it'] Rio: ['Never said it didn't' some intense mfing eye contact] Buster: [leading to an intense kiss because this kid ain't a witness state of him] Rio: ['I will miss you, you know'] Buster: ['I'll miss you too'] Rio: ['Feels weird to admit that..but good too'] Buster: ['Nodding cos you can't be fully in the moment cos you're listening out for sirens or thinking that cali could show up any sec] Rio: ['Sure you don't want your jacket, baby? I can grab something from inside' rubbing his arms to warm them up] Buster: ['Keep it'] Rio: [Wraps it 'round herself tighter, 'Do I look cute?'] Buster: ['Cute ain't the word'] Rio: [Tiptoes moment to get as close as possible, 'Do I look like yours?'] Buster: ['You're mine anyway, if you're wearing my clothes, any of yours or none at all'] Rio: [When you practically pleading, whining 'Don't turn me on again' 'cos that has so much] Buster: [When there's nothing you can say because there's so much you wanna do & she still hasn't ever touched you yet] Rio: [One final kiss 'fore you go back inside 'cos you can't be with him when you're 'rents show 'cos beyond blatant, 'We're not gonna get another chance before you go, are we' a statement more than a question 'cos knows] Buster: [that kiss is everything though & we all know it because can't say no because of how much he doesn't wanna] Rio: [when you're lowkey emosh and like wtf pull yourself together bitch] Buster: [just watching her go & staring the way she went forcing yourself not to go after her even though its all you want] Rio: [cali you may as well show up hoes Buster: [the ambulance too why not] Rio: [that's that on that] Buster: [not how you wanted your night to end soz lads]

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Rio & Buster

Rio: She's all set up at mine Rio: How long are you here? Buster: Cheers Buster: Just the weekend Buster: Well, that was the plan. Might head back tomorrow seeing as she's still avoiding me Rio: Yeah, I don't think she's budging Buster: I got that Rio: I did try but yeah Buster: Don't worry about it Rio: I do feel bad Rio: Not just for your wasted trip, like Buster: Not your problem Buster: Nance is sorted, your job here is done, like Rio: Yeah Rio: Well, least you got free house Buster: Thank Christ Rio: Are your parents actively avoiding you or you them? Rio: Have a knack of never being in the same country for very long Buster: Me or Nance, who knows or cares Buster: It's fine with me if they stay out of my way Rio: 'Course Rio: Party at yours yeah Buster: Goes without saying Buster: Unless I get a better offer Rio: 🤞 for you Buster: Yeah Rio: Sure all your Dubo lot have missed you Buster: Standard Buster: Hence I'll give 'em the night before I decide if I'm staying or going Rio: Very generous Buster: You know Rio: Well, hmu if you need anything Rio: Have fun, McKenna Buster: Very polite Buster: 'Course. Work hard, play hard, remember Rio: Duh Rio: Know you ain't forgot either Buster: Obviously Buster: Don't get black out drunk anymore, like Rio: Yeah? Rio: I'm glad Buster: I said I'd do better, babe Buster: Meant it same as everything else I chat Rio: I mean it too, I'm genuinely happy for you Rio: it's good Buster: Steady on, I'm still not 😇 Buster: Just my parents golden boy for now Rio: 🙄 Rio: Just leave your teachs alone and you've got it in the bag for this year Buster: Do my best Buster: Some of the professors are pretty daddy though Rio: 😂 Rio: So sure Rio: Not gonna knock it, one way to get ahead Buster: I'll send you some pics, at least one is bound to be your type Rio: Thanks so much Rio: least I know the 💲💲💲 is poppin' Rio: put up with worse for less Buster: Exactly Rio: Nancy missed a trick Rio: if you gonna go there, babe Buster: She'd get less shit for it Rio: Why? 'Cos it's a viable financial prospect? Buster: Well yeah Buster: But also 'cause it'd either be all his fault or she'd be a hot Lolita Rio: 🤢 Rio: but true Buster: You're telling me, I just the L word on my sister Buster: Gonna be sick now like Rio: Can't blame me on that, you went there all by yourself Buster: Take the bullet for me, babe Buster: Come on Rio: Sorry that's all you Rio: though no one was putting money on YOUR sister, if that makes you feel better Rio: all prepared for Edie to be pulling that shit Buster: Gotta have at least one surprise up her sleeve, nobody was surprised that she was a massive gay Rio: I mean Rio: Nah Rio: Bless her Buster: Feel free to take her to church, she'd be in it for the architecture photo ops if nothing else Rio: I really ain't wid praying the gay away, I swear Buster: 😂 Rio: Though she might be herself now Rio: trouble it's worth, like Buster: If she ever wants to chat, I'll let you know Rio: 😕 Buster: 🤷 Rio: Well done for trying though Rio: Like, actually Buster: You dared me Buster: Had to Rio: Oh, well done me then Rio: You still didn't have to, like Buster: Not an amateur, babe Buster: How many times Rio: 😏 Rio: Keep saying it 'til you believe it, babe Buster: Keep proving it until you can't deny it, you mean Rio: Sure, if you like Buster: You know I do Rio: Yeah Buster: Are you back with Indie? Rio: Yep Rio: Missed your chance for the bed going at ours though Rio: 'less you really wanna freak Nance out with your highkeyness Buster: Tempting as it'd be to see her face Buster: Not gonna trade a free house for your mad one Buster: Nance might be that idiot but I ain't Rio: 💔 Rio: My Ma, like Buster: I bet Rio: You know, more kids about the better always Buster: I'll bring whoever I can find while I'm out and out if she's that in need Rio: 😂 Don't encourage her Buster: Why not? It'd not like she'd even notice my quiet sister being there Rio: 'Course she will Rio: she's a good ma not just a ma of many Rio: let her focus Buster: Whatever Rio: don't be badmouthing my mum Rio: 🥊 Buster: I ain't Buster: Unlucky if you wanna fight Buster: You'll have to think of something else Rio: What, like it's hard? 😉 Buster: Not for you Rio: Bitch, I'm so chill Buster: Whatever you say, babe Rio: You know you the easy one Rio: to wind up Buster: I've never had any trouble winding you up Buster: I know that Rio: Well, you seem to enjoy it so much Rio: gotta let you have it Buster: You too Rio: Maybe Buster: Definitely Rio: Shh Buster: 😏 Rio: Idiot Buster: Maybe Rio: You're really going to make it that easy for me? Buster: I don't wanna make it hard for you Rio: I don't mind Rio: all the time, like Buster: I know Buster: It hasn't been that long, like, I remember Rio: Hmm Rio: feels it Buster: Yeah Rio: Oh well c'est la vie right Buster: It doesn't have to be Rio: No? Buster: No Rio: Tell me how to change it then Buster: What do you wanna change, babe? Rio: Come on Rio: you know Buster: I wanna hear it from you Rio: I want you back Buster: Well, I'm already back here, where else do you want me? Buster: Say the word and I'll come find you Rio: With me Rio: Let me come over? Buster: I'm not there but I'll head back now Rio: If you're busy, like Buster: Shut up Rio: I'm serious though Rio: What's a few more hours Buster: So am I Buster: Fuck, I miss you Rio: Promise Rio: I've been going crazy Buster: Me too, I swear Buster: As soon as you said what's a few more hours all I could think about is what I could do with you for that time Rio: Tell me Buster: It's stupid Buster: I just want to spend time with you Buster: Even if you got here and fell asleep I'd still be like Rio: I don't plan on it Rio: Waste of time, like Buster: That's what I'm saying though, it wouldn't be for me 'cause you'd still be with me Buster: Call me a nerd if you want Rio: I don't wanna Rio: but I don't wanna miss being with you either by sleeping Buster: Then don't Buster: Just an example, like Buster: We can do whatever you want Rio: I don't just wanna fuck you Rio: you know Rio: but I do Buster: Yeah Buster: I know Rio: Good 'cos you gotta Buster: Where are you now? Buster: I can come get you Rio: Back at the flat Rio: You've not sent out the party invites already have you? Buster: Nah Buster: I wasn't in the mood earlier Rio: I know Rio: but not sad about it now Buster: It's why I've been at the gym Buster: I know you won't be sad about that either Rio: Ugh Rio: Don't Rio: I bet you look so good right now Buster: [sends pics] Buster: 'cause yeah I do Rio: 😩 Rio: BUSTER Buster: Rio Rio: Come get me now Rio: I miss you so much Buster: I'm on my way, baby Buster: Promise Rio: I've been thinking about you all the time Buster: Yeah? All bad, like Rio: Nah Rio: That'd be way easier Buster: I can turn this car around if that's easier Rio: Don't you dare Buster: Thank Christ Buster: 'Cause yeah technically I can Buster: But I can't Rio: Don't Rio: It'd only be easier because missing you is so hard Rio: come, make me miss you less for a while Buster: I'll make you forget what missing me feels like Rio: Please Buster: You're only gonna want me Buster: Nothing else Rio: Already there Buster: Fuck, I need to be there at your door now Rio: Hope you're planning to get further than the front door like Buster: Do my best Rio: 😏 Buster: Might push you through it at least Rio: Better Rio: Ain't in the begging mood Buster: I am Rio: Is that so? Buster: I'm not too proud to admit it, like Buster: I need you to touch me Rio: Well I'm going to Rio: because I need to touch you too Rio: all over Buster: Please Rio: Of course, but you've got to be nice to me first Buster: I'm gonna be so nice to you Buster: for as long as you'll let me Rio: Shit Rio: I hope your parents don't come back Buster: They won't. I've learned my lesson and checked the schedule Rio: You really have learnt some things huh Buster: You'll see, babe Rio: It ain't been THAT long 😂 what you been practicing Buster: I've had a lot of time to think about you Buster: and what I wanna do to you Buster: not to mention when and when not to be a selfish cunt Rio: You've never been selfish like that Rio: Thank fuck Rio: have to really reconsider my life choices then Buster: I'll take that Buster: But I've still got a lot of lost time to lavish on you so Rio: Yeah Rio: I know you'll enjoy every moment of worshipping me, baby Buster: You too Buster: You might not be in a begging mood now but I'll get you there Rio: 🤤 Rio: Let's be real, it is not going to take a lot Rio: I'm so fucking needy Buster: I'm not mad about it Buster: You're so fucking hot when you want me Rio: All the time then? Rio: Thanks, babe 😜 Buster: It's not a lie Buster: You know you always look good Rio: You can enjoy the view from between my thighs, like Buster: Fine by me Rio: Hitting me with the fine Buster: 😂 Buster: I don't use it how you use it, babe Rio: 😑 mhmm Rio: nothing but the truth, yeah? Buster: 'Course Buster: We don't have to be playing for you to ask me for it Buster: You know that, yeah? Rio: Yeah Rio: but I wanna play Rio: 😻 Buster: I've really missed you Rio: I've missed you too Rio: I can't pretend any longer Buster: Don't Buster: Just be real with me Rio: I wasn't even with you Rio: not really, how could I Rio: you know Rio: but with myself and the rest Buster: If you mean that, I'll help you Buster: Whatever you need Rio: I mean, maybe Rio: dunno where I'd start Buster: It's not like you have to do it right now Buster: Be fucking rude frankly if you did 'cause I'm nearly there Buster: We can figure it out though, with your brains and my looks Rio: 😂 Rio: You know me Rio: such a busybody do-gooder, like Buster: You said it, babe Rio: Only 'cos you did first, babe Buster: Shut up Buster: You know how I feel about you Buster: And what I really think Rio: I like it when you tell me Buster: Well, I like it when you let me Rio: Say what you want Buster: I love you Rio: I love you Buster Buster: This isn't a mistake is it? Rio: Don't Buster: You said I could say what I want Rio: But Rio: I don't care if it is Rio: I need you Buster: I need you too so badly Buster: But I still care if it is Rio: Why? Rio: You've never cared before Buster: 'Cause it wasn't before Buster: Tell me it isn't now or tell me to go Rio: It isn't Rio: Don't go already Rio: I'm not going to hold it against you Buster: Don't regret me and I won't Rio: I won't Rio: I regret all this wasted time Rio: I know I had to but still Buster: I'm sorry Rio: Don't be Rio: It's done Buster: Is it? Buster: Are you really saying you're over it Rio: I'm over feeling this shit Rio: I'd rather have you Rio: it's not like you wanted her Buster: Yeah Buster: My head's been so fucked since Buster: I thought I couldn't feel worse, but every day I haven't been able to talk to you I do Rio: I don't want you to feel bad Rio: like I can't stop thinking about it Rio: but just because I think it's fucked she did it and your friends all just let it Rio: idk, maybe it's just 'cos I love you Rio: but idc Buster: I need new friends, don't I Buster: I'm just gonna hang out with you in the 24 from now on, sorry about it, like Rio: Thank fuck for Uni, can ditch 'em all and get new ones, babe Buster: Too right Buster: That's where I was this morning Buster: Checking out Trinity to see if it was full of cunts Rio: That's exciting Rio: How'd you rate it? Buster: It was alright Rio: You gonna put it on your list? Rio: know you got the money to apply to loads but still Buster: Yeah Rio: It'd be nice to have you near Rio: if we still fucking 😜 Buster: I wasn't planning on having multiple gap years, babe Buster: If you get sick of me that quick I am actually gonna have to learn some lessons Rio: Wasn't planning on stopping but you know Rio: 🐇 boiler Rio: only just got you back don't need to be fucking me chances already, like Buster: So you do wanna come with when I check out the american unis on my list then Rio: You serious? Buster: 'Course Buster: At least it wouldn't be boring if we went together Rio: Might be tricky working out excuses Rio: but I want to Buster: We ain't amateurs, babe Buster: We can figure it out Rio: Me pretending I could get in like 🤔 hmm yes Rio: 😂 Buster: You're there to meet their hot professors, obviously Buster: I'm doing you a favor and hooking you up, like Buster: Cousin's prerogative Rio: That works Rio: dead believable that Buster: Cheers Buster: Well proud of it Rio: Don't ask fam, sugar daddy hunting Rio: ain't even gonna talk to that dickhead, like, psh Buster: I'm fine with not talking 😏 Rio: Exactly Rio: not even lying to 'em Buster: Am I coming in or are you coming back to mine? Buster: 'Cause if Indie interrupts us I swear to god Rio: Better play it safe Rio: just this once, like Buster: I won't make you put your seatbelt on if you feel like you need to even the score Rio: Ooh Rio: so sexy Rio: this from the man who basically put an IV drip in me 'cos hydration Buster: You don't remember that Buster: Shh Rio: I do though Rio: win that rep back babe, lemme run with scissors or something really naughty Buster: As much as I want you on my lap while I drive I'm also too young and attractive to die, like Buster: I'll think on Rio: You save that for the after Rio: but imma do what I want 'til then 😏 Buster: Yeah? Rio: Duh Rio: If I haven't frustrated you proper then you aren't gonna punish me right either Buster: I thought you wanted me to be nice to you Rio: That is nice Rio: Don't act like you don't know how much I love it Buster: I just wanted to hear you say it Rio: I'll tell you all about it whilst you try to focus Rio: 😇 Buster: Go on then Buster: Distract me Rio: Okay Rio: You wanna see what I'm wearing for you? Buster: I'm not gonna say no to an offer like that Buster: Good opening bid, babe Rio: Not an amateur, babe Rio: [Lingerie pics] Buster: You really aren't Buster: It'll almost be a shame to rip that off of you Rio: If you like it you can keep it Rio: dunno about the fit but Buster: Is that one from the fantasy list you never told me about, like? Rio: 😏 Rio: Depends if you gonna do it 😂 Buster: Depends on the fit, obviously, babe Rio: You break it you owe me Rio: either way I'm winning 😋 Buster: I'm gonna break it anyway Buster: Wasted time, remember Rio: Any excuse to go shopping with you Buster: Don't blame me if they kick us out before I get a chance to flash any cash Buster: You know what you get me like Rio: Somehow, don't think I'll be that mad about it Buster: I mean, you can be a little mad, I like that Rio: I know exactly what you like Buster: Glad you didn't forget Rio: How could I? Rio: When you're the only thing that's been on my mind Buster: Had any more dreams about me? Rio: Yeah Rio: Too many Rio: then I wake up and you're not there so I have to settle for closing my eyes and pretending it's you when I fuck myself Buster: I know. Me too, baby Buster: But I'm here now and we have plenty of time Buster: I'll make at least some of them come true for you Rio: I know you will Rio: just that good Buster: Think about how many times I've made you cum in one night and then double it Buster: Then you'll know how much I want you right now Rio: If I think about that I'm liable to cum right now Rio: Lemme get in the car first damn baby Buster: If you need to, like you said, I'm not that selfish Buster: But I'm basically at the flat so unless you do want me to crash you might wanna wait Rio: It's cool, I ain't driving Rio: hands and mouth free Rio: so much I can do Buster: Fuck Buster: That's so unfair. I still have to Rio: Poor baby Rio: I'll drive you sometime and return the favour if you want Buster: I want you Rio: Good because you have me Buster: Say that again Rio: You've got me, Buster Rio: whenever you want me Buster: Good Buster: Get in the car Rio: 🤤 Rio: How long I gotta take to make you say that again? Buster: Are you really gonna hold out to find out? Buster: Get in the car, Rio Rio: I've fucking missed you Buster: I've missed you too Buster: So fucking much Buster: You'll see Rio: I see you now Rio: you look so good, and ridiculously out of place outside these shitty flats Rio: let's go Buster: I could say the same thing to you Buster: But instead I'm gonna tell you to hurry up or I'll carry you Buster: We're getting out of here one way or another Rio: you always wanna pick me up Rio: know i'm tiny and adorable but please Buster: Please is right Buster: You'd love it Rio: Yeah Rio: You make me feel safe Buster: Good 'cause you are with me Buster: You're mine, I'm never gonna let anything happen to you Rio: Okay, getting in now because you're just Buster: If you think that's gonna shut me up, sorry to say, unlikely

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Rio & Nancy

Rio: You know Rio: If you like, I could sleep with Mr. Tomlinson Rio: Take the heat and shine off you all in one, just ask Nancy: It's a kind offer Nancy: But it's not gonna fix any of the important stuff Nancy: And it's not like you deserve any of what would come from that unholy union Rio: Okay, you could give me names of the worst offenders and I'll sort them out Rio: not in similar fashion to teach, of course Rio: How are you really though, babe? Stupid question but gotta come Nancy: You can't take on half the school, Rio Nancy: If it was that easy I'd still be in London Nancy: Maybe it's a stupid question but I've only got an obvious answer so Rio: Sure I can Rio: Ain't my first rodeo Rio: Is there anything of actual use I can do to make everything not totally shit or? Nancy: Don't be nice to me Nancy: I can't handle it Nancy: And I just re-applied my make-up Rio: You ain't wronged me Rio: along with half the School, like but they LOVE taking shit personal when 10 minutes ago it was Quinn who? Rio: And we've all put our waterproof to the test before Nancy: If it was just her I wouldn't be thinking about leaving Nancy: Tristan literally has half the school on his side and it's not like I can blame him Rio: It's just insecurity Rio: 'cos you're not a total sadcase like the kids she usually works with, can't pick on them for loving on his Ma or swinging at her whatever Rio: he's just taking out his blatant issues about it 'cos he ain't had the chance before Nancy: Am I not? What would you call me? Nancy: Yeah, bit like how I was with his dad Nancy: At least he's got real issues, I've got...imaginary emotions? Or something Rio: Hmm Rio: I might throw hopeless romantic at you if I'm feeling really savage Rio: Nah, they ain't imaginary Rio: How much easier if they were Nancy: Hopeless is right Nancy: But I doubt either Sian or Quinn would call me romantic Nancy: Well, they weren't real. None of it was Rio: Not the fantasy in your head but the feelings were Rio: you can try and discredit them if it helps but in my experience, usually a pointless exercise Rio: but painful enough to feel somewhat fitting of a punishment, right? a start, at the very least Nancy: Ouch. Calling it a fantasy sounds....yeah let's not Nancy: I know you've got a point, that I should have let you make earlier Nancy: God, how did I let myself end up here Nancy: What the hell Rio: Sorry, as if the world wasn't ready to burst your bubble, like Rio: Shit happens Rio: You can't control it Rio: Arguably could've controlled it enough to not get to that point but I ain't got room or desire to judge too harshly Nancy: It's fine, I've heard worse from the world Nancy: I can though. I had been Nancy: Or so I thought Rio: 'Til you didn't Rio: exactly Rio: It's done now, the rumour mill will do it's thing, then you'll be free to deal with the actual mess in your head Nancy: It's his fault Nancy: The prick Nancy: I wouldn't have lost control if he didn't first Rio: Yeah Rio: She sounds devious Rio: Why her, like Nancy: He hates me and so does she Nancy: Match made, like Rio: He doesn't hate you, babe Rio: He's just an idiot Nancy: Okay, he hasn't forgiven me then Nancy: Point is, he's mad at me Rio: At least you've got reason to be mad at him now too, yeah? Rio: Fair fight Nancy: Like I need a reason, he didn't have one Rio: Yeah, not how he sees it though Rio: maybe you can get it all out there now Nancy: He sees things to suit him Nancy: Always has Nancy: Everything about her was right there for him to see before I left and after Rio: Yeah, it's fucked up Nancy: I shouldn't have to spell it out to him, he was right there Rio: I know Rio: I don't think it's like that Rio: like it's still shitty Rio: but it's not like, love Rio: he ain't like that, if nothing else, thank fuck, yeah Nancy: It doesn't make me feel any better Nancy: There's always girls around him, he didn't need to get with her Nancy: All their friends remember, they tagged me, so he can't have forgotten what she's like and everything she did Rio: He looked wasted Rio: in her photos Nancy: Lesbian or not, I know if he was that wasted he wouldn't have been able to get it up for her Nancy: It's not an excuse Rio: Let's not think about the logisitics Rio: it's not personal, physical reactions Nancy: You can say that, it doesn't matter to you Nancy: If he's so mad at me for moving to Dublin he shouldn't sleep with one of the main reasons why I had to Rio: Have you said this to him yet? Nancy: Fuck no Nancy: And I'm not going to Nancy: He knows what she did, he didn't stop it, whatever I didn't ask him to, but he still had a front row seat Nancy: She made sure everyone did Rio: Wouldn't it make you feel better, to rip him a new one? Nancy: Not really Nancy: I've tried enough times before Nancy: And she's the least of my worries now that half this school hates me and the other half loves me in a way I don't want, ever Rio: I can hear the threesome offers from here Rio: Ugh Nancy: Like, I get it, I'm a cliche, let me list the ways for you but then go away Rio: Keeps your inbox fun and fresh, I guess? Rio: Is it gonna be hate or love, know the feeling Nancy: I haven't even asked how you are! Nancy: Letting myself down in all the ways Rio: Oh God, same old, same old, no need to depress yourself further Nancy: Not to be like my brother and his (lack of) coping mechanisms yet again, but can we go out? Nancy: I'm over being staring at my walls or my phone crying or trying not to Rio: 'Course Rio: you're allowed to drown your sorrows at least 3 more times 'fore I'm calling you out on the parallels Rio: Anywhere with cheap drinks and GRL POWER bops? Nancy: Anywhere that my haters won't be Nancy: Because now I've called them haters which is the WORST thing Rio: 😂 Rio: May as well call 'em motivators whilst you're at it and be done with it Nancy: Sounded like a soundbite from my mum's mouth Nancy: That's the last straw. I wanna die Rio: Not before you've got a 'round in Nancy: If you come and help me not look how I feel then I'll owe you so many drinks Nancy: You'll be able to get as drunk as Buster, fuck everything up too Rio: I do owe you for the time I shamelessly stole your wardrobe so Nancy: You're literally trying to remind me and I still don't remember Nancy: So you're fine Rio: Still omw Rio: I've rocked many a makeover in my time, though it's been a while since any of 'em but Grace would let me 😂 Nancy: I have no energy to fight you Nancy: And can't look worse than I do right now Nancy: The bar is low low low Rio: Slap some cucumbers on those puffy eyes Nancy: Excuse me mum I need to take those from your water really quick, babe Nancy: 👌 Rio: When plain old water just ain't hydrating enough Nancy: @ my dehydrated but still crying self Rio: Dry it up, babe Rio: Gotta at least arrive at the club semi put together Nancy: Are they gonna let me in? Nancy: I can't do any more humiliation today Rio: Of course, you're nearly 18 anyway Rio: they let Indie in, you're fine Nancy: Tell it to Sian Nancy: And the powers that be so they don't sack her Rio: 😑 Nancy: If we're going out you need to work on your poker face Rio: I'm sorry but I'm not gonna cry for her, babe Nancy: You sound like the rumor mill Nancy: none of this is her fault Rio: Mm, she could've done more about it Nancy: She didn't know about it, what could she do? Rio: You reckon? Rio: She's a married woman and you probably weren't that subtle Nancy: You're talking to me not my brother Nancy: I can be subtle Nancy: I've had years of practice Rio: Not with love and shit Rio: No offence but you know it's true Nancy: Yes with love and shit Nancy: She didn't know until I wanted her to Rio: Okay Nancy: You don't believe me, do you? Rio: No but there's no need to push the issue Rio: you can't know either way now Rio: but they won't sack her Nancy: You should Nancy: You say I can't, but I do know, 'cause I've been over every moment in my head Nancy: I wish she did know, before, and she felt the same as I do but that's not gonna happen Rio: Yeah, and every time you go over it, the memory changes Rio: Sorry but you're not a trusted source on this Rio: especially 'cos you still wish that Nancy: I know Nancy: I can't just stop loving her Nancy: Everyone wants me to, even her, but I don't know how to Rio: Yeah Rio: Time, that's about all that'll do it Rio: or someone else Nancy: Did time work for you? 'Cause been there tried the second option already Rio: 'Course Rio: heals all wounds don't you know Nancy: I can't say I do know that yet Nancy: I'm still angry and hurt about Chloe and Buster so Rio: That's allowed Rio: got a decent amount of time left on both before people are eye-rolling Nancy: You think? It's been years since I left Nancy: I should be over it Rio: Nah Rio: she's still the same bitch Rio: why should you try and be above it Nancy: 'Cause I came here to change Nancy: So I shouldn't be the same bitch Nancy: It's pathetic, right? Rio: No, 'cos you weren't the bitch to begin with Rio: You don't need to change Nancy: if the alternative is this Nancy: i want to Nancy: I hate this Rio: Okay Rio: How do you wanna be? Rio: Let's make it happen Nancy: where to start, like Rio: You tell me, babe Nancy: My extensive wardrobe doesn't include a chastity belt so I'm gonna need more self control Nancy: Any ideas? Nancy: Not an app for building that as far as I know Rio: Hmm, idk Rio: could get yourself on tinder, the awfulness of people looking for a quick hookup will do wonders for your sex drive Nancy: Lord Nancy: That's a scarily good idea Nancy: Anywhere where straight guys exist in numbers Rio: The club will be the IRL embodiment so tonight is your lucky night Nancy: Luck isn't on my side lately but i've got nothing to lose Rio: That's the spirit Rio: Might as well put all your chips down now Nancy: Keep my phone for me later? Drunk dialing Quinn at the end isn't gonna work out the way it did at the start Rio: Not yet anyway Rio: Time, yeah? Rio: You take mine, swapsies Nancy: Likely not ever Nancy: You didn't see her Nancy: But sure, your phone camera gets me Rio: Never say never Rio: unless it's your married teacher Nancy: Don't give me undeserved hope Rio: I dunno Rio: It's not like you were married, you know Rio: or you properly cheated Nancy: Yeah but that's only because I didn't have the chance Nancy: I was still thinking about Sian most of the time Nancy: That's gotta hurt Rio: Bit insulting, yeah Rio: I wouldn't go back but maybe she liked you Rio: Either way, don't think there's anything you can do to make ammends rn so Nancy: She told me she liked me Nancy: And because I'm the worst human I didn't stop it Rio: Hardly Nancy: You're too nice to kick me when I'm down Rio: I ain't Rio: And I ain't above using someone for my own shit, not many are Nancy: I'm just as bad as him Nancy: Fucking twinning Rio: Different sins Rio: If you're gonna make like him, try not to give a shit about it, right? Take the perks with it Nancy: If only Nancy: At least he didn't like Chloe and use her anyway Nancy: That's just me and what I'm looking for in a girlfriend Rio: Oh, babe Rio: what a mess Nancy: Help me Nancy: Should I just go back to London or? Rio: Hmm, I don't know Rio: It'd maybe hurt less to not see either of them Rio: but you'd be more alone Rio: but, either way, it's a year and you're out of both Nancy: I don't know either Nancy: I wanna see them both so much and that's why I shouldn't be near either of them, right? Nancy: But June will murder me if I leave and I'll murder Buster if I have to share a house with him all the time again Nancy: Summer was Nancy: Oh God Rio: You're not a monster, you're allowed to feel that Rio: You aren't going to do anything else, the mistakes have been made, you're on learning time Rio: I can't really see London working, to be honest Rio: It'd be a step back, more than all...this Nancy: Yeah. I don't love it there. Closer to being at home here by far Nancy: I know I'm just scared to stay Nancy: But I need to girl up and stick it out, like Rio: Yeah Rio: We're all here Rio: that's a good % of the school pop so fuck it Nancy: 😂 real Nancy: be on your way faster 'cause whatever is closest or coldest in this fridge is being opened now Rio: 👍 Rio: Had to sort my own self but I'm in my car Rio: not looking a total state now, welcome Nancy: teach me how to make cocktails so I can make new friends? Rio: Ooh Rio: Fun Rio: Grandad gonna be pissed off but deal, old man Nancy: sorry but I need the gays to protect me now, granddad I can't wait for you to come over and be fabulous Rio: I'll invite some of my gay friends if you want Rio: not a hoe you out vibe Nancy: They'll back right off when they sense my 💔 so bring whoever you want Rio: See who's about and up for it Rio: first though, some tlc Nancy: If you bring a boy you like I'll promise not to gag Nancy: Or cry Rio: Trust, there are no boys making me gag or cry atm Nancy: Gross Rio: 😂 Nancy: And I assume disappointing? 🤔 Is that the goal, penis so big it almost kills you or? Rio: Oh honey 😏 Rio: I don't believe for a sec you're so 💔 that you're ready for the lowdown on the d Nancy: Trying to talk about you and your interests since I haven't shut up about me Rio: Sweet Rio: Maybe when I'm drunker myself I'll tell you all about it Nancy: Yeah? Nancy: So there's stuff to tell Nancy: Knew it Rio: Nahhhhhhh Rio: Not my own personal penis Rio: just the basics Nancy: Like basic teenage boys from your street or Ann Summer's basic range? Nancy: Either way, do better if I have to live through you Rio: Damn Rio: Pressure weren't real enough already, like 😜 Rio: Ma like, where's those grandkids @ Nancy: Like she wouldn't come at me with the same question Rio: We're all slacking Rio: for shame Nancy: Wait until she hears about my celibacy Nancy: Sorry auntie Nancy: I gotta do what I gotta do Rio: 'til you 👀 some cuties in the cloob Nancy: I'm giving myself to god Nancy: she's a babe Nancy: full nun mode activated Rio: You talking about Ariana Grande? Nancy: Never Nancy: I've got enough drama in my life without fancying a straight celeb Rio: Celebs don't count Rio: ask anyone, free pass, like Rio: off chance she's out in dubo tonight Nancy: It's 🌈 icons or nothing Nancy: But it's nothing, obviously Nancy: feel free to hit her up yourself though Rio: Picky Rio: I'm good tho, not really my type either Nancy: I could make a bunny joke but we don't need to get back into the Ann Summer's shelves Rio: Don't we? Rio: Celibacy ain't gon' be easy babe Nancy: I've done it before Nancy: First girlfriend, remember Rio: Pringle rules Nancy: Never say that again Nancy: Touches too much of a nerve, which in itself sounds dirty so Rio: 😂 Nancy: Don't laugh at me Nancy: Why did I have to ruin my life? Nancy: 😭 Rio: You had to know, yeah? Nancy: But I should've known anyway Rio: You'd always have a what if Nancy: Yeah but I've just swapped one for another 'cause now Quinn's a what if instead Rio: She's a has been now Rio: in the nicest possible way Nancy: Ouch Rio: Not a never ever though Nancy: Safe to assume Nancy: I wouldn't have me back Rio: Yeah but you're living up to your name rep rn Nancy: ? Rio: A negative Nancy Rio: sure that's not old Nancy: I was going on the McKenna part and I was like, how insulting is this gonna get? Rio: Too real for tonight Nancy: Too real for this month Rio: I'll allow it Nancy: Oh god, I'm gonna have to change all my birthday plans Nancy: Don't let me think about that Rio: Yeah, don't Rio: we'll sort something Rio: but I'm here Rio: pour me a drink and lemme in Nancy: 👌👌 Nancy: Excuse mum and dad's scowls Rio: 😬 Rio: Should I move my car lads Nancy: Back to the 24 and away from my bad influence I'm sure they'd say right now Nancy: not a direct quote Rio: I'll chat 'em round Rio: parents love me Nancy: 😏 Rio: Rude! Nancy: Hey, I'm preparing you for the kind of quality banter you'll have to get used to hearing if you hang around me Rio: Alright, the craic starts here Rio: deal with it, 'rents Nancy: 💚🍀

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Buster & Rio

Buster: You on your way or what? Buster: Hello? Rio: Yeah no Buster: What does that mean? Rio: I don't think I can come but Rio: something bad has happened Buster: Tell me Buster: What's happened? Rio: Drew saw idk what or how Rio: but he knows Buster: What did he say? Buster: Like what's he gonna do? Rio: I don't know Rio: I just froze or I didn't want to ask in case the answer was tell everyone Buster: If he tells anyone I'll tell them what a fucking perv he is Rio: Oh God Buster: Babe Buster: You gotta breathe, yeah? Calm down Rio: I can't what the fuck Buster: Where are you? I'll come pick you up Rio: I just started walking I had to get out of there but I couldn't go home because what if he's already told Indie Buster: He's not gonna do that Buster: I'm getting in the car, stay there Rio: Fucking hell Rio: this is bad Buster: It's gonna be alright Rio: You can't say that Buster: Yeah I can Buster: He's not saying shit and even if he does, we'll handle it Rio: You reckon, seriously? Buster: 'Course Buster: Not the crime of the century, like Rio: but Buster: What, babe? Rio: He just said some things that make me think he might Buster: Tell me Buster: What did he say to you? Rio: He was weird, like it was funny and that threw me Rio: rather he was mortified even if not into silence, like Buster: He's always weird Buster: Don't worry, I'll find him and shut him up Buster: When did he leave? Rio: No, don't Rio: I don't know where he is anyway but come find me Buster: Okay, baby Buster: I'll be right there Rio: What are we going to do, what's the plan Buster: It depends what he does Buster: It he keeps his mouth shut we don't have to do anything different Buster: If he tells anyone then it's about who and what Buster: How much did he see? Like, what does he think he actually knows? Rio: He didn't see that, how could he Rio: just implying he knew from how we were acting in the pub Rio: and not really saying anything back really helped prove him wrong, shit Rio: i fucked up Buster: He ambushed you Buster: He knew exactly what he was doing with it as well Buster: Fuck it, I ain't worried, we weren't doing anything in the pub that we can't say is bullshit if we want to Rio: Yeah, it's true Rio: deny I had a clue what he was on about Rio: you can go home if you want wouldn't blame you Buster: No Buster: I don't want to Buster: I want to find you and make sure you're alright Rio: Sorry Rio: This ain't fun Buster: Don't Buster: I still care even if you don't wanna fuck me Rio: I know but Rio: shouldn't be this much hassle Rio: who wants that Buster: But nothing. I'm not going home unless you come with me Buster: If I hadn't left earlier this wouldn't have happened Buster: You shouldn't have to be alone with him and his bullshit Rio: It shouldn't be your job to keep me outta stupid situations like this Rio: and ryan and curtis and everything Buster: I'm gonna kill him if he comes near you again Buster: That goes for those cunts as well Rio: Don't you wanna just forget about me and my drama Buster: Shut up Buster: We ain't quitters, remember Buster: And I can't forget you, you know that. Been there and tried it Rio: Buster Rio: be honest Rio: is it me? Rio: I don't think I start this sort of shit but it keeps happening and I'm the common denominator so Buster: Rio, don't you fucking dare Buster: I don't wanna hear that again, yeah? Buster: It's them Buster: Just 'cause they treat you like this doesn't mean you deserve it or that you brought it on Buster: The world's just full of cunts and they've gravitated towards you 'cause everyone does Rio: Ha, now I'm actually crying Buster: Well, you've told the right person 'cause I can't say shit to anyone about it Rio: Thank God Rio: such a spotless rep I've got Buster: You have with me Rio: Just everyone else who's thinking it Buster: Who cares? Buster: It can still be just me and you, babe Rio: I don't want to be a messy slut Buster: Good, 'cause you aren't Rio: Don't have to lie Buster: I know I don't Buster: And I'm not Buster: But it doesn't mean shit what I think if that's what you think, like Rio: I don't know what I think now Buster: You don't have to know shit Buster: We ain't even 18 yet, babe Rio: You know what you're doing Rio: Nance does Buster: You reckon? Rio: Right? Rio: Least you ain't dropouts working in a bar underage like Rio: well done me Rio: never mind the rest Buster: It doesn't mean we have our shit together though Buster: Me and her are fucking terrified all the time, it's about all we've got in common now Rio: Oh Rio: Not happy to hear it like but Rio: I know we all are really Rio: Just regretting the front I decided to put on, clearly Buster: Yeah well, you didn't hear it if anyone else asks Buster: My dad already thinks I'm enough of a twat without that going around Buster: And I'm not gonna win a friend in Nance by chatting shit about her, like Rio: Yeah but easier to let 'em think you're a twat 'cos you're acting one than risk 'em thinking it when you're actually trying right Buster: Easier to just not be one, but you know Buster: Too late for that Rio: Is it though? Rio: on both, actually Rio: but s'alright, secret's safe with me Buster: I don't know Buster: Like I said, I don't have all the answers Buster: Barely any really Rio: It's alright Rio: I don't need them from you Buster: What do you need? Buster: Besides me getting through this fucking traffic, obviously Rio: Just stay Rio: 'til Grandad's bday is over at least Rio: it'd look weird if you left now Buster: I already spent a fortune on his present, you reckon I'm gonna leave before he offers me a glass? Fuck that Rio: Okay, good Buster: Stay with me Buster: You can sleep in Nance's room if you want but Buster: Don't go anywhere he might be Rio: Yeah, as if he ever comes to see Indie Rio: she's got a room at Ro's but not the point, talk about an obvious cry for help when your child refuses to move with you and you stil don't care Rio: but yeah Rio: I don't want to go home Rio: so I will Rio: thanks Buster: He might try and come see you though, and I don't trust him Rio: I don't like him Buster: Me either Buster: I know Ro's got issues like but he shouldn't be one Rio: She was well shot Rio: killed Indie's Ma, got mine pregnant Rio: she was free Rio: it's so shit everything is shit Buster: If my aunt relapses because of him and what a cunt he is my mum is gonna lose it herself Buster: He fucks up everything he's around Rio: At least she has to take care of herself whilst she's pregnant Rio: about the time he loses interest is when the kid pops out so Buster: Indie's mum didn't and he never fucking noticed so we'll see how that goes Rio: fucked that all happened when we were around Rio: i didn't know anything was fucked then my dad was gone Buster: Do you remember Indie's mum? Buster: We were all so little Rio: I think I do sometimes Rio: but I don't know if I'm just putting stories to pictures now Buster: It's so fucked like she wasn't much older than us Rio: I know Rio: guess considering where we've come from Rio: could be worse Buster: Yeah Buster: And don't my parents make sure I know it Rio: doesn't mean you've gotta be perfect Rio: or that they were just cos in comparison to their own shit Buster: You reckon? Have you met them? Buster: That's exactly what it fucking means Rio: 😟 Rio: You'll be alright, Buster Rio: I know that Buster: I'll be perfect, babe Buster: Failure's not an option, like Rio: Yeah, reckon you will Rio: but you'll be alright too, yeah? Buster: I'll do my best Buster: If you will Rio: Promise Buster: Then we'll both be alright Buster: No thanks to cunts or Dublin traffic Rio: I want to sleep in your bed Rio: Can I Buster: 'Course Rio: Cheers Buster: Christ knows how we're gonna sleep after this Rio: Fucked I can still imagine a few ways? Rio: may as well before the bastard ruins it Buster: Nothing's changed for me Buster: And yeah, let's just enjoy it while it doesn't have to Rio: Me either Rio: if the threat of being found out was enough to stop it, we wouldn't have started Rio: let's be brutally fucking honest about it, like Buster: If anything I want you more now Buster: That cunt thinking he can stop me Rio: When you're actually fuck up my life hot, babe Rio: Brag none of your mates could ever Buster: I just proper laughed Buster: Brag none of my mates could ever either, honestly Rio: Are there no decent people in Chelsea forreal Rio: You're cute and funny, your friends aren't either what gives Buster: I really fucking like you Rio: You too, McKenna Buster: I think I see you Buster: If not awkward Rio: If I get in the car and there's a random ass streetwalker with a fro..Imma be insulted and jealous Buster: If you don't get in the car then I really like the look of whoever this girl is Buster: When she does, make yourself scarce, yeah? Rio: S'all good, some really good-looking lad just pulled up and is so giving me the eye Rio: fuck it, the night to go for it Rio: catch you later, yeah? Buster: Catch you later, Cavante