#and it is looking like a pretty lonely existance rn :')

[your-ne1ghbor]

Asha design reference I think idk (TKORAT AU)

She kinda reminds me of young Amaya unironically lol

(probably bc Amaya gave Asha her old clothes 💀💀💀)

(Or that I was playing with my style again for the millionth time)

I FORGOT HER FUCKING FRECKLES NOOOOOOOOO

Also been thinking about changing her sidekick animal to smth different but idk what tbh 🐀

HEheh ofc I had to draw silly angst and moment together

For her dress, Im not even done with it. I wanna add patterns that represents her and the kingdom but idk how to execute it outfit wise atm. Plus, I wanna fix some problems I have with the dress, mainly the middle and top part as well since it really reminds me of FS! Asha and I dont really want that and wasn't trying to go for that 😭

The hair was pretty fun ngl. I got to see a ton of styles in box braids and they're all really pretty :D. I simply went for the pulled back box braids since I thought it fit her well design wise.

The crown was the easiest. I was just simply looking at crowns from medieval times and I kinda got reminded of The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, And the Wardrobe. Specifically the ending where the kids got their crowns.

I felt like it just fit her design wise. But that probs just me being a sucker for flower crowns right now smh 🤦‍♀️

Going back to the dress, I was heavily looking up Spain Outfits from medieval times including some other ones, like the French outfits for example, mainly as inspriation for the outfit so I can come up with my own design of a dress for Asha :D

The rest of the dress kinda came from my pencil, I was just sketching until the design looked right to me and then was like: YES haha

I did look at her early concept version's of Asha as well, but it was only for her hair, since it is always the hair I have trouble with

(plus this is one of my fav styles I see Asha in from the art book lol)

Idk if this will be her ACTUAL FINAL design, but ig it is a part of the process of my overthinking :')

Annnnnndddd ofc thinking how I am gonna traumatize her in her childhood. Hell yeah...

...

:(

[sparrowlucero]

would life as a larrow suck? like if you could choose to be isekai'd as a larrow rn would you take it up? what about the other way around, would a larrow want to be us

It doesn't really suck anymore than life as a human does, but a lot of humans would see it as bad or stressful in certain ways:

Larrow imago usually only live about 30 years, and it's not super abnormal for them to die before 20. They're also very tiny (like on average the size of a button quail or a smallish parrot) so compared to humans they seem pretty fragile.

Their society doesn't consistently exist; eggs are produced, hatched and grow up at roughly the same time, and all the larrow of a single generation usually die off entirely before new ones emerge from the ocean (with an occasional outlier). That next generation isn't exactly the same culture as before, just formed through similar needs and off of the technology left behind by the last. their whole 'rome falls every few decades' set up would probably be very offputting to most alien cultures

They have next to no health care; larrow learn medical care by themselves, for themselves, and they practice surgery and similarly extreme procedures on themselves quite regularly.

Larrow are basically fine not socializing and will sometimes go years without talking to one another; it's to a degree where even anti social humans may be stressed and lonely. They also don't really show a ton of concern for other people and animals, empathy is more of a philosophical idea than this totally innate thing.

The world they live has very extreme storms; their average low winds would be difficult for a human to walk around in. They don't have houses but public access "storm shelters" which, from a human perspective, look woefully incompetent as they're full of holes and look more like animal nests than a "real" building

On the other hand:

Larrow are adapted to live in an environment with constantly moving air and are instinctively adverse to areas with stagnant air, as they struggle to breathe in it and it can make them really sick. Human buildings seem really gross to them in the same way rot or mold does to us

The way humans are constantly trailing each other and actively trying to initiate touching and interaction all the time feels both animal-like and weird/scammy/aggressive to them, our social behavior is their "about to get mugged" behavior

complex nest building in constant storms was like their main evolutionary pressure to Get Good with the brain power, so they're very technologically minded in a way humans just aren't. They could open up a human car or computer (or indeed a body) for the first time and understand how it worked back to front. This is all just architecture to their lizard brains. Which means humans needing to go to school to study this stuff sounds like, really stupid to a larrow.

the whole idea that humans will bribe other humans to knock them out and operate on them sounds like a horror show. What if the doctors got bored and left? What if it turned out they wanted to hurt you while you were asleep? If letting other people chop you up is a normal cultural quirk why do they keep making scary movies about it

the way humans have all these complex daily networks of giving things up and gaining them is confusing and stressful. they're kind of like that boar in this tumblr post

This is all to say many humans would see larrow as living short lonely survivalist lives in ramshackle houses in a dying culture too selfish to care about each other, where many larrow would see humans as spending most of their lives in gross little prisons being so incompetent at everything that they'll die of minor ailments like "tumors" and "internal bleeding" if other humans don't randomly take pity on them.

Not to say some people wouldn't be interested or jealous about aspects of each other's lives... "what if you could just fly alone for weeks at a time and work on the first draft of your novel" would obviously be appealing to a lot of humans, and getting to root through a world of completely alien tech and biology would make a larrow feel like it was one of these caddisflies

[potato-lord-but-not]

ok humor me here- chnt au where mostly everything is the same except it takes place in the magnus archives universe ?? and yk I’m open to community speculation and yall adding on to this because I need more opinions !!!! unhinged ramblings under read more :^)

ok ok so camp here & there is a site that’s run by The Spiral, everything outside of that is practically normal, but the camp makes everyone believe that the events that go on here are actually not that weird. It could also be a place where the bridge between the fear entities and earth is thin, so that’s why there’s a lot of activity from several different entities.

At least once a counselor mentioned “why do we keep working here every year?” And Soren was never actually fired, which just adds fuel to the fire tbh.

Most of the counselors there are just marked by the spiral, but others are marked by different entities. Some might not be full on avatars yet, but still posses supernatural qualities (like Oliver Banks until his death). Rowan is an Eye avatar, and although it’s made a point that the eye can’t really see the future, that just makes Rowan’s situation that much more worrying. Soren, ofc, is an avatar of The End. Self explanatory. Jedidiah mighhhttt be Web aligned, or even The Lonely (now that I think about it he most definitely is the lonely in someway) but I’m not entirely sure what to do with him yet. Adam is a Flesh avatar, and maybe one of the only ones who actually knows he’s an avatar (besides maybe Soren and Lucille). Elijah seems like an End avatar, with him being overly obsessed with making sure Sydney stays asleep for the greater good of humanity. His trying to sacrifice Sydney was an attempted End ritual, and would’ve most likely failed w/o intervention bc Sydney hasn’t been marked by all the fears yet.

Sydney is this au’s Jon, he’s being led into the position of the antichrist by Lucille, who is The spiral avatar. So far Sydney has been marked by the spiral (working at chnt), the end (Soren, the gravediggress, and the mold), the hunt (… the hunt), the flesh (Adam), the corruption (the hive incident), the eye (the bonfire, Rowan), the lonely or the web depending of which Jed aligns with more, andddd I’m sure others that are slipping my mind rn.

Jed (more than likely on accident) cemented Sydney as an Avatar after he killed and reanimated him, and Sydney is able to stay fit at the camp bc he feeds off the unhinged Spiral energy it creates. I also think Sydney was marked by The End at an early age, and that’s why he was chosen to be the sacrifice by Elijah (even if he doesn’t realize it) and why he’s very into death and decay.

The Magnus Institute DOES exist in this au, and they (Jon n the gang) find out about this camp due to a tired looking young man who convinced his slightly unhinged boyfriend to make a statement with him about the strange place they work at over the summer (ps Juniper is Very spiral aligned, more so than the rest of them, thinks that the camp is actually pretty normal and doesn’t know what Rowan is going on about, and seems to live in a place that Jon later finds out doesn’t exist at all)

ummmm I think that’s it for now, let me know if you have anything to add or silly thoughts about it ??

[primoppang]

hi. hi. here to request. a little seungmin fluff where we are kind of lonely and sad and he reminds us that he’s always there : )

HI HONEY TY FOR BEING MY FIRST EVER REQUEST <3333 ily and seungie so I got u bby ◡̈ mwah ur the best ( ˘ ³˘)♡

warning: swearing is inevitable with me sorry ¯\_(˶′◡‵˶)_/¯, fluff, like gross amounts of it, seungmin says "this is so gay but..." because he cringes at showing affection but refuses to let you forget how he feels about you fr, he's a tsundere ok? ok. he licks your face(?) , one (1) kiss, he joking threatens to fight you, and mentions of self doubt and anxiety, angst if you blink but I think it's mostly fluffy... anyways! lmk if I missed anything!!!

WC: a little under 500 :D

AN: this is the first drabble I've ever done in bullet point format so just pls lmk how it goes??? Im super nervous I hope it's at least an easy read :(

so the first time he realizes that you're feeling lonely he slaps himself internally because how DARE he make you feel that way, but he's not home rn and can't show you physically so he comes up with a Plan™️

you're literally the light of his life

so he just >:(

but not at u

he just wants to make you feel happy and loved and safe

so he starts brainstorming

but he's naturally a menace

so when you're texting with him while he's working and you're being kinda short

because yk

u just feel :(

he just sighs and texts back

"look, please don't feel sad. I know this is pretty fucking gay but I love you."

which makes u giggle

because that's YOUR seungie that YOU know and love so much

<3

BUT whenever he's able to be physically with you and he can just feel your self doubt and anxiety creeping in and trying to swallow you, he once again uses his braincell.

so he just grabs ur hand

and leads u out of ur bed and to the living room

sits u down

and starts running around ur shared apartment grabbing every blanket and pillow that exists within the space

and I mean

E V E R Y. S I N G L E. O N E.

puppy zoomies moment hehe

and don't even think about trying to question him

he'll just say "shut up and wait while I set up a big ass fort for us to cuddle in, ok?? I love you but I wanna make u SEE THAT."

which u smile at

because him telling u to shut up

but then explaining why

and then also watching him move furniture and start building the fort, you tear up with happy tears

because???

:(

he's the sweetest and u love him so much

but when he hears u sniffle

he turns on Extra Puppy Mode™️

pops out from under some blankets and tackles you into the couch and holds your face

wiping ur tears

maybe even licked one because he's a freak and wanted to get a reaction

which u just squealed at bc wtf sir

but then he realizes

oh ur crying because ur so touched by this whole thing that he's doing

!!!

"... you dummy. stop crying... we gotta get snacks and stuff for our super awesome fort yk??? and you won't be able to see if you're cryi—"

you cut him off by giving him a little kiss on his pouty lips

as a silent thank you :(

which he realizes that oops maybe he got too serious and overwhelming

but you reassured him that you're just so glad to have him as your partner and best friend in one :(

"please just remember that I do love you, and I'm always here even if that brain of yours tells you otherwise, ok? or I'll have to fight you... affectionately."

and then he proceeds to smother you in kisses and cuddles :(

[blorb-el]

Psssst does the au superbat fic exist bc I waaaaaaaaant it

I want it too 😭 tragically it only exists in about........4.5k scattered scenes which I try to poke at in between working on my main project rn!

misc worldbuilding scraps that are currently rotating on the back burner:

(omegaverse) human instinct relies on scent > hearing > taste > sight to find compatible partners, kryptonian instincts lean on sight > hearing > scent > taste, hence the mating markings

omegaverse humans have a much higher degree of face blindness than we normal humans do lmao

helps clark pass, the more he pulls his scent back the more it fades away, clark kent smells so dull/insignificant/mild that it seems like he's got a medical condition (hypomyrodia). jonathan kent had this. when jonathan and martha found bby kal, he was scared and tried to match scents to the two humans who found him, which caused his kryptonian scent to quickly fade. a hypomyrodic pup would probably face high abandonment rates and low adoption rates, so it was probably a relief that two willing parents brought the pup in

kryptonians all pretty much exist along a relatively smooth spectrum of sexual characteristics and can transition somewhat like clownfish if there's a hormonal imbalance in their community. having zero (0) other kryptonians around does things to clark before he grows the fortress and is able to synthesize hormone stabilizers

humans meanwhile have ten major sexes because betas can be true beta, alpha-leaning, or omega-leaning depending on their recessive genes

poison ivy is x100 more horrifying in any omegaverse world. she only manages to zop clark though bc the pollen is enchanted. however it's enchanted to induce primal alpha hindbrain, which means something very different to lone kryptonians than packbonded humans

it would have been the norm on krypton to have one's facial markings out. kryptonians would pull them back if they were sick, or perhaps terrified... primal hindbrain clark looking around and seeing nothing but non-glowing faces, and it coming across as everyone around him fucking terrified of him

for the first few months of their acquaintance clark is like. im not sure what gender batman is and at this point i'm not sure its ok to ask (he can smell past the concealing patches to bruce's strong omega scent but the patches could also be doubling as, like, the equivalent of binders, could be that batman's gender is null, but he mixes in diluted alpha cologne, but that could just be for concealment/intimidation....???)

sun-powered kryptonians have a strong, distinctively alien but somewhat alpha-smelling scent (when they're not pulling it back) but barely leave any on people they try to scent with, and scents barely stick to them. when clark politely explains this to bb dickie hes just like well i guess ill just have to scent you for longer! and clark goes 🥺

at this early point in the timeline barry is the only known omega superhero so the tabloids are huge into superflash

anyway all that's just kind of fluff/details... the core theme i've been rotating around is overcoming real and genuine barriers to intimacy. the loneliness of knowing you're a square peg in a world of round holes, the necessary compromises of sanding away your corners, the joy of meeting someone who will stretch to meet you where you are. there's a fair few excellent fics of bruce uncomfortable in an omega's role and body, i want to come at it from a perspective where a xenomegaverse clark has to define what gender means to him, in the heightened roles of the omegaverse. we are looking also at layers of passing. when parts of your closet become your armor that protects but encumbers you, and other parts become your exoskeleton, which grow into who you are. we are looking at that comic about the orchid that has the pattern on it meant to appeal to an extinct species of bee. we are looking at compromise made of love and compromise made of fear. and we are looking at tentacles baby.................

[schwarzgeier-side]

Good day! I've been thinking about your very badass Geier replikas, and I suddenly got curious - is there any specific vulture species that you took as an inspiration? If so, in what way?

Heloooooo thenk u for ur kind words and question!! I have both a suprising answer to this and a non surprising one fjfjfj

I originaly never really had a specific Vulture spieces in mind for my Geier replika , I just kinda liked the general idea of vultures being carrion cleaners and combining that with flamethrowers since. They clean stuff pretty well too, specialy in Signalises universe i imagine since the flares are the only thing permanently killing corrupted replikas.

But as general inspiration and looking into Vultures more i can say my Geiers fit the Black Vultures the most probably. Mixed with some esthetics from the coolest Bearded Vultures and I took yellows/oranges from Greater Yellow Headed Vulture.

Black Vultures lives all over both American continents and is small for a vultures but i liked their coloring and sort of balanced attributes. They live in groups as opposed to most other specied that are solitery/paired up. Toom that to form the Geier squad that exists rn cause i didnt want them lonely . And i think they mate for life? But im not sure 100% I heard that in one video . But i like their versatility .

Bearded Vultures , or LammerGeiers , are probably my fav vultures tbh because like. Come on. Look at them. I love them so much theyre fucking badass. Their diet is 90% bones and bone mearrow , thats insane I think. But I have seen others (I think even sosa specificly) made these their inspiration so I chose not to. But the size of them and coolness also chips into my design a bit.

Andd the Greater Yellow headed borbs! They don't have anything specific to them really aside from the fact they have a very good sense of smell that allows them to find carcasses but they themselves can't open up fresh ones , they need help of other bigger vultures. Also they miss a part in their throats that makes em make normal bird sounds so they hiss and gurgle more. Black vultures have the same . I took the yellows and oranges from these guys and gave em to Geiers.

So all in all I don't have. One specific spieces as inspiration which admitedly I should have worked more on. But I kinda just like all vultures :] I love their place in ecosystem as cleaners . Black vultures are even associated more with rebirth and goodluck rather than just death.

[yuukei-yikes]

do you think ayaki ever looks at all the dumbass drama shintaro has wrapped himself in now that they're finally all alive and well and just loses her mind. like i imagine ayaki having to watch The Guy She Used To Be In Love With And Now Just Lives In His Head Rent Free Forever and Her Little Brother get into a situationship to end all situationships AND then shintaro getting an alternate version of herself pregnant and she just has live with that forever

i like to think ayaki can sorta opt out from watching shintaro's life and she can just watch other memories and/or hang out in evil mind head space that totally exists and do nothing. it's just pretty boring to do that so ofc she can go see shintaro's everyday life too.

it's fun to imagine like she's just a girl living there with literally NOTHING to do. i think shintaro and her can talk if he activates the ability, which he will only do so she doesn't feel lonely. 100% i think he does it to check in and she can be like u dont Have to worry. im not a person. and he's like well let's say it's for my sake rather than yours if that's better. and ayaki's like *heart squeeze* cause he's totally lying, he's doing it for her. shintaro has no other use for his ability in his current life after all.

also i hc ayaki would ask shintaro to watch her shows like jojos bizarre adventure which She Is canonically into. so she can go back and watch his memories of watching it. kind of like hey can we record this please. thanks.

it's funny imagining shintaro as her video rental store. all she has power over is watching memories so making him watch shows and movies is all she's got. rip ayaki you would've loved letterboxd. shintaro activating the ability to check on her and ayaki's suddenly telling him all her movie reviews of the shit he's watched the past month

sorry to get sidetracked but it is relevant to reply cause. i like to think she does Not watch all this unfold. because it feels too cruel to have her watch this guy make out with her brother. or herself.

so when she comes back from dilly dallying in her totally redundant existence, and checks on what shintaro's been up she gets to find things out all at once. like SHE ASKED YOU TO WHAT. AND YOU SAID WHAT? AND THEN YOU DID WHAT? AND NOW SHE'S WHAT???? AND SHUUYA IS INVOLVED HOW? YOU SICK BASTARD

i think what hits ayano in pt17 would hit ayaki a lot faster. she's totally like dude its 100% gross for you to be with shuuya rn thats sick and twisted ur into my brother. and shintaro's like WHO ASKED FOR YOUR OPINION I JUST WANTED TO SAY HI!!!!!

[aoki553]

GRGRGRGRG FINALLY AN OPPORTUNITY TO INFODUMP ABT HIM!!! tysm @makifishcake and prepare for a long ramble abt best boy ever (to me) and why saijun is real... let's start with an introduction to a canon crossover character only The Loser (me) cares about! this is gonna get messy in writing near the end cuz its like 3 am for me rn.

Kouno Jun is one of the two protagonists of Asou-sensei's older work, Our Hero Studies and is one of Haganeno Ken's students at Holy Lance Academy (a private school that either exists the same town as Saiki or some neighboring one)

The only translated OHS chapters so far show us who Jun and Haganeno are as characters. Kouno Jun's a generic tsukkomi high school student with normal teenage boy interests and crushes... he's baby and a total boyfail.

Jun likes video games (Kaisou Monogatari, an in-universe franchise), ramen, melon soda and Yayumi - the class rep. Pretty normal dude that's just being constantly bothered by his classmates and the teacher he hates...

...and then there's Haganeno Ken - THE delusional cosplayer hero wannabe teacher with huge interest in roleplaying and RPG video games, who immediately takes a liking to Jun, mainly for his name (his name means shield, while Haganeno's mean sword. you see where i'm going?)

most of the ohs panels will be machine translated cuz i have no strength or motivation to continue my actual translation work ngnhnh one day maybe... 😔

He may look like a generic high school shonen manga protagonist, but it's actually really charming to me how adorable he can be despite the boring presentation lolol HIS CRUSH ON YAYUMI IS SO CUTE UGHNHNH

And yeah of course he shows up in Saiki bc WHY WOULDNT HE???

Asou-sensei put him there twice. In the Christmas chapter where he's walking with a girl (MOST LIKELY YAYUMI), sees Kusuo sitting alone and being like "haha that's so sad to be lonely on christmas lmao"... EXCEPT ITS HILARIOUS CUZ HE DOES THE SAME THING IN HIS OWN MANGA'S CHRISTMAS CHAPTER.

and in the Hero Studies crossover chapter, right at the end as an unused character. (wouldn't make sense to have two tsukkomis there tbh so i get it lolol)

Same thing happens in the anime except Jun in the Christmas episode wasn't animated like he's an actual pre-existing character, except just a background character so he looks different but has the same jacket with his initials so its definitely him.

so here's all his screentime:

his terrible sense of style was referenced by Takeru at one point as well. yes, Jun dresses terrible and he has outfits much worse than this. hes a loser and i love him

okay but what's with the saijun thing? orz

basically its a silly ship me and my lovely sweetest gf (@lu-kario ) came up with and it kinda stuck around. "omg haha what if the two protagonists from different manga dated" but yeah it became an actual thing with thought out scenarios between us.

Me saying it'd be like satousai but Kusuo finds someone "normal" with actual personality would be not giving this ship enough justice. I can't tell much rn cuz I forget 90% of the stuff i make up unless i write it down BUT all i'll say is that

I like to imagine Jun and Kusuo having a calm and nice relationship, lots of quality time spent playing video games or going out to get some ramen together. Kusuo gets to have someone more usual by his side and Jun isn't likely to be bothered by Ken when Kusuo is around (:3).

and yeah, they do get another scene together in volume zero! how lovely! the christmas episode is also one of the reasons i find the ship cool but even despite the sillies having canon scenes and illustrations together i like it simply for fun.

canon crossover ships are cool and epic

my final words: go read ohs its fully in japanese online and 5 chapters are in english so far.

seriously go read it the fandom doesn't exist its really lonely.

and if you care abt our hero studies u can motivate me in the ask box, gimme a kick on the butt so i go and translate this work again after like a year or more of hiatus

[pinkarsonist0]

I'm watching the Craig of The Creek movie rn, and oh my God, MY SCOUT BABIES IT'S THEM.

Spoilers for Craig Before The Creek below:

WHOSE THAT GURL WITH THEM IS SHE LIKE LIKE AN OLDER SISTER/MENTOR TO THEM. OKAY, SO SHE'S CLEARLY A FELLOW SCOUT AND WOULD BE LIKE A MENTOR TOWARDS THEM.

Based on how Boris held her hand and the way Jason smiled at her comment towards getting the friend group name correct, that could be to imply they were rather close to her. Especially Boris. I doubt they're related by blood or law. However, I do think they had a big sister bond with her when they became scouts. According to Google, you can be a scout as young as kindergarten to 5th grade, and the oldest you can be a scout is 18.

My headcanon is that she is the reason why the scouts started going to the creek, and she would show them around it and guide them, I get a very strong older sister vibe from her. Much like Mari from Omori, let's hope she didn't play the piano...

I don't know how many years the movie takes place before the movie (at least not yet). However, I stirred up some guesses. Jason seems to be 10-11 in the show like Craig, so based on how young the scouts look, my guess will have to be that they are 6-7 years old (possibly 8 years old for Boris). So, 3-4 years before the show.

Imo, Jason seems to be happier in that scene, and in my opinion, Jason in the show isn't a very happy child if we exclude certain scenes. So, assuming the theory that Jason's mother is dead is true, we can assume the movie takes place before the tragedy.

In conclusion, this is what I stirred up for Jason (after the movie and before the show): I still have my headcanon that Jason's mother cheated on Jason's father, rooting their divorce. Jason's clearly upset by this as he begins seeing his mother a less, and his father is growing distant. However, he still had the girl we see in the movie for guidance and comfort. I do think that Jason was still pretty lonely in his childhood, so when his parents weren't around, he had her to act as an older sister for him.

But then, tragedy strikes, and Jason's mother is dead. Life begins to suck more for Jason, he now lives with just his dad and now he's straight up ignoring him and only remembers he exists in order to brag about Jason's achievements as a Forest Scout and to top it off he drags in Jason's step mother. And she clearly doesn't like him as much.

But at least he still has-

Oh, she's leaving too.

Jason's sister figure ages out of being a scout and leaves, leaving him to handle his new home situation.

I still think that Boris and the girl were the closest to each other and meant the most to each other. I think she loved them like little brothers and she loved showing around the new Forest Scouts and showing them the ropes. But Jason, Boris, and Tony stuck out to her THE MOST. She acted as an older sister to the younger scouts and maybe even stood up for them when the fellow older scouts were teasing them. She loved the scouts like little brothers, but time caught up with her, and she could no longer be a scout.

I love overanalyzing so much, you have no idea. I missed my scouts so much but now that they're back I can do SO MUCH WITH THEM NOW AHH

Also, do not think I didn't see the girl and (present) Tony having similar hats. Imma just go crazy with that and make the headcanon that she gave Tony that hat when she left. (I know her hat is a little different, but let me have fun).

And another thing, maybe she's the camp counselor we see in Camper On The Run. They have a lot of physical similarities, I need to see the episode again after watching the movie.

Edit:Just got done watching the movie, and the credits confirm that girl is the woman we see looking for Roxy in Camper On The Run and that she was indeed a fellow scout. Shannon is credited as Shannon the Scout rather than just Shannon. So, this could be a lead for my theory/headcanon being true. Someone on the COTC subreddit said that in the movie, Kelsey says she is in the second grade, and she is 9 in the show, so that would mean that the movie takes place 2 years before the show.

Now, let's get back to Shannon with this new information. The youngest to become a camp counselor is 16 and when I googled the age you can no longer be a scout I got multiple answers, but the most common one is 18. So we are safe to assume that Shannon left at 17-18 aka the estimate for when a Junior Forest Scout can no longer be a scout. I assume Shannon is 15-16 at the time of the movie and left at 17-18. So we can assume Shannon is probably 18-20 at the time of Camper On The Run.

Since she went to the creek, I wonder if she got to see Boris, Tony, and Jason again briefly. I NEED SOMEONE TO WRITE A FIC WITH ALL THEM PLEASE.

[therehearsal2022]

thank u @girltakovic for tagging me sorry it took me a week to remember to do this.

10 things for 10(ish) people you’d like to get to know better

idont know anybody sorryyyy. do this if you want to

last song: reals not real king gizzard and the lizard wizard 😍😍😍 ok now lets bash by the lonely island is playing

favourite color: it alternates between yellow and green all the time but rn i think its more green

last book: ummm idk oh im still reading conclave. and the novella version of the nice guys which exists for some reason. idk i dont have time for books .

last film: the thing 🐺🐺❄️❄️🔥🔥 pretty good but you know what i just wish mulder and scully were there

last tv show: finally catching up on the righteous gemstones since severance is now worthless to me

sweet/savory/spicy: savory...

relationship status: still single . you know this

last thing i googled: various info about fields of mistria idk

current obsession: i dont like anything...

looking forward to: nothing everything is bad. no um seeing fire walk with me in theaters at the end of the month and uhhh. i dont knowwww i dont like anything

[anonymous-dentist]

can u do something about richas #1 island cupid and his matchmaking shennanagins im in need of something sweet

I’m coping okay pretend he’s around for the Women rn

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Richarlyson takes after his Pai Cellbit in a lot of ways: his love of coffee, his love of investigating, his love of slaughtering innocent villagers and watching the life bleed out of their scared, terrified eyes. But maybe the most impressive similarity is something that not even Pai Cellbit knows about.

Richarlyson looks up at his cork board, and he taps his chin, and he ponders.

His board is a lot like his dad’s. It’s got the red string and everything, but where his dad uses real photos of people, Richarlyson uses drawings. It’s all hidden beneath a wall of paintings in his room at N.I.N.H.O., and not even his Pai Forever knows about it.

But it isn’t about mysteries, no. It’s about love.

Today’s object of investigation is the new lady, Mãe Bagi, who he’s spoken to a total of four times since her arrival. She’s nice, but she’s lonely, and Richarlyson remembers when his Pai Cellbit was lonely and how he stopped being lonely when he met Pa Roier. But Mãe Bagi only seems interested in one person, Melissa, who Richarlyson is pretty sure is actually his Pa Roier’s superhero alter ego, so that won’t work. That won’t work at all.

But next to Mãe Bagi on the board is a drawing of Tia Tina, who Richarlyson saw pining dramatically from a distance every time Mãe Bagi did anything. And, meanwhile, Mãe Bagi doesn’t seem to know that poor Tia Tina exists because Tia Tina is too nervous and awestruck to even approach her. But not for long!

There’s a little red string connecting the two drawings. Richarlyson has got this.

Operation: Moms, begin!

[dreamseekersans]

Dreamseeker Sans/aka 'Morpheus' Origin Lore

(Subject to change for now since I'm still setting up his lore and stuff rn)

His first memory was awakening in an empty world, shrouded in a pitch-black darkness, his cloak illuminating the space around him.

He sits there, for he does not know any better.

He sits there for an unknown amount of time, for he has no concept of it.

Then, some spheres around him that he previously hadn't noticed glow with bright colors, he sees colors twisting and turning, making strange noises.

He watches and listens, for he does not know any better. He watches, he sees figures that look sort of like him, talking with others.

----

Eventually, after some time, he begins to understand those sounds, it's language, it's words. He learns. He learns that words have meaning, and so do gestures. He learns to get up and walk around. He learns that the figure that looks like him is a skeleton named Sans, or so he assumes, from the gestures of it all. He doesn't quite understand the full sentences yet, but he's certain that the skeleton is named Sans.

This means that he, too, is a skeleton, or so he would like to believe.

----

The first sentence he fully comprehends is ironically one that he doesn't quite understand.

"This is a dream."

The screen goes pitch black, as they always do eventually -- some earlier than others -- but they would also always come back.

Always.

He waited.

----

They came back. He sat down, listening once again. He always does, for he does not know any better.

He learns more, he can comprehend sentences now.

Many screens held skeletons claiming to be Sans, others had skeletons claiming to be Papyrus. Are all skeletons named Papyrus or Sans?

If so, which one was he? Who was he?

----

He began practicing speaking himself. He wanted to speak and communicate like them too.

Sometimes, he would pretend he was also part of a world in amongst one of the many, many screens littering the dark realm. He pretended he could speak amongst them, laughing and joking with them.

It was...fun? That sounded right.

But the screens would always eventually turn off, leaving him in the dark, his cloak illuminating the space around him, only further reminding him of the vast darkness around.

What was this feeling? He didn't know the word for it, for he did not know any better.

----

Sometimes, a screen would flicker out, and never come back.

Sometimes, a new screen would appear.

He didn't know why-- it just happened.

Nonetheless, he watched, listened, learned, and talked. For he did not know any better.

----

Sometimes, a screen he passed by would be filled with loud...laughter? He didn't feel like that was quite the correct word. Sans would always have that same smile on his face. He was in a battle with the human.

It looked pretty action-intensive, but Sans would always look so cool. It felt...exhilarating watching him (was he using these words correctly? He wished he could ask Sans, maybe he would know).

Sometimes, Sans would lose, and some red stuff would fall out of him. He didn't know what it was, was that paint? He tried asking once, but Sans didn't respond. No one responded when he spoke, after all. The screen would usually become pitch-dark after that.

Sometimes, Sans would win. And sometimes, when Sans won, his smile would disappear, and he would say that same sentence before the screen cut to darkness.

"This is a dream."

He still didn't understand what that meant. He was starting to dislike it though, it would always bring another space of darkness to his world, leaving him to find another screen to watch.

What is a dream?

----

Loneliness. That was the word.

He could see everyone, he could hear everyone.

He was always watching and listening. And if he tried hard enough, he could pretend he was part of it all.

Pretend. That's the most he could do.

It was an awfully lonely existence.

He was starting to know better, and he didn't know if he liked that or not. Uncertainty filled him.

----

The more he looked at the screens, the more he understood some semblance of the concept of time they spoke about occasionally.

And the wait for the screens to come back felt longer and longer each time they disappeared.

That loneliness he learned about began to grow and fester within him. He wished he never learned about it, that he never learned what he was.

He wasn't Sans, he wasn't Papyrus.

He was lonely.

----

It was yet another iteration of him watching the screens play out the events of different worlds. He'd never tried this before, and he didn't know what compelled him to do so. He just knew he felt a strange urge to do something, anything. He's seen, he's heard.

He wanted to experience more. He wanted to taste what they ate, he wanted to feel what they felt, he wanted to touch the grass and look at the sky above-- just one time, please, please.

He reached towards a screen.

And it pulled him in.

----

(To be continued in the same post once I get more written down.)

[embeddedsystems-shius]

Dude... I'm so happy that music exists, man.

amazarashi's new album has been pushing me to the point of tears for the last few hours. And christ... This guy's kinda a hero, to me.

I'm so happy that he's got a new album. It's kinda insane to be able to listen to something new from him, after all these years.

「自虐家のアリー」 was the only song that I ever really related to, as a kid. It was the only song I couldn't listen to - because it made me ugly cry, every single time. 「季節は次々死んでいく」 is STILL the only song I HAVE TO sing, every time I do karaoke and shit.

...I'm so happy that music exists, dude.

Even if it makes me cry.

It reminds me that I'm not alone. Not really.

Cause rn I'm going through the album and bawling my fucking eyes out to 「ゴースト」. It's like some sort of catharsis, I guess.

And I wanna be able to sing some of these tracks. I want to sing some of his songs again.

It's probably pretty small, but it gives me something to look forward to.

And I guess I'm still lonely.

I probably still am the lonely, isolated fuck up that I always was - but the music reminds me that there are people still outside, I guess.

And I dunno. I'd like to think that at least one of them still waits for me, to get out of my stupid fucking hole in the ground.

I'm a bit scared... I still dunno if I should get out of here. I wonder if it's worth the pain.

But I think I wanna be heard, too.

I want to make music.

I still do. Even if I'm not good enough. Even if I don't know if I ever will be.

Like all of my heroes have done before me.

And I think I want to dream, again.

I still wanna try. Ya know?

...I know, I know. This is just another excuse for me to not give up. But reaching for the most unattainable dream, is still better than ending up dead.

[troglobite]

being extremely honest abt my mental health below the cut (warnings apply, but i am safe & okay & not a risk)

i spend a lot of time day to day wondering what the point is of being alive

i'm not clinically/chemically depressed insofar as my brain is overreacting to stuff and i'm incapable of Feeling Things or Experiencing Joy

it's literally just that moment to moment, the experience of being alive is miserable, and i have very little that brings me joy and counteracts that.

and i just had an argument w my mom abt how me complaining "all week and all day" & being in a bad mood ruined her night and made HER upset.

she tried to turn it around on me, even though i complained for 2 mins max downstairs and had moved on

and was saying shit like wow sorry she loves me, and is she not allowed to be depressed?

i said out loud as i was leaving "would it be better if i was dead?"

bc she DOES. NOT. FUCKING. GET. AND WILL NOT ACCEPT. how bad it is for me right now.

and her pulling this shit makes it WORSE.

and the point i'm making is this

i'm not a risk. i'm not planning or thinking like that. it's not an active thing. it is "being alive is truly, TRULY miserable rn. i have nothing to look forward to, just more responsibilities and problems to come up, and the whole time, existing in my body is fucking miserable. and i don't have any hope that things will actually improve, and in fact, they'll probably get significantly worse bc of the administration."

i think abt how much i don't like being here. how i wish i could change anything.

and how anything i want to do is out of reach bc of time, money, covid/flu risk, disabilities, trauma, lack of connections, etc.

and if one more person tells me to Just Go Do Something i will fucking lose it and cannot be held liable for my actions.

it's not easy. bc if it was, i would've done it.

and also? i already TRIED doing something, and it went fucking TERRIBLY.

when my whole life has been rejection, asking me to be resilient and persistent in the face of MORE rejection is the most insulting thing you can do to me.

you don't get used to rejection. it hurts more every single time. they compound.

and it's sort of impossible to work through it if, while working through it, you get rejected some more.

additionally, if i can barely count on any friends but i have to be there for ALL of them, why would i want more? i'm modulating and censoring myself with everyone i talk to. i don't want MORE of that.

i don't want to be beholden to and responsible for more ppl.

when i think abt making friends and connections, all i can think abt is

that's more messages to respond to. more obligations to uphold. more expectations to meet. more of other ppls' problems that i have to navigate.

so as lonely as i am, w the scant few friends i talk to at all (currently literally just 1), the prospect of choosing to make more friends isn't JUST a problem of overcoming 30 years' worth of trauma to try and socialize and make connections and not be devastated by more rejection

it's ALSO "fucking christ i don't wanna be responsible for more ppl, i can't even handle my OWN life right now"

the point of friends is to have fun and support each other

but for the most part (not always) that's not how it's been for me. friends are work. and not in the way where it's always rewarding and reciprocal.

i wear out my welcome with everyone, eventually.

i'm trying to not believe that so wholeheartedly that it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. i'm trying to monitor my behavior & thinking so that i don't accidentally self-sabotage without realizing it.

but it's just been true for pretty much my entire life.

what am i supposed to do with that?

because the problem is this

if i was too much BEFORE my chronic illnesses and disabilities utterly destroyed my entire life.......how much too much am i now?

so in bad moments there's the whole "ppl want me dead, everyone would be better off without me" thing, but that's been less as of late. thank you increased vitamin d.

but right now it's really. "no one gets anything from me that can't be gotten anywhere else, and just at my baseline i am Way Too Much for literally everyone i've ever met. what fucking hope do i have of that ever not being true?"

even my own mom, someone i've considered my safe space & best friend for my entire life, has been SICK OF ME for the last 1-3 years. no patience, very little concern, basically no comfort.

when i complain--even when i don't ask for comfort or don't ask for ANYTHING but to complain--she just gets upset.

she's sequestered all of her patience and compassion to other people. my problems aren't worth her time & effort.

but when i'm upset, she gets upset and claims that it's bc she loves me sooooo much and hates seeing me upset.

if that were true. why wouldn't you offer me ANY comfort, instead of stonefaced SILENCE and turning the tables on me to make ME feel bad, then claim that's not what you're doing?

i've been struggling w my mental health & sanity this whole time, and to be gaslit like this so consistently--which is brand fucking new from her in these last few years--is fucking with me.

i've lost 1 significant friend, an entire friend group, struggled to make any new friends at all, and lost the emotional support of my own mom.

i wouldn't be living with her if this was the most toxic thing in the world and always had been.

but me being disabled/chronically ill, covid, and this whole thing with our family has turned her on me, so to speak.

i asked her to be my support so i could have a basecamp to return to after trying to make new friends. and that didn't help or work, even though she agreed to.

i have nothing to live for.

all she sees is a lazy ungrateful whiny spoiled brat.

i'm 30 years old.

i thought i would be dating o rmarried by now. i thought i'd be teaching at a university. i thought i'd have a vibrant nerdy social life. i thought i'd be directing or acting in theater.

i haven't even been able to achieve the SMALLEST of dreams and goals. i work part time from home and have to hide everything abt myself to do it.

spring has been fucking awful bc i have Allergy Disease (MCAS).

inflammation & MCAS worsen mental health.

and i'm starting from rock bottom.

you can't build up if you have NOTHING to build ON.

so i don't even know what i'm asking or wanting. i want friends. but right now i am so bad at being a friend. i don't want more ppl i have to care abt significantly and be there for. not bc i don't care or can't do it, but bc i get too involved, and then i feel like i have to hold myself back and make everyone else a priority, so i just become more drained.

so what i WANT. selfishly. is for ppl to just ask how i'm doing.

but i can't do that. and i can't expect that.

EVERYONE is having an impossible time.

that's literally why i only have 1 person to talk to rn. i can't BE there for ppl in a more serious way. i CAN be there in a typical capacity for ppl i'm already used to.

but new ppl?

so i'm stuck and i don't know what to do.

and now my laptop is fucking up again. this whole post i've been typing has been freezing and lagging. text stopped at ha for a long time and then showed up all at once. again on showe and then it came in all at once.

i don't know what i want. i don't know what would make it better.

all i know is i feel monstrously selfish.

but i've needed to clean my room & my bathroom for ages.

and i just don't want to. bc what's the point? it's just another thing that means i have to stay alive. and stay miserable.

it's just another reminder of how much my body hurts and how incapable i am.

everything is. extremely bad right now. and all i can say is it's not as bad in my brain as it could be bc i have the right amount of vitamin d, now, so i'm only sitting here thinking there's no point in being alive instead of thinking everybody wants me dead.

bc that's just. the reality of where i'm at.

i don't have any saving graces. i have nothing to look fwd to.

i cling MONSTROUSLY hard to ANYTHING that brings me joy or just an intesnity of emotions outside of myself

but ppl don't really care abt those things so they end up just reminding me that i'm completely alone. again.

and i'm afraid to connect w ppl who like the same things bc what if i'm wrong? or disappoint them?

ppl say you should think abt friendships in terms of what they provide YOU, and whether YOU like the person

yeah, that's obvious

but that's not how my life has worked or will ever work by the looks of it

if i want ppl in my life, i literally just. can't afford to act like that.

so DO i want ppl in my life?

i want a different life, period.

i don't want to be me. i dn't want me to exist.

i don't wish this on anyone. and at the same time all i can think abt is how good i have it comparatively.

i shouldn't be complaining. it's not tha tbad. i'm being a giant fucking selfish first world baby.

i want to die because of Allergy Disease?

grow the fuck up.

idk. i just want you to know if i haven't reached out to you to talk or support you, this is why. and it's not your fault you didn't know--i didn't reach out On Purpose bc you're going through it. i've tried to show support in other small ways so you know i care.

but i can't even manage wanting to wake up every day. or even some days.

and i can't put this on anyone. it's no one's responsibility to fix this. and idk what would even help.

i just figure being honest abt this is better than swallowing it down and blaming myself for everything.

[nightguide]

HOW ALLAH MAKES YOU HIS BITCH: SCIENCE EDITION

'I'M NOT GAE, (actually the silent one in the group from the mother of *coughs* knowledge, of*coughs* you being yourself *actually caught the flu rn to never care a shit*)

so you doing the invisiboyfriend thing rn, huh?

maladaptive daydreaming?

lets see what Allah thinks of your distortion physics then if you like Allah more than your city believer thoughts thinking for you (Allah Reeves)

THE DENSITY OF THE UNIVERSE:

Allah slut shames you into the gulag. you ain't somebody's daughter unless you're working with them (penny factory), so you're going to make Allah 'forget' (safe to watch drag race alone)

earshot out of reality pitch-freak: 'the fuck are you doing, stoopid.'

reserved: your boy, *sexy as he is* may be into someone else, axceptttt that.

concrete: Allah put shame on your promiscuity (related to the last movie you watch that has you feeling 'told off' for A for effort, B for ball)

reactive: the relative nearest to your shame, 'tells you off' and you the misunderstood gay one on the block (even tho the LGBTQIA+ does not have your back for this one, you're on your own there)

deferential: your mom made you (core memory). boyfriend lived it with you (his sperm)

serious: you cannot talk to anybody about it but you're girl-hood insecurity-like, famous now (shaitaan made you sheikh)

expedient: you don't want to talk about your secret love affair to your family, though it feels like as if you're begging Allah (shawshank redemption) like you're going to get sharia stoned the next day cuz you think he's 'befitting for your health,' making you throw away other options to make-do with what you got than what you don't have, so you're pretty lonely in the universe looking for an affordable understanding with your ummah but Allah does not exist anymore to you knowing your imagination grows stronger with your ability to believe (no man's world) than you saying what you hate is what you love (true muslim) (good point)

shy: kismaat is nothing to you (Allah thinks u on drag race for inspiration)

utilitarian: you don't even know why you're not even meant to exist (Allah jacked your car and your phone and your bf is your 'allah' now, so it's not even fair that you- (what your relatives think of your life outside of hell (they think you committed murder than that thought alone (heartbroken heart)

trusting: your bf dumped you (shitty day on the plane edition)

grounding: Allah Reeves (two fucks given to the sky, like man is blind (and now you are your broken relative on the right: their world does not mean anything to you than trust itself alone (they you in actual reality and you may as well say, 'i beat myself up' and that prick got away with it)

forthright: your reason to shut up. he's on TV and you idolate him (your boyfriend got more 'good kush' than u, so ur mommy jealous now (your reasons to find love is not even there anymore, you got kicked out of reason to belief itself evolved, so you fight but you find your 'true niggas' in the form of your imagination cuz your reality does not even exist to you anymore)

self-assured: you can't handle stress anymore than you do (shame in the form of your own phone: Allah became a DJ that you can't even fckin hear the music)

[marygower]

It’s almost like I don’t know how to live my life but that’s not true. Maybe the side effects of adderall are really fucking with me idk. I go in and out from the world I want to live or exist in. What I want to go for shifts throughout the day. But now I’m held back by being lonely and lacking touch and real and true conversations. Alcohol seems to be the vice that still works and I know that it doesn’t actually work. I am struggling.

When my hair stylist massaged my head for 10 seconds I thought I was going to explode because it felt so nice. I am a tough and unpredictable specimen and don’t know what I need. My hair looks kinda like a mop but I don’t hate it.

After drinking pretty much an entire bottle of wine over 5 hours and one hit of the pen I feel pretty good. Clear headed but def not ya know.

Open and aware of the fact that my situation doesn’t feel like my own. My feelings and aspirations seem to get lost and felt simultaneously but inaccessible at all times. Dunno if that’s the adderal or not but prob def has something to do with it. Idk how I will get by without it but I guess I was fine without it before and still able to get recognition at my job but I can’t remember the timeline rn. Was that my anxiety just getting in the way? I can see a clear picture of what I want my life to be and feel like but my real time experience doesn’t feel that way. I’m trying to do too much. I can’t “be there” before I “get there.”

This is a good post I think