#and it doesn't help i've got a new fandom fixation too so i've been consuming all the fanfic on that i can lol

[aro-aizawa]

whumptober 2022!

okay im gonna try and get a headstart on writing for whumptober this year because i am determined to get further than filling 5 prompts bc if i can pass that goal then i’ll be in a better shape to keep the momentum going and do even better next year. THAT BEING SAID i v much would love to continue in the same manner and take requests. so! here are the fandom’s i’ll be writing for this year, and the characters i gravitate towards:

batfam (i have almost zero canon info outside of all the movies and whatever i read in fanfics but i love the family dynamics sm, and this is my current hyperfixation so prompts are v much more likely to be filled): - tim drake

miraculous ladybug - marinette dupain-cheng

danny phantom - danny fenton

avatar the last airbender - zuko

fullmetal alchemist - edward elric

my hero academia (maybe - my mha fixation is like the furthest orbit rn so no clue if it’ll come around before the end of october but if the prompt is good who knows - midoriya izuku

you’re allowed to request as many times as you like! however, sometimes i just won’t have any inspo from the request so it might not make the cut, sorry! i’m also pre-emptively replacing some prompts and blacking others out so i don’t have to write anything that makes me feel icky or just isn’t my jam, or so i can write prompts that are v much my jam. so here’s the prompt list!

1. a little out of the ordinary - stabbed / marinette ✔  [ao3]

adverse effects | alt: stabbed | "this wasn't supposed to happen”

2. nowhere to run - caged / izuku ✔  [ao3]

cornered | caged | confrontation

3. hair’s breadth from death - gun to temple / edward ✔

gun to temple | “say goodbye” | impaled

4. dead on your feet - hidden injury / marinette || can’t pass out / marinette

hidden injury | waking up disorientated | can’t pass out

5. every whumpee’s needs - hyperthermia / tim

blood loss | running out of air | hyperthermia

6. proof of life

ransom video | “i’ve got a pulse” | screams from across the hall

7. the way you shake and shiver

shaking hands | seizures | silent panic attack

8. everything hurts and i’m dying - stomach pain / tim

stomach pain | head trauma | back from the dead

9. the very noisy night

sleeping in shifts | tossing and turning | caught in a storm

10. poor unfortunate souls - waterboarding / zuko

taser | whipping | waterboarding

11. “911, what’s your emergency?”

sloppy bandages | self-done first aid | makeshift splint

12. what could go wrong?

alt: ambushed | cave in | rusty nail

13. can’t make an omlette without breaking a few legs

fracture | dislocation | “are you here to break me out?”

14. die a hero or live long enough to become a villain

desperate measures | failed escape | “i’ll be right behind you”

15. emotional damage

lies | new scars | alt: touch starved

16. no way out

mind control | paralytic drugs | “no one’s coming”

17. hanging by a threat

breaking point | stress positions | reluctant caretaker

18. let’s break the ice

“just get it over with” | treading water | “take my coat”

19. enough is enough - knees buckling or repeatedly passing out / danny

knees buckling | repeatedly passing out | head lolling

20. it’s been a long day

going into shock | fetal position | prisoner trade

21. famous last words

coughing up blood | “you’re safe now” | take me instead”

22. pick your poison

toxic | withdrawal | allergic reaction

23. at the end of their rope

forced to kneel | tied to a table | “hold them down”

24. fight, flight or freeze - blood covered hands / marinette

blood covered hands | “i don’t want to do this anymore” | catatonic

25. silence is golden

lost voice | duct tape | “you better start talking”

26. no one left behind

separated | rope burns | “why did you save me?”

27. pushed to the limit

muffled screams | stumbling | magical exhaustion

28. it’s just the tip of the iceberg - sensory overload / edward

alt: sensory overload | punching the wall | headache

29. what doesn’t kill me...

sleep deprivation | defiance | “better me than you”

30. note to self: don’t get kidnapped

manhandled | hair grabbing | “please don’t touch me”

31. a light at the end of the tunnel

comfort | beside vigil | “you can rest now”

[xachynwrites]

personal reflections on reading and writing

just needed to sort through my thoughts and get this off my chest and I can't keep spamming twt all the time. Also, this is way too personal to put on blast to so many people.

I've had a lot of difficulty with reading stuff in the last few years. I've always thought it was an issue thanks to my BSc, where the sheer amount of academic texts to waddle through destroyed my ability to consume fiction work. On Goodreads, my Non-Fiction to Fiction ratio has remained at something like 3:1. I also don't read a lot.

But at some point 3 years ago when I got back into fandom I was somehow... somewhat.... able to read fics... again.

But also, not really.

The main point is that over the last year, despite my surprising and extremely unusual output rate re fics (as of early Nov 2021 I have published 24 full-length fics on AO3 or 95, 800 words. This is non-inclusive of twt-only vignettes that are less than 1.5k) I have probably read far, far less than that. Which is weird, because reading is, at least for me, easier than writing.

A while back, I got a comment that said something like they didn't usually resort to reading other people's fics and I think something about the boldness of that claim forced me to self-reflect. Because even though I (probably?) didn't feel that way it still kind of resonated with me, because I haven't been able to read other people's fics either. And I've spent absolute ages beating myself up over that because I do feel like I should read my fellow writer-friends' stuff (cause isn't that like, the point of fandom and fic-writing?), and I worried that there was a part of me that didn't because of some... deep snobbishness. That I don't doesn't make me feel like a douche, it's a reminder that I am in fact a douche.

But in the last week, I've managed to easily breeze through more than a dozen narumitsu fics before bed, and because of that, I think I finally understand this weird hang-up.

And, I THINK, it's because, if I read a fic that is feasibly within the boundaries of what I might write, my brain is completely incapable of taking a back seat and just enjoying it. Instead, every time I try to read a fic for a ship that I have written for/am writing for, I can't help but break down every other sentence, redline every interaction and just overly fixate on how the fic was written -- as opposed to just reading the fucking thing.

It's not out of some sense of superiority, I don't think? I hope not? And like, I think that to some extent, all writers do this? Because the best way to improve our own writing is to read and analyse how other people write.

But holy shit, there is that, and then there is whatever my brain is trying to do. And I think I know myself well enough to recognise that it comes from a really twisted place of competitiveness - that I have this really fucked up compulsion to be a better writer than my peers, and then have that taken to its absolute worst extreme.

Which is so fucking ridiculous, because

1. Writing is not a zero-sum game and the perception of wanting to pit my work against my friends' in and of itself reeks of that very sense of superiority.

2. I thought I was mature enough to have evolved beyond this kind of pettiness.

3. I also know damn well that I am NOT a better writer than my friends in any aspect. I know this. I KNOW THIS.

So, if anything, I am just giving myself a lot of grief for absolutely no reason.

It's also extremely laughable because the reason why I gave up on the goal of writing to eventually be published was because I wanted to pursue writing as a FUN hobby. That kind of toxic attitude is not fun.

So, wow. Big revelation to me, news flash, I suck not just as a person but also as a friend.