#and if my work schedule will even allow me to go. and i certainly won't hear back about those for at least two or more months
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i can't decide if i should bother applying to go to oboe camp this year or not. the first year was pretty good and while i still enjoyed last year too i wonder if the amount i'm getting out of the experience is enough to justify the trip anymore since i already feel like it's diminishing in terms of what i have left to learn or experience there
#sasha speaks#idk i mean. i guess there will Always be new stuff to learn and it is Always going to be a good thing for me as a musician#to learn from new teachers and colleagues and socialize and/or play with them or whatever#but i am truly so bad at making friends that. that didn't go so well last year.#i think failing to find partners to play chamber music with me two years in a row and some embarrassing feedback on my solo#put a bigger dent in my pride/confidence/whatever than i realized.#idek why i'm fretting over it atm. i mean i know it's bc the application opens next week#but i basically already know that the deciding factor is probably gonna come down to whether i get an internship/fellowship in the summer#and if my work schedule will even allow me to go. and i certainly won't hear back about those for at least two or more months#sigh. i want to have fun and i want to travel and i want to socialize and i want to learn and grow more as a player#but i don't want to stagnate by trying not tk fall asleep during barrett day in and day out again#and for gd's sake i don't want to be the sad bitch at the lunch table every day that no one wants talk to or play with#for another stupid fucking year#i'm tired of not even being the last choice just the no choice#oboeposting
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Before you go. Any comments on byler? 🎤
Ah, yes. The byler predicament. Allow me to muddy the waters even more.
But first, a disclaimer: to be clear, I have no conclusive/confirmed information about season 5. What I know are inferences made from previous leaks, combined with what we now know as fact.
A little more on that before I get to Byler:
The leak came from outside of Netflix; a third-party private company that offers closed captioning services (as confirmed by Forbes, then eventually Netflix). The leaked videos of Heartstopper Se3 and Arcane Se2 are low resolution (640x266 / 640x480) encodes of unlocked edits (ie: edits that are subject to change at the network's discretion), and devoid of VFX. If you're a fan of either show, don't waste your time because it will only spoil the finished product.
That being said, I doubt that there is any video of ST5 episodes 1 through 3, as purported by the so-called "hacker" (I use that in "quotes" because any schlub with an email address could have accessed the server without restriction -- the login app had no restrictions to the inhouse videos).
So, aside from the fact that Netflix will aggressively pursue civil and criminal charges against the source (if they ever find the person) -- a threat that any legit hacker would certainly ignore (unauthorized access to a computer network is already a federal crime, regardless of whether or not something was "taken" and/or released publicly) -- I think there won't be any video of ST5 leaked because it doesn't exist.
A legit hacker would have released it already, defying both Netflix and the FBI, and in such away that would make tracking them down impossible. What is there to lose? Nothing for a legit "hacker." And let's be honest: this wasn't a "hack" of top-secret government documents. And the "hack" will not cause long-term financial damage to a publicly traded company like Netflix. In an election year, the Feds have more important cyber criminals to go after than a scriptkiddy looking for notoriety in the Fortnight Discord app.
Realistically, it's doubtful more than a cease-and-desist letter from Netflix to that Twitter influencer dude, and perhaps firing the IT guy who forgot to flick the privacy toggle on the login app at the closed-captioning company, will come to fruition. And like I said, a legit hacker has zero fucks to give, so threats of a civil lawsuit or prison time would mean nothing to them because their OPSEC would be 100%.
Also, it's my belief that no videos of ST5 will come out because of how TV series are made. Principal photography of ST5 is around 12 months (December 2023 - December 2024). That's a 5-day work week, 16-hours per day. Not including holidays, reshoots, and unforeseen delays, about 48 - 50 weeks in total -- so, about 250 - 300 days of shooting (a movie is often 30 - 120 shooting days). Post production -- which includes editing, music, VFX rendering, ADR, etc. -- will take at least 6 months. For a $200 million series like ST5, 4 - 6 weeks of per-episode-editing is not unheard of. Stranger Things is arguably a Netflix legacy. It's not only going to be protected, but perfected.
Season 5 is being released in two-parts. Part 2 will likely still be in post-production when Part 1 is released. To give you an idea of how close producers come to hard deadlines for series: I watched (legit) screeners of Locke & Key Se2 -- the final two episodes -- before they were complete -- 2 weeks before the world premiere. It's that close.
ST5 shoots chronologically, with some exceptions. Meaning, they film in order of episode. (Movies, on the other hand, film according to scene and schedule -- scenes that take place in the same location, but spread throughout the movie and take place on different days, are shot consecutively). The leak happened in late June (apparently), which would mean that episodes 1 through 3 would have been shot and edited by May. That's not realistic. Like, at all. If I were a betting man, I'd say that episode 1 is still being edited as I write this. There is still 4 months of principal photography remaining.
My expectation is to see trailer #1 during the Super Bowl in February. And October 31, 2025 as a release date for Part 1.
My expectation is a December release for Part 2.
Hardcore hype and teasing for 10 months.
This is my guess; based on personal experience with shows and movies that are not Netflix properties.
Okay, so, Byler...
If you believe the 2022 "definitely not leaked Se4 scripts" are definitely real... then Will is "fully resigned to knowing that he’s just ripped off the Band-Aid." #Byler, as we know it, will never come to be and #Mileven is endgame.
Or, if you believe the "definitely not leaked Se4 scripts" are definitely cap, then Byler is, in fact, the real endgame.
Given the circumstances, I am obviously the former. And, as much as I hate to say it, Will and Mike will never be a couple. 99% confident about that one.
Whichever side you take, in the words of Dr. Emmet Brown, "You're not thinking fourth dimensionally." (hint)
Will Will find love? No. There are bigger plans for Will. Conversely, there are plans for El that go way beyond teenage love. Again, if you believe the fake scripts to be real, then it will become apparent in ST5 that Will and El share a unique connection. My inference is that they are related. If not in the current timeline, then in the alternate timeline and reality (that will be revealed in Se5). "Young versions" of "Will, El, Mike, and the others," have already been cast to appear in Se5. But, IMAO, they're not the "young versions," but the alternate timeline/reality versions. Back to the Future, and Terminator are huge influences. As is the JJ Abrams movie "Super 8" (watch the movie, there are so many similarities with it, and Stranger Things).
I'll also add that there were scenes filmed in 2020/2021 that were meant to be included in season 5. I think -- if memory serves -- it's in or at a church and touches on the theme of "occult murders". So, I wouldn't be surprised if Eddie Munson makes an appearance.
In my professional opinion as a writer (excluding what I may or may not know about ST5): regardless of what scripts you've read -- official, unofficial, fake, real -- the series endgame has already been revealed on screen. I'll explain:
In general terms, for any television series with a definitive finale, and a pre-determined ending, writers follow a blueprint: specific plot points that must revealed along the way so that the story makes sense to viewers -- even to those with conflicting opinions.
If the writing is done correctly, then (for example) when something is revealed in episode 25, viewers will experience a lightbulb moment: "Oh yeah, I remember the references during episodes 2, 5, and 15."
So, using the Byler vs Mileven plotlines, it's plausible that either outcome is still possible. That's the brilliance of Stranger Things' writers' room (I say that sincerely).
Clues have been dropping since episode 101. Spoken dialogue, secondary dialogue, music selection (read the lyrics), character names, specific dates, shooting locations, pop culture references, carefully choreographed shots and scenes, numbers, dates, background props... Everything contains a piece of a puzzle that reinforces what is already known, and reveal what will soon become obvious.
Seriously, I don't know the ending of ST. And honestly, in my experience, it's more likely than not that only the Duffers and a small handful of Netflix/21 Laps execs know the real ending. For a series as big as Stranger Things (with an estimated season 5 budget surpassing $200 million), don't be surprised if more than one ending is filmed. Certainly, more than one has been written. It's not uncommon to leak misleading (but highly plausible) information on purpose. Netflix marketing peeps are top in their field, and outside-the-box thinkers.
What I do know is that the endgame -- be it canonical or other -- will completely blow you away and go down in history as Netflix's most watched finale.
Or, it will be the biggest let down since The Sopranos ending -- the first one AND the do-over.
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Hellooo, can you do Chelsea x FEM chief(nsfw) From ptn?
GAH CHELSEA MY LOVE <33
I'm so sorry this is so late, the idea has been in my head for so long but I was procrastinating to write :(
18+ CONTENT MDNI
Game: Path to Nowhere
Characters: Chelsea x fem!Chief
Type: Smut and Fluff (kissing, fingering, a lot of foreplay, jealous Chelsea, Chelsea wearing her paid outfit, Chelsea is bottom for Chief change my mind)
A knock was heard on your office door, followed by Nightingale walking in carrying some papers with her.
"Chief, your mail for today."
Thanking her, you let her keep the stack on your desk then watched her walk out before you began going through the mail. There were the usual documents from FAC, 9th Agency and some other organisations followed by requests from Sinners. All of a sudden, you spotted a peculiar pink envelope, adorned with a familiar small gem on the leaflet as a seal. You carefully picked it up and examined it a bit before opening and taking out the similar looking letter, complete with pink paper and a pleasant fragrance infused in it.
You quickly recognized it was none other than Chelsea who sent it. The letter was a simple invitation to her mansion for a banquet she was holding at the end of this week. At first, you became slightly suspicious but kept those doubts aside. For some reason, you knew Chelsea had changed slightly.
"Now I remember, she had requested to be allowed to go home to look over some matters. I thought she had some work but this is what she's doing...?"
You sighed and pinched your temple as you rested back on your chair and pondered more, "I haven't talked with her properly for a while....I got so busy dealing with others that I barely visited her. I guess this is not a bad opportunity."
Accepting the invitation, you cleared your schedule and made preparations to go as stated. It was a Saturday evening when you reached her mansion, dressed up in a decent knee-length white dress which was the best clothes you could afford. Everything else was too expensive or too casual. You were greeted by a maid who guided you towards an empty room. You could sense by your shackles that Chelsea was in the mansion, probably in a nearby room.
"The Countess prepared these clothes for you. Please pick one as you like." the maid said with a bow, showing you walk-in wardrobe containing a plethora of all kinds of party dresses.
"Uh....do I have to?" you asked nervously, embarrassed by the gesture.
"The Countess would be pleased if you do. She selected everything herself."
You nodded with a sigh then walked around a bit and spotted a stylish suit piece, complete with a crimson shirt and black coat with black pants. While you weren't one to wear suits outside of work, you certainly preferred it over the extravagant and heavy dresses here. You put on the chosen suit with the maid's help, you were fixing yourself in the mirror when you saw Chelsea's figure walking in behind you.
"Did you know, Chief? Legend has it that if you keep chanting "Countess Chelsea, take me as your sugar baby" at a mirror in this mansion, no matter where I am, I'll immediately appear~"
She smirked as she stopped behind you, wrapping her arms around your waist and resting her head atop your shoulder.
"I wonder if that's what you were think right now~"
You eyed her in the mirror, "I won't deny I was thinking of you. However, I'm afraid not to that extent."
"Aww, you break my heart, Chief~"
You chuckled together as she let go and you turned around to face her, immediately taken aback looking at what she was wearing.
"You....You look beautiful, Chelsea." you complimented earnestly, genuinely at a loss of words for how attractive she looked in the ruby colored floor-length dress having a thigh-high slit covered by a black transparent net.
She smiled and leaned closer, caressing the lapel of your coat.
"You don't look bad yourself, Chief. Not to mention, we match~"
Her voice husked in your ear, causing you to shiver for a brief moment before she pulled away and turned around holding your hand and dragging you out to the main hall.
"Welcome to my estate, Chief! You are my rare and precious guest, just make yourself at home. It'll be so boring if you are too nervous~"
She declared, showing you the mansion. You quickly realized you were the only ones around except the servants, it was a banquet exclusive for you two.
"C-Chelsea, you—"
"Ssh~" she put her finger on your lips and suddenly came closer, wrapping her arms over your neck while yours settled on her waist, lightly holding her. Soon enough, soothing music began playing around you and both of you began to sway to the tune, tenderly gazing at each other.
"How have things been at the bureau, Chief?"
"O-Oh, quite well...."
"Hmm~ Still too much paperwork? You know, Chief, if you become my sugar baby then all of that will end~"
"Yes yes, I know~"
You chuckled then picked up the pace slightly as the music fastened, now holding each other in a proper dance position.
"And....how have the others been? That Quinn CEO who keeps inviting you to play chess, the psychologist who loves toying with you, and....who other was it that takes up all your time?~"
You squinted your eyes and felt a different vibe about her, she seemed strangely serious.
"....I look over everyone as required, it's my job."
She raised her eyebrow then turned around and pressed her body against yours, as if being trapped in your arms. She leaned back on your shoulder; your lips were ghosting each other's and you could hear her breathing.
"Everyone except....me."
"What? No. That's not—Mhm!~"
You suddenly gasped as she pushed back further, her hand looping around your head and pulling it closer for her to lean in and place her lips on your neck. It was a simple kiss at first but she quickly sunk her teeth and sucked in, leaving a red spot on your neck.
"You have time for everyone except me. That's how you ignored me this past week. Once my problem was resolved then I was a nobody to you, isn't that right?"
"No, you are wrong. You are still detained; your Mania isn't cured and we still have to look over your crimes. I—"
She didn't let you finish as she turned around and placed her lips on yours, kissing you gently. You were surprised but her bewitching scent and soft lips drew you in, wanting to taste them more. You moved your lips in rhythm with her, pulling her even closer. The music stopped long ago yet you didn't release the kiss, both of you engaged in a needy exchange.
At last, she pulled away, licking your lips like a kitten and gazing at you while she slid her hand down to hold your wrist.
"You are mine, Chief. My....property~"
You suddenly felt your wrists tighten and looked down to see handcuffs made of gems placed fastened on them. You looked at Chelsea in shock as she smirked and pulled on the chain of the handcuffs to drag you along. You decided to follow her pace for now, secretly looking forward to what was to come. You reached a room and she shoved you inside followed by pinning you on a wall, her hands trapping you in.
"Dear Chief, how does it feel to be the one shackled instead?~"
She hummed in your ear, her breath tickling the edge. She then glanced towards the right side where there was a window before she walked towards it and drew the curtains to a close, darkening the room slightly.
"It's going to be a long night, Chief. Wouldn't want anyone to catch a peep, would you?~ Unless....that turns you on~"
You didn't reply then she proceeded to take off her clothes, sliding her dress down as she was left in her underwear. You heart was pounding watching her tempting figure in front of you, her fair and smooth skin shining against the faint moonlight. She smirked as she felt your gaze on her before walking up to you again and caressing your chest.
"It's rude to keep a lady waiting, Chief.....Oh, my apologies. I forgot your hands are tied~"
She feigned innocence before grabbing your hands and pinning them above your head, a hiss leaving your mouth at the force. She smirked and leaned in to capture your lips while her hands fiddled with your pants, unbuttoning and pulling them down as you slide them away from your feet.
"Is this all because I neglected you, Chelsea?"
"So, you do agree you neglected me? How honest of you, Chief~"
You smirked then leaned near her ear, "You know, you didn't have to go to such lengths to get my attention...."
You paused and sneakily brought your hands forward slowly, "....You could have just told me you were jealous~"
"Haha~ I believe you are mis— Aaah~!"
She was interrupted with a moan as you quickly put your handcuffed arms around her, caging her with you before turning around and pinning her on the wall instead.
"How bold of you, Chief! Are you that eager to have me? Can I treat this as a love confession from you?~"
"Love confession? I thought you wanted me to be your sugar baby~"
"Oh my, would you prefer that?~ It's just titles, Chief. No need to be so mindful of them~"
You smirked then attached your lips to her neck, eliciting a pleasant sigh from her as you sucked. She leaned back and pushed your head further then you focused your shackles for a brief moment causing her to squeal, the heat enabled you to break away the handcuffs for you to slide your hands down to her leg and hold it up to your thigh.
"A-Ah! Chief! I didn't think you were so dominating in bed....Did someone give you practice? Was it the Quinn CEO? Or the psychologist? Or perhaps your own Adjutant?~"
"Let's just say I'm naturally gifted~"
You chuckled together as you rubbed your fingers over her folds, holding her up on the wall as her legs wrapped around you. She softly moaned in your ear and began rutting her hips forward, needy for you to go in.
"Hm, just like a cat...needy for attention when she desires..." you thought looking at her state then finally plunged your fingers inside her cunt.
She gasped and arched back further, holding on to you tighter. You rubbed and scissored your fingers in her wet, spongy walls, making her squirm and moan in your hold. She gripped her fingers in your hair and pulled you in for a sloppy kiss, tongues interlocking in desperation. You then moved down to lick her breasts, sucking on the hardened pink buds and lightly nibbling them.
"Haaahn~ C-Chief! Oh, Chief!~ More....Give me more! Show me....t-the beast inside you!~"
"You don't want to see that, Chelsea~"
"Oh, try me!~"
You chuckled then plunged your fingers deeper, taking her by surprise. She squealed more and leaned forward on your shoulder, thighs enclosing and trapping your arm in between. You held her waist and pushed her into the wall instead, licking strips down her neck as you thrusted your fingers deep inside her. Her walls tightened, gripping your fingers tightly, she was close.
You leaned close to her ear to whisper, "Hold me tight, this might....hurt a bit."
She was confused but did as told and wrapped her arms around your neck, you buried your face in the crook of her neck and she sneakily licked your ear, making you shiver. You then focused your shackles again very briefly as you thrusted into her deepest spot, her mind went blank as a wave of pleasure washed over her and she jumped forward from the force of the shackles.
A loud angelic moan echoed in the room as she came, messy juices dripping down her thighs and coating your hand. You brought your hand up and licked her slick clean, the sight making her flustered. She slumped in your arms in near defeat, making you chuckle.
"I told you~"
"Hehe~ Oh, Chief....if you think that was enough for me then you are gravely mistaken. Come on, the party is still going on~"
#path to nowhere#path to nowhere smut#path to nowhere x reader#countess chelsea#ptn smut#ptn x reader#ptn chelsea#ptn chelsea x reader#countess chelsea x reader
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(remaking the post because you can't edit polls and i gave the wrong options)
Alright I'm registering for classes and someone needs to talk me out of doing stupid shit but I'm unsure of what shit is stupidest.
Winter term:
I just finished an 8-week photo class that ended up being a huge investment in time just to go and shoot. However that was introductory photography and there is a 6-week intermediate photography class over winter term. I am signed up for photography. (Elective option for AA in Visual Arts)
There is also a 6-week introductory python course over winter term that I am signed up for and will be taking. I'm solid on that one, as long as I pass my C# class this term I'm going to be taking Python for 6 weeks at the beginning of the year.
Spring term:
College Chemistry Saturday class. 7am to 12pm for sixteen weeks. Lab and lecture; this school doesn't offer any chem classes that are after standard 9-5 hours during the regular week or that can be taken even partially online. Pretty sure I'm going to be stuck with this one and am configuring the rest of my schedule around being *less* miserable because of this class.
Survey of Western Art - Online, seems like a gimme. Does have a textbook but not one that I'm going to pay for. (Required for AA in Visual Arts)
2-Dimensional Design - Online, seems fun and like a gimme, Free/No textbook. (Required for AA in Visual Arts)
Object-Oriented Programming - Online, seems difficult, expensive textbook. Will probably be very necessary if I end up going down a more CS/tech path. Probably going to force myself to take this class.
Java Programming - Online, seems not unapproachable, expensive textbook. I don't particularly wanna but my school offers really limited options for computer science and I want to get what I can out of it before I go somewhere else.
Rationale for these weird combinations:
I'm applying as a nursing student at three schools and a biochem student at one of those schools (nutrition programs are apparently only for first-time students; 2nd Bachelor's applications are a lot more limited. I could apply to major in Francophone Studies at one of the schools though). Supposing I get accepted, these classes certainly won't hurt my status at any school that accepts me and the chemistry class is going to be really really necessary. This is the "i give a fuck about nutrition science and also directly helping people" path and if I go this way I'm interested in NP programs down the line. LOTS more school of the serious "I can't work and do this kind of school at the same time" variety.
If I *don't* get accepted to the programs I'm applying to, I'm going to go to a different community college and start working on a couple of AS degrees in computer junk (network admin and security management, computer and networking technology) and get some computer junk certs. I don't think I want/need a BS in compute science, this is the "practical" route of "I could finish this stuff pretty easily and continue working in a field where I have a lot of connections and familiarity with the industry but I am indifferent about a lot of it (pretty passionate about security and accessibility tho). Also allows me to keep working while I just churn school in the background, and all of the computer classes are transferable between the two schools.
Art classes: I think having multiple degrees is funney. I am currently 5 classes away from an AA in visual arts, at the end of this term I will be 4 classes away; if I take all the classes here and can take an elective over the summer I'll have a degree in visual arts. (There is a reasonable possibility that I'll continue taking bullshit classes behind the scenes to get silly degrees regardless of what happens otherwise)
Pretty sure the sensible thing is to drop *at least* photography and survey of western art and also possibly Java and 2D design. I'm somewhat concerned that if my spring term is just Saturday chem and object oriented programming I will start biting things.
So:
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Change is on the Horizon
Tori is starting her new role with Smosh!
The mood in the office was noticeably tense as I walked to my desk. I was running late this morning and hadn't had a chance to check my email. I pulled out my phone as I go to sit down and see an email from Anthony, my boss.
"All-
Please join me in the conference room today at 10am for a mandatory staff meeting.
Thanks!Anthony Padilla He/Him"
We had a weekly scheduled staff meeting that would normally take place in a few days, I wonder why he would need to push the meeting up and use the word "mandatory". This must be why everyone is acting odd.
I check the time "9:40" I say out loud, looking towards my coworker "I'm going to grab some coffee before the meeting". I walk to the break room, which is empty. I grab a quick cup of coffee and decide to head to the meeting early and catch up on my emails from there. As I walk in, Anthony is already in the room, setting up his laptop.
"Hey!" I say brightly, trying not to let on that I am nervous about the meeting. That nervousness only grew seeing him set up for the meeting and having a folder of papers as well. He doesn't usually lead our staff meetings, and they are typically much more laid back. "Hey Tori!" he said with a smile, softening my nervousness slightly "Making any progress on the questions for the OG youtubers video coming up?" he asked. Anthony likes to really dive into the research and writing we come up with.
"Yeah! Should be done soon" I say, taking my seat near the front of the table. There are not many people in office, maybe 15 of us, but they all start to come in and take their seats. I can see that Anthony is nervous, but the fact that he is smiling makes me think that maybe it is good news.
"Hey everyone! Thanks for coming" he says, kicking off the meeting "I'm sorry for the suddenness of the meeting, I don't like to spring things on anyone but you will see why I had to in just a minute." As he says that, he looks to the door and I can feel my eyebrows furrow in confusion.
After just a second or two, the door opens. My confusion can certainly be read on my face as Ian Hecox walks through the door, grinning. I take a quick look between the two as Ian makes his way to the front with Anthony.
"I'm sure you are all really confused," he says with a smile "We bought smosh!" they semi yell, in unison. They paused, allowing us all to react. "That is amazing, congratulations!" I said, and echos of the same sentiment came from everyone, but there was still tension. What does that mean for all of us? Would Anthony keep his channel? Will smosh staff take over if he does? I am starting to spiral as Anthony begins to speak again. "I spent a day with isn't going anywhere! So don't be alarmed." I could feel my shoulders drop a little. "There will be some changes, but your jobs aren't going anywhere"
Changes? I thought...that is still worrisome. Ian started to speak "There will be opportunities to get involved in smosh, or to stay separate. I won't be stepping into Anthony's channel or independent work" he finished. "I'm going to talk to each one of you, discuss the changes, let you ask any questions you want. All we ask is that you don't speak on this until we make the official announcement, we haven't even told the smosh team yet."
"Tori, if it's ok, we'd like to start with you. We should be able to get through everyone today!" Anthony said, and I nodded. The others started to filter out of the room until it was just Anthony, Ian, and I. "Well," I said "Congratulations guys, I have always been a huge fan of Smosh" which was true, Anthony and I had discussed it at length after I was hired. "Ian, this is Tori, one of my writers/researchers. She helps prepare me, and the guests, for the experience of the show." his words made me smile. "It's so nice to meet you" I spoke, standing and outstretching my hand to shake Ians. He shook my hand back "It's nice to meet you too. I'm glad to hear you like Smosh, I wasn't sure what the reception would be" he admitted, with a chuckle. "Anthony has spoken a lot about you".
"We wanted to start with you Tori because we have a more unique opportunity for you," Anthony said "While trying to figure out how to address staffing and scheduling, we wanted to address openings and make sure that internal staff had the first chance at any new roles before posting them" my stomach started to turn. Anthony turned to Ian, who started talking. "We have an opening for a research and talent on Smosh games and Anthony tells me you would be a great fit, and have been auditioning for talent roles" ...I could throw up. Is this real? My silence was not taken lightly "You absolutely do not have to, your role here is safe" Anthony said, reassuring me. "Wow," I started, maybe not the perfect reaction "I want to say thank you. I would love to! That sounds like the best of both worlds for me." I said, grinning ear to ear "I guess you do listen during our monthly check-ins!" I say with a small laugh to Anthony.
We talked more in-depth about the position, understanding the details, and getting a call set up with the Smosh HR team for an official offer. I am going to start in just two weeks!
Getting home felt so long, the entire drive I just kept thinking of the possibilities. What the Smosh team would think, if I would be received well by the audience, and what the new vibe would be like working in a bigger studio. Once I got home, I laid out on my couch, staring at the ceiling. I can't believe this is really happening.
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WIP Woooo! Word Count Achieved!
Yeah, so, I hoped to have hit 50k yesterday, but I didn't quite make it. This morning though? DONE! Hoping to keep up the 1,667 words a day trend to the end of the month, but particularly with my shift going from a 5am start to a 9am start so I can help out bakery for the week, well. We'll see.
The important part is that it's been an over all good writing month and, despite the demanding fuzzy who's not been letting me shift my sleep schedule back an hour, a good writing morning, and I feel like doing a bit of a triumph post.
So have a bit from the Next Big Thing that will probably take me five years to write!
...I will never get tired of finding ways to describe "Frank Wolff is BIG" and introducing English characters to the jaguar, I really won't...
Still debating Nicky's career. I'll probably stick to military since it works best with the story but. Mrgh. Thinking about it.
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Thomas worked his way more or less to the edge of the crowd and had a look around. There were still an overwhelming number of people, making an overwhelming amount of noise, so it was a great surprise when, over the din, he heard his name.
“Thomas! Thomas, over here!”
Of course ‘over here’ was not a very clear set of directions, so it still took him a moment’s spinning in circles before he spotted the man waving too him. Even at a bit of a distance, he looked about the right height for Nicky and had the proper black hair, although the same could be said of much of the surrounding crowd, and after all, who else would know Thomas’s name in Bombay? Thomas set off, dodging people and the occasional cart of sorts.
As he drew closer, it became obvious the other man wasn’t alone. There was a woman directly next to him. At least Thomas thought it was a woman. It certainly looked like a woman, but it was wearing trousers. Thomas hadn’t heard anything about women’s dress reform going to that particular extreme in India, but then again it wasn’t the sort of thing he particularly kept tabs on. Next to her was a man, no question. He was easily Alfred’s height and looked like he could easily lift an elephant. Thomas sort of hoped that he was a servant of some sort who would be taking care of the luggage, because whatever the paraphernalia in this trunk was, it weighed a ton.
Then Thomas caught sight of the man on the other side of Nicky and he stopped cold. “You!” Standing there, in a clean, pressed linen suit, looking like he’d probably bathed that morning, was the fellow Thomas had run into back in London. Ignoring his cousin, Thomas stalked up to the stranger, glowering. “How did you get here before me?”
“The Orient Express,” the other man informed him in a horridly supercilious manner. “At least as far as Istanbul. Then-”
“You know what?” Thomas cut him off. “I don’t care. Do you have my trunk? ‘Cause I have yours, Dr Houghton.” He held up the trunk.
“Actually, that’s mine,” the woman informed him, stepping over and relieving him of the trunk. He half expected her to drop it because of the weight, but she handled it with no obvious difficulty. A farmer’s wife, or even a maid, Thomas wouldn’t have been surprised, but he didn’t expect anyone with the title of ‘doctor’ and a trunk full of…whatever that was…to be strong enough. Then again, he was looking at a woman in trousers who apparently was a doctor, so perhaps he shouldn’t be surprised. “And don’t worry, we do have your trunk.”
“Thank God.” After three weeks on a damn boat, Thomas really wanted a change of clothes.
Nicky cleared his throat and held out his hand. “Cousin Thomas! Good to see you again. Welcome to Bombay.”
Being sharply reminded of his manners, Thomas sighed and shook. “Yes, hello, Cousin Nicky. Good to see you. Sorry for my manners, it’s not been an overly pleasant journey.”
“I can imagine. It wasn’t overly pleasant when I came out here, and I wasn’t on a mail boat.” With a wry smile, the other man indicated his companions. “Allow me to make introductions. This is Dr Lily Houghton, botany professor at Cambridge. Her father was apparently old friends with my (Military superior, unless I choose a different career).”
“Doctor.”
A bit cautiously, Nicky continued, “You seem to be acquainted with her brother, McGregor Houghton.”
“We’ve met, yes,” Thomas acknowledged, narrowing his eyes.
“And I see your manners haven’t improved,” the other man sniffed. Thomas wanted to punch him.
“Yes, well, you take the mail boat back and see how you feel at the end.” While it was clear as always that the Houghtons outranked him, this was India. He was done kowtowing to strange toffs, unless maybe he got desperate for a job. Which, in retrospect, he basically was, so perhaps he shouldn’t punch this prat.
“And I’m Frank Wolff,” the towering giant informed him. “I’m Doctor Houghton’s fiancee.”
Reigning in his temper, Thomas smiled and nodded. “Pleased to meet you.” He’d have been more disappointed by the announcement, but either way, he didn’t have to carry that trunk anymore, so he didn’t care that much.
Something caused Frank to look down at his feet and he added, “Oh yes, and this is Proxima.”
Thomas looked down and immediately took three quick steps backwards. “You have a ti-no, spots. A leopard?”
“She’s a jaguar,” Frank informed him pleasantly.
That wasn’t much of an improvement to Thomas’s mind, because whatever she was, she was rather large and had claws and, he was quite certain, very sharp teeth. “I wasn’t aware they had jaguars in India.”
“Oh, no, she’s from Brazil.”
“Right. Brazil.” It was about that time that Thomas realised stepping away from the jaguar had put him in closer proximity to McGregor. He immediately shifted closer to the cat, figuring that if she belonged to Frank, he probably had her under control. Probably.
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Introducing The Rainbow Book Club
Introduction
In its bid to listen to fans, Storygraph has finally allowed for Book Club and I think it's great as it brings a bit more community into the app. This has been a long time over due and I'm absolutely buzzing with excitement.
For those who don't know advocating through reading is a huge passion of me. I'm a 100% on the train of trying to diversify your tbr and as a queer person I've felt it especially important to get queer literature out there. I've set up an Lgtbq+ Book Club at my college and hopefully at my university. Its a way to have a space for people to explore different queer books and find ones they might not even be aware of.
Its been fun running an in person Book Club so I knew I wanted to do one online so let me introduce you too...
What Is The Rainbow Book Club?
Under a much better name then Lgtbq+ Book Club, The Rainbow Book Club is going to be an online Book Club open to everyone that will focus on reading and discussing Lgtbq+ Books. All books will be books that are labelled as and include Lgtbq+ representation.
The goal of this book club is to get people to essentially read with pride and each month on the Storygraph a poll will go up so that people can vote for the queer book they want to read. Unfortunately it'll have to be queer books I've read as it's harder to do an online Book Club without having read the book.
It'll run entirely online with this year's sessions being sometimes on tik tok live whilst other times zoom. From January 2025 though all book club discussions will be hosted on my tik tok live. Depending on circumstances as I'm aware America is potentially gonna have the app banned all together. I'd love to do zoom but I think larger numbers are more likely to be on live streaming.
When Will The Book Discussions Take Place?
All Book Discussions will take place on the last Sunday of each month from 8:30 GMT in order to give non UK folk a chance to join if they want too. So for example May and June's meetings will take place on the 26th and then the 30th. Unless I get ill or promptly too tired or something comes up, I intend to stick to the schedule.
I'll also be hosting readalongs on the side of Storygraph for anyone who just wants to take part on the reading side and not the discussion part.
For the first meeting we will be discussing Pageboy By Elliot Page. I thought I'd be best to starting with a queer book I've recently read in order to refresh the mind. On the 26th of May I'll be hosting a live stream discussion about Pageboy on my tik tok @fierymelody and will invite those to take part in the discussion on screen if they wish to be part of the live. I'll last from an hour as I won't be constraint by not paying for zoom.
Conclusion
I'm very excited to have set this up and I hope that it can evolve and gain more members once I've got into the flow of things better. Pageboy and Loveless are the first two picks and I'm excited to get many more after June's ended. Although the polls are still gonna consist of books I've read I'm sure the discussions are gonna be super interesting. Won't spoil but I certainly have some interesting thoughts about Pageboy.
I hope things go well and I'm gonna try get my tbr more diverse so that there's more diverse poll choices. I'm very excited to get this started. I've also made rules banning problematic authors and I'm gonna do my best to stick to that. Hopefully despite starting uni this year I can make things work. I'm really looking forward too it.
I'm sorry to say but after having both Storygraph and Goodreads, Storygraph has way better visually looking book club page. Now book clubs are here I hope it gets Storygraph haters quieter about the fact it had no social connections but now it does.
I use both but prefer Storygraph.
For those interested see you May 26th.
-Melody-
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Minor Announcement + Micro Anon Asks
Okay, so let's start things off with an announcement of mine. No, Disconnected isn't going away, don't worry. I'm not doing that- this is honestly amazing to write and I'm stunned at how many people enjoy it. So this isn't going anywhere for a while.
However, with how Chapter 21 went, I've realized that my method of writing isn't gonna work anymore. I can't just write as I go.
So I've done some thinking and I have a few plot points to work with. Asks will certainly retain the potential to influence the story, but there's going to be certain things I'm working towards- not just writing as I go.
This doesn't mean that I'll get to where I have everything planned out to a T, like how Lynx did at the end of Paper Trail. There's gonna be plans, but ideas may have me shift a bit depending on what I think of it.
I don't want to back myself into a corner again, and I want to retain the quality of the first dozen or so chapters. If I want to do that, I need to make sure I have a path to go down.
So, I've begun to jot down notes in a Google Doc that I'm going to keep private (as it contains IMMENSE spoilers). I may or may not have some method to access it, or bits and pieces of it, down the road. But for now, it's not going to be shared and will be used purely so I can look at it and know what I want to focus on next.
(It also includes all the stuff on the Evil Overlord List that the Knight/Gaster has 100% failed or would fail. Go check that out- it shows you just how dumb lots of antagonists are, and what they have in common. Plus it helps with figuring out how to make a threatening antagonist, with the note of figuring out which things they would fail at to have them be actually possible to defeat. There's multiple iterations of this list, not just the one linked. So definitely take a look at those as well, and tell me what you think Gaster has botched up or would botch up.)
Hopefully, this notes doc will help me get more ideas in the future and make future chapters easier to write.
On that note, the post that was the potential chapter 21 has been adjusted and is now officially Chapter 21 in the story, as I feel I know a way to continue from that point in terms of:
Gaster's plan involving the Over World
The time travel situation
Trying to repair the Light and Dark Worlds
...something else that remains to be seen
which means that, after a few modifications to make it feel a little more fitting, I felt good enough to allow it to be what it was intended to be.
There's also another cipher there as well, for those who enjoy that. I may not do ciphers on all my chapters, but they will certainly be used every now and then. The keys won't be hidden in the same place or the same way for the most part- so keep your eyes peeled. (I do mention in the post-chapter text that the keys will not be in the chapter itself unless I mention otherwise. So don't worry about hunting through the chapter to try and find them.
Lastly, I want to try and figure out a better schedule for writing chapters of Disconnected. Clearly twice a month is not quite working out... by a long shot. However I do want to say that I am not going to forget about this story. Even if I end up vanishing for a while, I'm not going to forget, short of an untimely end on my part. So unless some freak accident happens, things will go on. And hopefully, said freak accident won't actually happen. (And if it does, I'll try and have something set up to let you all know about it.)
As for the schedule, it's definitely gonna be tough to figure it out. But three months is far too long. If that were the case for every chapter so far we'd have been through five years already. So I'm going to see if I can handle at least one chapter a month with this new Google Doc of notes I have. (If inspiration strikes, it may be more. But we'll see.)
That just about concludes everything I'm needing to say in terms of announcements. I did get a small amount of asks that I'm gonna go ahead and reply to while I'm at it.
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"Lol angry rouxls noises"
"Honestly I think everyone could use a rouxls kaard translator"
Yup. A bit too much of that old English accent there... I think that's what it's called.
In fact, it was actually hard for me to write Rouxls. I half considered scrapping that scene entirely and avoiding using Rouxls because I felt I'd either use too much of that accent or not enough for his character. So I went for a sort of medium- instead of adding "-eth" or "-st" to a bunch of words, I used words that would fit the situation best (such as "thou", "mine", "thee", etc.) and had a small selection of words with the "-eth" added in, where I thought it fit best. And even then I think I might have overdone it a bit.
In short? Rouxls is a weird character to write.
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"Gasp Dess is here too!?"
Indeed she is! She was there in the last chapter as well, at the end- but now we're getting more about her, and I hope I can figure out a good, fitting personality for her since we actually don't see much of her in Paper Trail- and nothing in Deltarune itself. So it'll be TOUGH. But I think I might have an idea...
As for what that idea is?
That question gets the GIF. I know people would ask about it after all. Plus it's been ages since I used it. So yeah.
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"Welcome back man!"
Thank you, again I really feel bad for the extended delays. Hopefully this new method of writing will change that.
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And that's all the asks I have for the moment. Hopefully I can get the next part out for you all because DANG I think I left off on a cliffhanger. And I know how much those can be annoying when left untouched for extended periods of time.
For now though, that's all I have to say. So, take care, and I'll see you again soon.
...Hopefully. I don't want to leave you all hanging again. Especially with this last chapter.
(Also I just realized this is my 100th post on here... jeez, it's been a while. I really should work on this more.)
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I have been to five (5) cons, ever, and it never gets less exciting. This was my first time as an active staff member, though. If I can, I'll continue to volunteer in the future. There is just something really nice about getting to speak with cosplayers without having to gather the courage to approach them first, since they're the ones that need something from staff.
Although I didn't ask to take pictures with anyone, regrettably, my aunt did lmao. Cosplay is a form of self-expression and art, alright— a lot of time, effort, and creativity goes into these costumes, and it's great to see them confidently put all of this on display. I know that to many, being asked to take pictures is an acknowledgment of their hard work. I hope my aunt made those Sailor Moon and Genshin cosplayers happy with her requests.
I grew up thinking enjoying manga and anime... was taboo, almost. I get it, there may be social stigmas associated with people who enjoy anime because anime and manga have historically been associated with certain genres that are seen as inappropriate or immature. Genshiken covered this— your average otaku isn't always socially awkward or obsessive. They just are. But now, as the medium becomes more mainstream, it is also more broadly accepted. It's great to see.
That being said, conventions provide a space where people who love aspects of otaku culture can come together and bond over their shared interests. It isn't always easy to find like-minded folks, and the con does just that. It also offers a wide variety of vendors selling neat merchandise that won't really be available at your typical store at the mall. I'm frugal at best and terribly cheap at worst, but even then...
... it had to be done.
I try to justify the purchase by saying that I may never again find the artists I got the prints from, and I really did fall in love with the art you guys. I had had the chance to check out the con prior to my shift starting, spoke with the artist some, and... walked away. My shift supervisor was kind to let me escape briefly to run up to the Artist Alley and grab a couple prints before they closed. Gladly advertising them here because they're so very talented.
And I guess that's kind of the thing. I wouldn't have had the chance to meet that artist or get introduced to the art if not for events like this con. It's about building a sense of community and fitting in seamlessly.
Merch tax right here. Freebie con shirt that staff members and some lucky con-goers were allowed to get, my three prints (terrible picture, but it's Naruto, Chainsaw Man, and Hunter X Hunter, in that order), My Hero keychain, and a handful of freebie stickers. Better than the experience itself... is the stuff you can get out of it.
While I know that I definitely engaged in sharing art and media by ogling art and cosplay and whatnot, I didn't really have time to explore the panels. I was out of town for most of the event, and really only showed up for my scheduled shift. I think that attending panels is a good method to learn more about what makes up Otaku culture; you're exposed to new ideas and perspectives that way, and also new fandoms.
I did get the chance to witness this drag show that was going on, but only briefly. Not to get too political here, guys, but I don't think activities like these "appeal to prurient, shameful, or morbid interests," or whatever. It certainly looked perfectly healthy in there! Amusing to watch, too.
I'm glad I got to attend, and I look forward to being part of more events like these in the future!
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~ CLEARING NERVOUSNESS ~ I believe, think, know and feel that I can release all of this underlying tension and allow for grounding, peace and joy. I am ready, willing and able to be accepting of current conditions so that I may rise above the chatter and reach the calm. I know, when, where, how and why to trust the process, be fully present in this moment and ignore the noise of life and living. I am asking in all languages and throughout all timelines and so it is. Know that if you’ll make a little daily progress that the rest of your life will be the best of your life!
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MyBeliefWorks™ for Being Your Ideal Weight & Healthy Diet, Digestion & Exercise MP3/PDFs
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Come see me in Tampa
I am offering sessions at Dr. Charla Tempone’s office at Swann Holistic Health Solutions in Tampa. The the next opportunity to book a session there is:
FRIDAY FEBRUARY 2ND | 10-4pm
Please call their office directly at ☎️ (813) 873-7773 in order to get on the schedule for 15-minutes $45 or 30-minutes $75. If you’re new to working with him, we suggest you schedule 30 minutes
Swann Holistic Health Solutions 403 S. Habana Ave. Tampa, FL 33609 Just south of Azeele next to Skin Savvy
http://www.ctholisticsolutions.com
FREE Live Appearances
Exciting news! I’ll be speaking at The Quantum Shift Academy Season 15, with host Helena Reilly where you'll UNLEASH QUANTUM GENIUS and receive 18 Activations to Effortlessly Slash Stress by 50% In Your Home & Workplace!
Save the Dates: Jan 25th ~ 31st
Reserve your FREE spot today!
Watch and listen to hundreds of Radio Show replays for FREE here in the archives from the Jimmy Mack Healing Radio show.
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From the Fish Box
MY DAILY PRAYER TESTIMONIAL
So...I got confirmation from the hospital that I'm cancer free!!!! I only have to go to a 6 week follow up appt to ensure I'm healing properly from the surgery. Thank you so much for ALL you did to help me through the daily prayer service to get to this miraculous outcome! - Tina T. / Florida
Fish Food
The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish
Tell the Fish - 365 Daily Inspirations and Affirmations - by Jimmy Mack Own this e-book so that you can read inspiration every day!
JANUARY 24TH "Today I will value each breath I take & realize how fortunate I am to have another day in which to make a difference in my life as well as that of others. As we age & watch our family & friends age, we are reminded of our own mortality & we must always remember to concentrate on the journey & each moment & not the destination."
Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy
Your name will be added to a special VIP Prayer list where Jimmy will use his intelligent computer software, src4you which runs 24/7, to delete the negative and increase the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of favorable outcomes for you. Looking for a new job? Going through a court proceeding? Upcoming surgery scheduled for you or a loved one? Need help selling or buying a property? Troubled times in your relationship? These are just some of the life at the crossroads events that are ideal for My Daily Prayer program.
30 Days of Daily Prayer (single month) - $99/month This $99 service is for ONE SINGLE MONTH of 30 DAYS ONLY. Click here After the 30 days, you will receive an email from Jimmy and have the opportunity to renew for an additional month plus update your list, but you are under no obligation.
You can add yourself and those living in your immediate household and yes you can include pets! Merely include everyone’s names and Jimmy will add them to his daily prayers.
**NOTE: Most clients save money and choose the auto-renew option listed below so they do not miss a single day of prayers PLUS they take advantage of the cummulative effects of this service over time. Monthly subscription - $95/month on auto-renew
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*Anytime prior to your next scheduled payment within the 30 days, you can cancel or pause this service via email request.
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All are welcome to CREATE A FREE ACCOUNT to access the NEW and IMPROVED My Liquid Fish Change Made Simple Basic Training Course. Anchors Away Masterclass: Sustain and clear and sovereign energetic field of dark energies and anomalies. Life Force Energy Masterclass: Enhance your fishing practice by approaching from a deeper, numeric level. Mastery & Practitioner Certification Course
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The Fish Market
Below is list of over 35 titles in the MyBeliefWorks Clearings audio series, monthly Zoom clearing call replays and Guided Energy Processess. Find a topic that addresses your issue(s), click on the link to read more. We had a lot of help downloading & channeling these over the years & they keep getting better and we are ALWAYS working on the next one. Don’t forget… you can share these with your immediate friends and family.
Freedom from Abuse Overcoming Addiction Receiving Abundance Body Scan: Head to Toe Healing Bountiful Harvest Igniting Creative Spark Discovering Your Destiny Daily GPS Reset Releasing Dark Energies/Fears Crossroads -Decision Making 👉 15% off Diet & Exercise Support Education & Learning Support Empowering the Empath Enthusiasm for Life Financial Windfall Gold Coin: Money in All Forms Healing Family Relationships Healing Body Disorders High Cotton Abundance Joy of Money
IRS Stress & Taxes Relieving Holiday Stress Increasing Intuition Lucky 777 Finding Love & Romance Mental Stress Positive Money Mindset Moving Forward from Past Chronic Pain Relief Pet Healing Support Improving Sales & Success Improving Sex Improving Sleep Pro$perity Unlocked Traveling with Ease Treasure Chest Work & Career Success 👉 15% off Weight Loss Support Restoring Youth & Vitality
View Full Zoom Replay Collection The 5 Anchors Process The Purple Rain Process The Magical Golden Key
Healing and Grounding Mats for all occasions Yes even Lily my cat uses the pet one! View Grounding Mats here Use code: MyLiquidFishfs for Free Shipping
**We are NOT involved in the sales or shipping process of the 3rd party items, please contact them directly.
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WHAM! No it’s not the POP musical group George Michael was in, but rather a mishap at LA Fitness. There is such an eclectic group of folks at this gym from hard core trainers, to people barely phoning it in. The locker rooms can often be crowded and certainly noisy. Closing my locker door it met the cabinet with a BANG noise. The man sitting on a floor table next to me nearly came out of his skin and gave me a look of death! “Good God man, must you slam the door so loud?” I said, “I am so sorry, it slipped and it would never purposely offend you.” He mumbled on about other obscure grievances about the gym and as I walked to the showers. I said, “ I hope someone is driving you around because it’s really noisy and haphazard out there on the roads; may this be the worst thing you experience today.” Can you imagine... loud sounds at the gym?... clanging weights, grunting, loud talking and music blaring in the classes - that's pretty much par for the course my man. Loud noises and glare bug me too and I avoid them if I can help it, but you still have to adapt and function in life and there are so many things we have to ignore. Winston Churchill said, “If I stop to throw a rock at every barking dog, I’ll never accomplish my mission.” What noise from idiots, neighbors, friends or relatives are you letting consume you? Let that s#*% go! Stay on your voyage, course and mission by allowing your goals to be accomplished with daily positive interactions. If you laughed over and enjoyed the story above you're well aware that we've all experienced silly people, road rage and maybe friends, relatives and even neighbors that acted like idiots towards us. There's so much we need to let go of and forget about and quiet our minds to. What if you could just listen to a short guided energy process that deleted all that to bring you to a zero point field? How about in less than 9 minutes? We've recorded what we're now calling, "The Night Passage Process" 🌙 🛳️ (formerly known as the going empty process) We joke that it's as if you're on a cruise ship sleeping when the captain, crew and ship are doing all the work. On this MP3, l guide you on a little voyage of emptying your mind of overthinking and obsessing about any obstacles, challenges, burdens or worries. If you're just hearing about this now, you won't have long to wait, Check your email for it's debut release tomorrow!
Reach out whenever we can help/contribute to you and yours! View Calendar First, Then Pay and Schedule 15 mins | 30 mins | 60 mins | Appointments
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LIVE! WEDNESDAY JANUARY 31ST 7:30PM ET/ 5:30 CT/ 4:30 PT (30 mins) Pre-register at Calendly for $22 (includes reminders and REPLAY) 👉 https://calendly.com/jmh-calls/jan-zoom-ywr1
THEME: Focused on LONGEVITY & ANTI-AGING All those who are registered will be asked to submit 3 short items to contribute to the theme of this live 30-minute group clearing event. During this powerful clearing call all participants are muted and Jimmy will go through a list of over 60 clearing items on that month's topic. Replays are included if you cannot attend live. **Please know that if you were a Darius YWR Season 26 Package B buyer, this call is INCLUDED in your special offer and were sent a free registration on Monday with an invitation to submit your Top 3. Please check your inbox for further details.
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~ CLEARING NERVOUSNESS ~ I believe, think, know and feel that I can release all of this underlying tension and allow for grounding, peace and joy. I am ready, willing and able to be accepting of current conditions so that I may rise above the chatter and reach the calm. I know, when, where, how and why to trust the process, be fully present in this moment and ignore the noise of life and living. I am asking in all languages and throughout all timelines and so it is. Know that if you’ll make a little daily progress that the rest of your life will be the best of your life!
Featured Audios 15% OFF in January
MyBeliefWorks™ for Being Your Ideal Weight & Healthy Diet, Digestion & Exercise MP3/PDFs
There are over 220 targeted statements in this combined Audio MP3/PDF package. Purchased individually at regular price these audios would retail for $114. Buy them together & you'll get an hour of transformational clearings and strengthening statements "fished" for you!
Buy the combo package for $82
or buy each individually for $48 and save 15%
Click below and ADD TO CART and the discount is shown at Checkout
Get both Audios for $82 - Click Here
Come see me in Tampa
I am offering sessions at Dr. Charla Tempone’s office at Swann Holistic Health Solutions in Tampa. The the next opportunity to book a session there is:
FRIDAY FEBRUARY 2ND | 10-4pm
Please call their office directly at ☎️ (813) 873-7773 in order to get on the schedule for 15-minutes $45 or 30-minutes $75. If you’re new to working with him, we suggest you schedule 30 minutes
Swann Holistic Health Solutions 403 S. Habana Ave. Tampa, FL 33609 Just south of Azeele next to Skin Savvy
http://www.ctholisticsolutions.com
FREE Live Appearances
Exciting news! I’ll be speaking at The Quantum Shift Academy Season 15, with host Helena Reilly where you'll UNLEASH QUANTUM GENIUS and receive 18 Activations to Effortlessly Slash Stress by 50% In Your Home & Workplace!
Save the Dates: Jan 25th ~ 31st
Reserve your FREE spot today!
Watch and listen to hundreds of Radio Show replays for FREE here in the archives from the Jimmy Mack Healing Radio show.
https://thejimmymackhealingshow.com/
From the Fish Box
MY DAILY PRAYER TESTIMONIAL
So...I got confirmation from the hospital that I'm cancer free!!!! I only have to go to a 6 week follow up appt to ensure I'm healing properly from the surgery. Thank you so much for ALL you did to help me through the daily prayer service to get to this miraculous outcome! - Tina T. / Florida
Fish Food
The Daily Bread To Feed The Fish
Tell the Fish - 365 Daily Inspirations and Affirmations - by Jimmy Mack Own this e-book so that you can read inspiration every day!
JANUARY 24TH "Today I will value each breath I take & realize how fortunate I am to have another day in which to make a difference in my life as well as that of others. As we age & watch our family & friends age, we are reminded of our own mortality & we must always remember to concentrate on the journey & each moment & not the destination."
Receive 24/7 Prayers from Jimmy
Your name will be added to a special VIP Prayer list where Jimmy will use his intelligent computer software, src4you which runs 24/7, to delete the negative and increase the strength of the positive creating a higher probability of favorable outcomes for you. Looking for a new job? Going through a court proceeding? Upcoming surgery scheduled for you or a loved one? Need help selling or buying a property? Troubled times in your relationship? These are just some of the life at the crossroads events that are ideal for My Daily Prayer program.
30 Days of Daily Prayer (single month) - $99/month This $99 service is for ONE SINGLE MONTH of 30 DAYS ONLY. Click here After the 30 days, you will receive an email from Jimmy and have the opportunity to renew for an additional month plus update your list, but you are under no obligation.
You can add yourself and those living in your immediate household and yes you can include pets! Merely include everyone’s names and Jimmy will add them to his daily prayers.
**NOTE: Most clients save money and choose the auto-renew option listed below so they do not miss a single day of prayers PLUS they take advantage of the cummulative effects of this service over time. Monthly subscription - $95/month on auto-renew
Use PayPal for subscription Click here
Use Stripe for subscription Click here.
*Anytime prior to your next scheduled payment within the 30 days, you can cancel or pause this service via email request.
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Could you use a private session? Are you feeling extra-crispy? If so, you can now Book Appointments... View Availability First, Then Pay 15 mins | 30 mins | 60 mins
**Can't See The Full Email? Click Here to View Online**
Visit our Online Training Center "Give a man a fish and you feed him for a day. Teach him how to fish and you feed him for a lifetime" - Lao Tzu
All are welcome to CREATE A FREE ACCOUNT to access the NEW and IMPROVED My Liquid Fish Change Made Simple Basic Training Course. Anchors Away Masterclass: Sustain and clear and sovereign energetic field of dark energies and anomalies. Life Force Energy Masterclass: Enhance your fishing practice by approaching from a deeper, numeric level. Mastery & Practitioner Certification Course
Visit now, Click Here!
The Fish Market
Below is list of over 35 titles in the MyBeliefWorks Clearings audio series, monthly Zoom clearing call replays and Guided Energy Processess. Find a topic that addresses your issue(s), click on the link to read more. We had a lot of help downloading & channeling these over the years & they keep getting better and we are ALWAYS working on the next one. Don’t forget… you can share these with your immediate friends and family.
Freedom from Abuse Overcoming Addiction Receiving Abundance Body Scan: Head to Toe Healing Bountiful Harvest Igniting Creative Spark Discovering Your Destiny Daily GPS Reset Releasing Dark Energies/Fears Crossroads -Decision Making 👉 15% off Diet & Exercise Support Education & Learning Support Empowering the Empath Enthusiasm for Life Financial Windfall Gold Coin: Money in All Forms Healing Family Relationships Healing Body Disorders High Cotton Abundance Joy of Money
IRS Stress & Taxes Relieving Holiday Stress Increasing Intuition Lucky 777 Finding Love & Romance Mental Stress Positive Money Mindset Moving Forward from Past Chronic Pain Relief Pet Healing Support Improving Sales & Success Improving Sex Improving Sleep Pro$perity Unlocked Traveling with Ease Treasure Chest Work & Career Success 👉 15% off Weight Loss Support Restoring Youth & Vitality
View Full Zoom Replay Collection The 5 Anchors Process The Purple Rain Process The Magical Golden Key
Healing and Grounding Mats for all occasions Yes even Lily my cat uses the pet one! View Grounding Mats here Use code: MyLiquidFishfs for Free Shipping
**We are NOT involved in the sales or shipping process of the 3rd party items, please contact them directly.
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Dec.26, 2023
I suffered through Christmas with a cold. It could be worse, certainly, but I won't diminish the unpleasantness of waking up to the sinus pain and frequent sneezing.
Our little family celebrated the season on the 24th, because of the custody thing. I had no objections, this time. It was easier for me to adhere to our regular schedule. And the Heathen likely had no objections because I allowed him to have all of Christmas Day with W.
The boy came to me in tears on Thursday. He had spent the majority of the day Christmas shopping with his grandfather, and hadn't wanted it to end. Especially not by being handed off to an emotionless stoic. He was scared to talk to me about it, and I think I realize now how formidable I can seem to a child. Am I really that scary and unreadable to others? I managed to calm him down and tell him I had my own holiday shopping in mind, and that cheered him up. We shopped for my sister, and he even bought a little something for his grandmother with his own precious allowance money.
We went home and ate stifado and wrapped presents, but when the time came to go to bed, W began acting petulant. Sullenly snipping at paper trash with a pair of shears, or throwing his toys, or other destructive show. And that's all it was; a show. He wasn't actually breaking anything. Just showing me he was capable of it.
But I wasn't having any of it. With my emotions turned off, I saw the tantrum for what it was. I goaded him on. "You sure you want to do this? Because boy, I'm ready. Let's go!"
But that's when he saw the threat was real, and scampered off to his room to do my bidding.
I sat him down and told him how disrespectful he was being. That even implying that he could break the things I gave him made me not want to give him anything new, since I could believe he'd break those things as well. Or I could just not want to do nice things with him, since he didn't seem grateful for them when the moment passed; rather he was resentful that the events ended, and felt he was entitled to those fun times regularly.
He sobbed and said "Mommy, you're breaking my heart!"
I didn't care. I couldn't. "Then maybe it needs to be broken."
"How can you say that?" he cried.
I looked at him, huddled in bed and trying to hide behind one of his stuffed animals. "Because sometimes things need to be broken in order to heal the way they're supposed to be." I warned him that he needed to work this out, because I wasn't going to tolerate being disrespected.
That night, he woke up screaming. He was incoherent, and couldn't tell me what he had dreamed, but I knew Phobetor had had a hand in it. Honestly the thought amused me. Morpheus and Phantasos had taken bets on whether the kid would sleep through it or not.
Phobetor came to me the following night and sat slouched in one of my deep armchairs. His bony frame was almost completely lost in the shadows. A beautiful wisp of darkness, straight out of Neil Gaiman's "The Sandman."
I asked him why he'd given W a nightmare, and his reply was simple; "The brat earned it for disrespecting my mistress."
I doubt he expected me to smile, but I did. I do hold such fondness for him. I found myself joining him for subsequent nightmares, a few of which I seemed to be subject to. I wonder if he is upset with me for asking...
"No."
"Oh?" I asked.
He folds his arms. "Not at all. I was curious as to why you would question me, after all this time. At first, I did see it as a blow to the ego, but in dreaming with you, I realize that was not your intent."
I smile. "It was to get to know you better. To understand your motivations."
He coughs and turns his head, trying to hide the warmth in his face. "You're too kind."
"Probably. But not for you, I think."
"Oh, even for me, my lady."
We spent the rest of the weekend fairly predictably. We baked and decorated cookies with my mom and sister, and they took W north to a holiday market for the day while I was at work, and then we opened presents on Sunday while I nursed my cold and several cups of hot tea. I got frustrated to tears trying to build the bike W's grandfather sent, and he hugged me tight and snuggled with me until it was time to get dressed.
Monday, Fortitude was off work, so he made me chicken soup with rice and lots of hot cider. We slept the day away and watched some holiday baking shows, and generally snuggled in "for a long winter's nap." A lovely do-nothing holiday. And it's a good thing, too. Friday night, I woke up around 5 and found myself unable to go back to sleep because of my sinus pain. And Fortitude woke up suddenly, crying out in pain from the severe cramps in his legs. He's been working himself to injury, and I've burned myself out trying to empathize with him. He apologized over and over and over... and I just... felt like those apologies were meaningless. Because all of this, all of what he was doing, was hurting him. Not me. Not anymore. Or at least, not for now. I found it strange he had the urge to apologize to me... but not worth the consideration to perhaps stop punishing himself. To apologize to the man he was actually torturing.
I wonder if it's going to change anytime soon... as I notice he hasn't come home from another double shift... Looks like my empathy will have to stay off for awhile longer.
I wasn't planning on it, but I took the day off today, as well. My cold hasn't quite abated yet, and I think one last night of good sleep will help me recover. At least it'll be a short week. And I don't have any students this week, either!
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Gratitude Journal Day 2: Today I'm grateful for my incredible partner, who is stepping up to be our breadwinner for a bit and has been working so hard on job applications. It hasn't been easy for a number of reasons, but he's shown amazing perseverance. Now he has multiple companies interested in hiring him, and an interview on Thursday with his top choice. The company makes custom prosthetics, orthotics, braces, and other mobility aids for disabled patients and athletes. They're at the forefront of their industry and they look amazing to work for. They seem really excited to meet him and even asked him to bring some of the props he's made in for show and tell.
My partner has seen firsthand the difference that my ring splints and braces have made for me, and he's so excited that this job opportunity would let him use his fabrication skills to improve other peoples' lives and help them be able to do what they love with less pain. He has such a kind and caring heart, and I know the interviewer will be impressed with both his technical abilities and how eager he is to make a difference with their team. My partner is already eagerly preparing for his interview, and I'm so encouraged to see his confidence flourishing. He's determined to prove he's a perfect fit for the position, and I think he's going to nail it.
I'm going to miss my partner dearly while he's away at work, but I'm so fucking proud of him for stepping up to provide for our little family. The responsibility he's taking on is going to significantly stabilize our finances and take so much pressure off of me. It'll allow me to work from home, accommodate my health needs and energy limitations, and focus on growing our businesses at a sustainable pace that won't burn me out.
My partner has been encouraging me for some time to incorporate more rest and self-care into my schedule, and once he's secured a job, I finally feel like I'll be able to. For the first time in my life, I'll be free from the stress of being the primary income generator. I'm looking forward to the change of pace and the chance to recover after how hard I've been pushing myself for years. If all goes well and he gets this job, it feels like we have a real shot at not just surviving, but thriving. And that gives me more hope than I've felt in a long time.
I'm eternally grateful to have this sweet man in my life, and I can't wait to hear how his interview goes. Something tells me we'll be celebrating afterwards. He certainly deserves it!
#gratitude journal#musings#disability#supportive partner#thankful#hopeful#sending good vibes#relationship goals
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Hey guys what a wonderful journey we have been through these last couple of months. At first I was a bit skeptical of how my Match 3 game would have ended up but I was content with the product I have made. It is also technically my first solo published video game ever so it certainly marks a major point in my game dev career. Throughout this process, I was able to learn why developers made games the way they do in order to create that feeling of satisfaction and joy from their games. It can be used through gameplay, art, visuals, music the list goes on and on. It is thanks to how they were made that can help people who have mental health issues have a way to calm their mind, destress, and suppress negative emotions. From my surveys some of my classmates agree that my game did help them unwind and found it very cute. With a little bit more polish they could see themselves playing it every now and again. I won't stop making video games and seeing the impact I made here makes me want to see that I can go even further beyond and possibly even impact thousands.
My advice to the new Senior Capstone Students is to never be afraid to make mistakes. You never know what you are truly capable until you test yourself and often times you end up surprising and impressing when you find out what you can do. Of course always have some form of a schedule that allows time to work and also time to relax. Greatness waits for no one so as soon as inspiration strikes one must seize it immediately. The road ahead will be difficult but you have Sharla and the ACM family to help you.
With that said, Thank you all again dear readers for reading this till the end and please look forward to my future projects I have planned. I have so much things I want to do such as a 2D Platformer, a JRPG, I just want to dive in to it immediately. The future ahead is scary but very exciting as well, and I am looking forward to seeing you all again in it.
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A Discreet Moment
A/N: a story about a night between two ladies in love, just wishing to spend time together. that’s it. <3
Word Count: 740
TW: romance, i guess
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Owls hoot as a mighty wind dashes past leaves from a grove of trees. Currents of wind fly towards the air, howling with speed and in a moderate temperature.
On a grassy field, two women lay there close together. Their shoulders brushing and their eyes upwards onto the night sky. One of them sits up, looking at the other. She smiles, enthralled at peace in her companion's expression.
An expression that she yearned to see for an entire week. They were both stuck at work, only texting and calling each other through their phones. Even then, it's not the same. To her surprise, her darling suggested for them to meet at night in a forest. Because she wanted her there and she accepted it.
Tonight, she won't allow anything to take this away from her. It's dedicated to her darling only and not anything or anyone else.
If only she can re-arrange her schedule to find time with her, she'd do it.
"Isn't this. . . wonderful?" Her darling's eyes shine brighter than any stars above them. "Just two of us together in this field? Alone and without anyone else around?"
"It's certainly true, gorgeous," she answers with a laugh. "I'm so glad we're catching up. I really missed you so much, and I hate how works get in the way."
Her darling sighs. "Me too."
So, it unnerves her at watching how her darling squirms while crossing her arms. She tips her head back, peering up at the night sky. Dark and cluttered with various stars and moonlight glow. A dazzling sight for any mere moral to behold. Yet there seemed to be no serenity on her face. Only. . . worry.
Like she's struggling with a mist of bleak thoughts.
"What's wrong?" she asks, knitting her brows together.
"Nothing, I just. . ." her darling says, fiddling her fingers. She let out a shaky chuckle. "I'd like this to be longer, you know? I'd rather be here with you and get caught up in your. . . your everything. I can't stand to let this slip away."
She turns, fixing her eyes on her. "Hey, we're going to stay here together for an entire night. And if you're in, I'd be more than happy to camp with you. When I'm here, you don't need to fear."
"Pfft, I know that. My mind insists on ruining this moment and I hate that it does. I still. . . I still don't get how could be willing to. . . to make things work between us. I guess I'm a little confused that you'd pick me. When there's plenty of other people tripping themselves over for you. What I'm trying to say is that. . . I don't understand how I got so lucky to be with you."
Bowing her head, she moves her fingers across the grass to her wrist.
"Do you want me to cling to your hand while I explain to you?"
"Sure, okay. It would be. . . great."
Upon reaching for her hand, she slides her palm onto hers, and links their fingers together. She guides her closer to her, watching up at the stars ahead of them.
"You're the only person, who sees me for who I am. You aren't terrified at who I am and you're braver than any of those people. Sure, they're into me but they don't, and won't, understand me like you do. You've learned my deep and darkest secrets. Yet you didn't treat me differently than they might have. It's why I chose you: because you love me for my true self."
"That's. . . that's. . . I love you so much."
Without warning, tears slip under her darling's eyes. She swipes them off with another hand, sniffing and breaking out into sobs.
Her chest drops like lead down to her stomach.
Did she say anything that hurt her? She hated to see her like this.
She frowns slightly. "Dammit, I didn't mean to. . . I don't want to make you cry."
"No! It's fine! It's just that. . . this is so touching and I'm so. . . I get emotional, sometimes. It happens." Her darling gives a watery smile. "I'll be fine. I'm with you and it's more important."
"Still, I just want to make sure you aren't upset," she says. "Do you want to go back home?"
"I don't want to," her darling murmurs, snuggling by laying a head on her shoulder. "I'd rather stay under the moonlight with you."
With a smile, she strokes her hair. "Yeah, me too."
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