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the-breloominati · 4 years ago

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also opened up my email today and nearly had a heart attack because theres a fuckin????? ap exam ticket in there?????? and the exam was like idk 2 or 3 days ago so uhhhhhhhhhh

w h o o p s

also theres a new text feature apparently?

now I can finally talk as quietly as I want

tbh kinda feel like I'm fucking up everything today but that's fine

i'm

f i n e

#sometimes you think everythings all good and then BAM #turns out there was something important you had to do that you didnt even know about cause you never check your email #maybe if i stay inside long enough i can hide my embarassment and myself from the world yknow #but i mean its fine though cause its calc ab; probably wouldnt've passed it anyway (especially since i havent done anything in months)#and if i go to college i'd probably just retake calc anyway #yall i dont even know what i want to do with my life #and im a little concerned at how content i am to basically just be the human equivalent of a housecat #in terms of like.. all i do is eat and sleep and do human things to pass the time (youtube; minecraft; fr; should probably hop on lioden)#also [tumblr]#[tumblr] is a thing i spend probably too much time doing #like sometimes i feel like i actually just dont care anymore and its kinda disconcerting #now that i think about it i might just actually be constantly stressed #like i usually have youtube on in the background pretty much every waking moment bc i need to fill the space with something #and also it helps give my mind something to do so i dont start having negative thoughts cause that tends to happen sometimes #but like im mostly fine #tbh it might just be bad pms rn cause im supposed to be getting my period some time this week i think #and i think depression is one of the symptoms?#idk if thats what i have/am but i guess ots a possibility??????#like im normally a bit more fine #......at least i think i am.........#god ugh it just #it really just feels like the world keeps spinning and im digging my heels into the ground the entire time #trying to stop it even though i know i cant #theres never enough time yall #or at least thats how it feels anyways #like unrelated but its just..#weird to think about how there was a time i could look in the mirror and not feel like im looking at someone that isnt me #putting it like that idk how ok i am rn but i'll be fine #it happens sometimes and its really nothing to be all that worried about #vent

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