#and i've missed writing malex kisses!!

[justlightlysedated]

9 for Malex

9…in public

They've only been back in Roswell for about four hours, and Alex is already wondering what would be the best way to convince his husband to go on a second extended honeymoon.

It's not that he didn't miss his house, and his friends. He's just not ready to share Michael's attention with anyone after nearly a year of it being focused entirely on him.

Alex is sitting in one of the back booths in the Pony, holding his half-empty, lukewarm bottle of beer to his cheek as he stares at Michael, leaning against the bar talking animatedly to Bonnie. Their friends are scattered all over the bar, and Alex could be talking to someone else, busy catching up himself, but instead he'd declined Kyle's offer to play pool and had just stayed sitting in the booth, surrounded by empty glasses, waiting for Michael to come back.

Which doesn't take much longer, even though Alex feels like it's been forever. Bonnie gets distracted with a customer, and Michael's eyes sweep across the room, looking for him, and finding him exactly where he left him.

Alex doesn't bother to hide the fact that he's been staring at him the entire time.

Michael smiles and then hits the bar twice, a code for see you later, before he pushes away from the bar and makes his way back to Alex. 

Alex watches his approach with interest, eyes never straying away as he gets closer. He puts the bottle down on top of the table and turns to Michael who slides into the booth right next to him, mouth open like he's about to say something, but Alex is sliding into his space, touching his fingers to Michael's cheek, and pressing a kiss to Michael's bottom lip.

Michael makes an aborted sound at the back of his throat, but lifts his hands to frame Alex's jaw, kissing him back immediately.

Alex smiles which separates their mouths momentarily. Michael makes a protesting sound and slides his hands to the back of Alex's neck, kissing him again. 

Alex melts into the kiss, wrapping one arm around Michael's shoulders to pull him in even closer and sliding his other hand through Michael's hair.

Michael kisses him, deep and wet, licking into his mouth in a way that is not suited for public consumption, not that Alex actually cares about what's suitable to do in public.

Michael pulls away slowly, a satisfied curl to his mouth, and Alex just tugs him back into another kiss, just as deep and all consuming as Michael's.

When he pulls away, Michael's eyes are glazed, and his lips are parted.

Alex smiles, moving his hand to rub his fingers down Michael's throat.

"What was that for?" Michael asks, voice low as he drops his forehead to Alex and slides his hands down to wrap his arms around Alex's back.

"I missed you," Alex says.

"That's disgusting," Isobel pronounces as she drops down to sit across from them.

Alex ignores her, "Wanna get out of here?"

Michael smiles widely, opening his mouth, but Isobel cuts in once again.

"Um, no," she answers for Michael. "You've had him all to yourself for a year Manes. It's time to share."

"Guerin," both Michael and Alex correct her, giving her the same exasperated look before turning back to each other.

"Two more hours," Michael responds. "I promised Valenti I'd kick his ass all over the pool table."

"No way," Isobel cuts in again. "We made plans for the whole night."

Michael is giving Alex a pleading expression, and Alex hums, displeased.

"What are the chances that I can convince you to take a second extended honeymoon?" Alex asks.

Michael's eyes scrunch up with glee as he smiles while Isobel starts to protest. "We've only been back for four hours."

Alex nods his head, "Yes, and I think that's enough family time."

Michael laughs and kisses him again before he slides out of Alex's hold, grabbing Isobel's hand and tugging her away towards the pool tables.

Alex sighs as he watches him go.

[bekkachaos]

♧ malex?

♧: One character playing with the other’s hair

Alex sat up in the cheap motel sheets in a post-sex daze, the TV playing softly in the background.

Michael lay with his head in Alex's lap, arm draped over his thighs and his body covered from the waist down by the thin white blanket. His eyes were closed, but he wasn't sleeping, he was just enjoying the lazy way that Alex was stroking his fingers through his hair and gently rubbing his head.

It was such a small thing, and yet it felt more intimate than anything else. He wasn't worried about anything around them, the whole world could be on fire outside the motel door and he wouldn't care, so long as he was lying in his husband's loving touch.

Alex let his fingers pull at his golden curls, stretching them out and letting them fall back, landing over Michael's brow before he was pushing them away again. His fingertips were soft, and warm. It was like the rest of Michael's body faded away and all he could think of was how Alex's hands felt on his skin.

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He hummed appreciatively, turning his head only slightly to squint up at Alex. He looked down with a loving smile, letting his thumb graze Michael's cheek.

"Why does it feel so good when you do that?" he mumbled, squeezing Alex's thigh with one hand and dragging the other until it was behind his back, hooking on his hip.

"Because no one's ever taken care of you like this," Alex said, brushing a ringlet behind his ear. "Like I get to."

Michael held him tighter, shifting in closer so that he could kiss Alex's bare stomach.

"I've got to say though," Alex said, his lip turning up teasingly. "This is much nicer now that you've learnt how to use conditioner."

"I'll have you know," Michael said, narrowing his eyes up at him. "I've been using regular conditioner for a good seven years now, at least."

"Oh, am I going to get the same story from Isobel?" Alex grinned.

"You know, I don't like this little friendship the two of you have going," Michael said. "You're teaming up, it's not fair."

Alex chuckled, his stomach vibrating against Michael's chin.

"You're welcome to recruit Kyle to the dark side," he said, letting his fingers still and dropping his hand to Michael's shoulder.

Michael reached up to grab his wrist, pulling it back to his hair until Alex rolled his eyes with a smile and went back to caressing it.

"I don't think that's a fair fight," he said.

"You're right, it's probably not," Alex said, watching the way Michael closed his eyes with a sigh and shuffled down until he was comfortable. "Tired?"

"No," Michael said softly. "But I do wish we could just stay like this, never have to move or get up. I know it's not the most glamorous place, but I don't think I've ever been this..."

He trailed off and Alex smiled, knowing exactly what he meant even if he didn't finish the thought.

"It's perfect," Alex whispered.

Michael's eyes opened again, lips stretched in a delirious smile and he looked up at his husband. He wouldn't trade this moment for anything, in any world.

"Close your eyes babe," Alex said.

Michael obeyed, letting himself get lost in the tenderness of Alex's hands and settling in against his body like his own had been cut from it, finally piecing together with the part of him that had been missing.

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[female-overlord-3]

This is a sneak peak for @winged-fool cause she be Going Through It and I saw her post Malex which destroyed any impusle control I had at the moment! Another spite fic 😘 they're just so much fun to write okay. Currently titled "I know you better" but might be changed.

This is pretty much the start/ first part of the fic! Still have my opinions on this utterly dumb alien show (affeftionate) but god these 2 drive me insane and I've missed them

Michael is absolutely blissed out as he and Alex enjoy the afterglow. For the third time. God he really loves having anniversaries now.

Two years down and the rest of their lives to go.

"Gonna have to push that party another hour Alex. You made me inoperable for the next 40 minutes." The happy sigh he lets out is answered by Alex's who presses even closer to him.

"Sounds good."

After a good 10 minutes to calm down and get his brain back online, Michael has two glasses of water and an apple glide through the doorway.

"You feelin hot or cold?"

Hands skate slow and lightly over the bare skin of Alex's back, goosebumps rising as he shivers from the sensation.

"I feel like indulging so hot."

He tilts his head up for a quick kiss before nudging Michael to move.

That gets an eye roll but another quick kiss as Michael gets up to grab what they need from the bathroom. He throws a wink behind him as Alex's heavy gaze follows him.

Once Michael's beautiful body gets blocked by the doorframe, Alex rolls over and buries his face into Michael's pillow and melts.

Footsteps then soft lips trail up his spine before a warm damp towel wipes away the mess that's trying to dry, a gentle nudge makes him roll over to get to his front.

A second towel is handed to him without thought so he can get Michael's backside in their well done dance of cleaning up.

It's taken time but Alex allows this care and Michael too. Allowing each other to clean and care with love. It's no longer rushed or something seen as an end before parting ways but an additional moment to be intimate.

They enjoy a few more minutes of cuddling before both their phones alert them about reality.

Michael of course groans and goes to hide his face in Alex's neck as warm arms hold him in place.

"It's our anniversary so we can show up whenever we want."

They get 4 more alerts before resigning themselves that they have to leave their lovely bed to venture out for what their friends and family have planned.

Going through the quick routine of getting ready together. Turning or nudging, helping adjust clothes or grab needed items, doing their best to keep their hands and lips from wandering too much.

It's only when Alex is doing a quick sweep to make sure they've got everything and their home is secure, that the slight apprehension of going to their destination starts to bubble up before he sets it aside.

It's his and Michael's fucking anniversary so whatever happens, happens and he'll still be coming home.

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here friend and I'm so happy to see you being so calm and normal about last night's episode 😉. I discovered I've been missing out on a true delight of 911 LS by focusing on the Tarlos of it all, as I'm now convinced I could watch an entire episode of Grace creatively insulting/threatening people who deserve it while her husband looks on adoringly. But for this ask I am here for the Tarlos of it and to suggest in tribute we revisit Nine. The lyrics are too perfect for someone waking up.

Well clearly it took me a few days to get over that whole episode (plus the casting news for 911 which is...a thing that is happening) but I’m so excited to do this one! And look, 911 is in my personal opinion the better of the two shows, but I think we all know the reason for that and in general Lone Star has some really sparkling potential and a great cast and some really fun and touching moments. Grace and Judd LITERALLY invented love and Tim can say all day that happy couples are boring and you can’t write about people passing the table salt, but I could easily watch Grace and Judd do dishes in companionable silence and be delighted. Grace coming up with THE most creative insults while in labor is definitely a high point though and I cannot wait for next week and some of the stuff they have teased for her coming up this season!

So I know we have briefly talked about Nine in relation to Malex, and I’m hoping 5b gives us some good Buck and Eddie stuff because this is also a good song for them, but it is pretty spot on for Tarlos right now so lets get into it!

who am i to say what any of this means- i have been sleepwalking since i was fourteen. now as i write my song, i retrace my steps. honestly, it’s easier to let myself forget. still, i check my vital signs. choked up, i realize i’ve been less than half myself for more than half my life.

Oof oof oof. I know this bit hits hard thinking about TK and how young he is now, so how young he must have been when he started using, and I’m especially thinking of how he told Carlos back in season 1 that everything was grey and numb. I’m also thinking of him saying “perfect things should last forever” and trying to forget what was going on with Carlos because that was easier than facing what happened. And of course, we can’t ignore the medical imagery with TK being in a coma and using his mom’s image to talk him into waking up and facing up to what he did and starting the hard work of becoming his full and true self, outside of his unhealthy coping mechanisms.

But oh man does this speak to Carlos too, and the struggles he’s gone through with not being sure if his parents accepted him or feeling like he could live as his true, authentic self. 

wake up. fall in love again, wage war on gravity. there’s so much worth fighting for. you’ll see. another domino falls either way.

I was just blown away by Ronen and Rafa’s performances during the scene of TK waking up. The “hey baby”?! The “breathe, breathe” and that gasping, shuddering breath Carlos takes?! TK reaching out for Carlos and Carlos starting to reach back but clenching his hand and TK looking pained but resigned and starting to let his hand, only for Carlos to reach out and take it?! And proceed to stroke TK’s hair and gently kiss his temple?! And TK grasping Carlos’s shirt and pulling him down and Carlos collapsing into him?! Just absolutely impeccable television. This section is that moment. It’s TK waking up to see if he can get Carlos to fall in love with him again. It’s TK fighting the weight of his past and his unhealthy coping mechanisms that are dragging him down. It’s TK realizing that there is something worth fighting for. 

it looks like empathy, to understand all sides, but i’m just trying to find myself through someone else’s eyes. so please show me what to do to restart this heart of mine. how do i forgive myself for losing so much time?

😭😭😭😭😭  I am just thinking about TK and Carlos hitting it off right away, that spark of recognition that they had found someone special, and allowing themselves over time to open up. I love the idea of them looking for the best version of themselves that lives in the other’s eyes. And oof that last line hits so hard after this past episode and talking about the breakup. How do they forgive themselves for all the wasted moments, not just with this breakup but their rocky start, and the other things in their lives like all the time Carlos has been pressuring himself to be perfect and hide anything from his parents that might make them disappointed. Uuuuuugh, I just want to hug them both!

wake up. roll up your sleeves. there’s a chain reaction in your heart, muscle memory remembering who you are. stand up. fall in love again and again and again. wage war on gravity. there’s so much worth fighting for, you’ll see. another domino falls and another domino falls

I love the imagery here of hard work. Waking up, rolling up your sleeves, standing up, fighting, it’s all so fitting of the work Carlos and TK are going to have to put in to learning how to communicate with each other effectively. But it’s something that is worth fighting for and they are ready to put in the work!

a little at a time, i feel more alive. i let the scale tip and feel all of it, it’s uncomfortable but right. we were born to try, to see each other through. to know and love ourselves and others well is the most difficult and meaningful work we’ll ever do.

I love this ending so much. It is sparkling with the patented Sleeping At Last *hope* and is a perfect ending to where we left Tarlos at the end of 3x04. TK and Carlos are both learning, little bits at a time, how to be truly themselves, truly alive. And yes some of that work is going to be uncomfortable, but it’s right because it means building something lasting together. And learning to know and love themselves well first, and then to love others is something they both need to work on, but something they will be able to help each other with tremendously. It’s difficult work, but meaningful and so, so worth it.

Oh nonnie, this got me in all my Tarlos feels! Thanks for giving me a reason to ramble lovingly about them. This season is shaping up to be something truly magical and I can’t wait!

[malexfan10]

Malex thoughts

I was watching some old episodes of Dawson's Creek and it made me want to get some thoughts out. I watched a lot of TV shows growing up. For me, the couples I liked were either ones I casually rooted for or on the rare occasion, a couple took me by such surprise that I became extremely emotionally invested. Malex is the latter.

I've been a fan of Captain Swan (OUAT), Stydia (Teen Wolf), Kurt & Blaine (Glee), Buffy & Angel and lots more. The rare pairings I've been completely lost on, I can name on one hand. Pacey & Joey (my first OTP), Chandler & Monica and Malex. I'd say Destiel on Supernatural too but with them, everything is subtext. I don't think the writers will have the guts to go there, not even with the show ending.

With PJ, I love how they started as antagonists, became really great friends, and then fell in love. For me, PJ vs DJ was incomparable. DJ brought out the worst in each other (my opinion) while PJ showed each other what love was supposed to be. The only thing I hated about DC was the constant back & forth between the two pairings. It lasted until the final moment when you realized PJ was endgame (one of my fears for Malex). I hated that but I was a kid so it didn't bother me as much as it would now.

I loved Chandler & Monica because they started out as friends who fell in love, got married and had all the moments in between before adopting a set of twins. I loved their story because it showed their entire journey. True, the show was a comedy but their story didn't end in season 5 when they started dating. Their story just began.

It's hard understanding writers who feel that only the journey matters. Of course it does. The journey is important. It's what makes you root for a couple but the destination and what happens after is important too. It makes you continue rooting for them, seeing all that angst and pain amounting to something substantial in the end.

So as much as I loved PJ, the fact that they kept us guessing until the last 5 minutes before we realized who she chose was too much. The long, drawn out, multi-season, will they/won't they storytelling style is one I'll never be a fan of.

Which leads me to Malex.

They were two broken boys, both brought up under horrible circumstances, who found the missing piece of themselves in each other. When Alex gave Michael a warm and safe place to stay, it was probably the first act of true kindness Michael had ever experienced and it was made by a boy whose pain and suffering mirrored his own. How incredibly heartbreaking but beautiful is that? That initial bond, that "cosmic" connection stood the test of time. Separated for 10 years and it felt like no time had passed at all.

That first moment in the pilot episode outside his Airstream, you could feel the tension. I remember reading interpretations of that scene. People thought Malex were cold and angry with one another "probably over a girl". Are you kidding me? That tension could only be romantic. But that first kiss at the reunion was when I hopped on the Malex Forever train. One stop only. Endgame.

They set them up so amazingly in the first three episodes. The angst was there but you could also feel the deep love between them. They weren't shown as two guys who had a fling back in high school and then crossed paths again 10 years later, said what the hell and hooked up again. No, they were shown as soulmates. Their level of connection even scared and confused them but they both knew it existed. Their love was pure and true and rare.

With all their history and with so many odds already stacked against them, the writers deciding to throw in a triangle just because they could and doing it in such a rushed and messy way really made me scratch my head.

Carina said she loved the triangle on DC. I honestly think she was the only one. That show was incredibly divided, DJ vs PJ. But as much as I hated the constant back and forth, I'll give the DC writers some credit. Joey's feelings for both were fully touched on. I saw her romantic feelings for Pacey more profound and her feelings for Dawson as true friendship (just my opinion), but both sides were shown in depth.

The problem with Roswell? Where did those feelings come from between M&M? They shared a moment when Maria cried and I took that as the start of a wonderful friendship. I was obviously wrong. They hooked up in the desert. OK I hated it but they were two single people and Maria didn't know about Alex so I accepted. All of a sudden, the feelings were real and Maria was conflicted because of how strong her feelings were. Michael chose to be with Maria because he needed something fresh and new and according to the wonderful Vlamis, someone he also had strong feelings for (still hate that last interview LOL).

I understand where Michael was coming from a little better, as much as I hate it and hate how he went about it by leaving Alex just waiting. He'd been through so much trauma and Max and Isobel kept telling him to stop looking to the past (which, really Max? If someone told you that about Liz, would you listen?? But he died so he gets a pass). But as far as Maria's feelings are concerned, I feel like I missed something.

Between episodes 9 and 10, did the M&M feelings bloom overnight from flirty banter to crush to "OMG this is love"? Was their moment in the desert that mind-blowing that the weirdness of episode 11 happened? I don't get it.

The one thing going against M&M is that Malex is overwhelmingly loved and has been embraced by fans and critics alike.

One critic said it best when they reviewed the finale (Vulture).

"I was intrigued by the possibility of Michael/Maria at first, but the love triangle has been so rushed — with so little time spent on Maria’s developing feelings for Michael — that it’s ended up just making her look terrible. We know from Maria’s conversation with Liz that she hasn’t even spoken to Alex about the situation because she feels too guilty, and so having her accept Michael with open arms is such an odd note. Sure, she doesn’t know Alex is waiting for Michael right at the same moment, but she does know that he’s been in love with Michael for a decade."

And therein lies the problem. A lifelong friendship ruined over a guy (unless Carina makes Alex give his blessing next season which would really make me scream) to push forward a pairing that had little development and makes Maria look bad. One side of the triangle is Michael's soulmate and the other side is the friend with sudden feelings. Not the best character development which is sad because we know how awesome Maria can be and as mad as I am with her, her character that I enjoyed until episode 10 and the actress deserve better. But instead of being original, the writers chose the path always taken. They chose to use her as the odd end of a triangle where, unless they want everyone to hate the show, she will likely be the one forced out so Malex can eventually reunite and for what? Drama?

Season 1 started out really strong and it still had a lot of strong moments in the latter episodes (end scene of episode 9 between Malex, Liz & Jenna being kickass in episode 11, all of episode 12 - my fave of the season, Kyle's confrontation with Jesse etc).

But honestly, I feel like the inclusion of this triangle (amongst other reveals like Noah as the 4th alien) somewhat brought the story down. The writing for M&M felt OOC and was messily done.

Only in recent years have LGBT pairings started becoming more mainstream, given better development and importance in the overall story. With Malex, they have the potential of making Michael and Alex one of the greatest love stories on TV. As much as I love the show, I'm not saying Roswell is on the same level as Breaking Bad or The Sopranos etc. But from all the pairings on the show, Malex is the most profound and has the potential to go down as one of the best on TV. To overcome everything they've been through and still choose each other and their love would be the ultimate happy ending because unlike most male/female pairings that go through mostly regular angst, being two males in a small town, Malex have a whole other level of obstacles to face. That doesn't even include their personal history, the fact that Michael is an alien or that Alex's father is the cause of so much pain between them. Or the fact that Alex is a disabled war veteran. I mean, there is so much amazing points to their story. They are the OTP of OTPs.

But so far, it feels like the triangle is the only major roadblock the writers want to concentrate on and that's the biggest mistake of all.

Season 2 hasn't aired yet. We don't know how little (🤞) or how long (😢) M&M will last. We'll just have to wait and see how it goes and hope that Twitter Carina is not the same as Season 2 showrunner Carina.

But for me, Malex will always be each other's endgame. That's what I saw in the first 3 episodes. That's what I saw in the flashbacks. That's what I saw in Caulfield. Try and convince me differently, show. You'll fail.

❤

[justlightlysedated]

i’ve missed you and your writing so much, i don’t have the words to express how happy i’m you’re back i swear

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Thank yous!! I've really missed writing malex sfm you have no idea! And I'm happy that you're happy! I honestly think that it's not just that malex got married, it's also the fact that the show is over and done with, so that canon can't suffocate me anymore, if you get what I mean?? If not, it's cool! Anyway, ENOUGH about that, for your lovely words I'm gonna post a sneak peek for the fic I've been working on today:

Alex sits on the edge of the tailgate of Michael's truck, staring as Michael dances around in celebration after successfully starting a fire.

Alex still has the polaroid camera in his hand from when he'd taken it away from Michael to stop him from wasting the rest of his film on random candids of Alex, which he lifts in front of his face.

He takes the picture of Michael and it's quiet enough that the click and whir of the camera catches Michael's attention immediately.

He lowers the camera, taking the polaroid out from the front of the camera and shaking it slightly.

Michael stalks forward with swagger, hips first, chin tilted up. 

Alex sets the camera and picture down and leans back on his hands, parting his knees even more to make space for Michael as he keeps walking forward.

Michael sets his hands on either side of Alex's thighs, carefully leaning more on his right hand as he moves in close, smirking.

"You taking pictures of me, Manes?" He asks, smirk softening slightly, like he can't help it, eyes bright and soft.

"Maybe," Alex says, smiling back.

"I thought no more pictures were allowed," he says, eyes dropping from Alex's eyes to his mouth and back again.

"No, you're not allowed to take any more pictures," Alex says, turning to see where he'd set down the camera. "Me on the other hand-"

Michael doesn't let him actually move anywhere, wrapping his arms around Alex's waist, keeping him still and leaning in even closer.

Alex lets Michael pull him close and wraps his arms around his shoulders, tilting his head to the side and leaning into the kiss that Michael presses to his mouth, eyes falling shut.