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outlying-hyppocrate · 1 month ago

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i hate being self-aware (i'm not, really, and i don't know why i'm saying this; or why suddenly i'm correcting myself and making an attempt at using proper punctuation; here, would you look at that, an oversaturation of semicolons; what a ciceronian sentence this has become; how so.)

#random thoughts #i overcorrect myself because i'd rather be a concept in your minds. a correlation.#i sympathize with him in some aspects but i wouldn't dare say most. i like the belief that i am him.#a silly and lighthearted idea because of our similarities.#but if i start to actually believe it then it will factor into a trinity.#myself and god and then him. because he's quite an idol to me now.#anyway. post cancelled (or however one spells it). i love you franz kafka!!!!#and i'm sorry for even saying that as a puerile sot myself.#you would chronically despise me for admiring you i'm aware.#to this point would disgust you. but i suppose i am meant to disgust. i am a creature in some respects.#my simple existence disgusts many for various reasons.#but you are dead so we cannot confer. if possible it were for you to see this you'd know it's about you.#and hate me.#why don't i post about my beloved boyfriend instead of a dead man who would have despised me anyway.#(sorry if you wouldn't have i am just assuming. very seriously sorry again.#ought to write an album on my trifecta of false delusion surrounding us and god.)

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