#and i'm sorry for any dms i haven't replied to - i've just got home from college and i'm eXHAUSTED so i'll definitely get back to you all

[puzzledmemories]

((hello everyone! again! it's been like. a month. again.))

((work was making me super anxious. we had this ongoing situation with a client where, to keep things brief and anonymous, the rest of my team was getting harassed by this client, and i was the only person they would come to for like, assistance or any sort of communication that didn't end sour. i'm not even assigned to this client and there was like, stuff going on where my one co-worker probably should've straight up called the police... it was really bad, and i was both stressed out about being the only person who this client would interact positively (or even neutrally) with, and the possibility that this client would turn on me, i'd start getting harassed, and all bridges between this client and my team would be burned when like, we have to offer this guy services because of how the program i work for works. the client randomly complimented me one day on a day we didn't even interact otherwise in a way that made me feel really...weird, because of the specific situation. it's been weighing on me super heavily. things are just finally calming down and things seem to be okay now, but, i'm still kinda recovering from it.))

((on top of that, at home we've had constant issues with our septic system and even had an issue with our washing machine at the same time.))

((i was so stressed out all the time and just constantly socially burnt out that i've basically been unable to do any non-essential communication. i get anxious about communication to begin with, but it's just been too much for me to handle. i have been trying to push myself to get back on here for weeks. this is me. uh. trying to come back again. take 3! ever since i got super sick that one time i haven't been able to keep up my rhythm here, and i feel so bad about it. everyone here is so nice and welcoming and fun to interact with, and i want to be here so bad, and i don't want to make anyone feel bad by the fact that i haven't been here because it's not personal or purposeful by any means, but i've basically been at my limit of what i can emotionally and mentally handle. now that things at work are, uh, calming down... i think i can start to breathe, and i think i can start to push myself to get back on here more again, if you all will have me still.))

((my queue's run dry, i see, so i'll have to work to refill it... but it's late tonight, and i've been trying to just sike myself up to get on here and apologize for being absent for hours. i'm going to make this push tomorrow. a new month for a fresh start, i suppose! i'll be trying to go through my activity and find replies i owe, and reply to dms i've been sent. feel free to reach out to me, whether we've dmed before or not, if you have a reply i owe you want to make sure i don't miss, if you just wanna chat, or any reason really. feel free to ask for my discord, too. i've missed you all so so much and i wish i could be better about being on here again for you all. i want to try to be because i miss getting on here every day and interacting with everyone, and it's not that i haven't had the time, it's been an issue of energy and work stress. once i'm caught up on activity and i'm in a good groove for dms, i'll work on replies.))

((i'm very sorry, again, about disappearing, again. everyone here has been so cool and nice to me and fun, but my extra stress just made it hard to just, be here. or on tumblr at all, because for a long while i couldn't even touch my personal blog. i am going to try very hard to be the kind of person you all deserve to have around. it's a lot to live up to. but, i'm gonna do my best!))

((starting tomorrow, i will be trying my best!))

[jumpthensfall]

hello friends!!! okay so,, i think everything has died down a little now SO I'M SORRY FOR BRINGING IT UP AHAIN but i just wanted to make a post to give an explanation for the whole 5.13 thing (because it feels wrong to just leave it as this)

basically,,, it was just a cute lil project that @itsjustinyourwildestdreams organised and we really!! didn't expect it to get this big!! we thought it was going to be like 20 people max but so many people joined (like over 150ish right now) which was wonderful!! it was just going to be a fan project that we were hoping taylor might possibly maybe probably not but maybe see and be a lil amused by but there have been some people that were confused and frustrated by it (which is completely understandable,, i'm so sorry about that -- we really didn't anticipate it to be so big!! so we didn't plan the execution of it to cater for as many people that did participate) but also claiming that it's 'exclusive'. again; i get how at first glance it can seem that way but kamila and i both have multiple posts on our blogs inviting people to pLease join our project (and just to dm us if you want to join). it wasn't supposed to be something that we were keeping from other people in the fandom - the whole point in it was to keep it from taylor to confuse her. it was the complete opposite of our intention to make anyone feel excluded and!!!! literally we wanted as many people as possible to join!!!!! because it was gonna be fun and cute!!!!! i know it may have been done slightly poorly since obviously,, many people that weren't online etc. didn't see those posts that we made and were therefore ompletely clueless so i'm so sorry if it seemed exclusive in any way and if that hurt anyone (because you can always always feel free to PLEASE pleaseplease dm us about it if you're curious!!!!!!) again,, it wasn't supposed to exclude people - we wanted (and WANT) to include as many people as possible (also........ WE REALLY FORGOT THERE WAS A STAMP ON THE CALENDAR SO SORRY FOR FREAKING ANYONE OUT ABOUT THAT AJXJDJSJ)

secondly,, one of the anons were saying that we didn't actually respond with the details of the project when asked??? and that we were rude??? i can 1000% promise you that neither of us have not once been rude or denied giving the information!!! to anyone!!!!!! i really really can!!!! as i said!!! we wanted as many people as possible!!!! however,, i do apologise if it ever seemed like you were being ignored at all - we have hunDreds of dms and it took quite a while to get through them all (although we diD get through them al) but i can absolutely without a doubt promise that that never happened from us. also!!!! apparently some people are just responding to other's questions about it by just saying '5.13' and people are just recieving anons saying '5.13' and !!! that wasn't part of the project either!!!!! exclusivity is the opposite of what we wanted!!!!! so i just wanted to say - if you're taking part in the project and somebody asks you to explain,,, please do!!!! or ask them to dm either me or kamila!!! everyone is welcome - please don't further in making people feel excluded (also,, this goes without saying: don't! send hate!)

also also my main point!!!! if you have any questions or anything,,,, please don't flood other people's inbox with them. (other people aka...... dani and charissa) really honestly if you have any questions about anything,, as we've been saying this whole time,, please just ask us -- they don't deserve all of this to be dumped on them and i'd really much rather everybody just sent whatever they wanted to say here (since this is where it started) 💖💖💖 (so yes pleAse don't) (i know it's died down now but it's still important)

okay so i think that's it -- i probably missed things out and i'm so sorry to everyone we confused or made feel left out and to anyone that received hate (although that isn't on us - it wasn't us that sent any and it dEFINITELY was not part of the project??!!) and i hope this clears up some questions. <3 AND !!!!!!! THIS iS JUST A FAN PROJECT!!! NOTHING TO ACTUALLY DO WITH TAYLOR and i'm sorry if that seemed unclear! as i said, always feel free to dm either of us!!!! and thank you so so so much to anyone that has participated in the project so far,,, it is sO much bigger than we could have ever expected!!<333 we really appreciate all the support and we're sorry for stirring this up <3333

[sapphoschld]

Hello, it's Gab, 28 years old, a recent survivor of COVID-19. Fingers crossed that you'd notice my message and hopefully help me out. It's been a couple of days since I was discharged of the hospital, I've been admitted for weeks because of COVID-19 and now, I'm facing the bills I'm charged of. While isolated in the hospital, I did a fund raising project for myself because I was jobless and I really don't have the means to pay them. My mother, who was left at home, is battling breast cancer and is taking her own medications as well. They allowed me to settle $400 as downpayment (the hospital was considerate enough to allow this because it was a COVID-19 case) but I still have a balance of $900 that needs to be paid on or before March 15, which is only a week from now. They also made me sign a promissory note for this balance. Two days after I was discharged, I started looking for jobs again but until now, March 8, I haven't receive a reply from any of them. If you can help me reblog or share my story so I can reach people who can help me financially, I would really appreciate it. Any amount will do and is highly appreciated. In fact, I already owe my life to you for reading this. I was also informed of the Reddit forum about donations or assistance but I don't have an account for that and I'm not so familiar with it. My journey is pinned in my profile. In advance, I thank you for reading my story. Be safe and again, thank you very much!

hi! i saw this the other day but the app is being weird & for some reason your ask didn't show up, so i'm just now seeing this.

i'm so sorry you're having to deal with this. i got covid in January, & although i was fortunate enough to not be hospitalized bc of it, i know how much it fucking sucks. & to have all these bills on top of it?it's just awful. i'm really struggling financially myself & having to live paycheck to paycheck, so unfortunately i can't help you out in that regard. but i'm gonna post this in the hopes that someone can. i truly do wish you the best, & my DM's are always open if you ever need someone to talk to <3