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dreamaboutwhathappens · 9 months ago

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if we know that you're losing me was written over two years ago, and this album is the secret she's been keeping for two years....... i wonder if you're losing me was when the dam burst. i've seen so many people talking about how already, this album seems like the gloves are coming off in such a different way than ever before. i wonder if once she realized that he was losing her, she started to realize the harsh reality of other parts of the situation -- that protecting him was killing her.

#it's like. once you allow yourself down that path. you hace to wonder. is this just a rabbit hole? am i just hung up on this?#and i think she's def the type to need to just write it to get it out of her system #like with dbatc and she said that she was so panicked at the thought of a LTR falling apart that she had to write the song #to like. get it out of her system #and i wonder if she felt that way with YLM and then realized that wasn't just getting it off her chest --#there was a whole wealth of emotion there. and so she started writing more and more and that ended up becoming TTPD #all these little anxieties that she's always had about not being enough or being the anti-hero and so on #weren't just little one-off things. but actually. a whole case that she had to build to herself #to understand what was going on #which to me is already how YLM feels #like she's listing out everything: every morning i glared at you with storms in my eyes. i gave you all my best me's. all i did was bleed.#so i guess what i'm saying is do we think that YLM was the catalyst for all of these feelings to crystallize #ttpd #random thoughts with grace

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