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et6rnalsun Ā· 7 months ago
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DONā€™T, matt sturniolo
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šœ—šœš pairing: matt sturn x fem! reader
warnings: unprotected & kinda rough sex (wrap it up rn), p in v, mentions of slighty toxic behavior in relationship, cheating (?)
A/N: dedicated to all the anons in my inbox asking for more matt fics šŸŽ€ (requests are open. masterlist) ++ lmk if u guys want to be added to my inexistent taglist.
update: this has been in my drafts for 3 months
one moment you were resting your head on your boyfriend's chest, his fingers gently playing with your hair as you simply cuddled, and the next you were screaming the worst things at each other as you rushed to get your things scattered across the floor of his room.
he didn't have to say much more before sobs escaped your lips, tears falling down your eyes and ruining your mascara which only made your already messed up appearance worse. it was always like this between the two of you, no matter how good you had it since it didn't take much to ruin everything. to make chris put on his mask of carelessness and say the meanest things to you without even thinking about your feelings.
you didn't even know how to get home. you had to sleep there that night, and obviously you didn't want to stay in that house for a second longer. this made you cry more, your figure shaking with constant sobs as you thought of a quick solution.
eventually, the door to matt's room entered your field of vision, and a glimmer of hope lit up in your head.
you knocked gently on his door with your knuckles, and a murmur of agreement came almost immediately. when you opened the door, wiping the tears and the already dried mascara from your cheeks, matt was sitting on the bed as he looked at you with an expression mixed with confusion and sleep. his hair was disheveled, the sheets all wrinkled from tossing and turning around, and he wasn't wearing a shirt at all.
the sight made your heart skip a beat, and it was probably just the guilt eating you up entirely for waking him up in the middle of the night. "what happened?" his eyes filled with concern after seeing your conditions, and he quickly stood up as he approached you ā€” his figure covering yours whole. one of his hands rested on your cheek, and somehow the warmth of his touch made you want to keep crying. inevitably you leaned into that caress, looking up into his eyes. "chris" the answer was enough to make him sigh, as if he already understood everything.
ā€œi just need to put on a shirt, then i'll drive you homeā€ he replied, his thumb leaving one last small touch on your face before turning and reaching for the piece of clothing. you leaned against the wall, watching him put it on. your eyes ran over his figure briefly, his v line highlighted as his arms came up. it was almost impossible for you to look away from the sight, and you instinctively bit your lower lip while your thighs were a bit more closed together. just a little.
you didn't know where all those feelings were coming from, considering that a few minutes before you were in total despair. but then, the sound of matt's car keys woke you from your daydream, and you cleared your throat as you placed a hand on the handle to exit.
"don't you want to change before going out?" he asked, patting your shoulder as he looked at the exposed skin of your body with his intense eyes. looking down, you noticed that you had completely forgotten how you were still wearing your pajamas; some shorts and a satin crop top. you shook your head, adjusting your messy hair as you both walked down the stairs. "i don't want to. nobody will see me anyway"
he let out a small, amused huff, pinching your hip playfully as you bent down to put on your shoes. "you'll catch a cold"
ā€œcan you just shut up and drive me home?ā€ you feigned annoyance, but a small hint of a smile appeared on your lips as you returned the pinch with a small push. he chuckled, before taking off his jacket to place it on your shoulders. ā€œcome on, letā€™s goā€ he slid it off like it was a completely normal and natural gesture, opening the front door as he waited for you.
his scent completely invaded your nostrils, making you feel almost dizzy as you followed him without saying a word. his jacket was slightly big on you, bringing you the warmth you really needed but were too stubborn to admit.
the car ride was uneventful. your temple rested against the window as you watched the streets ā€˜moveā€™ in front of you, completely quiet and empty. you could feel his gaze drifting over to you at times, staying there for a few seconds before returning his focus to driving.
ā€œyou didn't tell me what happened, anywayā€ his voice interrupted the comforting silence that had created between the two of you as soon as you stopped at a red light, making you turn your head slightly to look at him back. "the same things, matt. we can never find peace with constant fighting and he always seems to find ways to hurt me" you shrugged, your voice low and slightly scratchy from earlier crying. "he doesn't even think before he speaks, you know that better than me. but sometimes i really wish he would"
he took a few seconds before answering, as if he was thinking about it. "i always thought you deserved better. chris isn't ready for a serious relationship" his hand that was on the gear shift suddenly rested on your thigh, his ring-horned fingers stroking the exposed skin. he smirked a little before continuing, watching you shiver at his touch. "he's not mature enough"
you knew matt's words weren't meant to be mean to chris or anything like that, but there was an edge to his tone that confused you slightly. almost like he was hoping you would break up with his brother. "i can't blame him, maybe iā€™m the one pressuring him too much"
he scoffed at your words as the light turned green again, allowing you two to continue down the street towards your house. "i would really like you to understand that you are probably the best girlfriend anyone could ask for. i'm not the one experiencing it, but looking from the outside, i can tell"
you remained silent at those words, simply looking at him as he was focused on the road. you were beyond confused at that point, and you couldn't figure out what was right or wrong anymore. ā€œif you say soā€ you decided to say, a small sigh escaping your lips.
soon, he had drove you home safely. you made him stop the car in the parking lot, knowing that you would remain in his company a little longer. "thank you so much, matt, really. you're a friend" your voice reached his ears softly, making him smile as he nodded. "you don't need to thank me" he reminded, placing a hand on your shoulder. ā€œbut i want to. it must have been tiring dealing with my sensitive ass all nightā€ you giggled, making him roll his eyes affectionately. "a little. but the fact that youā€™re pretty has alleviated the suffering"
and then it all happened quickly. his slightly chapped lips had found your glossy ones in a desperate, resentful kiss, his fingers sliding into your hair and the back of your head to pull you closer. you found yourself responding to the kiss immediately, knowing that you weren't expecting anything else. his tongue made its way into your mouth quickly, his other hand trailing down the curve of your hip.
matt was desperate to have his hands on you and it showed in how he couldn't help but touch you everywhere, his touches were frantic as he brought you closer to him and tasted your mouth, what he could only watch for months, practically devouring it.
ā€œget in the backā€ he practically pleaded, his breathing labored as he broke away from the kiss with a loud 'pop', while you moved quickly to settle into his backseat. his body was quick to tower over yours, his necklace dangling in your face as he pulled your shorts down quickly, before spreading your legs with his hands. he took in the sight of your delicate panties, so thin that it made his head spin. ā€œfuck, youā€™re perfectā€ all while your hands already made its way under his shirt, before removing it completely.
he didn't waste any more time, and quickly unbuttoned his pants, groaning at the feeling of your legs already wrapped around his slutty waist.
panties torn with little importance, tip hastily aligned with your entrance before pounding into you without any preparation, making you moan his name out loud in pain mixed with immediate pleasure. "sorry, baby" he murmured, noticing your slight discomfort. he couldn't stop though, and at the feeling of your warm walls wrapped around him he lost his mind and started with a fast pace right away, barely giving you a chance to adjust.
your nails were already digging into his back, scratching, leaving obvious marks that showed how much you were enjoying it ā€” you loved that rough side of him, you really did, and you didn't care if you most likely wouldn't be able to walk for a while. cause you wanted it first anyway.
the windows were fogged, and the sound of your sinful moans and grunts were the only thing occupying the inside of the car, replacing the silence that would have been there with sounds that would be perfect for damn porn good enough to jerk off to.
it was devastating the speed with which you were both close to your orgasm, but it was probably the fault of all that pent-up tension that had finally disappeared in a quick gesture.
matt didn't think about chris as he came inside you, and neither did you as you let him. at all. he didn't even cross your fucked up minds while your bodies, sweaty and exhausted, entwined inside each other in search of a heat capable of calming those similar voids inside you.
but you soon realized you were done when your phone started ringing, and taking it lazily from your dropped bag, you read the name of your current boyfriend. chris.
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1-800-kami Ā· 1 year ago
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R U MINE? feat gojo satoru (II)
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gojo satoru has got to be the picture definition of a stereotypical college frat boy. heā€™s cocky, loaded with his daddyā€™s money, and dangerously handsome. it seems like common sense to stay away from him since youā€™ll never get more than a one-night stand out of it.Ā 
thatā€™s why you choose to turn a blind eye once youā€™ve come to the horrific realization: youā€™re in love with him. and youā€™re just itching to askā€¦
ā€œare you mine tomorrow? or just mine tonight?ā€
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IMPORTANT: this is part TWO (and the final part) of the r u mine? mini series. make sure to read part one of this fic before proceeding! :)
content: 5.4k words, afab!reader, rich college frat boy gojo, SMUT (fingering & unprotected sex.. wrap it before u tap it kids!) ANGST, (i listened to deftones while writing the breakup era LMAOO i was in my feels šŸ˜”) gojo "everything reminds me of her" satoru is really going thru it, idk how to feel about the ending tbh, cheating implications, kinda proofread ig, more emo gojo (u luv to see it)
author's note: guys. where do i even start?? first of all, thank u for all the support on the first part of this mini series!! we also hit 100 followers on this blog so tysm for supporting me n my writing <3 here's the long awaited part two (n also the finale) as i promised that i would get it out over the weekend! just a quick announcement that i may be a little bit more inactive from here on out.. mainly because classes r starting again nd im starting to get busier. i do have more fic plans though, (and a geto smut in my drafts? šŸ‘€) so i'll make time to write when i can! happy reading and thank u for all the support on this silly little series :)
tags: @soley613 @feariteriu @bear-likes-mushrooms @96jnie @keilaq1 @whydohumansss @luftyluft @fatbootymuncher (bold = i'm unable to tag u)
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everythingā€™s been hazy.
you donā€™t really remember how you got homeā€“ you either waved down a cab or walked until you somehow found your house. either way, the alcohol is worsening the pounding in your ears. the straps of your dress are clinging terribly against your skinā€“you want to take it off, you want to wear something more comfortable, you want to just go to sleep, preferably foreverā€¦ but you canā€™t bring yourself to.
you canā€™t even bring yourself to move.
so the rumors really were true? but why did gojo pursue so far just for you? why did gojo say those words to you when you spent the night together? why did gojo try so hard to convince you that night that he wanted to have sex with you because he loved youā€“and not solely because he wanted to have sex?
why did gojo lie to you?
another series of pings sound throughout the room, and you finally move to silence your phone. the noise is all so overwhelming. why the hell is your phone blowing up?
you check your notificationsā€“mostly dms from people you donā€™t know, either asking if you and satoru were dating, or questioning you about what the hell happened at the party. you know that youā€™re gonna be the subject of gossip once youā€™re back at campus, and you hate it.
you were surprised at the numbers once you scrolled down your notification list a little further. ten missed calls from satoru, accompanied by a series of fifteen panicked messages. you open it, and you stare sadly at his contact photo and name, remembering the fond memory behind it. once you two actually started dating, you were merciful enough to add a heart next to his name, and even updated it to ā€œtoruā€. he was elated at that.
you think you can barely even call him gojo now.
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the most recent message was barely sent a minute ago. like it was on cue, you see the bright headlights pull up outside of your door. you wanted to sink into your couch and never resurface ever again.
you hear suguruā€™s car door open and close, and then frantic knocking outside. you walk to the door while sniffling, looking through the peephole just to confirm your suspicions. it was satoru.
ā€œi can hear you crying through the door, y/n. i know youā€™re there.ā€ he takes a deep inhale, and the tears start rolling down your cheeks again once you hear the complete and utter vulnerability in his voice. you just donā€™t know what to believe anymore. ā€œshit, iā€™m crying too. well, iā€™m gonna explain myself even if you donā€™t care enough to listen to me. uhm, believe it or not, what happened at the party wasnā€™t my doingā€¦ at all. when you went to use the bathroom, this girl went up to me and started flirting with me, like she was waiting for you to leave or somethinā€™. i was gā€™na tell her to go fuck off but she pushed herself on my lap and before i could do anything about it you walked in and it was just all horrible timing and- god. i know it sounds unbelievable, right? you must think iā€™m terrible right now.ā€
ā€œyou donā€™t have to believe me. if i were in your shoes i wouldnā€™t know what to think either. iā€™m justā€¦ explaining what happened.ā€
thereā€™s a long period of silence between you and satoru, aside from the occasional sniffling on both ends. you donā€™t know what to say. you want to believe him. you want to do nothing more than to open the door and let him hold you in his arms again, but you just donā€™t know what to think anymore. you poured your entire heart out to a man who you knew you shouldnā€™t be messing with, and now you donā€™t know who or what to believe. you feel like a fool, and youā€™re just tired. so damn tired. the silence feels asphyxiating, like it's tearing your relationship with satoru further and further apart the longer it draws on.
satoru is the first one to break the silence. ā€œiā€™m guessing from the silent treatment that you donā€™t believe me. itā€™s okay, y/n. iā€™ll wait an eternity for you to forgive me because iā€™ll always choose you- fuckā€¦ over anything, and i hope you know that.ā€
your mind is a mess, and satoruā€™s words make it even messier.
iā€™ll wait an eternity for you
iā€™ll always choose you over anything
you put your head in your hands and sob. it hurts.
a minute passesā€“gojo hears you get up from where youā€™re sitting behind the door, and his heart fills with hope.
ā€œi justā€¦ i just donā€™t know how to believe you, gojo.ā€
his heart breaks when he hears the doorā€“presumably to your bedroomā€“open and close, leaving him alone with his shattered heart. his heart breaks when he takes in your voice, noticing how weak and exhausted you sounded. he wonders how much youā€™ve cried just from this past hour alone. his heart breaks once he realizes that heā€™s alone with his thoughts again, alone with the voice in his head that was berating him for not being able to prevent all of this if he hadnā€™t frozen up and just pushed her away the second that girl started flirting with him. finally, his heart breaks once it registers that you called him gojoā€“the last name that he shares with his corrupt and money-crazy familyā€¦ the family he tries so hard to get away from. it was also the name you called him during the days that you barely trusted him.
now, heā€™s back to square one, and he has none of your trust again. this time, satoru swears that heā€™ll do anything in his power to get it back once more.
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you didnā€™t come to school today.
thereā€™s been nothing but radio silence on your end. gojo has sent you countless messages over the weekend asking how youā€™ve been, with the occasional desperate voicemail where he tells you that he loves and misses you. youā€™ve turned off your read receipts, so gojo doesnā€™t even know if youā€™ve seen his texts or listened to his voicemails. heā€™s concerned for you, even though he knows that heā€™s the reason behind all of this. he was hoping to talk things out with you today.. but you werenā€™t even here.
one thing gojo knew about you is that you cared deeply about your academics, and you wouldnā€™t miss attendance even if you were sick. it pains him to know that he was the reason that you werenā€™t here today. you were avoiding him, and he felt helpless.
heā€™s talked to getoā€”and the best advice that his best friend could offer was to ā€œfind proof that you didnā€™t cheat on her.ā€ heā€™s right, though. the last thing you had said to gojo was that you donā€™t know how to believe if heā€™s telling the truth or not. gojo has absolutely no idea how to prove his fidelity to you, since words clearly werenā€™t enough. it frustrates him to no end.
gojo now knows that he feels absolutely lost. all when heā€™s not with you.
it feels nerve-wracking to walk the halls.Ā 
he remembers telling you the night that you slept together that heā€™d learned over time to drown out the rumors about him. he learned not to care about what other people thought about him, and he eventually became unaffected by the schoolā€™s gossip.Ā 
however, this time was different.
this time, he finds it difficult to drown out the rumors when he hears your name in them. he flinches every time someone whispers your name and his as he walks the halls, feeling that all eyes are on him. ā€œi heard y/n and gojo broke upā€¦ā€ ā€œthey were dating?!ā€ ā€œyeah.. i didnā€™t believe it at first, either! apparently heā€¦ā€
he doesnā€™t want to hear it, so he walks a little faster. it hasnā€™t felt this suffocating to be on campus in a while.
maybe thatā€™s partially why you didnā€™t show up. rumors are hard to ignore if you donā€™t know how to shun them out.Ā 
gojo lets out a sigh. he decides that heā€™s going to ditch the rest of class. you werenā€™t here, he couldnā€™t talk to you, and he felt he was gonna go mad if he heard your name spoken by someone again, so he turns to leave, but flinches as he feels a hand lightly tap his shoulder.
ā€œgojo-san?ā€
he turns around, with a girl that heā€™s never seen before standing in front of himā€¦ not that he pays attention to them in the first place, though. he raises his eyebrow in question, and the girl looks so nervous she might pass out. ā€œi have to tell you something-ā€œ
ā€œif itā€™s a love confession or whatever, i donā€™t want to hear it-ā€œ
ā€œ-no!ā€ she flushes a deep shade of red, and he fights the urge to roll his eyes. she coughs awkwardly at his expression. ā€œum, no.. itā€™s not that. please, just give me two minutes in the library. i have something to tell you.ā€
he decides to entertain this girl for a bit. heā€™d be lying if he said that he wasnā€™t curious about what she had to talk to him for. gojo sighs and says, ā€œtwo minutes. thatā€™s all youā€™re getting.ā€
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ā€œthis is about the party last friday, no?ā€ he says while taking a seat near one of the tables. he feels sick just being here. heā€™d never gone to the library before meeting youā€“as he had no reason to go here at all. then, he started accompanying you everywhere as he tried to win your heart. ā€œstudy datesā€ were frequent here, and he even remembers forcefully changing his contact name and number on your phone during one of your dates.
gosh, everything literally reminds him of you. he can barely live like this.
she takes a seat across from him, and she shamefully nods at his words. ā€œi went to the party on friday, and i just want to say iā€™m sorry-ā€
gojo gets up to leave. he canā€™t do this. he doesnā€™t need anyoneā€™s pity. pity canā€™t change the fact that you still wonā€™t talk to him. she panics as gojo is about to walk away. ā€œwait!ā€
the librarian tells her to quiet down, and she mutters an apology. still, she persists. ā€œplease, just wait for two minutesā€¦ i need two minutes to explain myself. you promised youā€™d give me that.ā€
she stares at gojo, who hasnā€™t left yet, and takes that as her opportunity to speak. ā€œi was a friend ofā€¦ her,ā€ he doesnā€™t need an explanation to know who she was talking about. ā€œthe reason why she came up to you was because of a dare i told her to do. sheā€™s had a crush on you for a while now, so of course she was willing to flirt with you.ā€
ā€œum, that was the dare, by the way. my friend told me to record it, because we were all drunk, and we thought it would be funny. just another memory to laugh at in the future, right? we didnā€™t know you were dating the girl you were with at the party. sorry but, we assumed she was just a flingā€¦ or somethingā€¦ we didnā€™t know she was your girlfriend.ā€
ā€œyeah, i was dating the girl at the party.ā€ gojo scoffs, and he feels his anger bubbling up again. ā€œthen your friend had to do that stupid dare, and she wonā€™t fuckinā€™ talk to me now.ā€
ā€œiā€™m sorry-ā€
ā€œi donā€™t need your apologies. is that why you came up to me? to apologize so you donā€™t feel guilty about what happened anymore?ā€ gojo sneers. he was right, though. guilt is ridden all over her face, and she canā€™t even meet his eyes. heā€™s about to leave, thinking that this entire conversation was useless, but gojo thinks back on what she said earlier.
ā€œ...my friend told me to record itā€¦ā€
he turns back to look at her, which surprises her, to say the least. ā€œhey, you said you recorded the dare, right?ā€
ā€œuhm, yes.ā€
ā€œso you still have the video?ā€
ā€œit should be in my camera roll somewhere-ā€
ā€œif you came here to apologize to me, then you should send me that video.ā€ she looked a little horrified at his words, and gojo could almost laugh. ā€œwhat? iā€™m not gonna do anything bad with it, god.ā€
she thinks about what gojoā€™s intentions could be with that video, and her eyes light up in recognition as she connects the dots from what he said beforehand. i was dating the girl at the partyā€¦ then your friend had to do that stupid dareā€¦ and she wonā€™t fuckinā€™ talk to me now.
she nods in understanding. this is the least she could do for him. she pulls out her phone, looking for the video, and says, ā€œi hope you two make up soon, gojo-san.ā€
gojo satoru walks- no, runs out of that library with determination. determination as he finally has the video evidence of what happened at the partyā€“his saving grace so he could finally get you to forgive him.
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you miss him.
you miss him like hell, actually, and you blink at the messages he just sent you in complete disbelief.
you didnā€™t show up to class today because you were afraid. you were afraid to see satoru again, yes, but you were also afraid of what everyone else would say about you. the party was one thing, but the after-effects and the rumors were something completely different. you didnā€™t have the mental capacity to deal with that, unlike satoru, so you stayed home. all because you were afraid of what would happen on campus.
you just wish things would go back to how they were beforeā€¦ all of this happened. you didnā€™t want to admit it, but youā€™ve read all of satoruā€™s messages, and youā€™ve listened to all of his voicemails. youā€™ve cried to them. and it hurts because youā€™re still torn apart in the midst of your own feelings. and now, satoru wants to talk to you, because heā€™s been wanting to do nothing but fix everything between the two of you.
the doorbell rings, and you almost jump out of your skin.Ā 
you didnā€™t even know if you would open the door or not. despite that, you felt your body moving on its own, like you were relying on your own instincts. you washed your face to get rid of the dried tears on your cheeks, brushed the tangles out of your hair, and dressed into something more presentable. the next thing you know, youā€™re leaning against the wall next to the front entrance. your shadow is visible underneath the door, so satoru knows that youā€™re here.
ā€œhi, y/n..ā€ he sounded so nervous that you almost laughed, but you felt equally as terrified as him. ā€œi have something to show youā€¦ uh, on my phone. if you donā€™t want to see me, itā€™s fine, iā€™ll just send it to you, but iā€™d really prefer if you open the door and weā€™ll talk about this inside-ā€
your hand is already reaching the door knob before you can even think about it. itā€™s such an impulse decision that you look at him in surprise once you open the door. itā€™s the first time youā€™ve seen him ever since you were at the party. itā€™s only been three days, but you canā€™t help but notice how his eyebags are more prominent, his eyes are a little redder, and he looks nothing short of exhausted.
ā€œhey,ā€ he manages to breathe out, his eyes meeting yours. ā€œcan i come in? please?ā€
you nod, too stunned to say anything, and he exhales in relief as he walks in. the two of you sit on the couch, and gojo notices how youā€™re keeping your distance from him. it breaks his heart a little.
he looks for the video on his phone and gets ready to show it to you. this is it. his last ditch effort for your forgiveness. heā€™s really fuckinā€™ hoping that this works. ā€œi got this video from a girl who came to the party. itā€™s a recording of, um, what happened.ā€
he hands the phone over to you, and you take it skeptically, still choosing to keep silent. you press play, and you watch the recording. a shaky hand holds the camera, and the person behind it says, ā€œholy shit, sheā€™s actually doing it!ā€ they're presumably talking to their friend, and the camera focuses on a girl walking over to gojo. your heart is pounding, eyes widening in recognition as you stare at her... the one who caused all of this in the first place.
the all too familiar girl comes up to him, saying something out of earshot. when gojo looks at her, completely uninterested, she pulls that move. the scene you saw at the party before you ran out. tears fill your eyes again, and you almost want to stop the video, but your interest is piqued at the next part.
..thisā€¦ this part was something that you didnā€™t see. gojo angrily reacts at the girlā€™s move, with her falling on the floor as she looks at him, stunned at how furious he looks. the person behind the camera gasps, continuing to record out of shock as a crowd of people turn to stare at the two. geto eventually comes into the frame and takes gojo away from all the chaos. the video ends there, and you grip gojoā€™s phone shakily.
holy shit.
tears roll down your face, but this time, theyā€™re tears of relief. you waste no time in hugging satoru, crying your heart out as you bury your face in his neck. youā€™re happy. youā€™re so fucking happy, and so relieved knowing that he didnā€™t lie to you. of course he didnā€™t.
ā€œmā€™sorry-ā€ you sniffle into his shoulder. gojo is so shocked at what was happening that it takes him a second to hug you back, but when he does, he starts crying. ā€œmā€™so fucking sorry i didnā€™t believe you-ā€
ā€œshh, itā€™s okay, itā€™s okayā€¦ā€ he says, and you only hug him tighter. ā€œmā€™so tired, you know that? these past three days fucking sucked. iā€™m just so glad youā€™re in my arms again, fuck-ā€
ā€œ-i love you, i love you, i love you so fucking much, toru.ā€ you repeat, laughing as you kiss him all over his face. itā€™s been a while since you said that to someone. you wipe his never-ending tears away, still in disbelief, and whisper, ā€œyouā€™re real. right? youā€™re actually here with me right now ā€˜nd iā€™m not dreaming, right?
ā€œiā€™m very much real, baby.ā€ he says, putting his forehead against yours as you take in his features again. ā€œgod, i missed that pretty face so much.ā€
he finally closes the gap between you two, pulling you into a much needed kiss. itā€™s a kiss filled with so many emotionsā€“desperation, happiness, relief. satoru thinks his heart is finally whole again. heā€™s missed you. heā€™s missed you so fucking much, and youā€™ve missed him too.Ā 
youā€™re like an anchor to satoru. the light of his life that keeps him grounded. and god, heā€™s been apart from you for too long.Ā 
you reposition yourself as youā€™re deepening the kiss. youā€™re on his lap now, and you wrap your arms around his neck, tugging on his hair in desperation. ā€œoh yeah? ā€˜y gonna do anything about it?"
ā€œof course i am,ā€ he says, hands roaming underneath your shirt as he caresses your bare waist. fuck. he needs you. right now. especially after thinking that he was about to lose you foreverā€“for something that he didnā€™t even do. ā€œiā€™m gonna show you just how much i missed you, baby.ā€
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gojo canā€™t let you go.
youā€™re in your bedroom, and both of you waste no time undressing each other. he takes you inā€“all of you, in awe of every crevice of your body as he trails his hands further down your waist.
god, youā€™re so beautiful. ā€œi canā€™t believe i almost lost you.ā€
his words are shaky, like heā€™s still uncertain that youā€™re real and youā€™re in his arms again. he canā€™t seem to break himself away from you, almost like youā€™ll disappear if he lets you go. ā€œbut iā€™m here now, toru.ā€
ā€œiā€™m here to stay, and iā€™ll never let you go againā€¦ ā€˜m yours,ā€ you whisper, and your words set a fire in him, fueling his body with nothing but desperation. desperation to have you right here, and right now.Ā 
he wastes no time in plunging two of his fingers in your cunt, and he groans at just how wet you are. ā€œsatoru-ā€
ā€œfuck, youā€™re so wetā€¦ and itā€™s all for me,ā€ he mutters, spreading your legs effortlessly when you try to close them, thighs shaking in pure pleasure. he adds another finger, and you already feel stretched to the brim, and you havenā€™t even taken him in yet. the thought of his cock inside of you makes you even wetter than you already are, and you look up at satoru with eyes full of lust and desire. ā€œmissed you so much, baby. missed you and your pretty little cunny,ā€
his fingers are long, and you whine at how full you feel right now. youā€™re so loud, and you donā€™t even care. right now, itā€™s just you and satoru finally feeling each other again. itā€™s only been three days, but it feels like youā€™ve been apart for years.
everything about this was filthy. from your erotic moans and the way your cunt squelched against his fingersā€¦ not to mention the vice grip you had on them- fuck, satoru thinks he can cum untouched just from watching you like this.
ā€œhaa-ā€ you whimper when his fingers curl and hit that spot in your cunt that you can barely seem to reach on your own. itā€™s exhilarating, and only fuels the growing heat in your stomach. ā€œtoru- donā€™t stop- please, iā€™m close-ā€
ā€œreally?ā€ he taunts, and it feels so fucking goodā€“your head is numb, and the only thoughts filling your head are thoughts of satoru. the pleasure is too much, and you try to get away from him, but he keeps you in place, curling his fingers faster as punishment. ā€œdonā€™t run away from me, babyā€¦ be a good girl and just take it, yeah?ā€
ā€œtoru- fuck- iā€™m gonna cum, please-ā€ youā€™re on the brink of release, but suddenly, he stops, ruining your orgasm. ā€œno- wait-ā€
he pulls his fingers out, and you whine at the loss of stimulation. you were so closeā€“why did he take that away from you? you try and swat at his hands, but he just takes his fingers and puts them in his mouth, locking his eyes with yours with a sly smile. ā€œyou taste so sweet, i canā€™t help it,ā€
ā€œaww, is my baby mad ā€˜cause she didnā€™t get to cum?ā€ he coos sarcastically, caging you in between his arms as he tilts your face up with his finger. ā€œtoo badā€¦ the only thing youā€™re cumming on tonight is on my cock.ā€
and with that, he eases his painfully hard member into your walls. your insides hugged him perfectlyā€“it was like you were made just for him. you gasp once heā€™s fully sheathed himself inside of you. his fingers were already a lot to take in, but his cock was something completely different. he moans your name, barely keeping his cool. ā€œfuck- youā€™re squeezing me so tight,ā€
ā€œmissed everything about you, baby. i need to hold you, please,ā€ he pleads desperately, clasping your small hands against his. the size difference alone between the two of you almost makes him cum, but he holds himself back, choosing to bask in this intimate moment. heā€™s missed every part about this. ā€œyou ready fā€™me?-ā€
ā€œ-just fuck me, satoru, please-ā€ he doesnā€™t need another confirmation from you.
he canā€™t bring himself to hold back. next thing you know, heā€™s fucking you into the mattress, and you feel the headboard shake at how fast satoru is going. fuckā€“you feel every part of him, every part of his cock as it slams against your tight hole. heā€™s so big, you feel yourself gasping for breath, and you moan out loud as you notice the prominent bulge forming in your stomach. itā€™s him, itā€™s all him, and itā€™s driving you mad.
satoru follows your eyes in the midst of all of this, and he watches everything in fascination. he decides to be a little mean, and presses his free hand against your stomachā€“it feels so good, you could almost scream at the pleasure. ā€œyou feel that, baby? thatā€™s all me inside of you, hmm?ā€
ā€œplease-ā€ the onset of pleasure feels so overwhelming, and tears fill your eyes. you feel an oncoming orgasm coming, and you know your release will hit you like a tidal wave. your heart is pounding, but satoru only grips your hand tighter and fucks you even harder. ā€œoh, fuck!ā€
ā€œm close, baby. are you gā€™na cum too?ā€ he manages to say between pants, and you somehow nod, mind hazy and your release only coming closer. you feel your eyes rolling to the back of your head. ā€œcum inside of me, toru- please- i need to feel you-ā€
gojo groans at your words, and you both cum together. you ride out your high, screaming as you spasm around his cock, the pleasure overfilling your senses until youā€™re trembling from it. he fills you up, staying inside of you as the two of you catch your breath. everythingā€™s hazy, and youā€™re barely aware of your surroundingsā€¦ it takes you a few minutes to recover.Ā 
ā€œangel, are you with me?ā€
ā€œyeah, fuck, justā€¦ give me a second.ā€ you say, and gojo thinks that he would gladly give you all the time in the world if you needed it. he pulls out of you with a hiss, and his warm seed drips out of your cunny. it makes his cock twitch, but he knows that youā€™re probably not considering a round two right now.
when you come to your senses, you notice satoruā€“who put his clothes back on already, wiping your legs down with a rag. his touch is so soft, like heā€™s afraid to break you, unlike how he handled you just a moment ago. you look down and notice the bruises starting to form on your legs and waist. satoru looks guilty as he stares. ā€œi didnā€™t go too rough with you, did i?ā€
ā€œnot at all,ā€ you reassure him, and you see him soften up a little. ā€œit felt really good, actuallyā€¦ thank you, toru.ā€
ā€œs nothing. you know my girl only gets the best,ā€ he teases, and you laugh. ā€œiā€™m gonna go get you some new clothes and some waterā€¦ iā€™ll be back, okay?ā€
you nod, closing your eyes again as satoru leaves the room. heā€™s back in two minutes, and heā€™s gently changing you into new clothes that he found in your drawer. youā€™re so tired that you can hardly move, so you let satoru do all the work. he caresses all of your bruises, apologizing again even if you already said that it was okay. heā€™s so gentle, a swift juxtaposition to what just happened beforehand, and so soft with you. once youā€™re clothed again, he brings a glass of water against your lips, and you greedily gulp it down as he keeps a hand on your back. he places it on the nightstand once youā€™re finished, and you grab his wrist after, tugging him back to the bed. ā€œlay with me for a bit, toru.ā€
satoru doesnā€™t hesitate, laying down next to you on the bed and placing your head against his chest. your breathing is back to normal, and you feel his heart thumping against your ear. you wrap your arms around him, and satoru thinks that this moment is so domestic that he canā€™t help but daydream. he looks at your face, memorizing every feature about you with a lovesick look in his eyes. youā€™re so beautiful, so perfect, and heā€™s just so fucking glad that he didnā€™t lose you.Ā 
satoru thinks he could wake up to this everyday.
ā€œyouā€™re starin.ā€ you say with an amused look on your face. gojo doesnā€™t even try to play it off. ā€œwhatā€™s on your mind?ā€
ā€œnothing. i justā€¦ love you so much, y/n.ā€ he says, pulling you closer and kissing your forehead. satoru would trade anything if it meant that this moment wouldnā€™t end. ā€œm so glad you chose me.ā€
ā€œi think itā€™s the other way around,ā€ you tease. ā€œyou chose me. ever since you saw me at the party, youā€™ve done nothing but try to win my heart.ā€
ā€œhow could i not? there was just something different about you compared to everyone else.ā€ he reminisces about that night at the party, and how far heā€™s come with his relationship with you. he remembers that night like it just happened yesterday.
you sigh, almost like you were thinking about that night too. you pull him into a kiss, finally finding the courage within you to say a proper ā€œi love you.ā€ to the man who meant the world to you.
ā€œi love you too, angel.ā€ he says, and you snuggle into him tighter. ā€œyou know iā€™ll always choose youā€¦ā€
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ā€œ..from this life and into the next. iā€™m so glad you gave me a chance, y/n. iā€™ll forever be grateful to now be called your husband. iā€™m the luckiest man ever knowing that you let me into your life, and iā€™m the one who gets to read these vows to marry you. i cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you. i love you so much, y/n gojo.ā€ heā€™s crying. gojo satoru is crying, and heā€™s hardly ever cried before. though, that changed after he met you.
the last time he cried was during pre-k, and now heā€™s done it time and time againā€¦ all because of you. he cried once during your first argument with him, another during the night he thought heā€™d lost you forever, and then another when he finally had you in his arms again once he proved his innocenceā€¦ and now, during his wedding, when he finally gets to call you his wife.
and when you share your kiss at the end of the ceremony to symbolize your togetherness, you hear all your friends cheering. mainly shoko, utahime, and geto. if you showed this very scene to shoko during your university years, sheā€™d call you crazy, saying this would never happen. gojo satoru was once a man whoā€™d never willingly committed in a relationship before, but you came into his life and you changed everything about him. it was like magic.
you pull away from the kiss, wiping his tears away and whispering against his lips, drowning out the crowd, ā€œthank you.ā€
for memorizing all my favorite foods so you could buy them for me. for walking me to class every day. for making me fall in love with you that one day at the park. for waiting for me to slowly love you even when i was scared to love. for waiting for me even if i didnā€™t trust you. for loving me. for proving those rumors wrong. for proving that satoru gojo is actually capable of falling in love and pouring his heart out to the one he loves the most.
for everything that you have done to love me.
it was like gojo could hear all of your unspoken words. he smiles, letting one more tear roll down his cheek, and says, ā€œitā€™s all worth it if itā€™s for you.ā€
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thanks for reading <3 -kami.
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kyri45 Ā· 7 days ago
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āœØShadowPeach Bio Parents Bio AU Q&A! 25/02āœØ
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Welcome to the Q&A! A space where I can answer related or similar question about the Shadowpeach Bio Parents AU! If you submitted your ask anonimously, then youā€™ll have to check the whole post if itā€™s answered here, if itā€™s not, worry not! Your asks might have been used for a future comic or just in the queue~
@esmailsadeh ha chiesto: Kyri I have a question...please don't end your amazing masterpiece (LMK AU) there are literally a ton of people that love it , so why must you end it? please reconsider for your fans >.<
The question is... why must I end it? Well cause it's a story and I don't like unfinished fics ahah.
@oddogoblino ha chiesto: Sorry, random dumb thought Think that Wukong or MK would go "kachow" when they're tryna look attractive for their respective partners? šŸ˜­ Imagining Macaque or Redson being really into admiring their partners just for their idiot to go "aha, āœØ Kachow āœØ " when showing off intentionally LMAO
haha well they could!
@meisawkwardashecc ha chiesto: Are shadowpeach switches?
Macaque is mostly the top
@anidiotkid ha chiesto: So, does Wukong or MK ever get cramps? And if so, how do they deal with it? (...totally not projecting here šŸ˜­)
yes they do! Wukong is a drama queen. MK will neglect his meds until he faints. (and then proceed to be scolded by Mei)
@captain-space-kin ha chiesto: Okay so, I happened upon the Shadowpeach bio parents au update today and then binge read the whole thing instead of doing college work. And I just wanted to say watching your art grow and change is really encouraging to me as an artist. I often times get stuck thinking my art isnā€™t improving ā€œfast enoughā€, but seeing the progress youā€™ve made over the course of comic is really cool! And it also kinda making me want to try out making comics finally. Anyway! Love your art, and Iā€™m very excited to see how the rest of goes!
Thank you!!
@itzlilith32 ha chiesto: Hello kyri, I just came here to say that I really love your Au. Lmk was already consuming my life since I discovered it like a year and a few months ago. And now I also have your Au consuming my everyday, but I wouldn't have it any other way. :3 I've discovered your au like between part 2 and 3 I think, so a while ago. And it's been the most fun rollercoaster of emotions I've been on. I like everything about it, from your art to the storytelling, I honestly can't put into words how much I love it ^^ Since we're in part 9, and the final from what you said, I wanted to say this. These past months have been wonderful, from discovering this au and seeing how it evolved, to now, where we're near the end. Although, correct me if I'm wrong, but I have a tiny bitty feeling that this is just the end of a big chapter. And I can't wait to see what happens next. :D šŸ«¶
Awww thank youuu!!
@virtualjellyfishcolor ha chiesto: uh kyriā€¦. did macaque hear all thatā€¦?like uh mk and redson..
Luckily his powers were still too weak. He most likely WILL hear what might happen in the future
@busterwarrior2099 ha chiesto: So what's going to happen to Li Jing and heaven now? Because I bet mk and the others are not going trust them again after the stunt they try to pull by kidnapping the guy who defeated the bull demon king,the lady bone demon,azure lion and prevented the world to end all because they learn about his heritage so yeah not a good impression at all
I have... plans.
@kid-of-chaos ha chiesto: Kyri will we get to see the mini monkeys at the Coronation or just around in general again I miss my gremlin friens :d
aww we can bring some of those little guys yes
@blairjojo ha chiesto: yo Kyri are u gunna make this into a full comic and publish it edventioaly (I need to buy it) @amyrosewithoutshadow ha chiesto: Hello! Brazilian fan here! How are you? First of all, love your art. Really, it makes me fell so safe and happy when I see it. Second, do you plan on doing a book or a web comic book with all the parts together when you end the Bio Dads au? I Would die for having the comic in hands and read it when I want and can. Thank you šŸ’•
maybe, not now though (I don't have the time). I need mods and people who help me with the logistic first and a lot of planning
@lordmushroomkat ha chiesto: Your art is so genuinely great that I accidentally got invested in these fictional characters that I don't know just so I could see more of it. So like yeah, good job. I stumbled into it a few days ago and have re-read it like at least 3 times now and every time I get to the giant-kaiju Shrek 2-reference song-sequence I just feel an emotion that is very intense but that I have no idea how to quantify. I think the emotion is positive but there's also such a deep incredulity to it. It is glorious and unhinged and I am absolutely here for it. Loving whatever the hell this whole AU is, you have made me care very intensely about characters from a show I did not know nearly anything about. I've pieced together enough lore to understand enough of what is happening but you have made me want to actually watch the show.
awww tysm!!!
@gtuguzbuzbu ha chiesto: Will Wukong ever know what happened down there? Like he sorta knows that Mama got himself hurt but he doesn't know what exactly happened.
yeah Macaque eventually told him everything and he was condemned to 2 days in the hug-prison
@lordmageofart ha chiesto: Wait.. this instantly hit me but I have to ask! Is Macaque gonna Courtnap Wukong again? Will Wukong try yet fail to courtnap just to show Macaque he loves him? Or is it just going to be like a normal conversation like their normal people? (Probably won't be the last one but I still have to ask)
nah this time they just want to go straight to the point
@metalheaded-freak ha chiesto: Kyri, I just wanted to sayā€¦ thank you, for creating the Bio Parents Au, itā€™s been such an emotional journey and honestly? If it wasnā€™t for you then I wouldnā€™t have gotten into the fandom the way I did. I guess what Iā€™m trying to say is, you were the gateway for me to fully embrace this fandom and not be afraid to show what I do, so once again thank you!
Thank youu!!!
@classystudentmugdonut-blog ha chiesto: Hello I just want say I love your work I keep rereading it from the beginning even though I should be resting I got sick but anyways I want to who is YOUR MOST favorite in this lmk
MK. he is baby
@cranberrychaos ha chiesto: Considering you now got red bubble merch of the shadowpeach au... would you ever consider us paying to you to color in our favorite scenes from the comic? I got a couple I'd like to see colored and have in my house or wallpaper šŸ˜­
I don't take commissions
@redsontheredbull ha chiesto: Do you have a lady bone demon design?
mmm not really.
@astro-lmk-enjoyer ha chiesto: Do you think Red (or DBK) would get offended if people used cow/bull terms? Like bullshit? Or if they are driving and pass by a cow farm? Stuff like this pops into my head a lot and I wanted to know what you would think because all I can imagine is Red Son come face to face with a cow and it being so awkward šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ Bye <3
mmm i think so.
Anonimo ha chiesto: I honestly think it would be funny to see how confused people would be if they just started being nice to each other, with no context as to how or why (Not like all their problems are fixed nice but just treating each other a bit better after their talk)
LOL i think everyone is either confused or glad they finally resolved their sexual tension
@roseltelle ha chiesto: Since Wukong is trans can he get pregnant too?!? Is this something he and Macaque have to worry about?!?
yes he can get pregnant.
@vivian-devoid ha chiesto: "kilani-123 ha chiesto:Does Mk know that Wukong and Macaque are still engaged?šŸ‘€" WAIT WHAT?! I nearly choked on my water(stay hydrated) when the hell did this happen!?
the day before the brotherhood tried to take over heaven
@sleeo-goos10 ha chiesto: Hi kyri! Thank you for everything?! Just wanted to ask if you have other comics you plan on making once lmk is over aside from skyā¤ļø
first i finish the sky comic, then I'll see
@violetcookie2007 ha chiesto: Do you personally have anymore nicknames for Shadow peach or Spicy noodles? I like all the ones you have in the comic and think they are all very cute and was wondering if you have any more. Also I love you art!
mmm not really. im open for suggestions
@gaybirdlovescrackers ha chiesto: How does it feel to singlehandedly keep a fandom afloat. To keep it trending by pure gay.
it feels illegal to hold this power
@steadylandface ha chiesto: Are we gonna get a Spicynoodles child in the future šŸ‘€
Yes, go watch Ninjago Pilot episode 1
@lonelydarkrai ha chiesto: Is there anyone dubbing your comics?
lots of folks are dubbing my comic.
@lordmushroomkat ha chiesto: I suppose now is as good of a time as any to wonder if this means Red Son has accidentally left his jacket with MK. Just like, as a concept.
oooohh yes
@nocturnaldaydreamer ha chiesto: Oh no, realized this a little while ago... But MK is not only the son of the Monkey King, but is gonna be crowned a Celestial Prince. Red Son and MK better be careful, there might be some crazies out there trying to Courtnap him...
Red son will be hissing like a cat to anyone who tries to come closer
@leve4ever ha chiesto: If season 6 comes out will you make more shadowpeach bio parents au?
yeah why not.
@nomadiclegends ha chiesto: å››č€³å­«å°å¤© ...so is it pronounced "SƬ'ěr Sun XiĒŽotiān" ??? my mandarin's pretty weak sauce and I'm curious šŸ˜¶
yes
@this-one-gay-person ha chiesto: For the LMK bio parents au is there like a specific post schedules?
every other day at 1Pm ET
@anxiety-beans ha chiesto: I need you to know that this comic is what converted me into a Shadowpeach shipper. It altered my brain chemistry, I swear.
let's goooooooo
@bonbonfoxyton ha chiesto: A little late asking this buut I'm curious, how did courtnaping go between macaque and Wukong exactly? Is it okay if you'd explain it, it's a 100% okay if you don't want to since I read your boundaries thing and everything to make sure your good with this question
I'll let the fans picture how it happened
@cutvdo ha chiesto: Have you thought of putting your fan comics ISAT: Sky CotL AU and LMK: ShadowPeach Bio Parents AU, on a different website? like tapas
you can't publish fan-comics on Tapas
@the-immortal-restless ha chiesto: Do you think that Macaque or Wukongā€™s hair ever falls forward? Like MKs does on purpose because style but likeā€¦ Wukong and Macaque both have the longer fur so does it stay out of their face or does it fall forwards something in your au/opinion? (Petition for Wukong and Macaque to be Mukongā€¦ because if sun Wukong is swk then Mukong is MK!)
I think it could, maybe they use gel?
@wolfsbanex-x ha chiesto: KYRIII!!! Hello, I love your art so much. I just want to say that stream where you talked about motivation was very inspiring! I LOVE your comic so much, itā€™s been a shoulder for me whenever I have had a rough day. I hope you continue to gift us with even more amazing art (sorry if Iā€™m rambling here). YOU CAN DO THIS!!! WHOOO!!!!ā˜ŗļøšŸ„³
Thank you!!
@eneska31 ha chiesto: so we know when MK got his court napping thoughts, when did Redson get his? and can we see what happens in his POV in like a small comic at some point? p.s I absolutely love your art and this comic has brought me so much joy ā˜ŗļøšŸ’›šŸµ
After MK called him beautiful
@factmeegg ha chiesto: Okay question, When first made this fan comic or whatever. What were your thoughts on this when you first started up to now?
that it would have been a really short and silly thing
@mischiefmelody ha chiesto: Question! Will MK be in his monkey or human form for his coronation? Either way he'll be gorgeous but I wanna knowwwww
He'll be in monkey form
cherrummi ha chiesto: After reading the latest update, I made an animation, but apparently asks donā€™t support video sooo hereā€™s some key frames instead (Iā€™m going to post my full animation in my blog, so if youā€™re interested you could check it out): Also: Will something like this happen in the story? šŸ‘† How traditional is DBK and PIF would you say, comparing them to traditional human families? Could you give more insight on demon etiquette or courtnapping? Thank you so much for making art! Itā€™s incredible! ā¤ļø
uhh yeah in a way
they are very traditional, but they know when to put some traditions aside in sake of Red Son happiness
Courtnapping rooms are a must, old schools courtnapping usually last around a year but now days it's at best 2 weeks. The courtnapped person must consent and if not they can leave. The courtnapper must provide everything for their partner, including their hobbies, favourite food, family visits, etcā€¦ (it's basically a pre-dating very complex honeymoon
@huntershyperfixation ha chiesto: Your art is beautiful and the lmk fandom adores you ā˜†
ADFZBFD AGAER THANK YOU
@ithinkimprobablyweird ha chiesto: What is mk in the au? Like gay bi pan or something else?
Demisexual, trans masc, bi.
@cryptoknightpatch ha chiesto: Hi lol Iā€™m curious did you come up with the court-napping idea by yourself or was it actually anything referencing Jttw?
it's a fan headcanon of the LMK fandom
@axtonorian ha chiesto: First up, I LOVEE YOUR ART Its really fun to look at and aesthetically pleasing in my opinion. Second I know Wukong had/has nightmares about Mk but what about Mac? And even if it all worked out in the end would his nightmares about those two get worse after everything that just happened?
he sometimes dreams of hurting him. a lot of cuddles ensue everytime he wakes up with wukong close by
@jinxdrawsstuff ha chiesto: Hi Kyri! Just wanted to pop in real quick and say thank you for your Shadowpeach AU <3 itā€™s getting me through my first college year, every update makes my day a lot better!
you're welcome!
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celestie0 Ā· 5 months ago
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hi friends, i wonā€™t be posting or updating any of my works for an indefinite period n will be on hiatus from this blog as well.
iā€™ve unlisted kickoff & ihm on ao3 (havenā€™t deleted, theyā€™ve just been made private) and iā€™ve unpinned my masterlist here on tumblr (again nothingā€™s been deleted so you could probably find the chapters if you searched my tags)
but the reason i did that is because i donā€™t want any new readers finding my works during my hiatus because i donā€™t want to potentially upset more people in the event that, during this hiatus, i decide that i would no longer like to write my fics
that would be an insanely sad decision to make. i put so much thought into my stories not because i am trying to make them entertaining, but itā€™s because they genuinely mean so much to me and are cathartic in ways i canā€™t describe. i have spent a great majority of my life self negating for the sake of others, and so writing was just a form of expression where i could talk about all the things iā€™ve suppressed over the years - anxiety, career stress, financial stress, avoidance, depression, loss, coming of age, navigating love, etc
but lately, and i do think itā€™s been a build up of just some careless words from a handful of people over the months, i find myself steering towards a practice of writing that is no longer asking the question ā€œhow can i put as much of myself in this piece as possible?ā€ but rather ā€œhow can i make sure people wonā€™t criticize thisā€¦i feel awful that it doesnā€™t have what they want it to haveā€¦other creators are doing xyz, should i be doing that too?ā€¦iā€™m just scared to share thisā€
not exactly sure when that shift in headspace began, but as of right now, itā€™s as strong as ever. and i understand that those questions may seem irrational, and i just have to try to not focus on the feeling, n i wish i was someone that could compartmentalize those thoughts better, but hereā€™s the thing ā€” the whole reason i started expressing myself through writing in the first place was because iā€™ve spent my whole life compartmentalizing. it would feel so ironic & untrue to the lessons iā€™ve learned in this journey if i just chose to ā€œsuck this upā€ and continue pushing forward until i reach a point of burnout simply because i donā€™t want to upset anyone
iā€™m really sorry i couldnā€™t focus on the positive. especially with all the insane n incredible amount of love n support iā€™ve received for my works. iā€™ve said this time n time again but when i started posting kickoff to ao3 back in january of this year, i had NO idea it would be this loved by so many peopleā€¦i was like ok canā€™t wait to interact w these four readers for the rest of the yearā€¦and then BAM, i find myself fully sobbing after each chapter update because i was so touched by all the sweet n kind words. i donā€™t want this decision to come off in a way that makes it seems like i donā€™t love u guys sm or that iā€™m ungrateful ā€” iā€™ve always taken pride in respecting my audience. even for a simple hobby, i try to put effort into my works. i proofread, i plan out, i edit in length, all because i am, well, for one, iā€™m a bit of a perfectionist LOL but also i think thereā€™s a great deal of honor in respecting an audience that gives you their time n attention
but i already am struggling in my life to focus on the positive. medicine has been such an incredibly daunting career to pursue, iā€™m honestly only doing slightly better now because iā€™m just filled with relief that i got into med school to begin with lol itā€™s still surreal to me, so the stress has been kinda manageable so far on that sense of optimism, but dear god the shit i went through to get hereā€¦and the shit i know i still face ahead of me. i spend all of my serotonin on trying to stay positive in the face of my responsibilities. so all of this time iā€™ve spent trying to stay positive for the sake of my stories too has just left me with so much exhaustion ā€” i just donā€™t see why posting my works should be anything less than fun and endlessly exciting when itā€™s a hobby thatā€™s supposed to help me thru the actual brunt of life.
anyways, iā€™m getting a little carried away here. all this to say, i just need to take time away from posting my works so i can see writing as something for myself n not for others again. i donā€™t want the thoughts swimming in my head to be thoughts of anxiety over people potentially criticizing me n my creative decisions. i want the thoughts in my head to once again be positive, excited, and nurturing towards my stories. i donā€™t see how i can accomplish that at this point unless i start writing for myself once more, and not for others
i still have a great deal of passion to write, which is why i havenā€™t formally taken down my works. i anticipate that i may be able to come back in the future to share my writing again. but as of right now, i just want to heal the relationship that i have with this hobby, and i feel like thatā€™s gotta happen in private (lmfao it sounds like im tryna freak my writing)
iā€™m sorry that i turned off my asks n my replies, i know so many of u care about me n want to support me n i just am beyond thankful. i donā€™t anticipate this is a forever goodbye, but i do just need some time rn away from all of this.
hope u all have a happy time!! and take care of yourselves :) much love
- ellie
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scarletwinterxx Ā· 7 months ago
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Can you a idol jaehyun x non idol reader where reader gets jealous of jaehyun 's interaction with a idol so jaehyun tries to comfort her
a/n: hellooooo sorry this took awhile but i hope you like it! i don't play about when it comes to bf jaehyun fics HAHAH he's soooo boyfriend codedšŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ˜­
For my other works you can check them out here, and for my other story seriesā€™ you can check them out here.
and if you want, u can buy me coffee(totally optional but any donation is very much appreciated!) thank youšŸ„ŗšŸ’›
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The first thing Jaehyun noticed after rehearsal was the lack of message from you. Usually you'd text him after your day at work, something as simple as "on my way home" makes him smile. It's the thought that even though the two of you are apart, he's still a part of your day whenever you take your time to update him.
Your lives are the complete opposite. You live a very mundane life, probable the thing that makes your life so different is the fact that you're dating an idol. That idol being Jeong Jaehyun. THE Jeong Jaehyun.
Your love story started out way before his fame. It's funny to think that this man who looks like he was carved by the Gods and can only exists in your favorite fictional book happen to harbor a secret crush on you during your school days. It took a lot of time and courage for Jaehyun to approach you and confess his feelings but he's glad he did.
Now years later he's still in love with the same woman he fell in love with all those years ago.
If Jaehyun gives 110% to his idol career, he gives his 200% to you. You are the very reason he keeps going, the inspiration behind his craft.
And you, well safe to say you're his number 2 fan. You say that because you know his mom is the number one, and probably the only one you're willing to yield that position to.
Dating an idol of course you know all the precautions. The two of you never go out on broad daylight together, your dates mainly happen after a very long day at work. Or indoors. You love to cook, you love it even more when you're cooking with him.
Today was a particularly long day for Jaehyun, he had a fansign event then had a few hours of recording then rehearsals. He just wanted to go home to you.
Finally a little after midnight they called it a day, bidding a quick goodbye to his members before going to the car. All of them know about your relationship, even his managers and the company. You are Jaehyun's 'non-negotiable' as Jungwoo would tease the both of you.
He will always do his best at being an idol, he loves this job. But if he's being honest, he loves you more.
When he got to your apartment, the another thing he noticed was all the lights were off. Usually you'd be in the living room or in the kitchen. But then again it's past midnight so you're probably already sleeping.
He puts his bag down by the door before going to the kitchen to get some water before making his way to the bedroom. A light from the room across catches his attention though, the door slightly opened making his curiosity peak.
Jaehyun was surprised to see you still awake, sporting a very tired look. But in his eyes, you look beautiful.
"Hey, why are you still awake?" he asks, pushing the door wider catching your attention
It looked like you weren't expecting him to be here tonight, "Just working on something"
"Busy day at work? You didn't text me today" he tells you, still standing by the door way.
You rub the sleep off of your eyes, you are tired and it's been a very very long day. You're so stressed at work but the cherry on top was a picture you saw online.
Now most of the time you wouldn't let a silly tweet ruin your day. You're dating Jaehyun, you had to get used to the dating rumors and miliions of girls and guy simping over your boyfriend. All of that is background noise to you.
But some days it's a bit harder to ignore. Like today.
You saw a polaroid picture of him with a fan, it was from a fansign event. It looked cute and yes it did annoy you.
That annoyance brewed over the hours and now you're in a sour mood. You didn't even remember to text him when you went home today.
You're not sure who you're mad at, Jaehyun? for being so boyfriend material. The company? for making them do events like this or the fan? who just wanted to express their love for their idol.
Maybe you're annoyed at yourself for feeling this way.
At this rate you're at war with yourself.
"Love, you okay?" Jaehyun whispers, sauntering over to you. He cups your cheek in his hand, caressing your face so gently like he's afraid you might break right in front of him
"Just a long day"
"Talk to me, you know I'll listen"
He searches your eyes for answer, trying to figure out his favorite puzzle that is you. Even though it's been years since the two of you started dating, he loves learning more about you. What makes you laugh, what makes you cry, what makes you smile, what's your favorite food or color or time of the day.
You look straight into his eyes, searching also for something you will never find there. Indifference. All you can see is adoration and love and care that this man has for you.
Now you feel mad at yourself for doubting him for even a second.
"Now you're pouting. Talk to me, babygirl" he chuckles
"I just... There's this picture I saw online, of you and a fan. This polaroid event thing you got going on" you start to explain and immediately he smiles.
Now he knows why you're in a sour mood, it's adorable whenever you get jealous really because to Jaehyun even though he can have an arena, a stadium even, full of women screaming his name, he only ever want you.
"I don't know. It's stupid but it annoyed me and now my day's even worse-"
He cuts you off by leaning down to put his lips against your, effectively shushing you. It's a smart way, his favorite way, to cut your cute rants.
Jaehyun kisses you like he's telling you vows, but without words and only his lips and tongue. He kisses you like he's saying all the things you wanted to hear, assuring you, washing all your worries away. He kisses you until you're short of breath and a blushing mess.
When the two of you separate, he kisses you on both cheeks then the tip of your nose then on your forehead before he pulls you up from your seat.
"They can have the polariod pictures, you got the premium here" he tells you with a cheeky smile
"Oh yea, what's that?"
"Well to tell you Miss, you just won your self cuddles for tonight and the rest of your nights. And you got me, forever" he smiles, pulling you in his arms
"Sounds like jackpot to me"
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emperorundying Ā· 1 year ago
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TLT Dashboard Simulator- Pt 5
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šŸ’€ drearybruh Follow
10,000 y/o lyctor gf who exclusively calls me 'lovey': Ugh they're still debating the ethics of using cavaliers as a resource to suck dry, I can't deal with this empire today.
me [heard 'suck dry cavaliers' and got so hard i got nauseous]: I think I hauve devils in me
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šŸ« soulosexualll
omg guys im so sorry ive been MIA!!! the alexandrite id been talking about won custody over our baby so i had a bit of a crisis about my future on the fifth house alone and loved only by the spirits. and then of course i visit the third over vacation and get roped into a multi-week bender [have u ever snorted dried marrow? life changing] and then i was lost on the third for likeeeee four days and had to find my way back through hitchhiking and bartering with my own blood.
but i promise ill update my Joy/Patience/Duty threesome fic soon :333
#rpf #munposting #EEEEEEE GET EXCITED GUYS #joy strap time? joy strap time.... #i see ur messages in the askbox and i super appreciate them btw but i cant justify answering all of them #BUT I SEE U AND I LOVE U &lt;33
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šŸ¦“ skeletal-system-bracket
SKELETAL SYSTEM BRACKET ROUND 3 GROUP A
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We had two ties last round [within a margin of error of .1%!!] , so we decided it would make the most sense to make this a four-way poll. Propaganda:
Occipital Bone: do you want an unprotected cerebellum??? the infernal surface is groovy af, and all the nuchal lines are actually goated. are u seriously going to look me in the eyes and tell me the three-part bone of all time [father son and holy spirit, anyone?] can even be stepped to by some normie basic bone shit???????? cmon..... [via. @skullfuckbonegod]
Fibula: VOTE FIBULA!!!! bone with a best friend <3 Tibia already got out round 1 so its ur legal duty to stand up for its legbestie... also my hounds r named Fibula and Tibia and theyre adorbsies [via. @sodiumradiation]
Thoracic Vertibrae: twelve bones. twelve bones, one combined goal: fuck shit up, take names, keep that back backing. least commonly injured part of the spine for a reason. its built different. this shit protects ur spinal cord, provides attachments to your ribs, supports your chest and abdomen, and literally lets yr body move. objective best bones. [via. @ithinkthereforisam]
Scalpula: Scapula sweep!! Those are your angel wings. Watching your Cavs shoulder blades move under their skin while they carry a big sword is the best part of being a necro. They're also just such a good plane of bone they're perfect for breaking up into little pieces for bone adepts to store in their pockets. Also the attachment point for a bunch of muscles!!and the yummy little joint cavityā€¦ [via. @kavkisser]
#polls #tumblr polls #skeletal system #tibia #fibula #vertebrae #scalpula
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šŸ“· devoutofmymind Follow
ARE YOU GUYS SERIOUS WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE EMPEROR HASN'T COMMENTED ON HIS FIRST AND SECOND'S SAINTS DISAPPEARANCES
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For my Edenite followers this is like if gun disappeared
#ARE THEY DEAD??? #Bro r we upping the fascism factor #STAFF THAT TAG IS A JOKE. I WOULD NEVER DREAM OF INSURGENCY
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šŸ«€ gorewanker Follow
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I swear they're like the septum piercing havers of cavaliering šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­
šŸ¦€ xx-0ct0g0ne-xx Follow
Ah. So you're unable to handle the pressures which are expected of the average Eighth House devotee, and as such, fall back upon insecure insults. Get a life + Praying for you + L.
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šŸ‘¤ boobmonger-deactivated-2917220
holy shit tower prince announcement this is crazy. liveblog time
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TRANSMASC AWE??????????
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šŸ¦· bitingyoubitingyoubitingyoubitingyoux3 Follow
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ā˜ ļø is-the-emperor-undying-d34d-yet Follow
NOT YET BUT WE ALWAYS COME BACK
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winwintea Ā· 1 month ago
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SELLING MY MOOTIES <33
ib: @https-lvesick šŸ«¶
guys iā€™m very possessive i either sell you for a potato chip or never let you go okay just warning you in advance
AQUA - @aquaphoenixz
pros: heā€™s canadian (+10000 aura) / very soft literally so adorable / <- gets super flustered when you call him adorable / also will fight and defend you when needed / he listens to all your yaps / literally my husband / will buy you stuff ????? pls donā€™t ???? / big exol / but you can convert him to any other group
cons: you have to go through me to get to him (i can also fight) / inner entp makes him a bit stubborn / iā€™m trying to list off cons so you donā€™t want him but i genuinely canā€™t think of anything
price: you thought. šŸ˜”šŸ˜” heā€™s not for sale thanks
LOLA - @https-lvesick
pros: iā€™m trying to think. good fics i guess makes me horny šŸ˜”
cons: she hates me. SHE THINKS Iā€™M WORTH 1 DOLLAR BITHC THE FUCK YOU AINT EVEN WORTH A POTATO CHIP Iā€™D SELL YOU FOR / a bitch. šŸ˜”
price: 1 gum wrapper. i also need mental compensation.
ELLIE - @jirsungs
pros: gegorgeoyes / literally so sweet / can do no wrong trust
cons: will ghost you but she got finals to ace so itā€™s okay / pls update / jk i have no complaints
price: 1 million usd (not letting u go without a price smh)
LYVHIE - @lyvhie
pros: always down to play roblox fr šŸ˜‹ (or any games) / will let you traumatize her / sends you random reels and says ā€œthatā€™s youā€ / good with kids / listens to your yaps / very respectful to my cock
cons: sucky artistā€¦ / sometimes the reels are kinda foul / hates #1, believes #0 is better than #1???? / disappears and then comes back randomly
price: 127 元
HUA - @polarisjisung
pros: loves your yaps <3 / PARK JISUNG IRL / comes with cats / LITERALLY SMARTEST PERSON I KNOW ??? (goes to a crazy good school) / almost got kidnapped probably but sheā€™s too powerful for this world / excellent music taste
cons: cats are probably a better deal lowkey just take the cats
price: park jisung
STARCH - @syatchy
pros: literally a cat / SO FUNNY will make you laugh / very pretty / and cute ofc / stardew valley <33 / kinda richā€¦ šŸ˜‹šŸ˜‹ / australian šŸ¤— / peak music taste / slowly getting converted into kpop stan (shhh donā€™t tell them) / big yapper
cons: oddly hornyā€¦ very often but itā€™s okay me too / awake at interesting hours / no sleep schedule / i fell in love with an emo gurl šŸ˜” / will describe in depth and detail how ftm and mtf surgery works
price: 20 cats
VIA - @viasdreams
pros: very silly and fun to have conversations with / probably loaded how else she gonna afford all those pcs (spoil me pls) / angst bestie / šŸ¤ šŸ¤ šŸ¤  / neo neo
cons: hatsune miku lover in 2025 /j / weird kid turnedā€¦ weird kid? / have to take a deep breath everytime i read one of her fics / lowkey these cons can be pros too if youā€™re into that
price: her entire pc collection
NAYU - @yutarot
pros: you get fic spoilers šŸ˜š / šŸ¤ gives followers trauma and trust issues / itā€™s THE YUTAROT / literally a god / FEMALE ENTP I LOVE YOU
cons: none.
price: yuta nakamoto
KIWI - @wonbin-truther
pros: very very creative / super down bad for gong yoo (me too bestie) / literally a baddie okay / very very chaotic (in a good way) / keeps you on your toes
cons: will randomly message you at 12 am with ā€œWAKE UPā€ damn girl chill /j ily / frat party girl šŸ™€ / crashes out a lot pls take care of yourself / smaus make me wanna kms sometimes but theyā€™re lowkey fire anyways
price: $420,690 + 127 packs of ramen i need to pay my college tuition thanks
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iid-smile Ā· 1 month ago
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hi... rhis might sound really random?? but ill be going on an indefinite hiatus. nothing bad is going on except studying and lack of inspo... just lost my love for writing, thats all.
(if u wanna know more which i doubt u can look in the read more... its really long + a bit at the beginning for moots so you dont have to scroll down) (this is unbelievably long)
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to all of my moots, even those who i dont engage with as much, this might sound a little weird/creepy but i do check your blogs when i have the time. even if its just checking if youve updated and im just like "ooo so and so was here earlier" or "[insert moots/other blogs] are interacting! how fun" call it nosy but im just really interested in seeing you guys active lol
i may not directly say so, but i get worried when there isnt an update for a while... like i get worried when youre not here and i wish you the best, and im happy when you reappear again. sometimes i only have the time to skim through my following and like the most recent post, but i want to show that i see you all <3 its kind of embarrassing how upset i get when i see everyone is awake when im asleep and it feels a little late to compliment a new theme change when i didnt notice it earlier
i try to go into askboxes when i can (scary because i want to interact but idk what to say) and i guess some times ive been ignored...? thats okay! like i get it but i kinda dont... we're not just moots for the fb because followers arent that important to me. even for moots that dont mainly write for a fandom im in i do try to check for one that i can read and understand! (even trying to get into hq now bc a lot of my newer ones are into it judging by what i see on the dash) now that i think about it i really couldve just gone to the masterlists so thats my fault..
im not saying i expect frequent interactions because im more than happy just being moots in the first place, but im trying to say that new and old moots, i do love you guys and i want the best for you. it doesnt matter how close we are or if theres barely any interactions, i dont want you to feel stress or pressure and you should live good lives! šŸ’— im happy that we managed to meet on this huge platform! šŸ«¶šŸ«¶šŸ«¶
(i really hope this didnt come off wrong because i dont dislike any of you at all! i think it sounds like im complaining but i just want friends and its personally difficult for me both just me as a person and because of timezones šŸ˜­)
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ANYWAYS THE MAIN PART
i dont mean to blame any of you, but its kind of pressuring asking for a part two. like, it is flattering trust me, because it means you enjoy the work and want more. for some its probably obvious what fic im talking about but when theres already 50+ comments asking for a part two, and you add more onto that, it feels more like an obligation to do so. im sure i can see that theres many comments asking when the next part is, so dogpiling on top of it is just not a great feeling as a writer.
i think some people forget that writers write in their free time. its not a job and theres not really much satisfaction you can get out of it except knowing that theres people who love what you write. there are moments where i write a lot, and like right now, im not writing at all. i cant force myself to no matter how much i know i need to write, because then the result is unsatisfactory. this happens every time i try to do an event and i feel SO bad because youre probably so excited to receive work born from your own idea and im just not doing it??
i want you guys to enjoy what i write, but i only want to put out the best quality. on multiple occasions, even with no pressure, i feel like ive completely messed up something ive written because of my own standards. the more followers you accumulate, the better the writing should be, right? or thats what im thinking for myself... if i get embarrassed when i see somebodys liked it, then clearly i havent done well enough to consider it to be good. ive deleted many of my works if you havent noticed. the wbk ones are still up i think but i just dont think theyre good enough to be on my mlist.
ive never really mentioned engagement before... and i know im guity of it as well, but i do make an effort to. im not saying you have to reblog everything you read, but even just the occasional one that you really love, which is what i do. i havent gotten around to making a reblog sideblog just yet because i dont have the time, but just know that if i did, every fic that i like would have a reblog as well. followers and likes arent as important to me as reading or acknowledging that people want to share my work.
i dont feel as proud of my more liked fics compared to this one for example (even tho its one of my most popular bllk works but u get the point). it makes me sm happier just seeing a little comment or tag in the reblogs. its funny, and i actually did smile every time, because i really wasnt expecting people to like it that much or even get comments at all
please dont feel bad if you havent been engaging like this! im not ungrateful. we've all been there, and youre already doing good showing some form of appreciation by liking it. im glad that my hard work and improvement over six months has led me to this point.
and another thing, telling me to off myself really isnt as motivating as you think, even as a joke.
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bluestjayy Ā· 4 months ago
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fck stop begging for comments on here all the damn time. i did like u as a writer but its getting so pathetic and annoying now jus begging constantly. Ur writing isn't that good for getting tonnes of comments anyway half the time Ur dragging plots and characters r so uninteresting probs coz Ur on here begging instead of writing properly. every update feels rushed lately it shows u don't even care anymore. just stop begging and focus on updating instead that's all pppl want
Hey anon, I normally don't respond to rude asks like these because I think what you want is the attention.
I especially don't usually respond to asks that have, in any way, anything to do with begging or demanding I update my fics (and I have seen an uptick in those in recent months) but I'm gonna respond to this one, and by proxy, all the others currently sitting unread in my inbox, and any future asks of this nature that may come my way.
Buckle in, this is a long one.
First, I'm going to assume by 'begging for comments' you mean the few posts I have been reblogging over the past couple of days that encourage readers on AO3 to engage with authors by leaving positive and thoughtful comments, and discouraging them from making unreasonable and impersonal demands. If this is the case then I would like to clarify that I am not 'begging for comments', rather I am supporting a community of writers like myself who are actual human beings who take several hours, days, even weeks, out of our very real lives in order to make something and share it with the world and for some reason are beginning to see a trend of entitlement slowly growing across our comment sections. A trend we wish to nip in the bud because, as I previously pointed out, fanfiction authors are real life human beings, taking time out of their days to make something, not machines on a factory line that churn out content at the behest of someone's demands. We want our fandoms and communities to be safe, supportive spaces where we can have fun. We don't want them to become workloads that begin to feel like full time jobs.
Secondly, to say my writing isn't all that good but in the same message tell me to update? Wild my guy. Truly. But let's keep breaking down AO3 comments/kudos/general feedback (such as this delightful ask you sent my way, I guess hoping it would make me want to update??) from readers and how this can affect an authors updates, this time using one of my favourite metaphors for this type of thing and see if it helps:
AO3 is a potluck. It's a backyard party. There is a veritable buffet at this party. My fic is the cake I baked myself to bring for all my friends to eat. One of my other friends brought potato salad. Another friend brought the punch. Everyone who is at this fun get-together brought something to offer at the buffet table.
Now, I might not like potato salad, but you know what I'm not going to do? Tell my friend to her face that her potato salad sucks and she never should have brought it. I'm going to politely pass on eating it, and be glad that all the people at the party who do like potato salad have something to eat. In the same vein, not everyone is going to like my cake, maybe the flavour is wrong, maybe I used too much icing, maybe they just don't like cake. But that's fine, they don't have to eat my cake. But if you choose to eat my cake, and find you don't like the flavour after taking a bite, then the polite thing to do is quietly stop eating the cake, and go and find something else to eat.
Do not seek me out and tell me to my face everything that was wrong with my cake, and why you don't enjoy it. Do not tell me to my face, that my cake sucks and you wish I'd never brought it.
Do you think telling someone that you hate the way they made a cake is a good and productive way to get them to keep making cakes for you? Or perhaps, is the way to keep an amateur baker wanting to bake, to tell them what you enjoyed about their cake. Even a simple, 'I really liked this cake' goes a long way.
And if you do like my cake, if you love my cake actually, do not then follow me home from the party and start demanding I make you cake all the time. I don't always have time to make cakes.
And just to cover all of my bases, because I am also seeing a trend of folk who think that sharing fanfiction online is the same as submitting manuscripts to publishers and that therefore criticism is allowed. It's not.
To continue to beat this cake metaphor. This is the difference between taking my cake to a party with friends (AO3) and taking my cake onto the Great British Bake off (A professional publishing environment).
If I wanted constructive criticism on my cake, I'd seek it out from expert bakers who know what they're talking about.
No one goes to a friend's party with a cake they made and wants to hear what they're doing wrong. Unless explicitly asked, keep your criticisms to yourself and put the cake down if you don't like it. It's so very easy to not eat a cake if you hate how it tastes.
Finally, a combination of both the points above, really, but I cannot stress this enough. These usernames you're sending anonymous asks to? The handles on AO3 you're writing comments for? They're people. They are human fucking beings that deserve respect and kindness. I am a human being. And sending what you sent up there to another person over fanfiction?? That's just mean, friend. That's just out and out cruelty. I have no other words to describe that.
I could give a flying fuck if you think I'm begging for comments. I could care less you wanna say my writing is terrible. At the end of the day, my writing is mine and I'm going to keep doing it because I find writing fun. It's a hobby that helps me de-stress from the horrors of my real life situations. Frankly, you should be begging me to stop because I have no plans to do anything but keep inflicting my drawn out plots and bad character writing on the world for as long as it keeps making me happy.
But I beg you to take a second off of social media today and think over what makes fandom- something that should be a hobby, a safe place to escape from the world- this serious for you. Because the kicker in all this? My friend, if you think what I post is annoying and my writing is bad, you can not see it. You can block me. You can click away from my stories. Your online space is yours to curate and no one, literally not a single person, is making you engage with things you don't want to engage with. Curate your space, fill it with people who aren't 'begging for comments', fill it with fics you think are really good and deserve to be told how good they are through wonderful comments. Please, I am begging you, because at the end of the day to live in such negativity must be so exhausting for you.
I've no idea if you, the original sender of this message will even read through all of this, but if you did, please, if not me, then any other fandom creators you come across going forward. Please treat them with kindness. Please respect that sometimes fandoms are spaces people hide in when their real lives are scary and frustrating and negative enough and all you do with messages like these is drive people away.
TL;DR: this is not the way you get more updates from fic authors, and further from that, it's not the way you treat anyone. Ever. Do better. Do much better.
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baekhyunsbestie Ā· 15 days ago
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hi hi hiiii lil update :')
soooo i've been working on a few things n wanted to keep u kittens in the loop hehe:
ā€” s&v pt. 4 ā€” photographer!baekhyun pt. 2 ā€” isekai fic w/ nerdy virgin!baek ā€” loverboy (a 4-part series) ā€” one night stand w/ baek that leads to pregnancy ā€” playboy!baekhyun x man-eater!reader fic ā€” another smutty exo scenario :') i'm so excited about this one, i think it'll b my next update!!!
i also have a few lil drabbles that i have in q that have been rotting in my drafts for literal months lol. plus iā€™m still working through some requests from you cutie nonnies!!!! so iā€™ll be getting to those in between! my inbox is open for thirsts & reqs as long as yā€™all are okay with a bit of a wait (like a couple weeks max) by the time i get to them.
alsooooo i just wanna say that iā€™m so, so, soooo thankful for everyone who reads, comments, reblogs, and likes my works. u guys make me so insanely happy fr and seeing ur thoughts in the comments literally fuels my will to live LMAO it makes writing feel so much more rewarding and i appreciate it more than i can put into words!!!!! :')
k bye love u guys hope the start of ur week has been amaaaaazzzzzinnngggg šŸ’—šŸ’˜šŸ’–šŸ’–šŸ’˜šŸ’—šŸ’—šŸ’˜šŸ’žšŸ’–šŸ’˜šŸ’–šŸ’“šŸ’–šŸ’—šŸ’˜
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gimmemore14 Ā· 6 months ago
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šŸ’–šŸ’šŸ’āœØā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøāœØšŸ’šŸ’šŸ’–
these are for u. just wanted to tell u that youā€™re fics are amazing~ i recently just got back into dcu and your bitw fic was the first that was recommended to me and then i had to read ur other works too. hope u update soon, no rush iā€™m just really hyped up on this newest hyper-fixation. pls pls pls let me know if u have any fic recs or tumblrs u think i should follow i would really appreciate it. iā€™m arting again and i wanna draw something for ur fic, but i wanted to check first to make sure it was okay to send u fanart and ask how u usually get it sent to you
šŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ„ŗšŸ’œšŸ’œšŸ’œ
Recommended?!? Ahhhh! That makes me feel good, Iā€™m glad youā€™re enjoying it!! Man I also wanna update soon too! Itā€™s slow going, BUT it IS going hahahah
I would love it if you drew something for/from my fic, honestly itā€™s the highest compliment!!! Makes me kick my feet up and giggle šŸ˜‚ I would encourage you to post it on here and tag me in it so not only can I see but also so others can too! If you arenā€™t comfortable doing that Iā€™d still love if you private message me a drawing or if you just wanted to talk too! I donā€™t bite unless asked to hahah
Oooo Recs, I got a LOT of those, Iā€™ll try to contain myself though:
@thesubtextis ā€”conquered by love
Ongoing, one of my absolute favorites, it balances Slade being super menacing but still oddly kind/considerate despite the terrible circumstances and monster he must be
@caroaimezoe ā€”Rude
I LOVE fics where Bruce is absolutely abnormal and unhinged and possessive about Dick!!
@zeroducks-2 ā€”Sladick connected fics
Ongoing, Sladick connected fics my beloved šŸ˜­ā¤ļø love basically everything they write, SUCH good dynamics
@hii-theree ā€”Rough callouses and sharp claws
Ongoing, nicer guy than usual Slade, hes still kinda a dick of course and doesnā€™t know Dick is Nightwing during a hostage situation šŸ”„
@withthekeyisking-writer ā€”A loaded god complex
The emotion and character work is PEAK in this plus their other works are dark and smutty and great
@green-eyedfirework ā€”virtue is truest nobility
Too many good ones to choose tbh, also posts lots of awesome snippets on here that can lead to some fun plot bunnies
@skalidra ā€”feel it in my bones
Ongoing, bad guys win scenario that hits every time (they have SO many great ones though, sladick and jaydick and sladjay and sladickjay galore)
@wingdingery ā€”all of the fire Iā€™ve swallowed
Dick is self sacrificing and clever but oblivious, Slade is arrogant and scheming and unexpectantly merciful, *chefs kiss*
@everydarkcorner ā€”Bitch and moan and bite down into me (one ongoing and one completed)
Love their all their writing, canā€™t go wrong, their Slade is one of my favorites to read, possessive and obsessive and deliciously dark
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theloveinc Ā· 7 months ago
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FICS FOR GAZA: theloveinc's sponsor a WIP!
joining (i hope) @ficsforgaza's amazing project for those looking for a way to aid vetted fundraisers for palestine (i will also accept donations to vetted resources for sudan or congo). thank you for giving this post a look!
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INSTRUCTIONS: please donate to a vetted fundraiser and send me an ask or DM with a screenshot of your proof of donation (please private your personal information outside of the necessary) and the WIP you'd like your contribution to sponsor!
example: hello! i'm interested in sponsoring your toji x reader wip!here is my proof of donation for (chosen fundraiser), thank you! (please include/attach a photo of proof which includes the date)
RATE: $2 per approx. 100 words!
NOTE: all donation screenshots provided to me will be sent to @ficsforgaza for fund tracking purposes and to ensure that donation screenshots are not being reused.
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WIPS - updated aug. 13, 2024 - i am happy to discuss anything specific you'd like to see included!
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[JJK] toji x reader - on raising a single fatherā€™s kids and maybe sleeping with the guy, too? (a continuation of this concept!) (NSFW)
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current wc: 1.2k of approx 2.5k words
donated: 0/1.3k words
progress: 0/1.3k words
TAGS: single father!toji, stepmom-ish!reader, megumi and tsumiki are his/your babies, birthday party type event for baby gumi... toji thanks you for setting things up by blowing your back out.
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[GACHIAKUTA] enjin x reader - we donā€™t go to bed angry here (NSFW)
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current wc: 400 of approx. 2k words
donated: 0/1.5k words
progress: 0/1.5k words
TAGS: generic make-up fingering yay!
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[BNHA] barbarian!bakugo x pregnant!reader - a lonely bachelorā€™s stray wife (concept here!)
choose your prompt:
prologue: he finds you
settling down: (epic fail)
after birth: baby is finally here!
running away: you're leaving (or so you think).
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current wc: 400 of approx. 5-6k words (1.5k each prompt)
donated: 0/5-6k words
progress: (prologue: 400/1.5k)
TAGS: DARK/SERIOUS THEMES, strangers to lovers-ish, violence, mentions of prior sexual assault (not by kat), mentions of death, you don't want to be there, you don't even want your baby, barb!katsuki is paying his long overdue karma by trying to make you his family, you're confused, he's f*cking confused LOL???
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[WIND BREAKER] multiple x abused!reader - (concept here!)
choose your prompt:
prologue: panic attack at the ori, two timing with bofurin
jo togame: chores at the ori, bleaching hisā€¦ bright orange jacket?!
sugishita: play nurse, do hair
endo/chika: they surprise themselves by not even being mad
(want someone who isn't listed? just ask and we can discuss a prompt!)
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current wc: 250 of approx. 8k words (2k each prompt)
donated: 0/8k words
progress: (prologue: 250/2k)
TAGS: DARK/SERIOUS CONTENT, hurt/comfort, talk of violence/injuries, domestic abuse, you're escaping your marriage, trying to make your own by work for both shishitoren and bofurin without the other knowing, not that they'd care but you don't know that, youre a mess and were told a lot of lies, essentially you're just hanging out trying not to let the trauma get you around all these violent boys lol!, even if they just want to protect u :(
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kiryoutann Ā· 3 months ago
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WIPs UPDATES!
okay,,, i'm just gonna give everyone a quick update on two main things i'm working on: EX PROBLEM and chapter 12 of A MAN'S HEART IS TRULY A WRETCHED, WRETCHED THING.
starting with EX PROBLEM...
currently working on chapter 3. and im stuck.
i imagine the fic would probably have around 5-7 chapters.
there's gonna be um,, some.. wriothesley x fem! reader stuff.
^ i honestly don't know how far should MC go for him actually, like.. are they just gonna kiss? or they're gonna do more? idk pls lemme know what u want. it's a possibility that they're gonna do more.
^ and idk if this is a good news or not cause i know there are people who strictly wants to just be with ajax and ajax only, but i swear guys it's gonna be fun. maybe
like, if you want some angry sex, u gotta make ajax so so fucking angry and he's not gonna be too angry just bcs you give another guy a kiss on the lips right...
i want to give him aneurysm of his life.
EX PROBLEM is probably gonna be released around december or january OR february. if everything is going good, and normal, and nothing happens to me.
so if you're religious, pls pray so i wont have writer's block or demotivated or some fanfic-author canon events happening irl.
love ya u extra mega patient people.
THEN, MOVING ON... A MAN'S HEART IS TRULY A WRETCHED, WRETCHED THING.
YAAYY, chapter 12 is... almost finished.
i got the outlines for the few last part ready so,, i just need some days to finally finish it and proofread it.
i thought about splitting it into parts, cause there's lots of things happening here but... hmmm, i just want to keep the series short and as much as i like to torture my readers with cliffhangers, i decided to be nice about it and just put it in one chapter. hope it wont overwhelm you all tho<3
^ another reason for this is so the next chapter will start with those heavy feelings that we've accumulated in the previous one.
and tbh, i'm really nervous abt this one cause i want it to be PERFECT, i want it to hit you in the right places.
to summarize everything happening in chapter 12, MC gonna be spiraling throughout the whole chapter.
still not sure when to post this tho. probably at the end of next week, or maybe after new year!!
OKAY, i think that's all. i'm open to any suggestions, open to any theory discussion n stuff. love ya. stay healthy n happy everyone<3
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twisted-tales-told Ā· 2 months ago
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Thank you @thisliminalspacedaydreams and @otrtbs (and also @whorerific who's doing this with me) for tagging me in:
Author Interview
How many works on ao3: Thirteen! Three are WIPS and 2 are Active WIPs
How many words on ao3: 89,218
Top 5 stories by Kudos
In Our Midst
My Jamie
A Hearts Bruising
The Grand Opening
On Bookshops and Cupcakes <-first ever fic btw
Do you respond to comments? Fuck yeah I do! As long as they're nice!
What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending? When you Wake up is Pathetically angsty
Do you write crossovers? More putting characters from one story into the universe of another story. Maybe a few cameo's.
Have you ever recieved hate before on a fic?
People ask me sometimes to expand on my one-shots. Also In Our Midst hasn't been updated since like July. People want more of her & I am literally working on the next chapter as fast as I can. U don't understand how big she is.
Do you write smut? Two future WIPs will have explicit tags
Have you ever had your fics stolen? Yeah my pandalily duology makes it onto wattpad sometimes. It makes me feel bad.
Have you ever co-written a fic before? I don't really play well with others in creative projects, or any kind of projects...I am not a team player. I do things on my own timeline and how I want to do them, and I have learned to love this about myself in recent months but it was rough going there for awhile guys!
What's your favourite ship of all time. Don't make me do this please don't make me do this. I have so many u don't understand. I have. So Many. I am a multifandom girlie to my Core. Like Kara/Lena from supergirl has been haunting me recently. All aftg dynamics you can think of (unless nicky is there. nicky belongs with his german guy only thanks). Jegulus, Dorlily, Jason/Dick, Jason/Tim. Timkon. Cass/Steph, Superbat, Lex/Clark (smallville edition) [redacted stranger things ship], percabeth, Nico/Will, like I could go on. Newtmas, Birdflash, Korra/Assami, Morgana/Gwen, Morgana/that blonde girl they made her sister because they're pussies. Merlin/Gwaine is a big one. Like I can't name one they all tumble out of me. Rhy's/his pirate boyfriend im too tired to name in Darker Shade Of Magic. Nick/Bree/Sel from Legendborn. McGonagall/Pomfry also. I have a whole war au for them in a draft somwhere. I need to stop.
Have you ever had a fic translated: no, but feel free as long as it goes on ao3 or that russian ao3.
Whats a wip you want to finish but don't think you ever will? Mercy Be is dead until I have a Supernatural and Hungergames Renaissance at the same time.
What are your writing strengths? I think I really know how to make time flow. I know how to create a Vibe. An Energy. I know how to build a character.
What are your writing weaknesses? Continuity. If I didn't have to make this make sense it would be so much easier.
What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages? LOVE it! Unfortunately Im scared of looking stupid to people who speak those languages.
What's a fandom/Ship you haven't written for but want to? I would love to write some DC fics. It took me about a year in the marauders fandom to start writing for them, I assume it'll take me about the same for DC. Probably write a silly little camping one-shot...it'll become something maybe
What's your favourite fic you've ever written? My lowest ever kudo'd one actually. Ghosts Of Us, Mary centric, Marylene and Marylily. background prongsfoot, wolfstar and Jegulus (trust me it makes sense). I want to go back to her. Flesh her out even more. Make her 100k one day.
Done! No pressure tags @cr-amber @sophsicle @residentrookie and anyone else who wants to! Im just sleepy. need to stop to sleep.
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screampied Ā· 2 months ago
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hey pookie, i wanna share one of bf and i's reading sessions with u and the rest of squirt nation(i have his consent, girlie pops!) HEHEHEHEHE
we just finished rereading your very fire very bomb very cunt very giving sugar daddy!gojo series and we focused mainly on bubble pop electric and bon appetit, baby bc those r our faves and GAHAHAHA when i tell u i had this man panting, heaving, WHIMPERING like CerberosVA....
girlie pop..... lemme tell you, i felt powerful as a mfšŸ’€ im doing good tho myselfā˜ŗ im actually abt to make smth to eat since my big whiny mess of a man is currently catching his breath and spaced out LMAO
ā€”cheeky reading sesh anonį•™ā (ā ā ā ā€¢ā ā ā€æā ā ā€¢ā ā ā )ā į•—
HIIII MY LUV !!!! šŸ˜
ahhhh thank u guys so much !!!! i thought the next update was gonna be this month but h-haha i fear life had other plans. also im just idk ā€¦ stuck, like i have one plot i wanna do where sd! gojo introduces us to his diva ex wife then blah blah drama, tension, but then someone brought up to me sugar daddy! nanami and my brain short circuited oh heā€™d spoil us so good. pls my mind is all over the place. but I DUNNO i got a lot of thinking to do šŸ§Œ. i want that to be my neeext fic, weā€™ll see if i follow through bc truuuust i havenā€™t forgotten about him.
oh iā€™m so glad šŸ™‚ā€ā†•ļøšŸ™‚ā€ā†•ļø. did you just say ā€¦ cerebrosva oh u have taste. their audios >>> top tier, especially the whimpers AHH. but again THANK YEWWWWW, iā€™ll tell sd gojo youā€™re thinkin of him <33
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celestie0 Ā· 11 months ago
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a note on asking for updates
hellooo im sorry to have to make this post but iā€™ve been getting quite a few asks recently that have been asking me to update for kickoff and i just want to share that i donā€™t really enjoy receiving those sorts of asks :ā€ā€) it is a part of my blogā€™s rules to not ask for updates, and itā€™s also stated that i donā€™t have any update schedule for my fics, but i will try to make this a bit more clear in the following:
please do not ask me when i will be uploading chapters, iā€™ve got no clue
please do not ask me if iā€™m done with chapters or for my progress on them
please do not tell me or demand me to update (yes even saying ā€˜pleaseā€™ still feels like a demand for updates to me)
iā€™ve talked about this briefly on my blog before, but receiving these sorts of asks is upsetting for me n tend to make me anxious about my writing process. it takes me hours of my own personal time to write chapters, but it feels very shallow n disheartening to receive asks such as ā€œupdate pls bc i canā€™t waitā€ā€¦
my simple answer to any of those asks is
iā€™ve got no clue when i will update! i try not to give estimates bc deadlines or trying to stick to a schedule will only give me writerā€™s block n anxiety. the only time iā€™ll give a direct estimate is when iā€™ve officially queued a chapter. while iā€™d be flattered to hear youā€™re looking forward to updates, i donā€™t find it kind when ppl pressure me for them.
now if youā€™re wondering ā€œi donā€™t think iā€™ve seen other authors have an issue with this tho šŸ¤”ā€ i really canā€™t explain why i feel pressured by these sorts of asks, but itā€™s just how i feel and so therefore itā€™s valid.
anyways, thank you for your continued patience!! i love interacting w everyone sm and the asks ive been recieving lately have been so lovely n motivational n some have brought me to legit tears i love u guys lots :ā€) just wanted to bring this specific rule up again because i know iā€™ve gotten new readers recently, and this rule is really important to me for my blog. thank you!!
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