#and i thik thats beautiful

[rebelliouslyeverafter]

 honestly, i think an interesting way to have Rosabella and Briar’s relationship would be something like Lizzie and Lydia from The Lizzie Bennet Diaries. Rosabella as someone who means really well and wants to help with advice, but comes off as judgy towards Briar, who she knows is dealing w stuff but prefers to just brush Rosa off and teases her for being nerdy. Briar, meanwhile, uses her party girl act to cope w destiny and has trouble opening up about it. We know she also doesn’t like being seen as just the party girl, which makes her defensive.

[nothowitsupposedtobe]

When I am dead

pls play any song or more from 'Garth Stevenson'. This will set the mood and no idiot needs to show of his impressive but still not great piano skills. (Sorry guys but it is just not the same as Garth) And then when my urn gets dragged to my grave I want the song 'Angels may' by 'Dan Reeder'. This will be the only song with a singer but it will give hope and it will have this deep simplicity that will just fit. I want everyone to listen to the song! Also I want a weeping willow tree planted on my grave. It will last, is beautiful and gives something to the world. I dont like tulpes or canled on graves. They are ugly as fuck. I think thik is all possible. At least I hope so. But to make things clear when I am dead I will be a narcisstic piece of shit because I am and here is why. On my bright blue chucks is a sentence. Ever thought about quoting me in your speech at my funeral? No? You should do it. Do something special and no the 0815 speech everyone gets. I know ya'll loved me. You will remember me. blah blah blah. Heard it already. Dig into my social media! Dig into my room! Dig through my life! I am dead! What am I supposed to do?! Kill you?! haha. Well beside tumblr I have Instagram and twitter. Reditt too but not long so we will ses if it contains something deep about me when I am gone. Sometimes I do post stuff like the real meaning of my tattoo on there. Take this and use it in your speech. What do you think of my tattoo now bizz?! Tell them! Or tell them the memory of me where I did this one thing and for some reason it stuck in your head. Why us this stuck there? What did I do?! Be creative! Bring everyone to tears if they not already are! On my shoe there is this sentence "I want them to cry like they never did before." Its true. Like this is a hell to of honesty. When I am dead I want everyone to realize what they lost with my death! I want them to be sobbing on the ground. I want them to suffer! And I know this is narcissistic but after my death I will be and you need to be cool with that. I mean I am dead right? But dont get me wrong. I dont want to be a bad person. This sentence means that I need to try my very best in anything. Trying to keep my cool. Not judging people. Bring feelings where there need to be and be rational if needed. Be there for people at any time even if you hate them or they hate you because when you are dead and they hear this... they maybe hopefully think about the time you gave them a sheet of paper in school even if they were an asshole. And they will ask themselfes why and why you did this until they realize that you didnt lose hope on them. You really honestly tried to see through this shitty wall they have build and you saw their suffering. Yes I am talking about you Jafaar but I actually dont think that you will hear from my death. You need to be nice and not just pretend. You need to be nice as fuck bizz!!! Everyone else needs to come first because a) it kind of doesnt work to put themselfes first and b) I wanted to die anyways so it would be otherwise a waste of time lol. What I wanted to say is that I always imagine that every person I meet gets a little piece of me and then they gather around on my funeral. This is why it is so god damned important to find like EVERYONE to come. And then all the pieces get together and everyone is even more shocked because nobody knew the whole kiki. I want them to say things like "I dont understand. She always seemed so happy."Sorry but with my death I want to deastroy and wreck some worlds. (Lol Max remember my nickname 'Mrs.Wreckingball?' My time has come. xD)

And thats it. Now you know that I am actually a really narcisstic person. So be angry! Especially at my funeral. Finally let it out man! Now is the time to cry and punsh some holes in the wall without someone questioning it. Let all your anger out from all your life! But be carefull. In like 1-2 months this time window is closed. Be fast. And quote me pls. I really want to share all my thoughts to everyone. I also have this notebook only phillip knows about. I want everyone to be able to read it and get access to my social media shit. Maybe they are mentioned anywhere there. Make sure my thoughts get around!

[idjitlili]

What can I say I like a climb.

Thorin xhalf elf!reader

A/n:Bruh imagine having a crush on Andy from the office before just because you had a dream about him dressing up as Gaston and coming to your old high school only to see you slip on the grass. Yeah it happened a couple of months ago when I was still in high school

Summary:growing up as Gandalf's adopted daughter ,being apart of the company only to pass through Rivendell,only to make thorin rage with jealousy

Word count:1921

It was no secret that Gandalf wasnt your real father, you both looked nothing a like. However this didnt stop him loving you like you were his actual child,you werent sure if wizard could have children. You wondered if he ever got horny,it disturbed you but you did wonder. Anyways yiu didnt know your parents ,they were killed by orcs ,Gandalf found you crying as babe ,and thats all you know. You were half elf ,half human ,mostly Thorin didnt like that very much when he found out ,it just meant you lived longer than a human would.

So how you ended up in the company of Thorin Oakenshield was; simply because Gandalf didnt want to leave you with the elves again ,or leave you at home where you could be in more danger. You were more than capable of defending yourself,due to your many vists with Elrond they had trained you very well. You also became best friends with Lindir since he was responsible for most of your training ,plus being your tutor. Lindir was also abandoned as a child but was taken in by Elrond. He grew to become a marchwaden.

Lindir was a shy elf ,as were you ,yet around each other you were very comfortable. Many of your visits he would have to carry to your room ,because you had fallen asleep against him looking at the stars while he told you a story. You both very much enjoyed each others company.

However your feelings towards the dwarven king were much different to how you felt about Lindir. You knew you liked him as soon as you saw him at Bag end ,yes you were very much taken back by his looks ,you swear you fell in love with him right then and there. Of course you thought he could never like you ;he's a bloody king. Oh how wrong you were. He had no choice but to allow you on this quest ,being gandalf,s daughter and all. Gandalf told him to basically to shut the fuck up ,you were coming.

Thorin would never admit it but he did always make sure you were safe,and eating ,covering up with shes such a burden,or whatever. What about when he found out you were part elf? Yeah so you had just bathed and your hair was wet and pushed back and he saw your ears he was like

"you are fucking elf?" he had literally grabbed your elf ,whilst you were standing up ,looking at it ,you had groaned at the contact. Lets pretend that didnt make want Thorin touch your ears more roughly."part,not full,cant you tell compared to elves im an orge." and with that you had pulled your ear from his dwarven fingers walking away. He was left in shock ,how you could thik so low of yourself. shrek is hot though,but you thought you were an ugly orge.Thorin didnt like elves,but he definitly liked you had thought you were absolutely beautiful. With your e/c eyes ,h/l h/c hair,your height ,our form your personality everhting.

Anyways you had just arrived at Rivendell,Lindir hadnt seen you in a while ,and hadnt noticed you yet. You were led to dinner ,with was all veg,you had to agree with ori you could do with some chips right about now,or even some lembas bread. You werent surprised that he didnt recognise you you had developed more in body wise plus you were muddy and wearing a big coat and hat. He had looked for you when he saw Gandalf but when he couldnt see you he assumed you were at home ,he was disappointed..

Kili was sat next to you and Bofur ,he was admiring the elves,saying they didnt have enough facial half. "though that one isnt  bad." he had gestured to a male elf,making the whole company burst out with laughter. "that isnt a  elf maiden." kili face flashed red in embarrassment. You had nudged him still giggling "dont worry,young prince, I know which male elf I would fuck too." you had smirked eyeing lindir ,of course you wouldnt but if you had to you would. The company had laughed again "shes got a dirty mouth laddies." dwalin had pipped up, you smirked pulling off your coat and hat,as the company watched in confusion.

Standing up running over to Lindir ,jumping up onto him wrapping your legs around his waist,arms around his/ next. The company had gasped in shock."is she allowed to do that...?" bilbo had questioned,Thorin watched with a scowl on his face,Dwalin noticed laughing at his friend ,who scoffed. You had pressed a kiss to Lindir's cheek,who's arms now went around your back holding you to him,securely. "mellon, Its been a time." he had spoke placing you down,hugging you briefly. "it has indeed , I missed my bestfriend." you stood in front of him ,smiling ,thorin was still not convinced he was just your friend.

 "youve grown mellon nin." he smiled ,speaking quietly trying to ignore the dwarves ,Thorin almost scoffed louder than a waterfall,as it was obvious what he meant.  The dwarves watched carefually as the next  thing out your mouth really made them think that they really didnt know you. "I know! my breasts have grown finally!" you had literally squished your boobs together over your tunic,making lindir blush in embarrassment ,but laughing. Kili  and fili had watched you ,before looking at their uncle smirking ,he didnt even look at them.  " i meant your slyness," you had giggled at him before hugging him again,before informing him you would talk to him later ,joining the dwarves again.

In which they all stared at you intensely. "so ,you and the elf then?" kili had spoken ,nudging you in the ribs like you had down to him earlier. "yeah we are bestfriends." thorin had scoffed,you had looked at him confused at this gesture. "just friends? right" his tone stern and disbelieving."we have been friends since I was a babe,thats all." you tried to hold eye contact with  thorin but he just looked away with a hard expression. "but you said you rough it up with him." Dwalin tried defending his best bud. "it was a joke thats it,hes my bestfriend that all. not that it is any of your bloody businesses. " you stood up abruptly. "thank you elrond for dinner ,may I be excused."he had simply nodded his head ,you gathered your coat,and hat one for Lindir to come over taking them leading to you to your room.

His hand on your mid back,leading you away from the drama ,Thorin had watched you leave almost gulity for making you upset. Once he had gotten you to your room he had began to sort you a bath ,brushing through your tangled hair first,slowly getting you to relax."Ooooh I'm a dwarf I can give a joke ,but I cant take one, also my nose is bigger than my dick" you had mocked as Lindir finished your hair ,pulling you up shoving you in the bathroom. "you know they are only doing it because Thorin thinks you like me and not him. You mouth gapped open as he shut the bath room door aallowing your privacy.

You couldnt sstop thinking about what Lindir said so much so once you were in your night gown ,exiting the bathroom to meet with Lindir for a stroll in the gardens. You had tripped on your own feet, and Lindir didnt see as he was reading a  book in a chair.  Turns out you landed badly on your wrist ,screamed out in pain,Lindir became sonic rushing to you.You didnt even get a chance to explain before he rushed you to the healers. In which they gave you some herbs for the pain and wrapped up your sprained wrist,putting it into a sling.  

Lindir had held out his arm for you ,and led you to a bench in the gardens  ,your damp hair pushing it out your face in annoyance. Lindir notices this forces you to sit down,before he braids it swiftly ,before a voive clears their throat. Lindir finishes tying the braid off with a ribbon,he places a hand on your shoulder,before bowing his head at at someone leaving. You turn to see Thorin standing in front of you ,you quickly stand,hiding your arm in robe. You knew he would be furious if he saw what happen. His face is unreadable ,he's scowling as usual.

"uh..hi?" you had spoken unsure where to look,just generally confused why he was here. "you aren't together ,but he braids your hair?" he scowls ,you groan in annoyance,walking closer to him. "you know what you are bloody getting on my nerves, dwarf." you had growled out his eyes go wide slightly at your outburst,before returning into a scowl. "for the last time I am NOT dating lindir. The only reason he was braiding my bloody hair was because I sprained my wrist , and couldnt. Secondly even so he can because to elves and humans braids dont suggest we are bloody fucking." you had pointed your left hand ,pointer finger into his chest harshly. You tried not to go weak at the knees ,feeling the muscle he had on his chest.

Yet Thorin had became unbelievably calm as he forced you to sit with him on the bench,by guiding you with his hand on your mid back. "how did that happen?your arm." his hand reached over to move the robe from covering it,his hand lightly grazing the bare skin on your upper arm. Of course you were wearing an night gown under ,just incase you forgot. "..uh..weell i bathed ,then i walked out and tripped over my own feet ,thats it. Before you say anything thats why I was screaming not because lindir had his dick in me." you looked at him deadly serious ,he had sent you smile which was completely new to you.

"I believe you,y/n. I'm sorry for the way I werent around trying to find out if you were free to court?" you had choked at his words. "wait Lindir was right ,you do want to court me?" you had  almost whispered ,he had nodded at you before you threw your one arm around him,hugging him tight ,which he does the same yet carefually,not wanting hurt your arm more.

"Lindir is going to tease me till the end of time,i swear."

bonus~in greenwood .

"and why does a half elf travel with dwarves." Thranduil had asked you circling you both , in reply you had jumped on Thorin ,wrapping legs around his waist.

"what can I say I like to climb" Thorin smirked at the elven king.

"guards remove her!"

"dont tell my dad!"

[goldenize]

HE'S THE LITERAL BEST OMFGGFDGJRJKSER!!!!?!?!?!??!!!?!11?@1?

ANNIE IS THE LITERAL BEST I CAN'T HANDLE THIS OMFG HE'S LIKE

I DON'T ASK CAUSE IT SEEMS RUDE OR SMTH IDK

HE JUST TURNS ALL THIS STUFF AND JUST HAS IT THATS WHAT HES ALL CAGEY ABOUT OMFGGGFGGFGGGG

GIVES ME LIKE A 3 LB BAG OF SHIT LIKE BEADS AND ANIMAL TEETH AND FEATHERS AND WOOD AND GLASS AND ROCKS AND OMFFGKRNESBRSGRGRELSGFLBZX ALL TURNED BLUE!?!?!?!?!@!!1?!?@??????

WTF IM STILL CRYING I CRIED ON HIM AND I CANT EVEN LOOK AT THIS SHIT AND SPREADSHEET IT YET HOW DARE HE BE THIKS INCREDIBLE GOD DAMMIT ANNIE YOU BEAUTIFUL FUCKING MAN1!!111!!1!!!!!

[childatheart24]

Not happy at all

you know, its sad that I alwas only write when Im sad ..

but I need to get this off my chest, when you have no close friends or you cant talk to you your family about it or when your husband just doesnt understand, you have to atleast write it down ..

I feel so lonely and unhappy, I think its all because Im not a good Muslim.

I am wasting time watching shows and being on my phone, Im not being a good mother to my children.

But now i know why I am this way, it because I need attention, My husband he is very nice and kind man, he is good to my family and he is not rude with me, but thats all he is aaah and he is obsesssed with sex; it feels like all he needs me for is to have sex Im like his sex toy, even when he kisses me its because he wants to have sex I feel like that anyway, and with that in mind I cant love him all the way,

we used to watch movies together we used to take walks we used to talk, but now all he does is go to work and play games on the pc, and he thiks just having sex with me is okay, he doesnt think of me at all, like maybe I want something else, he never knows when Im sad because he is always on the computer he never makes me laugh because he isnt around,and when he is aroun I am always angry because of the lack of attention. so we get in a fight,

I once tried to explain him what I want, I was crying and all but he didnt even hug me, he just didnt not understand why I was upset, to be honest I dont want a man like that, if only I knew he was into playing games I would have never married him, and if I cant love him the way I want I cant even be kind to him.

I dont think he will ever change because he is who he is, I just thought he was someone else, I thought he was this nice innocent serieos persone, but he is a naive childish sex maniac . and because he doesnt make me happy I cant be the woman I want to be, cause I do love him and thats the problem, I dont know what to do, I would talk to him about it but he doesnt understand and even if I explain it to him he just forgets it the next day, he thinks I want to devorce him but thats not what I want, I want him to love me, make me happy and be there for me when I need him, I want him to notice me for who I am, and not have this idea of me, I want him to be intressted in me, I want him to show me his love by little things, I want him to give me present once in a while, I want him to know it all and not always tell him what I want, but he is hopeless

and thats what makes me depressed, a woman that is not being love the right way is always a sad woman , she will never shine ..

If she is loved the right way she will be the best wife and the most beautiful woman in the world.