#and i really fkn hate that

[nimrism]

i still can't believe merlin chose to reveal he had magic to the most random person on the planet who he had only known for a day (gilli in "the sorcerer's shadow") but NOT to morgana when she needed it most... by the time morgana figured out she had magic, her and merlin's friendship was already at a point where he could trust her with something like this, and he had already seen her stance on magic through the way she risked everything for mordred (a DRUID, aka a magical being). hell, she straight up said "what if [magic] chooses you?" to his FACE. he really had nothing to lose and morgana had everything to gain by him telling her he had magic too, and being there for her when she needed it. but nOoOoo merlin just HAD to listen to the overgrown basement gecko and keep it a secret. which i wouldn't really mind had he not gone and revealed that very same secret to a perfect stranger a season later. it just makes no sense whatsoever that he'd keep his magic a secret from morgana and refrain from helping her then turn around and show GILLI of all people that he had magic.

[stgroversfire]

one of my biggest pet peeves that i think is really common is just absolutely shitting on household name bands. like ones that have ascended beyond popular to literally no one hasnt heard of them. whose music is maybe seen as boring for how much we have to hear it.

case in point:

the first song i ever actually felt an emotional connection to was it's time by imagine dragons. i was 12ish and i made a drawing for art class based on it that also happens to be the first piece of art i was ever truly proud of and made me want to create more.

night visions (deluxe) was so important to me at that time, i laughed and cried and sang and danced to that album, and the night visions tour was the first real concert i ever went to! i still remember that concert, i remember my mom and sister dragging me out during the encore because they wanted to get ahead of traffic, and i was crying happy tears singing along to nothing left to say/rocks as it played muffled through the concrete walls.

i couldn't tell you exactly what else i was listening to at that point other than what itunes called "alternative," but then smoke and mirrors came out and it was such a new sound that i had never experienced before and i think thats when i really became ravenous for more music. i went to that tour as well and it was incredible.

and then i started listening to stuff my friends showed me, because now i actually cared, and i got on fallout boy and p!atd and most importantly twenty one pilots.

i listened to my dad's favorite bands from the 70s/80s, namely supertramp and boston. i got into trap and dubstep. i listened when my brother played hip hop in the car and got hooked on mac miller, and then when i found out what hip hop was like in the 70s and the whole culture that developed around it, i truly fell in love with hip hop. i mean that shit got me through my worst days of high school.

and honestly once i got to college i was just listening to anything; grunge, traditional heavy metal, thrash metal, indie pop, folk, blues, jazz (i took a jazz class for an elective, and that shit is fascinating), j-rock, chiptunes, lofi, city pop, eurobeat, punk pop and easycore (thank you alex), breakcore-

okay, i sound like a bragging asshole now, but you get my point. i would not have found any of this if i hadn't heard it's time by imagine dragons, and every time i say ID means a lot to me, i get absolutely shit on. i actually was introduced to rush when ID did a cover of tom sawyer at a concert, and my friend's reaction was "wow that must have sounded like dogshit, they're so bad!" a reddit thread was giving me shit for having ID on my top 10 most listened, ignoring all the stuff i know they had never heard of.

which. alright, to be fair, it is a bit funny and i don't mind getting some flak for it. its the internet, its all in good fun. but the most random obscure shit like will connolly's caterpillars of the commonwealth or phemiec's songs from the dustbowl being on my spotify is owed to ID, put some respect on their name- they were able to reach so many people with their music, and that's something to be celebrated.

uhh tldr: all music is valuable because all music is helping someone get through this shit world, and it can be a gateway to music they don't know that they don't know.

uh and if you actually got this far rec me ur favorite band

[bunniegloom]

🐇🏡

[911-wassup-bby]

[sick-ideals-and-dirtied-veins]

that last, complete breakdown, felt like dying.

but it seems some things are finally starting to click now. I think I'm closer to seeing everything, exactly as it was, than I've ever been. the fog in my mind still overshadows the details. probably more than I can even imagine. the days are blurred, I remember still pictures and drowned feelings — my memories are locked away somewhere in that haze.

I can't reach them yet. but. in this current retrospect, I see enough to understand.

a few things. at least.

enough to let it happen. I think.

[assumedcryptid]

i just want... burbger...

[suotar]

[bunniegloom]

˙ . ꒷ 🍰 . 𖦹˙—

[juvederm]

like

[scrambledslut]

universe decided to beat the “don’t talk to strangers on the internet” lesson into me until i choked on my own blood😐

[assumedcryptid]

😒

[grantsflash]

i don’t watch reality shows normally bc i can’t stand manufactured drama and manipulated stories but im watching DTS at the moment and i have to pause it and be like ‘emer it’s literally a tv show calm down it’s not that deep’

[taegularities]

💀

[zarafey]

Its always funny which tasks i "prioritize" when i procrastinate (aka which of my procrastinated tasks I'll pick up bc I'm procrastinating something else bc doing that)

Like i did spend about an hour cooking a full meal today, and i did clean up my desk, but i did not do the dishes that have been piling up since monday before sitting down to study

[ohthisisgonnasuck]

I have to walk to town these days, & meet mostly tweakers, on my daily walks....

Random dude that seemed really chill, asked me to watch his shit, while I was on my midway rest.... And we talked a bit after.

He said some anti-trans/homophobic shit & was VERY amenable, once he admitted to not knowing if I was a man or woman & I explained. Cathartic af

Bros, hoes, ladies, and crazies: We have a new ally.

[noahthegrailkeeper]

me reading what happens in the Telegony: