#and i know it's the chois and Cale's bday but I've decided to be sad | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

calethescammer · 1 year ago

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Thinking about the soos currently.

Thinking about how seemingly selfish it was of lsh and cjs to leave krs alone; how selfish it was of cjs when he said that he wanted krs to live; and yet, that was the best they could do for him–to protect him and let him live the life they wouldn't be able to.

Thinking about how, even in the face of a destroyed world, they believed that surviving, living was the best, and how all of them wished for the other to live.

Thinking about how utterly betrayed Krs must have felt, not by his hyungs, but by his own inability to do anything, and to just stare at the lifeless corpses of lsh and cjs.

Thinking about how it must have been for krs—the betrayal of his own abilities, and the burden of the new life he never asked for.

Thinking about how krs knew he would've done the same, if he were in their position, and how that was the fact that hurt the most. That their selfishness, that their betrayal was only wanting Cale to live, and the fact that their selfishness was nothing but their love for him.

#krs knows he would've done the same but knowing is easier than accepting #it was cruel and also the best they could have done and that just makes me cry #and the fact that both lsh and cjs didn't even think for a moment and just. sacrificed their life. for cale.#love is a form of selfishness in itself and i cannot explain how #because from Cale's perspective i cannot imagine it as anything else than selfishness #he did not wish to somehow survive. he only wished to live peacefully with lsh and cjs.#and i know it's the chois and Cale's bday but I've decided to be sad #trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #tcf #lcf #cale henituse #tcf novel #kim rok soo #choi jung soo #lee soo hyuk

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