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Let the Light In |9|
Tara Carpenter x Fem!Reader
Chapter Nine: Struck by Cupid's Knife
Summary: After working up the courage, Tara asks you to spend Cupid’s birthday with her, but neither of you could have predicted the results.
Warning(s): Swearing (I think), arguing, Tara wearing The Skirt™️, innuendos, miscommunication/shit communication and mentions of masochism.
Notes: Reader’s a thirsty son of a bitch.
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You're sprawled on Tara's couch, one hand absently scratching behind Dookie's ears while the other reaches for your water. The cat purrs contentedly in your lap, a rare sight according to literally everyone who's ever met the notoriously selective feline. On screen, Leatherface is doing what Leatherface does best – terrorizing unsuspecting teenagers with questionable decision-making skills.
"You know," you muse, "for someone who claims to hate slashers, you sure own a lot of them."
Tara throws chips at your head. It misses spectacularly and lands on Dookie, who gives her the most withering look a cat can muster. "I never said I hate slashers. I said modern slashers lack the psychological complexity of—"
"—of 'Prom Night,' yes, we've all heard the dissertation," you interrupt, earning yourself another chip projectile. This one actually hits its mark. "Which, by the way, is absolutely not better than 'Sleepaway Camp.'"
"Oh my god, are you seriously starting this again?" Tara pauses the movie, turning to face you fully. "Angela Baker is iconic, sure, but—"
"But nothing! The psychological implications alone—"
"The psychological implications of a movie that ends with—"
You both start talking over each other, your voices rising with practiced familiarity of an argument you've had dozens of times before. Dookie lifts his head to watch the verbal tennis match, tail twitching with mild interest.
"Okay, okay," Tara finally concedes, though her tone suggests this is far from over. "We can agree to disagree. For now. But only because I'm starving and we still haven't decided on dinner."
"Indian?" you suggest innocently, already knowing the response you'll get.
Her eyes narrow. "You know damn well what happened last time."
"You mean when you insisted you could handle the spice level and then spent three hours complaining about heartburn?"
"I did not complain for three hours."
"You literally texted me at 3 AM to tell me your esophagus was staging a coup."
She throws her hands up in exasperation. "Fine! What's your brilliant suggestion then?"
You pretend to think about it, even though you both know exactly where this is heading. "Well, there's this place I know. Makes great burgers, killer onion rings, milkshakes that'll change your life…"
"You mean the same place we always go?"
"If it ain't broke, princess."
The nickname slips out before you can catch it, an old habit you can't seem to shake. Tara's expression does something complicated – a mix of annoyance, fondness, and something else you're not quite ready to analyze.
"Speaking of things that aren't broken," she starts, then stops, fidgeting with the hem of her sweater. "There's this Valentine's party next week…"
You focus very intently on Dookie's fur, suddenly finding the pattern fascinating. "Oh yeah? Sounds fun."
"Yeah, it's at Chad's place. You could… I mean, if you wanted…" She trails off, then quickly adds, "But you probably have plans."
"Actually," you say, still not looking up, "I was just gonna stay in. The new season of 'Yellowjackets' dropped and—"
"Oh." There's something in her voice that makes you finally look up. "That… that sounds good too."
A moment passes, filled only by the sound of Dookie's purring and the paused image of Leatherface on the TV.
"You could join," you offer, the words tumbling out before you can overthink them. "If you wanted. Instead of the party."
Tara's face brightens for a split second before she schools it into careful neutrality. "What happened to your sacred solo binge-watching ritual?"
"Well, Dookie's already broken that rule," you gesture to the cat who's now fully asleep in your lap. "Besides, someone needs to be there to judge my commentary."
"Your commentary definitely needs supervision," she agrees, a small smile playing at the corners of her mouth. "But what about Chad's party? You sure you don't want to…" she waves her hand vaguely.
You raise an eyebrow. "Want to what?"
"Nothing," she says quickly. "Just… you know. Meet people. Or whatever."
"Careful, Carpenter. That almost sounded like jealousy."
"You wish," she scoffs, but there's a faint blush creeping up her neck. "I just don't want you blaming me when you miss out on finding your soulmate at a frat party."
"Right, because nothing says true love like keg stands and questionable punch."
She throws more chips at you, but she's smiling now. "Shut up and watch the movie, dork."
You press play, and Leatherface resumes his rampage. But you can't help noticing how Tara seems more relaxed now, how she's shifted slightly closer on the couch. Dookie stretches in your lap, completely unbothered by the chainsaw sounds from the TV, and you think maybe this is exactly where you're supposed to be.
Even if Tara is completely wrong about "Prom Night.
—
Valentine's Day arrives with all the subtlety of a horror movie jump scare. You're pacing your apartment, pretending you haven't spent the last hour deciding what to wear for what's supposedly just another movie night. Dookie, who somehow managed to sneak into your place during Tara's last visit and never left, watches you with judgmental eyes from his perch on your bookshelf.
"Don't give me that look," you mutter, adjusting your shirt for the hundredth time. "This is completely normal behavior."
Dookie blinks slowly, unconvinced.
Your phone buzzes with a text, and you definitely don't lunge for it like a teenager waiting for their crush to call.
Tara (6:45 PM): omw Tara (6:45 PM): with snacks Tara (6:46 PM): and NO you cannot veto my candy choices this time
You smile despite yourself, typing back a quick response.
Dork (6:46 PM): If you brought those weird swedish fish again, we're going to have words
When the knock finally comes, you open the door to find Tara wearing a skirt that makes your brain short-circuit. It's not even particularly revealing – just a simple black pleated number that hits just above her knees – but something about the way it moves when she walks past you makes your mouth go dry.
"Earth to Y/N," Tara waves a hand in front of your face. "You gonna let me in or just stand there having a stroke?"
You snap out of it, closing the door perhaps a bit too quickly. "Sorry, just… wondering if I should be concerned about what's in that suspiciously large grocery bag."
"Liar," she smirks, dropping said bag on your coffee table. "But I'll let it slide because I'm feeling generous."
Meanwhile, in a group chat you're blissfully unaware of:
CORE 4 & CO.
Mindy: TARA CARPENTER Mindy: YOU DID NOT JUST LEAVE THE HOUSE IN THAT SKIRT Mindy: TO GO WATCH TV Mindy: WITH YOUR “NEMESIS”
Sammy: Let her live, Mindy
Chad: anyone else find it sus that they're both skipping the party? 👀
Mindy: "skipping the party to watch yellowjackets" sure jan
Tara: i can see these messages you know
Mindy: EXACTLY Mindy: WE KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING
Chad: yeah wearing The Skirt™️
Tara: it's just a skirt omg Tara: and don't you all have better things to do??
Mindy: than watch you attempt to seduce your nemesis? Mindy: absolutely not
Sammy: I'm turning off notifications Sammy: have fun sis Sammy: and remember to text me if you end up staying the night
Tara: SAM
Back in your apartment, you're trying very hard to focus on setting up the TV and not on how Tara's legs look when she's curled up on your couch. It's just a skirt. You've seen skirts before. This should not be affecting you like this.
"You know," Tara's voice breaks through your internal crisis, "for someone who was so excited about this show, you're spending a lot of time staring at everything but the screen."
"I'm not—" you start to protest, but she cuts you off with a knowing look.
"The remote's upside down."
You look down. The remote is, indeed, upside down in your hands. "I'm trying a new technique," you deadpan, refusing to acknowledge the heat creeping up your neck.
"Uh-huh." She shifts on the couch, the movement causing her skirt to—nope, you're not looking. You're absolutely not looking. "You know, we could still go to Chad's party if you're having second thoughts."
There's something in her tone – a careful casualness that doesn't quite mask the uncertainty underneath. You finally look at her properly, taking in the way she's trying to appear nonchalant while picking at a loose thread on your couch cushion.
"And miss the chance to prove how superior 'Sleepaway Camp' is to your precious 'Prom Night'? Not a chance, Carpenter."
The relief that flashes across her face is brief but unmistakable. "Oh my god, you're still on that? You know what, just for that, I'm eating all the good candy."
"Bold of you to assume any of your candy choices qualify as 'good.'"
She throws a Swedish Fish at your head. You catch it with your mouth, surprising both of you.
"…Okay, that was actually impressive," she admits.
"I have hidden depths," you say solemnly, finally settling onto the couch beside her. "Now shut up and watch the show. I have theories about Lottie that will blow your mind."
As the opening credits roll, you're hyper-aware of every inch of space between you, of how her skirt brushes against your leg when she reaches for the snacks, of how this feels simultaneously like nothing and everything has changed.
Your phone buzzes in your pocket – probably Henry asking how your "not-date" is going – but you ignore it. Right now, all that matters is this moment: Tara's commentary about the show's color grading, the way she unconsciously leans into you during the tenser scenes, and how maybe, just maybe, this is exactly where you both want to be.
The thing about watching TV with Tara Carpenter is that she can't sit still to save her life. She's constantly shifting, readjusting, finding new ways to accidentally-but-maybe-not-accidentally end up closer to you. It's maddening in the best possible way.
"That's not how decomposition works," she critiques, reaching across you for the popcorn. Her skirt rides up slightly with the movement, and you suddenly find the ceiling fascinating. "The timeline is completely unrealistic."
"Sorry, I didn't realize I was sitting next to a forensics expert," you quip, trying to ignore how she hasn't fully moved back to her original position. "Please, enlighten us with your extensive knowledge of body disposal."
She turns to face you, and you immediately regret your life choices because now she's even closer, her eyes sparkling with that dangerous mix of challenge and amusement that always spells trouble.
"Well, considering the ambient temperature and soil composition—"
"Is this the part where I should be concerned about your search history?"
"Please," she scoffs, but there's a smile playing at the corners of her mouth. "Like yours is any better, Miss 'I-need-to-research-medieval-torture-devices-for-academic-purposes.'"
"That was one time!"
"The FBI agent watching your browser history probably needs therapy."
You're about to retort when she shifts again, and suddenly her leg is pressed against yours. All coherent thoughts evacuate your brain without so much as a goodbye note.
"You okay there?" she asks, and there's something in her tone that suggests she knows exactly what she's doing. "You seem a little… distracted."
Two can play at this game.
"Just thinking about proper body disposal techniques," you say innocently, stretching your arm across the back of the couch. Not quite around her shoulders, but the implication is there. "You know, for academic purposes."
She raises an eyebrow. "Is that your way of threatening to murder me? Because I've got to say, your technique needs work."
"If I was going to murder you, Carpenter, you'd never see it coming."
"Promises, promises."
The air between you crackles with something that definitely isn't just friendly banter anymore. On screen, someone is probably being dramatically eviscerated, but you couldn't care less because Tara is looking at you with that half-smile that makes your stomach do Olympic-level gymnastics.
Your phone buzzes again, breaking the moment. This time, it's a series of texts from Henry:
Henry (8:15 PM): so how's the not-date going?? Henry (8:15 PM): has anyone been murdered yet Henry (8:16 PM): either literally or metaphorically Henry (8:16 PM): also tony says hi and wants to know if you've kissed her yet
"Something important?" Tara asks, and you quickly lock your phone before she can see the messages.
"Just Henry being Henry," you say, silently plotting your best friend's demise. "Probably asking if we've murdered each other yet."
"Night's still young," she shrugs, but she's still got that look in her eyes that makes you want to either kiss her or start an argument about horror movie tropes. Possibly both.
"Speaking of murder," you say instead, because you're a master of deflection, "want to hear my theory about why 'Sleepaway Camp' is actually a groundbreaking commentary on—"
She groans, throwing her head back dramatically. "Oh my god, you're actually the worst."
"That's not what you said when I brought you soup when you caught the flu."
"That was before I knew you'd use it as ammunition in your endless crusade against good taste in movies."
"Bold words from someone wearing a skirt that's clearly meant to be a distraction from your terrible opinions."
The words are out before your brain can stop them. Tara goes very still, and for a moment you think you've miscalculated spectacularly. But then she looks at you with an expression that's somewhere between amusement and challenge.
"Is it working?"
Your mouth goes dry. "What?"
"The distraction," she says, and you swear she moves even closer. "Is it working?"
You're saved from having to answer by Dookie, who chooses this exact moment to jump between you, apparently deciding he's been ignored for far too long. The cat gives you both a look that clearly says "I've had enough of your nonsense."
"Traitor," you mutter to the cat, who responds by making himself comfortable across both your laps, effectively creating a furry barrier between you and Tara.
Tara laughs, scratching behind Dookie's ears. "My hero," she coos to the cat. "Saving me from another lecture about Angela Baker's psychological complexity."
"You're both against me," you declare dramatically. "I'm being ganged up on in my own home."
"Cry about it," she suggests sweetly, but she's leaning against your shoulder now, and Dookie is purring, and maybe being ganged up on isn't the worst thing in the world.
—
"I cannot believe you're still defending this," you say, watching in horror as Tara drowns her mac and cheese in a truly concerning amount of hot sauce. "This is actually painful to witness."
"You're being dramatic," she retorts, adding what appears to be her entire body weight in ketchup to the already crime-scene-worthy pasta. "Some of us actually like flavor."
"Flavor? That's—" you're interrupted by the doorbell, which is probably for the best because you were about to launch into a dissertation about the difference between flavor and masochism.
"I'll get it," Tara says, but you're already standing up.
"Absolutely not. I've seen enough horror movies to know the cute girl who answers the door always dies first."
The word 'cute' slips out before you can catch it, and you practically sprint to the door to avoid seeing her reaction. This proves to be a tactical error when you open it to find possibly the most conventionally attractive pizza delivery guy you've ever seen, complete with the kind of jawline that belongs on a CW show.
"Hey," he says, then looks past you to where Tara has appeared behind your shoulder. His entire demeanor shifts, voice dropping an octave. "Hey."
You resist the urge to close the door in his face.
"That'll be twenty-four fifty," he says to Tara, completely ignoring your existence. "Though I could make it free if you'd let me take you out sometime."
Something hot and uncomfortable coils in your stomach. You reach for your wallet, but Tara beats you to it, pulling out cash from her pocket.
"Here's thirty," she says, a slight flush creeping up her neck. "Keep the change."
"You sure I can't convince you?" He flashes a smile that probably works wonders at frat parties. "I make a mean pasta. No ketchup required."
Your head snaps up at that. He must have overheard your earlier conversation, which means he's been standing here long enough to eavesdrop, which means—
"She likes her pasta exactly how she likes it," you say, perhaps a bit sharper than necessary, taking the pizza from his hands. "Thanks for the delivery."
You close the door before he can respond, turning to find Tara looking at you with an expression that makes your heart do something complicated in your chest. The flush on her neck has spread to her cheeks.
"So," she says, voice carefully neutral but eyes dancing with something that looks suspiciously like amusement. "No ketchup required, huh?"
"Don't start," you mutter, carrying the pizza to the kitchen. "And don't even think about putting hot sauce on this. I saw you wincing earlier from your mac and cheese."
"My tongue is fine," she protests, following you. "Besides, maybe I like the burn."
"Your masochistic tendencies are concerning, Carpenter."
She hops up onto your counter, legs swinging slightly in that stupid perfect skirt. "Says the person who just went full guard dog on the pizza guy."
"I did not—" you start, then catch the look on her face. "I was just… concerned about food temperature maintenance."
"Uh-huh." She's full-on grinning now, cheeks still tinged pink. "And I suppose the death glare was just about proper pizza handling protocols?"
"You know what?" You grab a slice, pointedly avoiding her gaze. "I preferred it when you were defending your crimes against pasta."
"Speaking of which…" She reaches for the bottle of hot sauce she apparently manifested from thin air.
"Absolutely not." You snatch it away, holding it above your head. "I'm not listening to you complain about tongue burn all night again."
"Bold of you to assume I need your permission," she says, sliding off the counter and stepping closer. Much closer. Close enough that you can see the flecks of gold in her eyes, can feel the warmth radiating from her skin.
Your breath catches. She reaches up, ostensibly for the hot sauce, but her hand lands on your wrist instead. Neither of you moves.
"Tara," you say, voice barely above a whisper.
"Yeah?"
"Your mac and cheese is getting cold."
She laughs, the sound soft and close, and you think maybe this is better than any Valentine's party could ever be. Even if she is completely wrong about pasta condiments.
"You're impossible," she says, but she's smiling, and she hasn't moved away, and maybe—
Dookie chooses this exact moment to knock over the entire box of pizza.
"Traitor," you both say in unison, then look at each other and burst out laughing.
The moment breaks, but something else settles in its place – something warm and comfortable and maybe a little bit inevitable. Like the way Tara's hand is still on your wrist, or how she's looking at you with that half-smile that makes your heart skip beats.
Your phone buzzes on the counter, screen lighting up with a notification. Tara glances at it reflexively, and something in her expression shifts – subtle enough that someone who doesn't know her as well as you do might miss it, but you've spent months cataloging her micro-expressions during horror movie marathons.
"Charlotte?" she says, and there's something in her voice that makes your stomach drop. "Didn't realize you two were still talking."
You reach for your phone, but Tara's already turning away, suddenly very interested in reorganizing the scattered pizza toppings on her plate. "It's not—"
"No, it's fine," she cuts you off, but her shoulders are tense in that way they get when she's trying too hard to seem casual. "I mean, obviously you can talk to whoever you want."
"Tara."
"I just thought after what happened at New Year's—"
"Nothing happened at New Year's," you say, perhaps a bit too quickly. "We just talked."
She lets out a laugh that doesn't sound like a laugh at all. "Right. Because that's totally why you disappeared for an hour and came back looking like—"
"Like what?" There's an edge to your voice now, the playful atmosphere from earlier evaporating like morning dew. "Come on, Carpenter. Say what you really mean."
She finally looks at you, and there's something raw in her expression that makes your chest ache. "Like you'd rather be anywhere else. With anyone else."
"That's not—" you start, but she's on a roll now.
"You know what? It doesn't matter. I shouldn't have…" she trails off, pushing her plate away. "This was stupid. I should go."
"Are you seriously doing this right now?" You follow her as she starts gathering her things. "Over a text message you didn't even read?"
"This isn't about the text," she says, but she won't meet your eyes. "This is about you always having one foot out the door."
"Me?" You can't help the incredulous laugh that escapes. "That's rich coming from someone who can't even admit why she really skipped Chad's party tonight."
She freezes, one hand on her bag. "What's that supposed to mean?"
"You know exactly what it means." Your heart is pounding, words spilling out before you can stop them. "You're not the only one who's allowed to be scared, Tara."
The silence that follows is deafening. Even Dookie seems to be holding his breath, watching from his perch on the bookshelf with unblinking eyes.
"I'm not scared," she says finally, but her voice wavers slightly.
"No?" You step closer, close enough to see the pulse jumping in her throat. "Then why are you running?"
She looks up at you then, and there's something in her eyes that makes your breath catch – a mix of vulnerability and defiance that's so uniquely Tara it makes your heart hurt.
"Because you let her kiss you," she whispers, and the words hang in the air between you like smoke. "At New Year's. You let her kiss you, and then you came back and acted like nothing happened, and I—"
"She didn't kiss me," you interrupt softly. "I stopped her."
Tara blinks. "What?"
"She tried, yeah. But I stopped her." You run a hand through your hair, frustrated. "Because apparently I'm pathetically gone for someone who puts ketchup in her mac and cheese and thinks 'Prom Night' is better than 'Sleepaway Camp.'"
A beat passes. Then another. Tara's still holding her bag, but her grip has loosened.
"Pathetically?" she repeats, and there's a hint of something in her voice that might be hope.
"Absolutely tragic levels," you confirm, taking another step closer. "It's embarrassing, really. I can't even enjoy pizza delivery without getting jealous."
A small smile tugs at the corner of her mouth. "That was pretty embarrassing."
"Says the person who wore The Skirt™️ to watch Yellowjackets."
She flushes, but she's not running anymore. "You noticed that, huh?"
"Tara," you say softly, "I notice everything about you. It's kind of the problem."
She looks at you for a long moment, then slowly sets her bag down. "You really stopped her?"
"Of course I did." You reach out, tentatively tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. "Some of us don't have terrible taste in everything."
She laughs, the sound watery but real. "Just in movies, right?"
"And pasta condiments," you agree, and when she smiles, it feels like coming home.
The moment stretches between you like taffy, sweet and fragile. Tara's looking at you with those eyes that always make you forget how to breathe properly, and you're close enough to count her freckles, to see the way her pulse flutters in her throat. Her hand finds yours, fingers intertwining with a certainty that makes your heart stutter.
You could kiss her. You should kiss her. Everything in you is screaming to close that final distance.
Instead, you step back.
The hurt that flashes across her face is gone so quickly you almost convince yourself you imagined it. Almost.
"I can't," you whisper, and the words taste like ash in your mouth. "Not like this."
"Like what?" Her voice is carefully neutral, but you can see her walls going up, brick by careful brick. "With me?"
"That's not—" You run a hand through your hair, frustrated. "You're upset about Charlotte, and the pizza guy, and—"
"Don't." She pulls her hand away, and the loss of contact feels like a physical ache. "Don't you dare try to explain away what just happened."
"I'm trying to protect—"
"Me?" She laughs, but it's a hollow sound that doesn't reach her eyes. "From what, exactly? From making my own decisions? From wanting something that apparently terrifies you?"
"That's not fair."
"No?" She takes a step back, and somehow that small distance feels like miles. "Then what is this, really? Because from where I'm standing, it looks a lot like you're the one with one foot out the door."
The words hit like a slap, echoing your earlier accusation back at you. "Tara—"
"You know what the worst part is?" She's gathering her things again, movements sharp and jerky. "For a second there, I actually thought… God, I'm such an idiot."
"You're not—"
"Save it." She's not looking at you anymore, focused intently on collecting her scattered belongings. "I get it, okay? You're not ready, or you're scared, or whatever excuse you want to use. But don't pretend this is about protecting me."
You want to stop her. Want to explain that you're terrified of ruining this, of losing her, of what happens when the Valentine's Day magic wears off and she realizes you're not worth all this trouble. Want to tell her that you've never been good at keeping the things you love.
Instead, you watch her shrug on her jacket, that stupid perfect skirt swishing with the movement.
"Tara, please—"
"I should go," she says, and her voice is steady even though her hands are shaking slightly. "Before I say something we'll both regret."
Dookie watches from his perch as she heads for the door, tail twitching like he's judging your life choices. You don't blame him.
She pauses at the threshold, one hand on the doorknob. For a moment, you think she might turn around, might give you another chance to fix this. But then her shoulders straighten, and you know what's coming before she says it.
"For the record?" Her voice is quiet but clear. "You're wrong. About everything"
The door closes behind her with a soft click that somehow sounds louder than a slam would have. You stand there in the silence, surrounded by half-eaten pizza and the lingering scent of her perfume, thinking about all the ways hearts break in horror movies versus real life.
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A/N: I feel like a cartoon villain. It's nice.
#tara carpenter x reader#tara carpenter x y/n#tara carpenter x female reader#tara carpenter x you#tara carpenter#jenna ortega x reader#jenna ortega#let the light in au
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would you be comfortable writing headcanons for how the yellowjackets girls take care of nonbinary!reader after they got top surgery? :)
I'm saying this is in a modern teen Au just for accuracy reasons and the girls are all taking shifts/working together in looking after the reader
(please note that I know very little about top surgery mechanics, so this is pretty general and could be read as post-any surgery)
Yellowjackets looking after reader after top surgery (modern au)
Jackie
✰ I feel like Jackie would kind of just update you on everything you're missing out in the world while you're recovering, like all the local drama. she'll stop by during your lunch, bringing over anything you might need, but mostly stopping by to gossip
Laura Lee
✰ Laura Lee practically lives in your kitchen and is making all kinds of comfort food for you, because food is the best medicine! she's making you practically every meal every day as well as meal prepping for when she's not gonna be around the house to cook
Lottie
✰ Lottie's gonna be the one changing your bandages as needed and giving you your meds. She becomes your little at-home nurse of sorts
Misty
✰ Misty is doing a little bit of everything. She'll help Lottie when needed, but she can also be found in the kitchen cooking with Laura Lee sometimes.
✰ I can also see. her running around with Natalie
Natalie
✰ Nat isn't the best when it comes to comfort or care, but she can run errands!
✰ any time you need something, she's jumping in her car and driving out to go and get it for you, whether it a food your craving or you need someone to pick up more of your pain prescription
Shauna
✰ I think Shauna would just sit with you for hours so you aren't alone. Like yeah, you've been napping for the past three hours, but there's no way she'd leave your side. she can occupy herself with reading or writing while she waits for you to wake up again because she doesn't want you waking up needing something only to be left alone
Taissa
✰ Taissa is completely in charge of keeping you on schedule in your recovery
✰ She's gonna be the one driving you to and from surgery and making sure you get home safe. She's also gonna be the don't in charge of keeping your meds organized and making sure your bandages are changed regularly
✰ some of the other girls call her bossy for how rigorous she is with your schedule, but it's out of care and wants you to make a fast and easy recovery
Van
✰ Van is showing you all of her favorite movies as a distraction, but also because you can't get up and change the tv so you're stuck watching with her regardless
✰ but of course, she'll binge-watch whatever you want with you. Watching tv and movies is her favorite thing, and if sharing something you love with her will distract you a little, she'll gladly hang out with you
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incomplete list of girly girls often hated as spoiled, selfish brats but i love them and just wanna give them a hug, wrap ‘em in a blanket, and drink hot chocolate together
jackie taylor from yellowjackets
lyla garrity from friday night lights
sansa stark from asoiaf/early got
quinn fabray from glee
sam fraser from the netflix fear street trilogy (whose alleged selfishness is surviving and not trying to sacrifice herself until being pressured to do so)
ann walker from gentleman jack (people who watch it and for some reason don’t ship have such bad faith interpretations)
girly girl characters who fit the fandom hate criteria but with less of the broken bird in need of soothing and caretaking vibe
early seasons kelly taylor from bh90210 before the writers ruined her
beth harmon from the queen’s gambit (which you’d think wouldn’t apply bc the whole thing is about her but the hate is definitely there)
buffy summers from btvs (see above parentheses)
also cordelia from buffy tho, esp post-s1 (this is maybe less fandom as the narrative itself/joss whedon seeming to hate her)
nancy wheeler from stranger things
mary crawley from downton abbey
this is obviously not all the female characters i love or all those who get unfair hate, nor is it all the queen bee or soft femme types, but only those with hatebases. and then there are also those characters who could fit the category except i don’t care about them like julie taylor from fnl or marissa cooper from the oc.
#jackie taylor#lyla garrity#further subdivisions would be:#those seen as mean girls due to audience projection vs those who can be mean but that's not all they are#or those who are gay/have gay subtext vs those def canonically straight#this is a broad but very specific type for me#and i just can't stop thinking about it after binging yellowjackets
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April 16: Some Shauna and Jackie Thoughts
Okay, finished Yellowjackets Season 1 and now I just need to CHILL OUT and not think about it too obsessively because I need to go to work and accomplish things and, like, move on with my life. Start trying to get back to doing the stuff I was going to do this weekend but whatever.
Two thoughts about the show after having just binged S1 once, and then read a couple long reddit threads:
First: I think Jackie's death was really well done. I knew she died and was really dead from S2 spoilers but I also thought it was pretty obvious from the first season itself. Like it's weird to think that people were actively theorizing ways she could still be alive and stuff--that just didn't seem to be in the cards in any way from the text, either on a plot level (the way her parents treat Shauna) or on a thematic level (Jackie as the civilized world dying etc.). So then it's just a question of if her death is satisfying or not. I definitely think it was.
On the one hand, it was totally stupid and could have easily been avoided--something frustrating and random and chaotic--and on the other hand, it immediately followed an obviously climactic moment for Jackie and Shauna specifically, and the group as a whole to a lesser extent--something fitting and well-timed to the plot. This is the moment when Shauna and Jackie confront each other and stop being passive aggressive. It's the moment when the cult starts forming, and one person tries to stop it, and cannot. It's the moment that was foreshadowed: "cold as in you fall asleep and don't wake up," the inevitable coming winter. It's the team disintegrating and reforming: "freezing out" another member, this time the captain, this time their most obvious tie to the old world and the old ways. It's the moment that Jackie devised for herself: she's so ill-adapted to the wilderness that she can't even start a fire. It's also perfectly devised to create the most guilt possible for Shauna, coming after their fight, and because that fight created a situation where only one of them could stay, and she determined that Jackie would be the one who left.
I read some reactions along the lines of, it was unconscionable for them not to bring Jackie back in, or stupid for Jackie not to come in to save herself. I don't think so. This is late September/early October at the earliest. It's fall. That's a very early and unpredictable (supernatural?) snow, even for that area probably but especially from the POV of Jersey girls. I mean a bunch of them slept outside in flimsy dresses just the night before! They could not see this coming. Further, as others mentioned, this is THE most appropriate petty-high-school-fight way for a teenager to die, thus believable for that reason.
The final fight was also so satisfying because you could see both of their sides. I definitely think Jackie was misunderstood to an extent. I think she was a selfish mean girl more because she was 17 than because she was actively, consciously, trying to be selfish and mean. Had she lived, she would have grown out of it, imo. She had moments of real kindness, like doing Misty's makeup, and most of her mean behavior in the wilderness came from being just so terribly unsuited to it and also a bit naive, and a bit...unaware of her appearance to others. I don't think she was aware of the deep fissures in her relationship with Shauna. She was really hearing them for the first time in that argument, and that's partly because SHAUNA never shared them. Jackie saw her as "the sidekick" but she also deeply loved her, and time and again looked out for her and put her safety and well being first. She was also objectively right about the recent behavior of the girls: she must have felt really gaslit, being the only person who both knew about the bacchanal and didn't condone it. On the other hand, Shauna's long-term simmering resentments were fair. And I can't blame her for not saying them aloud before. She's only a kid, too, and that's hard stuff to say, especially in the context of that kind of lifelong attached-at-the-hip girl-friendship. The way that she and Jackie are is something she's known her whole life.
In other words, I think Jackie was right in that moment and about the more specific stuff, though she phrased her opinions badly, or chose a bad time to talk about them (re: Jeff) and Shauna was right or at least had understandable grief with Jackie in the long term, but she also picked a bad time to bring up all of this, like, 17 years' worth of slow-simmer interpersonal issues.
Second: I'm intrigued by the debate over the anachronistic journals. There were people getting big mad about the mistakes on reddit. And yet to hear the creators say so simply, no, they were never intended to be written by Jackie, really made me so much more curious abut them than I'd been either while watching or while reading the reddit debates. When I watched the ep myself, and saw the journal, my first thought was 'Jackie kept a journal? LOL OOC.' and my second was 'oh it's blank, that makes sense' and my third was 'oh it's not blank, okay, cute girl journal whatever.' And then I just took it as Shauna looking at her friend's stuff and feeling her frozen in time. Then when I read about the inaccuracies I just figured it was a prop error whatever.
But if they were not at all intended to be Jackie's...and of course, they're not, they have a lot of late 90s and early 2000s stuff in them... My assumption is it had to be Shauna who wrote them. That Shauna keeps a journal is one of my favorite things about her because I think there is always something mysterious and intriguing about a person's private thoughts written down (I say as someone who does a lot of that lol). We also know that she writes creatively, and that at some point, at least, this writing (both fiction and non-) was a big part of her self-identity. It figures prominently in her fantasies about Brown: she'd date the editor of the literary magazine, he'd fall in love with her over her stories, etc. And finally, we know that Jackie is a part of her, that she's been trying to connect with her, be her, be close to her, consume her since even before the crash.
It does not surprise me at all, then, that she tried to keep Jackie alive after returning home by writing in her voice, taking on the persona of her to create artifacts in her name--artifacts that she doesn't keep with her but deposits like museum items in the bubble-wrapped, well-preserved Teen Girl Room where Jackie used to live. It's not just the grieving parents who treat Shauna as a surrogate-daughter. It's Shauna herself who, at least at one time, inhabits Jackie to keep her alive in at least this one sense: a personality who can create objects reflecting her thoughts and feelings. A process of creation that Shauna does all the time as herself, that is a Shauna-thing, now distorted to match Jackie: her voice, her thoughts, her opinions. Then the artifact remains, 20 years later, as if Jackie had lived longer than she had. It's not evidence of her friend frozen in time, it's evidence of her own grief, and of their once-entwined selves, frozen in time.
#the year 2023#2023: fandom thoughts#2023: yellowjackets#yellowjackets spoilers#for s1 which i know came out a while ago but like big spoilers
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