#and i don't think it was an insult persay

[va-nila-bean]

i was tabling for my art club today and handed a prospective student a flyer and her sister immediately goes (very loudly but in a younger sister kind of way) "why'd you bother taking that, you're terrible at art??"

[lina-lovebug]

I'd Fight The Devil

Alastor x fem! reader

Background: (Y/N) is the elder Morningstar, and wants to fix her relationship with her dad. But her dad hates her boyfriend.

Part 1, Part 2, Part 3 - Finale

Allusions to sex, actual sex, angel being angel, and cannibalism

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Angel spit out his drink, "You're with Alastor?!"

"Yeah, thoughts?"

"And prayers, girl," Angel could never imagine a sweet girl like (Y/N) getting it on with the Radio Demon himself.

But everyone has their kinks, he supposed.

Alastor manifested behind her, and she immediately felt his presence. Pressing herself against him, he leaned into her warmth and kept his arms around her shoulders.

"How was your day, mon amour?"

"It'll be even better," She trailed off, turning around to face him, "when we meet my dad for dinner."

Silence.

And not even radio silence.

"Not to be rash, but I'm sure your father would sooner see my head on a pike than on my body," Alastor adored the fact that she was mending their bond, even more so when Lucifer makes the effort.

But announcing their relationship to him?

He could see it ending in flames.

"I know you two don't get along, but I thought a nice dinner might smooth things over."

"And if he disapproves of us?" He lifted her head upwards with his finger, bemused as to what her answer may be.

"Then he'll have to get used to it," (Y/N) replied, sending a shiver of excitement up his spine.

Only a feeling that the she-devil he was utterly obsessed with could provide.

"Ugh, can you guys go fuck somewhere else?" Angel said, "or at all? I can't imagine going a lifetime without dick."

Alastors eye twitch, "now that's our business, isn't it?"

"Okay, okay," Charlie spoke up, "you guys go get ready."

Charlie couldn't help but notice the change in Alastor. It had only been a few months, but being in her sisters presence alone has made him kind. Sure, the both of them would skin someone alive over an insult, but Alastor would rip out his own eyes if (Y/N) asked.

A perfect match.

(Y/N) dawned a black dress with a pearl necklace that Alastor bought for her. Well, she thinks he bought it but he actually stole it off of a fresh kill.

How sweet.

"Pumpkin! Oh look at you! You're as radiant as ever!" Lucifer fawned over his daughter as they made it to the restaurant, making it a point to ignore the red demon behind her.

"Catching strays?" Lucifer gestured to him.

"Lovely to see you again," Alastor retorted.

"Dad, why don't we go inside? And Alastor will be joining us," now, Lucifer didn't forget what he said. He recognized that the fearsome deer demon had the intention of claiming Princess (Y/N) as his own, but did his daughter return such feelings?

Honestly, Lucifer feared that.

Not it being Alastor persay, but his little girls being hurt.

He knew how awful it felt to go through the divorce with Lilith, and then her disappearance.

He didn't ever want his daughters to feel that way.

"So, Alastor, what do you do again?"

"I have a radio broadcast. Your daughter has actually helped me repair the studio after the attack," He laid his land on hers.

And Lucifer picked up Alastors hand.

And placed it away from hers.

"Uh, dad-"

"Look, if you two are fucking, don't tell me."

"Dad!" Her face burned red, "we aren't-that's not. . .I love Alastor, and he loves me. I want you to accept us both."

"Love? Whoa, whoa, whoa! Pumpkin, I don't think-"

"I'm not a little kid," She interrupted, "I'm a grown woman, and I'm able to make my own decisions. I want to be with Alastor because I love him. You may not think I know what love is, but I know it's what I feel with Alastor."

That's when he saw it.

That look.

Whilst (Y/N) was defending herself, defending their love, Alastor looked at her. Only her. And it was like he was staring at the nebula itself, seeing all its beauty in the Heir of Hell. His smile faltered, closing his mouth, and his eyes softened.

It's the same look that he used to give Lilith.

"If I ever hear that you've made her cry, or even laid a single hand upon her," Lucifer stared him down, "I'll make you disappear."

"A man true to his word. Looks like we have something in common," Alastor agreed, his hand back on hers. She gave him a smile, one that reminded him of Lilith.

The rest of dinner went off without any incidents. The small jab here and there, but no one died, and no one was stabbed. Lucifer learned more about his daughters business and how she lit up talking about it.

"You hardly ate, Alastor. Is something wrong?" (Y/N) asked when her father went to the restroom.

"Oh no, my dear. Just hungry for something else, is all," His eyes raked up her form, earning a cough from the she-devil.

Honestly, she didn't know where he was on his spectrum. She was fine never even being intimate, so long as he was happy, but this spark in his eyes lit a fire within her.

"O-oh. . .are you sure?" Believe it or not, (Y/N) had only had sex twice and both times she'd call it lackluster.

"I don't want you to force yourself if you don't want to," oh how innocent she was. Honestly, Alastor assumed he was aroace before he met the she-devil. Her ferocity - her chaos in fights, her genuine kindness, and her soul - itself brought out that spark.

There are moments where the carnal desire needs to be satisfied.

"Mon cher, I'd never ask if I didn't mean it."

That look, it made her softly gasp.

"Alast-"

"Ew."

Right.

Lucifer.

He showed up from his restroom break and found the pair giving eachother "fuck me" eyes.

"Could I eat my dinner without you groping my child?" Lucifer hissed, despite Alastor only touching her hand.

He blinked, thinking how he's never even groped a woman.

"Maybe."

Sick bastard.

_ _ _ ☆ _ _ _

"Fuck! Alastor!"

(Y/N) had never cum before, so Alastor being her first to ever do so and smiling away at her quivering legs made it so much better.

"Oh fuck. . ." She moaned weakly, his tongue slithering in and out of her to lick up every last drop.

"Al. . ." She was breathless, staring at his strained member. Reaching up to unzip his pants, he tutted as he grabbed her wrist.

"Al?"

"It's about you. Don't worry about me, amour," He purred, kissing the bite marks on her thighs.

"But you-"

Before she could detest further, wishing to satisfy him, the door opened.

"Oh my God, they were right! Alastor, you sly dog," Angel Dust was at the door, and Alastor quickly covered his beloveds' body with the covers before his horns started to grow and his back stretched.

"I'm going to kill you."

"Not before you make love to me, you're not," still in his demonic form, (Y/N) blew a gust of wind to slam the door shut.

Her body displayed on the bed, Alastor agreed.

"And stay in that form. It suits you."

[alistairsmonstercafe]

Hi! Just incase you do requests, could we please have some wraith-ghost x werewolf!reader? I saw the fanart and couldn’t stop thinking about Ghost being absolutely dwarfed by their partner especially in their shift.

(And in case of nsfw, imagine ghost helping his partner through rut and getting absolutely railed by his bf half-shifted. The size difference is going crazy!)

NSFW Guiding A Shadow

NOTICE Male Werewolf TOP/DOM reader

CHARACTER BOTTOM/SUB Wraith Ghost

CW Scent Kink, monster fucking, size kink, werewolf rut, slight blood (just mentions of you scratching him accidentally with claws), mentions of poly relationship with 141 (so no cheating they all bang each other like horny rabbits)

ADDITIONAL I don't mind Fem/Fem aligned readers reading but don't feel insulted/complain that I strictly don't do Fem reader, not my cuppa tea mate.

INSPIRATION @/Bluegiragi Monster AU on Twt and Tumblr

NOTE Sorry for my sudden absence a while ago... Cough.. I think in my little adhd brain I had a fit of hyperfixation and just burnt out as easy as I came.

When you had first arrived in the helicopter, the moment Ghost had caught even a whiff of a tail, he groaned. Another werewolf? Albeit larger. But after Soap was just as recent? He prayed you weren't like him.

Well. Hoped.

He looked at you what could only be assumed from under his balaclava was a scowl. Eyes looking you up and down with a harsh crease in his eyebrows. Furrowed and judging as you walked off the plane.

Training would never be fun with a werewolf, that was for sure with their size, and with you? Many dwarfed in comparison. You were not as bulky as Soap, persay, but damn, you were built. Decently thick legs and a height that towered over many, even Ghost. Fur upon different parts of your body and decently groomed might one say.

And after hitting it off with Soap (as he wished wasn't expected,) he was yet then assigned with the task of watching over you. The likes of you, of which, while quiet, seemed to be influenced by Soap that he, Ghost, was not as scary as he turned to be. No matter how many growls or warnings of what he could do to you, you never seemed to be phased. And just as Soap had wiggled into Ghost's heart, who said it could only hold one?

You had seemed to wedge your way into that dark depth he called a heart. (As how he always described it, but nobody ever believed him.) And he seemed to accept you more. React less to your energy and simply nod. The best you could ever get you supposed. But who could complain? Not you, thats for sure.

The real kicker had been training day. It was you, Gaz, Ghost, Soap, and Price gearing up for what was meant to be a casual spar. Soap seemed ecstatic at a new man who could keep up to his size, and even challenge him. Price and Gaz could only agree to see how this would play out.

But Ghost? His eyes never left you. Narrowed and watching. What would your werewolf form look like? Were you smaller, or bigger then Johnny? Did you go just as wild as Johnny did on a full moon, more or less?

There were many unexplained questions, many both answered and many forgotten in a series of minutes as he saw your form.

That shouldn't have explained the sudden tent in his pants when he saw your wolf ish form panting over Johnny's, teeth playfully bared and a paw like hand keeping Johnny firmly planted into the floor as he surrendered.

That shouldn't have explained the sudden burning arousal in his core.

That shouldn't-

But it did.

And all Ghost could do was excuse himself for the restroom. Undoing his belt with whisps of smoke practically fighting to not let lose on his forearms. Muttered curses of mild frustration as he groaned and let out his cock, freeing it from his boxers as he bit his glove hard and stroked it. He couldn't let anyone know how much this affected him.

His mind foggy and desperate in both a want of release and mild curiosity, Ghost wondered how you'd feel. Hell, he was aware he'd only been interested a few times in his life, few one night stands, few casualties here in there in the squad.. But there was something about giving the control to someone who didn't always have a human form for the night made him curious.

Apparently curious enough to cum on his hand, breathing heavily as he was pulled from his high with a knock on the bathroom door.

"Hurry it up Lt, lads eh waitin' for ye." Soap grumbled, the sound of him walking in and turning on the tap was quiet.

"Out in a minute." Ghost could only reply, pulling up his boxers and zipping up his pants. He wiped down everything and pushed the stall door open to see Soap leaning against the sink with a raised brow, looking a little bruised.

"Look a little bruised there, Johnny."

Soap scoffs and shrugs.

"Tha' lad did aye number on me. Accidently broke the lads phone, but for a wolf of tha' size, I'd guess his family wasn't small either."

Size. Back to the size, practically forgetting about the fact your phone broke and Ghost was reminded when his mind briefly drifted back to your size, large and imposing an-

"Ghost to earth. Ye there or did ye ascend to high heaven to meet the queen?"

"I'm here, I'm here. Just had a thought."

"About a certain little wolf?"

"Shut your trap." Ghost had looked away as he was snapped from his thoughts once more, brushing past Soap as he reached for the door.

"You can do that a later day." Soap hummed. Watching Ghost leave with a cheeky grin.

Later that day, in the mess hall you were seen chatting idly with the squad, complaining on the cafeterias shitty meat options as everyone could only ever agree.

"I'm tellin' you guys, how can you even eat this shit? Tastes worse then a dog's ass." You groan, poking at the slice of supposed ham.

"An' how do you know what a dog's ass tastes like mate?" Gaz teases quietly, before getting a firm smack on the head by Soap.

"Look at us mate. We ain' exactly the people you wanna ask when knowing that of all things."

Gaz shrugs and gives a laugh. But you seem to pay no mind to their conversation, your eyes scanning around for Ghost. It had been a while since he was supposed to meet with the rest of you for dinner.

"I think I'm full, I'm gonna go look for Ghost, alright?" You mention quietly, and the rest nod, but Price seems to have an idea and shrugs, looking to the side.

Walking through the halls you pass by a calander, January 24. January 24? Why did that seem so familiar? It wasn't a birthday or a meeting, so you shrugged it off. A broken phone wouldn't serve you any good either. And you didn't feel too off aside from a few aches from today's spar.

But when you knocked on Ghost's door, a scent hit your nose like a truck. And a few soft groans was enough to let you know what was happening.

"Ghost?" You called out quietly, unsure to knock again.

"Can I come in?" You ask, even while fully aware of what's happening, leaving your tail wagging and your mouth almost salvating, you hold respect as you grip the door knob.

But when a strained voice of "come in", is spoken, you almost quickly push open the door. Seeing as Ghost lays on his back, two fingers stuffed into his hole as he looks up at you with a dazed expression.

"Interested in helpin' your superior out?" He groans, head falling back a little as his fingers press near a spot inside him.

And you can easily feel the strings of your restraint tear, the scent of him so aroused, so wet, so perfectly presented for you makes your instincts practical drool. A perfect position for a mate, and a perfect way to start the spring season.

You quickly find yourself on top of him, face buried in his neck as you lap at the scent, tongue licking where it can while your hand finds its way to his mouth. Shoving it in whilst he gives a muffled whine on them. But you know it's hard to restrict yourself in the confindes of a more human then wolf body. And it's almost like a silent plead to be allowed to switch as you look up at Ghost and whine, rutting your cock against his thigh.

"Fuckin' hell.. You have my permission. Go wild." Ghost whispers as he tugs you in close by the collar. And that enough is able to grow you around 4x in size. Clothes easily removes and teared off as your cock lays heavy against his thigh, as you continue to rut, and your fingers have long replaced his in his hole as you pump in and out, stretching him on your thick fingers as your long tongue finds its way up and down his body.

"F-fuck that tongue..!" Ghost moans out, back arching into your touch as the thickness of your fingers, your tongue, and heavy cock all feel like so much on him, and he loves it. Craves it even. And it's when you remove your fingers, in that brief moment he knows he's going to not be able to move for quite a bit after that.

And the stretch is even better. The thickness of your cock at the tip pushes in and burns delightfully, filling him up as you drag it down until it reaches near the base. But not entirely to leave room for the knot soon later. A slow paced easily turned into Jackhammering as you snapped your hips quickly into place after bottoming out in him, your claws digging into his thighs and hips causing mild drips of blood that Ghost couldn't care more about and flipping him over onto his stomach to reach deeper positions, and seeing a small tummy buldge hidden beneath as you place your free hand under it, making his whispy shadows go rampant on his body, his shadows shakily wrapping around the fluff of your neck to pull you in, mumbling praises. "G-good fuckin' boy- Oh fuck! So-.. So good fuckin' your lieutenant like a good pup-!"

It makes your tail wag faster and your mind run rampant on breeding the man below you, as you feel your knot built up.

All the sensations make Ghost jolt, moan, squirm, and whine. But the size and stretch is so worth it, and he wouldn't have werewolf cock any other way.

[bringinubackto2014]

Soooo I'm back guys ik ik u missed me

Yeah so since summer just started my SAD has been acting up and its been hard 4 me to find motivation blah blah blah u guys down fucking care and I don't blame you. Soooooo I'm gonna do some Yandere SFW alphabets, request either creepypasta's/COD members/Horror Villians. For now here's a Jeff The Killer one

A = Affection! (How affectionate are they towards the person they’re a Yandere for? or What are some affectionate actions they do?)

-If he just had kidnapped you then not at fukcing all. You'd be lucky if he spat on you, but after a few years maybe he'd start getting affectionate

B = Baggage! (Do they have any trauma that makes them act as a yandere? or How will they handle the other person they love’s trauma?)

-This is Jeff we're talking about unless you want to be insulted (wouldn't blame ya) by this burnt boy then don't tell him shit about your trauma cuz he don't give no fucks.

C = Careful! (How careful are they not to get caught by person they’re a Yandere for?)

-As a person Jeff doesn't care about anything so certainly not this. Plus I think he'd want to let you know that you were his and ONLY his. He'd love scaring the crap outta you so he wouldn't bother to be careful.

D = Dreams! (What’s their dream life with the person they’re a Yandere for?)

-To live out in the woods with just the two of you, you'd finally be happy and love him back.

E = Embarrassment! (Do they ever get embarrassed by the person they’re a Yandere for? or Do they get embarrassed by their yandere actions?)

-As I said prior he doesn't care, you could be smearing shit all over the walls and he'd laugh at you, and if anything he's proud that he's able to scare you shitless and claim you as his.

F = Found! (What happens if the person they’re a Yandere for finds out they’re a yandere? or What if someone who isn’t the person they’re a Yandere for caught them?)

-If someone caught him being a obsessive possessive wierdo as they'd say, he'd simply just kill them. The second Jeff wanted you he'd let you know, if anything your rejection made him spiral into his insanity even more.

G = Grieving! (What happens if the person they’re a Yandere for dies? or What if the person they’re a Yandere for has someone close to them die, how will they comfort them?)

-He wouldn't comfort you, if fact he probably killed the person himself. Buttt if he didn't, he'd probably just let you cry next to him without insulting you, how sweet. If you were to die he'd either not give a shit and move on, or kill everyone then himself.

H = Happiness! (How happy are they usually? or How happy if the person they’re a Yandere for tells them they love them?)

-He's not happy persay if you were to tell him you loved him, he expects it so its like when you do the dishes for your parents yk.

I = Intelligence! (How smart are they? or How crafty are they around the person they’re a Yandere for?)

-He's average I'd say, before he went insane maybe he was a bit smart but I doubt he was Einstien level. He's crafty though.

J = Jail! (Would any of their actions cause them to go to jail? or Have they ever done something illegal?)

-No shit.

K = Kindheartedness! (How kind are they towards the person they’re a Yandere for? or How kind are they in general?)

-C'mon..This is Jeff. He's the rudest mofo alive.

L = Love! (How much love do they have for the person they’re a Yandere for? or How do they express their love?)

-He can't tell whether or not it's love or just obsession. Or both, but he knows it's a lot. He kills people for you, and make sure that you're safe (from other people) and maybe happy if you're good.

M = Mean! (How mean are they willing to be towards others who express fondness/love towards the person they’re a Yandere for?)

-He's an asshole, but he's even more of an asshole to you sometimes.

N = No’s! (What are some lines they refuse to cross? or Is there anything the person they’re a Yandere for does/will do that they don’t/won’t like?)

-Bringing out soft Jeff for a moment but he loves (or obsessed) over you too much to ever do something in a sexual way that you aren't comfy with.

O = Obstacles! (What are some people standing in their way? or What are some challenges they have to face? or Is there anything standing in their way?)

-He doesn't really face any, other than the obvious like the cops and your family. But once he killed them off there isn't anything to worry about. Maybe Ticci Toby, if you and Jeff lived in the mansion Ben would most likely feel bad for you and maybe offer help?

P = Presents! (Do they give gifts to the person they’re a Yandere for? or How relaxed if the person they’re a Yandere for receives gifts from someone who isn’t them?)

-If you received a gift from anyone he'd kill them, right then and there. He'd give you gifts, like the head of someone that you disliked.

Q = Quarrels! (What happens in a fight with the person they’re a Yandere for? or How argumentative are they?)

-He doesn't argue he just says shit. If you even dared to argue back he'd lock you up in the basement for days. And if you argue too much, say bye bye to that tongue of yours.

R = Raising! (Are they open to raising a pet or plant with the person they’re a Yandere for? or Are they open to starting a family with the person they’re a Yandere for?)

-He wouldn't want a family, if you begged and begged and begged, he'd get you a plant or a pet. But if they take too much of your time don't expect those things to be around for long.

S = Safety! (Do they prioritize the person they’re a Yandere for’s safety? or Is safety a concern they have in general?)

-If the entire world had beef with you and wanted you hurt, Jeff would burn them. He keeps you extremely safe, the only one allowed to hurt you is him.

T = Transform! (Are they likely to stop becoming a Yandere? or How did they end up a Yandere? or Is there any habits they’d fix if it means the person they’re a Yandere for loves them?)

-He'd never stop being a Yandere. It's just apart of him now. He most likely just wanted someone to love and obsess over and he found you. If you asked very nicely then he wouldn't insult you, as much.

U = Unfaithful! (Are they loyal to only the person they’re a Yandere for? or Is there anyone else they love? or Would they ever become a Yandere for someone else who isn’t the person they’re a Yandere for currently? or Are they a Yandere for more than one person?)

-He hates anyone else but you, other than his friends n shit. But he would or could never love someone else but you.

W = Weakness! (Do they have any weaknesses? or How weak are they towards the person they’re a Yandere for?)

-Over time he grows more vulnerable with you, unless you guys are 85 years old and in rocking chairs he wouldn't be FULLY vulnerable.

X = X-ray! (What are some things in they keep in their pockets?)

-Knives, obviously. Lotion, he heard you complaining about his dry ass skin and he got insecure. Gum, same thing his breath stunk hella. A picture of you, duh.

Y = Yes’s! (What are some things the person they’re a Yandere for does that makes them happy? or How far are they willing to go for the person they’re a Yandere for?)

-He'd do anything for you, other than let you go or let you see your family/friends. If you were to love him back he'd be the happiest man on Earth. That's all he wants really.

Z = Zzz…! (How well do they sleep at night? or How do they comfort the person they’re a Yandere for’s nightmares?)

-Like a damn baby. He'd get pissed at you for waking him up, but he'd let you hug him till you fall back asleep, what a sweetheart.

[schizochroal]

Ok I've seen this post a few times, and while I'm not really mad at the people who reblogged this, I feel like there are a lot of little things here that are either mistaken or misrepresenting this situation.

First of all, like f1nn5ter isn't something separate from drag, what he is doing is drag, and whether or not he sees himself as being one I don't think it is in any way wrong to describe him as a drag queen. He is someone who identifies as a man, dressing and presenting as a woman , in a specific exaggerated, style of femininity, for the purpose of entertainment and performance.

Drag is not innately parodic, while some drag performances are a parody of womanhood, and indeed perhaps that's the more commercialized image of drag, the narrow view of drag that you might get based of seeing a drag queen at pride once or watching Drag Race is only a small segment of the broad scope that drag has encompassed both historically and today. There are plenty of drag queens both historically and in the present who have presented femininity in largely the same way that F1NN5TER does.

The next point of contention I'd have is the presumption that what F1NN5TER is doing isn't an exaggerated, or parodic depiction of femininity. Because I think both myself and probably a lot of other transfems would agree, that he is actually doing an "exaggerated or parodic" depiction of womanhood/femininity, it's just not cis femininity . A lot of the language he uses with regards to his presentation ("girlmode", for example) the fashion that he wears, the jokes he makes, even the style of makeup draw upon a specific corpus of behaviors, language, stereotypes, and styles that have been present in the collective internet culture both involving and relating to the media depiction of trans women (and other transfems). While they aren't perhaps, as say cartoonishly exaggerated as someone on RPDR for those of us that are familiar with these cultural signifiers it's very obvious what is being alluded to.

Now none of this is to say that this is bad, persay, there is nothing wrong with being a drag queen, and compared to some other famous drag queens F1NN5TER hasn't ever actually been openly transphobic, which makes his riffing upon the style of transfems much more tolerable than it otherwise might be. As far as I'm concerned what he is doing is actually a somewhat sociologically interesting evolution of drag as an art form, of which he is far from the only one doing it, but probably one of the standard bearers of this newer style of drag.

Now that being said, I think the rest of this post misses the mark in part because of that misunderstanding, and in part because I think it doesn't understand where the conversation about this is even coming from. What F1NN5TER is doing is not new, it's just drag done in a somewhat newer way and designed to appeal to a different audience . If a conservative feels "threatened" by him, they would probably feel threatened by any other drag queen, and probably wouldn't have anything nice to say about an actual trans woman. But by and large I haven't seen anything like that, mostly I've seen people either talking about how "groundbreaking and amazing " F1NN5TER is for like being a drag queen "that isn't flamboyant" (which idk feels a little bit insulting to drag as art form?) and people claiming that he is somehow more challenging if societal norms than actual trans people, and then trans people being uncomfortable with and arguing against that claim (which is obviously false, the dude is making bank off of this, meanwhile trans women are getting murdered in the streets)

I have also seen transfems specifically express discomfort with the ways F1NN5TER pretty obviously alluding to and using transfem culture/language in his presentation while at the same time treating his feminine presentation as a joke , which indirectly could be taken as him treating transfem culture as a joke while also profiting off of it. I don't fully agree with that, I'm not that averse to what seems like mostly goodhearted parody, but I do wish he was a bit more honest about what he was doing so non-transfems would stop treating us like we were delusional for seeing what he is doing.

i think f1nn5ter makes a lot of people more uncomfortable than drag does because they cant dismiss what he does as ironic and therefore nonthreatening. it isnt a parody of femininity, its legitimately looking like a woman while being fully a man and it scares people.

he represents all the fears cis people have of not being able to tell if somebody is trans, and hes living proof that humans are not nearly as dimorphic as they like to think.

[gentil-minou]

Dang, I didn't realize you stopped writing ML analysis because some dweebs were raining on your parade and making fun of it. You wrote some of the best stuff looking at ML and I'm sorry jerks ruined that for you. Both you and this fandom have been robbed of something great because some people just can't let other enjoy things.

i mean there are a lot of reasons, both personal and fandom related. My work is very demanding, I had some traumatic shit that happened a few months ago I'm still processing, and my interests in fandoms go up and down over time, like right now it's pretty clear to see i'm more active in other fandoms besides ML.

But honestly the awful way the fans have been acting towards this season, not just in the way they rain on everyone's parade but also the way the bible and leaks have spread so far and wide. While that isn't the fandom's fault persay it's still awful. the fun of theorizing is gone when a bunch of people know what's going to happen, so naturally i just kinda stopped (then all the broadcasting bs that always bothers me ugh)

But I think the one thing this fandom hasn't seemed to realize is that it takes a lot of effort to write about this show, especially if you're an adult or a student who has other things going on. It's easy to leave a comment that hates on the analyses they write, and it's also easy for it to feel like a personal attack.

Think of it this way, so many people relate to Adrien and Mari, in so many ways. They can see themselves in them, even their faults and mistakes mean something. It feels incredibly validating for someone to be able to see that.

Take my Adrien has depression posts for example. Because I've had depression since I was younger than him and did a lot of the same masking behaviors he does, it meant so much to me. Here was a character who seemed to be going through what I was at the time and still struggle with today. It was so wonderful to see on screen because it felt like I was finally being seen. Or another example would be Mari's anxiety and ADHD which I also relate to so much, especially when it causes her to make some mistakes or handle things in the wrong way. It's classing anxiety-avoidance cycles, and seeing it on screen made me feel like I wasn't so alone. And I am sure so many other people felt the same way

And then there are people who go and say awful things about these characters on a post where you express those feelings. How Adrien is being a whiney baby or whatever bs they say, how his actions are a sign of him being selfish instead of all of the trauma and neglect he's experienced. Or how Mari's complex thinking patterns and behavior are relegated down to her being a stalker or a mary sue or what have you, once again completely ignoring the core complexity of her character as just a normal girl who was forced essentially to be a superhero. The pressures of which would be tremendous on anyone let alone someone with clear ND traits and traumatic experiences.

And people insult those fictional characters, so quickly and easily, without realizing the very real damage they are doing to the very real people who see themselves in them. I've talked so much about why I love sentiadrien because i can see some of my struggles in that storyline, and then to have people say that no it doesn't matter because my experiences aren't as important? that it's invalid because there's only one right way to experience trauma? that im wrong for finding solace in it? it's awful, and it puts me down.

i shouldnt be feeling invalidated when im watching my comfort show, i shouldn't spend days writing very careful posts only to get them shat on by insensitive comments. as much as i want to ignore them and focus on the good i do and the fun i get from it, it still feels like a stab through the chest every time.

and then there are the people who say i'm an awful therapist because they don't agree with my analyses. that's the worst, and while i won't go into details about why this particular statement brings me so much pain, i just need folks to understand that it's genuinely one of the worst insults i've ever had. and if everytime i write something i have second guess myself, and then second guess if i even have the skill and talent for the field i'm in, it just becomes a horrible spiral. people make these comments like they're the easiest thing in the world to say and it just boggles my mind, because although they may have forgotten their stupid little tag i certainly haven't. i hold them deep in that dark part of my brain where the whispers are loudest and hardest to control.

ultimately, the last few months i wanted to remind myself why i like this show and this website in the first place, and that i'm doing it for me. life is hard enough, if i can't have fun in the one place i can control then what's the point? so i will control my own experiences within this fandom, even if other's want to rain on it

[elazrielbook]

AZRIEL LOSING HIS SHADOWS? // GWYN IS A LIGHTSINGER?

heres a theory that links both of these questions!!

firstly, i don't know why you all assume azriel loves his shadows or that they're anpart of him. he got them during a period of suffering...he might not actually like that he's followed by shadows 24/7.

im not saying he doesn't like the shadows, but since he's never clarified, and they could very well remind him of that awful time in his life, we shouldn't assume thata he does like them, or sees them as a good thing.

theres also evidence that his shadows leave when he's in a good mood but come out when danger is near or he's in a bad mood.

these are only a couple examples^^ . they also came out when nesta insulted elain, and when she was taken by hybern etc, but seem to leave in the presence of people he loves, which is indication that its not a good thing for them to come out.

now, they also came out and 'danced' near gwyn...

gwyn fans assumed this was a good thing, but if the shadows are shown to come out near danger(or azriels own unhappiness) then its not necessarily good that his shadow danced with her beath for no reason.

it may have actually sensed danger in her (which would support the 'gwyn is a lightsinger' theory).

im not going to go into detail about the lightsinger theory, if you look it up you'll see the clues

however, gwyn to me seemed like a nice person and she's got a genuine backstory and personality that i don't think she'll turn out to be 'evil' persay...she also spent so much time in the dark that in my opinion i think gwyn is a lightsinger but doesn't know it.

ie she poses no actual danger to our characters because shes one of the good guys in the book, but i think azriels shadows simply sensed her powers anyway and thats why they danced with her breath and also why we got those singing references.

i definitely think her singing has something to do with her power coming out, its inside her rather than a seperate part of her, like az's shadows.

now, onto azriel possibly losing his shadows

hosab spoilers below

i honestly don't even know how mych im on board with this theory, im just analysing clues!!

now, when bryce accidentally ends up in prythian, the first person she interacted with is azriel. and she mentioned his wings, armour, beauty, and scarred hands...but not his shadows.

i know some of you with think this is very minor but come on, those shadows are the first thing people would notice...not to mention as i said, the shadows come out in dangerous situations...

bryce is literally a threat FROM A DIFFERENT WORLD...and theres not a shadow in sight???? that seems very strange to me.

also i personally think that hosab ( specifically the scene when bryce is in prythian) is set AFTER the next acotar story, or at the end of it. so it makes sense that during the next book he somehow loses/or willingly gets rid of the shadows and thats why bryce doesn't mention them.

him losing his shadows won't have anything to do with elain or gwyn, i think it will be a part of his own personal journey. nothing to do with ships.

now ive heard the argument that bryces power is light and thats why she didnt see the shadows...but feyre also has light powers, as does the high lord of day or dawn(can't remember which)...and they noticed the shadows...and if gwyns a lightsinger she definitely saw his shadows too...so if they were there, i think bryce would have seen them.

at the least sjm would have mentioned them in passing, but she didn't mention them at all which is strange because most if not all azriel scenes mention his shadows.

i think the theory that he loses them is more plausible than yall think...because when you think about it, he doesn't even need the shadows for his job since alot of his information comes from spys...he's not just the shadowsinger, remember he's a spymaster too!!

anyways, if you have anything to add, drop it below!! i love discussing🤠

[snowflake-of-destruction]

Not really sure if unpopular, just want your opinion: Joe/Cherry eventually gets to the point where they don't like calling each other names, but still do it in public to keep up appearances.

strongly agree | agree | neutral | disagree | strongly disagree

I almost put neutral even though that doesn’t actually encapsulate my opinion, because I agree and disagree on different points. I don’t think they’d ever dislike calling each other names persay because it’s gotten to be a language of affection where the more common “derogatory” nicknames are terms of endearment, and they look forward to seeing how the other one is going to get more creative/top the last ridiculous insult--but I also don’t think they would play bicker to the same extent when alone  AND they definitely play up the rivalry when in their S personas and would for all time.

So, yes, agree, they do it to keep up appearances, but they enjoy hamming it up 

[redxriiot]

Spotted this again, and while it’s disproved by the official hair color for Touya, I just kjshfberf-

Some thinkings below. I just need to verify if what I’m about to hurt Todoroki and Kirishima ( but mostly Todorokis, plural ) with in a drabble I’m doing is plausible enough

Keep reading

[ifridiot]

idk if this is common enough to be a trope but it's still my favorite the i have a crush on you and speak a language you don't speak so i angrily compliment you a lot and you think im insulting you

AHHAHA i never thought of this as a trope, persay, but it is DEFINITELY something i get behind 1000%. I’ve read a lot of headcanons, more than fics, involving this concept, and it never fails to tickle me.

I may actually have written this in a story about my OC, Ulf Alexsinovitch (a Russian super soldier and mutant) and the CD character Thad Thawne. 

I DEFINITELY thought about it a lot with some original content characters I haven’t fully developed a story for. Because Kulang always sounds angry and he 100% snarls a lot of Russian at his eventual bf, Thadeus.

[shining-m00nlight]

Most parts of this post were aiming at everyone, that's why I said everyone.

And I didn't say anything about the Cat fans "approving her abuse of Jon" because my point was that I will not discuss whether or not Cat was right or wrong or which part was right and which part was wrong because this was, again, not supposed to be about that. And if I now comment directly on the discussion that I didn't want to happen (I know I can't control it) under my post, I would be participating in that. And I don't want to do that. I also didn't comment on which parts I agree or disagree with Jon fans either. Because I don't want to be part of this discussion right now.

I mostly wanted to comment on the way we treat eachother and that this post went not the intended way.

And you said it yourself non of you said she should be a mother to Jon so again my post wasn't directed at you then. (That's why I mentioned this part in the other part, so yeah this was about Jon fans cause it was coming from Jon fans)

The scroll on part might seem to be more aimed at Jon fans but even Cat fans can disagree with my posts and this advice can/should be replied to the other way around. If a Cat fans sees a Og post of a Jon fan, they disagree with, they can scroll on. (I also try to apply this advice) But why this might seem more targeted at Jon fans here, it is because of the likelihood that Jon fans don't like a post vs. the likelihood of a Cat fan not liking my post.

And the last part, is not at Jon fans persay but at the hypocritical ones that are contradicting themselves. In saying things about decency, they seem to not apply to their treatment of others. It was not because they are Jon fans or because their mean words are more hurtfull then a Cat fan insulting someone but because of the hypocrisy I saw. (And to everyone that thinks right now: "My post and action weren't hypocritical", then I was not talking about you.)

I also said could scroll by. I was basically requesting it nicely, I did/do not expect it. Otherwise I would have not written "I know you are allowed to repost and give you opinon"

Also yes I tagged Jon because I mentioned him in that post. I tag the characters that appear in my post, in said posts. And I am again not surprised and neither expecting anyone to do anything. I am kindly requesting (in the case of dislike of my post). And important I am not upset at people for commenting. I dislike that this has become a discussion, that is not what the post was about. But mostly I dislike the tone. So I was requesting everybody to be kind. And when I say everybody I mean everybody.

Saying Cat should just "get over herself, love Jon and be a mother to him" is denying her the only thing that was hers in the situation and that was in her control (as much as feelings are in your own control).

She didn't create the situation, she wasn't giving a say on whether Jon lives in her home or not, she didn't even get to ask questions about him/his mother etc.

The only thing that was her own, were her feelings, her thoughts and actions. And saying she needs to complete adjust them, to better a situation she was not responsible for and for the comfort of men (especially Ned), when she had no control over anything else, feels wrong. It's also putting the responsibility of fixing the situation on Cat instead of Ned.