#and i don't really know the road nor have a driving license but we sure are going somewhere

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I have a ton of crap I need to do in order to graduate, so unfortunately I have very little time to write, but I'm determined to at least finish sprucing up chapter 4 Bloody my nose, tell me I'm sweet this week. Here's a little something something from that process

“What if there was someone who needed help? Someone I could help. But there’s also a chance that trying to help would make things worse.”

Barbara laced her fingers under her chin and gave him her full attention. “Worse how?”

Jason stayed quiet. He bit his cheek.

“Paint a target on his back. Pull him in. You know to what.”

Barbara sighed.

“I suppose you want me to tell you not to do it. Or that it’ll all turn out okay.”

He winced.

“Or maybe you’re just looking for an excuse to pull away. You were always that way, even back then,” she added sadly.

Jason felt his fingers tighten unwittingly into a fist over the white tablecloth.

“You’d hold on with one hand and push away with the other.” Barbara continued without wavering. “I don’t think you ever really believed we were here to stay. That anyone was. And I’m sorry about that. I am.”

She pushed her hand halfway across the table, but didn’t let it connect with his. She was giving him the choice to pull back. When he didn’t, she laid her fingers over his fist, covering it protectively.

“I think you’re thinking about the wrong question here. You can’t control the outcome of your choices, not really. All you can do is make the choice you can live with.”

Jason eventually ground out wearily, "That’s not very altruistic of you, Princess, " once his breathing was steady and no longer stuck in his throat.

Barbara smiled, something bitter at the edges of it.

“I haven’t been an altruist for a long time.”

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I found this article the FBI popped up on my phone. So i read it, intending to be insulted. Not wanting to post because these types of articles can twist the way we label people so we do it incorrectly

However you can read it and see how a normal person expresses their anger. There's millions of ways. Brian becomes possessive and tells me in a really mad way. Marc Antony (Blue) tells other people Then like shields me So I'm like all comfortable and treated like a baby... In a way... Where as Brian is all its your responsibility to know and understand... Like hes gonna kill people if i make a mistake... Which for me -- they're both the same. But used to Brian would confuse me... But like not in a way i was all the time bothered by it. Like if i was gonna get my period or something and sensitive to words i would be all why you talking to me like that? And i would be all cry baby and he would be all conforming to keeping me comfortable snd sane and telling me he loves me and catering to my emotional well being. Which is what Marc Antony always did... I never got the harsh violent atmosphere possessiveness from him... But Brian does it like hes creating a safe bubble for me... Like Marc Antony (Blue Paul) would before he was murdered in 1991... Brian makes the bubble way fucking closer.

Like I got a 5 foot space and not 15 miles like Marc.

Which is comfortable in itself when you're some one like me.

At first I thought about Agent Orange...

But then I realized it was more about Alex Laughlin. And I felt relieved after reading this. Like yeah it is understood and I'm not like him and I'm not crazy. And he is mean... Of course I wonder why is he so angry? But I think I explained it already yesterday.

And then I feel like I should confess something... To help you all feel relieved... Aside the fact I'm not like the above...

Like I said maybe I shouldn't stop the release of 94 diseases... I wouldn't

But the point is I have tried and i can't do more than I already am. And y'all aint doing shit and that is the fucking fact.

So i make empty threats for yall that have anxiety or just always feel the world crashing in on you or you have depression. I want you to know i do say shit when I'm mad and I don't necessarily mean all the actions i say i can do.

Its the point i can and many need to open their eyes to what i am doing and that i do care and Yall just dont know what i have done Because I don't see the need to brag about it.

But I am oftentimes told I am unfair when I am angry. All I see is unfairness and wrongs and so sometimes I call out every hospital in the world and tell them They're pieces of shit.

And what I mean is. Those photos of them with masks leaving painful marks on their faces is unnecessary and if they listened to my over and over again then they wouldn't feel that pain. At the same time I know the evil in the world and I know the world is under attack and I know they're scared. So if I tell them to remove one evil or potential evil from their lives in a loud dramatic way one time... Then leave the N95 masks to the ER. Duh. They need them. We don't know what is gonns blaze through those doors next.

Sometimes my threats are real. A lot of times. But because im a POW... It is other people whom who have to fulfill them... So in a way they are empty because someone has to get in that threat and force it to be true.

But no one is gonna allow 94 diseases to just go blown out into the world. Unless it has been catered and altered to be safer and have a point behind its deadly threat.

All threats must have a point so yoh can think and evaluate not judge. But think about them and as to why.

77% of alien life were pissed. After i explained the point of the Thedadorian only 7% were still angry. Mostly because the other 70% thought it was jsut for humans. Which it is not. As yall been educated for since December Aliens need to get the fuck off the planet... Those prohibiting will get it.

Now those aliens that are just like thinking about humanity and not understanding fully they're aliens... But also the same time when they get the Thedadorian they have full blown COVID symptoms.

Which adds up to "im fucking serious get the fuck off" and which means they should just give up already... It makes it easier to.

The point I want the survivors that are human to see of my confession especially you babes that take everything hard like I do, the more idle threats or empty threats I make the less they're to be believed. Each one means less.

So Y'all I know. "But one day shes gonna have a big one so no point to put down our guard because she for real is just gonna make every thing bad for everyone"

I know. But you have to get out that good vs bad. Pro vs con sheet you should write out and put on your fridge.

So when you get scared or so overwhelmed you don't understand anything anymore you can look at it.

I stopped tornadoes... As I know for now... There are still minor tornadoes or "dirt devils" because some od the huge windmills for electricity can not lock. They have to be manually tied down which is dangerous or taken down. It is just like a pinwheel you put in your yard if there is a breeze they turn on their own.

So what it means is high dangerous winds like in New Mexico will occur. Im used to them after 14 years of our windmills... But Y'all others may not be.

Remember to use two hands when you drive on your steering wheel so if you get into an open cross wind area then you won't be blown off the road or into another lane or car. Bridges are most dangerous now in Mississippi and Louisiana for this to occur. Two strong steady hands on the wheel that's all babes. Keep it in your lane.

Having your hands prepared to steady your car will prevent over correcting. Which is the major cause of accidents.

My insurance companies will not raise rates during this economical time Allstate and American. Even if you wreck. Nor after the Quarentine is over. They're just overlooked altogether.

Now in areas that are expected to have high dangerous winds suddenly are having "socks" installed

They're often seen at airports.

Its a cone shaped or think Triangle. Or even a fabric traffic cone -- they're all Orange or an orange yellow. And they're on high flagpoles

If they lay limp no wind. If they're flying -- totally "standing" erect.

Its dangerous, there are high winds. The smaller and of the sock tells you which direction

So if the small end is on the right side of the flag pole -- be ready -- the wind will hit you hard on the left side of your car.

Two hands on the wheel. Watch yourself and drivers in front of you. You may not even feel it. But sometimes it will literally push your car. Just keep going if you don't crash. Eyes on the road. Hands at ten and two (look at an analog face clock) and just be strong. You'll be fine and you're as safe as possible

Its new to you but Arizona has had them since the 1970s and I drove in them at 17 years old as a new driver with less than a 2 months old license. So if I can, you can.

And locally we don't have orange socks... We just literally get pushed. Windy days it's just two hands on the wheel... I look ahead and if 3 out of 5 cars are doing a wiggle... I know make I sure i got two hands on the wheel because they got a cross wind and im gonna get it too.

Every day im challanged by tree and others to work and think

So I'll do it to Yall too

Because its healthy

Remove the crap. Go stand by the window and get some sunlight and burn that craps sway and find truth and find a way to accept it.

We're not here to judge tornadoes and cross winds. We have to find truth and accept it

It went on for weeks. Scientists and meteorologists and Power companies. Nothing. Deaf. Blind. And dumb.

It took me. So don't fucking judge me.

Judge someone responsible. Like scientists. Meteorologists and Power companies. All thinking they are innocent. Sitting back and watching MASS DESTRUCTION. And nothing

Fucking simple. Turn off the fucking fans.

I was angry. I am angry.

People got hurt. Lives destroyed.

Some it worked out best for.

However... Their homes and cars.

The fear... Its sad.